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waywardsalt · 1 year

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im actually going to tear into totk’s dragon’s tears/ memories rn bc i remember feeling distinctly unsatisfied with them when i got all of them so im just going to write some general bullet points about them, about what i dislike or maybe what i do actually like about them, leaving out both master sword scenes and the mummydorf one because i’m here to talk about the stuff in the past not that

- off the bat (i play this game in english btw so all of this is based on the english text and translation i am aware some stuff is slightly different in other languages) im not really a fan of how the descriptions of all of the tears is just a literal description of what happens?? i think my issue with it is that some of the text is a little bit too in depth, as in it just tells you literally everything about the scene. this might be nitpick-y but i personally dont like it

- what’s up with zelda saying ‘but that must mean...!’ at the end of the scene. is it suggesting that she’s made the realization that rauru and sonia are the first king and queen of hyrule? because they literally tell her that like ten seconds before. i guess it’s suggesting she’s realizing she’s in the past but... idk the texts says ‘she’s left startled by a suspicion that she’s heard those names before’ yeah theyre the first king and queen of hyrule?? they tell her that. they tell her their names and that they are the first leaders of hyrule is she just now connecting the dots that she’s in the past? that’s what the next cutscene implies. but all of the surrounding dialogue and the description don’t suggest that that’s what she’s realizing i feel like this was kind of muddled in the translation

- why did sonia elbow rauru he was just standing weird he didnt say anything this isnt a nitpick im just confused. is it because he’s not being very empathetic towards what zelda’s going through? she elbows him and then she goes and talks to zelda why even elbow rauru. ordinarily you elbow someone like that if you mean for them to go do something why elbow someone if you’re going to do the thing you want anyways

- why doesnt zelda offer to help with the purah pad or anything like that. what happened to her sheikah tech fascination from botw. not even as someone actually familiar with the technology who could give mineru some points as to how it works

- what are sonia and zelda doing behind rauru when he shoots that insane fucking beam at the mulduga swarm they’re clearly doing something with their stones but like... are they amplifying rauru’s power somehow?? what do time powers have to do with the beam of light i dont- what were they doing please the text description only mentions him using his powers so are sonia and zelda just... supporting his powers? idk man

- dragon tear #5 is a whole can of worms with its worse-than-oot reenactment of that one scene from oot. why the focus on sonia and her tear btw. i mean yeah she dies to motivate rauru and zelda but like. why not aim for the new girl who probably doesn’t know how to use it as much and is probably more likely to be separate from the king who can shot insane lasers. im really not a fan of this scene for how strongly the game sides with rauru and zelda being passive and judgemental but ganondorf is literally the best part of it there’s a lot of character in just how he picks up his sword and stands up to leave

- putting memories 6 and 7 together just because of how there was just. no fucking care put into the idea of zelda learning to use her time powers. memory 6 zelda talks about wanting to use her time powers and sonia gives her tips on how she could use it and visualize the use of it and then in memory 7 she can just use it perfectly with great control and timing. why even bother talking about her nothing yet understanding how to use it when the very next scene she just uses it like it’s nothing. how much time has passed we get nothing to show us zelda trying to practice this power just. nope. she’s good she can use it perfectly. also more awkward dialogue sonia saying ‘what a picture zelda paints of him’ as she is. looking directly at zelda. change the line to like, ‘what a picture you paint of him’ she is literally looking right at zelda so why would she say it like that

- generally i feel like memory six should have been before 4 and 5 (4 being where she uses some power to... support??? rauru and it being before memory 5 so that there isnt this weird break in between the memories concerning ganondorf.) memory 6 does not have anything to do with memory 4 or 5 so just put it earlier so there isnt a weird shift in focus between the two big ganondorf scenes

- good god they introduce the idea of sonia and zelda being aware of ganondorf using a fake zelda but theres literally nothing about it having been a problem or them having experience or like. anything. they just TELL you that they know and suggest that it’s been like. a thing for a bit??? also obligatory ganondorf’s face model rigging is fucked comment he’s still the best part

- the pacing of these memories is just weird in general, memories 7 and 8 being separate but the same scene is strange when other memories are long as fuck but cover one event each, plus theres clearly barely any passage of time between memories 7 and 8 it almost feels like they were split up to fill space or just because otherwise it’d be... too long? man idk

- ‘queen sonia needs you!’ girl she is DEAD good fucking luck doing anything to help her

- ganondorf’s horse and its armor both look sick as fuck i really wish you got to see more of it outside the memory it appears in

