#i don't think i blinked once

[hedwig221b]

I am this 🤏🏻 close to blocking someone on ao3 rn

#do I really have to regurgitate the entire setting of the world for it to make sense #or is the courtship of men BY men only makes sense in omegaverse? #don't know about you but I dont want my AUs to be built on the same homophobia or have ye olden gender roles like irl #yes I'm talking about Treasure #yes someone said ONCE AGAIN that “uhh this is not abo why is stiles like this” #this is a FAIRYTALE it's NOT REAL #i can make men soft if i want to #idk is that like THAT unrealistic and hard to imagine #my god #starting to think this user's imagination is as stiff as a concrete wall #I'm repeating myself but I really really really don't want to make my fantasy universes fucking homophobic #men ARE going to be courted by men #women ARE going to be courted by women #everybody is allowed to court EVERYBODY becasue fuck homophobia #no one would blink a fucking eye #sorry for the rant

[frecklystars]

Every time I see that picture of Barbie holding Ken’s hand, bringing him to life, and they’re both wearing their very first original beach outfits with the blue watercolor backdrop? I have to take ten minutes to stare at them both and then I get emotional about it bc they mean so much to me and there’s just something about the way Barbie looks at Ken and the way they’re holding hands and the way Ken looks at her. and it's even better in the imax clip when Ken’s breath hitches in his throat and he notices that the person who is his girlfriend is this gorgeous, highly accomplished woman who can do anything and be everything... I always laugh when he does a fist pump and whispers breathlessly yes!

And I can’t help but always picture myself in the middle, both of them holding my hand and each kissing my cheek

#I’m just laying in bed and I’m all sniffly and weepy about how much I love them 🥺🥺🥺 #im so shaky bc i cant sleep and my body is sooo. exhausted. but i love them so much #im so drawn to these characters. like as if upon my first arrival there they smiled and said 'we missed you!' #even tho we hadn't met before it felt like we were meant to be together. and i was so nauseous seeing pink at the time #but it's as if they both held my hands and said 'we know youre scared. but we still hope you'll stay' #'don't worry. you're safe here. nobody's gonna hurt you. we'll make sure of it!!' #I like to think they both found a cold blinking out dying star in the sky and said ‘oh that’s her!' #they saw how much I needed them and plucked me out of the sky and held me so tight in their arms in this big group hug #Barbie’s line to Gloria ‘I came for you!’ is something I remember at least once a day and it makes me melt. bc I know she’d say that to me #and Ken would be standing right next to her and they’re both reaching out their hands ready to catch their fallen star #'sweet girl!!! keri!!! we came for you!!!!' i think about it every single damn day #and the feeling just intensifies every time i see that photo #this movie came out at the perfect time when i needed these F/Os the most #love notes #💕♫♪ ♡ You're the pink in my cheeks 🎀🌸✨♡ #💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́-

[wereshrew-admirer]

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#coworkers they/theming me in emails despite my never ever coming out at work feels like a triumph #i just openly wear dresses and a beard at the same time but i tell nobody anything #and certainly don't request any particular pronouns #and it sets me up to be very fond of my coworkers #the wild old scientist i took over my lab from who he/hims me but has never once even blinked at me in a sundress #the lady in material control who thinks i care about fashion and asks me for advice that i can't give #the QA ladies that occasionally compliment an 'outfit' (i cannot stress enough how little i pay attention to how i combine my clothes) #and the three of four (i think one quit? idk) people that 'they/them' me very conspicuously like they're trying real hard #i'm very lucky to have the type of work environment i do #upper management treats me like shit but everyone i work with directly is 100% fine #the QC guy who took me aside to ask if i was trans and scared the crap out of me but it was because his son just came out and he wanted adv #ice <3<3 #<3 #i'm not social and i can't remember most of these folks' names #but i do like people a lot actually #(just added a new “person that has conspicuously and spontaneously decided to they/them me” to my collection) #...for the record they/them are my least favorite pronouns on account that people will default there to avoid using it/its #but from the mouths of the ignorant i like it a lot

