#i miss my friends so dearly

[adambomb82]

It's that time again

#hello friend #i dont remember the last time we talked #or rather you listened #i find myself in an odd situation #i keep having reoccuringdreams that feel like all the progress ive made has been for nothing #visions of past memories and also a future in which things stayed the same #things happening that could have happened but also would not happen #interactions with people long since past all in an effort to find some closure #i fear that this will forever mark me somehow and i will not be able to escape this #have i trapped myself? are the circumstances in my control? #to some extent i blieve they are but its so hard to force my mind one direction when it clearly has its own plans #i miss my friends so dearly #i miss what could have been #im currently on vacation and while i am having fun i cant help but feel half of a whole #i feel like i would enjoy this so much more if it were with a companion or someone i loved dearly #because promises were made long ago that never came to fruition #and now i am experiencing those things alone and feel as though ive robbed myself and her of these experiences #i find myself thinking about you once again and wondering when our paths will cross again #or if i even want that to happen #if i left for good would you turn and look? #time will tell #so many words and thoughts and not enough time to tell them all in a way thats coherent #a stream of consciousness that will find its path #i miss you #i miss all of you #i hope one day i can be at ease #everything will be okay because it has to be #this too shall pass

[cerise-on-top]

Ooh, what if Price/Ghost/Gaz/Laswell came across their childhood best friend? Reuniting with reader who was there for them through thick and thin, until they joined the military and lost contact 🙏

I've been reading/re-reading some of your works!! They're so good! Also, I'm sorry those teenagers were pricks to you, hope you have some better days soon!

Hello! I have to say, I'm genuinely surprised anyone reads my rambles in the tags, I didn't think anyone would, but thank you! You don't know how much I appreciate it! Today was already a much better day, which is why I decided to write and post two requests today! This is a lovely request, very nice! Love me some platonic stuff as well! Sometimes all you need is a good friend by your side!

Price, Gaz, Ghost and Laswell Come Across their Childhood Best Friend

Price: He actually thinks about you from time to time, more often than he’d like to admit. You were a good person in his eyes, always there for him no matter what he went through, which is something he could appreciate. His childhood wasn’t particularly bad, but he had some days where he would have loved to simply throw in the towel, which is normal, though. Price was a rowdy guy when he was young, so you likely either went along with some of his ideas or were kind enough to talk him out of them. Either way, he appreciated having you around, so seeing you again would be quite the surprise, he didn’t think he ever would again. If he’s on a mission, then the talk will be kept short, but afterwards he’ll make sure to seek you out again, catch up a bit and ask you how you’ve been. Price didn’t expect to have missed you this much, but he only realized that once he saw you. You’ll either be going to one of the cafes you used to visit nearby, or maybe sit down on a park bench and maybe eat some sandwiches together, just like you used to during the good old times. Since you’d likely be around his age, so roughly 37-38, you’d have a lot to tell. Roughly 22 years you need to catch up on. He’s willing to talk to you, tell you about his career, how he's been doing, about the people he’s met and how he’s feeling. Considering this much time has passed, there’s a good chance you’ve both mellowed out quite a bit, but it isn’t unpleasant, you’re both mature people now. He likes hearing about everything you’ve accomplished, it’s like you became a new person during all those years. It’s so lovely to him, he sort of can’t believe it. Whether it’s a coincidence, or maybe you sought him out, it doesn’t matter, spending time with you again brings back all those memories he thought he had since forgotten about. He laughs, he smiles, he frowns. He’s a bit more expressive with you, but really wants to reminisce about the good old times. Even so, he hopes to be able to see you again more often, so you’ll likely exchange numbers. This time he tries to make sure to not lose contact with you and will text you every once in a while.