- everything about the original sages honestly sucks. they aren’t characters they’re just walking macguffins. they have no names and are not relevant or mentioned or make any appearance until they are needed by the story. why does the zora sage talk about getting word about the attacked gerudo village in this scene when like. they’ve all met up and have clearly. been together for a bit. when she gives them the news it’s clearly the first they’ve heard of it... but... why would she wait until this moments to give this info unless for the benefit of the player watching the scene. why does the ZORA sage have this news and not... the gerudo sage?? what’s with the masks. they’re all made of zonaite or whatever sure theyre gifts from rauru but like. i hate that it kind of denotes them being subservient and lower than him and the zonai. honestly i really hate this scene in general mostly because of the uncomfortable showing of how rauru absolutely holds power over them and despite them being leaders as well they are expected to be wholly blindly loyal to him. rauru only gives them these stones when he needs their aid and they swear loyalty too him soon after but you also see that sonia and mineru have stones, too, so they’re clearly withholding these things despite it being kind of reasonable for him to give each race their own secret stone as further proof of their pact? there is so much shit to be said about the imperialistic themes or whatever in this fucking story and i really hate it

- i do kinda like how the next scene shows you that the one rock in the corner of that first hidden room in the forgotten temple is sonia’s grave

- zelda’s phrasing and description of how she and link found ganondorf is weird to me ‘he’s still alive’ ‘he lives on’ girl that was a mummy. he was not moving until you got there. he’s undead at best as far as you know. this is def a nitpick but eh. also the reliance on link is a... bit odd when zelda does not actually know that link is safe until she gets the master sword. its fine but still. also her shell-shocked expression after rauru talks about her being in the past for a reason is a bit... it doesn’t fit her emotion it’s kind of similar to the expression she had when sonia was killed

- the memory about the imprisoning war starts with practically the whole story up until now being repeated back to you by mineru with a decent amount of bias on mineru’s part and while it’s fine because of some of the extra stuff you learn but it does a lot more telling rather than showing when it comes to the actual imprisoning war and... idk the whole thing about their ‘fight’ kind of falls flat when you don’t actually see any fighting you just see that the sages have gotten their asses beat. i think it would have been a little interesting if in the god-awful repetitive sage-awakening scenes they had actually showed you the og sages fighting ganondorf instead of just. slow-mo freeze-frames for whatever. once again ganondorf if the best part of the scene

- the rest of the memories are fine idc

i get the feeling that the japanese-to-english translation was either all-around rough or somehow rushed, because some of the phrases in the game as well as some of the dialogue is really awkward and... could have been better. i don’t know how it works but it feels like a lot of it was very literal, direct translation and no one at noa thought that it ought to be tweaked just a little bit

these memories also do a fuck-ton of telling rather than showing and it really is like they don’t really trust you to connect the dots, and some of it does come off like they either didn’t want to make more memories or ran out of time or something. i felt like the memory of ganondorf just summoning his monsters and riding on his cool horse could have been a bit longer to actually show us the forces of hyrule fighting him and having a hard time with it

a lot of the character animations doesn’t have a whole lot of personality to them, ganondorf is the character who had the most distinct and interesting movements. rauru and sonia had their... singular movement (rauru putting a hand to his chin and sonia taking zelda’s hands) and zelda was kind of just... standing around and reacting to stuff, and neither mineru nor any of the other sages had any really interesting animations asides from mineru’s coughing fit in memory 16 (plus her reclining chair that was a nice touch). very few of their movements really express anything about the characters besides some really baseline values or traits.

the ordering of some memories is kind of odd, the excessive flashbacks in memory 17 are a bit much, the telling rather than showing, the sometimes awkward dialogue, a lot of the scenes are characters just... talking at each other, you don’t actually see very much of hyrule in the past or any characters beyond the main four, and it really did nothing to actually get me to care about these characters at all.

tldr i dont like totk’s dragon tears

#i didnt want to revisit this game but the memories in totk bother me. once im done with this tho i can go read my new volumes of berserk #salty talks #loz #legend of zelda #totk #literally the narrative of this game dragged the rest of the game through mud for me so im going to complain abt it more #any time i wanted to rewatch a part of a scene i have to sit through a few minutes of bullshit just to get to the point.#these things are so long and barely anything happens in them #half of these cutscenes are just characters standing around and talking theres so little actual character to most of the character movements #ganondorf has the most emotive and distinct movements in all of these scenes #they have the most personality and you get the most variety. with rauru and sonia its just. shes gentle n motherly hes uhhhh arrogant king #honest to god. i miss linebeck. i miss the way he was animated and the sheer amount of personality they gave him in every cutscene #fuck man i miss botw's memories. despite them being shorter (i'm pretty sure) i feel like there was more essence to them. more character #listen. i understand that gamedev is hard and so is writing and animating but like. this game is seventy fucking dollars.#despite him being so disappointingly one-note. ganondorf was the most interesting fucking character in these memories #finding the dragon's tears was fun but actually watching them was lame af #hey remember those posts i made about ph's cutscenes? maybe its the autism but i feel like i couldnt write those paragraphs abt totk #ig just. ph is my special interest and i have a negative bias against totk. if you think im dead wrong about this stuff go ahead.#i dont blame anyone for taking my words with a grain of salt. come to your own conclusions. if oyu like totk's memories cool!#anyways im done bye im gonna read berserk. which actually has a nuanced story and world and characters and a multi-faceted villain #totk spoilers #bitching abt totk

