#i mean im autistic and you laughing like its a joke shows what you think autism means

[krash-8]

neurotypicals will laugh when I say 'im autistic" like bitch im not joking AND now I know you think making fun of autistic people is funny

#also fucked up that peoples first thought upon hearing autism is thinking its something that means stupid #or something people only joke about #we are real friend #when i say “oh im autistic” i dont mean oh im stupid #being silly goofy #i mean im autistic and you laughing like its a joke shows what you think autism means #and then i clarify and they feel bad like yeah good #autism jokes by autistic people is one thing #neurotypicals being so comfortable with them is another #and they shouldnt make laugh or tell them unless its with an autistic friend and they are totally cool with it #or they dont mean it in a malevolent degrading way #anyways post was a joking tone but i do mean it #actually autistic #autism #actually neurodivergent #krash thoughts

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trey parker x autistic!reader hcs

wc: idk lol

cw: talk of meltdowns, autistic trey idk how it happened

doesn’t suspect u have autism but hes not very smart when it comes to that so he thinks ur just quirky lol

when u first mention being autistic in passing he thinks ur joking

but u keep bringing it up and while u are joking sometimes (he thinks) ur also serious ab it

so he asks if ur actually autistic

and u laugh in his face

cuz why would u say u are if u aren’t

but u explain yeah i am autism

hes like wow i didnt even know ! ur so high functioning!

record scratch

obviously u tell him ab how fucked up functioning labels are and explain that the spectrum isnt a straight line

and he listens so well cuz he just wants to know everything about u

and he feels bad for offending after knowing for like 5 seconds

ur not mad at him obvi and u like being able to info dump

over time he asks more questions about ur autism

like ur traits and special interests and stims things like that

one time he was talking to u about ur stims and he was soo surprised

“yeah all the hand stuff is stimming”

“what really thats an autism thing?? i thought u were just a fidgety asshole”

“oh yeah that too”

u make jokes about him being autistic too

cuz i mean . have u heard him talk

hes so blunt and stubborn and he hates people

one night hes kinda self conscious so hes like

“do u really think im autistic”

“?? if i did being autistic is not a bad thing”

“no i know that its just…idk forget it”

and ur like :( poor baby just wants to learn about himself

“i do have a little suspicion, but i think you should research and think about it on your own”

“……will u help me”

“of course baby :3”

u show him all ur fave resources and let him explore on his own

u tell him ab how when u were researching ur own autism u would write down all the traits and circle ones u have and then write down stories from ur life as like “evidence” of those traits

he finds this very intriguing. gets his own notebook

takes the raads r test and is like wow over 100 :) i passed :)

this is turning into autistic trey headcanons whatever

hes a little in denial ab it tbh

hes just upset he went this far into his life without knowing something so important to him

u comfort him saying that whether he is or is not autistic doesn’t change who he is at all and he doesn’t have to change the way he does things if he doesnt want to

that helps bc it did feel like a big change to him and it scared him

okay now i wanna talk about meltdowns

really good segue btw (unrelated why TF is segue spelled like that really fucked up)

uve told him about your meltdowns before but u havent had any really bad ones in a long time so he hasnt seen one

but one day he comes home and hears loud banging coming from the bedroom

goes to check on u and it looks like someone robbed the place

just absolutely trashed

and ur on the floor curled up with your face hidden shaking and crying

he is NOT prepared has no idea what to do

he knows for sure not to touch you but beyond that hes helpless

“are you…okay..?”

“nonononono get out you cant see me like this”

he hesitates but does as told, doesnt wanna freak u out anymore

eventually u come out, sulk over to him on the couch all sniffly and red

sit down next to him but dont look at him, just rubbing ur hands on ur legs in a soothing motion, watching the movement

he gets a little more comfortable, spreading out so u can curl into him

and u do exactly that, hiding ur face in his chest and grabbing at him wherever ur hands can reach

okay i need to stop cuz it’s making me wanna write a full oneshot

now we will talk about pda autism :3

if u dont have pda (pathological demand avoidance) autism u can skip this part but i have it and this is for ME

u tell him about it and how difficult it makes doing tasks for u

cuz ur brain can interpret the stupidest shit as a “demand” and it sometimes makes it physically impossible to complete a task

it comes up one day cuz hes recommending u to watch smth and he says smth like

“u have to watch this i think ull love it”

and ur like oops sorry i cant for at least 7-10 business weeks , that sounded like a demand

but anyway when he hears ab pda autism hes like . thats a thing????

launches into investigation mode writing in his little autism notebook

ok that’s enough of that

he can tell when ur getting overstimulated like instantly

cuz ur triggers are very similar to his

and even if they weren’t hes very observant when it comes to u and ur moods

will leave literally anywhere if either of u are getting too overstimulated he does not care

he just feels like u understand him in a way that a lot of people dont

most ppl will say they get it but u like GET IT

and ur like yeah thats the autism

okay im done i’ll probably write that meltdown oneshot soon bc i am one melty little guy . i do not stop beating my head in over pants

#trey parker x reader #trey parker #autistic reader

[orangezinnia]

sooooo...should i watch rottmnt?

short answer? YES

long answer? yyyeeeEEESSSS.

(that is a rottmnt joke. episode 31 minute 3:55)

i don't know how many episodes there are (and i don't want to know! it was cancelled after 2 Seasons and i'm savouring every bit i can), but at a pace of 5 to 10 minutes of episode a day, it's lasted me 2 months, and S1 ain't even done!

and now, for the Actual long answer, a.k.a. my shamelessly gushing rundown of what makes me run crying back to rise every time i check out other turtle media! (/j. mostly)

first off, to crush a Hoover Dam of turtle show lore like a beer can, Raphael's characterization in his various incarnations is often... lacking. and when i was a kid i used to turn off the TV 'cause he annoyed me. but now! he's my favorite guy!

love how they changed his theme of "being impulsive and hotheaded makes you mean" to (riffing a bit here) "makes it easier to visibly care abt ppl, and for others to listen to you, but everything falls short after that". which is why he's bad at plans, and any strong fear for his bros can come out pretty explosively!

'Plans?' i hear you say, 'why is THAT his team contribution?' because, well, a basic turtle-show-lore scope tells you that Leonardo is the leader, right? blue bandana, duel swords, yada yada cultural phenomenon. but NOPE not in rise! actually i think it's the only incarnation where this is the case? and it was a brilliant bit of planning ;> theres a netflix movie that released August 5th this year btw ;>

but my absolute uncontested fav fav fav divergence is THEYRE ALL DIFFERENT SPECIES OF TURTLE! and it goes SO HARD for the quirks of their xenobiology to be giving in so handily to their visible aptitudes!!

Donatello's mechanical 'battle shell' is worn constantly to make up for his lil' spiny softieshell back- Michelangelo can do this Box Turtle thing where he pops all his limbs into his shell, and it seems only fitting against his youngest status (13, 14 don 14.1 leo, 15 raph), his overemotionality, and general 'razzmatazz'- Raph's alligator snapping turtle build (spiked shell! big boy!) making him an absolute tank AND a bulldozer, and leo

plus! the resultant designs creates an immediate and pleasing distinction between them for viewers, which was one of the things i historically (read: as a 10 yr old) disliked about 2012-2017 TMNT. the animation, by the way? Cool As Shit! i willingly watch the rise intro before each ep, sometimes slowing its speed just to absorb it better. practically every time i do, there's something i never noticed!

the style of Battle scenes in particular has left me feeling winded with just how creatively the animators can manipulate the medium. (i've seen fight storyboards from the movie, and they mericlessly squish me like a bug, so hell knows what'll happen when i see the full thing...) and about the villains, i haven't been disinterested by a single one yet! they're endearingly gimmicky but eccentric, and bombastic but p enjoyable

alsooo feel free to imagine donnie with autism, bc iirc he was confirmed by a head writer to be autistic coded! hyperlink unrelated

also unrelated, don't watch rottmnt compilations yet no matter how bad youtube recommendations want you to!! anything that's 'for 3 minutes straight' worthy will always make you laugh much harder when you come across them naturally. and then you'll be disappointed you spoiled yourself. im not speaking from experience at all no what haha [surreptious sniffle, whine]

ANYWAY thanks for the ask, im once a nerd always a nerd

#oz.txt #the 'and leo' is a joke btw i meant to not continue. idk how being a red eared slider does anything for him maybe i need to watch further #btw rhys darby voices a magician hippo thats gay. like ON SCREEN gay. for Aired On Nickelodeon in 2019 i was actually shocked #rottmnt

[soft-ris]

📻cp event, im introverted and very shy but open up more around my friends. i like joking around and making people laugh at at least a few people think im funny, ive also been described as kind of eccentric. i sort of go through phases where ill be really interested in something for like a week and then move on to something else by the next week lmao, but i pretty consistently like video games, bugs, and creepy stuff. i like sharing random interesting facts but sometimes they can be morbid. 1/2

im autistic and have some pretty bad mental health problems so whoever im with would have to deal with that kind of stuff. im also very touch starved and crave physical affection a lot lmao. some of my other interests are astronomy, nuclear energy and renewable energy even though idk much about any of them yet. for the 3 characters im picking bruno, mista and risotto. i hope this is enough im not super good at describing myself 👉👈 WAIT i change my mind for my top 3 if thats ok, i want either bruno mista or polnareff (part 3 pol). im sorry ris

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Cupid’s Pick for your match made in heaven is...

... Bruno!

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I’m autistic and have some pretty bad mental health problems so whoever I’m with would have to deal with that kind of stuff.

I matched you with Bruno specifically because while Mista and Polnareff cares for and are loyal to the people they consider family or friends, the both of them are the type to be taken care of rather than taking care of others. They care for you, that’s for sure, but they aren’t as good with trying to take care of you compared to Bruno.

Bruno has been putting many people ahead of himself for a very long time. He has a really big heart and has the capacities and abilities to be this way, so by default, Bruno would know how to tend to your needs better than Mista or Polnareff.

Bruno also always knows what to say, and he also has the resolve to see things through no matter what as long as it’s for a good cause. Mista and Polnareff imo is a bit clumsier in that aspect

I’m introverted and very shy but open up more around my friends.

Both Mista and Polnareff are seen to be more sociable than Bruno, which is great in breaking the ice, but that may be uncomfortable for some because they’re just immediately friendly (if they don’t suspect you). They don’t mean any harm ofc, but Bruno is just gentler than they are in his social skills. He’s literally the perfect gentleman and friendly figure to ease you into opening up because he’s observant enough to know what to say at what moment. 

Bruno also has the ability to reign others in if he notices you being uncomfortable at some of the others’ extroversion. He also seems like the type to successfully help you be more open (without making you too uncomfortable) with his own friends and family.

I like sharing random interesting facts but sometimes they can be morbid.

I see you getting along well with Mista with this because he tends to share odd or morbid thoughts and theories himself. 10/10 in conversations revolving interesting facts because he would take those facts and turn it into a conspiracy theory involving something off the walls lol

Bruno would listen and try to share the facts he knows too, and also would dispel some if he has first-hand experience knowing it’s not true.

