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crookedkryptonitebeliever · 3 months

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Best and Worst of Both worlds (part 5)

TW: nothign much, just yves being a little pushy ig and short chapter today

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Part 6

You let out the loudest 'NO!' in your lifetime as you watch the bus drive away.

You definitely couldn't outrun the engine, so your dash slowed to a mere stop. Placing your hands on your knees, you panted heavily as you blinked the beads of sweat away from your eyes.

Dejected, you dragged yourself back to the bus stop shelter. You have to wait for another hour.

At least you're fed. By Yves, literally.

You heave your bag onto the bench, ignoring the creak and bend in the wooden planks.

The sky is darkening, which means it's getting cooler, but it also means you're going to have to go home unbelievably late again.

If you knew this would have happened, you would get the next bus and have ample time to properly say goodbye to Yves. You brought your hands to your face and suppressed a scream, you pissed him off again!

Well. You can't change what happened in the past. You're definitely avoiding him at all costs.

You paused your ranting when you heard that familiar click of the heels. If you're not religious, you probably are now because you wonder what deity did you anger for you to deserve this.

Yves stopped right beside you, casting a menacing shadow onto the wall of the bus shelter. He has his arms crossed and face unreadable as usual, but the corners of his lips were subtly curled downwards to express his dissatisfaction.

He didn't need to say a word for you to start apologizing, recognizing that it was rude of you to just leave him alone like that without an appropriate conclusion.

Seems like that wasn't enough, because he's still staring at you with steely eyes.

You ended the sincere apology by asking what you could do to make it up to him, but you did give him a disclaimer that you aren't rich by any means, not even financially stable enough to know if you can afford the next meal.

It took fifteen seconds for the tension in the air to dissipate, replaced with a much kinder and softer one. He unfolded his arms and relaxed his face.

"You must be exhausted." He dug around his handbag. Yves took his car keys out and wrapped his fingers around the fob. "Come. I will take you home."

You said that you're fine, you could wait for the bus. But actually, you wanted to accept it so badly, you're rejecting it out of politeness.

"You said you wanted to compensate me. Did you not?"

You said yes.

"Then you can do so by sparing me your company."

That was enough to make you get up. He smiled and intertwined his slender, well-maintained fingers with your not-so-manicured fingers.

You thought your heart was going to beat out of your chest and you felt so light, floaty and free.

That's because your backpack wasn't on you. Yves took the liberty to carry it on one shoulder, he made it look weightless which amazed you to no end.

You said that you should carry it as it weighs as much as an elephant. He did so much for you, Yves shouldn't have to lug your crap around. So you tried getting him to give it back to you.

"(Name), no." Crisp, simple and clear. The tone made you quiet and compliant. This means less scoliosis for you.

The walk to the parking lot was quiet. You had nothing to say and neither did he. Your surroundings became dimmer and dimmer until the street lights turned on on their own. Come to think of it, you never did go to the parking lot. Because you didn't own a car nor did you have friends that would drive you around.

Your head turned to the beeps produced by his car when he toggled with his fob. It came from a black, sleek, luxury sedan car with pristine headlights and a seemingly perfect paint job. It may not be a car that costs way more than your entire tuition fee, but you know it's not affordable to the mass majority either.

He walked you to the passenger's side and opened the door for you. Muttering a thanks, you entered his car. Yves closed the door for you as you began buckling up.

He placed your backpack in the back seat, where he strapped it with the seatbelt.

Yves returns to the driver's chair and proceeds to ignite his engine. The interior was spotless, new and you could tell he regularly maintains it, the air freshener wasn't too overpowering and his air conditioning cooled the space relatively fast.

He explained that he needed to wait for a few minutes to warm his car up. In the meantime, he used the mirror in his sun visor to do some touchups on his lips, eyes and hair. Once that was finished, Yves kept his makeup away. He patted his face especially around his nose, with blotting paper.

It's intricate rituals like these that separate you from him. You don't think you have the energy and patience to maintain yourself to this degree. You tried making the excuse that it's because you're a student, you don't have the time nor money for that.

But he parked his car in the student's lot. Whatever, he must have been born in a rich family. So he already has an advantage that you can never get.

"You are staring at me. Did you want to use some too?" He offered the pack to you. Ignoring the humiliation of being caught admiring his beauty, you took a sheet and began blotting your predictably oily face.

He kept his personal items away, closed the mirror and flipped his sun visor back. Yves switch on his headlights and drove away from the parking spot. When he reached the exit, he asked you for your address. He knows the general direction of the bus that you're supposed to take.

You take a second to weigh your options.

#yandere #yandere x reader #yandere oc #yandere concept #male yandere oc x reader #yandere oc x reader #yandere x you #tw yandere #yandere male #oc yves #oc montgomery

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jackienautism · 6 months

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ive seen someone else mention this and its just soooo dumb how like. john's whole thing is like "vengeance is bad!" as if his entire fucking thing isnt inspired by vengeance. one of the first ppl killed was cecil was is not? the one who basically killed his child? its just. and i KNOW thats probably done on purpose, but i dont doubt that there are some ppl out there who like ???? genuinely side w/ his thinking. the hypocrisy is os just... it makes me so upset LMAO once again, i know thats probably the POINT but GOSH it pisses me off how some ppl can still "like" him despite the clear hypocrisy in how he acts and thinks

i cant really tell how ppl ACTUALLY feel abt him, but i often see ppl sympathize w/ him bc hes a dying man andd like of COURSE its easy to do so, esp seeing his backstory and all, but he obviously sees himself as this GOD that can do no wrong. he "tries to give ppl second chances" by corrupting them and traumatizing them and turning them into a monster.. i KNOW hes the villain for a reason but i think some ppl miss the fucking point and its annoying

sorry inm just watching saw v rn andf im at hoffman's recruitment WHATEVER and its just. .... he goes on this spiel abt hoffman being bad bc he killed the perosn who killed his sister without "giving them a chance" and talks abt how "vengeance is bad!" and dont get me wrong i fucking hate hoffman but man LMAO HES SUCH A HYPOCRITE I DESPISE HIM. and then he has the audacity to infect these other ppl who are just living their lives trying to survive into something "worse" (aka something john would probabyl claim. e.g. the end of saw iii w/ amanda) ppl than him?????