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lunarharp · 4 months

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wip thing...

of my bg3 avatar hellebore. i also did some casual nude studies of my 3 characters which i'll put under a cut... rather unlike me after all. (so WARNING for abrupt non-sexual full Artistic nudity lol...,,,,) (< won't be making a habit of this)

they mean the world to me

#bg3 spoilers #?? idk. gith look so..Emaciated. And long. i guess we don't eat on the astral plane :) anyway..well..too much to say.....#it is very very very depressing having to live in the Real World after that final playthrough meant so very much to me.#i normally feel Hope & suchlike after finishing a highly immersive emotional game..but it's too hard this time and it hurtsssss lol yippee #i appreciate bg3 very much for being a place where i could access the concept of nudity & such like in a way that finally felt comfortable.#bodies are inherently non-sexual. they just Are a Fact of Life. this game being NORMAL about nudity from the character creation screen #makes it possible for someone like me to actually have a chance at accessing sensuality in a way that feels comfortable from there.#dont feel like putting it into words further. im ace. just very grateful to this game. even despite the horrors i will never ever forget it #augoh..gugf.. want to go back. my friends & love are in there.....i'm supposed to just move on? in the real world??? THIS place???? UHH????#my characters canonically look like that too!! i see them as intersex and not so much trans. They just look that way.#Diversity win!!! the people who enacted horrors upon you and are trying to kill you again respect your pronouns!!!! <3 #I FAILED HONOUR MODE IN THE STUPIDEST WAY POSSIBLE..ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHED AN ITEM. MY LOVER TOUCHED SOME BLOOD-TOUCHED RAG ITEM @ THE CRECHE #AND MY PEOPLE MASSACRED US... YOU BELOVED PRAT. OF COURSE IT WOULD BE YOU AND IN THIS WAY #grateful for love triangle chaos...INTENSE EX DRAMA... IT HAD MAJOR REPURCUSSIONS THIS TIME...ohh so very much happened ohh my dear #truly don't know how to face the Real World now for real. I Don't Know. something has snapped. ive realised twt just makes me feel sad lol #if something in my spare time isn't at least half as fun as bg3....like.. it's not good enough. god we only have one wild and precious life #being Online makes me feel a loneliness so wretched and painful and horrible i really don't think this is the answer.#Why did you even start drawing in the first place? Why did you start this?#For real..the need to work this out and decide what on earth i'm going to do now has presented itself. Why try to get better..why be online #someone who has an imagination that can keep them so happy and fulfilled...has no business also feeling a loneliness as profound as this.#why was someone THIS introverted and withdrawn and anxious also cursed with such a restlessness?#What are you going to DO now? because hellebore and their lover are fine....... So what about you...?#hellebore..😭😭 AUUGHH!! I JUST WANT TO GO TO MY BED IN THE INN...PLAY ON MY VIOLIN THAT'S WHAT I'D DO!!!! i'd drink some ALE DAMNIT!!!!!#i was rereading My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness- the only time i've seen this level of emotional isolation depicted-and was grateful.#but then i read her latest book and now she has a debilitating substance abuse situation and it's upsetting.#I hope she finds what she was looking for. I hope we all make it. kind of wild that i dont do such major self-sabotage at this point myself #I truly think anyone who manages to find dear friends and achieve fulfillment and happiness with others outside themselves are amazing.#I see it happen from my tower. i hope we all make it. I hope we can make it through everything to come.#Why did i say all this on drawings of my characters naked. ah who even cares any more......