Polnareff looks like the type to enjoy perverted facts more than morbid facts tbh lol, but he is very impressed that you know so many things

I’ve also been described as kind of eccentric.

All three of time have no problem with this because I mean look at them? Or well, look at their stands?? To non-stand users, these 3 literally just look like they’re getting punched in the face or turned into an old man for NO reason LMAO

Bruno especially has no issue with this because he’s not the most ‘normal’ too, and he’s practically adopted a bunch of other people who don’t look or act the more ‘normal’ either, so you’re in pretty good hands with him because he doesn’t judge you like that

I sort of go through phases where I’ll be really interested in something for like a week and then move on to something else by the next week lmao, but i pretty consistently like video games, bugs, and creepy stuff. Some of my other interests are astronomy, nuclear energy and renewable energy even though idk much about any of them yet.

Bruno would indulge in your interests the most imo.

I can see him encouraging you to learn about your interests and even learn with you (if he has the time). But his ideal is motivating you to learn and then have you tell him all about it. I can see him as the type of person who loves it when you start talking about what you’re interested in.

Doesn’t mind joining you when you’re playing video games too! Although, ya gotta have patience with him on this because imo he’s not the most skilled when it comes to gaming

He’s also not that judgmental or creeped out with your enjoyment of bugs and creepy stuff. He seen worse in person, has actually killed people, so it doesn’t shake him when you tell or show him those kinda things.

I like joking around and making people laugh, at least a few people think I’m funny.

I can see all of them enjoying this trait of yours, but Bruno especially.

He likes that you want to make others laugh, and thinks its endearing that you want to make him laugh and feel joyful. Fills his heart up honestly because he’s always thinking of others, so the fact that you’re thinking of him and trying to bring joy into his and others’ lives? His heart swells at that, at the implied sweetness with this trait, whether your joke is a hit with him or not.

I’m also very touch starved and crave physical affection a lot lmao.

As long as you communicate this with Bruno, he will (try his best to) deliver. I see him as not minding PDA at all too, in fact it comes naturally to him, so he’ll always be touching you somehow in public (holding hands, his hand on your back, letting you loop your arm with his, etc.). I also HC him as someone who has lot of love to give, so once you let him know this fact, he’ll be sure to remedy it and channel most of his love to you in physical touch.

#jjba #jojo #jojo’s bizarre adventure #golden wind #vento aureo #bruno buccellati #bruno buccerati #cupids_pick

[bookishbea]

Black Friday Reaction

Okay so I’ll be live tweeting Black Friday but none of it will have any sense to it but it’ll just be my reactions

1. The Paul thing is really bothering me

2. I really love the mention of the other characters

3. If Jane is mention is the story about the mom mentioned some more

4. Is the delivery man ted (cause he’s also a sleazeball

5. It’s weird seeing Cory not play a pure bean

6. I love California MIA

7. The little sister (Im sorry I’m bad at names) I self project as autistic and she something else idk

8. Did anyone else noticed Robert’s Australian accent come out?

9. Like I said this is out of order so yeah but I personally think the second song in the show was very shocking as I’m not used to very serious starkid songs

10. When Robert gestures smoking i think its lowkey a refrence to the smoke club

11. I have a crush on lex

12. I love Lauren’s charecter so much

13. I love the name linda becuase it could be like a karen without using that name

14. Not to get poltical but i choose to belive they made an antivax joke

15. Also the marvel nerd in me loves the name becky barnes

16. I know its probaly not on purpose but joeys charecters costume in line looks like the homeless guy’s one

17. Jaimey is great as always

18. The conversation is so cringe i love it

19. I kinda hope torture porn is a fanfic refrence (i know most people would want me to say spies are forever but nope)

20. I love Lauren but shouldnt her accent be included when she sings

21. I love Jeff’s reaction

22. I may get some hate for this but what was bothering me in tgwdlm and i notice in starkid is lack of fan comments in the captions

23. As a theatre fan i love the toy zone song (i am not sure if thats the right name) espcially the do wop becuase it reminds me of older musicals

24. Also since i watched tgwdlm and black friday a day apart its weird to come from songs happening because they are infected to songs happening cause its a musical

25. i love the love the line we are not relaibly to anyone who dies becuase they clearly show in the trailer that someone will die (this is not a spoiler if you watch the trailer for Black Friday)

26. I love Corey but when he dances i notice a bulge (i am not a perv he makes it very obvious)

27. So i rewinded it to make sure i wanst going crazy and realized something as lex says the pepper spray line. She would be good as janis ian

28. I love the touch money part its so cute even if its not supposed to be

29. Jaime plays a perv really well

30. I love Jon’s charecter its hilarious

31. Also i love jon and lauren interactions so it was cool seeing them together not as paul and emma

32. I love seeing more of Jon because although hes reaally good at playing paul paul doesnt have any flavor and its cool seeing jon do something diffrent

33. Jeff’s fuck you

34. Okay I was right it was the homeless guy and i bet the money is paul’s money

35. And this is not a sterotpye as i am jewish myself but i bet Laurens charecter is jewish

36. Its sad that the price thing is true

37. So i am a theatre fan and do not watch got but that music kinda reminds me of got

38. Cant tell if jeff’s charecter is gay and a perv or just a perv (i realzie this could be mmisinterpreted as homophobic i just mean to say that jamie’s charecter just seems like a full out perv where as i cant tell with jeff’s)

39. Obviously you shouldnt be that insane but i do like the lines about how you are in charge of life and dont care about what others think. its goood life advice

39. Looks like Paul’s boss got his wish

40. They are all idiots for holding up the doll when everyone wants to get it

41. Corey’s charecter is like shit, money isnt that imporant

42. Becky why are you a part of this you have moral high ground (yes i am ignorning the fact that cast usually join in dance numbers even if their charecter isnt a part of it)

43. Shouldnt tom get ptsd (see above)

44. Lex you already have one (see above)

45. So i may be overthinking things but how curt says never should settle is in the tune of spies are forever

46. Is it just me or did anyone else notice when the security guard comes in the tune of show me your hands comes in

47. I dont know why but i do love soft bullies because hes like hey im punching you but only for the kid

48. Some may say its schizo or something hannah has but its anxiery or something from how shes expressing it

49. I feel like hannah has a superpower and can tell whats happening

50. Maybe webby is actually wiggly

51. Baby (both hannah and robert)

52. Please tell me my babies not dead

53. Jon’s eee is adorable and silly

54. Wait hes alive

55. Wait no hes dead, im sad liek starkid is supposed to be fun and happy this is the darkest star kid yet. Even oregon deaths were silly

56. I love starkid but this is making me anxious i cant tell if its good anxious or bad anxious

57. Also i relate to the black and white thing not fully but liek whenever i dont feel well sometimes my brain is overstimulating but only in my head its very hard to explain 

58. Also i think sometimes kids on the spectrum and im not an expert but i do have it kind of make a friend in their head and i do that too sometimes just to give me advice

59. Also i hope they dont get rid of the black and white as sometimes people go more crazy without the figurative voice in their head

60. Like i said this is going to be random order so i like that emma adopted paul;s Okay and no im not making a tfios refrence

61. Poor Tim

62. Poor becky but even less

63. i thought they were supposed to be mad at g-d but in this and tgwdlm they like g-d