[queerofthedagger]

the mortifying ordeal of having to decide if you're unwell enough about a new fandom yet that you should add it to the tagging list/intro post, or if there might still be hope for you.... knowing that the fact you're considering it means it's most likely already too late..... knowing it's so SO far past 'most likely' because there are already three (3) plots pinned in the discord server.............. SIGH

#mona rambles #i do not need this. i do not have the TIME #also i do not want to touch that fandom everything i know about it looks SO exhausting god bless #anyway. #stranger things post will be tagged ST once i. convince myself that it is in fact way too late for me #send condolences. or something #i literally would've been FINE if not for atlanta #which. i knew this before we always make each other worse #but i was a clown. committing hubris. thinking that this time.. this time I'd be FINE #as if the fucking. bbc merlin MESS that my life has become the last 4 years isn't one huge blinking warning sign #i say all this. while having consumed roughly 400k words worth of fic the last three days #as if there is hope. as if i wasn't having a blast #and i haven't even started on the fucked up ship fun yet #we're still in wholesome steddie land; i don't even want to KNOW what harringrove will do to me #ANYWAY #ignore me #block ST if you want to be spared #it'll get worse before it gets better. or something

[linusbenjamin]

just seen spiderman across the spider verse. truly magnificent, phenomenal, amazing, incredible, speechles.

#spoilers ahead! #i don't know where to begin #first i cried a lot. it was more emotional than the first one. #it was really fast. i don't think i even blinked once from start to finish. #but i lost it when i saw andrew's spiderman and the whole speech during that scene. i certainly wasn't expecting that 😭 #it deserves a 10 from imdb. #spider man: across the spider verse #about

[dontneedyourheroact]

me last week, just a child, an innocent and trusting creature: i hope wwdits doesn't drastically alter guillermo's character now that he's come out as gay

wwdits: *turns the only recurring female character of color into a white man and will potentially never return her to her true form with full autonomy*

me, sweating and shaking: i may have underestimated you

#my post #wwdits #SOMEBODY TWEET MARWA'S ACTRESS IS SHE OKAY??? TELL HER I WILL DO VIOLENCE ON HER BEHALF #TELL HER TO BLINK ONCE FOR YES AND TWICE FOR NO #okay honestly i don't think the writers genuinely think marwa is happier as freddie #nandor said that and he is explicitly written as emotionally incompetent and unreliable #with that being said i think the writers also don't feel any real need to return to marwa's story #this is a comedy show and marwa was just an act. she was part of the 'nandor is lonely and selfish' bit. and that gag is over #so she will just be another victim of the main characters. like anyone else they killed or drove insane or traumatized on the show #despite how significant she was and how horrifying her fate she will be forgotten by the main characters like any other nameless extra

[shelleyspeare]

i think i might have ocd

#had to say it #not gonna try to get diagnosed because (a) i don't have time (b) my intrusive thoughts are too much to talk about with anyone rn and (c) i #dont want to get stuck with a diagnosis like that for the rest of my life #because it feels so much more official and permanent than good old depression and anxiety. like i could never get over this #but i just wanted to put it out there into the universe that I'm like 99% sure if i described what's going on with me rn to a doctor they #would diagnose me with ocd. wild. #once i started thinking about it i wrote down a list of compulsions and it was like a full page long #i barely even think about them as weird because theyre so familiar to me but i do them constantly -- like probably hundreds of times a day #and most are textbook ocd stuff like even down to which numbers my brain registers as like. safe numbers to count to. like the number 4 is #good powers of 2 are good etc. and i touch light switches and doorknobs a certain number of times and i count my steps and the words i read #and i count how many times i blink and look at people so it all comes out right #and beneath all of that control is just a whole pit of obsessive anxious thoughts i can't control. so. #now i know that this is a Real Issue and not just my generalized anxiety being spicy #idk. maybe ill find help in some informal way that doesnt involve a psych eval lol #it's good to know this about myself

[chqnified]

People picking arguments with me over disliking the blackpink fandom literally proves me point. 90% of you are assholes. Bye.

