#i feel like we're on the same level

[imthatqueerkid]

#crush blogging day 13 #last time i got distressed about this writing helped so im using my coping skills #*grumbles* #its so fun flirting when you have anxiety and cptsd because he will literally be having a conversation with me and smiling at me abd ill be #laughing and having fun and the whole tine my brain is convincing me that he has zero interest in me and secretly hates me #i know he doesn't he does seem happy to be around me #hes a little oblivious.... hes adorable #listen hes literally everything i want in a partner #attractive‚ funny‚ nice‚ has a low singing voice but a normal speaking voice‚ doesn't make me feel insanely anxious‚ #i feel like we're on the same level #its not like with my ex where everything felt weirdly out of balance‚ and i felt horrible for liking her and she made my life lonlier #he actively makes my life better he doesn't do the 'why are you friends with me im so pathetic' bit he makes me so genuinely happy #like..... i deserve to feel good. i deserve to feel happy. i deserve good things but i also cant just have them handed to me #i will have to work through my issues for this to work and i really want it to work #so im going to do my best. like right now i already feel better! not a ton but definitely better #sigh.... love of my life #fire boy #from the couch #Spotify

[grapejuicegay]

Okay, friend

#OH NO I HAVE TOO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS #first of all the obvious red and blue boys #the one who's ready to jump all in at the slightest hint of reciprocation #and the one who gets too into his own head and tries to chicken out of talking about his feelings #but also thinking about all the meta (and specifically jemmo's post) about the ep 10 fist bump #and how they were on the same level through it all and how their relationship is level and reciprocal at every point #and how we're seeing the exact opposite take place here in msp #tinn has just been rejected #and done so in a way where he has no idea that gun likes him too #gun trying to reach out in a situation that IS difficult for them both #but he has a step up on tinn here where he knows that his feelings are reciprocated even if they can't be together right now #and so of course tinn is the one to step back when he tries to make a move under the cover of the mv #because he has just been rejected where gun... just hasn't #and most importantly both episodes ending with immaculate food based flirting 10/10 #anyway here's some boys fist bumping about their feelings in ep 6 #(and talking about said feelings next to a body of water) #tune in next week for boys not really dating and also performing a tragic romance in ep 7! #my school president #my school president series #bad buddy #bad buddy series #bad buddy brain rot #this isn't about bad buddy but when is anything not about bad buddy anymore #< i love this tag but you best believe i am going to make anything and everything about bad buddy #kk.gifs #oh this is my first gifset of 2023!!!

[pastafossa]

Hey I just wanted to ask a writer question. I really admire your writing and the amount of work and dedication you put into your stories and characters. You are one of my favourite authors ever. I have been wanting to get into writing and I was wondering how you flesh out your characters? For example you have a character that you’ve thought out, do you have a template that you fill in? Or just write a whole bunch of points about the character in a Google doc? I know that question might not make the most sense but I have a few characters that I’ve given quirks and backstories in my mind but I have no idea how to transfer them onto paper? Like Jane from TRT, is there just a big template or doc where you randomly put points into or some other type of organization? I know it’s not an easy thing to answer on text or even something you might not want to answer but even one sentence of advice is much appreciated :) Thank you so much for everything! I appreciate you. I will also put this into the ask thingy if you want to answer on there instead of PM 😁

I've managed to hammer this out in bits and pieces over the moments I've been more coherent so I think I'll make sense. First, thank you so, so, so much! I honestly love these characters so I'm always happy to hear someone likes it, even if I enjoy the work! 😭

Second - I do in fact have a template in doc form that I use to keep things organized! It's one I've been using since I took a novel writing course years ago by a published author, and in one particular class we went over character development, which is where I learned the template. The way I was taught (and the way I develop major characters) - first, even before filling in the template, I figure out their archetype(s). What story role are they filling? Who will they be a foil for? I like to think of those as your foundation, because every character is an archetype of some kind, and you can use that to build them up. To use Jane as an example, she's an antihero archetype, yes, but I've also pulled elements from: the Unscrupulous Hero, the Sympathetic Murderer, the Combat Pragmatist, and the Ineffectual Loner. Compared to Matt's hero archetype, she's the Lancer. Archetypes can help you if you're struggling to build up from the bottom.