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hella1975 · 2 years

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id like it to be known that i wholeheartedly support abortion. i support abortion for the person whose pregnancy has become too dangerous to come to term. i support abortion for the victim of rape. i support abortion for those who don't have the financial means to have a child. i support abortion for those underage. i support abortion for someone middle-aged with a stable family and finances and loving partner who quite simply does not want a child. i support abortion for people who sleep around. i support abortion for someone who thought they wanted a child but changed their mind. i support abortion in all its infinitely different situations. if it comes to me picking between a bunch of cells that look like fish eggs and an actual living breathing person with a name and future then babe we're having caviar

#fun fact! 9/10 abortions happen before 12 weeks #and over half happen in the first 8 weeks #at 12 weeks your fetus (bc it's not even a baby yet if u want to be technical) is the size of a lime. a fucking lime #i wasnt going to make a post about this bc i dont like bringing politics onto tumblr #bc after how jaded i got with covid and now Everythign Else i wanted a site that could be safe from real world shit #and also it's very tiring that an American Issue suddenly becomes Everyone's Issue and it can be quite frustrating #when that energy isn't met for literally any other country. and i didnt want to contribute to the en masse posting about roe v wade atm #for those two reasons (at least on tumblr. im not actually spiteful about this and obviously really care about the topic. it's just tiring)#but it's come to my attention that somehow i have pro-lifers in these parts #and i want to make it very fucking clear that i dont want them here #me and this blog are completely wholeheartedly pro-choice in any form it may show itself as #because i have enough critical thinking skills to know two basic facts #1) that people have ALWAYS had abortions. the only thing that's changed is the safety in which they're carried out #you will NEVER get rid of them you will only ever endanger the people and women you're trying so hard to 'protect'#and 2) i have never heard of a single person that was happy to get an abortion. not one. it's not a fun experience #it's incredibly hard and traumatic but oftentimes necessary for whatever personal reason specific to that person #stop fucking making laws about other people's bodies #it really shouldn't be difficult

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haemosexuality · 7 months

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fuck it fnaf tierlist

#fnaf 3 and sl both have cool lore and some other cool bits but arent good to play #and sl marks imo the start of fnafs downfall #like fnaf 3 is only bad gameplay-wise sl is bad in. almost everything. actually i dont even like the lore that much i just like the #purple mike minigame the idea of a robot wearing an actively decomposing human body is sick #and the fan songs gave me a soft spot for it #but other than that i think you could remove all of sl's lore and animatronics and the franchise would be better. AND the gameplay sucks as #i also think that anything that happened after pizzaria simulator can just be erased #actually yk what would be fun. fuse fnaf 3 and pizzaria simulator together #put the henry monologue at the end of fnaf 3 yk make it so that burning fazbears frights was his plan or smth. join the funny bits of the #simulator w the spooky halloween attraction. both games minigames can stay. the happiest day happening at the same time henry burns #everything down makes sense william goes to superhell and the kids souls are released. see it all works out im a genius #and that way we can erase the funtimes from existence. yay!#what else. custom night is great i like it i almost put it as fuck yeah. fnaf world is fun and funny and cute i love whimsy. security breac #needs to die. i like the sun moon design ig but not for a fnaf game #idk what half of the bottom tier even is #the movie is everything i ever wanted #ok thats all <3 #i wanted to make the books but i havent read all of them and the ones i did read i barely remember cuz it was years ago #five nights at freddy's #fnaf

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todayisafridaynight · 8 months

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in the last supper recreation, kiryu is in the position of james the great, who was the first to die for jesus [ in this case, ichi ] which makes me nervous. peepaw gonna die for real this time??

another possible connection i found is how jo is in the position of thomas, who demanded proof of christ's crucifixion. not sure how it correlates, but it's something!

call me a smooth brain but im not trying to think too much bout the potential symbolism behind The Last Supper pic. the parallels ARE neat and they PROB could be indicative of whats to come (theres also cosniderations for the fact there's two variations of the picture) tho: never say never and all

#snap chats #sorry KH fans have scarred me in how they overanalyze everything LMAO #again call me simple call me a baby brain. i like my smooth baby brain thank you very much #despite the fact i had to go to church for like. half my life one way or another i actually know piss bout the borble LOL #all id do was sleep during church and bible study Forgive Me Father i was seven #all i know is that my mom thinks im like judas so. fun !#anyway who knows what'll happen to kiryu. part of me wants him to die because im evil and i know that'll make a lot of people sad #but i also like kiryu. believe it or not. i do. i at least think he should talk with haruka one last time #in any case. i dont wanna speculate cause every time i speculate or start thinkin i get shot in the dome for it #so im holding my tongue until we get there LMAO

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stuffedsand · 9 months

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Silly little like. Thoughts post. Not on purge march but on what could happen t3 cuz I don't care too much? About the last 3 prisoners' crimes

I think it'd be funny if they killed off a character during the trial. Like. In the middle of t3. Like for example if amane is inno voted this round they could put mahiru on a "timer" in which she dies before the trial ends (when amanes t3 votes open perhaps...)

