#i exist in my little bubble

[b4kuch1n]

study of this masterwork

#wayneradiotv #rtvs #sonic the hedgehog #after '''''typesetting'''''''' this thing I almost forgot how to spell hedgehog #the caption is fully unironic btw this is for educational purpose. its very fun to draft a comic from an existing ''thumbnail'' it turns ou #but also I just love comics dude. I just love sequential art its so cool to see how anyone arranges things in their own comic #like. wayne's sprite on top of the ''what!!'' speech bubble. really fucking good #little bit sad I couldnt catch the streams live even tho they did run in my timezone... bc Im bad at sleepin #but! Im gonna try and set an alarm this weekend. wanna hang out for a bit #also yeah all dialogue in this is accurate to the original. no use fixing whats perfect as they say #debated printing this out and scuffing the paper with eraser and then re-scan it. for authenticity. but Im tired and dinner soon so #sorry cosme my friend cosme I couldnt commit. I couldnt do it.... #anyways yeah. I dinner now #have a good day lads! what u see truly is what u get

[ponydoodles]

Suggesting a rarepair - Bubbles and Cheese Sandwich

Actually and unironically the best ship I've ever seen I'm keeping this one anon thank you

#Ditzy Doo #Bubbles #Muffins #Cheese Sandwich #CheeseWiz #MLP #My Little Pony #MLP:FIM #Pegasi #Earth Ponies #background pony #Mod Fiesta #I made up a ship name idk if one already exists #I just feel like CheeseWiz makes sense for them #I took out the h because thats a brand lmao

[sergle]

what I was talking abt earlier. we have fully looped back around and away from feminism, societally, whereas before it was very Feminism 101 to acknowledge that many parts of existing as a woman in a misogynistic society are painful and upsetting. not that being a woman is Inherently Negative in a bubble. but that living on this earth, in the conditions we're living in, is hostile to women. and that gender is a performance. that many of the Staples Of Femininity as accepted by society are things that you have to create and perform and mold artificially and aren't inherent, that COMPLAINING about day to day difficulties of existing as a woman is something that you're allowed to do. acknowledging these basic, again, feminism 101 things, that something tied to womanhood is more time consuming or more expensive or more dangerous Because Of The Problems. does not CREATE the problems. that when women complain about having to perform femininity, they are not, in fact, oppressing themselves. the call does not come from inside the fucking house. saying that you HAVE suffered does not fucking equate that you believe you SHOULD have suffered.

like I could talk about this for hours. how braindead and one-dimensional the Takes are getting. "being a woman is looking in the mirror and going fuck yeah i'm a woman" damn. I guess any negative experiences you have by living in a misogynistic world... are your fault if you are anything but positive? "you don't actually want liberation" we've fully gone back to telling feminists "you WANT to be oppressed" when anything negative about our society is pointed out. it's not real until I say it out loud, I guess, and then I'm actually the one who caused it. if anybody expresses any unhappiness with how they're treated or the status quo or the language and culture surrounding womanhood and femininity. they've created it, right that second. they invented it just now. it wasn't a problem before somebody complained, right? also trans women aren't braindead zombies who just follow the flow of whatever cis women around them say. I am pretty fucking sure they are very much aware of pain, and are MORE than aware of the swirling torrent of misogyny and standards of femininity than anybody else. actually. and I am pretty sure someone complaining on tumblr that being a woman means always putting on a performance is going to make someone change their mind about transitioning. also "performing femininity" as a necessity to being treated well as a woman is not fucking NEWS to your Local Trans Woman. I AM PRETTY SURE SHE GETS THE CONCEPT. using trans women as a scapegoat for this braindead perspective on gender politics is spineless, meritless, and pathetic.