Once I have the archetype, I start filling in the Major Character/Hero template, which roughly looks like this (if you don't fill it all right away, that's fine, because there's a step after this to fill it in the rest of the way). I like this one because I feel like it covers VERY important things that a lot of online character profiles skip, and has much less of a focus on looks (which I find way less important from a writing perspective):

Name: Age: Family History: Career: Physical Description: (include things like scars, notable or unusual features) Preferred Style of Clothing: (instead of listing brands, try to instead describe their style of clothing as it relates to their character - ex: Jane wears upper-end pantsuits in muted colors when meeting clients, because they carry a strong emphasis on professionalism; when hunting things down, she wears what is practical over anything to do with aesthetic) Goal: (every character should have one; what are they trying to do?) Motivation: (WHY do they want that goal?) Big Secret: (if it were Jane, it'd be what happened in Los Angeles; so what are they hiding? Keeping to themselves?) Self-image: (How do they see themselves? Are they confident and secure? Insecure and depressed?) Internal Conflict: (what are they struggling with?) Game: (What's some little game they enjoy?) Pet: (if applicable) Temptation: (what's aaaalways going to lure them in?) Vehicle: (if applicable; alternatively, how do they prefer to get around?) What makes them unique: (our fake post-apocalyptic character we made as a class had his teeth sharpened into points to scare people; Jane is often fidgeting with threads; just anything that stands out) How do they speak: (do they speak very precisely? Use lots of slang? Do they have an accent?) Quote: (What quote sums them up, or what quote do they relate to most? I have an entire folder of these for Jane tbh, and some for Ciro as well) Lesson Learned: (All characters should grow in some way, rather than stagnating. So how do they grow? What do they learn through the story?)

Now, this is something I was encouraged to do after the template, and also something I was already doing on my own. Once you have the template as finished as you feel comfortable with, you might feel like you need to develop the character a little further to fill in the rest, or solidify what you already have. The way you can do that? Write something short with this character. It doesn't have to be anything you need to post; it can be based on a short scene, based on a prompt, things like that. I like dumping them into: humorous scenarios, angsty scenarios, and Action Oriented (TM) scenes. Those really help you get into the meat of the character (aka: how they react to teasing/flirting/jokes; how they react to strong emotion; how they react in situations that might cause panic). Basically, it's your way of introducing yourself to them and becoming more comfortable writing them, because often a character might act a certain way in a cold, rigid template, but behave entirely differently once you drop them into a scene. Alternatively, you might get to writing and realize you need to make an adjustment so that they have better chemistry with the other characters. Writing a new character's a dance, and you're both going to step on each other's toes in the beginning, but once you learn how they move, it gets easier. And it helps them develop and grow as you learn about them!

#writing advice #writing #character templates #this is the template i've used for most of my major characters and i love it tbh #i've tried some other ones and they just don't work for me #i feel like they focus WAY too much on appearance which is fairly minor in the scheme of writing #and not enough on things like goals and motivations and who the character *is* #because that's our job as authors #we're here to show you who these characters are at their base level so you can watch them grow #we are here to dissect them so readers can see their squishy insides #or as the author who led the class said: 'your job as a writer is to cause pain and suffering' #and you can't DO that if you don't know the inner workings #so i've used her template constantly since then because it makes that easier #it also emphasises growth which is something i LOVE #because i hate when everyone just stays the same in a story #ok i think that's everything #been writing this up in bits and pieces over the past two week and was finally coherent for long enough to clean it up a bit #now to keep seeing if i can start write writing again

[laurasbailey]

okay that was significantly less traumatising than i thought it was gonna be

#cr spoilers #i hate that it feels like we're reaching the end #but at the same time idk how they're going to beat ludinus at this low level

[br1ghtestlight]

apparently being hungover feels a lot like having a migraine which is very funny to me bcuz now i know if i ever drink and then get hungover im gonna feel 100% completely normal and be like wtf this is what you guys were complaining about?? U cant be serious. all this drama for nothing

#migraines do suck dont get me wrong but im used to them. assuming that hangovers arent like the most severe migraines u can get bcuz #then nobody would drink alcohol ever again #then again i always feel like people without chronic pain/disability/etc are kind of being babies about normal everyday pain #which ig is their right but its kinda funny to me. I feel worse physically on an average day than you will in your entire lifetime #and we're supposed to be operating on the same level here?? makes no sense #<- not referring just to migraines but thats a part of it #txt

[quaranmine]

Honestly I'd love to know what kind of comments you'd be adding to the fic for your mother. Very curious :0 (also I'm terrible at knowing what information an outsider would and wouldn't have and/or would need)

Sure, I'll add a few. (Redacted since my google account is my full name.) Also remember that y'all also got the benefit of my author's notes, but I'm not giving my mom the AO3 copy because over my dead body does she look at that account. I'm giving her a document copy. So a lot of the comments will likely be details you guys already got in either a post or author's note.

