#i just honestly cannot anymore

[a-sassy-bench]

do able-bodied people not understand that if disabled people call out of work every time they don't feel good that we would call out of work every fucking day?

like honestly. what do you think being disabled means?

#if one more person tells me to take a sick day i'm going to throw something at them #i just honestly cannot anymore #disabilties #disabled #actually disabled #epilepsy #ehlers danlos syndrome #physical disability #neurological disability #actually epileptic #zebra #chronically ill #chronic illness #spoonie #chronic fatigue #chronic pain #c punk #crip punk #cripple punk

[certifiedlesbianvampire]

i want to know what hiroko utsumi and the people behind bucchigiri were smoking when they thought of it because. japanese deliquents meets 1001 on arabian nights? hell yeah!! he gets a genie and he wants to lose his virginity? okay... then you watch it and that's scratching the surface. catboy. silly mom. the mc is in love with a brocon, and that girl has a freaky ass brother parades around on a toy camel ride. oh and he also has a gay harem now bc he punched a bunch of men so hard they all want him, which includes his crush's brother (leader of a gang) and the leader of his childhood best friend's gang, and his childhood best friend (who already was pining after him). did i mention that the other gang from the other school has a thing for bondage

#bucchigiri?! #yeah im into bucchigiri now #if you think sk8 is campy...well this is on a whole other level #this is straight up BONKERS. what is even going on anymore 😭 #literally cannot explain the plot to people without them thinking im crazy #honestly i just love the art direction i dont think ive seen anything like it. the character designs are so good too #guys this is really good so far i swear

[hunterbunter3000]

the poor guys. sweetheart just loved to get them worked up (but we love it too. get it sweetheart) <3

FAACCTSSS

Like she's caught on with all of them, their longing gazes and touches. Their drunk confessions to her, and how fucking possessive they all are with her (AND TO EACH OTHER)

And as the little gremlin SHIT she is, she's using that as an advantage to kinda-- help one of them (or all of them) to come forward and tell her straight up "Hey, I love you and I wanna be yours"

But they ain't 💀 so until then, she's just gonna flaunt and tease~ cause that sounds fun LOL

#im trying my best to not turn her into a brat #because i cannot STAND BRATTY CHARACTERS #IDK WHAT IT IS I JUST GET SO ANNOYED #AND I WANNA PUNCH THAT CHARACTER AND MYSELF IN THE FACE #but idk whats going on anymore honestly #sweets is a baddie so she can be whatever 🤪 #LMAO #141 sweetheart #black fem reader #hunter's ask lounge ☕️ #hunter talkin out her ass 🍑 #cod x y/n

[the-rattking]

idk I feel like people are being a little too mean to James Somerton assuming he's faking or thinking he's overreacting to his situation. like yes he did a bad thing and should be held accountable for those actions. but also it must be very hard for him to imagine a future for himself. he can't be a youtuber, smth he's clearly been doing for years. getting a normal job can't be easy bc any employer can just Google his name. who tf wants to hire a massively hated plagiarist? if I was in his position I'd probably feel like killing myself too

#james somerton #suicide tw #like again. the dude isnt a good guy and hes still clearly gotta make up for a lot #and obviously i DO think he could still have a career. like honestly james should just become an editor #like you clearly cannot be in front of the camera or doing writing anymore #my posts

[stormsofasorceress]

op why would you delete the truth because i too would commit horrific atrocities just to ensure the happiness of bex and danis.

#bg 3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #just heard bex say 'atleast theres still flowers here!' in the shadow cursed lands and i honestly cannot do this anymore #the love i have for these npcs i swear to god

[prettyboykatsuki]

ari. I would literally sell my SOUL to hear more abt this rin sae idea fkfjdkshsaj what pact with which demon do I need to make for you to tell us more ?!?!?!!!!

cw ; techincally not incest but given the interaction..... im going to count it as incest lol. specifically between the itoshi brothers sorry. otherwise consensual in every, very psychological etc, fem + afab reader, 18+

It's techincally your idea that sparks the events. Or your comment, to Sae, about how sorry you feel for his little brother that winds you up in this sort of predicament.

You do really feel bad for Rin for what it's worth. Your boyfriend, Sae, is not the most emotionally intelligent man in the world. But even beyond that, he has a definite amount of love for his little brother that he doesn't often let himself express anymore. Even after they made amends (and you're using that word loosely), it's always been awkward between them.