Gaz: When he was a child, Gaz was a lot calmer than he is today, a very quiet kid. He had always been a good boy, a gift in the eyes of many, but he wasn’t as active a child as one would imagine. Ergo he didn’t have very many friends until he became older either, but he was loyal to the few he did have. You were one of them. As you slowly started to grow apart, he started to miss you, but didn’t want to bother you either, as much as he would have loved to do so. So I’m sure you can imagine the surprise on his face when he found you at the mall the two of you would hang out in during rainy days. Gaz has become more confident, so he’d immediately walk up to you once he recognises you and start talking. Like Price, he’d be pleasantly surprised to just see you in such a mundane place, but won’t question it. Or complain about it either. In fact, if you’re not carrying anything heavy, he’d be the one to suggest going out to eat or drink something. Again, either a small and quiet cafe or a small restaurant. Maybe you’d go to a place you liked when you were kids, if it’s still open. Regardless, it’d be hard to get him to shut up with how excited he is to have you around. It’s a calm kind of excitement, but he’s happy, and that’s what’s important. It’s very likely that he’ll pay for your food, even if you insist he shouldn’t, but it’s not like he has any other use for his money. Chatting with him about the good old times is very sweet, he likes to bring up all the good things. But eventually, he’ll thank you for everything you’ve done for him and how happy he was to have you as a friend. Considering there were very few people who tried to get to know him, he was quite lonely, but you fixed that. You made everything better. From the pain on his knee when he fell as you gave him a band-aid, to the pain in his heart when the other children ridiculed him. Like Price, he’ll ask you if you want his number so you could continue to keep in contact with each other. He knows it’ll likely never be the same again, but he can pretend everything is as good as it used to be back when he was young. He’d love to spend time with you again.

Ghost: This man has had one of the worst childhoods imaginable. He was abused by his father, and the only friends he had aside from you were his mother and his brother. Barely anyone was kind towards him or accepted him considering he had always been the weird kid. No one but you wanted to spend time with him. Needless to say, Ghost had taken a liking to you when he was younger. You spent your time with him, you even defended him when some of the other kids ridiculed him. And now, 12 years later, he finds you running after a coin you accidentally dropped on the ground, bumping into him as you did so. He’d be wide eyed at first, a bit quiet as well. Once you left he never would have thought he’d ever find someone like you again, but here you were, just as quiet and surprised to see him. Ghost would pick up the coin for you and ask you how you’ve been. It had been a while. Although he’s not usually one to smile, especially not in public, you could see him faintly do so. He’s become a quiet man, so he won’t be talking too much about everything, especially not everything that happened after he joined the military, but he’s more than willing to talk to you about other matters. His life has become better over the past few years, but that doesn’t mean he isn't scarred still. He’ll offer you a walk to just about anywhere, really, even if the final destination will always end up being one of the places you used to hang out in as children. An abandoned house, a park, a mall. Manchester is a fairly large city, so there’s much to see. It would be a bit rough to catch up with him entirely, but he loves to hear about everything you’ve accomplished. You’ve become such a mature person, it warms his heart to see how far you’ve come in life. Back then, when everything was so bleak, when neither of you thought you’d see your 28th birthdays, everything was different. But now, you’re smiling at him as you’re drinking your milkshake. You seem to be better off, and so is he. It makes him nostalgic to see all of this, but he’s happy. Ghost will offer you to come to his home if you want. Even now, he still loves you dearly as a friend and couldn’t be happier about the fact he’s found you again by chance.

Laswell: When she was young she was a healthy mix of rowdy and good. While she never caused much trouble, she did stand up for herself when she needed to. However, this alone was enough to get the attention of some awful people. People either liked her or hated her, there usually was no inbetween for them. Some people did try to bully her, but it never ended well since she would fight for herself, plus she had some good friends who would do the same for her. However, none of them could compare to you, as you were her best friend. All her joys she would celebrate with you, and all of her sadness she would share with you. Back then, things were simpler, something small meant the end of the world, but you always had each other’s backs. Laswell tries to not think about you too much since you slowly drifting apart is quite painful to her. As she grew older, she learned to live with the pain and it didn’t bother her as much. Still, she was very happy when you were sending her a message after all this time. She may have been at work, but responded to you immediately, having missed you just as much as you missed her. Once you meet up it’s evident you’ve both grown a lot older. Laswell has been working for the CIA since her twenties, so it’s been almost thirty years. You have a lot to catch up on, but you take your time, eating at a fancy restaurant and spending hours there, laughing at everything that’s happened. Laswell would show you photos of all the places she’s visited during her downtime. She’s seen almost the entire world, some of it with her wife, some of it without her. Although she doesn’t usually tell people she’s married, to another woman too, she knows you’re a safe person, you’ve always accepted her as she was. Considering how happy you looked when you saw her wife, she continued to tell you about the world. But you get your chance to tell her about everything that’s happened to you as well. If the conversation goes especially well, Laswell might invite you to a few outings every once in a while, after you’ve met up a few more times. Plus you get to meet her wife eventually as well, which is a real privilege. Considering how much she loves her and wants to protect her, not many know about her. It’ll be fun either way since you get to make more memories together again.