theres nothign wrong w/ "sympathizing" w/ the bad guy / antagonist. esp in this case, where its very easy to do so, but the bad REALLY out weighs the good here. his methods and world view is masked by "killing is bad! i give them chances to live!" as if that chance doesn't immediately result in mind changing trauma or WORSE, being fucking recruited and traumatized + corrupted even further

like. im sick of the "peepaw" bulllshit 😭 STOP ENDEARING HIM!!!!! HE DOESNT FUCKING DESERVE THAT keep doing it w/ amanda though lmao thats fine but john is literally the root of all our problems

and its soooo sad in my case since amanda is just so intertwined w/ him (even HE says their fates are connected or fucking whatever) and UHGHHH.... LIKE. IT JUST PSISES ME OFF SO BAD 😭😭😭😭 i love amanda a lot but of COURSE she has to be wrapped around this loser's finger. so dumb

#saw #saw franchise #maybe this is all nonsense since im sure this isnt an unpopular take #but i just cant TELL w/ you people sometimes #mine #text #my thoughts #[emma mountebank voice] ok :) i’m done #anyway im gonna finish watching now <3

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taikeero-lecoredier · 3 years

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maybe i should actually start limiting my presence online (even if during covid its not exactly feasible for my case) i want to finish doing some stuff before i do so,and even after I do i’m not even sure if i’ll keep sticking to that idea/promise I dont know

#taike speaks #this is not just an idea caused by my alst ask #its something that has been going on for a while for me #its a fact that even before covid i was so addicted to the internet #mainly cuz i literally have nothign else to do irl #this is pretty sad huh #it doesnt mean i should #like stop using my pcs altogether i know that #im gonna be (hopefully) done soon with college #after that im quitting studies #and in the meantime i wanna find a job #but before i get to do that its probably gonna take a while #now that im realizing i cannot spend that much time online all day everyday #i mean reastically speaking this would be the smartest thing to do no #i'll probably just be a coward and not even stick to that #this is dumb im dumb #vent #you can rb if you wanna i dont care #maybe limiting my access to socials may even help me drawing more often #discord i will defintely keep using though.its the only way i can keep contacting my friends #maybe i should bring that up to my therapist #im not asking for pity points btw #im just ramlbing to myself and coming toa realization

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donttouchtheneednoggle · 3 years

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The Keep

Chapters: 1/1

Fandom: Merlin (TV)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Elyan/Gwaine/Percival (Merlin), Elyan/Gwaine (Merlin), Gwaine/Percival (Merlin), Elyan/Percival (Merlin), Elyan & Gwaine & Percival & Leon (Merlin)

Characters: Elyan (Merlin), Gwaine (Merlin), Percival (Merlin), Leon (Merlin)

Additional Tags: Episode: s05e01 Arthur's Bane, Established Relationship, Drinking, Kissing, Fluff, elyan and gwaine being little shits, literally all the other knights hate them bc they're so annoying, Long-Suffering Leon (Merlin), yk perelyaine are the main reason he suffers right, he can get away from merlin and arthur, but he spends most of his waking hours w these idiots, a trifle bittersweet if you think about the fact, that they're gonna be separated for six weeks soon, but believe me not as bittersweet as my orginal idea, actually fuck it this is an au, where nothign goes wrong in s5, Drunkenness, don't get drunk on tall buildings kids, honestly just don't do anything anyone does except leon, Cuddling & Snuggling

Words: 723

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Most times when Percival went on a night patrol without them, Elyan and Gwaine would wait for him on the keep that sat on the road into Camelot. They climbed up there while the guards were changing over and no one ever seemed to hear them once they were there.

Oh, and they brought several bottles of wine with them.

And so tonight they lay on their backs beside each other, staring up at the stars, very drunk.

“I don’t wanna go to Ismere next week,” Gwaine mumbled, pressing his face into Elyan’s hair. "Wan' us to stay with you."

Elyan grumbled. “I don’t get why I can’t come too. I wanna throw a snowball at your head!”

“I want that too!” Gwaine exclaimed, head popping up in wide eyed earnestness.

“-And then you can throw one at my head-“

“But Princess thinks all three of us together are a distraction-“

“‘n’ we can both throw one at Percy-“

“Stupid Princess.”

“And then we can all just snuggle… Hey he’s my brother in law! So he’s kinda yours too.”

Gwaine shuddered. “Noooo… I’m breaking up with you.”

Elyan’s eyes got all big and sad as he propped himself up on an elbow to look down at him. “Really?”

Gwaine considered him solemnly for a moment. “Nah. You’re too cute.”

“Oh. Ok.” Elyan lay back down with his head on his shoulder.

"You're cuter than Princess is annoying."

"That’s a lot!"

"Mhm," Gwaine agreed proudly.

Elyan grabbed two fistfuls of his boyfriend's hair and gazed widely into his eyes. "I love you!" he told him loudly.

"I love you too!" Gwaine half yelled back delightedly, an inch from his face.

He tilted his head and they shared a clumsy kiss which was immediately broken when the sound of hoofbeats reached them.

“They’re back!”

Trying to muffle their giggles they climbed down from the keep and landed just in front of the returning patrol, leaning against each other and swaying slightly.

“Stop! In the name of-“ Gwaine broke off to think.

“Alcohol!” Elyan pitched in with a hiccup.

“Alcohol!” Gwaine agreed. “You have our boyfriend!”

As they broke into a round of giggles the other knights rolled their eyes and rode straight past them, leaving only Percival and Leon.

“Percival, your boyfriends are being annoying again,” Leon said in a weary tone.

Percival was grinning broadly at the sight of his partners. “Oh come on, don’t blame me! He-“ He pointed at Elyan- “Has been your friend a lot longer than he’s been my boyfriend. Isn’t he basically your brother?”

“More like bother,” Leon muttered. “What about him?” He pointed at Gwaine.

“You arrested him first!”

“I really need to get the guards some better training,” Leon muttered to himself. “What did I tell you about getting drunk on tall defensive structures!” he called to Elyan and Gwaine who had now both clambered onto Percival’s horse and were both somehow perched on their partner’s lap, cuddling with him.

“Percival’s a tall defensive structure,” Gwaine murmured lovingly into said man’s neck. Elyan giggled into his side of Percival’s neck and high-fived Gwaine. Percival snorted with laughter, kissing the tops of their heads.

“That makes no sense, love.”

"You don't make sense!"

Leon just sighed. “Are we going to make it home this side of midnight?” he asked loudly.

There was a squabble over who got to ride with Percival which Elyan won, leaving Gwaine to beg a lift with Leon. And so they set off, Elyan snuggled against his partner’s broad chest, Gwaine hanging on behind the First Knight.

Were Elyan less drunk he might’ve made a show of grinning smugly at Gwaine, but with alcohol he had considerably less dignity so instead he whined and made grabby hands until Leon sighed again and nudged his horse close enough so that his bother could grab one of Gwaine’s arms and hug it along with Percy’s.

“You know I really don’t think this is safe,” Leon pointed out as Gwaine entwined his leg with Percival’s, but he was predictably ignored by the entire throuple who were now clinging to each other. "Come on, let's hurry this up or I’ll have to explain to Gwen why I’ve murdered her brother and brother-in-laws."

