#i dont remember anything about it tho lmao

[pinkshgum]

dude i was confused for years when i saw people talking about that "Julie and the phantoms" series because like... i swore that series was brazilian. i swore i watched it like, in my childhood. then i discovered it WAS, its called "Julie e os fantasmas" and that show in english is a remake. the original is brazilian i was NOT crazy!!!!! i did watch it as a kid!!

#juro gente fiquei tanto tempo pensativa tipo... saporra não era brasileira não pq tem gringo falando sobre.. #julie and the phantoms #julie e os fantasmas #i dont remember anything about it tho lmao

[lokh]

heterogenia linguistico is so interesting...

#before i knew it i caught up X_X #being about language tho it feels like its especially important to get the translations accurate akndjccjdnd #if i could find physical copies id get them immediately esp since its like at 4 volumes still #but its also reminding me how little i remember of my linguistics degree AKAMNDNDNDNCMF #and our field methods unit.... #which was super interesting but really impresses upon u the difficulty of learning (observing?) a language from the bottom up #also my socially anxious ass was not fond of the idea of field research erhsbscbd #which i understood to be necessary in pursuing a masters? so i didnt want to LOL #im looking at it now and that may not be true.... or it depends on the actual degree #in any case anything linguistics related will involve talking to people lmao so even tho based on my knowledge #it would make sense to pursue further linguistics...... i dont think i would actually be good at it career wise in any form #ok hang on ive just taken a look at an applied linguistics degree. there IS a capstone project #which would involve field work but maybe not to the extent i was imagining #in any case im not actually confident i remember enough from my undergrad 😭😭😭😭😭 #holy shit i finished it like. 6 years ago......

[orcelito]

Went skimming thru late trimax For Reasons, got caught up reading the Legato fight, realized things about the fight that I never had before & went WOW, I kind of want to write an analysis post right now!

Felt the same kind of insanity grip me, however momentarily, that fueled all my analysis posts however many months ago. Too tired to actually word things coherently right now, but...

I May or may not have a full(ish?) analysis of the Legato & Vash fight a la style of This post analyzing the Trigun: Multiple Bullets fight that got unexpectedly kind of popular. People seemed to really appreciate that one, & I even had some ppl saying it could be cool if I did that for others?

So. Legato fight. Maybe. Feel free to remind me later if u see no mention of it again for over a week lol

#speculation nation #ive been wanting to go back into reading the manga again #ive only slowly (VERY slowly) been puttering along with where i am in my fic #for research purposes with the fic. #i do want to go back through the manga bc i STILL havent done a full reread of it #ive just reread so many different parts of it for assorted research that im probably getting to some 10 or so reads total lmao #i wanna reread it in full tho front to back to sort out any stray details and remember any timeline things i might have slightly skewed. #the problem with reading the manga though. is that every fucking time i look at it. i am consumed by a drive to research EVERY little thing #so me reading turns into 'hm thats interesting. that reminds me of this thing that i know happens in volume 8. let me just check that now--' #and i end up so dreadfully distracted every damn time. bc i end up with all my wires crossed and my attention pointing a million ways #it's exhausting. and so i havent been reading the manga outside of random research dives. #im very good at that. i know every volume of the manga and can find Anything within 1 or 2 mins (at the Most) #which is also kind of the problem lol. fingers in too many pies. so many things to think about. #if i get back into Actually rereading the manga tho you can bet ur ASS ill find more things to make posts about #every time i open up the manga i find new things that i could analyze. #i just havent. bc i dont have time. but. ykno what. maybe i Could get back into it... #remind me later. this is one of my favorite fucking fights with my favorite Fucking panels #and i realized smth about the shit Vash is doing that was making me lose my MINDDDD #later tho. ive been sleep deprived today. and it is time for me to rest. #& yea yea ITNL is still the main focus. but idk i have such a mind for details and i remember So many things about the manga #i wanna show that off to people again. and thus. Analyses!!! :D #later. goodnight for now

[seariii]

