#i love talking to myself

[lilialovescheese]

I FINALLY finished reading On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous by Ocean Vuong and it was my first time reading something so beautifully written in English. It was overwhelming and so transparent even in its complexity. Now I'm reading The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt and I'm already emotionally attached to Theo I just resonate so much with the way he thinks and perceives things but I'm only a couple pages in so I'm excited to see if that's going to change since I always jump into reading books with zero information about the story or anything going on..

#personal #on earth we're briefly gorgeous #ocean vuong #the goldfinch #donna tartt #books and reading #i love talking to myself

[dio-the-thot-exterminator]

Idk I’m really feeling myself today so I’m logging off before I start sending weird shit in people’s inboxes 😈😈

#bobs files #I love talking to myself #it makes me giggle so so much #I’m feeling rlly energized today idk #or maybe I’m so exhausted I’m delirious #yall are lucky discord gets #most of my unfiltered thoughts

[helaelaemond]

My darling, for your fic writer asks: 3, 11, 18, & 24, please and thank you. 💜

tysm for asking im- :')

3. What was your first fandom? - gfhjdkgghfjd I was 11 and it was 1980s British ice dancing couple Torvill and Dean, niche, I know.

11. What's an idea for a fic that you'll probably never write? - I started a King Aemond fic that I absolutely adore, but have lost motivation for, so probably won't continue. Aegon refuses the crown, and the Small Council agree, after little persuasion, to perpetuate the story that Viserys named Aemond as heir. Aegon becomes a member of the Kingsguard to take himself out of the line of succession, with the promise that when the war against Rhaenyra is over, he will be allowed to live out his days in the pillowhouses of Lys. Aemond gets everything he wants - the crown, the queen, the legacy....... or at least that's what he hopes. It's Helaemond heavy and I thought it would be a hit, but it's not, really.

18. Is there some headcanon you've included in more than one fic? - yes, lots! I tend to stick to the same headcanons and incorporate them across my fics, for example: - Helaemond: even after Helaena marries Aegon, no one really cares if Aemond sleeps in her rooms, even when they get older. Everyone assumes Aemond is too dutiful to allow anything to happen, and Helaena is too simple to betray her marriage vows. They can hide in plain sight. This idea creeps into quite a few fics. - Helaemond: Helaena wore a blue dress on her wedding day. Alicent and Viserys chose her husband, and so they could at least allow this. Her favourite colour is blue; blue for Dreamfyre, blue for Aemond. His favourite colour is blue, too. Blue for Dreamfyre, the first dragon he ever rode. Like with many other people's Aemond fics, the colour blue comes up at significant moments! - Billy Washington x reader: on your first proper date, you smelled of lavender soap, and he associates you with lavender now. So he buys you sprigs, he buys you lavender trinkets. It is now his favourite smell, and colour. - Lord of the Rings, Elrond x Celebrian: according to one version of the history Elessar, Galadriel gave it to Celebrian after Celebrimbor gave her Nenya (essentially a jewel with ten times, a hundred times, the power of the Elessar). It is customary amongst the Noldor for the parents of a woman to give a jewel to the man she intends to marry, as a symbol of their approval of the match (hence why Galadriel bestowed it upon Aragorn in the book - amongst other reasons). Now, Celebrian was thousands of years old come the War of the Last Alliance, and my headcanon is that she gave it to Elrond not only as something for him to use to heal others on the battlefield, but also as a sign that she would marry him once the war was over. In return, he gave her one of his circlets as a sign that he entrusted Rivendell to her care while he was away.

24. What's the cringiest fic (affectionate) you've ever written? - oh god, I 've been writing fanfic since I was 13, there's a lot of nonsense out there! But I don't think there's anything that I truly cringe about looking back? I never wrote anything hateful, never wrote real-person fanfic. Maybe Thranduil x wife? Because that man is gay, and I truly believe that.

#ask #arcielee #MY ANGELLLLLLL #oh god dont ask me any more i just love a chit chat #i love talking to myself

[feralnumberfive]

Hey you just slept for about 13 1/2 hours. What the fuck

Yeah well we just slept again for 13 hours so you're not special. Also let's never do that again because I feel like I've been hit by a truck

#I love talking to myself

[garfieldsladybird]

i’m a take a bong hit for my mutuals who do not know what being high is like :D

​stop using this as an excuse to fucking take a bong hit

i’m not. asshole. i’m doing this because I love my moots and I’m glad they’re good teens :D

#yes I just did that #I love talking to myself #is it weird that I do it in text? no #garfield talks

[mrtequilasunset]

Listen man, you guys can't be like "you guys need to be normal about asexuality" and then turn around and get weirdly judgemental when you find out someone doesn't have sex by choice. Like that's weird that some of you do that.

#like I love sex im glad we're hyping it up #but also genuinely some of you have got to learn how to be normal around people who dont want to have sex #even if you're not talking about asexuality when you say stuff like that you're still being a weirdass #im not ace myself but i keep seeing posts that come across like they're taking it personally that other people don't want to have sex #it sounds like theyre trying to prove something to someone

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[lostpuppycomplex]

#My new song about being a depressed drug addict with psychic issues.. #I share stuff here #No one listens lol #I think that's why I do it #Tumblr feels like talking to myself #I love talking to myself #Until I don't #Youtube

[weeping-in-the-willows]

Hi moot!! Tell me one thing positive about today! And let's keep it going. I'll start: I'm going to see a friend