64. I cant tell the other pins on joey’s jacket but the first two i notice are mr wiggly and paul

65. I love Lauren’s acting you can see the very sublte sadness in her

66. Lauren and Joey together ahhhh

67. I know its probaly not a big deal but they should give a seziure warning before the tv scene

68. Did they reuse curts spies are forever outfit

69. Really starkid the obama refrence seriously, i cant tell if im mad or laughing 

70. How did Bob get one

71. I do realize they are talking irl but i cant help but wonder if the nazis were a spies are forever refrence

72. Does wiggly have a special power or something 

73. I think its similar to the metero the closer you are the more power it has over you

74. The starkid special effects we all know and love

75. Also is that mcnamara

76. Also maybe shooting it (the doll) does the same thing that shooting the affceted does. Give them no power

77. I cant tell what the music reminds me of exactly but the tune does kinda refrence a diffrent star kid song

78. Jeff looks so proud of himself for the peeps line

79. I love the purposeful i presume reuse of lines

80. Is peip like men in black

81. Also hatchetfield kind of reminds me of night vale

82. Is the black and white like the upside down?

83. I wonder if the point was purposeful since someone was filming or just choreographed

84. Yes Jon Singing!!!!!

85. I love the act two opener

86. Did his parents really name him christmas?!?

87. Oh hes literally related to santa

88. I love lauren and joey as eleves

89. Noel another christmas name

90. Isnt the little dance move like a genie move or something

91. Its so cute that she insitincitvely went to their seats

92. Also carving is goals

93. Even though its a penis its still goals

94. I know what you are, say it, santa clause

95. Tom dont yell at your girl

96. Poor Tom

97. But also dont make this about you

98. They probaly werent the head of the school since they were nice, i am sorry but thats true

99. Yass girl fight his ass

100. Also the theatre kid in me is picturing all that jazz

101. he ran into my knife he ran into my knife ten times

102. Yes Becky’s husband (i forget the name sue me) is bad but i feel like becky is more sinister then we realize

103. Becky’s line even if it isnt meant to be is so funny

104. The girl who plays Becky could play Barbara

105. I love how Joey and Lauren look into the camera

106. Jamie saying santa awww such a pure bean

107. The person in the wiggly onsie is goals

108. Matrix glasses for the win

109. Is wilbur a refrence to Charelots Web?

110. Its a cult a cult of wiggly

111. I feel like Sherman young is around 30-40

112. I love how its mommy to sound less pervy

113. Oh wait never mind Linda is mom

114. Shit thats fucked up they killed him

115. I am right a jew no non jew says mensch

116. To quote jared klienman kinky (shoe kiss scene)

117. Also i love this song the adore song

118. Why does them picking up Lauren give me Draco vibes

119. Wait he isnt dead?? im so confused

120. Wait he is dead???

121. Also ethan is creepy now

122. But Roberts expressions are goals

123. Robert your proffesor hidgens is showing

124. What the how does he know her name

125. Savage Wiggly

126. Wiggly is more funny than scary

127. But my poor baby dont be scared

128. What the fuck tom

129. Also poor baby number two

130. At first you think becky is made about him hurting a child but no its about the doll

131. What the fuck Becky

132. Also I wonder if thats the same serum that Hidgens used

133. Tom yelling at the audince is hilarious

134. Also Becky singing is giving me little shop vibes

135. Becky are you drunk or something you so stupid

136. But yayy my baby doesnt get hurt

137. More starkid special effects

138. Also the lighting nod to tgwdlm

139. Also why did they take my baby (see i told you random)

140. So the perv is wiggly

141. Also if he can appear in regular formation on earth why does he need to be the doll

142. Oh wait never mind he explains it

143. Joey talking to the audience and making them hold the apple is goals

144. I love Joey’s song

145. MIA = Missing in Action = Made in America

146. Wait im wrong Joey cant be Wiggly unless he has super powers he cant be in two places at once

147. I know they dont mean sex but still wtf

148. Lauren looks so done i cant

149. Seziure warning after mr presidnet leaves the black and white

150. Unless it was purposeful they should have hidden the dolls better backstage

151. Wait didnt hannah say something about two doors earlier?

152. Seriously Sherman ponies

153. I love the going back line

154. My poor baby lex

155. No Lex dont die not you too

156. Haha throwback to tgwdlm

157. Yes baby you got the gun

158. Also die perv die

159. Eagle screeching is goals

160. Yes lex use that logic

161. Also it makes sense only the adults can be brainwashed

162. There were only adults no children, scary (not sarcastic i promise)

163. Seriously starkid Fortnight

164. Thats why you should never fully grow up

165. Woah what Lex says is deep

166. Yessss Tom

167. Wait Tom dont hold the gun

168. Wait is Charolette alive or just a reuse of costume, if so why would they have jaimie wear it

169. No dont take her magic hat

170. Haha stupid hats cant be magic only dolls obviously

171. Does lauren say something like fucking knife in another show too?

172. Lauren screaming gives me my father will hear about this vibes

173. Also give my baby her hat back

174. Yass Lauren get it girl (i do realize shes playing the villian but still)

175. Yass Robert get it

176. Even though shes a viilain i dont like seeing Lauren get killed

177. But also how did they get the bullet wound on her so quick im impressed

178. Haha the way Gary stops everything to talk to gerald is goals

179. Like hes like oh shit money

180. And then hes like oh wait i have to pretend to care

181. I love how exagerated their dying is

182. Thats an impressive quick change

183. Yess Emma Hidgens

184. But also no hell fuck up again

185. Also Paul interupting is goals

186. Haha hannah you go girl

187. First off I love the song

188. Song off Hannah’s voice

189. Is paul scared normal or because of the hive

190. Wait all the tgwdlm charecters are back like nothing happened im confused

191. Haha the Hatchfield band is back

#black friday #starkid #tickle me wiggly #the guy who didn't like musicals

[audiovisualrecall]

Someone I know (around my mom's age) shared some dumb 'millenials cant read analog watches or cursive and dont know what a rotary phone is hahahaa' type jokes on Facebook and a friend of mine made her own post about how it was incorrect (because we grew up with those things???) and that's more gen z, but Also that even so, why does it matter, why do older people need to put down/make fun of kids? And this woman was like 'sorry but it was just a joke, and if it doesnt apply then it's not about you' and im so pissed

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Because yeah I cant fucking read an analog clock because I'm fucking dyscalculic/adhd/autistic and somewhere in there I was never able to really get it perfectly, I'm not Awful at it but its difficult! it's hard to process and translate analog into actual time, why not move along with the times and just use digital it's easier and it fucking makes sense. Why cling to the old like its somehow Better than new?! or do you abhor all technology that's meant to make your life easier? I doubt it!! But like this dumbass judgment that we're stupid and lazy and it's so funny, Haha. That hurts because it's another person saying to me that I should just. Magically not have a brain that cant process certain things easily. Im not dumb and im not any lazier than this older lady who thinks she knows everything. My brains just wired differently. So yeah it applies to me and some of us, but you really think there are no older people who couldnt/cant read analog clocks? Who do you think invented digital clocks and why do you think they did it, hmmm? Because perhaps analog is difficult for some people and digital takes less time out of everything else to parse? Hmmm? Anyway so yes im mad and bothered and upset and offended, maybe my friend isnt someone it applies to but maybe she is! And anyway that doesnt mean it's ok to joke about or put down those of us who can't. Or put down or make fun of the gen z kids for stuff that isnt their fault!

Also, if you notice young people who dont know how to read analog or cursive (which is also not needed really and thus probably not being taught anymore or used... and fyi ALL of my professors who took hand written assignments Insisted on print only, including my sharp witted 60 something year old art history prof who didnt miss a beat. He also wasnt afraid to call us out on shit, and he was my favorite professor tbh because I got amazing grades and he remembered me despite me not speaking up much at all in class. But anyway...) the point of that is to say, if you notice young people who dont know how to read either of those, before you make fun or them or put them down or sum them up as typical [whatevers] why not ask who didnt teach them how to do those things. What adult your age decided not to teach the kids how to read an analog watch? Who didnt tell the kids or grandkids or students about what a typewriter is or how a rotary phone worked. If your kid or student doesnt know something you know, that's on the adults in their life, not on them. Dont laugh about how millenials dont know what a rotary phone is, or use a kid not knowing what that is as an excuse to put them down because you feel like all the technology you knew is going away and being forgotten and it makes you anxious that you too will be forgotten. Teach the kids. Ask them if they know about x or know how to do x, and then show them, teach them, tell them about your old phone, or your first clunky portable phone with its giant antenna, or about how you learned how to write in cursive. Make them interested in these things by sharing your knowledge with them. Theyll remember you better that way, and theyll know about all the things you dont want to leave behind. Dont judge them for not knowing something as if they should just know it magically, look at yourself and at other adults and realize that if we or the younger people dont know something you know, that's on YOU.

That's different from bring concerned about kids not learning how to type or use a laptop/mouse/etc. Those things arent out of use yet and these kids are going to have to use them at some point. But it's not an excuse to make fun of them, not for anyone to do that. If you notice your nephew or niece or younger sibling doesnt know a thing about typing on a real keyboard (and not on a tablet) why not offer? Find a typing game or make a game out of writing a story on your laptop on docs or word with them.

If you, older lady on Facebook, think kids should know how to read cursive, suggest it be taught, or teach it to the kids you know! You can write letters in cursive to your grandkids, and help them (or suggest their parents help them) to parse the flowing script, or you can start slower and show them how cool it can be to write in cursive and how to do it. They may not need it, but knowledge is always worth having. And it can be fun to learn things, especially stuff you're not going to be graded on. It can become you and your grandkids' special thing writing cursive letters about whatever, the weather, their pokemon cards, the cool bird they saw.... teach them about a rotary phone, my grandma used to have one for me and my sisters and cousins to play pretend with. I learned cursive in school. I didnt learn how to bake or cook or sew or embroider but I want to learn all of it. Typewriters are cool and aesthetic tbh but difficult to work with, and a computer is far more efficient. Its only logical that things become obsolete with time. Analog clocks are difficult to read for many people afaik, digital clocks are very simple to understand, and efficient time wise because you just need to glance at one to know that you have to leave Now to be on time...or that you've been reading too long and its 3am. Oops.

Anyway I wanted to just be like, if we (or more accurately, the gen z kids) dont know something like how to read cursive, perhaps the fault lies with the adults and the bot at all with us/the children??? Also other people can be upset with a joke that's in bad taste.

I also want to comment to her that I cant read analog clocks because my brain has a hard time processing it in spite of my efforts, and I dont appreciate being the butt of a joke that is either implying we're dumb and lazy, or is hiding an insecurity over obsolete technology being left behind

But I also have to see this woman at shul sometimes and it would be awkward (but satisfying). Especially if ma saw it and got involved because this lady is her friend, it would just be very awkward. But this lady is being judgemental and made a half assed apology.

Also there was another lady on the friend's post who is also older who originally agreed that ita unfair to put us/the kids down like that and uncalled for as well, but then someone else younger mentioned that older people will joke about us not knowing this older tech and then come to us for help with a pdf. And it was a snarky way t ok point out the hypocrisy - the older people being in the wrong for their attitude towards us firat!!! - and that lady commented on his reply saying that she can open pdfs and respect is a two way street or something like that and im so baffled how she went from being on our side (being reasonable and logical) to nasty defensive asshole over a much softer and also very deserved joke! Which was not aimed at her because she was on our side, it was very clearly aimed at the old people who think we're all useless layabout idiots or whatever. But she still got defensive for no reason! And the whole respect thing like??? Older person was disrespectful, so this guy made a little joke at the expense of those shitty older people, is basically told old people dont respect us because we dont respect them.......because one kid made a joke after being disrespected. Sure, that makes total sense! Yeah!

#long post under the readmore #rantingses

[boojersey]

VIC DO ALL THE ASKS BC I LOVE U AND WANT U TO HAVE FUN

*SWEATS* AYE AYE CAPN

cw for like some common lgbt+ topics such as dysphoria violence discrimination etc just. tread carefully if u get triggered easily by bad lgbt experiences

What do you identify as and what are your pronouns? -im a gay trans man and my pronouns are he/him but they/them is also acceptable!

How did you discover your sexuality, tell your story?-oh wow i originally thought i was a lesbian because i didnt even know what transgender was i just thought wishing i was a man meant i was butch and then i met my friend donnie in eighth grade who told me he was trans and it was kinda a huge slap in the face but with a sack of gay bricks? and i found out i dont like women through actually having sex with cis women and finally realizing it. really wasnt for me so now im just a gay man as opposed to queer as an umbrella term but i periodically refer to myself as such

Have you experienced being misgendered? What happened and how did you overcome it?-oh yea i literally was misgendered today i just kinda brush it off but it can be hard sometimes especially when people know im trans and do it

Who was the first person you told, how did they react?-i first told donnie about my gender, it was a thing where i went to bed the night i met him and was like  .. wait holy fuck and then the next day i was like BRO HOLY FUCK but sexuality? i dont really know???? it was so long ago it was honestly probably my group of friends on kik that i had in 2013 (u were included in that mister!!!!)

Describe what it was like coming out, what did you feel?-im not actually fully out but the first time someone who was an adult knew about my trans-ness was what really set in for me the fact that i could come out one day; my friends mom referred to me as seance (and like. obviously she respected my gender she has a trans kid) but it was just super jarring bc no adult had known yet abt my identity in any way and as a result i was rlly glad it was nighttime in that car bc i cried almost immediately; the first time i came out on my Own was to my cousin and he laughed in my face so that was pretty damn awful and its kinda funny cuz the bastard is bi so u would think hed have been accepting but n0pe!