#just say you hate blackpink. secretly hating on us #i was told #oh hunny. i had a fan account for bp before you turned 5. #i could show you posts from YEARS ago on my bp phase. i can show you albums of theirs i have on my shelf rn #like babes. blinks suck. and you're personally proving it once again. #10% are cool. mainly because maybe they are the original fandom in their late teens / twenties #the 12 year olds™ are unbearable #i can say that here without getting death threats because 12 year olds don't know Tumblr exists #thank god #to top it all off. one misgendered me so i was like hunny. he/him #she said 'idc i call everyone girl' #so i said. you want to be careful because that's transphobic #also. stays. being the queerest and gender queer kpop fandom seemed to feel personally attacked too #safe to say. i don't think she'll survive #you can disagree sure. but these people just have no good reasoned opinions or reasonings #also when all you have is to misgender someone. come on.

[posarmeklen]

???!!! The ending of “Zoo” took me out

#i don't think i blinked once watching this

[nanaminokanojo]

Sukuna is pissed.

The reason? You moved away from him in your sleep when he wanted to hold you close.

In your own subtle ways, you've always complained about how unaffectionate he is. You didn't explicitly say it, but he did notice how your mood would shift, your pretty little smiles barely masking your disappointment when he would do or say anything remotely cold or mean. And now that he was giving you what you wanted, you just roll away from him, depriving him of your warmth and the affection he expects you to reward him.

How you even managed to escape four of his arms to find your own corner of the bed was a big puzzle to him. You've always slept peacefully pressed to his side on most nights, and you didn't really move much once he had two of his arms wrapped around your frail form. Perhaps you were doing it on purpose after he had evidently upset you during supper by dismissing you when you asked about his day. There was nothing to tell, and though he understands that your concerns came from a good place, he still refused to tell you of the horrors of the world he found himself so deeply embroiled in.

Sukuna, however, brushed off the idea. You wouldn't dare. Or would you? He was just protecting you. Why would you hold that against him?

He chose not to entertain the thought, thinking it was just you moving in your sleep. And so, he reached for you, gently placing his arms over and underneath you to pull you closer. But it hadn't even been a minute of him holding you when you started letting out these seemingly irritated noises and shortly after, you were turning your back on him.

"What –" He stopped himself when you breathed in deeply, half expecting to hear sobs if you were truly upset with him, but then, your breathing rhythm returned to normal. You were still fast asleep.

Sukuna shrugged, already feeling his temper rising at the thought that you could sleep just fine without him. The thought of it annoyed him, and that was an understatement. He decided to move closer to you then, but as soon as he did, pressing your back on his bare chest, you started squirming, a dissatisfied groan leaving your lips.

At that, he rose slightly on his elbow, taking offense. "Woman, what is your problem?" he demanded, making you lie down flat on your back, startling you. "Is something ailing you?" This time, he spoke gently, watching as you slowly blinked up at his frowning face like you haven't got a clue what he's talking about. And then you closed your eyes before favoring your left side, going back to sleep.

"You –"

"What?" you whined without facing him, annoyed that your sleep was being disturbed.

Sukuna scoffed. You've really done it this time. Nobody dared speak to him that way. "What now? You don't want me anymore? I thought you wanted –"

In one swift movement, he found himself being tackled onto the bed as you turned around and threw yourself against him, immediately finding your spot in the crook of his neck. His two left arms instinctively wrapped around you, keeping you cradled in them as you snuggled closer, planting a kiss under his collarbone as if to appease him before you were falling back asleep.

"You could have just stayed like this –"

"Shh."

Did you just shush him? And as if to punctuate it, you raised your hand, your fingers blindly yet tenderly brushing his lips and staying there.