#how I feel about my gender is not the same as how I feel about the living conditions of my gender #when I saw that post I screenshotted here I literally sat w my mouth open for a minute #sent it to my friends and was like am I fucking crazy. is this what we're doing now #Forced Positivity and that there is no war in ba sing se and actually #you're ruining children's lives if you complain about misogyny on twitter #I don't HAVE to tell little girls about the downsides because they are already being mistreated #before they have even heard the word 'misogyny' let alone know what it means #you do not have to be fucking happy all the time about the cards you're dealt. #you don't live in a bubble where it's just you and your mirror and your pretty dress and nothing bad has ever happened to you #unfortunately bitch. we will have negative experiences that are in fact. part of the package of being a woman #and IGNORING them doesn't make them not exist. actually they will continue to remain status quo unless acknowledged #sergle.txt #I see so much rhetoric that is JUST old-fashioned gender ideals being presented with liberal language on tiktok #that is just telling women that womanhood is just being a girllll and loving pretty things and being kind and gentleeeee and nurturing #and not working and just like being wholesome and being happy and being a light in ppl's lives and just LOVING LOVING LOVING being a woman #so if for even one second. you don't love it. you are actually failing at being a woman #if you complain about the standards for shaving or putting on makeup. which used to be Baby's First Feminism online #that's actually just you creating problems. you're not supposed to acknowledge it. you're supposed to shut up and smile into the mirror.

[icenineporcupine]

"The Art of the Bath"

a.k.a the one where Hale is a full-on merfolk rather than a half-sea-elf.

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Gale: It says here that traditionally, the goal is to keep the majority of the water contained within the tub…

Hale [splashing blithely]: Surely you're lying…

Gale: I assure you I'm not, my love. This tome is incredibly respected in the upper city spas—

Hale: Okay, so where’s the part about joining your partner in the bath for best results?

Gale: Now I believe you’re the one inventing maxims…

Hale: No, I don’t believe I am.

#gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #bg3 fanart #bg3 tav #gale x tav #this rizzard is lodged in my heart like a netherese orb and I don't want to remove him #posting this before I succumb to the [dark] urge to meddle with it further #every time I undertake an illustration like this I walk away going 'I'm never drawing [thing] again' #this time it is bubbles omfg #oh and before the tags start: Hale is NOT Ast*rion! #I have nothing against the bloody little bastard (really!) but Hale predates his existence by like 17 years #if you tag this as Ast*rion I'll be very disappointed and karma will Notice You (TM) so pls don't <3 #ghalescion #iceporcupine draws a thing

[leafsfromthevine]

thank you all for 200 (plus some!) followers mwah im giving you all a big hug big kiss big hand on shoulder thank u for supporting my antics have random zukka gif !!!!!

#do followers mean anything to you all im not sure if this is something other people care abt it but I CARE ABT IT #i care abt u all who took the time to look at my blog and go yes. i want more #like thank u #i also hit 1k reblogs the other day along with my first 1k note post i feel so special you all make me feel so special wahhhhhhh #its just so neat to exist in this little online bubble and be like!!! here are my thoughts!!! and you all go wow yippee woohoo!!!! #thank u zukka nation #leaf op

[le0nids]

finding someone in the house md fandom in 2023 that dislikes hilson or dosent care about wilson is genuinely shocking

#this isnt /neg btw i just didnt know that the fandom existed outside my little bubble lol #just saw a huddy shipper who doesn’t like wilson #house md

[randomlygeneratedusername2]

Are you a "I hate long journeys" neurodivergent or a. "I love long journeys" neurodivergent?

#i fucking LOVE long journeys #because i can just sit there and draw or listen to music and exist in my little bubble #i was on a 6 hour train ride last week and it was amazing

[artheresy]

I have not forgotten the draft regarding "How I would write Clouds Leave No Trace", it still lingers its still there

Im still thinking about how my least favorite parts are Yanqing's characterization, The way the world around Jingliu treats her like she's normal when clearly she's not, The way there's such an effort into putting Yingxing and Dan Feng on the same level of guilt for every single thing that it makes Blade's desire for revenge feel nonsensical and out of no where when he has good reason for it, The way that they don't do more to play up the HCQ's dynamic especially in the normal areas thus making caring about their tragedy a struggle if you haven't done all the "prerequisite reading" (even tho the quest should make the players care more and want to read instead of requiring the opposite), The way that they literally mention Bailu and Blade crossed paths but never show us that scene DESPITE all of the importance placed upon Baiheng and Yingxing's friendship, Did I mention My Massive Problems with my boy Yanqing's characterization in this quest versus what we see of how he's affected both before and after it?

Oh and of course, to mention Jing Yuan not really feeling like he has as much significance being in this quest despite being apart of the HCQ and Jingliu's disciple because yet again, they especially don't do enough to develop on screen (but also not enough in the readable text too) his connections to the rest of the HCQ (which in general if you ask me, makes it a lot harder to be that sad at the moments they clearly want us to feel sad for him over the HCQ)

I could go on and on about the problems of Hyv not fully giving the audience a reason to care for the HCQ's tragedy by the way they are barely shown on screen, shoving it all in readables and character stories and relic lore. Even their legends get barely any screen time to build up to when we hear about the fall out.

