#i feel so ungrateful for this

[howlonomy]

I'm surprised I never asked, did Chara get their own memorial along with the other six? They were very much the starting domino after all.

If they did get one, how did they feel about it?

they got their own memorial! they put up a nice facade around their friends n complained about it but… to know their parents still love them after what they did……

#asked and answered #monster clover au #mcau doodle #clover is annoyed bc they arent used to charas ‘i hate everything’ facade so theyre like. you are so ungrateful #ur parents constructed a whole statue in ur honor and u bitch about it? okay :| #chara does have a Lot of feelings about it but. they are not gonna talk about that shit

[clown-eating-pig]

Podcast episodes feel so short when you don’t have another one to instantly consume :(

#tmagp #the magnus protocol #this is the first podcast I’ve listened to as it’s being released #and when the theme started playing at the end I literally yelled ‘that’s ALL???’ #not to be ungrateful I am just so desperate to Know 😔 #feel like Jon atp #‘spare statement? spare statement Mr and Mr newall and sims?? 🥺’ #sick ep tho #did make me want to upchuck just a little 😌

[aimseytv]

shirt that reads don’t compliment me i’ll cry

#i can never respond to compliments #i try so hard but i always end up just looking away and changing the topic as fast as possible #i hate the idea of seeming ungrateful but it makes me feel so jelly inside #being complimented gives me the same feeling as when you think about your bones being wet #does this make any sense

[vimbry]

it's sad how many reviews and stuff around tmbg seem to centre linnell as the sole dark and creepy writer of the band, never really crediting flansburgh too. do "hide away folk family," "dirt bike," "rabid child," "black ops," "cloisonné" mean nothing to them, smh.

#tmbg #this rigid dichotomy they tend to get forced into even tho linnell has written some happier songs and flansburgh plenty horrific ones #I'll be honest tho. I fully went into tmbw-interp-tab conspiracy when I first heard ''sleeping in the flowers'' lmao #I thought that song was about somebody getting murdered #the title seemed like a euphemism to me #it's actually. according to flansburgh. just about getting high in central park #and it's inspired by itchycoo park by the small faces which I knew and loved before and it's GREAT go listen to that. it's '60s psychedelia #so the lyrics are prob fantasising about spending time with the crush and essentially playfully talking sweet nothings together #bc they're stoned and in love #but honestly I thought ''you proclaim that you're an island. I proclaim that I'm one too'' #''I declare that I am england. you declare that I have drowned'' #sounded to me like someone trying to get away and be alone but the other person not getting the hint #esp bc the narrator introduces themself as not wanting to be ''known as the creep'' #the part about getting a ride home with a drunk guy ''who showed me how to spin my head round and round'' #sounded like the driver helping them get their story straight/take their mind off it #and the narrator feels they came across as ungrateful about their advice in their shocked state #plus the way the instrumental between the verses and chorus changes from fuzzy and gritty to lighthearted brass #like it's catching you off-guard #but it's not about any of that it's about being high #anyway none of that is an example of a genuinely creepy flansburgh song but

[mitamicah]

This is random but Salena has my sticker and even wilder: she noticed me 😱

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Context under the line

So back in October I went to käärijä Berlin gig giving out some Bojere stickers I made. Five of those went to Mikke (another story but I had sort of promised to give him some xD).

This was however also the same gig where Salena joined Jere on stage. I didnt meet her in person but had a blast seeing her perform with the boy 🥹💚

Fast forward three months later (here's to me feeling old 🫠) and Salena had an IG live performance yesterday. One friend in that live (hi Niini :3) noticed others speaking about a sticker and got curious: lo and behold Salena had decorated her laptop with the exact sticker I had given people at the Berlin gig 😳😱

My theory is that Mikke must have given one of his five stickers to Salena as a thank you for her coming. And now I have to live with the blessed knowledge that Salena has Bojere art I made on her laptop 😭

But that is not all - when I realised that yesterday I made a story about it and today I got a message that Salena has replied 😱:

This may not seem as huge news to most of you but to me this is wild 😭

I have just gotten used to never being noticed (JO boys seems to look anywhere but at my fanart and the same with Jere *I have had häärijä and Mikke react a few times and dont get me wrong i love that too yet since it was back in November I start to wonder if it was a fluke*) and then she does this 🥺 how am I supposed to react now without coming off as awkward or creepy :'D

#i want to repeat the last sentence here: #how am i supposed to act that doesnt come off as awkward or creepy #i am so excited yet for what #she commented on the sticker? #idk #maybe it is a good thing that jere or jo never see or share my art #i would be the biggest mess #at the same time i want to let her know i appreciate this #and not come off as rude or ungrateful #i already feel rude and ungrateful for not have häärijä and mikke noticing my art back in oct-nov be enough #it can feel so disencouraging seeing the boys share all fanart but yours yk #at the same time who am i to even expect that #i am just this small little presence on ig #i have no authority #i should just be happy with what little i get and not complain #so yeah that is my thoughts about the whole thing rn #excited #overjoyed #but also worried #and overthinking my worth #the life of an autistic mess i guess #micahs thoughts #teya and salena

[hella1975]

hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x

#seriously another shout out to my mutuals #id particularly like to say thank you to boom who's always right there for me no matter what's happening or how insane im being #and also everyone in our little discord that wound up having to make a whole new channel for venting #bc i was there so often like 'today's weird ask isssss.... telling me about my cupsize!! rip them to shreds!!!' #hannah and theo especially being there and pushing me to finally turn off anon. war is truly over #and of course rori bc the shamelessness u show when hating on my anon asks has been genuinely really cathartic #sometimes u really do just need a rottweiler mutual to tell random people online to kill themselves 😭 #okay weird oscar acceptance speechcore gratitude over. i do just rlly love my mutuals #like i went three years not telling anyone about the worse side of internet popularity for fear of looking spoiled and ungrateful #so for the first time to open up about it and be met with outrage on my behalf and people saying in fact it's MORE fucked up #than i initially realised bc ive grown desensitised to it is. yeah cathartic i guess #they are singlehandedly reassuring me of the good this cursed app still holds #so everyone thank them and send them flowers NOW #okay im done i think. see you guys soon. i truly do want to come back asap bc like i said i NEVER EVEN WANTED TO FUCKING LEAVE #SOME ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO PUT GRENADES ON WHAT I ASSUMED WERE VERY UNIVERSAL AND OBVIOUS BOUNDARIES #if you're reading this like 'ohhh fuck i defo sent something invasive lately. i thought it was a joke/we were friends' #then 1) we arent friends if you're on anon. it immediately creates a power imbalance where you know me and any necessary context #but i have no idea who you are or how much you know about me. that's already a fucked dynamic #and 2) I HOPE YOU FEEL BAD. LIKE GENUINELY I HOPE YOU FEEL AWFUL AND HAVE A GOOD LONG LOOK AT YOURSELF #okay i think that's all. ta-ra lads??? how tf do u end something like this #ive queued this to reblog a couple more times throughout the day

[strawbubbysugar]

Man I’m having such a hard time writing. When I was writing fanfic all the comments I’d get really kept me going (and the comments I get on my original work send me into orbit with how much I love them!!) but without that same influx of people showing interest I’m all in my head like is this not good enough? What if my ideas suck actually? And I keep gettin roadblocked by my own brain telling me that what I’m writing isn’t worth it q-p

#rant #I also get nervous about voicing my negative thoughts anywhere l #I’m so worried about someone thinking I’m ungrateful #how lucky am I to have even one person who enjoys my stuff and I’ve got dozens!! #but here I am complaining #:( #makes me feel ungrateful #even though every single person that sends an ask or writes a comment lives in my brain forwver and I am SO grateful #just wanted to vent a lil #bc I’m feeling a little wrung out rn

[ganondoodle]

i kept trying to draw anything, literally anything but i feel like the little package of skill i have build myself just fell and scattered across the floor, anytime i try to grab ahold of a piece of it it slips through my fingers like wet soap

on days like these i wish i had been smart enough to be anything else but a mediocre artist, but im not, im not even smart enough to be decent at the only thing i call myself to be able to do, im never going to be able to draw like i want to and i struggle to make peace with it