^^^ This one is written specifically because my mom, like me, has been going to Big Bend National Park since she was young. A member of my family has gone there nearly every single year since....1965? lol. So it's a fun tidbit for her to know I was thinking of it while writing this. (There will be a similar note when the Pinnacles trail comes up, because I named Pinnacles after a trail in Big Bend.)

me trying to explain Scar's general dramatic flair (i also have a comment somewhere explaining that Scar is dyslexic and that is why he occasionally mispronounces stuff in the fic, and why he says the scientific documents the rangers let him borrow were difficult to get through)

nicknames

My mother and I are both Gary the cat stans. Trust me she knows Exactly what I am picturing here.

^^ a few other comments on the story, ranging from "background character details" to "research details" to "totally unecessary personal opinions"

it's also fun for little self-aware asides:

She already knows a significant amount of the plot, including the ending, because I talked to her about it. That is also why she gets to read it, because the moment I opened my mouth about writing it I basically had to. I don't always talk about my writing with her but I really wanted to talk about this one. So! By talking about it I just made the decision for myself that I'd allow her to read it. She is....very excited haha. And I am too? I mean I think I am going to send it to her and then just immediately go back to my apartment so I don't have to be in the same house as her while she's reading it LOL. The embarassment of people who know you too closely reading your things etc etc. But I'm very proud of this story and I don't think she realizes how good of a writer I can be. She knows I'm good at it (like, she's read my essays and newspaper stories) but not how I handle fiction.

#quara asks #hc_firewatch_au #i considered making ANOTHER copy for general friends/family/other audience as well #since i know at least one friend asked to read it back in december #i wonder if she still remembers she wanted to read it. i may not remind her LOL #i'm picky about real life people seeing my work. it's so much more intensely personal than showing them my other creative stuff #it's also just a deeply unhinged hobby to write fanfiction in general #i'm not saying that to denigrate fanfiction. yall KNOW i love it deeply. #but you gotta admit there's a level of derangedness to showing Normal People(tm) something like this #hi yes i spent a large portion of my last year writing deeply researched & angsty fiction about minecraft blorbos. here go cry while u read #anyway the reason it'd be a whole new annotated copy and not just the same as my mom's is that i've got a specific relationship with my mom #that will influence how all these annotations are written #we're besties btw. #i'm not even worried about killing her at all on our upcoming 16 day trip together! #i feel like that reads sarcastic it wasnt meant to be

[spurgie-cousin]

Just saw the video and commentary you posted around the poverty cosplaying and I just want to add that there used to be a different place in Arkansas that did a similar thing, sorta. It was through a charity organization that shifted focus so they no longer run the program, but they used to have a "global village" where people would get assigned different regions of the world to live in by lottery with a couple key differences. First, they used actual names of actual countries and provided actual information about the country/culture. Secondly, it wasn't for mission training but instead was meant to be an educational tool to help middle school and high school students to consider how existing in different global and socio-economic circumstances change your decision making etc. and in depth discussion and educational activities were facilitated frequently. I went there as part of an overnight high school trip and while in retrospect the "poverty cosplaying" does give me the ick I still feel like that particular program was informative. Mostly I'm shook that two distinct programs like this exist in AR? I've literally never heard of the Harding one from the video until now and went on a Google deep dive to see if they were connected in some way, but not that I can tell. Anyway, no deep thoughts really, just thought it was super interesting/weird.

There is something in the water over there in Arkansas man lol. I can never learn just some normal fact about AR, it's always something weird.

I totally understand wanting to create more empathy for those who live in poverty, especially in teenagers who are in a really formative years of their lives. And it's one thing to replicate conditions in your immediate area which you are intimately familiar with, but I just can't get on board with play-acting poverty in different areas of the world. I just think about how I'd feel if some religious group in another country tried to replicate my life experience for shock value.

