#i dont think i saw it :0

[0809sysblings]

Childhood Antecedents of Multiple Personality - Richard P. Kluft

Q.10 Have you ever gotten angry at other people? I don't think I've gotten angry before. Isn't it kind of disgraceful to get angry?

#milgram #mikoto milgram #Mikoto #mikoto posting #im pretty sure i actually read a lot of this book awhile back but. well. the dissociation do be dissociating bc i dont remember 95% of it #BUT! i DO remember this one specific excerpt!!!! i remember thsi very well #and i remember when i first saw this interro answer i was immediately reminded of this excerpt #but i couldnt remember Where i had seen it so i thought maybe i was just going crazy or something and had made it up-- #BUT I FINALLY FOUND IT #''however she had two alternates--'' TRIKOTO CONFIRMED!!??! 😱🤯 /j #tbh mikoto is kinda funny bc he seems fake as shit (and i mean. ig technically he is) and ppl clown on him for it #but in reality he just has DID and doesn't even know hes being fake 😭 #its really funny bc its very relatable #mikoto: ive never really gotten angry i dont think :0 #john beating up someone behind him with a bat in pure unfiltered rage: so true mikoto youre perfect sweetie

[idolomantises]

ngl, the more I think about it, the more I feel conflicted over how people sexualize my characters.

On the one hand, it would be silly to deny that I don't go out of my way to create aesthetically pleasing/attractive characters because I love to draw what I enjoy, and I love it when people simp for them.

But on the other hand, sometimes it does bother me that people are so fixated on sex and their own arousal that they miss important lore/plot information that I get a bit frustrated

#txt #i dont really mind that people missed the fact that powers had horns but i do have issues with people thinking the scene would lead up to #sex??? lili had a very clearly shocked face but people were expecting them to just. have sex and fall in love #twitter and instagram is pretty respectful to my works but i think webtoons and especially tiktok (good lord tiktok) is where people are #just. like they're not even paying attention because they wanna fuck my ocs lol #its a lot of work to try to give these incredibly short comics decent pacing and dialogue and it sucks when people ignore gestures or #verbal communication because they saw powers muscled chest and went 'oh yeah. its sex time' #i started posting my bugtopia comics to tiktok and these people are so goddamn obsessed with sexualizing everything that i read comments #where people were expecting arachne to peg her FOUR YEAR OLD SON #and its like. hey guys. im glad you enjoy my work but i dont like how you cannot perceive my characters as anything #but something to whack off to #anyways i dont see myself discussing this on twitter because unfortunately people have 0 fucking reading comprehension lol #to this day i get rude messages accusing me of hating people who enjoy lesbian media or finding my characters hot #because i asked people to not call me a fucking f*ggot when i draw to men kissing

[nashvillethotchicken]

A subtle way you can tell lestat is very selfish and ignorant about race, especially in ep 6 is that he said that they'd go to Argentina, a country which at the time was explicitly looking for white Europeans (including n*zis) to move there after spending decades pushing their black and Indigenous populations to the fringes of society to whiten up the country

#amc iwtv #iwtv #interview with the vampire #lestat de lioncourt #like i dont think hes doing it on purpose #i think he saw somewhere that takes Europeans and he sees claudia and louis as extensions of himself so if he'll be welcomed they'll be too #like i genuinely dont think he thought of moving somewhere that wasnt as segregated for the sake of louis or claudia #and to give the barest of credit. there wereny many places they could both go #lestat isnt allowed in europe cus of armand and them and louis and claudia cant move unencumbered through most of the us bc of segregation #like the only place they could go in the us at the time as an interracial family is ohio (only state with intteraccial marriage in 1940) #and they couldnt even be out there #so i understand leaving the country but picking a place that is already pushing its black population further into the fringes #is just another way to control the movements of louis and claudia. even if lestat doesnt realise or have that intent #like if they decide to leave him when theyre in Argentina theyre literally boned. especially in the 40s when all the n*zis are coming #and tou can see this in other parts of their relationship. like lestat is ok taking louis' to operas where louis has to be a valet to get in #he says that their money had protected them from legal backlash for being gay but not really for louis being black #lestat not getting the multiple microagressions from the lawyer #hell lestat even says “if he had offended you i would have killed him”. implying he doesn't believe that louis had a right to be offended #like lestat is ignorant to race especially in the american context and especially especially in other countries #hes white and french. they invented racism like there is a non 0 chance he saw saarah baartman displayed in a traveling circus in france #like i dont think he is outwardly racist like the alderman or tom but hes ignorant as hell. #he probably didnt see his first black person until he was 25