Rin is cute. They're close in age but he's so needy and petty that he feels like a little brother. You think Sae knows the extent of it. How often Rin seeks his validation, indirectly or not, trying to appeal to him. Trying to be needed by him or praised. Anything worth his time.

Sae is incapable of actually addressing the elephant in the room. It's hard enough for him to say sorry to you. He's prideful and his ego always gets in his way.

This is happening, mostly, because you feel bad for them both. It's happening because you want Rin to be happy and okay. It's happening because you think he deserves better and Sae should be better at apologizing.

You think you should feel repulsed by the sensation in the room. The air is so thick with tension it makes your lungs feel sticky - like there's webs around them that won't let you breathe.

And your head is rested in Sae's lap. This isn't an unusual feeling. Sae's affection for you is a backdrop in the situation - your head in his lap as he caresses your cheek, sharp eyes dropping down occasionally to check on you. Smiling at how fucked out you are, a teasing lilt like nothings different.

But RIn, is unfamiliar. He's different. Strangely, he's eager. You can feel every inch of him, so deep inside you - you can't think. His expression is strained, brow pinched and cheeks blushed. Little blue eyes softened painfully, with his lashes fluttering.

"Easy, Rin. 's okay. I'm not going anywhere." You say, and Rin looks at you like you've hung the moon. He looks ecstatic. An expression you've never seen.

(Never could've seen, really. It's only there because Sae's there, but that doesn't make you feel sick. It should, shouldn't it?)

And maybe because of you, or because of this situation.

"You're doing well, Rin. She's feeling good."

That's when it hits him. You can see it. Feel it in the way his cock twitches inside of you, that short hiccup that breaks off into a silent sob as Sae says it. Rin feels good. He feels good because of it, and there's something so wrong about how it makes him desperate. Or there should be.

To see such bone deep arousal and comfort in such a simple phrase, that he's been so deprived from for so, so long.

But you feel relief instead, when Rin ruts his hips up inside of you with a wet sob. You feel relief when Sae laughs under his breath, quietly and warmly. When Sae reaches towards Rin, to pat his cheek and touch him so lightly

And Rin looks so gentle and so sweet, you can't help but shiver. He fucks into you again, a thankfulness and affection brimming inside of him that he can't get rid.

"That's it, Rin. There you go." Sae says again, easily. Rin holds your hips, fingers digging into your sides. Sae reaches for your clit. You hear Rin whimper, practically. An honorific long abandoned of affection returning to his vocabulary like so many years before.

An entire relationship history unearthed so easily. "Nii-san." Rin whimpers, just before saying your name. You smile and Sae reaches to run his fingers through Rin's hair.

You know, in some way, that there's something so off about all of it. But deep down, you don't feel that way. You're relieved that they've found each other again. And maybe you're sick too, for being happy to be in the middle. To mediate. No longer an outsider even to this kind of sick affair.

You don't feel disgust when Rin sobs for his big brother. You feel relief when Sae replies. With tenderness he's always held back.

"Yeah. I'm here."

#incest cw #dark content cw #return to sender #IDK HOW TO TAG THIS #and honestly i would love to write this as a Whole Thing but i cannot reach anymore rock bottoms #i just. the RELIEF i think r/n would feel in this instance .... its so haunting #prettyboy.thirsts

[cookinguptales]

lmao @ the post on my dash below the one I just made being about the evangelical christian persecution complex

#it's a subject that I regard with both scorn and a deep sense of pity honestly #because it's nonsense but it's also the result of purposeful traumatic conditioning since childhood #I think it's reductionist to be like 'oh they're just acting like victims because they can't be homophobic anymore!' #because unfortunately I can verify that they acted like that when they were allowed to be homophobic too #it's a very deep-rooted issue that's been going on for decades #and which is reproduced by purposefully traumatizing children so #it's all just very sad and weird and xenophobic #like I remember being scared for big bird when I was shown big bird in china because I'd been taught that I'd be killed if I ever went ther #they made me act out skits where I'd be murdered for refusing to recant my beliefs to 'prepare' me #I was taught how to use a gun when I was like... nine I think? at church camp #like I cannot overstate how fucked up it all is #and it's not okay but I don't think that making fun of people who went through that conditioning will change it #it'll just make them double down tbh #I understand the urge but I think it's probably counterproductive #like harassing mormon missionaries. feels good temporarily but it just makes them more ensconced in the religion.