Even replicating the conditions semi-well can't replicate the actual stakes faced by the people they're cosplaying. You can't replicate the stress of a single mother working 2 jobs and supporting 3 kids in a one-room house, you can't replicate the stress of food insecurity and legitimately being worried about when your next meal will be, etc etc. And something about pretending to do them when you can just go back to normal life at any time just feels disrespectful in a way I can't really articulate.

Idk if people get something from it that's great and I do get the thinking behind the one you described at least, I'm mostly still ranting about the first camp lol. I don't have any doubt that some of the people running the camp you went to had good intentions (the other one though I'm really not sure based on the town names) I just have a lot of mixed experience in Christian missionary culture where poverty is treated voyeuristically which is just definitely the vibe I got from the first camp.

#idk my dad grew up really really poor and i live in an area with a lot of poverty and so maybe i'm just overly touchy about it #but so much of the “philanthropic” culture i experienced in Christianity was making an other out of poor people #it's hard for me to really articulate well i feel but it was just this disconnect like we are different. we are the saviors. #we're on a different level. when in reality i mean everyone is an arm's length away from being in a bad situation in the right circumstance #i think the fact that a lot of the missionary work we did too was just classic surface level stuff like putting a bandaid on a gaping wound #kind of stuff that never addresses the root issues of poverty left a bad taste in my mouth for the community too #my church in particular has had this fundraising event every year for 80 years for the same area in africa building infrastructure and its #like....it's been damn near a century. how has this goal not been accomplished yet like where is this money going too?? #why have the missionaries in question seemed to make so little progress #idk ok im done lol i havent ranted in the tags in so long

[kelprot-old]

there's something to be said about the idea of headcanons, and of plastering bits you resonate with onto pre-written characters, in an effort to "see yourself" in them. it's not malicious at all, but sometimes I wonder what the whole purpose of it is.

if it's for some kind of representation, to see certain ideas or traits manifest in a story you like, i would understand but also tell you to just like....go read something else. instead of ordering a hawaiian pizza minus the pineapple, just order a ham and cheese pizza. if that makes sense. lots of people on here love to post all about their favorite stories with queer headcanons, but refuse to take the step outside their realm of comfort and read something that has those queer themes actually interwoven into the story.

other times, people claim to do it just to see themselves reflected more in their favorite characters. which feels equally as flimsy to me. if you can't emphasize or even find enjoyment in a story if the characters dont resemble you (or an idealized you) in some way, then. idk. maybe work on that or something

#thisisnt like. a mean targeted post im moreso just thinking about things. i do this myself sometimes lol im not immune #anyways sorry im stuck at home for 6 weeks so im gonna be posting nonsense like this #in reality none of this really matters too much at all #however as someone who used to be way into this shit when i was a teenager i wonder what kinda purpose it serves? other than the obvious #we're reaching a state online where fiction is restricted more and more to these headcanon-y fandom-like levels of nuance #which is in part due to how many people are just teenagers and dont tend to worry too much about metanarrative discussions #nor is that everyone's cup of tea in the first place #but over the past 5 or so years it feels like more and more people default to this method when it comes to any kind of storytelling #regardless of the initial values of the original media they're discussing. it all gets relegated to this fandom-o-vision #this isn't even tumblr-centric. it's very prevalent on here yes. but every other social media seems to be following in kind #perhaps not with the same exact methods. but the similar lack of nuance feels like its there too #i just worry sometimes. maybe it isnt that important. but. oh well #im gonna go make myself a delicious milkshake

[sexygaywizard]

UGH i love that my vocal instructor thinks that I'm special and important and talented it makes me all warm & fuzzy

#she sent me an audition link to a high-level vocal program and the only other person that she sent it to was a top graduated student #and to think she views me on a same level or even as having the same potential as that student is like !!! it makes me want to cry almost #I just thought she sent it to everyone at first and then I saw she literally only sent it to me and Gem lol #Me??? on the same level as Gem????? bruh #or maybe she just sent it to both of us bc we're the only ones in her studio who take interest in these kinds of programs #but even then i feel like she would have sent it to everyone to look at #it looks like a very advanced program I'm intimidated! but it seem so cool. gonna give it a shot for sure #i talk