Also again, not kidding about Jingliu and the world's perception around her. She is described solely in the beginning as bringing a chill to the room, but she's clearly very intimidating, if you ask me she seems very clearly unstable as well and yet when they waltz around in a populated area with no attention getting drawn to them or suspicion or anything. I also call Massive Bullshit on Bailu being like "Wow but she seems so normal and kind, there's nothing about her at all that could make me think she's marastruck 😲!!" When if you ask me, that whole scene could have been used in a much more meaningful way to make a connection between Bailu and her resemblance to Baiheng Specifically in a way I will further elaborate on in my full post about it BUT YEAH Jingliu deserved so much better with this quest, so so much better

And even just small details get me like Jingliu leaving first from Scalegorge Waterscale, then Jing Yuan, Yanqing and Ren leaving? Like if you ask me, let Jingliu leave with Jing Yuan and Yanqing like they're escorting her (idc about any "She was already turning herself in!" There are a number of reasons to be cautious, not solely of her, and keep her in their view) and then talk to and have Ren leave last.

I am still thinking about it, that post still haunts me daily, I have grown to like the quest but my problems with it are so strong and so clear that it's like AHA I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT

#I have so many opinions on this quest #And a clear vision in my mind #I still don't know why it exists in its own little bubble #Why is Yanqing acting so odd in this quest but then goes right back to his normal consistent point of character regarding his failures afte #Also even with the argument of it being Jinglius biased words #Having NO mention of Dan Feng while talking about Yingxing's fate at all is wild and weird #Not even a “His stupidity and loyalty to you got him turned into a monster” kind of thing #Where it doesn't even have to be explicitly all the fault on Dan Feng but treating it like he wasn't at all involved in that transformation #It's crazy to me #But yeah uh #I bet if I wasn't obsessed with Blade and the HCQ #To the point of going through the readables and little quests with any mentions of them and their character stories #That I wouldn't be as emotional as I was during Clouds Leave No Trace because they really don't do enough to give reasons to care #The reason I cried for Blade when I played it is bc I read VotU knew what Baiheng meant to him & the ChrStr to know what they meant to him #The game should do more to tell us those kinds of things upfront if they want us to be more likely to have the reaction they seek #ALSO #NOT ENOUGH FLASHBACKS #SERIOUSLY ADD SOME MORE !!! #Even just snippets and add little lines and moments or views of the past overlaid on the prescent? #Hsr #Honkai star rail #Jingliu #Baiheng #Dan heng #Dan feng #Yanqing #Jing yuan #Yingxing #Hsr blade #high cloud quintet

[isfjmel-phleg]

😶

#random personal stuff #feeling very trivial lately. very useless to other people. #like a little glittery figurine someone picked up in a souvenir shop #want to help. can't help. need to help to justify existence. #going home will be good because then I could at least do the dishes for my mom or something #but for now I wish there were more to me than good intentions made out of soap bubbles #when other people have such important things to do and such real concerns

[lunearobservatory]

You know what? I'm gonna say it. I'm vouching for Montana to join the huge honkers club.

#look. #he's the 4th biggest state with rly high elevation and a lot of. erm. Land Mass. iykwim. #I'm obsessed with the homophobic homosexual slur sayers group chat lately. by that i mean wyoming idaho montana #TO ME THEY ARE FRIENDS. #hunting. fishing bros. they r huge DUMB farm dogs who beat tf out of each other playfully like they'll throw down. wrestle in the dirt #montana wins 👎👎👎👎👎 usually. unless its 2v1 #oregon meanwhile a little further west like. Exhausted by this. his husband and his homophobic jock friends. they will not stop fighting. #they are in public. if he takes them to yhe shore they will try to drown each other. wyoming almost full ass dies #OMFG WAIT NAW FR I MET??? SOMEONE FROM WYOMING TODAY FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. #YALL ARE REAL???? YALL ARE REAL!!!!! #they were..... wearing a FANTASTIC amount of minions merchandise. which to me only confirms that wyoming is in a time bubble #causing it to perpetually exist 10 years in the past #i fully said omg never met someone from wyoming before!!!!! and they said lmfao well there isnt rly that many to meet tbh. like. #YAS. rocking that least populated state title #to me that means he has SEVERE empty head syndrome. dissociative disorder 🫵 maladaptive daydreaming 🫵 im projecting. #its not a problem for him tho he's got a huge ass fantasy world he's been cultivating in his head since the 1800s. this bitch loves books. #and when i say bitch i mean BITCH. victoria my dear beloved darling made a post about it but WOW. he is a CUNT. #the west is full of mean girls !!!! #disgusting of them #lune talks #lune talks even more in the tags 😐 #i cant keep DOING THIS. #wttt #wttsh #ben brainard #welcome to the statehouse #welcome to the table #REMINDER THIS POST WAS ORIGINALLY ABOUT MONTANA'S HUGE FUCKING TITS. REMEMBER THAT REMEMBER. OKAY? GOOD #wttt montana #i hereby deem alaska mass montana texas. the huge knockers club.