#cod #cod x reader #john price #john price x reader #price x reader #kyle gaz garrick #kyle gaz garrick x reader #gaz x reader #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost x reader #kate laswell #kate laswell x reader #seeing that someone read my rambles actually really cheered me up yesterdy so thank you for that! #this request was really sweet. I have a friend who I miss so dearly even now #I still dream of her from time to time. she was my best friend but I never was hers #Sometimes I wish I had the guts to text her but I'm awkward and can't hold a conversation to save my life so I'll have to live like that #oh well! it happens unfortunately! wish it didn't though! #anyway as much as I love to romance the lads and the lasses there's something so wholesome about friendship too! #especially a really good one where you can goof around and have fun and give each other sweet gifts! #Love friendship! friendships are fun! I'm glad I get to write platonic stuff every once in a while as well! #I'm not a romantic person at all irl but I can appreciate a good friendship! #thank you for this request it was very cool and epic!

[nickyroethemarinebiologist]

Here they are together!!!!! RGB trio

#me when the trio has a red guy a blue guy and a green guy #I don’t know how many times these three have interacted in canon but they’re my favs #puts them in my pocket #drawing these has given me an insatiable need for little ghosts figurines #they’re so <333333 #i need them in my home #they can go with the rest of my rocks and trinkets #on the trinket shelf <3 #silliest evers !!!!!! #i love and miss them #patiently waiting for christmas to come around #<- is physically vibrating but trying to be normal about it #sorry for talking but I love them so #so dearly #they’re my best friends my pals #my homeboys #my sweet cheeses my rotten soldiers my good time boys #do you understand #missing them dearly #holding them very close to my heart #I’d hold their hands if I had enough hands #actually #do I want to hold julians hand?? #I’m gonna say no but he can get a high five #bbc ghosts #art tag #ghosts #loving and missing them always <33 #rgb trio #tiny guys

[chryblossomjjk]

just found out that jungkook interacts with people who aren’t me

#cold cruel world out there tsk tsk #also lil life update friends ! #working full time n going to school full time n also doing extracurricular activities is really not the move #i struggle w toxic productivity and it’s really really destroyed my mental and physical health #so ive busted my behind to save up enough money #to be able to support myself on a part time work schedule until i graduate woohoo ! #hoping to have more time to indulge in hobbies #which includes being on here and writing and interacting #i miss you all dearly #ty for everything #like the fact that yall still send sweet things in my inbox when ive been p inactive for like this whole year is super nice and sweet and ye #im sorry i haven’t been responding #but i read them and they do make my day and i love you #and i hope to pick things up again soon #glimpse of us is going to be a banger i fear #ive sat on it for so long that ive perfected this storyline #from metaphors to small details to foreshadowing to non linear storytelling that all forms together in the ends yep #just need to write it which is the hard part 👉👈 #but im excited #this the type of story to leave you in a funk for a few days lol and im so excited to share #hope you’re all doing well #and you are also prioritizing your health and well-being #you deserve time for yourself #not even deserve tbh #it’s legit a necessity like pls #you deserve it

[oatbugs]

procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months #to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them #in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago. #(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought #i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are #and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it #its worth missing i think #i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over #(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year) #(hed come across the bridge on a lake) #we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared. #it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think #i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much. #and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat #they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand #how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much #i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around #something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode #arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully #last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing #and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets #and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably #have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused #blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like #i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much #my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to #music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads #i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says #what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine. #she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.

