#i know i dont deserve apologies

[brighteuphony]

Some reunions, like Naruto and Lee, are filled with happy hugs and warm welcomes.

Others...not so much.

Ino and Sakura's reunion...yeah it doesn't go great.

Sakura had been invited back into her mother's estranged family after her accident, but on the way through Tea Country, the caravan had been attacked by bandits/dissidents and Sakura ended up jumping into a river to save herself.

Her body was never found, and she was considered dead. She has an empty grave right beside her mother's and father's in Konoha.

Ino, Naruto and Lee were devastated. Ino, in particular, was inconsolable. She'd just made up with her friend and they'd been struggling to find footing after Sakura's accident, so to get the news of her death crushed Ino.

She'd felt so guilty, fighting over stupid things like boys, all the dumb insults they'd leveled at each other, and her helplessness at Sakura's condition ate at her for a long time. Ino threw herself into the job and she left flowers at Sakura's grave every Sunday for a year (and her parents did it for her when she was on missions) before finally beginning to heal.

To learn that Sakura was alive the entire time, that she didn't care enough to send Ino a single letter...that she just let Ino go through all that heart-wrenching grief is a betrayal that Ino can't suffer. It's like having that wound, only just now scarring over, be torn open and salted.

She spent a year mired in grief, and the next three trying to mend the hole Sakura's death left in her life. And to have all of that history, friendship and grief disrespected... Ino doesn't talk to Sakura for almost 7 months.

As for Sakura, she was in such a depression after her accident, she managed to convince herself that she didn't matter to any of her old friends (especially because it was so awkward and difficult to find common footing with everyone after being honorably discharged). So she made the mistake of assuming no one cared, almost as a method of protecting herself from the consequences of her own decisions.

This bites her in the ass, ofc.

Eventually, they enter a 'cold but civil' relationship when Sakura makes a sincere, heartfelt (and groveling) apology. After that, the walls come down, but their friendship won't ever take the same form as it did before, but maybe that's for the better.

Their new friendship is much stronger.

Once again, thank you so much to everyone for all the amazing asks and the incredibly kind words about this AU!

@evaregia

#naruto #haruno sakura #ino #ino yamanaka #coven!sakura #as if a simple apology is going to erase the YEARS of grief sakura come on girlie #youd be shocked at how people dont like being lied to #especially about things like...u know...ur DEATH #Sakura did have her head up her own ass here for a bit #and absolutely deserved to get rocked for it #also i made the skip 4 years because no one can stop me

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

#ramblez #little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao #this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it #hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD #hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you #batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions #it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting #But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent #dw Im not going anywhere <3 #also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently #old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD #also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns #he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs #and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get #and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they #dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves #to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent #mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did #so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!

[cherrytea556]

the lgb alliance is so stupid that they rather have non queer straight ALLIES than queer straight people. The lack of self awareness is insane.

#this post is targeted at that one post #if you know you know #aromantic #aro #i apologize to all the other aros having to see that one person spouting pointless crap we dont deserve that on our tags #aro pride #ace #asexual #ace pride #lgbtqia community #lgbt #queer

[sparring-spirals]

having finally gotten to watch more than half of the first episode: hot damn, mentopolis is so fucking good. the world building, the specific dynamic each pc has with npcs, everyone being funny as hell, the name puns. its off the damn charts enjoyable.

also every single cast member has a different dynamic with brennan and they're all fucking magnificient.

#i dont quite have the time or the energy at the moment to be liveblogging it proper but it does deserve it #mentopolis #not cr #d20 #mentopolis episode 1 #if i had the bandwidth for it you Know id be meta-ing about this. fantastic. #i apologize if the grammar in this post is fucky my brain is. tired.

[timetravellingkitty]

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#last night an ex friend who ignored me for 6 fucking months just messaged me saying “oh im sorry i want to make things clear between us” #“i dont want any bad relations before the end of the year blah blah blah” #and she didn't even apologise properly #i told her i didnt accept her apology because i didnt trust her anymore and that i deserved friends who cared about stuff like that #and her response to that? “wow nice to see you're so cocky let me knock your ego down a few notches” #“you're a loud and obnoxious bitch you think you the world revolves around you just cause you read some feminist books” #which tells me that she really didnt mean her sorry #she just wants a clean slate and validation she's actually a good person #im sorry but you dont get to use as a stepping stone for YOUR character development #why apologise if you don't fucking mean it #and the worst part is my friend still thinks she's a good person and whatever blah blah blah FUCK OFF #i know no one really wants to listen what i have to say given that i'm always taken as a joke #but srsly fuck off it's amazing how her friend hurting me isnt a big deal cause she's “not as bad as i think she is” #god i miss my old friends we have such a strong bond but we don't meet that often i just want to hug them so bad #i'm glad i didnt listen to the part of me that wanted to forgive her one of my ex friends was also like her and i've learnt my lesson #vent #personal

[tytangfei]

As long as there are fireflies, there’ll be hope.