#ganondoodles talks #i hate hate hate feeling like this #this ... utterly helpless worthlessness #the world is shit and turnign shittier by the second and i cant even find refuge in the one thing i can do #i know i know dont trust what you are feeling after 9 pm bla bla #i have had ups an downs but this far i havent fallen in a long time #i am nothing without art #and i cant even do that #however much it doesnt matter anyway #i feel like i am mentally starving #i know this feeling will pass #but i still feel it right now #i feel like im being ungrateful towards the many people that have answered my previous post too bc i couldnt even do a single silly little- #-thing #i cant even put into words what it feels like #overstimulated brain explode egotistical feeling of worthlessness in a world that doesnt care about human life or creativity #meaningless #im going to bed and will be embarrassed about this when i wake up #but it still feels so very real right now #wasting time and tears

[llamagoddessofficial]

i'm sorry but the first thing that came to mind when error shook reader awake was that video with the guy who murdered the strangers in someone's house assuming they were the person's family and subsequently reprimanded them for leaving the door unlocked when they found out they weren't.

Error: i don't like h-h-how you keep bringing up irrelevant stuff, just to avoid thanking me for doing-g-g chores around the house.

Mc: You... broke in. I don't know you. How do you keep getting into my home?

Error: see? this is what i'm t-t-talking about

#llamagines #smh his girlfriend is so ungrateful #she keeps saying things like “im not your girlfriend” and “who are you” #women these days am i right #he feels very unappreciated in this relationship

[chrollohearttags]

“how can somebody so blessed wanna slit their wrist?” meg, sister I felt that one a lil tew strong.

#cherry chats 🍒 #rant in tags #I have to be a dumbass to keep my thoughts from intruding #when ur friends are finally checking in on you #and you don’t wanna tell them that you’ve tried to unalive 3 times this year #I be feeling so ungrateful bc I have an amazing family and an ideal job and I don’t want for anything #and good friends #but I also feel like I’m just so alone #I just feel like I’m existing atp not living or truly happy #and I don’t even know what I want anymore #thank goodness for writing and escapism I guess #cw depressive thoughts #cw depression #cw sui ideation

[yuridovewing]

So I do get the anger in the Warriors fandom about how aggressively anti adoption the series is, don’t get me wrong. It’s incredibly insidious how a character will learn that their parents adopted them and not really even be mad or frustrated, but will just completely drop them and pretend that there’s no connection there whatsoever, good or bad. How Gray Wing, despite them preaching about how he’s a wonderful adopted dad, literally is manifested a new wife to have bio babies with him as a “reward”. its so aggressively anti found family it hurts

But that being said…. I don’t really like how people apply this to Twigbranch. At least from what I’ve seen. Twigbranch wasn’t lovingly adopted after her mother gave her up, she didn’t scoff and say “Lilyheart doesn’t count, she can’t love me like a REAL mom”, she didn’t preach about how blood is thicker than water or anything . Her mother died tragically through a series of circumstances that couldn’t be controlled. She was just given to Lilyheart because she was the only one available, and she was only accepted into the clan because they thought she’d fulfill a prophecy, and treated her like a burden when she wasn’t instantly special. She was excluded and teased by her foster siblings, her doctor verbally abused her which turned more people against her, including said foster siblings. Her sister was pried away from her into an abusive environment and she was denied access to her in any way. She wasn’t even told about the full circumstances of why ThunderClan is even doing all this. Lilyheart and Alderheart are good to her, sure, but that seems to be it. And later on, when her family seems to be out there, her own mentor sabotages the patrol for selfish reasons and no one steps up.

Um. Yeah I think I’d want to know my biological family too in that situation. She’s allowed to mourn the mother she never got to know and to want to know her father and be with her sister, especially after how ThunderClan treated her. “Oh she’s turning against her found family!” WHAT found family?