If you’re out, how did your parents/guardians/friends react?-im out to my friends now ! and the reception was generally positive bc i think i do an ok job at picking ppl to be around in terms of morals so there was little bad reception

What is one question you hate people asking about your sexuality?-i hate when ppl ask if im gay as in for men or gay as in for women because im trans, i am a man so when i say im gay i feel like that should be easy enough to put 2 and 2 together but when they ask that i feel as if they still view me as a woman

Describe the style of clothing that you most often wear.-emo of the gods themselves it is absolute scene and emo vomit and i love it; its seriously hard for me to wear dresses and skirts without dysphoria and just general discomfort but i own a couple anyway bc theyre cute i just. never wear them

Who are your favourite lgbt+ ships?-my main thing at the moment is gerard/frank/grant morrison bc i love poly fics very dearly and gerard/bert because bert mccracken deserved better than gerawrds internalized homophobia lol

What does makeup mean to you? Do you wear any?-makeup to me is an androgynous thing so i wear eyeshadow a lot and lipstick sometimes, eyeshadow is easier on my eyes than eyeliner bc im allergic to a lot of makeup thats on the heavier side so if i put on eyeliner my eyes will water and burn throughout the day but with eyeshadow im mostly ok; other opinion is that makeup on Anyone can be sexy as hell if they do it for fun and wear literally what they truly want and not just what they think is accepted or what they Should wear

Do you experience dysphoria? If so, how does that affect you?-oh yeah my dysphoria is pretty debilitating if im gonna be honest; i used to have very little problems with it because my hold on reality was loose at best (before i was medicated to clarify) but now that i am almost completely Here my dysphoria is pretty bad and even just like. the knowledge that i have breasts is pretty awful; a few weeks ago i put on an outfit that i have to wear a victorias secret bra to fit properly in and just one look in the mirror had me sobbing and i had to change my clothes before i could leave the house and i havent worn a bra since because just the thought of showing off my chest makes this stark fuckin dread shoot through my veins but i also have dysphoria in regards to my voice that i discussed at my last trans therapy group meeting actually ; my voice has a tendency to bounce around my octave range so sometimes ill be like. excited then hear what i sound like. and ruin it for myself immediately u kno? im not even gonna talk about my dicksphoria bc thats just. awful. 

What is the stupidest thing you’ve heard said about the lgbt+ community?-ohhhhhhhh my god u know what? ive heard..so much .. that im gonna instead take this opportunity to mention my mother genuinely thinks dnd is satanic

What’s your favourite thing about the lgbt+ community?-the fact that were so strong. we are so fucking strong we deal with violence and opposition constantly and at staggering rates yet we stay strong and we continue loving through all of it, whether its in dark corners in secret or loudly in the streets we continue loving and do so with all of our beings because we know its our own truth and well gladly go to hell if it means we got to love on earth (not that everyone believes in hell or the idea that us gays go to hell but my point stands)

What’s your least favourite thing about the lgbt+ community?-we have this audacity to create divide (to the fault of mostly cis white gay men thank u very much) when what we need to do is love each other because we are different but at the end of the day we all need to remain in tandem and as a family or we will never get to where we need to in terms of acceptance and that means being uplifting and protecting our trans sisters of color, our disabled lgbt members, our autistic lgbt members, our anything past cis white gay man because we all need recognition, we all need love, and to exclude any letters of lgbt is to tear ourselves down and set ourselves on fire

Have you ever been to your cities pride event? Why or why not?-no :((( no one would drive me in the past and i dont think ill have a way to get there this year either

Who is your favourite lgbt+ Icon/Advocate/Celebrity?-brian molko! my bisexual, androgynistically-inclined father who birthed me at the tender age of 16 when i found placebo

Have you been in a relationship and how did you meet?-ya theres been a few and i dont rlly like to talk abt my relationships with anyone unless theyre online relationships so im just gonna leave it at that

What is your favourite lgbt+ book?-pantomime by laura lam! its one of if not my favorite book to this day

Have you ever faced discrimination? What happened?-y a every damn day bitch ! example is when i was deadnamed by my psychiatrist while she knows full well what my name is the other day; another is the countless times i get called a lesbian ???? and when strict lesbians ask me out i get a very bad taste in my mouth (i understand full well that sexuality is fluid, these are lesbians that spit the ‘penis is gross blegh’ rhetoric)

Your Favorite lgbt+ movie or show?-uh im just gonna say preacher bc its my favorite show altogether n cass is bi/pan/something similar

Who are some of your favourite lgbt+ bloggers?-@ble3dmagic is my boyfriend in crime (not rlly thats a joke) and @musicalsense​ is my sunburnt Brother

Which lgbt+ slur do you want to reclaim?-queer! i also use f*ggot a lot when talking about myself and my friends that are ok with it

Have you ever gone to a gay bar, or a drag show, how was it?-i went to a drag show and it was so amazing and one of the first times i felt accepted in my own community that i cried

How do you self-identify your gender, and what does that mean to you?-well i identify as a man with no leaning towards womanhood or nonbinaryhood in any way, its just . man . but in terms of Expression i am quite androgynous bc i can rlly appreciate femininity (NOT the same as womanhood) and being a man to me means just that ive always wanted to grow up with that “gender role” like i always wish i was raised as a stereotypical parent would raise a son and ive always been more interested in stereotypically masculine things and people since i can even remember and i feel like puberty was just this unpreventable spiral into something i didnt want. i didnt want it at all . this is tmi but when i got my first period i cried my eyes out bc the idea of being called a Woman repulsed me so much and since i didnt even know that being trans was a concept i was just this scared puppy full of confusion and fear aimed at myself because all the stuff i heard i was supposed to be proud of the change but i wasnt i was so ashamed of it and the idea of being called a woman made me sick to my stomach and i just wish i could go back in time and hold myself and tell me itll be alright 

Are you interested in having children? Why or why not?-absoLutely not i hate kids (and by that i mean i hate being around them and the culture that surrounds having children; i do not treat kids like shit and i do not act like hating children is a personality trait; i get migraines and usually the second a child starts screaming or crying i am on the floor of my brain writhing in dire pain and i have absolutely no desire to support another human life when frankly i cant even support myself; its also just not a lifestyle i want to live)

What identity advice would you give your younger self?-god so fucking much. so fucking much. so many things i wish i could say to myself

What do you think of gender roles in relationships?-i think if someone wants to adhere to them then hell yea go ahead just dont expect others to do it or try to tell other people its a Norm or something; theyre for the most part christian in nature so i dont have any desire to follow them myself, i want a relationship (if any) thats more of a coexistence if that makes sense, like. roommates plus dick

Anything else you want to share about your experience with gender?-i always used to anxiously chew on the idea that my chest dysphoria is just me holding disdain for the shape and size of my breasts but let me tell you. the second i put on my binder for the first time i immediately started crying because i was so overwhelmed by the fact that i was looking at something one step closer to myself and i know full well i am never going to have that doubt again. this week has been exponentially cathartic and therapeutic for me

What is something you wish people know about being lgbt+?-i want the cisheteros to know that nothing they learn about us is new. everything about us has been around for so so long but has been silenced and erased to the point where a lot of us dont even know many things about our rich and beautiful history

Why are proud to be lgbt+?-honestly? its hard for me to not just straight up say im not proud of my identity. its taken me years to stamp down the plain grieving toward my identity and wishing i could have the easier path but frankly? the fact that i am choosing this path of hardship and hell on earth just to be who i truly am i think speaks volumes of my pride in my identity at this point; further back in my archive by a few years my posts are littered with sentiments of bitterness wherein i stated that i hate being trans and not just cis but i like to think ive finished hating myself for my identity. i like to think im proud now. to ask me why is to ask too much of me, all i know now is that i am proud and thats enough for me right now.

#LONG POST #KAY I LOVE U BUT HOLY SHIT MY FOLLOWERS ARE GONNA GET MOTION SICKNESS FROM SCROLLING PAST THIS AT LIGHTNING SPEED #saltwaterfox

[azathothpilled]

people have said this before and i’m gonna sound like an anti-bullying poster, but

why do some people not even try to be kind

like its not hard, you dont have to go out of your way to compliment everyone if you dont want to, all you have to do is stop yourself from saying rude/offensive things???? it seems so simple but when i talk to anyone about this, they get offended (most likely because i’m calling them out) and treat me like i’m asking for too much when all i’m asking for is a reasonable amount of good in this world?

i finally have a group of friends who i hang out with frequently and they want to be around me and that’s great but,,, the past couple of weeks i’ve been noticing how unreasonably rude some of them are. today one of them was looking at a picture of a girl on reddit (a girl he does not know) and laughed while reading all the unneccesarily cruel comments people had posted. when i try to point out how mean that was, he goes “haha yeah i mean cmon she was asking for it, posting her face online” and then another one of my friends joins his side????

is there something im missing??? do other people just not get it? do they not understand that its bad to make a joke out of things other people can’t control? and that includes sexuality, gender, appearance, race, religion, and disorders.

im not even an adult yet and im losing more and more faith in the people around me every day.

the news just shows how much people dont care about each other and how selfish a lot of people are. i can’t complain about it though, because then people expect me to have solutions to all the problems in the news, and i don’t have any, i don’t know the answer.

when i joined marching band, my section immediately made fun of me as soon as they realized i was “sensitive” and a “social justice warrior” and they told me that by the end of the season i would learn to “take a joke”. they all formed swastikas with their instruments and, out of the 13 people in the section, the only ones who refused to participate were me and my friend amanda.

i’ll see one of my closest friends laughing and i’ll smile and ask him whats so funny and he’ll point at an autistic student across the room who is stimming and suddenly our friendship is so much weaker but he doesn’t even realise it.

only one irl friend knows about my gender, because i know for a fact that my other friends would think i’m an idiot if i told them. they already share little exasperated glances at each other when i speak my opinion about ecological problems, politics, lgbtq+ topics, or gender equality. same goes with my family.

the little things i hear people mutter around me when we watch the news in history class every morning make me want to scream because people don’t THINK, they just take whatever their parents tell them (and in my area, most 30-60 year olds are the definition of a stereotypical conservative) and make it even LESS compassionate just to sound “edgy”.

being an asshole doesn’t make you better than others. i don’t care if your friends think it’s funny.

#im so angry #want new friends but it was hard enough to make the ones i currently have #long post #my life #sorry for the rant yall

[tumblunni]

Rambling about my new watchholder oc Mallory

* absolute gremlin child. Eats dirt. Probably more of a monster than most of the yokai.

* at the same time tho, she is like super sunshine friend! She looks kinda gloomy ominous but her personality is actually super bubbly and her biggest priority in life is making new yokai friends and loving them forever. Like, creepy in a wholesome way? She does indeed love horror movies and creepy crawlies and could probably fistfight god, but that doesnt mean she's evil!

* kinda always bored but also easily exciteable? One of her biggest recurring jokes is just ignoring the normal or sane solution to a thing and doing something more fun even if its more difficult or dangerous. Actually i guess its more "fearless" than bored? Or bored of fear, lol. Fearless and doesnt really give a shit about any rules. But again not in a mean way, she doesnt break rules because she wants to piss people off, just like "im not gonna believe this if nobody bothers explaining why its supposed to be so important". But not exactly phrased like that cos that would be rude, lol. So uhh more like just relateable autism feel of not grasping social cues but mixed with a personality thats quite outgoing and uncaring of being judged poorly for not being normal, as opposed to me who's always worried about what people think.

* oh wait thats the word for it!! Free-spirited! Trickster! Like a peter pan type of trickster tho, more than loki. Like just "i am naturally outside the obligations of normalcy" rather than "i am intentionally trying to prank/illusion/manipulate people cos its funny". Or uhh i guess "manic pixie dream girl" but without all the stupid shit that trope has got associated with.

* pretty much just wish fullfillment of "what if i was confident enough to not care what people think and just act like myself no matter what"

* anyway in summary she likes to climb trees n stuff and her reaction to yokai being real is "yay" and her reaction to seeing an undefeatable giant kaiju is to run at it and try and suplex it with her bare hands. She's kind of a badass! Tho lol also her biggest character flaw is her badassness, cos she can be reckless due to the lack of fear. But then also sometimes when everyone is hopeless she really does manage to save the day no matter what, and help inspire everyone else to be brave too!