Que horror

#THE EMOTIONAL BACKLASH DAMN LMAO #okay so lately in my mind has been floating a small story i made like... 6-7? maybe 8 years ago for a literature class #the teacher was kinda weird and i didnt really learn anything on that class but so be it #he also made us write some sort of journal? okay and this story i was talking about i have the vivid memory i wrote it on a sheet of paper #not on the journal. so now im here like shit am i sure about thwt? where could i have put it? so i tried to look for it and didn't find it #and thought okay ill take a look at that journal AND WHEN I TELL YOU SEARI WASN'T ON A GOOD MENTAL STATE THEN IS #OVERSIMPLIFICATION. DAMN I DIDN'T READ ANYTHING BECAUSE JUST THE PAGES EMANATED SUCH HORRIBLE ENERGY #DAMN GIRL CHILL- it's okay it was something very necessary to pass by it was an important character arc but damn was it a lot #sigh so... ill probably have to re write that story.... i remember i made it in such a way that would make sense in both Spanish and english #i was really proud of myself heh... and i think its a cute concept that would be good to touch again... #heh mi pequeña Sol va a volver #so yeah ill write down the littke bits i remember and hopefully get to draw it soon... #i dont have high hopes on myself tho #seari talks

[potatoes-tomatoes]

I’ve been goin thru a steven universe rewatch since last week and… wow. Wow this show is revolutionary for queer voices. It was eye opening seeing everything unfold again.

It’s been wonderful experiencing the show with fresh eyes. I started the show, saw the premiere of the show, followed it and finished it while I was still closeted and bigoted. I saw the reveal of Garnet being a fusion, being love, and was initially disgusted and disappointed because I was TAUGHT to be disgusted and disappointed.

The residual bigotry flares up at times… but it’s not me anymore. Well it is, but it’s like.. the MEMORY of me seeing that moment through my old eyes. I do my best to not feel shame, but to understand and forgive myself and enjoy creating a new experience watching SU.

now that I’m (somewhat) open, I’ve been able to enjoy the show and appreciate how much it’s done for queer voices since. I… saw Ruby and Sapphire’s wedding for the first time, I saw it— not with my hands barely covering my eyes. What a triumph that this show inspired others to let queer ppl share their stories, experiences, hopes, fears, love, without shame! Steven Universe isn’t perfection— it’s flawed, beautifully flawed, like the people who made it, the people who watch it, and the characters in it. If the road it paved wasn’t perfect, then all the better for newer voices, newer stories to be like, that limestone thingy in roman rock to reinforce it. To make it better. to make like, longer gay roads! pff shit I think I was trying to be poetic and metaphorical or something, but I hope my point came across. I just have big feelings right now. I didn’t realize what SU did for this lil baby queer. It’s so inspiring

#I remeber all my old feelings watching the show #I remember my old rambles in my school journals and secret su art #i remember doing my best to not feel conflicted about Garnet and Pearl because I LOVED garnet and pearl #How I felt I had to combat being ‘deceived’ by the show #But really it’s just… Garnet and Pearl and all other allegories/ rep in the show isn’t trying to Convince me of anything #it just wants to exist. it fought yes but fought to be FREE to exist and share itself #shiiittt it’s so weird experiencing this show as an adult and critically watching it (bc when DONT i analyze shit lol) AND self soothing #tween/YA me #and again… I wish I had someone like me to talk about it :’) #if ur an ex-religious queer person reading this hmu 🤙🏼 #cel speaks #i’m goin thru my buried su tag and i think my gen takes are still based lmao as in I still feel the same abt plot points as i did then #lololol #changed my mind abt amethyst BIG time tho younger Cel u were so dumb she be growin so much fr fr

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

x. polite because no one deserves to be purposefully treated rudely. kind because kindness keeps a person gentle. sweet because making people smile is uplifting. helpful for the same reason. supportive because if you dont have anything nice to say, it's extremely easy not to say anything at all. above all, do unto others what you would have them do unto you.