It is the last trial after all, they can afford to kill off characters cuz they only need to be alive for their song+vd and interro

Idk it's an interesting thought to me

#also itd ruin everyone like think abt it #milgram #posting thoughts i have in school and like to think about #mahiru dying in t3 would destroy people tho i think #like #not just in fandom but the characters too #also i think yamanaka mentioned milgram still being in the “tame half”#so i hope they like. explode someone in t3. raise the stakes a lil #it'd be fun tho like #doesnt matter how you voted you let this happen and concequences exist type deal #anyways dont ask me what i think of amanes votes i dont like her but i dont think she deserves another guilty but she'll probably end up #killing mahiru if shes inno so like. idk i like mahiru more than i like amane for one #purely personal lol i don't like primary schoolers #ialso itd make other characters react so strongly #yuno would be Pissed #fuuta would critisise es (us)#shidou would go bacj to the im a terrible person please kill me except with a side of i cant even do my job right #mahiru.#kazui would also be a lil like. augh #amane would be so proud of herself wouldnt she #idk i don't like vhildren man (joking)#these sre just disorganized and unsorted thoughts so dont mind them lol #oh kotoko mihht be a lil mad too cuz mahiru was deemed innocent but died anyway #idk #also to elaborate on dont care abt their crimes i just dont like amane i think mikotos is like. idk. and kotokos is predictable #not enough silly symbolism and tiny bits of random hard to miss evidence to interest my bird brain #specifically easy to read symbolism tarot symbolism is too complicated for me personally #idk i might have controversial takes lol

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fleshdyke · 10 months

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absnskaisgbsj

#lost literally one of the best friendships of my life yesterday #i mean it’s been gone for a while i just never had the courage to talk to them about it until yesterday. and that basically confirmed it tbh #they didn’t say i did anything wrong but they also didn’t not say i did anything wrong and i’m v paranoid that i did do smth wrong #like i dont want to talk bad abt any of them bc genuinely i had so much fun with these people and im so glad i got to know them #like when i talked to them they were very dry ig? like not like their usual self at all even when talking to someone they dont know #definitely sounded like they were talking to someone they hated. im trying to tell myself taht its just my anxiety but ummm yeah idk i think #im actually right this time #idk. it just sucks man. im trying to think of what i did wrong bc i just dont know what happened #i think im overanalyzing every interaction i can remember having with these ppl bc i dont even want to entertain the idea that they might #have been bad people all along. i dont want to think that and i dont but idk it feels like an observation about myself that ive made from #the outside in yk. like half of me is feeling the emotional response and the other half is just watching from the outside like im someone #else. and i know this is a normal human thing but its just always weird yk #and then theres the whole awful thing of seeing shit that they would find funny or that reminds me of them. and i also dont know what im #supposed to do when school starts back up again bc we took a lot of the same classes and if i end up in a class with them idk if im supposed #to say hi or just pretend they dont exist or not and i dont want to make the wrong decision so they hate me even more yk #whatever man. it fucking sucks but life goes on. my dog is just chilling in my room rn and i’ll always have her and tia and my brother #rambles #vent

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#ok. so all my applications r submitted now. which is something bc at 7pm i didnt think it was going to #i mean. i did half ass the last one. like i wrote the personal statement and research statement in December as a draft #and today i was like oh fuck thats due tomorrow. fuck it. submit. i wish the project was in the US bc i think ive decided i dont wanna do a #uk phd but fuck it lets see what happens. if they want me then ill give minimal effort for the competitive selection process and anticipate #being cut early. i really didnt wanna do it. bc i just dont think i have the energy for the interviews if i get selected but since i didnt #want to that means i had to so here we r. i was kinda bitchy in the personal statement too bc they basically asked for everything in the #research statement so like y tf did u make me write 2 fuck off i spend so much fucking time on that bullshit #anyway. thats one less thing to worry abt but i did just realize i have like 3 days to completely overhaul my last manuscript #so uh thats gonna be fucking fun #sigh... and i try out measurements tomorrow so well see how bad this is gonna hurt :-P #jesus. i just realized im gonna have to intensely pay attention for like 8hrs tomorrow and then manuscript write into the night #fuck. and i need to go to the store agh #unrelated

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blinkbones · 1 year

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hey ofmd fandom. have a writing warmup that turned out alright Jim/Oluwande post s1 stuff for a "fear" prompt. hope u like <3

Finding their way back to the ship was no relief, even when they were all allowed on board again—all but Stede. Which meant that most of the other outcasts had stuck to him, but… he had been unable to. Not with Jim stuck there.

They were, perhaps, the scariest part of all this. Now, this should not have been a surprise: Jim’s homicidal potential had been long established, and their mere presence should, by all means, have been enough to make anyone uneasy. But of course, they were also his partner, the tender wolf kissing his cheekbones and stroking his neck where the pulse would always jump into disarray. Oluwande trusted them to be on his side, as much as he trusted their competence with a knife. He had seen it first hand many times—ghost-quiet, a spirit made of sharp wind. They would have that steely stability of absolute focus in the way they moved that reminded him of a buzzard. It had been hot to look at, many times. One cannot overstate the pull of attraction of a very dangerous creature that knows what it is that they are doing, and are oh-so-good at it.