* though i'm thinking of maybe a character arc where she starts off seeing this as just a fun adventure with no stakes, and it doesnt matter if you take risks cos nobody's gonna get hurt anyway. Like a "this isnt really real, its just my hero's story" sort of thing? When things start getting more dark and she faces things she cant just defeat with simple optimism, it kinda stops being fun anymore. And she has to realize that even if she doesnt care about her own self preservation there's consequences that could happen to her friends and family. And maybe she's already made mistakes that she can't take back, and now she's neck deep in a conflict thats a lot bigger and more insurmountable than she thought. You can't just fistfight something like the abstract concept of hatred for humanity which will continue to be perpetuated as long as the idea keeps taking root. And maybe even yokai you befriended could start to believe it too, after all you've kinda been treating them as just fun toys and sidekicks on a story that's all about you, and dragging them into danger with your recklessness. Even though you're fighting the villains, are you really doing it because you actually care about saving the day? Do you even know what you're saving it from...?

* and similar to her unflappable victoryness being shaken, i think her fearlessness and confidence could also be deeper than they look on the surface. I feel like maybe as the story goes on it could be revealed that its less being fearless and more just not caring about her own safety. You start to see her get more actual consequences from her fights, and it starts to become sort of concerning that she keeps brushing it off as no big deal. Laughing it off. Wondering why her friends are even sad that she got hurt. And maybe she isnt really happy all the time and 100% secure in who she is, she just tries to hide any signs of doubt because she feels like nobody would care. And that she has to always be the funny class clown or else nobody would want to be her friend. And like.. She doesnt even really believe that she's great, believe that she's fine as she is. She's more aware of her weirdness than she lets on. She's constantly, paralyzingly aware that everyone thinks she's a freak. She did use to try and change herself to fit in, but she kept failing at it and it never helped her get any friends. Or when she did think she made a friend they'd turn on her whenever she slipped up and showed a crack in her mask of the perfect normal person. The perfect normal person they wanted her to be.. Constantly changing into WHATEVER anyone wanted her to be. The only reason she doesnt do that anymore is that she lost all hope in it working, not that she actually gained confidence in her true self. And even when she's npt conciously doing it she's still subconciously trying to be what people want her to be. She has to always be funny, always be fearless, she has to cling to the few parts of her weirdness that people dont seem to hate. And now she has to be the hero. She has to carry all the dreams of everyone she's met along the way, while never letting them know when she's scared she wont be able to help make them come true. She's always just laughing it off and never being fully open with any of her friends, because she's scared they'll hate her. ..

* so uhh.. Yeah. Personal experience of that. Personal experience of trying to fit into negative stereotypes of autism because thats what everyone saw me as no matter how hard i tried, and also it was the only form of autism theyd treat positively, somehow. Like just be the "funny one" and dont challenge any of their assumptions ans they'll leave you in relative peace. Put up with some degree of degredation to avoid the even worse version. And i was doing all of this at a very youbg age before i even knew i was autistic or what autism was, but i could still feel how people treated me differently and how i had to friggin agree with it or else they'd never let it go. Gahhh.. It was all way too complicated and dark for a kid to understand!

* so yeah anyway her story arc is going from being a badass funny to being a funny badass? Like she just becomes more genuinely tough and cool when she's not always winning and the stakes dont seem so low and comical AND most importantly you know her real feelings and see that she will indeed continue fighting even when she's scared. And she doesnt try so hard to be cool all the time so it just lets her be more genuine. And form actual relationships with everyone with genuine feelings. So its less "she is badass because its funny" and more "she is a badass because she's a badass". But she's still funny, just in more varied ways than simply "the only reason she won this fight so fast is because jokes". Fighting legit threatening enemies in fights that arent over in five seconds. So they can contain... SEVERAL joke..!!! And also some actual fighting for once!!

* hhh i dunno i am very tired im probably not explaining this well

* oh and i think possibly she has a bit of a complex of feeling she's nothing without her yokai watch? Like the yokai are her first friends who never abandoned her. And she always felt like she was useless and it was her own fault that she didnt have any friends. She first started off being all irreverent and goofy when she got the yokai watch cos she was well into her "i dont care anymore" phase of depression and felt certain these new friends would all realise she was awful eventually and leave, so like.. Why get attatched? Just have fun while it lasts. So maybe actually she shows early signs of her depression by trying harder to be normal whenever anyone shows her friendship. Maybe something where she starts straigjtening her hair or dressing more feminine and then you just see this look on her face like her heart has shattered when someone agrees that she does look better now. (Maybe a new yokai she recently caught who was like super cool and she wanted to impress them?) And she gets compulsively obsessed with it, exaggerating it to a ridiculous degree and starting to change other parts of her appearance and everyone goes from giggling about this weird circumstance to getting REALLY DAMN CONCERNED! And in the end something something the yokai who was an asshole abput her needing to be more feminine slips up and shows his true assy colours to the other yokai and theyre like IT WAS YOU and he's like "what? You should be thanking me for fixing your shitty trainer!" And Then Everyone Beats Him Up Forever. Etc etc moral that real friends accept you for who you are and anyone who tells you you have to change to impress them is not worth impressing. Also maybe some aspect where the yokai dude thinks that mallory is trying to impress him cos she has a crush on him, and thats the moment that manages to snap her out of her depressive funk. Self hate overrided by sheer EWW NO IM A LESBIAN, DUDE i just liked ur cool hat, geez. (Wait was that entire plot idea just an excuse to find a way to foreshadow her getting a crush on hailey in yw3...?)

* and maybe i dunno some sort of dramatic episode where she loses the ability to use the yokai watch and is faced with her self worth issues all at once and its super fuckin sad and we all know eventually she will get to see all her yokai friends again cos the plots not gonna end before finishing all the games but still MEGA SUPER SAD MOMENT ANYWAY (also tearful reunions!)

* also i just heard theres a yokai called furgus thats a big adorable hairball that gives people big hair. So maybe that could be one of the comically easy victory episodes? He uses his power on mallory but her hair is already too fluffy to be floofed! Maybe it backfires and turns his own hair into a boring bowl cut, lol? And then maybe a sequel where he returns for revenge a million episodes later but it just so happens to be during the maddiman boss fight and he accidentally cures his balding. "Noooo dont thank me nooooo" *is forced against his will to become a popular advertosing mascot for hair cream* *like straight up just gets sucked into the nearest bottle and sealed like a genie* *cursed forever to fame and fortune and a million dollar salary*

* lol i dont think im as funny as the actual yokai watch writers but i have a few ideas at least. This will be fun to draw!

#bunni plays yokai watch

[undiagnosedautismfeels]

Not A Feel / Questions

- I frequently say phrases but i dont hear them in my vioce, i hear them as how i heard someoen i know say it. Like its my voice aloud but not in my head is that a form of echolalia?

Honestly, I have no idea.

- Before, I only used to stim with my legs in relatively subtle ways, but after I started looking into autism and started finding out about other people's stims, I started feeling the urge to stim more often/in other ways. (Ex: I read about how people on the spectrum enjoyed rocking and hand flapping so I decided to see what it felt like. Now I notice myself wanting to do it more often) im undiagnosed and idk it just makes me feel like im subconsiously trying to make myself seem "more autistic" :(

That’s normal. Most people become more aware of their symptoms when they realize they have a condition.

- Is it possible for someone with autism to be ok with making eye contact? I know one of the first/most famous signs is a kid not making eye contact but I'm pretty sure I didn't have a problem with it when I was younger, so I'm doubting whether I actually am autistic

Yes it’s possible. You don’t need to have every symptom to meet the diagnostic criteria.

- Sorry this is a question and I know you guys are more of a trait blog but I’m so clueless and don’t know who else to ask. I’m wondering if it’s worth pursuing a diagnosis? I want to, work is becoming harder to cope with when I’m overwhelmed and I’ve had to walk away to cry a lot recently but I also saw an ask a while ago from another person in the UK who got diagnosed but offered no support at all. Does that mean I’ll just be abandoned if I’m diagnosed? I feel really alone rn.

I’m not in the UK so I can’t say what it’s like over there, but if you want to pursue a diagnosis I don’t see why you shouldn’t.

- Everytime someone shows up late I get really overwhelmed, is that an autistic thing?

Sounds like anxiety, but could be related to autism because it breaks routine or something.

- does this sound like echolalia? whenever i hear people laughing, i start laughing too. i won't even be listening into their conversation, but if i hear laughter, you better believe ya boi is gonna join in without thinking. i won't even mentally feel it if that makes sense? like i won't be finding anything funny yet i'll be laughing as if i do. -misterstims

Yeah sounds like it. Simply put, echolalia is the pointless repetition of sounds and phrases.

- Hey, I used to do silly voices all the time and it made me really happy -- I still do it sometimes, but definitely not as much as when I was younger -- and I was wondering if that could have been a form of stimming?

Yeah it could be.

- i cant always tell if ppl are joking or not and my friends make me feel really guilty bc of it (they dont know that im highly suspected to be on the spectrum, and they make autistic jokes all the time i hate it). thing is, i can't stop being friends with them cos we go to the same school (and its pretty small, i literally cannot avoid them).

Your friends sound shitty. Tell them that you can’t help it and that them making you feel bad for it is uncalled for. It takes $0 for them to clarify if they’re joking without being dicks about it.

- Any advice on breaking/changing routines? I want to be able to draw during the day but I’m stuck doing it at night. I get panicky when I’m out the house late with friends or something because it ‘feels wrong’ and I want to change that so I can draw during the day and stay out later. Also holidays are bad for the first day or two, especially sleeping because everything is ‘too different’. I feel stupid cos no one else seems to have this problem and it should be easy to do but it’s not.

I don’t have any rigid routines myself, do any of our followers have advice?