"Wait, Gwen’s our sister-in-law?” Percival exclaimed.

"That balances it out," Gwaine declared. Elyan hummed in agreement.

#bbc merlin #perelyaine #they're just. so annoying :')#my fic #mine

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crowsent · 3 years

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tales from the smp: the village that went mad ft. salt losing his goddamn mind

“im jack. and. im a farm person, and i like p o t a t o e s”

starting the stream well i see. ponk coming in with generic potato boy and i love him for it

QUACKITY

“my name is helga, wife of badboyhalo” QUACKITY

karl: “bad, explain your character other than person that beats up their wife”

bad, immediately: “well, i do declare that my name is jimmy and im the mayor of this town”

and then bbh just fucking starts spinning around when hes asked what the name of this town is, theres a pause, and then he fucking hits us with “not a very good town, town” like BAD

this is why i love this man

this is why i fux with this man

he is unparalleled

but as much as i love bbh and would literally murder god for him, he still canNOT match the quiet theatricality of mr corpsehusband saying “im gonna turn around and itll all make sense” and then he has a fucking CAT TAIL

corpse “choke me like you hate me” husband is a fucking CATBOY ladies and gentlemen

hes a fucking catboy which further proves something which we already knew was true all along: furries exist in minecraft and are, in fact, accepted in society and treated no less differently than humans

this is why fundy and antfrost can just walk around without anyone telling them shit

this is why wilbur can fuck a salmon

corpse “catboi” husband paved the fucking road and drove down in a custom vintage jaguar so every other furry on the smp could fucking drive behind him in a second hand porsche

i salute you mr corpsehusband

truly amazing

miles memeington, connoisseur of steak and bob, “bob the builder” need no explanation

CORNELIUS COMING IN WITH THE BRIGHTASS NEON GREEN BODYSUIT EVERYBODY

GIVE IT UP FOR CORNELIUS

BEST RPER ON THE ENTIRE SMP

CORNELIUS GREENBODYSUIT EVERYONE

tubbo with the very cute ‘i am robin, i am an orphan child” being IMMEDIATELY ruined by karl sayin

“dont let technoblade hear about that”

i love this already

feed me technoblade lore. the man never fucking uploads so i have to get content adjacent to him

i wanna hear about technoblade the orphan killer. i want that backstory lore

and also i wanna protect robin the orphan boy because hello???????????

that skin???????

let me adopt you mr orphan boy

i love quackity just very casually going “my husband and i had intercourse” at the fucking TOWN MEETING BY THE WELL

truly

quackity’s comedy is unmatched

“hes into lots of weird stuff. he taught me this one thing called dunderhead”

and IMMEDIATELY someone (cant tell who, i have auditory processin issues) fucking goes “i DO NOT know this woman” and tbh if i were in that fucking town hall listening to my fucking weirdass neighbour casually lay out all her family secrets, id fucking say that shit too. id fucking disown this bitch as my neighbour. id fucking pretend she doesnt exist

imagine your fucking next door neighbour siddling up to you in the fucking w*lmart while youre just minding your own goddamn business trying to buy a fucking banana and your next door neighbour helga is dressed in a fucking bikini going “my husband fucked me so hard i couldnt walk” and even though you are clearly not interested and trying desperately to get away from her and her wackass gossip, helga goes ahead and fucking LISTS OUT HER HUSBANDS KINKS IN THE FUCKING FRUIT AISLE AT FULL VOLUME

id die

id just fucking die

id uninstall life right then and there

id pack my fucking bags and take a fucking extended vacation to guatemala and never return. id fucking change my goddamn name just to ensure that people never associate me with this woman.

thats what quackity is doing and i am very thankful this man exists and has given us the treasure that is helga

cOuLd iT Be iN ThE nAMe oF SaTaN???????? 🤔

karl

bruh

bustin out the fucking OLD conspiracies huh

“or could it be in the name of content on karls stream”

and hes just casually breaking the 4th wall too huh

kinda stealing techno “ill read donations in the middle of rp bc i need a distraction” blade’s go-to method there huh

its fucking funny tho. hes narrating this all serious-like but then he just goes “content on my stream uwu” and unrepentantly shatters that suspension of disbelief (in a good way)

but it wouldnt even matter bc apparently, satan and karls content have no difference

does protection exist in the smp? im worried for helgas health

the woman visited 3 different fucking houses in one night

i love how the rp just stops dead in its tracks around the campfire

no one was using any of the names

corpse was out here calling everyone by their actual names and not the names of their characters

this might just be bc im a pathological liar whos seen and heard shit but

i love him but

i mean

bbh cant lie

the man cannot lie

his voice is off, pitch wrong, tone sus

he is deffo a murderer

being accused of something hes not would make a person defensive/angry and bbh is not either

the man is LYING

and his argument/defense was LITERALLY tubbos

man cant lie

send this murderer to hell

tubbo can lie, but imo hes not. his voice is the voice of a person whos telling the truth

man is legit the doctor

a doctor who chose to fucking lay on the LORE

father killed in the red-eyed village wars????? mother taken from a young age?

motherfucker brought the LORE

motherfucker brought the SOB STORY

motherfucker legit said “here is my canonical in-character reason for being a doctor fuck you”

and honestly

what is bads defense?

karl asked if the town should kill an orphan over a mayor and there is legit no right answer to that

there is no good rebuttal

so bad straight went “you make a great point. just execute me”

amazing

10/10

idk who said it but “orphans just suck up resources” whoever you are i love you

i was eating my chips in peace but then i almost choked

thank

I FUCKING KNEW TUBBO WASNT THE MURDERER

his voice did not match

my bets on fucking ponk

its fucking DREAM

DREAM MURDERER

my respect for this man

motherfucker

shouldve known

he was kinda quiet at first but then he suddenly started talking a lot

son of a BITCH

gg dream

round 1 wasnt very rp heavy but

i can excuse that

who in the FUCK is making choking donald duck noises

who

bbh got a new skin cool

WHO IS MAKING THE CHOKING DONALD DUCK NOISES

corpse, about dreams death: “they killed him in front of me”

the town: “who was it corpse?”

ladies and gentlemen corpse, without a moments hesitation: “im also blind”

so the murderer is deffo not corpse. deffo not tubbo. probably not lazarbeam probably not bbh

that leaves quackity, george, and ponk

MY PARTNER WAS KILLED

i knew corpse was a catboi but i didnt know that mr dream “i went on a date and almost married a fox” wastaken partnered with a fucking catboy

what is this

dnf is out, dream corpse is in /j

bruh

MY PARTNER WAS KILLED

bro

the tragedy

CALM DOWN WENCH THE BOY DID NOTHIGN

CORPSE

STOP

CORPSE

standing up for tubbo like that

corpse

please

my heart cannot handle this

okay so its deffo not corpse and tubbo. most likely not quackity after that fucking disaster at the campfire. probably not lazarbeam or bbh. still think its george and ponk