[sevinite]

almost forgot to post these beautimous angels here <3 ophelia (left, he/she) and chel (right, she/her) are my brain’s new favorite couple in the world [chel belongs to @chattycanine who i’m sure is SIIIIIIICK of me tagging him all over the internet today]

#digital art #illustration #oc art #finally. i know the mgs intermission was hard for a lot of you #truly i apologize #i’m not done with mgs tho 🗿 #i just missed mine and my friend’s ocs #these two are so like. cringefail gfs. losers who think they’re cool #i love them dearly #my art #sev ocs #others ocs

[cubedmango]

sibling secrets

#cherry magic #my art #comic #finally drew out another silly cm comique bc its been a while since the last one #radio drama edition this time bc ive been missing them dearly :( #me as i was drawing this: my own rd krdc designs ? broke and too basic . my own rd mari design ??? lets fucking goooo #i love her so much u guys have no idea .!!! recently i found out her name actually stems from My name and that was like . holy shit #i knew our annoying elder sister vibes matched . shes my best friend now #also the 'kurosawa drunk rambles abt adachi to her' thing is an hc of mine for them in every version . he would do that u cant even argue #also also mari 1000% percent knew what she was doing in every adaptation too and set them up on purpose its true she told me herself-

[madamescarlette]

don't you love when you're like, okay now I'm going to leave this sorrow in the old year so I don't turn into a crotchety bitter person over it, and then you walk on feeling all refreshed and bright no longer carrying it on your shoulders, but then the sorrow wanders after you like a child who was lost in the supermarket weeping its eyes out and it says to you where did you GO I was lost! I was lost and I missed you!!! and you can only sigh and take it by its hand and say to it very well. here's your seat. I'm sorry I left you behind, I promise it was with the best of intentions, but I want to do my best by you, so let's sit together and try to figure out what you're saying to me.

#thinking out loud #i'm truly like. ok i'm mostly fine i'm a little bit going through it because it's harshest month of winter and it's always weird this month #but i just think it's so funny that i have to be like OH you don't suddenly stop....hurting over something because you decided to! #if you were missing someone who was important to you two months ago by golly you probably still will two months from then!! #weird how that be! anyway #it's funny to me because it's like the opposite of object impermanence #i used to think i was all heart no head and that there's a part of me that went hard in the opposite direction to counteract that #but i am still as much as heart as i ever was except now i have my logical side going yip yip girl we gotta go!!! let's go!!! #and the heart is like holding up a shakey hand going oh lads you go on without me...i just need to catch my breath for like....15 years #anyway anyway. the narrative is indeed kind but that doesn't mean that it doesn't sting sometimes #but! we can do the best that we can and take our troubles by their hands and learn what we can from them and it will all be okay in the end #(i hope this post isn't too complainy or miserable. i may take it down later but i feel the need to say it somewhere.) #regardless of that. happy Friday my friends I love you all dearly bless you for being near me <3 <3

[mythicalartistx]

KH2 Reunion scene

Comparing these two reunions is just crazy how much Sora and Riku love the other

Not to hate on anyone who ships SK but man Sora seems really awkward there...

#soriku #reunion #soriku reunion #kh2 #kingdom Hearts 2 #kh riku #kh sora #I want to put together all the cutest soriku scenes from all the games #Okay I downloaded like a lot of the cutest scenes #The only scenes I don't have I want on the top of my head is when Sora indirectly calls Riku good looking through yozora #and the ddd scene with Mickey and Riku in Wizard's apprentice / dearly beloved song that plays for them #Sora goes down on his knees cause he missed him and looked for him so much #And please don't say he thought he was dead #cause he didn't #Mickey confirmed he was alive #He JUST REALLY MISSED HIS BEST FRIEND #I ship them but I also think they're best friends AND should be DATING #so wholesome and precious

[forestofsprites]

spriiiing she is here!!!

#havign such a time my friends i love you all so dearly #i love u all so much #i miss u all so much #happy spring loves

[maria-ruta]

that one tnumblr post with poll going like "do you have more of online friends or more of irl friends" made me realise that I made a lot of irl friends while living in Moscow but now most of them are online friends?... Immigration really does it to you huh....