[bmpmp3]

and another thing about vocal synth fans: we will always find some adult male voicebank to turn into a funny little clown for our amusement. some guy to communally bully in our talkloids, the miserable straightman to the shenanigans, the sad little freak punchline to our jokes. it happened to kaito. it happened to gakupo. it happened genbu. it even happened a bit to kevin (although he seems to have looped around somehow). and it will happen to you too, frimomen. it will happen to you too.

#hell its already begun. or maybe he was born for this role. his origins being that of which they are #the other day i saw a favourite meal announcing dragon parody 'list of past girlfriends' with frimomen #and of course the joke was him going silent for the listing part <3 a classic but it still got me LOL #i dont know why we need to do this. i feel it too though. i see a grown ass man vocal synth and im like I NEED to make him swagless #child and teen vocal synths are mostly safe from our wrath (although we've definitely done a good bit of len bullying) #but the second i see a guy who pays his taxes i NEED to make fun of him <3 <3 <3 #a vocal synth tradition. its a tradition #i dunno i was kinda thinking about genbus characterization and how in the japanese fanbase he kind of varies from what ive seen #sometimes hes a nice and calm guy with a tsundere edge. sometimes hes a goofy loud straightman to shenanigans #but overwhelmingly in the english speaking world in talkloids we turn him into this high energy beloved little freak LOL #and i love all characterizations. my own personal version is kind of all combined LOL hes friendly but a little too hype #to me he seems chill at first but is like 0-100 in like seconds <3 like his voicebank <3 <3 <3 i think he feels every emotion so so much #and absolutely suited to the straightman to hijinks role with his grumpier edge when hes embarassed #i also sometimes like to give him a bit of an unearned ego sometimes because of voicebank deprecation #hes clunky but he was the first!!! he was the first!!! hes not owned!!!! he slowly turns into a corncob #thats another characterization that mostly comes from the english speaking side LOL #TO ME genbu is like if ll nico was trying to put on a nice calm guy exterior instead of a cutesy idol exterior #which might be why genbu's becoming my favourite LOL nico was always my fav..... #going back to our favourite little guys to bully i will say nowadays kaito isnt bullied as much. because we have gakupo to bully instead #the bullying can pass on. frimomen. it can be inherited frimomen. watch out frimomen

[saym0-0]

au where all of rens silly characters are all actually different people in rens extended family that like to hop on hermitcraft/adjacent servers just for the lols

bc they're werewolves/dog hybrids or whatever theyre a massivee family and they all grow up together on one server am i making sense??

like renbob is canonically different but also like ren the king and the red king and grimdog,, theyre all cousins ur honour

jono is also there 👍

#i dont know if theres any more rensonas lmk in the notes #i just think a big rendog family gathering with like hundreds of dog people is a funny idea #also not original #i think i first saw something similar in an octogon supervillain au?? #titled something like this is why you dont find roomates on gumtree #dont quote me on that #rendog #renthedog #rentheking #grimdog #red king #renbob #jono #i guess #au where #hermitcraft #3rd life #massive spam on the saym0-0 blog today im not sorry

[besuretosavorit]

Nishiki has been of legal drinking age for 2 months at the start of Yakuza 0, what do you mean he's already a regular at Serena? He says he likes it because the "family higher-ups" haven't found it yet; how frequently is he having to interact with the lieutenants that he already needs a respite from them? 

I wonder how long he spent just venting to Reina about anything and everything, finally having a space of his own separate to Sunflower or the Dojima family. Anyway, this was meant to be a lighthearted "baby boy please think of your liver, you were still a teenager less than 100 days ago" type post.