CORPSE

he got executed trying to console tubbo who legit WENT IN THE PRISON TRYING TO LOOK FOR HIM

BRUH

WHAT THE FUCK

TUBBO

technically its robin but

TUBBO

he lost his father so quick what the FUCK

i will murder god for robin

the little shaking head he does after corpse got killed. going completely silent as he lost the one family he had left.

bruh

robin bby no

I KNEW HE WASNT THE MURDERER

tubbo

im sorry

I KNEW IT WAS PONK

was wrong about lazarbeam/george tho

bruh

what the fuck

tubbo/robin honey i am so so sorry

catboi corpse i am so so sorry

#tales from the smp #dsmp #salt liveblogs

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s0lar-nexus · 3 years

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i feel really bad rn. (vent)

if you think i should make another blog to vent on i will

i can understand how it could be annoying to see this while looking for art or au concepts

oml everything feels awful right now.

the sun is too bright

i feel ugly

i hate being flesh

90% of my pajamas are so old they rise like a good few inches above my ankles

^^^ they’re ugly to boot

i don’t have enough of the clothes that make me feel good.

everywhere is so so ugly

^^ my room is a fucking mess

^^ there are no good parks or anywhere to go for a walk that isnt loud and hard to look at

^^ everytime i go outside i see literal trash

nothing feels fun to do

i eat way to much but also skip breakfast so i dont even know how badly im doing

i have like 0 school work this entire fucking week

^^ mom is gonna be so mad at me

i cant ever feel bad enough to feel like i can say im not doing ok

i just want a few nice things

my favorite piece of jewelry broke a while ago

i cant even make money to buy the things i want

i cant ask for anything because im already asking for a lot from my mom (we are getting things for a snake)

i just want a nice tea set or something. just anything cute and semi useful with flowers on it really

there is nothing i can do because nothign is fun

literally the second i stop crying im gonna be liar

i cant complain to my friends because i already complained to them a bit before and i dont wanna be annoying

^^ felt like a few weeks ago but my grasp on time is shit so it is really anyone’s guess at this point

my grades are terrible last time i checked

this list isnt long enough for me to feel ok being so upset.

the only thing i consistently find joy in is buying things

^^ usually its just me wishing i had enough money for it though

the only thing good about me that isnt something i wear is probably my hair color, i got it dyed half blue and half pink last year

i feel sick for not doing anything and i want to lay down but if i lay down im going to feel even worse, i feel like i half want to throw up when i lay down its awful.

i cant draw anything personal without feel like im doing to for attention

i feel guilty for even writing this post

#vent #vent post #i really hate being flesh #i hate the way my skin moves #i hate the way my skin folds and how it looks up close #everything i want is so out of reach #i really hate it #i dont wanna die but i wouldnt mind if i just didnt wake up one day #i'm going to delete this post after today or tomorrow #whenever i feel like it

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magnhild · 4 years

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a personal word on dealing with transphobia

i mentioned earlier that i left the rwby subreddit as a result of dealing with one too many transphobes and being scolded by the mods for it.

the kind of transphobia i was constantly subject to was arguably mild, but still enough to piss me off. mostly a lot of ‘this character can’t be trans because xxx’, with a little ‘hey you should go out of you way to mention that your trans headcanons aren’t canon because we can’t have people thinking that maybe it is’ thrown in. a couple of transphobic comments i’ve received were somehow by other trans people, saying that we should only celebrate canon trans rep instead of ‘forcing headcanons onto characters that aren’t lgbt+ (despite none being confirmed as such’.

i haven’t been out as trans for long. in fact, six months ago, i wouldn’t have even considered it. but since realizing, i’ve been more comfortable and happy with myself than i have been in a long, long time. i’m a demigirl. i use she/they pronouns. i have two names. that’s all me and i couldn’t be prouder of myself for reaching this point in my life.

but it’s also meant that i’ve noticed a lot more transphobia lately and that i get much more pissed off by it. not even just because i’m trans, but because so many of my friends are too. it’s a personal issue and i’m still learning to deal with it.

but in the weeks i’ve been dealing with this transphobia on reddit, i seem to have received one piece of advice more than any other:

“tone it down.”

and i have to say- and i mean this in the nicest way possible- that’s utter fucking bullshit.

i truly mean no offense to anyone who’s ever told me this, but that’s horrible and arguably harmful advice.

let me put it out there that the most aggressive i’ve ever been in response to reddit transphobes is to

mention on twitter that the rwby subreddit has a transphobia problem that the mods should really work harder to fix

say ‘this character is trans and gay and there’s nothign you can do about it’ in the title of one of my posts, which in turn was a literal joke based on the ‘this _ is bi and there’s nothing you can do about it’ meme

share a link to a post validating trans rwby headcanons and telling transphobes to ‘eat it’

now tell me, how do these things read as attacks? as something i was wrong to do? because let me tell you, i can be a lot worse. i should be a lot worse. when marginalized people are subject to bigotry, we should be allowed to get angry, we should be allowed to fight back.

and yet, when we defend ourselves to bigotry, it’s us who are expected to ‘tone it down’. it’s us who are expected to just sit down and be quiet and avoid getting ourselves into trouble. it’s us that are punished for our action instead of the people doing actual harm.

and if you were interested, all those transphobes on the rwby subreddit? from what i’ve seen, only one was punished for it. one of them had their comment hidden. that was literally it. but me? i get a trans-positive post locked and a suspension threat.

so everyone reading this post who’s ever told someone to ‘tone down’ their attitude towards transphobia and bigots in general- stop doing that. stop telling us to keep our voices silent when those people get to be out there doing what they are with no consequence.

because it’s not us who should have to change our behaviour.