A Familiar Stranger (2022)

#a familiar stranger #cdramaedit #cdrama: a familiar stranger #a familiar stranger 2022 #cheng lei #ryan cheng #kay song #suzy song #xiao hansheng #shi qi #short cdramas #chinese dramas #pizzaandcoffeeintherain #jina makes gifs #jinastrangergifs #once again i apologize for quality #i truly dont know how to color dark scenes #someone with better skills plsss give this show the cinematography it deserves #;A;;; #the fireflies scene was gorgeous in the show i promise #this was also my fav moment in the episode and i have watched it at least 10 times already #i plan to gif this scene like at least 2 other times #;u;

[borderlinegerard]

cause when you leave, you take more than your love

#personal #my posts #how self conceded do you have to be to think im gonna be anything but pissed after that dm #and after telling me to die #“oh i get to be selfish skmetimes too” YEHA DAWG I KNOW. YOU HAVE MADE THAT VERY CLEAR #me when being selfish does not equal doing suoer shitty things and not apologizing #yes man lets tells the chronically suicidal guy to die. this is sucha good idea #and its like. i guess ill never understand how im in yhe wrong for doing the exact same thing that he did... #or am i in the wrong for doing something you dont like And having our friend be on my side #i wouldve apologized if you didnt fucking escalate things. and now i realize this could end out friendship #but if youre unwilling to understand how this is ecen a little bit your fault... #i dont Want ro think youre a bad oerson but after this not even our shared laughs can make me have the forgiveness i need for this #and the thing is. at least im admitting its partially my fault #why are you physically fucking incapable of doing rhe same #and its funny when i realize tgat ive been happier since the day we stopped talking.... #youre leaving shitty comments under my tumblr posts and im thinking less abt you then j have in months #idk man! maybe i deserve skme stability for once. if its Crazy tk believe #Spotify

[hilsoncrater]

okay need to see what others do so that i have some sort of What Is Normal

#im so. i dont know why im spiraling #usually i leave them alone but maybe thats the issue. maybe im too passive #i just want to see them again so i can apologize and explain because they deserve an apology #we just need to talk it out #i have been a terrible friend to them and it's like. i'm so sorry for acting that way #i'm not used to people treating me decently in friendships & giving me care #i didn't know what to do other than revert into a Taker bc the Giver/Taker dynamic is all i know how to do #where usually i am the Giver. and i hate playing the Taker here i really really do it's so fucked #i care for them and i care about our friendship and i want to make it right i want to let them know i care #but im so worried i've fucked it somehow and now they won't speak to me again

[astro-inthestars]

Good god I'm in love with Aubrey Omori

#rennikorambles #YES THATS WHAT I WAS PREPARING FOR IM JUST #FDHSADGKHAKHASFDKSAHKFJKJASFKSQTYEUAYFKDA #I DONT KNOW WHERE ELSE TO SAY THIS (has about 5 other places to say it #i̴s̴ ̴j̴u̴s̴t̴ ̴r̴e̴a̴l̴l̴y̴ ̴e̴m̴b̴a̴r̴r̴a̴s̴s̴e̴d̴) #characters.... (frantic hand gestures) amirite #i just IM JUST #i have been watching the Feel Better animatic over and over and oVER #and just. holy shit I am in love with Aubrey and I want to hold her and tell her she'll be okay #I apologize formally for this but I. deserve to be like this for atleast ONE NIGHT #because I had only 30 minutes of sleep last night. so #I THINK I DESERVE THIS OKAY #i'd ramble more about her bUT IM BETTER THAN THAT.

[plushii-gutz]

I know you lied about Aisha/Sky. She would never do such a thing. And I can tell becuase you have no evedance to prove what she has done.

She is hated for no reason.