o. polite because it's the best way to fade all the way into the background. kind because i'm too afraid to let myself be cruel. sweet because of overwhelming&pathetic desperation to make people happy. helpful because it's too exhausting to cause waves. supportive because other's goals are a great distraction from my own. above all, a smile makes the best camouflage as long as no one can ever see you sweat.

x. lonely+isolated because of mental+physical health restrictions. i miss people-- i miss being surprised, i miss relating to people on any level that isn't abject pain. i miss connection, communion, community.

o. alone+introspective because it pays off to be so. i don't miss people at all-- in fact it is a true sign of growth that it is not my knee-jerk reaction to say that i hate them for everything that (an admittedly small sampling of) people have done to me.

x. i am so terrified of communication at this point, &traumatized by Other People just in general, that i regularly shut my notifications off on everything because the sound of any form of notification ring that i recognize can literally kick off vicious panic attacks and send me running for dark corners, lmao. i am pathetic-- but i am a survivor.

o: i am charming, fun, &social to varying degrees dependent on the work. i am adaptable, everything from the center of attention to support staff with ease. smiling through blood in my mouth&talking to basically anyone for minutes to hours is child's play-- literally, since that is when i learned it.

x. pride over the skills i've developed over a lifetime of nonsense. made possible by mania, perhaps.

o. shame over the skills i've developed over a lifetime of nonsense. put off by disassociation, definitely.

x. i am kind and small and smiling and invisible. please just leave me alone. please don't even look at me, i literally cannot bear it, i just want to be alone again, please do not hurt me, i will do anything to make you happy if you just promise not to hurt me.

o. i am vicious and bloody and loud, and i will make you look at me, i will make you see me. i will give you a reason for that sneer, &i have no problem giving and taking blood in the process. my blood is worth so much less that i will win this no matter what-- i am braver than you could ever be because i have nothing that i'm afraid i'll lose.

x: i just want to make people smile.

o: i just want to never see another living person ever again.

x: like me, like me, like me. please just like me. i just want to be safe from abject hatred. i just want to be likeable. i can be anything, anyone-- it isn't like i want to keep all my parts, anyway, just tell me what i need to toss to be normal. just tell me what to chop off to be loveable.

o: i will give you every reason to fucking hate me if that is what's going to happen, anyway. i have spent a lifetime becoming who i am, usually against my will-- i can finally look in the mirror without flinching, &i won't let anyone take that away from me. you'll pry my forced self-acceptance out of my cold, dead hands.

x: i have been so lucky. i have been so fucking lucky. every single day i am reminded of all the many ways it could have been worse, things could have been worse, life could have been worse. i am so lucky. i owe the red string everything for letting me finally be someone i like sometimes.

o: i might have been lucky, but somehow i doubt anyone treating my gratitude or happiness like a red flag would be capable of living a day in my life-- or any singular one of the days i've lived thus far. but i can definitely give them a taste if that's what they need to wipe the snide looks off their faces. i'll hate myself after for giving in to the temptation, though. i always do.

x: there's good in everything. if you look for it, there will always be good somewhere. you just need to look. happiness is a conscious decision. kindness is a conscious decision. being a decent person is a perpetual and conscious decision.

o: there's bad in everything, too, and the second i see it, i cannot unsee it. or forgive it, usually. why is it so much easier to see how much people fucking suck?

x: i want perfection. practice, constant effort, dedication-- i need perfection, i'll get perfection. if i can't, what's the point? if there's not even the possibility, what is the fucking point? how am i supposed to live if i know my lifelong goal is&always has been unattainable?

o. perfection isn't an objective possibility. how many times&different ways do i need to fail at the impossible reality before it actually settles in. it isn't possible. i'm dedicating my life to an impossible pursuit. more specifically, i'm committing myself to eternal&constant punishment for failure. why, though. why am i like this.

x. i hate myself so much sometimes i feel like i might actually lose my mind.

o. i am so full of pride sometimes i feel like i might burst at the fucking seams with it all.

x. i am terrified that i'm not capable of living unless it's fighting uphill. who am i without the struggle? who am i past the trauma?

o. if fighting uphill is what made me what i am, what does it matter if i never lose the edge? why should it matter if i need the extra motivation? if i can handle it, why should the struggle be a bad thing?