[elegyofthemoon]

#snowpolls #(asks the question anyways) #youre not going into the sel//fshipping tag im Scared of walking in there #i exist in my little bubble #the only reason why im curious is MOSTLY because i feel like i blindly rb on the whim and sometimes #itll just go to the sideblog without me thinking 'OH FUCK RIGHT I SHOULD HIDE THAT OOPSIES!' #tragedy strikes. this idiots godawful at hiding #im antsy as to share it im just more curious if mutuals/people i follow or whoever else know about it lmao #besides its not like i talk much about it here anyways #or at least i dont tHINK i talk about it much? #but anyways #i'd queue this but i'm also too scared of having this all over the place so #if you see it you see it be free little rolliepollie

[thebluestbluewords]

My brain is doing some NOT VERY GREAT things rn, so I am EXTERNALIZING THE FEELINGS ONTO FICTIONAL MEN because that’s a healthier coping mechanism than the other options. (cw for suicidal ideation)

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Jay’s been to the college library twice. Once because it was part of orientation, and once on his own in an attempt to do homework. He got one chapter into his assigned reading before a group of enthusiastic tennis juniors swept through and picked up anyone they recognized, and he hasn’t been back since. There’d been too many people around to focus on homework anyway. 

“I’m not doing homework.” 

Carlos thwacks his head. “I didn’t say we were doing homework, I said we’re going to the library. I know you don’t focus around other people.” 

Jay rolls onto his back, as far away as he can get in the confines of a twin bed. 

It’s not very far. 

“I don’t focus….anywhere.” 

Carlos winds a hand into his shirt to pull him back.

“Like I said, I know this game. You don’t focus anywhere because your brain thinks you’d be better off dead, and it won’t listen to anything that’s not getting it to that goal. You’re not going to shout over it, so you’re got to sneak around it.”

#this doesn’t get tags or anything #it’s just…..some of the thots I am having about my special little guys #in my heart Jay is the guy who is so so focused on caring about his crew #that he doesn’t know how to exist without them #and this manifests itself in a HORRIBLE attempt at a first semester of college #where he doesn’t know how to function around the void where his people should be #and like. #Evie is off having fun in the city for her own first semester and sending the group chat cute daily selfies and OOTD pics #and Mal is learning magic now that she’s out of high school and enjoying the hell out of herself #and talking about all the stuff her mom never told her #and finding her people now that she’s able to get outside the Auradon Prep bubble #and it’s just…..that relatable college feeling where all of your friends are THERE on the phone #but they’re not really there the same way as they were #and you can’t be the downer who talks about it #but you can’t help but wonder what would happen if you just….. #gave up #anyway!! We love to write our feelings away!!!

[coolsharkpirate]

It's been almost a year since I left the community, and I still worry if everyone is ok. I don't want to reach out and ask, because I'm worried it'd make people uncomfortable.

But I miss the people I talked to, and I miss celebrating joys and mourning sorrows with them.

Been kind of thinking about it a lot, and I understand this is for the best, but I really do hope everyone is doing well.

On another note, I may be going through to downsize my customs, so if anyone on 1290 has your fancy, let me know and I may be willing to just give them away. I haven't been breeding/doing much with them, so I would like to give them a chance to be used I guess.

#mweor #I do look forward to getting home so I can play a little Mweor again. #Even if I just kind of exist in my bubble lol

[adriartts]

Something about purpose and pasts, old worlds and new ones.