I have long since explained the situation, and as you had said, I don't have screenshots. It was stupid of me not to save or screenshot the asks that were sent, and I've said outright that I understand if someone chooses not to believe me - that's understandable entirely. Apart from them admitting to having an alt to stalk me, I DONT have photos. This doesn't mean it hadn't happened.

I don't want people to harass them. We don't interact anymore, they have long since changed (at least, from what I had been told), and I genuinely enjoyed their content before they felt the need to bombard me with "how do I get more popular?" " "no one will ever like my stuff" "my stuff is terrible" "there's room for improvement there" "It's definitely not perfect" (and I will admit, the criticism is stuff even I had said to myself, but when it's repeated constantly, you begin to get the real meaning behind it)

I didn't know how to react in that situation *at all*. Quietly deleting everything from my inbox instead of answering or saving them was a STUPID move on my end. It was even more stupid for me to have made it public - I will take the blame for not dealing with it in a private environment.

As I had said, you don't need to believe me. It's my fault for making the situation more complicated than it was. I understand that.

For the love of God, if any of my readers/friends/etc are any of the god damn anons who are annoying Aisha, just leave them the fuck alone. I don't need a God damn knight to save the day. They aren't hurting anyone. This has passed, and you should, too. We don't interact and I wish to believe we are better that way.

#not to mention the fact they deleted their entire account after being called out #deleted all of their art on their first account after getting upset it didn't get as many notes as they wanted (which is understandable #until you make a following post that was saying people “aren't deserving of your art”) #or the many “haha.. i deserve this” or “i never thought leaving would be so much better than joining” posts #or when i asked for an apology after she made a post saying how mine and another creators works dont deserve the attention they get and #many other users used it as an excuse to shit on us #and when i asked for an apology all she said was “i hate myself this is terrible” #instead of “lol yeah im sorry” #but like. this is long since over #this has passed #people. leave them alone. #you're only making the situation worse. #also im like 90% sure you yourself are Sky due to how you type #if so #if you know any of the people sending you hate #please do give me their accounts

[mieczyhale]

i kind of expected it to happen but it’s still some disappointing bullshit that the antisemite-killing capybara was wildly supported but the supporting jewish people capybara is really really not

listen

hating antisemitic fucks is not enough. wanting them dead is not enough. if you can’t / won’t / don’t support jewish people but you’ll talk all day about how much you hate antisemitism and nazis... idk man your words mean nothing. not really. it’s easy to be angry and to say “this is bad” or “these people should die”. there’s no effort in that (i mean absolutely do it, but it’s easy) and it’s something you can say to make it look like, or feel like, you actually give a shit.

it takes a little more effort, a little more intentionality, a little more of your time and your energy to support jewish people - to stand with them and defend them. to say “yeah i fucking hate the people who hate you, but i also care about you. you. i want you to be safe, i want you to feel safe, i want you to be able to believe what you believe in peace and to be proud. you love your religion and i love that for you, so i’m gonna awkwardly fumble my way through doing whatever it is i can do to help”

it takes a little more effort mhm

but it’s worth it. if you really do care, it’s worth it

#i dont know shit about shit but im still going to be one (1) obnoxious motherfucker when it comes to supporting and defending people who #deserve it. because.. well.. they deserve it. that's it. #listen im just made of love and rage in equal measures and i dont fucking like bullies #i apologize if this all comes off badly somehow #i have horrible anxiety about saying the wrong thing (bc again idk shit) so please let me know if i said something wrong #anyway i think we're going grocery shopping now so b ye #maison speaks

[zzoguri]

sounding like a broken record

#zzoguri thoughts #this is a sad post #i miss reading so bad #i used to be able to finish 30k fics in one sitting but #life keeps getting in the way and i can only read when im exhausted to a point that i fall asleep #:’) i wish i had time where i didn’t feel guilty bc even i think writing fics makes me feel guilty!! #but i know i deserve to rest!! i know i deserve to take it slow!! #but holy shit its so hard when all i think abt is my disability so i need to prove smth!! #more on the sad stuff. usually keep this to myself bc i dont like airing it out but #i thought this should be mentioned to at least explain why ive been unhappy with my writings or if i havent pulled through with reading #fics by u guys or like #getting slower when pumping out work #i apologize really

[heyitslapis]

Walked out of work today bc long story short a guest decided that she was gonna lecture me/use me & my "abhorrent, disrespectful attitude" as an example of a lesson for one of her student & I decided that standing there & being belittled wasn't worth it