#so my bipolar diagnosis has been a central theme in my life for the past couple months right. #&i have a really. specific. relationship w my diagnosis lmao. bc its not like i can pretend im not certifiable lmao #but like also this diagnosis up until i literally lost parts of my sanity over turbo had only ever been used for several types #of negligence lmao. #&bc its been a Conversation lately ive been having to reflect on how i feel about it more than i have in. years probably lmao. #&like my thing is i have trouble telling the difference between being an unstable person vs being a complex person. #idk. something something what is the self without the Other? something something tree falls in the woods&no one hears it ect ect. #something something what makes anything real in regards to things so abstract&subjective? #bc until someone actually has the balls to slice me open&test my brain chemistry to put me out of my misery its all just a debate lmao. #idk lots of polarizing thoughts lately maybe. #... as always i dont really have a trigger warning specific for anything but it feels relevant anyway. #........... my doc is gonna have a field day. i dont want new meds but i have a feeling an adjustment is coming soon. 🫠🫠🫠 #on the plus side tho! i have successfully kept my weight up past 105lbs for a solid week. so. solid win in all my other med departments. #(... i just remembered i had a bf once who used to HATE reading all my ramblings lmao he said i talked way too much&it showed. #i'm so fucking happy we broke up before that could actually sink in enough to ruin my big fucking mouth LMAO) #(edit: my doc had a field day lmao.)

[todayisafridaynight]

The bento counter clip you shared is EXTREMELY funny (if it's not a glitch I'd love to try and trigger it), but I couldn't help notice the flower petal-shaped particles in Jo's "heat trail" for the first time. I somehow managed to overlook them until now.

RGGJo also has petals in his heat trail, and personally I've always liked to link it to the fact he canonically wears perfume. What if 7Jo wears a floral scent too...? Would be neat, given I can't tell which of them is supposed to be the one with the sensitive nose lol

Jo’s counter is actually a programmed thing from my understanding: he is meant to deflect regular/MPless attacks and items, but considering most people use exclusively special attacks at this point I reckon not a lot of people catch it (and as for items, you’re either using a rocket launcher/projectile or you’re too far for him to do... that LMAO). Still, it’s going to entertain me for a while the fact he CAN just cancel your healing

And I’m SO glad you noticed the petals too! I didn’t catch that they were a thing for RGGJo as well, but I thought they were a cute detail for Y7Jo when I first noticed them a while back! It’s especially sweet if we put it in the context of a reference to him and perfume :)

#snap chats #i answer worse while on mobile excuse me but im gonna be out for a while but i really wanna answer this #ive personally adopted Y7Jo having the sensitive nose but who’s to say it cant be either honestly #which reminds me i do wanna do something silly with that fact.. #mothers day is tomorrow maybe i can think of something with flowers or something lmao #Maybe I Gave Myself A Brain Blast Actually hm... ignore me im rambling to myself.. #ill stop there for now in case i DO think of somethig and then it can be a surprise lmao #but back to the Main Discussion of the flowers i guess its a nice callback to his more ‘romantic’ counterpart so to speak #also i just love flowers. guilty as charged #Rambling Part 2 but ive somehow reminded myself of hijikata’s sword having plum petals on it.. #‘snap how did you get there’ well i was thinking about how jo uses okita’s sword in this fight and then i thought of The Mine Parallel #and i remembered hijikata evidently and i was like Oh Yeah #ignore this part this isnt anything significant just me rememberin fun facts #if youve read down here tho ill let you go LMAO ty for sendin an ask in ! #ALSO FORGOT TO SAY THIS ON THE RECENT ASK YOU SENT i totes dont mind this smaller asks in-between the larger ones ! #i always love getting asks and i love chattin so ask away as much as you like ! #ok ill let you go fr now LMAO #i hate rambling on mobile cause i cant check my tags.. lets just hope im making any sense here