#becky/blaire yells #vent #tw transphobia

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lightspren · 3 years

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for like. weeks now lol. i keep finding myself chanting in my head “i am OKAY, i am doing my best to be OKAY, i am not losing it, i am doing my best to keep it TOGETHER” et cetera, and rather than what i think my subconscious is attempting to do - to comfort myself and convince myself that i can Handle This - i think it much rather is driving me further up the fucking wall

kit is Not Okay y’all lmao

and kit feels stupid bitching about it cause like, who *IS* okay right now? really and truly??? but i’ve been doing my job plus like, 2/3 of another person’s job for multiple days now, which means I’m very, very behind on my own work, which drives me fucking insane because a lot of the stuff i’m behind on is scanning so like, there’s a physical manifestation of how far behind i am in the form of a 7 inch tall stack of shit to be scanned. but faxes need done! and people still break shit and thus need it fixed! and doctors are often whiny pissbabies if a thing doesn’t work Just Exactly As Expected! and apparnetly I’m supposed to be some magic wifi fairy that can fix their video visit app saying there’s a poor connection! even when IT’s response to my plea was basically “lol idk sorry bro”! and i’m still run down from the cold I got late last week! and having had to be out a day for that is part of why i’m so behind! and i can’t! keep! doing! this! it isn’t sustainable and i’m exhausted but there’s literally no alternative rn because the department i’m having to help fill in for has like, 13 of 30 staff members out either due to COVID or FMLA. so there’s legit just. nothign to be done. except let shit get behind. except i’m terrified of doing that bc i’m just waiting for like the important doctor to come looking for a document he sent back to scan three days ago that isn’t in the chart yet when it should be, and promptly losing his shit. and like my direct supervisor knows why i’ve been so busy, and she’s just apologetic about it but i’m just! so stressed!

my ex-supervisor, who’s now the manager of the central dept that has so many people out and has been enlisting my help, tried to get my office manager and supervisor to approve for me to be getting overtime this week to further help her coverage. and like i understand she needs the help but also i am going insane. and my office manager denied it, but she is not someone who takes no so i’d almost bet money she’ll get my office manager ot change her mind. and like. honestly i DO need to be able to do the overtime, if i ever have hope of catching up. but i’m so goddamn tired, mentally and physically and like fucking existentially. i’m so tire.d

and this is a long rambly rant that i’m not going to bother to proofread bc i don’t need a real reply to it or advice or whatever, there’s just. no digging out of this right now. there’s really not. my area is being gutted by COVID and until that stops being the case we get to continue in crisis management mode. like we’ve been for the last 9 fucking months, aka ever since i got this fucking promotion. oh and i need to not take vacation time either rn bc 1. there’s no coverage and 2. i need to save my vacation time for the (incredibly likely) possibility that i get COVID myself and am out for 3-4 weeks. because it’s increasing to Almost Certain I’ll get it, precautions be damned LMAO. and i will *not* be one to recover quickly from it jesus.

tldr i’m tired, i’m burnt out, there’s nothing i or anyone else can do about it, get to continue running myself into a wall until i drop dead the end 👉🏻😎👉🏻

#kit being stupid #i realize this is incredibly mopey and probably illegible #but i hate dreading going to bed every night bc it means i'll have to start everything over again in the morning #that was my constant life at my last job and it was ahorrible way to live for 10 months #and i don't want to live like that again esp since i actually do love this job #just not when. you kow. i'm doing more than one person's share of work.#kit and the misadventures of EMR support

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quackspot · 5 years

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Every single one of the talk about meme questions. Just kidding, pick any 6 you wanna do

m gona do whatever i can talk about bc i like to talk about myself

4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far.

getting addicted to th internet but of course i wouldn’t be here but i would likely be better off socially . or maybe just being born as i am sometimes i think about how if i were born male things would be Much better for me like socially n stuff like that.. sometimes i jut wish i coud chest bump and cheer with friends n goof around and be crazy yeah i can be like that but it’d feel kind of weird (or just weird at first)

5: Talk about the best birthday you've had.

one year i got a club penguin membership and i was in chuck e cheeses and then another year completely different but me n some friends played a game called body body in my house and it was fun

6: Talk about the worst birthday you've had.

i dont think i did anything for my birthday last year so like oop

7: Talk about your biggest insecurity.

my forehead or my height

8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

im pretty proud of my art and writing!!

9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

my body is very cool i like how my hair bounces when i walk because of how i walk and how my hair curls in towards my face (kind of)

10: Talk about the biggest fight you've ever had.

probably a video game one to be honest. cant really recall. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

11: Talk about the best dream you've ever had.

i’ve had some weird dreams like when i stole the side of a locker and ran from some guy but i was late for the bus so i put the side back and it was all ok then uhhhhh one where people were doing like cheer leader pyramids and i think some dude named craig from dream daddy was there i cant quite remember if that’s the guy who was there i just remember being like “FSKLJFLKJKLF CRAIG DREAM DADDY WAS IN MY DREAM”

12: Talk about the worst dream you've ever had.

i went to someone’s house and i kicked a tree stump then bees chases me and i dont remember much else about it it was in like 3rd grade

13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.

bottom

14: Talk about a vacation.

i went to florida in 6th grade for a week and i loved it very much i got a wand (and a wand ceremony >:) )

15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.

never

18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school.

in like 4th grade someone told me someone else had a crush on me and i was like “ohhhhh yeah that kind of makes sense” and i just felt awkward around him since i didnt like him back

19: Talk about something that happened in middle school.

OHOSHOSHODHSOHOEHO HO O O O N N NN N THE BUSS!!! I met a good friend and the first words i said to her were something like “hi i have social anxiety” and she was like “me too!!!” hten we were friends and then i went to another school in 8th grade and we never talked ever again and im in 10th grade now o-o

20: Talk about something that happened in high school.

last year i went to the bathroom and said “let there be light” while walking in and hte lights came on

21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.

also last year someone who i considered like somewhat close friend (we dont talk anymore sadly he had fun games? i dunno he was rich and white and yeah he was fun to hang out with n stuff) and he asked me if i wanted to be his gf and i was like “nahh hahaha im not ready for that kind of thing” and i didnt like him that way also it was during challenge day aka a day where people came in and were like “man we all sad let’s hug :)”

22: Talk about your worst fear.

either bugs or the horrifying fear of hte unknown and growing up

23: Talk about a time someone turned you down.

cant get turned down if you’ve only asked 1 person if you’d like to get together twice and they said yes both times but you started thinking you weren’t right for them then broke up B)

25: Talk about an ex-best friend.

someone i’ll call m&m because she didn’t like being called that uhh she was rather rude and had a trampoline and 2 dogs and was pretty bossy i guess

26: Talk about things you do when you're sick.

literally nothign new i just do what i do but maybe actually just. yeah thts basically what i did recently i had a stuffy nose and like mucus or something in my mouth and it’s still like that but the only thing i really changed was nasal spray ! i use that at night but i might stop soon since im feeling better

31: Talk about what you think death is like.

it depends on how you die. there’s probably like the last moments and then nothing. nobody knows what happens next. you might get revived or you might just be nothing forever and that’s rather scary to me

32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

i remember my first house i lived in and i walked back home from elementary school and it was cool

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.

tell myself “hey stop being sad” or cry if im alone

34: Talk about the worst physical pain you've endured.

