#i don't like these feelings

[chxckandmxte]

I was gonna be on here tonight But I'm suddenly having insecure thoughts about my Leon again and I hate feeling like this. Probably gonna hop my DMC blog Maybe I'll be back here tonight, if not, possibly tomorrow. Have a great evening folks.

#Hᴇʏ ᴡʜᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴇʟʟ?-- ( OOC) #Gᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴛɪʀᴇᴅ ᴏғ ᴛʜɪs sʜɪᴛ (Tᴏ Bᴇ Dᴇʟᴇᴛᴇᴅ) #You'd think after writing this muse for years now #That I wouldn't have these thoughts still #But they still reappear time to time #Idk man I'm just doubting my Leon again #I don't like these feelings #tw: negative #cw: negative

[deathdecayaggression]

OMORI Normal Route Spoiler

So I finally got to play Omori and I have thoughts. Lots. I've been meaning to play it for ages and since its now on the switch i’ve gotten a chance. Somehow I’v managed to not be spoiled and I went in basically blind (I knew it was a horror game but that was it). I finished the normal route and got all the endings for that and I'm so confused.

I played assuming Sunny and Basil had seen something traumatising revolving around Mari’s death. I guess I wasn’t technically wrong and I played hoping Sunny would heal from the trauma and help Basil to as well. I thought the whole game was going to be about saving Basil and healing. Then I got to all the photos of Basil's memory.

I haven't played the horror endings yet so maybe there is information I'm missing. But it looks like Sunny pushed Mari down the stairs? And then he and Basil worked together to take her to the tree? And maybe she was still alive? But what I can't figure out is: did Sunny mean to kill her or was it an accident? Why did they try to cover it up if it was an accident?

I got the good ending and it didn't feel good. I feel like I've played this character who's used and abused his friends. And now all I want is for Basil to be safe and happy. But I don't know what I want for Sunny. There’s so much time that’s passed between the Mari’s death and seeing Basil again. 

I know they're both kids, but some of Sunny’s memories in the library make me think maybe he was pretty emotionless and not interested in his friends and sister. 

Did Mari break his violin? Or did Sunny? Do we find out Sunny's motive?

Maybe I’ve just gotten so invested in Basil and Sunny being the victims and its altered everything. Maybe they’re just kids who made a mistake and didn’t know how to solve it.

I need to play the hikikomori version but I'm so sad about the endings. I’m so confused and sad. This game is amazing but wow its opened me up to feelings I didn’t want to interact with

#omori #omori sunny #omori basil #omori truth #omori spoilers #omori game #omori angst #i don't know #how do i deal #i love these boys #but are they monsters #its like i need to forgive them #god how do their friends even deal with sunny telling the truth #i don't like these feelings

[sevenstevearmy]

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#do i genuinely want to kiss him or am i lonely and projecting onto the nearest person? #rip to my sanity #i don't like these feelings

[vamprisms]

i feel like a lot of the 'i hate kids' crowd would be more tolerant if they understood that due to a kid's limited experience of the world that 4 hour flight might just be the longest they've ever had to sit still for or that trapped finger might literally be the most pain they've ever felt in their short life or they might not have ever seen a person with pink hair ever so of course they want to touch it or nobody's told them yet that they can't run around the museum and they only just learned cheetahs are the fastest animals so of course they want to put that to the test. how were they supposed to know etc etc.

#like majority of the time kids are not just 'being naughty'. they have big feelings inside little bodies it's a lot #also like. #it should be illegal to dye your hair fun colours if you aren't prepared for kids in public to ask if youre related to a my little pony #EDIT: the notes on this post are an absolute cesspool. i don't care about your reasons for hating kids you sound like a disney villain

[taffywabbit]

they should invent a new type of "staying in bed for 2-3 hours after you wake up repeatedly opening and closing apps on your phone" where it makes you feel awesome and energized and emotionally fulfilled

#buny text #I'm fine i've just been staying up too late playing bg3 the past few nights #and then wanting to wake up before noon so my parents don't say anything rude to me so i end up getting less sleep to facilitate that #and it's catching up to me #i feel like this explanation maybe undermines my previous statement of 'I'm fine' a bit but I'm fine i promise #look at my lop posts boy

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The math just adds up!