[platonic-qpr-selfshipping]

someone from my family after reading something I wrote: of course I understood it, it is about your life, right?

me, who wrote about feeling sad to have to kill someone of the Golden Deer when playing another route: uhhhhhhh

#when i say i would do anything for them it means trying to save them no matter what istg why do i have to love this silly game about war #not complaining tho but it did hurt me when i played this KJHSDKS #so if i cant save them i WILL make sure to make everything about them #they deserve the world istg #fire emblem #i dont even know why i suddenly remembered this lmao #self ship community #platonic f/o #self shipper #f/o community

[archersartcorner]

Thinkin bout my TES MC trio, so here’s some doodles of my Nerevarine fella. Pretty sure I’ve said it before, but if ur Nerevarine, HoK, and LDB don’t hang out at least once, what’s da point‼️

#(and I mean that lightheartedly :-) no actual judgement or anything lol we all have our own stories! I just love doin this) #my art #described #oc: sven #morrowind #tes 3 morrowind #the elder scrolls #nerevarine #nerevarine oc #Sven and Po are simultaneously close and. not at all when they meet back up again HWVDHSH #they both essentially take joint custody of the little dragonborn and they can’t stand each others parenting techniques AHDHDKSBSK #altho po concedes more often than not. ‘look. kiddo. I am a mad god. I am THE mad god. maybe listen to your other dad rather than me’ #‘oh okay :) wait other da’ ‘LALLALALALAL DONT LISTEN TO MEEEEE I SAID NOTHING’ #po forgot a LOT about his life when he mantled sheo including Sven. and Sven feels a… Way about that. but despite those feelings they still- #-care quite a lot for each other. even tho po doesn’t exactly remember Sven he remembers… the feelings to an extent. he remembers there was- #-someone there. he just didn’t know who. #anyway. hey at my 200+ followers thanks for sticking with me while my interests have been everywhere LMAO I LOVE YALL

[risingsunresistance]

i need to find the youtube comment that did this to me. where are you. what video was it.

#im like 99% sure it was on the video where he joked about legally changing his name to kevin or something #that was part of some weird story (dream???) he was telling but i dont remember anything else about this video #it was skywars... that doesnt narrow it down at all JFHDK #if i ever find it i'll be sure to post it lmao #cant spend today looking tho. i've got another hour until my next class #and after that i gotta go binge stuff for a group presentation over the weekend #no time to plunge through youtube comments today sadly #i will be taking breaks but not a break that big. that could take hours #chat

[peridotite]

I will say as a watcher of super if you want to skip to when they get to the tournament of power (take 2) its good also we get more Gohan and piccolo fighting together like I skipped the whole evil fake goku in the future arch cause it was so long and so boring

to be honest i'll probably wait until after i finish dbz to make a decision but as of rn i do not wish to watch any super arc bc i literally dont give a shit abt the fights or new characters i just wanna see the leisure/filler scenes

#like i watched a whole episode the gohan saiyaman vs blonde actor bitch turned monster one #and after it i was like gohan i love you but im not watching any more of this shit LMAO #i also watched the one where krillin and goku run an errand for roshi and krillin gets traumapiled. again it was like good but #idk what it is about super that i just like dont like the format or smth? i mean its probably just me only liking dbz cuz nostalgia but #but also when i catch an episode of it on tv its like weirdly fine? like im just like oh haha goku :) #but THEN when i actively chose to look for and watch a dbs episode it was like cool i dont want to do that again #idk its weird. also the more stuff i learn abt super the less i want to watch it like it seems like dogshit #but again! love watching clips of it! the other day i saw one where theyre playing baseball and they reference yamchas death pose #and i loved it it was funny as hell #but just thinking about looking for and watching that whole episode makes me tired #also worth mentioning that i did watch super when it first came out subbed #and i just stopped following it when they decided to bring frieza back.again. i was like cmon seriously #and yeah so i only watched the retelling of the movie but it counts #i dont remember.. really anything from it just the one time i thought goku gushing over bills was gay and i made a post about it lol #so i must not have enjoyed it that much bc on the contrary i remember Really enjoying watching the movie #im talking in circles but yeah thats p much all my experience with super #i liked the broly movie tho and im an embarassing amount of excited for superhero #but yeah dbs just.. not doing it for me #specially when my favorite characters seem to be getting the low end of the stick in it #asks for sami #dbz #..and whatever the fuck theyre doing w goku bc i saw a manga panel where vegeta VEGETA told him hes a bad father COOOME THE FUCK ONNNNNNNNN #also the transformations suck its been like 30 years put some back into it character designers