"Wife, you are aware I have two mouths, aren't you?" he spoke against your fingers, fighting a smile.

You moved your head back to smirk at him as you threw a leg over his abdomen right where his other mouth was, your thigh preventing it from saying anything.

"There. Problem solved."

#just something i thought of cause i hate being cuddled while i sleep #sukuna #sukuna x you #sukuna x reader #sukuna x y/n #ryomen sukuna #ryomen sukuna x you #ryomen sukuna x y/n #ryomen sukuna x reader #sukuna fluff #sukuna au #ryomen sukuna fluff #ryomen sukuna au #jujutsu kaisen #jjk x you #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x you #jjk #jjk x y/n #jujutsu kaisen x y/n #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jujutsu kaisen fluff #jjk flluff

[lazaruspiss]

modern comics industry maybe be struggling but honestly i think ur average local comic store is gonna be fine in comparison, like plenty of them have a huge focus on resells of older stuff and like. maybe one shelf to the side w new releases lol

#ramble tag #if DC goes bankrupt or whatever i wouldnt even blink at it #honestly i think the reason why theyre trying to do this MCUesque movie universe thing is bc like #what else? and it worked for marvel #but marvel movies have established such broad appeal to normies and fanboys alike w/o needing to be good #and i don't know if DC can pull that off. maybe #probably well enough to survive i suppose #also name one good think about the wonder woman movie other than ''sexy lead actors'' or ''ww threw a tank'' #also: name one good thing about the recent batman that isnt ''emo batman'' #not me trying to be snippy just like. i think it's weird when people say a movie's good and only give reasons like that #so its a genuine question! what is the appeal! if it's just the sex factor that's ok but say it w ur chest! #oh and the blue beetle movie. they did not promote that At All. a teeny bit suspicious of DC #to show such little investment in that movie's success. like the last hispanic led superhero movie was spiderverse bc miles is mixed #which is cool but #but yknow. jaime is important to me for personal reasons and i hate that he got a movie that completely passed by me like that #i go to the theaters!! i saw wonder woman in theaters!! but i missed out on the chance to see blue beetle bc the promo was nonexistent #i dont talk about jaime bc truthfully his significance to me is less ''im invested in this character'' and more #''child me was so happy seeing a hispanic character other than dora for once'' #he still triggers that memory and feeling in my brain of finally thinking i can be ok #blah blah being a part hispanic teen in the trump era in a like 95% white town in a republican state was rough or whatever #''im barely a shade darker and no one will know if i dont tell them but i feel isolated anyways #bc my peers are describing all the awful things they hope mexicans go through'' #my hispanic heritage is also specifically mexican so it was Rough #christ im going on a bit #dear diary type of rant #unrelated but ive recently discovered baljeet is to indian kids what dora is to hispanic kids #which lowkey suck bc there's nothing wrong w either of those characters #just that some ppl grow up with them being the only frame of reference they have for those groups and it leads to Unpleasant Interactions #my lil sibling refuses to learn spanish bc she got compared to dora growing up and it pissed her off that much #i think sometimes the dora comparison was said affectionately but that didn't really make a difference for her

[nipply-castform]

this is gonna sound so obvious to anybody who knows anything about cats but I just realized the reason my cat staring at me feels so persistent and strong is because cats don't fucking need to blink. they can just look at you forever. and I had to read this online just now to realize it! I literally never would have noticed that on my own

#like obviously I KNEW that I had never seen a cat blink #but the exact thought 'cats don't need to blink' never once crossed my mind #and now I'm thinking about how it would look if a cat did blink and how disturbing it would be #idk this is obviously a non-revelation but I love those moments where you suddenly understand something you had always just accepted

[bi-writes]

thinking about being the new addition to tf141. you are an asset given to laswell by the CIA, a timid little thing but your aim is always on target, and you are quiet, tech savvy, and you do as you're told. (18+, dark)

just how lieutenant riley prefers. he dwarfs you. the first time you meet, your eyes nearly come out of your head from how wide they go. he's so large, and you feel so tiny compared to him, and even though he does nothing but a disinterested once over, it is obvious to the rest of the team that you might just be his favorite.