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #marcille donato #farcille #I always loved how chapter 27 ends with them both so bloody and 28 starts with them in the bath. #not just because of how iconic the bathtub moment is but because you know they had to scrap off so much gore first. #I think everyone in the party took a very long and methodical bath but Falin was basically *all* blood*. #Being covered in blood is one of those 'just girly things' that women deserve to stop being shamed about. #I just don't think Chilchuck is progressive enough. He probably made them take a bath first B*/ #Okay jestering aside I want to just highlight - #The magnitude of Marcille's joy at seeing her dearest friend again! Of holding her and sharing her presence in the same room! #Something about this reunion feels like a beautiful dream you are afraid of waking up from...

[ace-and-ranty]

I gotta say, one of the greatest achievements of my 20s was that I learned (mostly) to differentiate between:

"I truly do not want to go" and

"I'm just feeling the Demand Avoidance, and I will like it once I get there."

#I have learned in my 20s #sometimes I DO just gotta make myself go places even if I don't feel like it #I'll like it once I get there.

[hollowboobtheory]

really? another album? didn't she just make one??

#beck rambles #anti taylor swift #not really but i don't feel like getting my head on a pike right now

[beebfreeb]

#funny talking tag #My favorite thing to do is HC characters as trans but also that they've never heard that term before and act accordingly. #My other favorite thing to do is make characters repressed. #My other other favorite thing to do is make a character go ''I feel like a(n) object/animal/thing pretending to be a man/woman'' #''but I don't really care about that right now I have a job'' #Anyway while this post can be about whichever characters you feel fit I made this with a certain character in mind. #(Dimentio of SPM fame) (He has something really specific going on that makes me cackle) (You can ask me about it)

[roninkairi]

You can only reblog this today.*

*PLEASE READ THE TAGS

#adventure time #finn the human #if you are reading this #please be aware this is a joke #this was a random thing tound on Facebook #and no finn really didn't say that #so go ahead and reblog it #just don't take it seriously #some of the people who reblogged this overreacted #so I feel compelled to add these tags to call them out on it #like seriously #chill out dudes #maybe eat a taco or two #tacos are life #so are burritos #ok this is running its course #david zaslav can suck it #i just felt like adding that because he is a douche

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[kozzax]

It's times like these, when Grian refers to snails as molluscs and gastropods, that I remember he has a degree in marine biology. In retrospect this makes the fishing arc funnier I think.

#me vibing #hermitcraft #grian #not that people outside marine bio don't know snails are molluscs #it's just. not the world's most common knowledge i feel like #so it unlocked the 'hermit real world achievements' memory file in my brain

[littlelonelytree]

"Just because you see I smile...

... don't think you know what's going on underneath."

#hazbin hotel #alastor #radio demon #charlie morningstar #i don't feel like feeling anymore today your honor #i dont need slEEP I NEED ANSWERS

[refugeed-kim]

YES YES I NEED THIS SIGN IN EVERY SINGLE PARK PLEASE

This is my daily struggle, I had so many arguments with people with off-leash dogs (in a mandatory leash area!!!). Thanks to this behavior I'm struggling with Kim being anxious/aggressive with other females as she often gets involved in unpleased interactions with free females while on leash. And every single time that I ask for the dog to be at least recalled, I'm being called names and insulted of course.

Also 9 out of 10 their dog isn't really that friendly at all.

#dogblr #dog #dog training #petblr #the most unpleasant part of owning a dog is having to deal with awful dog owners... #the richer the neighbourhood the worst are the owners #but of course the only park that isn't a hour-long drive from home it's full of this kind of people #I want to live in a city where there is enough space to actually walk without meeting anyone if we don't feel like it

[sardonicdoll]

wanted to do my photo project this semester on the notion of mobility aids being extensions of our bodies, the yarn was done by a friend

#cripple punk #cpunk #photography #doll.self #college stuff #i don't like posting this here but i would also feel weird putting it on any of my other blogs. #1k #5k #10k

[wasyago]

ooooohhhh who lives in a small tugboat out on the sea?

ge-mi-ni-tay

#[spongebob theme playing in the background] #gem design yay! #don't give me blue characters i will turn them all green #i mean. she's going with the horror theme this season so i feel like sickly green fits it nicely #hermitcraft #geminitay #my art #sketch