[palmtreepalmtree]

There is a dead critter in our backyard. My efforts to resolve without handling directly have not succeeded. The situation is obviously worsening each day my efforts to secure assistance fail. I'm totally freaked out by this. My mom is insisting she can handle it. I would like to set the backyard on fire.

#honestly don't even know if i can live in the house anymore #i cannot cope with gross things #i'm gonna need to spend some time in a clean room #just so i can think straight

[autistic-katara]

months are way too short this is a scam

#was just crying on my bed and wanting to kms bcz there’s no easily made food in the house that i like #(srsly tho if i eat anymore bread im going to throw up why does literally all the food we have require it) #which means in about a week i’m going to be incapacitated with pain unless i take paracetamol soon enough #and of course i’m gonna be bleeding for 2+ days straight #(honestly not sure how long it normally lasts) #i cannot wait until i can take t and this whole thing stops #ryan shut the fuck up

[hella1975]

my mum picking me up this morning: you're not as hungover as i thought you'd be

me, just yacked in an alleyway: yeah haha

#it's 3pm now and i still cant believe that happened that was. an experience #basically my mate's 21st coincided with her sister's 30th so they both had this big joint Event last night #where they literally rented out a farm house and the field nearby and set up a whole campsite and barbeque and everything #it was really random but also really good esp bc ive been friends with this girl since we were super young #and our mums were friends so ive just got. lots of connections to her family and it was nice seeing them all again #but there was fully like 60 people at this thing and i DID drink more than i meant to but i wasn't paralytic which is good #and my hangover ISNT that bad in terms of how bad my hangovers can get #it's just that my mate's dad picked us both up at 9am this morning which was already going to be... rough #and then proceeded to do the bumpiest drive down the country lanes ive ever experienced #i was literally grinding my teeth like i am NOT about to throw up in this man's car please if there is a god do not let me throw up #and i didn't! my mum picked me up from this (thankfully very quiet) road that has this rickety old alley coming off it #and i had the very humbling moment of 'im actually going to be sick aren't i' and had to WAIT FOR AN OLD WOMAN #TO FUCKING MEANDER OUT OF THE ALLEY AND WALK FAR AWAY ENOUGH FOR ME TO AT LEAST HAVE A SHRED OF DIGNITY #and proceeded to throw up. in a public alleyway. at 9:30am on a sunday. so of course i needed to tell you guys about it #im now force feeding myself garlic bread. im going to manchester tomorrow. i have a flight at the crack of dawn on tuesday #what is even going on anymore #also fully did just do nos last night with some 30 year olds. i cannot express how fucking odd a thing that is for me to do #actually no i can express it bc youse know that im funny about drugs so for me to not even be that drunk #and get offered a fucking balloon of all things and be like 'yeah why not!' is.... odd #i know i inhaled wrong though bc it didn't do a thing which honestly im happy about <3 #hella goes home

[dandyshucks]

blinks tiredly. i decide "hm maybe i should try to expand my circle and step outside of it a little, lets go look at the main community tags" and im just greeted with a bunch of edgelords who think saying "fiction doesn't affect reality, don't like don't read" is peak activism and "fighting censorship". head in my hands. this is partially why i do not ever go into the community tags, my nervous system cannot handle blocking fifty weirdos every single day just so i can have a normal experience in the community tags hfdsjkl