MY LEGS TODAY WERE GUCKNVIGTIORJ LKEKL JRIOFDJKLSAJIDFKEDSL ohh wait worst ok

so it was a period pain and i was on my bed and i was crying and i was curled up and a thught appeared in my head.... “what if i drew a pentagram on my hand?” because jamie said that brought her luck and i was like “fuck it might as well try it” so then i had a pentagram on my hand and satan didn’t help me with period cramps

35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.

stop being nervous abt talking to people i guess lol. . . . making friends hard if u cant say hi

36: Talk about your guilty pleasures.

my little pony n stuff sometimes i just watch kids shows when im bored

37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

idk i dont think i’ve truly fallen in love but im sure i was in love with kiley at least a little bit

38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.

when i first listened to melancholy blues i thought of sparkling cookie i know he’s not real but songs don’t remind me of real people

39: Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.

golden birthdays because my golden birthday was when i was 5 actually theyre nothing special but.. . still wig

40: Talk about the end of something in your life.

we dont have fishies anymore and that’s becuase we have a dog and a cat now :(((( miss u fish.......

#Anonymous

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all-the-heart-you-cannot-see · 5 years

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I will never understand why people are so upset over Ariel being black. There are princesses to whom the color of their skin is important to their story.

Mulan is chinisse and she saves china

Pocahontas is native american

Tiana is a black girls in the 20's

Merida is scottish

Snow white wouldnt be called snow white if she werent white.

But Ariel being black or white or asian or arab does nothign for the story. Is just the color of her skin. Why are people so upset over watchin a WOC play a mermaid?

I legit had a dude writte to me that mermaids are a EUROPEAN TALE (like that, in all capital letters) so she shouldnt be black and i was like bitch do your research there are sirens across all mitologies, it not exclusive to greek mithology, and it is just mind blowing how mad people can get over that. It literally just the color of someone elses skin, it wont change the story, its just the actress.

Just stop, get help idk but stop

#ariel #disney #the little mermaid

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stratumgermanitivum · 5 years

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Every time I stop writing I am afraid I won’t start again.

It’s 2PM and I’ve written almost 4000 words today, and I am somehow disappointed in myself.

I’m exhausted and my eyes hurt and I literally can’t make the words come anymore and somehow I feel like I’ve failed, despite how much I have done. Despite the fact that Nano, whcih I did last year and felt like I had done SO MUCH, only required me to write 1700 words a day. I have written more than twice that. I’ve written 20K this week. Just this week. And I still feel like I’ve failed because I’m not still writing right now.

Every time I write, I have a blast. Writing is fun! And then I stop, and I am afraid, and disappointed in myself.

I am scared that I will not finish these stories before this fandom eventually dies. I am scared of being alone because this fandom is still thriving, but the show ended three years ago and we can’t possibly go on forever. I am scared that I will never finish these stories at all, because I used to write nothign. Ever. No matter how much I wanted to.

I spend so much time writing that I don’t have time to read anymore.

I am scared that I don’t know what I’m doing. Every new sentence I write feels worse than the last. I am scared that my work has gone so far down hill. That no one will keep reading it.

I am scared that I am secretly bad at this and soon I will be alone.

I am scared, and tired. I want to go to sleep. I can’t, I don’t have time. I should be cleaning. I should be writing. I can barely think straight.

#strats speaks #i don't know #i don'tfucking know

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gyahyahyahayhahayahyahyahyahyaha · 2 years

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boutta do something insanely stupid

i might have arguably started the last fight when i literally tripped into him and just blew up in his face and was literally stuck between the walls and him but that means nothing considering every fight before that EVERY SINGLE FUCKIGN ONE was started, and escalated BY HIM. i dont think wrest free out of somoenes vice grip or blocking a belt being swung at my head is STARTING a figtht. and those 2 examples alone were essentially how most of them started. he says something, i disagree or dont answer fast enough or say something in a way he doesnt like or maybge even just be RUDE. then he takes his intentionally threatening tone, then if i dont back down then then it just escalates into him tryna beat me, and if i dont LET him then it just turns into a full on fight! thats how its always been thats how it always IS\

an now its just. i otherwise just go ALL THE WAY in, or just. do nothing. even more nothing than before. and let him say and do whatever. ive ran out of chances to fix thigns with him. im too old now lol. and i also just dont care anymore. .. ......augh

i just want to stop thinkign and being plagued by this shithead bitch. i just want to be free of this fuckign curse. ive burned up just about 2 whole entire fucking DECADES of my life in fear and hatred towards him and no matter how many times i calm down or try to do somethiung else alls it takes is a stray memory, or his mere presence or his voice to shake me to my VERY FUCKIGN CORE. i see ppl use fight or flight all the time to exaggerate all the time ..... but in this case i feel in those moments EVERY TIME that i must FIGHT or RUN AWAY. and failure to do either just. really really. just eats and burns and rots away at me. provided that nothign happens. if somethind does!!! well!!! it just gets worse!!! it gets worse either way cuz nothing is being done. nothing is changing for the better. theres so many other things that are worse out there. but . i have to deal with this. i have to DEAL WITH THIS i have to fix myself so i can do what needs to ge done to GET OUT OF HERE. and once im out of here i can maybe then start to forget him entirely. to be able to have some breathing room. and then i can really focus on literally everything, ANYthing else. thats what i hope anyways.

#literally only posting this in an attempt to just... give myself some time to think and apply some filters

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astrofireworks · 6 years

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okay so the ex that will Not Leave me Alone texted me yet again and my sister got pissed and edited this photo of youngbin into this and said “make it your display picture right now so he thinks you’re dating someone and stops texting you” and i just: a binu version

so bin broke up with his ex about a year ago

and it’s been a year, you’d think his ex would Get Over It Already but

text received from [binandme] 2:27am: “hey wanna meet up? it's been a while haha“

apparently not

bin sending a screenshot to rocky bc heck how is his ex’s username still ‘binandme’ that’s just lowkey embarrassing

rocko: “oh god when !! will he stop !!!!”

rocko: “listen buddy you gotta do something”

bin: ??????

rocko: “pretend ?? you have another boyfriend already”

bin: “okay listen that’s cute and all but i don’t have another boyf-”

cue rocky scowling because jesus bin, all you have to do is pretend

rocky going on instagram and bumming around on their university location tag until he finds a picture of someone cute

rocky checking out his profile and deciding that hey, not a bad choice

all he needs to do is maybe edit out a couple things but this guy looks hella Boyfriend

wheezes

and their university’s big enough that they’ll literally never run into each other so this eunwoo guy will never know !!!!!

rocky’s brain, pleased: good concept, rocky!

