#i dont want it to feel like a chore or something

[samara444]

when shifting/manifesting starts feeling like a burden/chore.

forcing and trying and wanting to manifest and shift is sooooo hard. i know. its so burdensome, it feels so pathetic, every night trying and wishing and still never having. giving ur so called best but getting no result in return. its heavy and it weighs you down, especially if you have been doing it for years.

but…..no one is asking you to carry this burden. i will say it again, NOOO ONE IS ASKINGG YOUU TO CARRY THIS BURDEN. no one is asking you to TRY to have, to FORCE yourself to feel good, to forceee it to happen. u do not have to affirm a million times and visualise and saturate and meditate and climb mount everest.

it drove me insane everytime i read a shifting success story and all they did was put on a subliminal roll over and they so effortlessly woke up in their DR. i used to try sooo hard oh my god, i used to affirm all day and force myself to count to 100 and stay still, and reach the void and feel good and match the frequency and ugh its just so. much. effort. and then i would wonder how they could shift so easily without doing anything and im here trying so hard without any result.

it took me a while to realise, but efforts is not equal to results. fulfillment is. belief is. more your efforts and “hard work” and “trying” is not equals to success. but more ur belief and trust and faith, more your results.

so many people think of it once and forget about it, i struggled with that for years because this is something i want soo bad how could i have “forgotten about it”, but the truth is you dont have to forget and force yourself to let go and then feel like shit if you dont…..as long as you know its done.

no one is asking you to try so hard, even with the LEAST amount of effort, in the most insanely easy that it seems unreal, the easiest and the most effortless path is what you deserve. let this burden down.

this preconceived notion that society has enstilled that the harder you work you happier you will be. let thatt go. and accept that if you already had it….why would you affirm a million times and force yourself?? it would be effortless already because its already yours. YOU choose. you choose if you have to climb mount everest to shift, or it can be as simple as one affirmation and then waking up in your dr.

give it to yourself. let it be easy for you. And stop trying. have faith that if you have asked it once and given it your all, its enough. living in this conviction and staying true to the unseen is the way to all miracles.

-love, sam <3

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[salemontrial]

Why the FUCK didn't Sasha apologize to Quinni.

#no im so pissed about that. #dude you don't give an autistic person a meltdown that big over something that hurtful #and just #walk away scot free #last time someone gave me a meltdown that hardcore I cut them off for a month. #that might just be the bpd tho #but still #quinni doesn't seem like the type to just. be chill without an apology and hearing sasha explain herself #and then she makes her her vice?????????? #she already acknowledged sasha is only in it for the power trip #sasha didn't even do anything in the investigation she just followed quinni around #which as she should #but she hasn't made up for how she treated quinni AT ALL #in fact she's just gotten MORE of a performative activist #like why the fuck was she such a bitch to missy abt spider #i get it yea. ur friends sometimes have dogshit taste in men but you don't need to make them feel like trash abt it #and the way she was like 'he fetishizes u for being black omg its probably asian girls next omg i dont feel safe' #THIS ISNT ABOUT YOU????????. #also she 100% jumpstarted quinnis identity crisis #with how she was constantly switching between infantilizing her and undermining her autonomy over her own decisions #and treating doing things quinni wanted to do and the specific way she needed to do them as a chore #and then victimizing herself!!!!!!! #like from experience that relationship dynamic IS abusive to autistic people it just is #idk if nt people get it but it's really fucking awful to come from your partner #anyway. until sasha apologizes to both quinni and missy this will continue to be a sasha hate page. #heartbreak high #heartbreak high season 2 #quinni gallagher jones #sasha so #missy beckett

[cloudcountry]

i'm noticing that when people request things and i write it for them, sometimes the people i write for dont reblog or give me any feedback. ^^ its starting to get a bit irritating when i take the time to write something and i just get a like from the person. the twst fandom has been talking about this since forever but literally the least you can do is reblog. seriously.