#i only gave her back the disrespect she was giving me. not even as bad as she was dishing either #granted i couldve kept my composure but also she was up at the desk for 45 minutes making a mountain out of a molehill #& among other things in her ''lecture'' she told me that if any of her students or employees acted the way i did they'd be dismissed & fire #she said ''post covid there are PLENTY of people who would be lucky & LOVE to have any work right now'' & i thought #yknow. i love my job. but i dont deserve this. this isnt worth it #so i turned to the food & beverage manager who was the only MOD & said ''actually i think i will go home'' #i called my AGM after i left & let her know the whole situation. even told her i understand if im fired or written up bc of this but its no #worth standing there & being lectured & having this lady lie to my face about things i said/did. i dont deserve to be treated like that #the woman really told me ''this couldve been a teachable moment for you'' LMAO lady i will let a LOT of shit slide #but i refuse to be the subject of your lesson & i certainly dont get paid enough to have anyone who isnt management lecture me #it just feels weird though. ive never walked out before. never spotainiously taken the night off. never had a situation like this before #it feels weird having left & it feels weird sitting in my bed trying to enjoy my night when my brain knows im supposed to be at work rn #oh well #my AMG said im definetly not fired & she'll talk to the lady in the morning. i couldnt care less if i was though. theres always other jobs #and to preface i even apologized to the woman both for my behavior & the disrespect. yet she still felt like making an example of me #what a week its been #emma rambles #emma vents #2023 tag

[bluebellhairpin]

Been chasing the snake so I can ask it why it bit me, rather than trying to get help for the venom.

#this is like a metaphor #for my abandonment issues #about how ive held onto this pain for so long thinking one day id get answers or an apology #when really the best thing for me would be to just let it go #but its so hard to do when you so desperately want to know why this has happened. when you feel so much pain you want to know what caused it #its been so long #i could enter a whole new cricle of personal hell in telling myself i dont even deserve to know why i was always left alone #but i just need to take a deep breath and let it go #and also cry a lot about it #im going to be doing a lot of crying about it #tonight in bed probably #but i have to be quite so no one hears #but the crying helps #and then i imagine someone is there rubbing my back and telling me to breath and then ill get to sleep #see i have this routine down pat #im all set for later

[maximum-father]

i dont know what to do anymore

#none of this makes sense. i tried to be there for it and it left me and i might get it killed for real this time #i tried to be happy with pierre and then i got sick and there were the codes and the party explosion and. just. everything. #i thought this was just some fun vacation and now here i am. #i dont even know what i did to deserve this. i want to know that i at least deserve this. that theres a reason. #this has to have a purpose. please please please tell me my sufferung has a fucking purpose #please tell me that theres a way to make it stop. that i can apologize or pray or change and then itll all be okay #idle chatting #straightverse #nobody look :)

[pa-pa-plasma]

I feel like too many people don't understand that a bad person having normal human traits does not suddenly make them a good person

#& every person who thinks that way is sooo susceptible to abuse #like that's not a joke or anything like for real if you keep treating people as 2 dimensional #then you fall into the trap of ''they did 1 nice thing for me so they must not actually be bad'' #you're allowed to like bad characters without scrambling to justify & write off their terrible actions & personality #like dude youre so desperate to not be caught liking something deviant youre using the same tactics as a H*rry P*tter fan #anyway i hope those people who like that asshole from ST never meet a Billy irl #cuz ive lived with Billys irl & it's not fucking fun. it's not interesting. it's living with an abusive piece of shit #just admit you think hes a good person because hes attractive. like youre fooling no one #if he didnt look like that youd call him a fucking freak. but he doesnt so hes just ''interesting to pick apart'' #i can give you insight into that kind of person's brain: they literally would abuse you. they don't care. they think you deserve it #they can do nice things all they want but the ''niceness'' never quite reaches the same level the ''meanness'' gets to #theyre always paired together. they bought you an ice cream that costs less than a dollar? you owe them money plus interest #the reality of the situation is that every time someone like me sees you guys doing that #fawning over some asshole abuser & calling them perfect & explaining away their behaviour? #it literally sets me back. it makes me so fucking mad because that happens in real life. it's why the abuse never gets stopped #no one believes you because ''well they were nice to ME & look nice so i dont believe you'' #i know how much you guys hate acknowledging apologism but like. that's abuse apologism right there