it's most obvious in the subtle touches. when you're getting ready to jump, ghost comes up from behind and tugs on your parachute, nearly topping you over making sure it's secure. when you're getting ready in the back of the humvee, he reaches over and buckles your thigh holster for you when he notices the strap is coming loose. you nearly choke when you feel his big hand between your thighs, and you stare up at him with wide eyes when his pinkie moves up the seam of your zipper when he tugs his hand away.

and then the way he's on your six is unlike anything else. like glue, chest pressed to your back, his gloved hand squeezing your waist as he moves you every which way he pleases because you're so small to him, so easy, and he growls under his breath when he touches the curve of your hips or the fat of your ass.

maybe you might enjoy it if he wasn't so fucking awkward about it. if he didn't stare at you without blinking. if he didn't adjust his cock in his jeans right in front of you. if he didn't grip you by the back of your head, tugging you any way he wanted as if scolding a kitten using the scruff of their neck.

you think the team would notice by now--that they would step in, tell ghost to back off, but they turn a blind eye. they tolerate this behavior, and you don't know if it's because ghost is so good at his job, they don't want to, or that they are so afraid of him, they refuse to say anything.

or maybe they approve. maybe it keeps ghost at bay. maybe it keeps a lion in his den. a spider in its nest. maybe indulging ghost in his fucked form of flirting and socialization is what keeps the foundations of this team right where it needs to be--and you realize, slowly, that maybe that is why you're here.

because ghost likes them soft, and they need to put a muzzle on their dog.

so when you feel him in the dark, slipping a gloved hand under the blanket that keeps you warm at night, he is pleasantly surprised to find you awake. and even more surprised to feel your hand slipping the soft lace of your panties right into his fucking pocket.

"they teach y'that 'n basic training? how ta give y'r knickers to y'r lieutenant, eh?"

"no," you whisper, and when you meet his eyes in the dark, he looks so hungry. he's untamed, no training, he's used to getting what he wants with no resistance. you turn over in bed, and you don't get to see the way he sucks on his teeth when you let your knees fall, revealing the pretty place between your thighs, soft and puffy and wet, just waiting for a good mutt to eat her up. "but i learned other things."

"tha' right?"

"yeah," you say softly, and you turn over onto your stomach, pushing back onto your knees right in front of him. he bends, leaning over until he's pushing his masked face right into the seam of your cunt, and you grip the sheets tight when he inhales deeply, a rumble following as both of his hands grip either side of your ass and spread you open for him. you're drooling, wetting the nylon fabric, and you gasp when you feel the wet, warm muscle of his tongue suck on your folds through the mask. it's lewd, and you're wetting the material so much it sticks to the strong lines of his face, but he continues, tilting his head to the side as he laps at the pretty slick that dampens your thighs.

"what'd y'learn then, swee'eart?"

not how to fuck your lieutenant. but...you did learn to keep them happy.

"h-how to be a good girl."

and you think you feel him smile.

#mmmmm #i like them big and awkward and mean #and i like controlling big dogs with pussy 😃 #makes me feel powerful ok #simon ghost riley #simon riley #simon ghost riley x reader #simon riley x reader #simon riley x you #ghost mw2 #ghost cod #ghost call of duty #ghost mwii #ghost x reader #cod #call of duty #simon riley smut #simon ghost riley smut #simon thoughts #dark!simon

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[kvt1]