#its obviously part of the gaming meta that the player needs a character who will introduce and explain everything #but i think it adds some interesting narrative implications #not to infantilise them but Nishiki and Kiryu are SO young in Yakuza 0 (even if their in-game models dont look like it) #and yes im acting like an old codger even though im in my late twenties myself but still #the gif quality is atrocious and i dont know why my bad #if you saw me post this on main by accident and then delete it no you didnt please pity me #nishiki #nishikiyama akira #akira nishikiyama #yakuza 0 #ryu ga gotoku #rgg #yakuza series #nishiki yakuza #nishiki posting #nishiki thinking

[dumbasses-in-a-trenchcoat]

Watching Avatar: The Last Air Bender for the first time ever with family is such a funny experience bc I know just enough to know about the mechanics of bending and to be excited when certain characters come on screen. Meanwhile my parents and my brother are left clueless as to why I got super excited when I saw Uncle Iroh on screen for the first time.

#and now we all adore Uncle Iroh lol #most recent one was just now when I saw Zuko's sister in a flashback and went >:0 !!!!!! #another fun thing is how fast my dad started questioning the potential for blood bending metal bending and lightning bending in like. #the first two days #and then my brother suggested light bending and I was like nahhh I dont think thats a thing #cuz I hadnt heard of it #and the low and behold a quick google search told me otherwise lol #avatar the last airbender #atla #uncle iroh #dumbass dabbles

[covenofthearticulate]

Me, making my entire vacation about vampires when i’m supposed to be shopping for real books at a historic nyc book store?? More likely than you think!

#I DONT THINK IVE SEEN THAT PHOTO OF BRAD BEFORE???? #I saw the one of kirsten but i genuinely can’t recall ever seeing that one of brad in front of the pointe du lac mausoleum #also devastated bc we just left the Drama Book Shop in nyc and they had 0 TVL musical stuff LMAO #i mean it’s very obscure but I had hoped to get a copy of the libretto at least #instead i bought Kate Hamill’s adaptation of Dracula in 2019 because holy SHIT did it look INCREDIBLE when it premiered at classic stage co #very excited :)

[worldsquietestjojosfan]

i only end up leaving fandoms and never return because i forgot. like i deadass forgot the source material. and i dont remember being in the fandom either.

#like the fact that allegedly i drew a lot of wwx in 2018 #im still trying to figure that out because i thought my friends made me draw it when the donghua was airing #but that would make sense if it was 1 drawing. i have found seven. #i swear i have never touched mdzs before now in my LIFE #but i also swear i didnt know about danmei before now. but my brain starts itching when i think that thought #theres something hidden in there #but i definitely didnt know about mdzs when my friends were participating in untamed zines. #it rang 0 bells. but that happened years after i drew the wwx pictures #every time im convinced and reach a conclusion new evidence pops up #nobody ever in my life has been able to convince me to draw multiples of something i dont love. ever. #so that means i knew about and liked wwx #that didnt happen!! it couldnt have or else id feel deja vu when i saw him again #it didnt happen!!!! it couldnt have!!! #me with nrt right now. factually i know i was there. and i drew. i dont remember shit tho #sighhhhh i wish i had a brain #i dont believe i ever knew about mdzs before now. i need to find out whose drawings those are. its not me. #some words #i dont remember a single damn thing about nrt #i know i was in the fandom because: i see the people ive met before and they know me. so it happened

[pa-pa-plasma]

(pick the one that applies most to you & elaborate in the tags/comments if you want)

#if clarification is needed just ask. there's a severe character limit on polls for some reason #Danny Phantom #gore #blood #injury #tagging so people can block it if they're a 0. i'm an 8. sometimes a 9 but mostly an 8 so im voting that one #i can stomach a lot. there's just some subjects that make oouuuggh #idk why. i cringe at Saw but mostly because of the acting. a little bit because i have trouble not sympathizing with stuff like that #also the one thing that bothers me is the thought of a bone breaking & rubbing against each other & the skin & stuff #like i've broken a bone & it wasn't that bad (looking. the break was bad) i just find that gross. bones shouldnt do that #cutting through a bone? fine. amputation is less gross & more ''i dont want that to happen to me'' #eye stuff too. like getting stabbed. im less ick about taking eyes out for some reason but still #just touching them is like whatever i do that all the time to get stuff out but stabbing is a oouughh for me. i can watch it it's just eoug #to sum it up i guess i'm fine with a lot of gore there's just some stuff i'm grimacing at while reading/watching #i sort of ''faint'' sometimes at blood draws but that's because i'm super low energy & shit #i think if i saw severe gore irl i'd be a bit fucked up but idk unless it happens #i've seen some gross stuff. i've seen dead animals & i'm mostly like ''cool free bones''* #*as long as it's legal. if i'm unsure i leave them there. i dont fuck with wildlife laws