#also tbh i dont like the rhetoric that adoptive kids owe their adoptive parents anything #like ‘’oh they could have left you in the orphanage to rot dont you feel grateful’’ #and if you want to know anything about your family history then you suck and are ungrateful #like yeah if your adoptive parents were open abt the adoption and were good to you then yeah dont be a dick to them if its not earned #but i very much think you can do both that and want to know your bio family. like as long as they arent cast out #but like ‘’oh they fed you and clothed you so you can’t criticize them’’ is. eugh to me. kids are morally obligated to those things #you took in a child knowing what itd cost #twigbranch’s position was conditional. lets be real. #and adoptive communities and families should NOT make a child feel like their love is conditional #avos liveread

[theangrypomeranian]

thinking about them again ❤️

#gac pack #gene x courtney x alex #gene belcher x courtney wheeler x alex papasian #gene belcher #courtney wheeler #alex papasian #bob's burgers #poly ship #pom ponders #they're all such adorkable nerds and i love them #every time they all show up on screen together i shriek #i like to imagine that as courtney gets older the boys think that she's the most gorgeous creature to bless the earth #and absolutely spoiler her rotten and practically worship the ground she walks on #for her part courtney loves and values her boys and is never ungrateful for their returned affections #help i have so many feelings about this poly ship of aged up 11 year olds #i wanna write a fic for them so badly hhhh #particularly #pop star au #because courtney is so tayloe coded and gene is bo burnham coded #and alex can be their manager because i feel like he'd have mad business skills #all the feels tonight

[evelynpr]

Hoyoverse's children in a nutshell

Fly me 2 the moon: First and oldest child, long gone RIP. Their legacy is having the first ever Kiana Kaslana

Zombiegal Kawaii: basically dead, hardly anyone even knew about her

Houkai Gakuen 2 (aka Gun Girls Z; GGZ): Next child, oldest, small and niche but dedicated fanbase, still going in CN server. Very gay and depressing, incredibly convoluted lore.

Honkai Impact 3rd: Took after GGZ a lot then became the favorite child. Still gay and depressing but more hopeful. Definitely a lesbian. They also really like flashy combat, philosophy, and science fiction.

Genshin Impact: The popular kid, and spoiled brat. They're very bisexual and very into religious themes and every culture and myth imaginable.

Tears of Themis: Probably the only cishet male child. Their fans are fewer but well fed and satisfied. (I dont know nearly enough about their story and themes to know its personality tho)

Honkai Star Rail: Takes a lot from big sis hi3rd (depressed but hopeful gays), and probably genderfluid. Ppl love it, theyre popular but it doesnt get into their head as much compared to Genshin. They're also really into exposed shoulders and internet memes.

Zenless Zone Zero: New kid on the block with furries and cyborgs. They are the youngest, most punk, and definitely into western action rpgs more than their older siblings.

#if i am mistaken feel free to correct me #but guys. as a genshin fan. you just Know theyre a spoiled brat and ungrateful to their fanbase #and you wished that genshin had nearly as much char development as hi3rd chars #hsr i may not play it but it really seems to lean into its more deranged side much more and i like it #its also really polished so good for them #last thing i heard abt ToT is they got fed really well with their hot dudes so good for them #tho i know nothing abt its...actual plot #ZZZ looks really fun and flashy and i like how theyre finally experimenting with different kinds of characters more #you can play as a BEAR. a CYBORG. and more big boobs. in the same game. awesome. #GGZ is as insane and complicated and gay as per usual #and rip fly me to the moon and zombie gal #evelynpr genshin #evelynpr honkai #honkai #honkai impact #honkai impact 3rd #hi3rd #genshin #genshin impact #hsr #honkai star rail #ggz #zzz #zenless zone zero #tears of themis #das a lotta tags #hoyoverse #mihoyo

[ithinkdogshouldvote2]

I straight up DO NOT believe that Terry Jr. is in hell. They're going to get there and he won't fucking be there. He won't be there because willy lost all his leverage, hes gonna bring back Terry Jr. and hold him as a bargaining chip because he KNOWS scary cares about him.

Scary cares about Terry jr so much that she asked willy to bring him back, and when she knew he wouldn't, that broke their partnership. Scary loves Terry jr more than she fears willy and willy KNOWS that.