#not a feel #mod dylan #echolalia #stimming #social skills #diagnosis #misterstims asks #ableism #bullying #routine

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could john doe be autistic? telltale batman theory

A couple of months ago, I was looking at random batman stuff when I came across “batman: the telltale series” and “batman: the enemy within”, and let me tell you, its probably one of the best games ive seen since undertale and even corpse party (corpse party is and will remain my favourite game though… unless I change my mind). I loved the story and the characters, but one of them stood out to me, and that was John Doe. Now let me be clear, I do not, and I repeat NOT class John Doe as the joker at all (unless you choose the choices in order to make him the joker), no I class John as ‘the joker, if he got rehabilitated’ or just simply as John Doe. And me being the type of person who automatically likes anything that has to do with the joker because I find his personality and the overall character incredibly interesting, when I finished watching all the john scenes (im not even kidding, I spent days watching every scene I can find with John in it), even though he doesn’t act like the joker, I loved his personality. One day when I was watching it, I noticed some key things that stood out in Johns personality, which are kind of similar to………………….and then it clicked in my brain. Could John Doe from the batman telltale series, be autistic? Now I know “John Doe” has traits or all the symptoms of antisocial personality disorder and possibly schizophrenia, but I could not help but find other symptoms to Asperger’s syndrome/autism, though this is only with john doe, not with the original joker (trust me I tried looking but he’s just the definition of antisocial personality disorder and psychopathy). I did some research and watched the batman telltale series repeatedly, and here’s the evidence I collected. Behavioural symptoms: •    Often verbalizes internal thoughts that most would keep private – this isn’t shown quite often in season 1, however in season 2, John does say/shout out his thoughts depending on the situation. For example, (in season 2 episode 3) when he was asking Bruce about dating advice, and Bruce pretended to be Harley, John yelled “why won’t you love me?!” in front of everyone at a café. Another example is (in season 2 episode 1) when John yells at the man who shh’ed him in church by saying “you shh me again, you’ll be mourning the loss of your teeth!”, he did calm down and stated “that outburst, its antisocial I know”. He also yells “at least he went out with a bang right?” when talking to Tiffany about her dead father, At his funeral. Another scene is (in season 2 episode 2) when Bruce starts the car for John after struggling with it for a few minutes and he says “you are literally my hero Bruce. –I mean wow”. another quote is “Bruce is strong and smart, and handsome, I mean, super handsome, its nuts you guys, and-… where was I going with this?”. on the vigilante ending (season 2 episode 5), when first meeting Alfred, he states “wow. The Alfred. I’ve been taken polaroid photos of Bruce for years and you’re in the background in at least a third of them”. • Appears to lack empathy – this is very clear in both season 1 and season 2, John will attack/kill or steal anything from anyone without feeling empathy towards anyone, apart from Harley and sometimes Bruce, and will laugh when seeing violence himself. Many examples of John not showing empathy to anyone is: laughing at Victor Zsasz when he’s murdering someone (season 1 episode 4), laughing when Bruce defends him from Willy by knocking him out (season 2 episode 2), laughing when Harley threatens one of Bruce’s workers (season 2 episode 2), laughing when Bruce/Batman beats up Bane (season 2 episode 4), laughing when exploding the Gotham bridge with a lot of people still on it (season 2 episode 4). On the villain ending (season 2 episode 5), he has no empathy for the people he and Harley kill with the virus. On the vigilante ending (season 2 episode 5), he stabs 3 people while injuring tiffany with a joker-rang through the hand, he also throws joker-rangs at a lot of agents, which impale them, he also shows no empathy to bane when he either hits him with his car or drops a smock deck on him. • Has a difficult time interacting with peers – this is mostly shown in season 2. (in season 2 episode 2) When Bruce is inspecting John’s house or ha ha-ciesta and he looks at the beer bottles, John explains that in order to talk to Bane, he has to give him his favourite bottle of beer so Bane doesn’t tear his head off, even stating “he’s scarier than anyone I met in Arkham”. He also says to Bruce that he has a hard time talking to Harley as it is indicated in a previous statement that she loses interest quickly when talking to John, though this could be the fault of Harley, not John. John also despises the riddler because he always interrupted him when he was telling a joke “making him look like an idiot, in front of Harley and the other guys”, riddler even calling john a “white faced prick” (season 2 episode 3), though this can be seen as just a normal rivalry and not a difficult time interacting with people. • Talks excessively, especially about one specific topic – John talks a lot, and I mean a lot in season 1 and 2. He does switch topics in conversation depending on the situation but most of the time, he is either talking a lot about Harley or a lot about Bruce. The Harley topic is clear in nearly every episode of season 2, and Harley even stated to Bruce when John went to get her a slushy “he thinks the world of you” (season 2 episode 2), indicating that he talks about Bruce to the pact a lot. John does talk about Batman to but not as often. He mostly talks about how he’s best friends with Bruce, constantly saying “we’re two threads in the same stitch”. • Frequently has one-sided conversations – John shows this (in season 2 episode 4) when Bruce finds him surrounded by corpses he had murdered, and when Bruce disagrees with John on if he should trust John or not, John will yell “you’re supposed to be on my side!”. He will also say “it’s been hard knowing that you haven’t been straight with me, Bruce”, even though John has his own secrets that he hasn’t shared with Bruce, and Bruce knows this. He also says “You steered me wrong, at every turn” to Bruce when Harley abandons him (season 2 episode 4). On the villain ending (season 2 episode 5), john blames Bruce entirely for making him become the joker after Bruce didn’t believe him about the murdered agents. On the vigilante ending (season 2 episode 5), john claims “I believed in you, batman. like I never believed in anything, and it was all a lie!”, and when batman wants Waller to leave Gotham, john goes against that idea shouting “this is so very disappointing. You’re a hypocrite! Your letting her off the hook, because of what? Because she has a badge?!”, john also believes that Bruce/batman is becoming or is very similar to Waller near the end of the episode. • Is unable to understand societal norms – this is shown in season 2 on many scenes. The main examples of this are: John talking very loudly and saying inappropriate comments in church (season 2 episode 1), and John believing that girls like men who are desperate (season 2 episode 3). Another scene is when he takes selfies during a funeral (season 2 episode 1). He also does a pinkie swear with Bruce in the middle of a pub, even though he is an adult (season 2 episode 2). John also believes that his green hair is ‘natural’ due to him not remembering his hair colour before it turned green (season 2 episode 3). ��� Does not understand the concept of personal space – this is not very shown as John keeps his distance when he’s around people, but the times that this has happened is when he randomly hugs Bruce after Bruce chooses to believe him about the murdered agents (season 2 episode 4) or when he takes selfies with someone, he raps his arm around their shoulders and takes a photo (as seen in multiple photos on his wall, he even does it too batman). Sometimes when john is speaking to someone, he would sometimes inch closer to them but that is not much of an issue, until he leans his head forward while he’s talking, which causes the person he talking to, to move back slightly. Other times include: grabbing Bruce’s arm in the church (in season 2 episode 1), grabbing batman by the shoulders after john gave him the laptop and/or teaching john how to throw a batarang (in season 2 episode 3), punching Bruce (multiple times in different episodes), and even carrying batman in the vigilante ending (season 2 episode 5), when interrogating Waller, he gets really close to her face in order to make her talk, which still doesn’t work. • Flat tone / speaking style that lacks pitch – john’s voice has a bit of a lack of pitch when he’s speaking to anyone, though this could change depending on what mood he’s in. multiple times in the game, it shows that john sometimes mimics another person’s voice, in season 1 episode 4: he puts on a high pitched voice (presumably a woman’s voice) saying “ahh ohh someone save my baby”, he also put on a deep voice (presumably mimicking Harvey dents voice) saying “I’m going to find your drugs”. In season 2: he puts on a deep voice (presumably mimicking batman) saying “just get it john” (episode 2), also in the vigilante ending (episode 5), he puts on a deep voice again (mimicking child Bruce) saying “no Alfred, I am the knight”. John also alters his voice when he’s being sarcastic, for example (in season 2 episode 4) when john is upset with Bruce and says in a weird voice “just manipulate her john/just be yourself john”, or he’s in an awkward moment for example (in season 2 episode 3) if you take too long to take the laptop of john, he pulls a confused face and says “you did want this didn’t you?, I’ll just leave this rrrriiiigggghhhhttttt here” while putting the laptop in batman’s hand, then finishing the sentence with a very high pitched “K”. Physical symptoms: • Unusual body postures, gestures and facial expressions – John has rather bad posture when sitting and/or standing, as his back is always hunched. For facial expressions, the main facial expressions that John portrays is the very wide and toothy smile/grin, a frown, a shocked face, and one that’s I’ve been noticing a lot, the confused/thinking face (the best scene to see this facial expression clearly is when John says to Bruce that he thinks he’s fallen in love, and Bruce asks “are you in love with me?”, John pulls that face soon after the comment (season 2 episode 4)). On the villain ending (season 2 episode 5), whenever he’s been insulted or when he first walks into Wayne enterprises, he always smirks, which hasn’t been seen in the previous chapters before. • may perform repetitive movements, such as hand or finger flapping, or rocking back and forth – mainly during season 2, when John is either happy and excited/grateful, he will always interlock his hands while crouching a little bit. He does clap in season 1 and in season 2 but this only happens when he’s presumably excited (he does this when he first meets Batman (season 1 episode 5), he does this when Harley comes back and says she’s going to be the new management instead of Bane (season 2 episode 3), and he does this again when he is in the elevator going to the secret lab (season 2 episode 4), he also claps his hands when he first meets Alfred in the vigilante ending (season 2 episode 5)). Another repetitive movement that John does, mainly while talking, is finger pointing, this can be seen whenever John is talking to anyone, but mainly towards Bruce and sometimes Harley. In the vigilante ending (season 2 episode 5), john repeated puts his hands/fists/knuckles on his hips, though this could be john thinking that he’s a super hero. • Apparent insensitivity to pain – many examples of this are shown in season 2: John gets shoved by Catwoman and is knocked on the floor, He doesn’t react (season 2 episode 3). John gets a black eye from Harley, we are not sure what his reaction was there but he doesn’t seem fazed by it when Bruce arrives (season 2 episode 4). He gets punched in the face by Bruce and he doesn’t react (season 2 episode 4). He gets slapped in the face by Bruce and he doesn’t really react, though seeming a little surprised (season 2 episode 4). He gets tazor-ed by Tiffany, he does fall to the floor but soon after he just stands back up coughing and laughing (season 2 episode 2). In the vigilante ending (season 2 episode 5): he gets picked up by his neck and thrown to the floor by bane and he laughs (while saying “ow, god”), he gets shot in the shoulder by the agency (he does show pain as he crouches on the floor while bleeding, but minutes later, he stands up and laughs), he gets punched, electrocuted and gets his face hit off a railing multiple time and he just laughs, he also gets a batarang through the hand and a couple of minutes after either getting head butted or electrocuted, he just sits there as if it’s not in his hand (which is pinned to the table). On the villain ending (season 2 episode 5): he gets stabbed multiple times and he laughs, he gets kicked and punched repeatedly and he laughs, true he does go into cardiac arrest but when he gets out of it he just lies there giggling and talking to Bruce. • Poor handwriting skills – this is only seen a couple of times, but johns hand writing is the kind of writing that looks messy, but readable. For example, (in season 2 episode 1) when Bruce opened the card john gave to him, john wrote his name into the card, and the writing looks a little bit messy. His writing is also shown (in season 2 episode 5) on the villain ending on the various cards, the side of a van and on the tombstones, still messy but readable. Cognitive symptoms: • Lack of social skills – though this may be caused by an unknown amount of time locked in Arkham asylum, John has a notorious lack of social skills, though in this case he does talk to a lot of people, he just doesn’t know how. The main examples are all the things he says when he’s in the church (season 2 episode 1), and when he tries to convince Harley that he is the only man to do the job, which lead to him getting a time out by Harley (season 2 episode 3). • May have one or a few very select interests that one is extremely knowledgeable about – even though being a rather smart character, John knows a lot of information about different things, but the main things he is extremely knowledgeable about is the Vikki Vale’s drugs, Bruce (even detecting that he’s Batman) saying “you forget, I know you. The real you. Always hiding behind some kind of mask. Playboy, business man, criminal….bat. you can’t fool a friend, someone who really takes the time to look” (season 2 episode 4), and Harley, stating “let me talk to her, I know her better than anyone” (season 2 episode 4). • may engage in violent outbursts, self-injurious behaviours, tantrums or meltdowns – this is very clear in season 1 and 2. For violent outbursts: John beats up 2 guys knocking them out (season 1 episode 4), he cuts Zsasz’s face with a knife (season 1 episode 4), he hits Bane/Mr Freeze with a batarang/gun/sharp pole (season 2 episode 4), he hits an officer over the head with a crowbar (season 2 episode 3), he tries to punch Bruce when he disagrees with him (season 2 episode 4), he murdered a bunch of cops/agents (season 2 episode 4), he explodes the bridge (season 2 episode 4). On the vigilante ending (season 2 episode 5), john snaps and ends up stabbed three agents to death. For self-injurious: if in an angry mood, John will repeatedly hit his head off any hard surface (the church chair (season 2 episode 1) or the elevator wall (season 2 episode 2)). For tantrums or meltdowns: the bridge scene and the fun house scene can be seen as a meltdown but more of an outburst of violence, he lashes out at a man in church after Bruce rejects his offer (stating his has a hard time dealing with rejection (season 2 episode 2)), etc. • Inappropriate laughing or giggling – this is shown a lot in season 1 and season 2. When John is talking (apart from some situations), he will automatically start laughing or giggling, but he has stated (in season 2 episode 4) that he laughs when he’s nervous, though we are not sure if this is a lie or not. All throughout the villain ending (season 2 episode 5), he is constantly laughing. On the vigilante ending (season 2 episode 5), he also randomly laughs or giggles when he’s talking to someone or himself. • No real fears of danger – this is shown in season 1 and mostly in season 2. In season 1: he cuts Zsasz’s face even though he knows he has outbursts of violence (episode 4), John is unfazed when there is a riot going on in front of him in Arkham asylum while workers and patients are getting killed all around him (episode 5). He randomly drinks a drink when he’s threatened by a cop with a gun pointed at him (episode 5). In season 2: he starts laughing when he’s threatened by Willy with a knife pointed at him (episode 2), he doesn’t seem fazed when Tiffany points a tazor gun at him or when he gets shot with the tazor gun for that matter (episode 2), he runs into the lower floor of Riddler’s hide out (out of curiosity) even while knowing the place is a death trap (episode 3), he jumps onto a roof ledge just to stand with Batman (episode 3), he stands there smiling when the secret lab was about to insinuate them (episode 4), he looks around the corner when a machine gun was firing at them (episode 4), he hits Bane/Mr Freeze (possibly the strongest people out of the pact) with a gun/pole/batarang when Bane/Mr Freeze tries to kill Bruce (episode 4), he blows up the bridge even though he is still on it (episode 4), he leans and falls off the ledge of the bridge backwards (episode 4). On the villain ending (episode 5), john is unfazed by Bruce/batman threatening him, or when he fights him. On the vigilante ending (episode 5), john (and batman) fight bane who was the strongest in the pact. • may “day dream” or “zone out” when overstimulated – the best example to show of this symptom is on the villain ending (season 2 episode 5), when john asks batman what he thinks Harley would do if she found out about him giving the map to Jim Gordon, whatever batman answers with, john turns around and seems to zone out asking “what do you think that means, Dr Leland?” and answers with “uhh it makes me feel uncomfortable when you put it that way Dr Leland”. Psychosocial Symptoms: • Social isolation – he was in Arkham asylum for an unknown period of time (Dr Leland stated “John has been with us for quite some time”) (season 1 episode 4) • Lowered self-confidence – during the interrogation scene (in season 2 episode 3), John says that he did try to stick up for Bruce (“internally”) but said “I’m sorry, I’m not as strong as you” • Difficulties with social interactions – as stated before, John struggles to start a conversation with the likes of Bane and Harley (though this could be the fault of Bane and Harley) • Depression – after being punched and left by Harley, John enters a stage of depression while drinking an unknown amount of alcohol (from what I can see, I would say that he drank at least six bottles of beer), he also shouts comments like “I don’t want to do this anymore, not for you, not for her, certainly not for Gotham. I don’t care!”, “I’m John Doe, the lonely hearts club”, “you’ve got some real nerve you know that, buddy. Remember at the café (just be yourself John/just manipulate her John), then I stuck my neck out for you, way out! Bane nearly ripped my head off. And for what? Her flew the cope, and I have nothing. You steered me wrong, at every turn” and “I don’t want to find her. My heart can take another kicking. I don’t ever want to see her again, she ruined me, I-I can’t.” (season 2 episode 4) • Moodiness – John does have a lot of mood swings and outbursts of anger as stated in the previous symptoms, this mainly happens when someone rejects him or disagrees with him. • Troubled romantic relationships – in the villain ending (season 2 episode 5), john and Harley’s relationship seems to be a pretty stable one, until Harley finds out that john gave away the map or john stops Harley from killing Bruce, then she proceeds to try and strangle john while saying “I’ll kill you”. John also runs away leaving Harley behind with Bruce (batman) and Selina (cat woman), while Harley says “I’ll kill him” again. • Lowered self-esteem – (in season 2 episode 3), when Bruce asks why john has green hair, john aggressively said “I don’t know what’s with your black hair?” and then states “I’m sorry buddy I’m a little sensitive about my style”. Harley also states (in season 2 episode 4) “keep it with ya brucie, I can’t afford any more mishaps” while looking at john, who looks down with a sad looking face. • Feelings of being “unlike” his or her peers – in the vigilante ending (season 2 episode 5), john believes that he’s a hero above all else, apart from batman (at times). For example, when Waller says “think whatever you want, you will never be a hero”, john becomes extremely angry and shouts back “How. Dare. You. Your worse than me! That makes me the hero! And this is what hero’s do to Gotham!” The symptoms I don’t think he has is: behavioural symptoms: • Lack of interpersonal relationship skills and instincts • Inability to express one’s own feelings • May not make eye contact or may stare at others • Not pick up on social cues and may lack inborn social skills, such as being able to read others' body language, start or maintain a conversation, and take turns talking • Have a formal style of speaking that is advanced for his or her age. For example, the child may use the word "beckon" instead of "call" or the word "return" instead of "come back." • may be extremely literal or have difficulty understanding the nuances of language, despite having a good vocabulary physical symptoms: • Heightened sensitivity and overstimulation to loud noises, bright lights, unusual textures, or strong tastes • Poor coordination • Clumsiness • Poor fine motor skills • Difficulties using gross motor skills Cognitive symptoms: • Difficulties with changes or upsets in routine • Difficulties picking up on the subtle changes in tone, pitch, and voice that accompany regular conversation • May be unable to understand sarcasm or jokes • Poor organizational skills • difficulty making friends of the same age, children with AS may feel more comfortable with adults or much younger children psychological symptoms: • Difficulty making and keeping friends • Challenges in finding and maintaining steady employment • Anxiety • Tendency toward shyness