Or so you would think.

In this new context, Jim was in that state of keen battlefield awareness, perpetually. The enticement was gone; instead, Oluwande felt a mixture of sadness and dread, topped with the occasional spikes of terror that had him reevaluate his ability to swim. Jim looked tired. A few thin lines of stress had been permanently folded into the sides of their eyes. Another ran up the space between their eyebrows. Their jaw had a constant tension in it, like the next punch could hit at any point.

(To be fair to them, they had been hiding it exceptionally well. The only reason that Olu had noticed at all, was because he spent such an inordinate amount of time and energy paying attention to them.)

The implications were frightening.

#is this too short for a read more? i played it safe #our flag means death #jim jimenez #oluwande boodhari #ofmd oluwande #ofmd jim #ofmd fanfic #ofmd fic #ofmd #my writing #jim x oluwande #oluwande x jim #if i have to type anymore similar tags my eyes will cross #anyway. correct my english? YES critique my writing? not here. this is sketchbook equivalent and i barely checked for typos #i mean. if u WANT to critique it's fine i dont mind. i just think this aint worth it LOL #my english tho... always........ please.#also fun fact: i had to google both of their names lmfao #such a poser i am #i am SO tired i honestly cant think of any etiquette thign i might want to check i did right. and u can tell im tired because im hardcore #--rambling. yeah. yeah. author is half asleep in the tags. it happens #im just concerned about etiquette because fandom is.... stressful #anyway. if u read this snippet i love u bye #my posts

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nomaishuttle · 1 year

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freaking out again . kills myself

#my mom said she could cover half my ticket but she said that when the ticket was 400 and then i found one for like 200 but i dont have #enough to get that even not even half of it but i think shell still only pay half which is fair #but also she wont have money until the end of the month but im supposed to leave on the sixth #so i need to get the tickets like right now before the prices go up but i cant bc i Dont have the money #but i rly rly rly need to get this figured out #bc im not just visiting for fun. i also have to get my root canal finished #bc the fake tooths literally chipping off i neeeddd it finished and my old insurance is covering it so i need. i just need it #but i dont know how to bring it up again like. and i dont. ayfhfjrbffngkgngj #i need to get my license updated as well like badly so that i have an id for the uhm. flighg #i have a rpettyy good amt of time to do it but i cant drive myself soi rly rly rly need to vet that #UGHH. im just rly fucking scared #i cant sleep im like..worrying so bad but i cant do anyrhing right now #and my dad gave me a hundred bc my acct was in rhe negative bc of the fucking. late payment things which i dont even know how they happened #bc i had enough money for the things i ws buying but its. whatever idk #im just rly rly rly fucking worried again #im judt like. im rly rly rly freaking out #and the job is like. he said hedgetvack tome by the end of the week but today issaturday and i didnt hear anything #but even if i get it it pays on the 20th and 5th of everry month #so i wouldnt get enouguh money in time to get a ticket i dont think #even if i started working like. day after tmrw thatd be what. 3 days pay b4 the paycheck and idek when the pay epriod is ykwim #im just..rly rly rly scared basically #idk what to do at all and its. once this trip is over itll literally be fine i just need this trip to be over and finished and then i cn #figure out job #but i rly rly tly need the reply #bc i havent been likee. applying for new jobs jic i get this one Which was fuckin stupid #im just like.UGH!! im rly rly freaked out is all

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chainreh · 1 year

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guess who just finished three hopes lol

#okay lol rambles in the tags↓#i am incredibly biased bc the beagles are my absolute favs in 3h but crimson whatever was definitely my favourite #in azure gleam i really liked felix's character arc (HIS AND DIMITRIS A SUPPORT IS EVERYTHING)#and i like rodrigue being playable that was fun #but like. man what happens to edelgard in that route just makes me so fucking sad #esp at the end where she has to watch the only person left that she 'trusts' die and becomes so mindbroken she age regresses basically #aND DIMITRI JUST CANT KILL HER BC SHE USES HIS NICKNAME AND 😭😭😭😭😭😭#what the fuck. never found out what happened to ferdinand and hubert also #all the endings feel half finished tbh :/ i see why people are mad theres no dlc for this game #golden wildfire was probably my leasr fav but im not the biggest deers fan so that make sense ig #i was just expecting there to be more of almyra but shahid shows up twice and dies and then the plot just ends its lame #the cutscene with claude hilda and lorenz was sick thooooo #i was giggling its so :)#also interesting ig that the lords advisors all got a duo scene but edelgard didnt appear in hubert and ferdinands #ig it moreso shows their relationships. hubert and ferdinand act independently to support edelgard #felix and dedue are dimitris closest supports who ensure he stays on the right path #and hilda and lorenz always back up claude in his schemes and whatnot #idk just thinking 🤔#anyway the plot of this game is pretty good👍not the biggest fan of the gameplay tho #thankfully on ng+ u dont really have to do any nonstory maps which speeds things up a bit #im glad i actually got around to playing tho even if it tookover half a year lol