#I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE BLOCKED ALREADY. i am TRYING to curate my experience 😭😭😭 #and i have so many tags blacklisted fjdsjkl like. so many. every single variation of tag to do with those chuckleheads #which helps avoid them a lot of the time tbh bc it'll flag posts that ppl rb if the original post was tagged w any of those #so i can avoid rbing posts that have chuckleheads as the op most of the time #i also usually double check OP's blog before i rb stuff now bc man this place is rife with these weirdos #ANYWAYS. yes i want to try to engage w the community but i do not think i can handle it if theres gonna be so many edgelords jkdslfl #the only way i follow new ppl now is when yall do promo hour and i sometimes see a new face pop up fdsjkl #every now and then i have energy to try to engage with new ppl but its so difficult when so many ppl are such insufferable edgelords !!!! #''im the nasty pr-sh-pper your parents warned you about 😎'' cool man you sound like the most insufferably obnoxious person ever. :/ #''if you like CENSORSHIP-'' i am hitting block immediately bc u have a fundamental misunderstanding of what censorship actually is 👍 #I'M TIREDDDD WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DUMB ABOUT THIS STUFF. ''fiction doesn't affect reality'' I GUESS PROPAGANDA DOESNT EXIST THEN ???? #what a strange world they live in honestly. they dont understand how stories have served humans since the dawn of time. sighing loudly. #vent // #SORRY FOR THIS ONE IM JUST. ARGH. ppl talk abt encouraging community but i think maybe im not cut out for community #i want desperately to partake but i cannot handle it if it means dealing w all these bozos #it frustrates me to no end fdhsjkl and it upsets me so much and i wish i could deal w it better but. my nervous system is broken fdsjkl #i will try to expand my circle every now and then but i cannot do it often bc of this 😭 im not going to give up entirely though fdsjkl #(also this is partially why i dont tag my posts w community tags anymore bc i am just. so scared of these freaks getting their hands on it) #(the most i'll do is s.afeship or variations every now n then bc supposedly they're not in those tags fdsjkl) #delete later #dandyshucks

[merlinmerlot]

can't believe I have to say this but I'm actually struggling rn with the romance system in bg3 it's kind of bonkers how unforgiving it is 😭 i hope they make the romance triggers more clear in later updates bc I Did Not realize that if u didn't go for astarion in act 1 (I Didn't Like Him Then Ok) you got No Chance afterwards 😔

#merlin.txt #like i changed my mind and im like deeply not interested in gale anymore but since i didnt pursue anyone else in act 1 im fucked 😭 #my tav is going to get No Game this playthru 😔 #'just go for gale' i Cannot express how much i dont want to romance this man. rlly cannot make it more clear #i cannot fuck with a guy who is still this deeply down bad for his ex #so canonically my tav is just pining after their lame vampire friend they hate #which honestly? kind of funny #also i Wish the game could tell u if ur missing companion camp scenes 😭 im allergic to longresting so i keep missing scenessss #WAHHHHHHHHHH #the hardest challenge ive faced in this game so far

[astrxealis]

merry christmas btw i kinda forgot to say it ere at all oopsies >_< i hope you all had/have a wonderful holiday season or week or day or month regardless of your religion and if you celebrate christmas !!!!!

i got 'the end of everything' by katie mack for xmas (i begged my parents lol) bcs i finally saw it in a bookstore after months of looking for it that i just Fell to the ground ..... i love astrophysics i love space i love science. i also love u all

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #:3 :3 :3 meow #urgh. tired! i wish to ignore my responsibilities but i should not cannot #i actually got genshin again yesterday which sounds unreal. i just want pretty blonde girl navia LMFAOOO #but also i've actually been making progress w quests and shit so yay ^_^ also playing again bcs i lov my friends. nini u will not see this #but ily. also u berry even tho we are on wholly different servers bcs i'm on na haha despite the fact i am literally asian & in asia but ok #i miss ffxiv ... :(( i meant to make my theme vincent valentine and reference hit song valentine by hit band mäneskin #but i was like i do not think i can live long w this. and then thought hard. and then. ryne/gaia... my darlings <3 #also idk if i've said but i'm finally. heading and delving more into dnd finally !! tis meant to be lmfao i love my friends wow #and also my dad had his own dnd set back in the day he never used unfortunately and doesnt hav anymore but Yes <333 #bg3 ocs are tasty! you have apollo erebus and thanatos there is an obvious theme in names going on! #funny there is one silly bard (my guy ever. obviously) and then the other two are durges on opposite ends #pretty boy draconic sorcerer who tries to be good but honestly he's romancing astarion too so he's kinda Yeah #and then you have than who is. what a pretty enby he/she ladyman! romancing minthara ofc <3 they are my evil girlie #evil girlies more like. Two of them yay!!! w opposite color schemes (quite intentional but also i Just Love Red) #haven't watched pjotvseries bcs i will cry throughout the whole thing (probably not an exaggeration) so i am obviously not ready #yeah. ^_^ <3

[loser-jpg]

hate teacher.

so angry.

he told me my 6 months worth of work has to be scrapped and entirely redone in 2 weeks. thats literally impossible. i am the tiniest inconvenience away from having an entire meeting with him to read him a 5 page essay on how he has been of no help this entire semester and last and how he has done nothing but inconvenience me all year.

hes seen the work many times before but only brought up the issue now. 2 weeks before a progress report. He told me the thing hes been having me work on for an entire month cant be part of my progress report because its not specific enough.