#Me #My life #personal #I like it here and moving from russia helped me deal with my strong depression and anxiety escalation #But I miss my friends and family in Siberia dearly #And it hurts me so to not be able to visit them right now or any time sooner #But that's a life of an immigrant for you #Nothing new I guess #I'm glad we love in technology century and I can keep in touch with all my friends and family #But it's still not enough and never enough #Vent #Venting

[squuote]

listen I absolutely loved this book but it’s kinda scary how much it’s actually effecting me. it’s all positive emotions but like. this is a lot. very scary

#crow thoughts #I LOVE IT WHEN MEDIA ALTERS ME IN THE BEST POSSIBLE WAYS #somehow this book managed to rn capture the exact feeling I was describing recently to a friend #so scary. how did you do that book. how did you know the care for my past self that I’ve been learning over time. #I also now have an immense urge to go to the beach now. I miss it dearly.

[unexpectedbrickattack]

Ngl I'm kind of dillydallying around my own SDV fixation and i'd KILL to see what your brain is doing to this game like i for one would eat up dat stuff UP . . .

I love the way this is phrased; genuinely 😭💖 like im a force of nature tearing through any new interest like its made of wet tissue paper 💥💥💥

I thought about it some more and i will (eventually) make an sdv blog. Its going to be a mess having all my interests on one dashboard (im lazy and i dont want to sign in and out all the time for diff accounts lol) but i need sdv stuff in sight or ill explode. For now tho i will ramble about random hcs rattling around in my brain

- The valley is FULL of magic, but not alot of Magical Beings that utilize that magic. If the residents of pelican town knew more about magic, there would be alot more wizards than just. The Wizard.

- Everyone in pelican town has some kind of latent magic, or at the very least, an affinity or sensitivity to magic. I like to think that magic builds in very secluded corners of their world and the area including (and surrounding) pelican town is simply one of those places.

-(sorry, i am just obsessed with Places and Magic) I like the idea of your farmer being drawn to pelican town bc they have a bit of magic in them. The letter is just A Letter, but it is the desire to see this town that makes them leave their old life behind. I am obsessed w the idea that the magic in the farmer craves the valley bc it sees the valley as its home, and by extension, the farmer sees the valley as their home. The people of pelican town rarely leave bc the magic in them sees the valley as their home always. The biggest examples of this are Kent, Demetrius, Evelyn, Emily and Shane. The huge exceptions to this (still workin on it) are lewis and sebastian; lewis bc i see him as a normal, non-magical being trying to wrangle the weirdness of this town, and sebastian bc his feelings of isolation and not being understood propels him to crave the world outside of the valley. (That changes a bit if u befriend him/romance him)

-(shane is weird bc hes super depressed and lonely but his happiness comes from his new ‘ragtag family’ (his words) and his very Not Normal chickens. The animals of the valley love him bc he loves them and he becomes tied to the valley bc of it. Marnie has always loved the animals of the valley and some of the love they had for her definitely rubbed off onto shane, who very openly admits he loves the chickens 💙)

-I wasnt very fond of the idea of purple=magic but i think that was bc i often saw it as a way to tie-in the wizard and abigail. I am still trying to get through the friendships for everyone but rn it doesnt feel like theres any connection between them (and caroline). But. I do like the idea of odd, unnatural colors coming through bc of magic. Alex and Pierre having normal brown hair; Haley and Sam being true blondes. BUT. Shane and Jas having purple-ish hair. Emily and Caroline have blue toned hair. Even vincent have pinkish hair 🥺💖 (and dare i say….sebastian with purple/black hair like shane 👀…maybe he has more magic in him than hed like to believe). Abigail doesnt count bc from what ive seen, Caroline laments about her daughters dyed hair. “When she was younger it used to be chestnut brown” which…awww she took after her dad lol.