[strawberrybabydog]

as another newly discovered lesbian in his bodily 20s, i dont think we have to do all the required reading immediately. i think we get to play around in our label/identity and figure out if + how it fits us first. our history IS important but so is our self-discovery. we need to allow ourselves to play in this space and try it on before we commit full hog to this. youre allowed to explore your sexuality before going down the list of required literature :°]

🫂 thank you anon. been feeling lonely about it thru reflecting on how all of my peers seemed to Know they were queer when we were in middle/high school, and i had an idea (ID'd as bi and always got butterflies around butches) but .... all lesbians know how complicated flirting can be !! :0P its comforting to know there are other queer people at my pace. thank you for sharing this

#beginning to think i just grew up in a shitty area with just so many mean fuckin people lol #i think i shared this in notes on another post but my queer friends in HS never saw me as queer #i even got 'called out' (bullied and humiliated) for dating a man longterm when the teacher was absent #i think THAT paired with adults constantly telling me i just 'dont understand female* friendship' created this little ball inside me #and im at a point in my life where i have to face it ...... i was posting about it here because i was trying to be brave #i dont feel very brave but what choice do i have. im ready as i'll ever be :0) #not dog #personal #asks #should i tag these posts as anything specific btw i dont rly know cuz i dont intend for it to be a super regular topic

[icewindandboringhorror]

various little Pictures of thinges

#photo context/information described here in the tags since there are no longer photo captions #(from top Left to right) image 1: BABYY!!!!! SON!!!!! HE!!!!!!!!!!!! #image 2: I found a patch of these clovers that were kind of mutated or infected or something? like they were not actually Red clovers #it was patches of totally normal green clovers except every once in a while one of them would have one leave thats red or half red or even #be completely red. AND they were growing near a patch of these wildflower weeds that have red stems to them. so I wonder if it's even poss #ble that maybe some of the red like.. got mixed in with the clovers somehow? a lot of the patches with a few red ones look spotty and unhea #thy so it could have been the sun or something. I dont know how plants work. I just thought it was really cool to find these one or two #special mutant clovers in huge patches of ohtwerise totally normal green clovers.. :0 #image 3: look at these weird round fat baby carrot things... Rotund #image 4: laying out some fabrics for a costume just drafting them and seeing what looks okay in the pile and what doesnt etc. #thats my whole process is just 'throw things into a pile on the floor that look okay and match then put them on eventually' lol #image 5: MORE wii scores lol.. I think this is my best score on this one though. There's 10 little markers you have to select so getting 7 #means I selected more than one per second. #image 6: I couldnt decide which type of muffins I wanted so I just made a batch of plain/vanilla batter and then added things to each littl #section to make multiple flavors without having to actually make a full batch or multiple batters lol. I think it's chocolate swirl (with d #rk chocolate chunks). banana cinnamon. strawberry. normal chocolate. rosemary and lemon. peach. ginger peach turmeric. and #'scraps of the other batters all thrown together' lol. Decent however the random recipe I found online for a basic cupcake batter was #not very good and they were weirdly dense and spongy. #image 7: A PICTURE OF THE dishscapes that I watched and rambled about (to the like 5 of you who saw that post #and read the tags of it lol).... beach houes..I still so much wish I could make my own Fantasy Screensaver Story.. oughh #image 8 & 9: a really cool flower from outside. I like that it has all these weird spindly little things from the center :0 #photo diary

[potatobugz]

opening untitled google doc #7592 so I can attempt to write something again but ultimately never finish it