[lokh]

i willingly went to a bible study in uni cos i thought it would be interesting and they might actually get into analysing stuff. they did not

#they were doing like.... my high school level religion class analysis #i dont remember anything anymore but theyd try to lead me on to something and id be like Oh like this? #and theyd be surprised like wow yea. idr if i stated im not christian so maybe they were just trying to convert me #mildly disappointed. maybe they actually got into stuff in the study proper but it was very much #just extended homily you know. i did not escape mass just to experience it in the form of bible study #you know what i mean???? they werent actually trying to like. Study it they were just kinda. #pointing things out and saying thats proof that jesus wants u to etc etc #i was like does anyone here actually ask questions. apparently not #maybe thats just what bible study actually is and i just misunderstood it 😔 #i think my experience with the evangelical union on campus got my hopes up LMAO #told them i was buddhist back then and it was fun to talk about stuff they werent trying to convert me lmao #i remember they brought up the concept of dukkha and were like isnt that depressing tho #i didnt know how to be like girl im depressed lmao this is just an accurate description #i dont remember if i brought it up then but like cmon. like the concept of sin is any better

[orcelito]

Yes I am scared of mascots/fursuits. I think I had a traumatic memory at Chuck E Cheese's when I was a little kid. Idk why else I'm so put off by proximity to them lmao

#speculation nation #i have the vaguest of memories of the place. crawling in the tubes and watching the mascot suit band #and i must've hated it or smth lmao. i remember being scared of mascots At Least since middle school #when i always cringed away from our school's mascot #it's generally not a disruptive fear. on the rare occasions i end up in proximity to someone in a mascot suit #theyve never rly bothered me if i telegraph i dont wanna be bothered. usually by me just Inching Away... #school events. sometimes festivals. i dont rly do shit often so it rarely comes up #it also shows up at anime conventions tho. with the fursuits. #full respect to furries. theres just something about the artificial eyes and faces that puts me off. #but again. not hard to avoid. i just leave them be and they leave me be. #looking at pictures online doesnt bother me. it's mostly just the proximity that bothers me. #as u could imagine tho. i have never Once wanted to fuck with fna.f #a video game practically tailored to my niche irrational fear. my will to interact with it is in the negatives. #i dont rly like horror games anyways :p so definitely have never been interested #but yea. i think this is the only truly irrational fear i have. anything else im scared of are pretty rational #.........tho i guess mirrors in the dark would count as irrational. tho it's bc Ghosts #OKAY okay that's another probably irrational fear. i just cant look at mirrors in the dark. i will cover my eyes i cant do it. #avoid being in dark rooms with mirrors anyways. as u could imagine i dont keep mirrors in my bedroom. #and when i get up at night to go to the bathroom i very pointedly dont look at the mirror until ive got the lights on #OK SO THATS 2 IRRATIONAL FEARS i swear thats all of them tho. i think. #this has been Sharing Hour with Fanny. hope you enjoyed lmao

[ko-eko-ev-go-ms]

It continues to trip me up how much human brains are just weird organic computers