and so Real Friend Rocky gets to work

after i told her about it my roommate had a dream she pushed my ex off a building i cried laughing

image received from [reliablerock] 2:53am

bin: “what”

bin: “w ho”

bin: “who is that”

rocko: “your new boyfriend”

and so bin sets it as his display picture because hey, why not? if it works, it works and he’ll never have to get another message from his ex again

also this guy is really cute, what with his sparkling eyes and the way he looks like he’s holding bin’s hand so he doesn’t really mind

im not saying that picture still makes me cry but

and then bin forgets all about it and goes about his life

until one day he’s at dance practice

one of the guys asking for his username on kkt so they can set up a good extra practice time that works for the both of them

bin tossing his phone over so that jinjin can add him on kkt

jinjin texting bin later that night

jinjin squinting at bin’s display picture on his own phone and huh, that guy looks really familiar

hey that’s,,,,,, that’s his roommate,

jinjin, looking over his shoulder at where eunwoo’s typing away at his homework: “hey, how do you know moonbin?”

eunwoo: “bin???? who??”

jinjin: “you’re set as his display picture on kkt, don’t you know him??”

evidently not

text received from [chxeunwoo] 8.48pm: “hey, is there a reason why my face is your display picture”

wait this is too long i’m shuffling it under a read more

cue bin falling out of his chair

because !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wow he was Unprepared for this shit

bin: o shit,

bin: “my ex keeps contacting me so my best friend thought it’d be a good idea to edit a photo of someone he found off the internet so i could set it as my display picture to pretend he’s my boyfriend?”

bin: “but also i’ll take it down rn if you don’t like it i don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable or anything”

eunwoo frowning and considering it carefully

also eunwoo going on jinjin’s facebook profile to go stalk around and see if he can find a photo of bin

ooooooh bOy did he find a photo of bin

jinjin squinting suspiciously at where his roommate is suddenly blushing and choking

but listen eunwoo is a man who knows his opportunities and he is a man who knows how to grab them

eunwoo: “so would u like 2 meet up and take Actual Boyfriend Pictures”

bin:

eunwoo:

eunwoo: “just for pretence of course”

not at all because he thinks bin is cute (!!!) or anything

not at all

:~)

eunwoo: “i mean, if you keep one picture of your ‘boyfriend’ all the time without updating it and it doesn’t even have your face in it how believable is it going to be?”

bin: dammit bit c h you right !!

eunwoo: :~)))))))

and so bin and eunwoo set up a date meeting to take ‘couple’ photos

and bc it’s near christmas and everything so they meet up at this holiday market thing in a nearby park

and it’s real cute !! with all the string lights everywhere and lil shops selling trinkets and stuff

bin standing by where they agreed to meet and just looking around

until he turns around and comes face to face with ???????? an angel

at first he wants to laugh bc wow christmas market taking this a lil too far, hiring extra angels just to make it more festive??

but he knows that face too well he’s been staring at it as his display picture for the past couple weeks

eunwoo choking because wow if he thought jinjin’s dance buddy was cute before

it’s nothign compared to this !!!!!!!!!!

with the soft light from the christmas lights overhead and his eyes sparkling

and he’s sayign something and eunwoo’s not catching any of it bc he’s too busy staring o shit what how shi !

eunwoo:

eunwoo: “sorry could u repeat that again i was uh,,,,,”

bin already slightly embarrassed bc it wasn’t important it was just him blurting out an “o my god u look great”

but he really does, bin thinks

he’s in a soft white turtleneck and bin thinks that whoever invented turtlenecks and said it was okay to put it on this man was Hella Right Wrong

but also

bin’s brain: error 404 not found what is this guy’s voice let bin know please !!!!!!! what kind of beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10/10 wouldn’t mind real dating

and it’s only when someone coughs and brushes past eunwoo that they both realise that they’re blocking a pathway

bin flushing and grabbing eunwoo’s hand and tugging him aside

eunwoo: !!!!

the both of them exploring the market together bc hey, if you wanna take cute pics u gotta have props right

cue them getting churros to share

bin getting disproportionally excited bc !!!!!!!!! LOOK

CHURROS

WITH CHOCOLATE DIPPING SAUCE

THE B O M B !!!!!!!!

eunwoo laughing bc he’s never seen someone so excited over food before what a heckin cutie

binnie’s eyes are bright and his lips are curved into a smile and !!!!!! he just looks so happy and soft and beautiful lookin at his churros

@ fantagio bring back eatbin pls & thanks

eunwoo can’t help it, he takes his phone out and snaps a picture bc this boy just looks so content with his food

and it’s a p good picture, if eunwoo says so himself, with bin looking down at his churros and the shops blurry in the background and bin’s face softly illuminated by the lights overhead

bin looking up and blinking bc ??? they’re meant to be taking photos of eunwoo or at the very least eunwoo and him together

but also bin looking down at his churros bc hey they’re taking up a bit more of his brain processing unit rn, sue him

cue binu standing in a corner of the park and sharing churros,,,,

bin nearly forgetting the whole point of the meeting bc heck these churros are real good!!!

eunwoo quietly snapping another picture and laughing bc bin looks like a lil chipmunk what a cutie!!!!!

bin snapping out of his churro daze and blushing bc hey !!! a cute guy taking a picture of him how can he Not be Self-conscious

they’re not even supposed to be taking photos of him anyway

bin pushing the churro box into eunwoo’s hands and pulling out his own phone

and his first ever photo of eunwoo is slightly blurry and a little underexposed and eunwoo’s glasses have fairy lights reflecting off them and eunwoo’s eyes are slightly wide like a deer in the headlights, but it’s cute, bin thinks

eunwoo’s real cute

coughs

anyways

and he’s about to lower his phone when there’s suddenly a churro thrusted into his face and eunwoo’s looking at him and smiling all expectantly and bin’s heart is beating very quick indeed wow what a smile

bin: “wha-”

eunwoo: “take a picture, quick, it looks like i’m feeding u”

bin flushing bc right yes pictures,,

eunwoo mumbling then tugging bin over to his side

eunwoo: “change it to the front camera”

and suddenly bin feels eunwoo’s cheek alarmingly close to his

bin: ?????/

and he sees on screen eunwoo's nose nearly brushing his cheek and eunwoo holding a churro to his mouth and his heart goes wOOWEEWOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!

but he also snaps a picture bc heck that’s cute

heart thumpingly cute

heart achingly cute

bin hearing eunwoo say faintly: “my turn” and feeling eunwoo grab his phone from him

bin blinking until he realises eunwoo wants him to feed eunwoo a churro too and him flushing

very boyfriend

which is the point of the whole thing, obviously, but

also

very Boyfriend ! rip bin’s heart 2k17

bin holding up a churro to eunwoo’s mouth and looking over at eunwoo and his side profile

and heck

heckity !!!!!!!!!!