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adambomb82 · 29 days

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It's that time again

#hello friend #i dont remember the last time we talked #or rather you listened #i find myself in an odd situation #i keep having reoccuringdreams that feel like all the progress ive made has been for nothing #visions of past memories and also a future in which things stayed the same #things happening that could have happened but also would not happen #interactions with people long since past all in an effort to find some closure #i fear that this will forever mark me somehow and i will not be able to escape this #have i trapped myself? are the circumstances in my control?#to some extent i blieve they are but its so hard to force my mind one direction when it clearly has its own plans #i miss my friends so dearly #i miss what could have been #im currently on vacation and while i am having fun i cant help but feel half of a whole #i feel like i would enjoy this so much more if it were with a companion or someone i loved dearly #because promises were made long ago that never came to fruition #and now i am experiencing those things alone and feel as though ive robbed myself and her of these experiences #i find myself thinking about you once again and wondering when our paths will cross again #or if i even want that to happen #if i left for good would you turn and look?#time will tell #so many words and thoughts and not enough time to tell them all in a way thats coherent #a stream of consciousness that will find its path #i miss you #i miss all of you #i hope one day i can be at ease #everything will be okay because it has to be #this too shall pass

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be-good-to-bugs · 1 month

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i need to go to bed but i dont wannnaaaaa

#the bin #i work at 7am and its 1:23 am i have GOT to go to bad but ugh. if i go to bed then that means ill have to go to work as sokn as im conscious #so the longer i stay up the more time i have. but km gonna be so tired at work. hhhhh.#i dont know why but ive felt so horrible today. super anxious. miserable and really sad #im trying to just deal with it. soon enough things are gonna change. its only 34 days till my planned moving date. i will only bave like 20 #more shifts at this job. maybe less depending on what i get given. including tomorrows shift. and tomorrows shift is only 5 hours long #and the day after its only 4 hours and then i have 2 more days off. itll be ok. but i still feel so anxious and depressed and awful #i just wanna stay home and be high all the time. i feel so lonely always. literally the only thing that helps me not feel completely crushed #and paralyzed by how lonely i am is getting high. i know its not healthy to rely on getting high to feel better about stuff but idk what #else to do so who cares. when i dont do anything about it i i stead end up relapsing or worse so i think its an ok option #i hope i can meet nice people this year. year after year it doesnt happen but so much has changed!#it makes sense i havent met people since i moved out. and everything is so different from wwhen i last lived with them #all my siblings are in school. they have people over at the hair a fair bit afaik. my dad wont be there to me make feel awful. my sister #also wont be there to me me feel awful. i can figure something out. itll be ok. it has to be.#i just want to squeeze someone. i just want like. a hug. a good cuddle. and i need to talk to someone. its been so long since u had an actul #fun time hanging out with another person. i need to watch a movie with someone and joke around and. ugh.#how did my life reach this point? what happened that resulted in me spending ages 10-19 all alone. im not even 19 yet but i will be soon #and theres not a chance ill meet someone before then esp bc im moving. when i was little i didnt have mych friends but i had some #i had such high hopes for the future. i also thought the future would be terrible but i imagined id still have friends and peopwl to talk to #all ive wanted sincei was 10 is just to have people to talk to and hangout with. but i dont have a single friend. i can hardky name anyone #besides my family and coworkers. and like aa couple of my sisters friends. there isnt even like people i know who i dont really consider #friends but we talk sometimes. if i dont go to work. call my mom. or tex a sibling. i dont see or talk to anyone period #i guess unless i go to the store. that doenst really count tho.#i want to have a friends group. i want to have A friends. just like. a person. to interact with. what happened that made mw spend the past #8 years just not interacting with anyone? whats wrong with me.#its fine tho. becausebit will change. i acan heal from this and i can meet people. even if half my conscious life has been spent all alone #it will get better. it has to.

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todayisafridaynight · 11 months

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LISTEN I KNOW HOW IT SOUNDS BUT I SWEAR HE WAS DISTINCT FROM RGGJO STILL 😭😭😭 HIS DESIGN WAS LOUD IN A DIFFERENT WAY 😭😭😭😭😭 though As A Whole it was probably the result of someone saying he should go full RGGJo in 8 several months prior to when I had the dream, so not wrong. But it would be fun to see a shift from "Nothing in life matters...😞" to "Nothing in life matters! 😎" would it not...