#im thinking about not taking requests ever anymore honestly #like i have ideas floating around in my brain #why should i write something for someone else when they dont even appreciate it #i wanted to finish the 1.8k event but i dont even think i'll be able to do that #its a shame the twst community turned out this way #and even just writing in general gahhh #like i love writing but its becoming such a chore #anyways my mutuals can request stuff but im getting fed up #its also been hurting my feelings a bit. #i actually had this happen DURING the 1.8k event too #i wrote stuff for moots and couldnt wait to see their reactions and then they just liked #it felt like a slap in the face #idk man i just want to enjoy things again that would be nice #ikepri and ikevamp fandom here i come i hope ygys are more receptive!! #🐙! auburn's rambles <3

[simorys]

How life feels when I don't feel like I'm expected to draw something

#vent #I have not felt a lot of joy drawing in so long #it always feels like a chore #I feel like i have to draw something everyday #and i feel guilty if i dont draw something #but i don't have any other hobbies #Ive tried to start so many new hobbies but i hate not being able to get it right the first time #i dont want to give up on art at all #but its so rare to find motivation #anyways you can ignore this post

[jrueships]

If Alpey and Jaba got ice cream together, which flavours do you think they’d choose? 🤔🍨🍨

From the way Jabari acts, some people would mistake him to be a pretty boring guy when it comes to tastes in food. He's a creature of comfort who, if uncomfortable, will battle and yell with all the ferocity of a territorial lemming to regain it. However, some people tend to oversee that comfort and luxury can come hand in hand. Jabari is not the man who will play it safe, he will squint at the ice cream's menu and carefully select one of the most obscure options ever after conducting some serious research either beforehand or during the process. This research includes asking the employees what they think of the dessert. Even if there's a line of hungry kids and their late to work parents waiting behind him, Jabari will hush the ground so he can calculate All the options to come to a stable conclusion that Yes, this Is, in fact, The Best choice of item to spend my money on. He probably likes combinations, like an upside down banana split or something odd like that. If he's buying ice cream at a place that's stabilized itself by making good ice cream, it can't just be any ice cream he can just buy at a store then. It has to be THEIR SPECIAL ice cream. He's here for luxury and specifics, whatever the ice cream store says they can do the best, like, actually do in terms of making it, sprucing it up with syrups and fruits, and decorating it all nice and different, mixing it, etc, he'll buy it. I feel like he'd be one of those people that buys those really fancy overloaded ice cream shakes where there's like syrup or crumbs decorating the outside of the cup like sugar on an alcoholic beverage and there's a brownie bar on top for extra extra appearance appeal.

Meanwhile, alpey just wants some Dondurma, which is a Turkish ice cream notable for its hard texture and melt resistance, so he brings his own special knife and fork sets, one for him, one for jaba so they can cut into their ice cream bricks :] !! He's fond of the sweeter flavors, but they can't be artifical. ... sadly, there is no delicious Dondurma, and the ice cream just melts and slips between the slits of his special fork with much despair and pity. His ice cream lacks the sweetness and realness he desires, and they have no honey !!!! It's not stretchy or chewy at all! the texture is almost nothing !!!

It's okay, though, because Jabari orders him something special off the menu, an ornate mixture of various fruits and syrups and decorative pizzazz that they both end up using their forks to eat it. The creature of luxury cannot stand to see his fellow critter in need lack his own creaturely comforts. Before Jabari orders Alpey a new unique ice cream, he coaxes (demands) alpey to try a spoo-forkful of the carefully considered dessert of Jabari's choosing. Once he can tell Alpey likes Jabari's ice cream more than the simple and safe one he chose, Jabari buys Alpey something similar but with more sweetness. Cue another hour long research session that makes the poor teenagers groan as they watch their line grow longer and longer behind the happy couple(?) clinging onto their weird little forks instead of spoons.

#i think jabari and alpey are a strange mix of picky and also ill eat whatever x likes #jabari wants high quality recommendations #hes open to options... but they have to be Good #and you have to be reliable or confident when offering them or else he'll shake his head and close down on you for even trying #when clearly #youre not ready to help his precise culinary demands #alpey is more like.. i eat what i like and what i dont like.. i dont eat <3 #i feel like he likes sweets and chewy texture #but if it's too chewy that it becomes a chore to eat #he stops and puts away the rest as leftovers #meanwhile jabari buys with the purpose of not having any leftovers #he wants something that will clean his plate at the end #he'll only take desserts so he can try to replicate the recipe at home since he loves it so much #alpey is too lazy for that #bro just wants ice cream 😭 #but it also needs to be ice cream he likes !!! #he likes the ice cream his family would have! #... he does not have that here #it's ok tho bcs jabari is very interested in learning new things especially in food and sports so maybe #one day he'll surprise alpey with some jaba made alpey ice cream #!!! #ted asks #HOW CUTE! I LOVED THIS ASK! I LOVE THE GUNSMITH PROPAGANDA SPREADING!!! IT'S SO CUTE #alpey #jaba #theyre so puppykitten love to me