Hiii whoever!! ooh fun, I love this! aw, niice!! I hope you have a great time seeing your friend!!! I'm gonna try and binge hoa and hha for a bit!! and I'm also gonna try and go to sleep before 6am!! (tomorrow not tonight bc its like 6am rn lmao)

#asks #i think im gonna continue this on anon bc i'm feeling v shy rn rip #or maybe not #whyyyyy am i like this #okay wait #i'll take a tumblr break and then try sending stuff #and maybe i wont feel like this then #i love talking to myself

[notbrucewayne48]

"aphobia doesn't exist"

bitch literally not that long ago an aroace youtuber animator was insulted by almost half of its community for being it

#i did some research about it and found out that the problem was principally that she had previous experience in the romantic area #so people just didn't take her seriously and said she was lying #even though she stated multiple times that she wasn't comfortable in those situations #now things are more calmed but damn #mind your own bussiness #i believe she knows more about herself than you #sorry if i offended you with this comment but i hate how aro/ace/aroace people are always left behind #insulted and rejected because they “dont know what they are talking about” #or because they “just have to wait for the right person” #or because they are “psychopaths and they are missing something” #i love that animator and she helped me realise a lot about myself #and now that i know the context i think i will start making a list and killing aphobes one by one #aromantic #arospec #asexual #aroace #acespec

[astralpenguin]

self care is writing a fic that you’re literally the sole target audience for

#nobody was asking for a spn pmmm crossover fic focusing on claire at 14 #who by this point has already been manipulated into agreeing to something without knowing all the terms and conditions first #and it was awful and the worst day of her life #so when kyubey approaches her she doesn't go for it #but the people around her do and so claire gets to watch people she loves die horribly AGAIN #like there is nothing in spn canon that contradicts any of this #but literally nobody is wanting a fic like this to exist #nobody except for me #so i guess i have to do everything myself around here #el talks

[neuraltheft]

i love putting tags on posts. literally im talking to myself and its awesome

even tumblr is like oh dont you want to add tags? im sorry queen let me talk to myself some more. thabk you

#this is why this is the only good social media. to me #i LOVE talking to myself

[sapsolace]

obsessed w these boneheads as of late :]

#griddlehark #tlt #the locked tomb #gideon nav #harrowhark nonagesimus #gtn #when u and the situationship livin it up in a haunted palace... FO FREE!!!!! #i wanted 2 do a background 4 this but college and work have been kicking my ASS so #figured i should just post it and move on i got other sketches and wips #anyways hello tlt fans do not expect me 2 draw anything the same twice. love u <3 #in this kitchen we fuck it And we ball. no artistic sameness and we like it that way. i also serve food once a month #stay at your own risk #i've been going insane over tlt by myself on my side acc and the longer i have no one 2 talk abt nona grief with #the more art i will pop out. but also pls i need 2 talk abt this shit w someone i'm coughing and dying out here

[dravidious]

Funny lines that no one was around to appreciate #1: "The game still needs some mechanical meat to sink its teeth into, if you'll pardon the vore metaphor. The metavore, if you will."

#original #i love talking to myself #explaining things to no one #sometimes i'll apologize for saying the wrong thing or being unclear #to myself #about my own thoughts #anyway working on a card game that exists as an excuse for me to make vore cards in a suitable environment #and other kinky cards too #i've already made and scrapped an entire core mechanic because i realized that even though it aligned with the idea for the game #it wasn't what i personally wanted to be making cards for #specifically it was an intensity meter/counter #which fits most kink scenes but i like my stuff calm and soft and gentle and not intense #so i removed the intensity mechanic but then the game was too empty and straightforward #thus the need for more mechanical meat #i'm starting on a simple mood mechanic as a thing for cards to interact with #doing it tomorrow tho because it's getting late for me goodnight

[sysig]

Permission to headbutt: Granted (Patreon)

#My art #UT #Sans #Papyrus #Ft. something smol and I do on a regular basis ♪ #This could be Handplates or it could be classic Undertale I leave that up to you lol #I definitely picked up a lot of the style quirks lol - but there are some of the ones that I like myself! Like Papyrus' darkmode clothes lol #And Sans' shorts having the stripe in the front haha - little details ♫ #Realistically it probably is Handplates tho just based on where my head's at lol - I love the Handplates dynamic :D #Handplates #I talked myself into it! Pfft ♪ #I found myself relating a lot to Sans especially while rereading - I want nothing more in the world than for my siblings to be happy! <3 #So I gathered up a bunch of ideas of things especially me and smol do together and this was the most obviously cute one haha #Easiest to do! Tho I did still go a little extra on this lol #I'm trying to do more digital stuff ♪ It wasn't the best art day and I'm still a little nervous to jump right in :') #Not doing any sketches on paper beforehand feels weird but I guess it is thematic in a way lol #And I'm still pleased with how they turned out hehe #It really does feel nice to be drawing them again <3 #And doing silly sibling things! Hehe #I dunno how clear it is since it's so ingrained into how smol and I talk to each other lol family language! #One of us will literally just announce ''bonk'' and the other will prepare for/lean in for a headbutt haha #She is a tiny bit taller than me - it's not quite /this/ extreme but she does lean down for me! S'cute <3 #I like to think Papyrus would do the same hehe ♪ Let your lazy brother headbutt you! He can only reach so far! #On minimal effort anyhow hehe #It's just a fun way to be silly together ♫♪ #Also yes I did show this to her and she cosigned lol - ''Cute'' -smol

[answer-gov]

When I first got into guilty gear I thought venom used a cane and I got really happy because like "holy balls cane user in a fighting game" but then I learned it's a pool que/cue (???)

#brody talking to himself #i love talking to myself #:33333