I've always thought Drink Link was meant to evoke Social Link? Because in Japan it was called #DRAMA. I was never the biggest fan because it's one of many "translations" in Y7 that are just changing something that was already in English and doesn't require cultural context to understand. Like IMO whether it's seen as an improvement or not, it's just not the localizers' job to "improve on" the original; let them be cringe and let them be free...

And also it gave ammunition to Persona fans who refuse to experience anything but P5 and decided to go "wow! it's just like P5!" at every little thing Y7 did from the VERY FIRST trailers onward (including BE AN RPG) And That Shit Got Old Fast </3 Sorry </3 But I do think this one's very much on purpose, localization-wise. So I forgive you :)

RANTING ASIDE. OR. SEGUEING INTO MORE RANTING. Literally like I don't even care if it's as part of the Kasugang or Kiryu's Geezer Squad... Give Jo five minutes with Tendo or hand him over to me so I can make sure he's enriched and well-nourished... these are my demands... that man is my everything......

Because it would be SO funny both ways. We don't know who all will be in each party, so either he's stuck with Adachi (Definitely A Character) (Affectionate) (Also Has Already Told Him He'd Rather Kill Him Than Send Him To Jail So. Awkward) or maybe with Kiryu's he'd have more people around his agw, But if not, The Inherent Comedy of two bitches called Jo and Joryu who have almost the same haircut 💀💀

Exactly though, nobody in the Arakawa Family is neurotypical and I FULLY believe Jo would be at his best when put into Situations, like Mine is. It's something I reeeally miss from RGGO because of the pre-finale scene with RGGJo and Mitsu having a drink at their favorite bar... they haven't been there in a while, and RGGJo doesn't wanna spoil the mood, so he's not hostile in the slightest... and when he gets up to leave he says he "forgot his wallet" and makes Mitsu foot the bill (ICONIC for completely different reasons depending on whether he's telling the truth or not)... whereas in Y7 I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF THE ARAKAWAS HAVE A FAVORITE BAR

it could be funny- whiplash inducing, but that'd undoubtedly be why it'd be funny wouldn't it ♪(´▽｀) he could've been some sacred third thing- just more RGGJo influence injected in Y7Jo mayhaps..

anyhow it dont sound like you forgive me when you just got mad at persona players for makin comparisons and here ive gone and done such a thing LMAO（；´д｀）（；´д｀）in any case, i know how you feel about translations so i wont press the topic: if it aint broke etc etc, i understand how you feel so it's ok (❁´◡`❁;;)

double 'jo' def woulda been funny, if not has always been a small thing worth jokin bout that ive had in the back of my mind (though ive already said that: i have a broken record of a brain at this point, if not that it just points out how silly i find the idea) LMAO. i've always enjoyed antag-turned-party member anyhow, so it wouldve been fun to me regardless of what it brought ♪(´▽｀)

#long post #snap chats #i say unnecessary things a lot so its easy for me to say something upsetting oops (´▽｀;;;)#its a habit im trying to break- to speak concisely instead of without aim. though if im realistic im not sure i can do that #i can only ask please be patient with me for saying annoying things in the future (❁´◡`❁)#im sure it'll happen a lot by accident and has already happened (❁´◡`❁ ;; ) so ill make sure to remember whats most bothersome (❁´◡`❁)#before my organs shut down on me let me move on OWOWOW #i remember the bit in rggo where jo forgot his wallet i truly couldnt stop myself from sayin My Guy Cmon 😭 ☠️☠️#in the case of rggjo its fun to imagine his forgetfulness as ambiguous cause Truly Did He Mean To Forget Or 🤨#in the case of y7jo its harder to believe hed do it on purpose so in the case where he does its just ☠️☠️#bros Truly losin it.... his mind AND his wallet... i know ichi gon make a joke 😔#aside from that though maybe jo would benefit from having friends his age <- saying this as if he's in grade school ☠️☠️#in the case of the arakawas having a personal favorite bar tho... i couldnt say #ive already made an assessment of jo's sociability through his office so i wanna make a half-confident bet he doesnt like to get out much #lest it's required for Whatever Reason- but what about arakawa then ? much to consider..#i honestly couldnt wager what he'd prefer.. i dont know what atmosphere he'd like... he's too mysterious for me (´▽｀;;)#for some reason i can only ever imagine him drinking at home or at quaint restaurants...#idk cant explain it... thats just the vibe... very likely im wrong though..#my organs truly hurt now- i think i gave myself a headache by mistake so ill have to stop my pondering before i explode (´▽｀;;)

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