[jinstronaut]

this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh

#and i might do it again bc its just #a reminder that no one rly cares abt what i do / who i am etc #which might sound over dramatic idk how else to describe it tho its just hollow #it feels very much like a Chore and a Task and if i dont reblog things fast enough from my tag #people get very angry and/or upset with me even tho theres just #so much content and i have 0 time so everything gets queued no matter what #like this whole experience feels like a chore lmao #and it never ever used to #but now theres so much animosity if i dont behave / interact with things Properly #or whatever the make believe rules are idk #this dash can just be so negative like have we all truly descended into madness during this hiatus #bc like i get it ive been up and down and all around too but ive never been straight up MEAN to anyone in this community #and i never want to either so this entire situation thats been bubbling for months just feels like shit #bc what the fuck changed and how do we get back to where we were #i never ever ever ever felt this way before like idk the middle of last year #but ever since like last fall its just been idk. Bad #once again im sorry if ive ever done anything to upset anyone but my silence / absence doesnt mean i dont care #ive just been Incredibly busy due to some real life changes that are out of my control #i might not have energy to answer everything but i do Read everything and it does make me smile #and i save messages that are kind in my heart so i can be reminded of the root of what this blog is supposed to be #a space for something im very passionate about and previously had nowhere else to express said passion #so like idk if we all like the same things why does this weird feeling of competition linger over us lmao #why do all ccs have to fight???? each other???? when we all love and do the same things???? #i have nothing against anyone personally but what i Do take issue with is the way that ive been doing this since 2021 and im fully just #ignored and shoved aside by so many people for reasons i fully dont know or understand #so yeah idk this is a novel i just woke up from a spontaneous nap bc im so exhausted i can only stay awake for 3 hours at a time #but yeah anyways idk ! #be nice its so easy ! #tbd

[frostedpuffs]

im having a hard time wanting to create content these days

#i mean the WANT is there. i just dont have the MOTIVATION to get started i guess #i cant believe i used to write one chapter a week #idk it takes so much effort for me to even be able to get ideas and want to write stuff #and i can lose the motivation so easily #text post #like im not gonna abandon any more fics and I especially wont abandon ppu #but for some reason writing and drawing have both become a chore and I just Dont wanna do it anymore #like i WILL #i'll never stop creating bc i still love it #but why does it feel so bad??? #it takes SOOO MUCH just for me to want to write something. or to come up with an idea for a thing. and then takes even longer to make it #and by that point its like well...does anyone even want it anymore #or has someone already done it better than i could #idk. fic writing is hard. drawing is hard. ah well

[size-two-shrimp]

Hey y'all, just so all of my fic readers are aware: I've kinda been losing motivation writing wise, I'm just not getting as much enjoyment (read: engagement) out of it and it's just not as worth it anymore to me. I'm still going to be writing, there's still things I want to work on, but probably not as frequently as I had been. Sorry about that

#man i feel like i sound like a greedy bastard for this but its true: i exclusively write for the engagement and knowing people liked it #i dont dislike writing dont get me wrong but if i wanted to create a story only for myself and not for others i would just. daydream about #it while working on chores or art or talk about it with friends. to me writing takes up time i could spend doing something that needs to b #done or could be used for things i enjoy more and just. i do really appreciate every single comment kudo and hit i get but also its very #hard to stay motivated at all when i get nothing out of the effort i put in yknow #when authors say that comments are what make them write faster/more they really do mean it. if you enjoy something someone has created #please tell them. this goes for all artists writers musicians etc. #anyways uh. merry christmas to all and all a goodnight im going to go eat dinner

[yelloworangesoda]

gotta get off the internet and only interact irl with people who were 30 before they got their shit together i cant keep doing it like this