IF THIS WAS GOING TO BE A PROBLEM HE WOULD HAVE ALREADY KNOWN AND HE SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME BEFORE I WAS 6 MONTHS IN.

he blatantly holds favoritism as every other student (they all happen to be cis men) get all the help in the world yet i get no help at all and when he tells me i have to scrap all my work he doesnt even point me in the right direction just says redo it you have 2 weeks.

this is a group project but every other group is doing one project with all people working together yet mine is doing one project each person meaning i cant even get assistance. two of the people in my group HAVE NOT SPOKEN A WORD TO ME SINCE THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR.

he is also needlessly rude. instead of just politely saying there might be an issue he feels the need to make me feel like an idiot for not realizing it sooner. I am half convinced this man finds joy in publicly humiliating and shaming me in any way possible. You are a grown ass man what the actual fuck. You are in your god damn 50s.

#loser speaks #vent #i am two seconds away from yelling at him in front of everyone #i am going to continue with what ive been working on till the progress report than fix after and if he doesnt let me im kicking his ass #it is litterally impossible to redo it in the time i have #i can legit use half the stuff i have even after redoing but only if he lets me keep going with what i have till the report #i am almost baffled this man even has his job because every issue ive asked help on hes clueless #like more dumb than me. did not know how to help and i had to figure out myself #HOW DO YOU HAVE YOUR JOB IF YOUR DUMBER THAN YOUR STUDENTS #also he just. cannot get his thoughts across #every time he talks its like random nonsence with no meaning #none of his words MEAN anything #like. is it so hard to answer a simple question with a straightforward response? #typing this out tho has made me realize this man is an idiot and a giant baby so i actually dont care anymore #honestly im better than him and am going to do so much greater things than he ever did so im just gonna ignore him #get through the year and ill never have to see him again 👍

[nordicbananas]

shudder i keep on hearing the sound of these guys saying my name send help

#they call out to me so much it's forever stuck in my head please leave me alone <333333 #and now the one that said he had a crush on me (I honestly do not know if he's joking tbh) who also looks like brent rivera. #but uh. he found out my dead name even though most people knew it he joined this year which is when I changed my name at school #so that's so amazing and fun that he now knows that name. and refers to me as both but favors my dead name #I love the world so much I love that class so much the only thing that keeps me in that class is twiggles #ily twiggles but I'm at my limit in there it's not ur fault pookster #I'm going. insane. I cannot deal with them anymore. #I wish to go back to when off brand brent rivera was just a joke xjgxhgxjgxjg #okay love you guys lmk if you want the brent rivera look alike story <33 #WAIT OLI I SAID ID TELL YOU ABOUT THAT LIKE. TWO MONTHS AGO #CJGIGCCUGCUG I CAN'T RN BUT LIKE TONIGHT LMK IF YOU WANT TO HEAR ABOUT IT HAHAHA

[steves-strapcollection]

I think deliberately ignoring and spurning any attempts friends make to speak to you and then claiming no one cares about you when they move on isn't depression babe, thats you being a cunt. hope this helps

#Not about anyone here #I have friends off the internet #And some of them are fucking annoying #'everyone always abandons me' okay babe you made it LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE TO BE THERE FOR YOU #Like we attempted to involve you in every plan and that became Overwhelming #So then we stopped inviting you to everything and you complained that we were excluding you from certain things #You muted the gc and got mad at us for @ing you and then cried about us not @ing you for shit #We eventually all stopped trying to coax you out of your little 'depression' hole bc nothing was ever correct or good enough #And yeah we were all a little over wallowing w u and like sorry if that's shitty!!!! #Some of us just literally cannot be in that hole with you without falling back into our own fucking hole #So yeah we fucking moved on and stopped reaching out #The thing is even if it started as depression it became something else and if ur not going to get help for that #U actually cannot expect ur friends to keep trying and trying and trying like that's honestly too much #Like yes it's important to have support but the expectation for your friends to keep fucking coddling you and carrying you isn't support #It's enabling #When you're friends reach out you have to reach back and if youre gonna constantly slap their hands away #You actually have zero ground to stand on and cry about them not trying anymore