Of course I am not a doctor, I can’t diagnose this, but there was a lot of evidence so I decided to check it out, and no I’m not saying that john is autistic just because I’m autistic, that’s just weird and very very low. If anyone finds anymore evidence or any other symptoms, let me know and I will add/edit it. (also, I am not too sure if some of these symptoms are in the correct categories (cognitive, behavioural, etc) if they are, please do not hesitate to tell me and I will correct it). This post is not making fun of autism or any mental disorders, this is just a theory that I created to see if it was correct or not (I would never make fun of any mental disorder) comment down below if you agree or disagree with me my laugh sounds really similar to johns/jokers laugh and I don't know whether to find that amusing or worrying Well that’s it from me bye

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god i agree wholeheartedly like. claptrap is absolutely autistic in my mind (so are.. quite a few borderlands characters actually, but thats besides the point) cv is my favourite dlc (tho i do love dragon keep as well) and it has SO many good things and really shows claptrap as absolutely one of the most compelling characters in the games (if bl2 didnt treat him so much like garbage anyway) like just.. hes such a good person esp by pandora standards. pt 1 (thats right im going Off On One here)

Yeah, like …. CV really does make Claptrap one of the most compelling characters in the game just by filling in a few things. CV makes me like, absolutely sick with emotion, but… it’s a good quality, like… if you feel any sympathy for Claptrap at all CV is the kind of thing that will just wrench your gut apart. I think it’s also noteably one of the few times we have trauma that Claptrap experiences taken a bit more seriously by the Borderlands series? Like, in BL2 he honestly goes through a lot but it’s all jokes (tho for me defeating Flynt was seriously satisfying bc I found that pretty like… upsetting?)Yeah, and man, speaking of Pickle, there’s a series of echologs (which maybe ur referencing) where he like… talks to Pickle and you can tell the way he talks about Pickle he’s trying to comfort him (just by how Pickle talks about what Claptrap has been saying, and at some point Pickle says ‘Claptrap said he’d give a message to my family how’s he going to do that’ and it’s hard to like. know whether that’s just something Claptrap said to Pickle to make him feel better, or if Claptrap said that because he was seriously thinking about dying)Honestly, by BL standards, Claptrap is no contest one of the best people in the game. Biggest fear is other people’s loneliness? God. Stop it Claptrap, you’re too good, and you’re hurting me. (and like, even though he’s totally brainwashed and unable to disagree, we see him kind of protest the most re: felicity and like… i mean really, claptrap is the only one who doesn’t have the option -not- to be there in BLTPS so we see he has a lot of guilt over this)Dude, when I talk about Claptrap being abused by Jack, and Flynt (which he narratively…. just IS) some people laugh but Claptrap is. canonically. a bitter abuse survivor, in a multitude of ways like… so much of Claptrap’s narrative is just him being horribly abused by the world around him, and i mean…. even Hammerlock notes this survivor like quality of his in CV ‘you’re a fighter’.The thing is, and this is a gripe I have, we see in BLTPS that Janey and Athena are actually fond of Claptrap, and Athena actually asks for forgiveness from Claptrap (which. honestly he would be absolutely right to refuse her considering), but like. he forgives her quickly, and like…But then TFTBL arrives and Janey and Athena act like they hate him? Dude, I love Athena she’s one of my favourites, but she absolutely did something awful to Claptrap by like agreeing to go in his mind and like, participating in the genocide of all Claptraps essentially. Like. Athena, you did something really awful to Claptrap, it’s not even fair of you to act like that towards him. I think TFTBL is actually much better than the rest of the Borderlands series in how it handles its AI narrative (it’s so good about gortys and lb’s personhood) but then we have like… everyone, heck, the people who should be -nicest- to claptrap, acting like they hate him.And honestly, I’d say your hc about trust issues is p much like canon. We can even see in BLTPS he’s started to develop trust issues. Despite Janey only ever being nice to him, he has narrations like… (paraphrased) ‘when Janey looks at me the smile doesn’t quite reach her eyes’, like. he’s… not good at reading people, and he KNOWS he’s not good at reading people, and this makes him more self conscious / untrusting of people’s good intentions. and then of course, the end of CV just cements any developing trust issues in the absolute worst way possible, because while he might have been trying to fight that gut feeling with optimism and believing in people, they twist the knife in an absolutely brutal way.Claptrap could’ve gotten rid of anyone who ever hurt him, and he didn’t, because they were his ‘friends’. And then they tried to kill him.I worry about BL3 too, because at first i was like ‘god in bl3 jsut let someone be nice to claptrap’ but then someone pointed out to me that bltps kind of did that with janey, and its like…………… plz let someone be nice to claptrap -consistently-. please give him a proper friend who actually likes him. because narratively, what they do with claptrap really hurts. sometimes I worry they’ll kill him in bl3, but I think the one thing that alleviates this fear is that he’s the series mascot…I’m still worried about what they’ll do with him though. Please. If he doesn’t have a friend at least give us the option to be nice to him

#im going to bed for the night but if u send me something ill respond to it later too #neurodivergentmorby #replies

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POWER RANGERS SPOILERS

massive spoilers below. a list of the things that i loved about the movie. kind of long post

IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER LET’S GO

- flashback scene:  zordon just helplessly watching the yellow ranger die

- “seek those who are worthy”

-“we could have ruled together!” “that was never going to happen.” “so be it. you’ll die.” “we’ll die together, rita.”