#like this being. feeling like i have no future and nobody likes me #‘youre only 19’ only goes so far when i dont know any other fail 19 year olds #im not gonna be a damn dentist for sure but like. and ive said this a thousand times. what am i gonna do. i cant live a worthless nothing #life where i work a shitty job i hate. i have to like something #i hate my art. i hate my lack of creativity. my art is so bland i just dont think its in me anymore #i finished. and i hate it #i have other hobbies. i like to cross stitch. i like to sew. i like to paint. i like to make dolls. do you see the common theme here #i have a few more than that i technically could do but i cant create anymore and it kills me. i want to. i constantly want to but i cant #it doesnt help that even if i havw ideas i dont even want to do them #i was gonna draw some characters from a game i played when i was little but i just #didnt want to. at no point did it not feel like a chore #ill try to go to new mediums! its fun to mess around and then itll feel boring again and going back doesnt feel any better #idk. googling it is useless. ive tried all the things. for years. ive been TRYING to draw consistently and like. doodles are fine theyre fu #but theyre not what i want to do i want to make something im proud of. i drew almost every single day for like 2 years #and its not burnout bc its been like. 2 more years! and ive barely wanted to at all!!! #i want to be creative and i also want people to recognize it. different complaint but it sucks so bad #i feel like nobody likes me. still. nobody cares about what i do. nobody would care if i stopped #like except me but i can only support myself so far!!!! im so tired of it!!!! someone PLEASE be here for me and just say ‘hey i love this #drawing :)’ like you have no idea what that would do for me #not always. but yknow especially if its been a while. if you like it. if you dont like it :( idk. you should tell me that too i guess #yknow so i can have some confirmation so i dont feel like im crazy. idk. dont actually id never go online again. i would probably. well. #i dont like to say the words #simons spouting #vent :(

[orcelito]

I think I want to pull out my tarot deck

My old one. Not the new one I haven't opened yet. I need the comfort of an old friend.

#speculation nation #im gonna eat breakfast first. and have some caffeine. my head is Killing me. #but for after. i just think it'd help me to see what the cards have to say. #theyre great at telling things to me straight. not sugar coating. but then giving me helpful advice #it feels constructive. and i think i need that support rn. #condolences are nice. but i want something that makes me feel like i have direction again. #maybe while im at it i'll break out the new cards too. just to have both sets in front of me. #i dont have anything else to do today. besides chores lol. i probably should try to do the dishes and take out the trash. #i was supposed to yesterday... and then i didnt... #i certainly am not focusing on writing with my head feeling like this. so. to tarot i go. #maybe i'll play a video game or smth too. we'll see...

[coldvampire]

trying soo hard to be normal and Good At Conversation this time

#i will make at lease One irl friend to hang out with regularly !!! #dont get me wrong taking time off work to do school was a great decision but like. i dont rly talk to anyone anymore #save for the two days per week i have class :/ #and it sucks idk. #i havent had a Best Friend TM that i actually get to see more than once every 12 months in years #& im also struggling to control how i usually put more importance onto other people than they do me #like this week in particular im rly feeling the whole experience of labelling someone as a really good friend only to find out that i am #at Best just a pleasant acquaintance #which is fine yk not every relationship has to be something super deep #but still. sucks when it keeps happening. #like id rather the reaction to me almost just be actual disgust bc then thats pretty unambiguous #no room to get hopes up or create a narrative. #anyway i usually go with the strategy of just talking to someone like we're already friends bc ive heard thats the most effective #/least awkward way to get to know people. & im also only focusing on a couple people at a time so i dont get overwhelmed #bc last time I just. yeah it wasn’t the best moment #struggling in general with people and just pacing out of much of Myself is a tolerable dosage #recently I just feel like I’ve green falling onto the ‘over eager and annoying’ cycle :/ #been* #I don’t want to be a Chore I guess. #I keep thinking about how nice it would be to not feel that way #like maybe I’m not the most exciting person ever and it takes me a minute to get used to someone but :/ idk I think I’m good company #(god knows I spend enough time around just myself lmao) #usually I can tell when I’m feeling like this again bc I start spending more money on hobbies and Stuff #just to fill time/give myself something to look forward to #but I can’t really do that rn lmao/don’t want to #I’m not rich I can’t just have retail therapy every time I start to feel lonely :/ #it’d be nice lmao but no not practical #man I just want to talk to people. have conversations. feel like people are actually Happy that I’m talking to them. #that’s it that’s all #they say never trust your brain after 9pm but what if you’ve been sitting with it for weeks?

[scoreplings]

absolutely need to be asleep right now but im off my meds at the moment so my insomnia is back full swing. anyway one of you should talk to me im so boredd

#i already tried all of my usual night time distractions and they did not work -_- i need to be physically held down or something #i dont go to work tomorrow [well i do. but only for 2 hours instead of twelve] so its not imperative that i sleep #but also. i would like to. and im sick and it would make me feel better. and i want to do chores tomorrow n i cant if im sleepy…. sad