(Dialogue from @dungeonsanddragonsfifthedition‘s Bird and Bear are Friends)

#original #nightlings #fauns #ANYHWAY. having an incredibly normal one #*slaps roof of mini-comic* this bad boy can fit so much fucking worldbuilding in it #bird and bear are friends lives rent free in my brain. omg they are. f.riends #me preparing to draw reiji: that's it you're going to the fucking grassland. get in the plains idiot #i fuck hard with the bright panel in the middle here. didn't turn out exactly as it was in my brain but i like it a ton either way #it's the only warm colors. they're hella saturated even more so than i usually saturate my colors. resembles either an explosion or the sun #both mean something to the world or the characters respectively so either interpretation is correct #redesigned the tattoo on milo's left arm again because i changed how the moons function. dig it tho and now it's got LORE lmao #the three panels of reiji that overlap the sun look really good. i like his fucked up eyes #all the hands. he's signing. his hair is down and the jewelry is gone. it's the middle of the night. he'd been sleeping #constellations as something that follows milo. stars as something that reiji follows #reiji's colors were initially more saturated but he was TOO fucking purple so i had to change it #their speech bubbles are complimentary colors. sorry. ill be SO normal dude i promise im so incredibly normal bro #apparently around thanksgiving every year I need to do a minicomic. last year was fierce deity comic. now u get ocs #now you get THIS GUY (plural) #my fucked up little creatures who are here to wander around and Find Out #my fucked up little guys who are here to exist on the ashes of an older world. and be friends about it #my fucking. these dudes. make a normal character then shoot them with my beam that makes them a fucked up little fantasy creature. #get creatured. idiot #ONE more. i simplified milo's design a lil for the sake of clarity. mostly just the fur pattern is typically not so defined but for the... #...small panels especially. it didn't look good to draw it all out. ok NOW i'm done #Milo Montalvo #Reiji Droet #oc #ocs

[icewindandboringhorror]

Daily Log 4

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Woke up late because I went back to sleep with a headache briefly, then kind of struggled to focus all day ToT

Worked more on the aforementioned tapestry/painting type of thing. I've done the base layer of painting for the main image, now I'm lining in darker outlines. I wanted to finish the center art before getting into the intricate borders. Still haven't translated the text lol..

Made a small bowl and also a little box with a lid out of more avocado pits. Still just with random nail cuticle tool things and kitchen knives, as I don't have proper carving tools.

Finished editing and proofreading the new poll adventure post!! I don't have time to post it tonight because I need to get to sleep early but.. I have it Completely 100% Ready.. finally..

Also washed the clothes I got together yesterday. Called about the bloodwork. Sent an email to a doctor.

Reviewed some writing documents to get back into my game maybe?? (basically, I started working on a visual novel type game a few years ago, decided it was a huge project so kind of put it on the backburner for a while in favor of things that were more easily finishable/tangible. then later on a game website I play (similar to neopets or something, there are collectable little creatures, etc.) there was an opportunity for me to design a pet on site, so I made a smaller shorter visual novel centered around that, where people on the site have to play the game in order to earn the pet, and I have a google form for them to answer a few short questions about it. All of the feedback is quite positive (reached 200 responses a while ago! though still only like 4 comments on the itch.io page lol.. Mandatory Form vs. Optional Comments evil showdown), but sometimes I get commentary that's really enthusiastic and inspires me to start back working on the OTHER bigger game. The small game was kind of like, a proof of concept that was safe because I had a guaranteed audience, that has helped me gain more insight for the larger one.

Anyway, since I've abandoned the Main Large Game for so long, I have to re-read and review/probably rewrite A LOT of things just to pick it back up again as A Thing I'm Actively Working On, so it's another one of those tasks that I do maybe 45 minutes of and then realize it's going to take days and days and get discouraged lol..

Notable sights: Saw two cats in windows. No clovers. It rained a little today but I didn't get to go outside and see it. One of the pieces of asparagus in the fridge was like the size of a carrot, comically overgrown downright ridiculous looking asparagus. Maybe I'll get taller after eating it.

Goals moving forward: Consistent sleep schedule. Focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Plant nasturtiums. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc.

Notable foods: ASPARAGUS AGAIN BABEY.. yeaAAAAGHHH asparagus squad !!!!!!