[dovewingz]

being a young adult following a tween -> teen -> adult must be so weird youre literally witnessing some guy grow up . their interests develop . the type of insane tumblr posts they make change (and sometimes stay the same) .... but you dont KNOW them yk? theyre still just some dude some kid online, youre kind of just vaguely watching as they become a person . Man

#feeling normal abt the passing of time today. #cotton speaks #its kind of the same level of 'knowing someone' as like. the relatives you only see on holidays . lol #but also not quite because if youre following someone long enough you sort of 'see' them everyday . except you sort of know nothing ab them #<- depending on the relationship. there are internet adults in my life who i think are cool but we dont talk really . we're not close #the internet has created such a bizarre type of relationship huh

[monstersqueen]

anyway though. about ango and betrayal, since metas and reactions depends more and more on treating it as fact

????

if what happened in dark era was that it seemed like ango joined mimic but in fact he was spying on them for the mafia and the reveals stopped there

no one would say ango betrayed mimic

given that what he was doing in the mafia for the special division IS what he was doing in mimic for the mafia, we shouldn't say he betrayed the mafia either

moreover, the current special ability division betrayal isn't on either; given the situation, the special ability division has been taken over by its own enemy - or at least ango has cause to think so. he's still acting as a special ability division, just independently/outside of orders

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there's a truth to this idea that ango has betrayed every organisation though. it's that he betrayed his friends. that is a lot more difficult to explain, but for everyone involved - ango included - it does count as a betrayal

plus the fact that we the readers/viewers are constantly misled as to which organisation ango belongs to 'oh he's a mafia member - wait no he sold the mafia to mimic - oh no he IS a mafia member - WAIT WHAT HE WORKS FOR THE GOVERNMENT' and 'of COURSE he's a government agent the seventh division IS a government agency - oh actually he is working with dazai ???' i get why it's popular

but ango is not actually a chronic backstabber, there's just no reason to assume we actually KNOW what he truly is loyal to

especially since. as i said previously. he DID betray the special ability agency way back in dark era :p

#myposts #...yeah i'm going to rewatch the break up scene now... #bsd march 2023 not lb #sakaguchi ango #sakaguchi ango (bsd) #also. from the inside. i don't doubt ango consider some of those actual betrayal #just because the other items in his dislikes list are all-nighters and working overtime which we KNOW he does all the time #it makes sense betrayal is ALSO something he does regularly #which. given. (let me dig up the ango quote i use ALL THE TIME) #'Dazai¸ Odasaku #I am no different. As part of an underground organization whose duties must be kept secret¸ as a skill user who hunts other skill users¸ #I have been engulfed in the darkness of the government for too long. I shall never walk in the light again.' #MAKES A TON OF SENSE #but if we're going to consider it all betrayal of the same level #then i wish more time could be spent thinking about ango's time in mimic #because if it's all betrayal and ango dislikes betrayal #(and consider the core of his work 'a skill user who hunts other skill users' to be betrayal) #then he must have disliked bringing mimic to ruin not just because it killed odasaku #and so. did he feel sympathy for their tragedy? or understanding for their goals ? did he make friends there too ? #LIKE. WHAT WAS MIMIC LIKE FOR ANGO #anyway this was my monthly ango rant.

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#ok i'm going to complain of an extremely petty thing #but i'ts eating me inside and i need to get it out without ruining my brother's day #he passed his last exam today he finished uni today and we're all very excited and happy for him he deserves it i love him #my aunt and a friend of her are coming to my house with food to celebrate this achievement #a lovely thing for them to do #my mom hasn't stopped saying how happy she is that he finished and passed all exams and she's proud and excited #all valid feelings ofc #there's special food for a special celebration for how special is my brother for finishing his studies #cute and fun #and i'm supposed to be the same level of hype (which i am don't get me wrong this IS exciting) #but here's the thing #i don't think ANYONE in my entire family has ever said ANYTHING about the fact that i graduated my university in 2018... #and they know... today in fact my aunt literally told me she didn't even know when i graduated #and listen i know this is petty and i don't want them to do a big thing that would be in fact annoying for me #but like... i can't help but think this is because what i studied was art and my brother studied programming... #you know a Proper Respectable Smart Career #while i'm here just doing silly drawings and starving to death like all artists... #i'm literally working on my field! #and i'm upset although i shouldn't be because it's stupid and the alternative would be them doing a big celebration for me #WHICH I DON'T WANT!! #so this whole rant is useless and stupid... #anyways i'm SO FUCKING PROUD OF MY BROTHER! he struggled so much with this degree and he's finally done :') #i'm getting him a present skjfsd #ok that's it #i'm done thanks for reading ksjdfhgdf #i had to say it here cause obviously i can't say any of this out loud lol #it's not only a dick move but also embarrassing af kdfjhfg #angel talks #personal