- LAST THING. This is not an hc i am just mad about this. I cannot believe the game doesnt allow u to befriend Marlon. What the fuck. What the fuck !!! I love him!!! I want to be friends w the chill monster slayer! Im a monster slayer too!!! Let me give him gifts !!! Fuck ! 😭😭😭💥💥💥💥 Also. I know how to write old man yaoi. They shouldve let me do a romance path for willy, clint and marlon. And the wizard i guess but someone already did that. Linus doesnt count bc hes ascended the need for human romance; hes one w nature (read. aroace). And we (linus and willy and the farmer) already co-raise leo so that counts for something i think 🤔

#answered #chattin #sdv #sorry that 80% of this was about the fucking Town #but i am obsessed w Places that Feel #Magic that Feels #wants and craves and breathes with emotion #you come to the valley bc the magic in you misses home #the valley calls for you bc she misses you #not just the magic but the person who has kept this magic safe and warm #the valley knows when to let go. but it also knows when to reach out and bring you back #everyones got little tethers on them. she wonders what everyone is up to #the farmer wants something beyond this desk and she gives a little tug #she hums along the tether to kent and its funny; she doesnt need to pull at all; he comes back as soon as hes able #sebastian wants to see whats out there; find his purpose; and she unravels the tether as much as he needs it to be #anyway hi. welcome to my destroyed whirlwind room of a brain #this doesnt scratch like. the wildlife of the valley. the magic in the farm and crops. the seasons #the moonlight jellies (and how u can see them in fern island sometimes) #lewis and his many many crimes (read. he is wack and i hate him) #the emily/shane friends w benefits agenda i have going on (and harvey/elliot ship that i love so dearly) #and the jodi/kent/caroline polycule u didnt think u needed until i said it just now #i have like. too many thots. its literally consuming brain. i fall asleep thinking of this fucking game #and the version of it that exists in my head rentfree LMAO

[saintmachina]

I miss all the dark academia kids from my 2010s tumblr era. I wondered what happened to all of us, if we kept pursuing the beautiful, deeply examined life, if we finally reached those heights of ecstasy we were always grasping for, if we truly did sacrifice what was dear to us in the pursuit of knowledge undying. There's a whole new generation of seekers now to take up the dark academia torch, and many of them are writing amazing books and taking stunning photographs and critiquing the subculture in ways it ought to be critiqued.

But I wonder about so many of those undergraduates who made up my class of kids, pouring their hearts out onto their blogs, posing proudly in their thrifted blazers and toasting with wine in their chipped teacups. They were friends to me when I felt alone in the world, and I wish we had kept in better touch. I can still faintly feel their echos in the code around here, like digital ghosts.

#don't mind me i'm just being broody #and I know some of you are still around and still making gorgeous content #but a lot of us fell off and went our seperate ways #dark academia #thoughts #i WILL delete this if anyone gets weird in my comments let me brew in my nostalgia for friends I dearly miss #it's so strange getting old enough to really miss people

[seagull-scribbles]

Messy sketch based on a messy sketch I did back in 2020

This was picked for the 800 follower celebration, thank you everyone for all your support on my art journey

#sth #vector the crocodile #seagull celebrations #thank you all again sorry it’s like 2 months late #shoutout to my two Australian friends #this one goes out to you ahaha #I have missed drawing vector….he doesn’t look as chunky as I’d like tbh #should doodle him more for sure I still love him dearly #thank you for those who asked for this again btw it was fun to revisit #I just felt redoing a sketch as a proper piece wasn’t a fair comparison so I kept this messy too #as I have mentioned my iPad charging ports a bit effed so arts going to be slow for a while apologies #money troubles #vector gets it

[1ovestay]

i will say. if there’s one thing that preparing to move to the other side of the planet has taught me it’s that i’m very loved

#saying goodbye has been very hard i feel like it’s going to hit me like a truck once im there and by myself #like obviously i won’t be alone completely but while el is as work i’ll be like … :) #everyone back home will be asleep #i love my family and friends so dearly #and to have so so many people sending me off and wishing me well between family and friends and coworkers and everything.. its nice <3 #it’s so lovely but it’s almost breaking my heart how am i meant to survive!!!! #i’m going to miss everyone so much #wow….. last day tomorrow…. #p