#thoughts #oni talks #oni vents #additionally wild that the easiest ways for me to explain brain stuff are generally in computer or video game terms despite the fact I’m #notoriously awful with computers (and to a lesser extent video games) although I won’t if my natural inclination would be different if I #didn’t have trauma related to computers/if maybe it’s the classic adhd interest based learning difference? unknown tbh #I still really wanna go to school to study people but academics is fucked as hell so making that work will be a personal hell for me #but also I have so many theories and data I can’t do anything super tangible with coz I’m not in an academic setting so even if i wanted to #talk about stuff and work on it no one would take me seriously w/o that academic background no matter how much effort I’d put in learning it #on my own for my entire life at this point it won’t matter if it’s not on some level acknowledged by an academic system I despise tbh #it’s one of those things that makes me miss my dad coz we used to commiserate together about these sorts of things tho he made it work far #better than I have been able to. i wish i could ask him science questions again. #anyway human brains are so fascinating but also I really wish I was better at explaining myself analysis of people I feel like I’m good #enough at this point to be like partway understood coz I’ve done so much practice on my own coz I tend to rehearse explanations ahead of tim #but its still often misunderstood or misconstrued & it’s understandable a lot of the time coz like most other people aren’t spending a ton #of their free time thinking about and researching how people work/analyzing those around them+themselves vs me whose been doing since like #I dont remember the exact time but I do remember being really young & making the conscious decision to study & analyze my family for example #so that I could be helpful & translate their words to each other better + ppl often don’t see things about themselves that others do #also forever thinking about the human brain/experience in relation to the sims & video game commands lmao #currently trying to explain save states in the human brain to ppl but no one knows wtf I’m talking about #& researching academic terms that are close to what I want doesn’t necessarily work if there’s no academic term for what I’m talking about #hence wanting to do the research myself coz sometimes it feels like there’s all this stuff that’s obvious to me but no one else?? from what #I’ve seen in recent studies they are only starting to scratch the surface of stuff I’ve already known sometimes? other stuff is older & it’s #VERY gratifying when it’s stuff I’ve known but not been listened to about & it actually gets the proper recognition #though getting ppl to actually listen/take what I say seriously is its own journey & I have to be careful myself bc I’m human so my own #understanding/data is constantly updating + I have storage issues so finding the data I have in my brain is its own struggle sometimes #every version of me is interested in people & I think that’s neat even if other people don’t understand that concept #sometimes I feel like an alien/robot whose sole task is just to study & support humanity & it’s very weird tbh

[toilet-paper-ninel]

My son that i hate:

#i spent a whole fucking hour drawing over that meme only for the my son that i hate joke to make sense😭 #i had that first drawing in my phone for a few days tho #fucking loser lightbulb ass haircut #hes like the evil twin but he thinks the other twin is the evil one #oc #you can see the not evil one in the depths of an instagram post #do i have my insta linked here i dont remember🤕 #this guy is frail and stupid and terrible #i hope the way i draw him gets the evil across lmao #no ones gonna see this anyway i have like 5 followers #hehe i can say anything here and no one is gonna know :3 #*insert very funny joke about pineapple on pizza or some shit* #☝️🧀

[frogmascquerade]

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#i would say dan lewis probably had the most chill experience running w the doctor #of the nuwho besties #like okay to be fair i dont remember a whole lot of details from flux but i think everybody he loves is still pretty alive #diane did get put through the ringer LMAO she was cool tho! wish we could have gotten more screen time w her tbh #cause i was thinking like #well i was thinking like if i was the doctors companion how much would it ruin my life vs how much would it 'improve' >/ #it* #like seeing all those things that are amazing and terrible and like the sheer confusion and fear and wonder that always seems to come w #traveling w them #but then its like ofc its dangerous and would it put my family in danger. and to what extent like what happened w the jones family is #horrifying to think about #and how well equipped (emotionally and psychically) am *i* to deal with all of that (probably not very) #and then one day either i die or the doctor leaves or like whatever. like anything could happen and would my family even know #like oh god did 12 ever tell bills mom ????? about bill????? like jesus #well i dont know where i was going w this. but its scary to think about being completely lost on another #planet or in another time or universe or whatever and just. what happens to the people left behind? #this is supposed to be a FUN SCI FI SHOW #(it never was)