[surreal-duck]

letting me live alone was a bad idea i think

#duck rants about something #i mean its not like i particularly mind most of the time. sure chores are a hassle and i am the Worst at keeping myself alive but #im getting better! probably #<- they forgot to eat dinner #putting this on here because like hell am i risking my sister see this #strangely enough i was fine at first at having to move here by myself for school #sure i did miss my family but i could call them anytime and stuff so i wasnt too affected on that end at the time #but wow after like nearly a year of this. i really do miss them #i miss my parents' food. i want to watch cartoons with my little siblings again. i want to throw hands with my sister #ive tried to make my room feel more like home bit by bit and ig it works most of the time #dunno something a little depressing about coming home to a mostly empty room void of other humans to interact with #as embarrassing as it is to admit. im really looking forward to seeing them again in december #i dont really like the town my family's moved to but honestly. ill stomach it if it means ill get to see them again #damn i am just going through a whole range of emotions today arent i #does anyone read these. i hope not is there anything more pathetic than venting in the tags of a tumblr post whwjskdgkjksdgh #my mental health has been on the decline for a while now. was very aware of that but Wow this year was absolutely horrific #i wonder if ive ever really put myself or the things i wanted first without having to be overly considerate of everyone else #so being thrown into a situation to fend for myself and only myself was. kind of jarring #i Know i have a problem w opening up i Know that i tend to make sure others are feeling better and disregard my own feelings in the process #and i have so much trouble asking for help that i end up bottling everything up and reaping the consequences of my actions #damn it. #wheres that post about never trusting your thoughts past 9 pm (it is 8 pm)

[magicstormfrostfire]

When did I get to a point where creating for others gets me motivated....but creating for myself became a horrible, gross chore...

#i hate all of my stuff now. OCs and everything #i have for a while. #and its not that I think theyre bad or anything #I still love them and stuff but its like their existence is a burden to me #doing anything for myself is hard #the whole point of me making OCs was to have something for myself #but it feels like if I dont have an audience for something that it doesnt matter enough to do #doing things 'for myself' is a chore not a pleasure #and i cant pinpoint why. #i didnt used to feel like this about art. its my PASSION ffs #but why has trying to take care of my wants and needs become a burden to myself somehow??? #magicstormfrostfirepersonal

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

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#so for the last like. as long as i can remember. ive had a shit sleep schedule #mostly like sleep all day and stay up all night kinda shit #but i got sick/burnt out recently and slept for almost two days straight #and somehow it reset my sleep schedule to something normal #like i went to bed at 10pm and woke up at 5am for the last few days #and i havent had to nap #and the not needing to nap is really fucking with me #like im used to waking up. feeding my dog. and then napping until i go to work #i should be napping rn. but im not tired #i dont have to get ready for work for another four hours and ive already been awake for three hours #i went to the coffee shop and to walgreens. im in real clothes instead of pajamas. i did a load of laundry #im laying in bed (its so hot i might be dying) and i just. dont know what to do with my time #im probably gonna do some cleaning and packing because im moving in two months #idk im just feeling some strange type of way because for the last few days ive been. alive #instead of sleeping my life away #its so strange. i got sick. slept for a few days. and now my biggest problem is just fixed? and i can have a life now? #its 70 degrees today and the world is my oyster. what should i do? #i have a list of chores im gonna do. i might walk to the coinstar machine so ill have money #yeah i want to do that cuz im in the negatives in my bank account but i want to get a cool drink before work today #my dad texted me this morning 'noticed your bank account is overdrawn for the second time this week. whats going on kid?' #which is such a sad text to get because i know im broke. thanks dad. lets pls ignore my financial hardships #if you want to make my dad less sad hmu for my venmo /hj #anyways ill probs do that today. get some cash so i can get a frozen lemonade from wawa or something #yknow that post thats like 'seasonal depression seems fake until its 50 degrees in march and it feels like you took a party drug' #i think thats partially whats happening here. its 70 degrees and sunny and my systems dont know what to do with that #i hope youre all having a great day that you dont sleep through. i love you!!

[nocturnal-halcyon]

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#making a separate post instead of putting tags under prev bc its unrelated and venting but. hmmmmm #majority of the time art does feel like a chore and a slog to me... and most of the time i dont find it rewarding.... #I enjoy looking at art and I appreciate when I can understand how it was made still #but my own art is like... idk. I just dont find it fullfilling and worth my time #idk if it's a mindset issue or if I'm genuinely just disinterested in drawing and forcing myself too much #like I have been enjoying writing a lot more but I dont pressure myself to write. I just do it when inspiration strikes. I dont want to post #any writing I do either bc it's literally me messing around with ideas on my notes app #ngl I've been debating to erase all my art socials for this reason.... in general I'm a private person and i dont like to constantly share- #what I'm doing on social media so. #and i often catch myself thinking of drawing just bc i want to post something not bc i actually want to make art....