#just posting these publicly since it feels more like I'm doing something or easier to hold yourself accountable if you make public #declarations of goals and progress or etc. .. perhaps.. for now.. #I wonder if you can eat too much asparagus. Hopefulyl I don't get sick ghjbj #Still craving lots of savory foods and soups. Also in a big big worldbuilding mood. #Not enough to actually edit the worldbuilding slideshow videos apparently since I've barely done any of that all week #>:Y #(they are different though.. actively writing wolrdbuilding is different from like.. editing recordings of you talking about it #BUT STILL...) #In an ideal world I have a little house in scotland or canada or something and am sitting cozy by a window watching it #rain whilst I eat lasagna and like a huge buffet table of every single hearty food I am having Anemia Cravings for #and my cat is sitting near me and I am furiously sketching various designs for different worldbuilding details. I have finally found #a weird hermit platonic best friend I'm compatible enough to live with and they are up in the attic doing their own weird little hobbies #but every once in a while I can call them down and tell them about an idea so we can bounce concepts off of each other. I somehow walk away #with no heartburn or stomach upset or nausea despite eating 800 plates of craving foods. It's cold and summer #does not exist anymore but not in a Catastrophic For The Earth type of way more in a like.. I am in a magical bubble #that only affects my direct vicinity and sheilds me from the temperature ever getting above 65F #(also I have a comfortable amount of money and good doctors and reasonable health etc. etc. but that's a given in any Ideal Scenario lol) #oughh... I just want to eat hearty breakfast foods and think about elves for 5 hours.. is that so much to ask #Why must... responsibilities... capitalism... limited time and no energy to focus on 100 projects at once... why these things... #ANYWAY #daily log

[mantabanter]

I know most people don’t REALLY care about the lack of content from me (I post when I post and yall seem just fine with that) but I thought I would mention why I haven’t made anything in... eons.

I had a realization with my own art, that I found it messy and quick and... stagnant. And not only all that, but it felt so completely narrow minded as well. It felt like, well, there were only so many things I could draw and so many ways to draw them, and I had to get them out quick OR ELSE-

It was for social media. I was only thinking about social media and whether my art was postable. I was no longer making beautiful things that I loved. I was making things that I thought maybe the internet would like, things that I probably Should make rather than things I actually wanted to.

So I took some time and had a long think and thought: well, what DO I actually want to make? And it’s still something I’m a bit stuck on. I don’t think I have the skills or the ability to make the things I do want to make. Which is disappointing, but also kind of exhilirating. I get to learn and try something new. But also. I probably have to be kind of shit at it first too. Which is NOT GREAT for my ego ;w; but. Thats how it goes. There are a thousand things I want to make, art, AUs, fandom stuff, non-fandom stuff, but I’m kind of realizing I don’t have the time and the skills for everything. Which is sad because. As someone who is terrible at prioritizing, I don’t know what to focus on or spend my time doing! And theres still that little voice in my head that wants to make something that people will like, that people will see, that will get me my fake internet points and make me feel like I have meaning in my life.

And well. I just don’t know. I think I have to go in the opposite direction of all my instincts. I want to make something that will NOT be popular, something NOT related to fandom, something that can be BAD and it’s FINE but something I’ll CARE about. I want to find satisfaction within my art, something that will last with me, not something that will disappear from my mind once it is done gaining traction online. You know?

And I’m not entirely sure what ticks those boxes yet. But I want to get back into trying.

#I know the things I do want to do #I want to tell stories #I want to make people feel things #and i want to have something with real thought behind it #a lot of my art is kinda mindless actually #and i want something with more meaning #Yeah #I suppose I'm just searching for meaning again #I want to be mindful with my life again #And that includes art #Its so important to take a break from autopilot mode and just really ask the big questions of what youre doing and where youre going and #whats important to you #I dont want to make art I can't share #I have that art tucked away in my notebook #but i also believe that art is an event that happens when someone looks at something and finds meaning #i dont want to exist in my own little bubble #i want to explore and i DO want to show people #I just dont want those expectations of those people to RULE me #anyway #random thoughts #i know it seems that im kind of not making sense #like #idk its tough #basically #its not one side or the other its a balance and i dont know how to find that yet #and i just dont know what makes me happy anymore #so im searching for my own inspiration and trying to get in touch with my own creativity #which is HARDER THAN YOUD THINK