he doesn’t know how rocko found this angel on instagram but all his photos and the edited photo that rocko sent him has in No Way prepared him for the length of this guy’s eyelashes

unreal

and it’s only when eunwoo looks over at him that he realises the picture’s done bc he doesn’t even hear the shutter go off

bin blinking

eunwoo staring bc wow bin rly isn’t moving away and his face is really close 2 eunwoo’s and if he reaches a lil forward he could beep boop bin’s nose with his own

bin realising that ! this isn’t a socially acceptable violation of personal space and moving away from eunwoo

eunwoo isn’t disappointed at all mmhmm nope not at all no

bin, faintly: “uh yes thank u for agreeing to meet up with me to take those photos”

eunwoo remembering that yes indeed this is not a first date dammit ugh

it’s just for fake photos

could be true boyfriend photos but he isn’t sure about bin’s ! position wrt this

eunwoo smiling graciously and going: “yes of course, i’ll send them 2 u asap”

them picking at the churros and just sitting there in the park talking

bin learning about how eunwoo’s a psych major and how he’s thinking of going into law

eunwoo learning about how bin joined jinjin’s dance crew by accidentally stumbling into a dance practice

generally binu having a good time !!!! under cute lights !!!!! with the holiday market buzzing in the background !!!!!!

binu eventually finishing the churros and eunwoo turning to leave to find a dustbin when he hears bin calling out his name again

eunwoo: ???????

bin, swallowing hard: “uh”

bin: “when can i meet u again?”

eunwoo:

bin:

eunwoo:

bin: o shit he doesn’t want to meet me again he was just doing me a favour this time round i’m asking too much by asking for a second meeting i messed up now he’ll never speak to me again i’m

eunwoo: “hmm i’m free day after! do you want to grab coffee then?”

bin:

bin: :D

bin later that night flicking through the photos he and eunwoo took and choosing the one of him feeding eunwoo

bc eunwoo looks so beautiful in that one heck !!! with his hair nearly brushing his eyes and his silver rimmed glasses glinting and reflecting tiny dots of light

but also bc his eyes are curved up into a smile and it’s the most heart stopping thing bin has ever seen

bin’s heart is aching it truly is

also bc when he finally tears his eyes away from eunwoo he looks at himself and !! he’s looking at eunwoo with so much adoration it’s embarrassing

bin @ bin: stOP IT you literally just met him jlafdkjdsksf

bin back @ bin: but he’s also so sweet and helpful and kind and his smile makes ur heart beat real fast what’re u gon do about it

bin cringing back @ bin

but also bin setting that as his new profile picture

his ex can go choke on a small dick !! look at bin with his beautiful new ‘boyfriend’ now hA !

although he isn’t really dating him but pragmatics am i right

half a minute later:

text received from [reliablerock] 8:25pm: dude wtf where are these pictures from

bin: “ah yeah i met him today we took a couple pics”

rocky: “a little miFFED YOU DIDN’T TELL ME THAT WAS GOING TO BE TODAY but ok this is a rly cute pic good job buddy yall rly actually look like you’re dating it’s adorable”

text received from [m.hyung] 8:34pm: “CONGRATS U & UR BOYFRIEND ARE ADORABLE WTF”

text received from [m.hyung] 8:35pm: “although not as cute as me & jinjin xoxo”

bin: jhlkjsdfhkgjsd what

text received from [jinjak] 8:35pm: “dude mj says ur dating my roommate what he said he didn’t know u like 3 days ago and now yall have pictures together?????”

bin checking eunwoo’s profile bc heck how did he know they had pictures plural

and he sees eunwoo’s profile picture changed up to the one where he’s feeding bin a churro

bin flushign !!!!!!! bc his hear t !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but before he can react and send a text to eunwoo his phone pings again

text received from [captainddana] 8:56pm: “omg bIN YOUR DISPLAY PICTURE’S SO ADORABLE ASKDJFHKASJDFH WHEN DID U TWO START DATING”

bin:

bin, faintly: oh

fast forward 2 them meeting bc i’m terrible at this transition thing

bin stepping into the lil cafe

and it’s cute, he’ll admit

he’s more of a grab and go guy than a sit down in a coffeeshop with a book and a croissant kind of guy but if eunwoo’s one of those he’s willing to sit down and have a pastry too

as long as it involves food and eunwoo he’s down for it

and instantly he sees eunwoo, with his silver glasses perched on his nose and his long fingers flipping through a book, hair falling in his eyes and sunlight falling on him at just the right angle and bin’s breath catches in his throat

wow

just

wow

eunwoo looking up at the sound of the bell on the door tinkling and smiling at bin and closing his book

bc look !! a cute binnie in a cute coat

bin blushing and pulling out the chair opposite eunwoo’s

them talking over lattes and just !!!!! getting to know each other

i mean, their profile photos are set as each other so

might as well be friends, at least

speaking of photos

bin: “ah yeah so about the photos haha funny story”

bin: “so a couple of people think we’re actually dating???”

eunwoo:

eunwoo: “wait isn’t that the point”

bin, floundering slightly: “right yeah on my end but you ? also set your profile picture to one with me, so i was wondering??”

eunwoo: ?????????

bin, sheepishly: “people keep asking me if you’re my boyfriend and i ? didn’t reply bc i wasn’t sure about what you would be comfortable with me saying about us bc obv this isn’t like a real thing so uhhhh”

eunwoo looking at bin over the rim of his coffee cup and willing his heart to calm the heckity down bc this is it this is his chance to be real s m o o t h

eunwoo, fast mumbling: “whntmktrlthng”

bin:

eunwoo:

bin: “what”

eunwoo flushing and repeating: “why not make it a real thing?”

:~)

#this was written in the middle of finals adjfhlaskjdf i just keyboard smashed it out in the dream team chat #but hey ! here it is more binu trash #bc ur local binu trashcan is back !!!!!#vivi shoots #astro #astro fic #binu #ayeeeeee #anyways finals are over #i go back to singapore on sunday so #i gotta reply to my ex then #or as my roommate recommends: ghost him #i feel kind of bad ghosting him but i also dont want to meet him so really #also im alughigngasdjfhlas my sister's edit #i didnt notice the difference at first #until i realise she edited out his name tag #but real talk though youngbin's photos are always so hecking boyfriend my heart is always so goddamn weak for this boy shoot me #him in his leather jacketajsdfhlaskkjshflakjsdf #i complain so much about being single lmao but i enjoy it #i wouldnt get back with my ex ever thanks #which is also why i would never date bin asdkfjadlfk my ex was a lot like bin rip #anyways heyyyy im back with more trash i have like 5 aus going

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