#rambles #but ill keep doing it bc. if i dont write i will never learn #i had another homestuck scenario i wanted to write but you see i only have an idea for one specific part #and i have 0 writing experience so i cant write it that well if i dont have a good udea 4 what i want to happen #anyways the premise is that feferi ascends to god tier (more like cod tier) after eridan kills her #& she revives nepeta and equius. the rest of the trolls r like hesitant to revive eridan right away #but feferi goes ahead and revives him anyway bc she has very conflicting feelings & shes like 'i just wanna talk 2 him 38(' #ofc this backfires #eridan waking up & immediately assuming the worst; freaks out and runs away from her cuz he thinks shes gonna [krill] him again #(fish pun bc i saw the opportunity and couldn't resist) #then he runs into kanaya and freaks out EVEN MORE and then attempts to run down stairs & trips on his dumb scarf (affectionate) #and falls down a flight of stairs #ive had that specific scenario in my mind for like a few days now!!! and ive been dying to put it down somewhere!! augh #other cincepts i havent fleshed out include: eridan hiding from everyone on the meteor. eridan and gamzee alliance maybe. #some exploration on how kanaya feels abt this bc i feel like kanaya is always portrayed as angry at eridan but ppl forget WHY shes angry!!! #shes *greiving*. the matriorb was like the hope for their entire race & she was tasked 2 protect it and it got destroyed #its very sad to me. murderstuck as a whole is tragic 2 me because theyre all children and i dont think any of them shoulda died #idk i hope that makes sense #um also eridan putting themself in a cycle of 'not evil anymore i want to be loved now. evil again' cuz #characters who destroy their relationships w others over and over again mean everything to me. self destructive characters my beloved #and also everyone who was revived makes it to the alpha session so eridan and roxy friendship can thrive <3 (i am ill) #and also eridan transgender arc is mandatory sorry #wow i am sorry 4 talking so much down here ive been DYING 2 get this idea out but like #i cant ramble normally in posts i have to do it in the tags or i get self conscious otherwise agh #feel free to add onto this if youd like i think #homestuck #oh also maybe nonbinary roxy too maybe bc i really like nb roxy headcanon and also t4t pale eriroxy so wonderful

[makeitlookdecent]

i fuckig ;;;missed the log in bonus for he steward skin im actually crying i uSE HIM,,,,,I WONT BE ABLE TO GET THE SKIN IM SO!!!!!

#MY POWERS BEEN OUT AND I DONT HAVE DAYS OFF AND MY PHONE CANT HOLD ARKNIGHTS AND *SREAMMING* #IS THIS IT????IS THIS THE PC CURSE???!?!? STEWARD!!!! STEWARD!!! ;;;0;;; #p please....pls cn players....do you think it'll come back...??? ;0; #<<<knows the chance is unlikely considering the hibiscus skin probably also hasnt seen a re run #maybe it'll be in the annihilation shop eventually..? no wait #the cc shop i mean? #whereever it was i got the aak skin #i was able to check twitter for the first time in a bit (because...texas alt was coming i thought i missed it) #and i scrolled and saw hey! log in for 5 days before the 21st to get that steward skin you liked from cn! #and im like....ITS THE 17TH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #but you know? its okay i guess i was too like #attached to the game and needed some time to distance myself from it or somthing idk #hahahahaaaa....!!! *crying profusely*

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

Both meow meows at once Nishiki and Majima for blorbo bingo

:D So to make things simpler, I indeed answered both at once. Purple is for both, blue is for Nishiki, pink is for Majima.

Can You Tell I'm Not Normal About Them?