Why wouldn't he hold Terry Jr hostage? He's done it before. If some guy who's not even scarys real dad means so much to her that she'd forget all the fucking favors hes done to help her ungrateful ass get stronger then he KNOWS she'll make the trade of the doodler for Terry jr.

It works mechanically too. He's definitely strong enough to know wish if he's a sorcerer or wizard, but if he's a warlock, he has to look to his old buddies. Luckily, Bill is a bard who would have access to the spells ressurection and raise dead. While barry is a druid who would likely (depending if hes level 17 or not) have access to the spell true ressurection. All he'd have to do is convince one of them to cast it. They're scared of him. They likely would if he threatened them.

DO YOU HEAR ME?! WILLY STAMPLER IS GOING TO FUCKIGN REVIVE TERRY JR TO USE AS LEVERAGE FOR GETTING THE DOODLER SEND POST!!!!!

#bro i am onto NOTHING #me when i grasp at straws #scary honey im so sorry i called you ungrateful i didnt mean it #NO BUT LISTEN IT WORKS #IVE CONNECTED THE DOTS #(i havent connected SHIT) #im gonna feel so fucking smart if im right #dndads #dungeons and daddies #willy stampler #willie stampler #terry marlowe #scary marlowe #terry jr #terry stampler #the doodler #dndads theory #over analysis of dnd mechanics and dad-based storytelling #shitpost #kinda #mostly a theory #mostly unironically crazy speculation #dnd #ron stampler #i dont know if willy is a wizard sorcerer or a warlock but anyway you spin it theres a fuckign way for him to revive my boy #can you tell im wrecked over terry jrs death? is it obvious? #hes gonna come back #(manifesting) #update: just remembered that barry has the cuffs on his ear but hed still probably be able to ressurect terry #he wont be able to heal willys missing hand but i think he could loophole it with terry

[shuploc]

Can you please draw Peter B again? I loved the way you drew him a while ago. If not that's okay I love your Miguel pieces. Keep up the good work!

Hehe, yeah, for sure! I'm actually gonna start working on two pieces for the SpiderDads zine soon (one of them NSFW), and both will of course have Miguel and Peter in them

If I didn't have to do commissions and other types of work to make ends meet, then you would have seen so much more Peter stuff from me, but unfortunately I can't pay rent with likes and shares (I really wish I could though 😅)

#and often times' I just feel like drawing Miguel way more when I finally get some free time lmao #I have way more ideas and refs of him than peter' so it's super easy to just get to work immediately #but anyways' sure! I wouldn't mind drawing peter again in the future 🤗 #thank you for the suggestion and for the kind words! #-AND PLEASE please please know I don't wanna come off as ungrateful or anything #-about the likes and shares thing' it literally means so much #but I unfortunately need to prioritize work and not like... making the most crazy and eye-catching stuff for social media #anyways anyways lmao ❤️ #I will be drawing peter again!

[bugeyedfreaks]

Okay guys, what is going on?! 😳

I had to make an emergency stop at a Wal-Mart this weekend and found OG Powerpuff Girls pants and a hoodie?! With the original logo and everything?!

(Actually, credit and love to @burninglilly-art for telling me about the pants in the first place, but I couldn’t find them at my local store and thought it might be a lost cause! Fate thought otherwise! 💖)

Then today I ended up having to kill some time because of some surprise traffic, so I went into a Five Below for the first time in forever… and look at the magnet I found right before I left that was at the exit?!?!

And it was the only one there!

All I can say is that fate has been ultra weird this weekend for inexplicably drawing me to these stores to find these things, but I’m thankful for it! 💙💖💚

#it weirdly feels like the period right before the 2014 special again #where I’m finding merch in the weirdest places at the strangest times #I fully expect to find more merch and be happy and then BOOM #get bludgeoned with bad reboots and stomachaches #but I will never be ungrateful for finding good ppg merch even if it funds bad decisions in the long run 💖 #I still like surrounding myself with things that make me happy so whatever 💖 #also my dad is actually the one who spotted the hoodie and the pants and I love him for it 😊 he got so excited and thought it was hilarious #so did I! it was SO weird! 😆