#ltrbx #KAFKAAAAAAA *openly sobbing* #I DONT THINK I'LL REVOCER FROM THIS #i didnt know my mom was home so she probably heard me openly wailing while playing her companion quest #UGH NO WAYYY #WHAT?? HUH?????? HA UGH A HMM #WHST DO YOU MEAN??????????? #i don't know if it's the delusions but the attachment i have on her is unreal and personal #i HATE HATE HATE that they do the face to face thing with kafka #bc like now it's personal #now i'm in love with you #like 'haha whatever you say kafka <3' #every expression she makes makes me have every covid symptom all at once #multiplied iif she smiles frowns laugh furrows her eyebrows coughs sneezes blinks etc etc #i can't tell if i'm being dramatic or not genuinely #anywayys anyone who hasn't played her companion quest nothing happened it was really boring

[alastorss]

brother i still have no idea how tumblr works and this is my first request and it might not even be in the right place but—

why does NO ONE talk about the fact that “Allie” would be such a silly nickname for Alastor? i would love to see some headcanons/a lil story about how he would react to the reader calling him that. maybe completely detests it at first but secretly likes it?

a/n: hello lovely, you've come to the right place 🫶 yes yes yes!!! i'm obsessed with this idea <3 i'm adding to this: he would think you're mad at him when you finally call him normally again ^ ^

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"What did you say?"

"Huh?" You hum, attention devoted to fixing Alastor's bowtie.

"That thing you just said. Repeat it."

You finally blink at him, using your palms to smooth out the front of his jacket before stepping out of his bubble. "I said your tie was undone."

"No, dear, before that."

The Radio Demon can feel his eye twitching in irritation. You look at him again dumbly, trying to retrace your steps.

"Oh!" You flash him a little smile and he thinks his brain is going to explode. "Allie?"

He just gawks at you, surprised by the sheer audacity you have. And it doesn't help that he's so fond of you that he doesn't even want to strike you down.

Had it been someone else calling him so endearingly, he might have done something violent. But how could he do that to you, his darling companion, when you look so sweet calling him such a ridiculous name?

"My apologies but... where did that come from?"

"Isn't it cute?" You grin, completely dodging his question.

No, he wants to say. Absolutely not. However, your smile is ever-growing and he can't very well deny you this pleasure. So he sucks it up, draws in a deep inhale to compose himself, and nods.

"Of course, cher."

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Weeks pass and the rest of your friends in the hotel begin to raise a brow at how casually you address such a powerful Overlord. And more than that, he doesn't seem to want to correct you.

It becomes his name reserved exclusively for you. Angel had tried, once, to purr out Allie in a seductive way that made Alastor's skin crawl. Never again.

He gets used to it. Even likes the idea that there is something shared between you that no one else can have. That is, until you're pushing around your breakfast on a plate one morning.

"Can you pass the salt, Alastor?"

He looks up from his mug of coffee in confusion, brain taking a moment to buffer before it catches up with his already moving mouth.

"Alastor?" He repeats his own name, staring at you intensely and most definitely not passing the salt over the table.

You look back up at him blankly. "That's your name, don't wear it out."

He scoffs at your lame joke before sliding the salt shaker over the table. There's something unsettling him and he can't quite place it.

Setting down his newspaper, he watches you as you eat. His gaze is so fiery that you look up from your food almost instantly.

"What's wrong?"

"Are you alright? Have I done something to upset you?"

Your brows scrunch. "No, why?"

"Why did you not call me Allie?"

Complete and utter silence settles over the dining table until he feels like he can't breathe. Your spoonful of food hovers just in front of your open mouth as you stare.

Then, laughter. Laughter fills the room and his ears so heartily that he feels it in his own chest. You double over the table in your fit, spoon clinking onto the plate as you drop it.

"What?" He grumbles.

"Of course I'm not mad at you!" You howl, using a finger to wipe up the tears gathering in your eyes. "'Sides, I thought you hated that name?"

His jaw grows taut. "Hate is a powerful word."

"So you like it?"

"Absolutely not!"

"Liar, you do!"

Alastor is never one to get flustered, but here he is for the first time in his afterlife, teetering on the edge of bursting out in flames. "You are terrible, you know that?"

You snicker, leg getting trapped between his under the table. "Yeah, Allie, I know."

Yet the way his smile softens says it all.

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