#smol responds #akira nishikiyama #goro majima #i worry im being mean with the 'most fandom takes are incorrect' one and i HAVE seen Bad Nishiki Takes #but like i see too many people calling Majima gross or acting like he's genuinely batshit. like the Mad Dog is all he is/who he TRULY is #and idk man he's a Bit More Complex Than That yknow? and i dont put him under the 'has done nothing wrong (is a war criminal) #because a) maybe DONT hit your wife? and b) somehow he's like Kiryu in that he hasnt killed anyone (by that i mean he Definitely Has #but 0 is all about the *weight* of taking another life so yknow what i'll accept it). whereas Nishiki commits several murders onscreen #but the fact is i simply think they were all justified cfgvbhjnkgfvhbjn this Kiwami replay has made me worse #which is why i'd make HIM worse i would encourage the killings #because i would start violently making out with him every time i saw him covered in blood #also whilst your here i went through my 'smol plays yakuza' tag the other day #and i find it funny how my first post about Y0 aka the game about Majima (yknow my wifey and reason for being here) do you know #what my first post about the game is? talking about how pretty Nishiki is. that was it man gfvbhjnkmghbjnkl i was doomed from then #god i love my boys so much i miss them every day

[upsidedowngrass]

was looking at some wiki pages, and saw it noted that season one wouldve only had 2 episodes. and. that made me think about how, if THATS how one was presented, if those two had been given episodes on their own? as an object show, without any other context? i think thatd like. legitimately be extremely horrifying

(put under a readmore bc it IS a bit lengthy. notes are ALSO a bit lengthy bc i am talkative)

like, airy is already a terrible host, but hed be even LESS good at it than in the actual series. the plane in season one doesnt seem to even have the grass blades, so i imagine theres no trees anywhere, either (geographic details and weather, stuff along those lines, seem to have been hard to figure out, given that he seems excited to add the clouds, and likely wouldve added them already if hed already known how to make them), which, with the added realism to the characters, would probably be far more uncanny (assuming theres also a stinger showing one-two of the contestants Actual life). it doesnt stand out much in terms of object shows, of course, but if presented with the reality of how empty it is, and how odd it is compared to real environments? i think that it wouldnt seem Right

nobody would know why theyre there, and probably wouldnt want to be there. at the very least, airy had concepts and lines to tell the contestants in the series. judging by what he says in ep 17, though, they didnt get this. there is even less clarity. add to that that julien is likely Extremely Confused And Alarmed, the others would probably be more inclined to share that stress. there would be.. a Lot less clarity, and a lot more unease among the contestants. add to that, that based on what oscar says, airy kept almost accidentally killing them. without any reassurance that theyll be brought back

by the end of the first episode, nobody is dead, of course. but its unlikely that anyone is especially happy with the situation theyre in (even if airy brought up a prize, he wouldnt be reassuring, and there is far more risk than there was for the actual series’ contestants, so even a contestant who wants to compete would probably not feel especially safe). i cant imagine what a post credits scene would involve, but it probably wouldnt change much in terms of tone

the second episode would certainly start out normally. oscar would go home, cool. no new contestants are introduced, so airy starts the challenge. and then they all die. and the episode ends (there COULD be a post credits scene, but i dont imagine it could be reasurring)

and that would simply be the end of it.

#hfjone #hfjone spoilers #it wouldnt make a good SHOW of course but its like. #season one of one. the one we watch? is generally presented as how airy would WANT his show to be presented i think #which is why s1 has actual intro music and INTROS. and outro sequences where set music is played. and aftercredits scenes #and why s2 has outros and such but they dont have much of a standard #and the only time the intro music is played? is when airy greets liam. because thats HIS idea!! #so as a whole season one is more based around airys ideal formatting for his show!! #and i think if that had been done for the Actual season one. it would have been .. very effective horror for sure i think #like. how already was horrifying on its own but had added alarming-ness due to being such an outlier #and something about the idea of such sudden played-straight finality? thatd. god. #i am a big fan of horror and something that tends to really Get to me in horror? is sudden Extremely bad events. not like jumpscares #but bad things happening unexpectedly and being portrayed actually realistically. so to me?? this just. man. #i think people also underestimate just how genuinely terrifying season 1 probably was. like i think ppl use the actual given s1 as a metric #but what we see is still FAR more polished than what the original contestants saw #and what the season actually wouldve been #like the show is already good at horror! so its easy to use that as a frame of reference #but the original season. probably wouldve been. far scarier #and its. man. #if i had the motivation to do so id MAKE this bc a hypothetical season '0' is genuinely so interesting to think abt details for! #technically i could write it and have seen it written but like. its the object show format im rly trying to get at being important here #yknow?? #but in the meantime. horror concepts #ask to tag