[thassa]

my therapist deadass is helping me network with one of her old jobs bc she knows that like 90% of my problems stem from feeling like my job is pointless. if that's not a ride or die idk what is

#i mentioned i was volunteering w/a nonprofit and how much i liked it and + was like 'lemme see if my old job at an art museum has anything' #also on a different note: despite being skinny she REALLY gets the struggles of fatphobia and im like ok kristie. go off #im glad i waited until i was older and ppl in my age bracket started doing therapy #big reason i didnt do it before was bc i dont like opening up to authority figures and id view therapists older than me as that #but she's in my age bracket. was definitely on tumblr. knows what im talking about with my slang and shit #so it's less authoritati and more peer review. there's still a professional boundary but i feel like we're on the same level

[valyrfia]

@ the anon who just spammed me with 5 anti lestappen takes, you are on the wrong blog.

#that's all i'm going to say in the post but in the tags: dude wtf were you trying to achieve #great you prefer maxiel and piarles i love that for you i'm happy! sure it's not my choice but i'm genuinely glad ur having fun! #but i ship lestappen my blog content is based around it and if you don't like it feel free to block me it's that simple! #are you trying to start a ship war? is that it? because that's a bit weird none of these men are actually dating each other #even if in an alternate universe they were it's NONE OF OUR BUSINESS #ship wars achieve nothing but toxicity and realistically we all watch the same sport there's ZERO reason for the level of hate you sent me #also while we're here i do care about the drivers individually of course i do that's why i celebrated charles's pole #the only reason why i didn't celebrate max's pole today is because i wanted oscar to get it because oscar is also a fave #anyway i'm done talking about this just take your vitriol somewhere else please

[void-galaxy-shenanigans]

*realizing we were (and still are) more securely attached to our middle school choir teacher than we were/are to our biological parents*

... 🥺😭

((We just met with him to reconnect in person after reaching out over email a couple weeks ago. He was just as gentle, kind, & (maybe unintentionally) paternal as before. We felt actually safe in his presence. 🥺))

~Nico (he/they)

#like. the bar is on the floor. and somehow they failed so bad that their son feels more loved by a teacher than them #33% of a kid's emotional needs. ⅓. the same level of needs he met with ease. and as is they complained about the maybe 10% that they met? #😭 #~Nico #trauma #healing #healing from trauma #did system #actually traumatized #oh & he also didn't mind or complain that we're auDHD & were openly stimming?? #like. sir. I love you #but also #at my bios. WTF. #he/they #he/him #they/them

[yamikawaii]

i wanna go home i wanna be with yoomiee

#im rlly sleepy and just thinking #theres nowhere thats ever rlly felt like ''home'' to me even the house i lived in for the first 18 years of my life even the one i do now #ig bc in both of them and in any other place ive been i was never rlly a priority i was just.someone existing there #ive never rlly been anyones Equal.may be an inferiority complex but it feels like sinking and ive never known what its like to not feel it #i just feel the inherent knowledge that im below everyone else at all times idk #but i like to imagine me and yoomtah as Equal no matter what kinda actual enhancements she has as a cyborg we're on the same level #bc i think the only way i'll feel ''home'' is by being acknowledged as something that is Not inferior #as something that deserves a place to exist comfortably without feeling entirely alienated and lost #and i can kinda imagine what itd feel like when i envision her and i together #with the exact same love and respect for each other just being comfortable together feeling At Home with each other #its warm and comforting but it doesnt feel like much more than an idea bc ive never rlly had it for real #also im aware that irl me wouldnt be equal to her at all bc she can do Everything and iiiiiiii Cant do anything ever #but my si aka realer-than-irl me has cool magical girl powers and has killed for her multiple times so its fineeeeeeeeeee #i would be unstoppable if this vessel i was placed in could shoot heart shaped lasers but alas #does any of this even make any sense jm rlly tired and just rambling abt yoomtah As usual #i want to go home i want her to take me home