-tHE COW’S MALE FUCKERS

-jason has abysmal driving skills

-”like you said. never going to understand each other.”

- “beefy and i have a connection.”

-kIMBERLY MY QUEEN

-she just walked right past jason

-detention guys calling jason out “you sure you’re in the right class, scott?”

-bILLY BILLY BILLY

-‘‘did you just slap me?” “i did. weird, right?”

-jASON SCOTT SASS MASTER

-kimberly “i need to go to the ladies room” hart

-they cut her out of the photo right there and sTUCK IT TO THE WALL WITH SCISSORS WHAT THE FUCK

-kim coming back from the restroom with her hair cut like a bamf

-the look jason gives her

-billy asking jason to come hang out

- “billy crams-a-ton”

-jason freaking tf out abt his ankle monitor and billy just calm af

-jason hugging billy and billy going “don’t touch me”

- autistic people rule

-aND HERE WE HAVE ZACK THE COOLEST ASS BAMF YOU WILL EVER SEE

-on the roof. a fire on the ground. observing trini through binoculars. calling her “crazy girl”

-jason freaking out when kimberly dives and doesn’t emerge

-the entire van conversation between kim and jason

-”dad, i’ll make you proud”

-the explosion

-zack, billy, kim and jason just standing there like “shit what did u do”

-tRINI

-“hey, this is a restricted area! you shouldn’t be here!” “oh yeah, einstein? we shouldn’t be blowing things up either, now should we?”

- how the fuck did you think her name was deedee

-then trini calls him something like “trailer park boy”

-the entire cliffside just collapsing

-zack immediately taking the pickaxe and hacking the coins out of the ice “how much do you think this is worth?” like i feel him hes struggling with money???

-the way he says “security” like he knows it all too well and probably curses under his breath

-billy and jason getting into the car “wait what about the others”

-alternatively “where’s the other guy?” pause. “JUST GO”

-all shrieking when zack lands on top of the car and sticks his head upside down

-”are you crazy?” “yeah, i am.”

-*billy drives towards train* jason: you’re gonna make it! zack: yeah, dude, we’re gonna make it! trini: i don’t know if he’s gonna make it! kim: he’s not gonna make it!

-kIM CRUSHING HER PHONE

- “im just going to quietly snap your wrist, you little bitch” like fuck off asshole

- wrist turns out to be unsnappable

- “billy cranston just knocked [bully’s name] out cold! holy shit, cranston!”

- billy holding court to his many admirers

- “billy is awesome”

- the mean girls literally get sprayed with soda or shit

-zACK AND HIS MOM??? SPEAK MANDARIN?? LITERALLY BETTER THAN MY MANDARIN?? THEYRE SO PURE??? HE IS THE BEST OK??? DESERVES SO MUCH LOVE??? MY SMOL SON????

- three of them seeing zack “your name’s zack, right?” “yeah”

- “you still go to angel grove?” laughing. “sometimes!”

- trini scrambling up the cliffside like spider man

- “try to keep up”

- tRINI JUST JUMPING ACROSS THE CLIFF

- “girl, you’re crazy! but so am i!”

- *holds her ankle* “ive got her” *kicks zack off* “don’t touch me”

- “tHAT IS NOT A PIECE OF CAKE”

- dancing and then toppling backwards

- “did we just kill the dude?”

- zack jumping off with absolutely no hesitation whatever

- “sorry for what?” “this.”

- black and blue joke

- trini falls on top of zack. zack: “hi” trini: “aGAIN”

- “holy sh-” “sHHH”

- “we’re gonna be famous”

- “any questions?” “nope. nope, i’m good.”

- the pit

- “it’s just a hologram, like a video game” nuh uh

- scratching lines into the wall for every day

- trini getting zack in a chokehold qUEEN

- triNI AND KIM AT KRISPY KREME

- “come on zack, let’s go.” “yeah. let’s go.” that camera angle is perfect you can literally see his damn smile and the way his eyes shine

- dAT FACE THO

- jason and zack punching each other in the face

- tbh they have a lot of wasted “bro” potential

- billy trying to separate them and then morphing

- SCREW YOUR AGENDA ZORDON

- the campfire scene i cried no joke

- doing impressions of zordon

- “MY MOM IS THE BEST”

- not afraid to admit that he’s scared, and that he loves his mom

- trini and zack form the beanie squad

- “boyfriend problems?” “yeah, boyfriend problems.” “...girlfriend problems?”

- “are we friends, or are we power rangers?”

- rita and trini

- “i killed yellow once.”

- “deedee my friend”

keeping it brief bc its getting way too long

- rita is terrifying. literally. no joke.

- g o l d

- “you did an awful thing. doesn’t make you an awful person.”

- tHEY DIDN’T KISS I’M SO HAPPY

- trini “rita visited me” kwan

- you can legit see everyone thinking “im going to kill rita”

- the way each of them raise their hands

- “eeny, meeny, miny, moe... blue”

- “you can tell me now, or you can tell me after i kill all your friends. let’s start with black.”

- zack shakes his head

- ‘krispy kreme. it’s at krispy kreme.”

- i LITERALLY THOUGHT BILLY WAS GOING TO COME BACK TO LIFE LIKE CHOKING UP THE WATER BUT HE DIDN’T OH MY GOD

- you can see how each one of them deals with grief

- they carry him all the way back

- all of them agreeing that they’d give their lives for his

- “only one can return”

- jason hugging billy like he’ll never let go

- tHEY MORPHED

- their fighting tho

- zack jumping off the cliff still fighting a putty in order to get his zord

-the way all the gold cuts through the ground to make goldar

- “that’s a lot of gold.”

- everyone in their zords

- go go power rangers playing as they run into battle goddamn

- “how cute. the rangers found their costumes and their dino cars.”

- kim saving jason’s ass

- “sorry bumblebee!” i DIED

- trini jumping right on top of goldar

- “THAT’S NOT KRISPY KREME! FIND KRISPY KREME!”

- *dropping billy on top of goldar*

- “is it over?” heartbreakingly hopeful

- “she’s back.”

- “hold the line!”

- trini screaming down the channel “zack, stay with me!”

- “no one dies alone.”

- then they disappear in fire.

- and rise again.

- rita merging herself with goldar and they’re all too confused to do anything

- “i got the leg!” “oh, you got the leg too? hi five!”

- “oh, i wish i could punch!” *kicks goldar*

- “remember the pit?” “oh, i hated the pit.”

- trini “bring it on” kwan

- “kim! swords!”

- “duck, grab, lift!” 

- “whatever zordon says, i know i am worthy!”

- getting bitch slapped into space

- “did you just slap her?” “i did. weird, right?”

- “told you we were gonna be famous”

- making the megazord dance

- “what about yellow?” “yeah, yellow! he’s cool too!” “how do you know it’s a he?”

-kim pasting that photo of all of them laughing that pic is pure ok look at them

- zack playing chess with his mom “帅吗？” literally asking whether they were handsome and his mom checkmates him then hi fives him god i love them

- “deedee!” “mom, it’s trini!”

- trini and zack show up at angel grove for possibly the first time

-zack sitting on a backward facing chair

-flicking papers at each other

- iTS A LIGHTNING BOLT SHADED WITH THEIR COLOURS

- i love them all.

-tOMMY OLIVER

- ships: jason/kim, jason/billy, zack w everyone, my hetero ass ships trini and zack but my gay ass ships kim and trini

summary: this movie is possibly the best thing to happen to me. amazing. i love it and my children. go watch it. it will bless your soul.

#nat reviews movies #power rangers #power rangers 2017 #power rangers movie

[triplemixedpd]

8/12/20, 1:34am - i wouldnt dare

~text or tell anybody about my new life because at the moment, it consists of things like indulging in squishmallows and fidget toys, and the highlights of my week are either creating/redesigning a new oc or doing chores ~i dont have a job, i dont have a drivers license, but wow i dont even have a personality; literally how the fuck can i talk to anybody else when i dont know how to talk to them??? i hesitate to talk because when i texted danny to try and catch up and tell them about my surgery, i got screamed at and cried at, and then told “i cant do this; i need to sit in the back seat for a bit.” and, i got this reaction for.. doing nothing. literally, nothing. she told me that she thought i was mad at her the entire two months. but, i was texting anna??? they knew i wasnt dead??? and i texted danny on 6/23??? im, sorry??? im sorry ~dude i wish i literally wasnt so blatantly autistic. ~i cant process emotions when i desperately need to, i struggle to understand what i do wrong, i seem to do or say something wrong, or i say something that seems worrying, or just different, to others; i laugh at stupid and repetitive shit, i eat fucking childrens food, i repeat things like im fucking rain man, and im a fucking EMBARRASSMENT!!!  ~i feel like ive disconnected from reality and people as a whole, bc for the past few months ive just delved into my partner, me, our mental health, and our trolls.   ~but at the same time, its nothing new; this isnt new day-to-day conversation. it just happens to be all day, everyday now, in person- something that ive never had with capp before. as opposed to only getting to text them while also juggling everything else; school, family, schoolwork, mental health ~dude, being fake is hard ~ive realized just how fake i am because i dont remember how to talk to anyone else, and seeing how graant reacted just by me trying to literally text them “how are you doing? i miss you!”, im kind of fucking like??? “well??? guess i shouldve just stayed dead honestly???” ~a lot of my day to day consists of thinking/talking about our ocs and plot, drawing, watching shows/movies and playing games, and literally just trying to fucking stay afloat; that last past including a lot of abrupt, sudden suicidal thoughts and crippling fucking self-esteem, paired with hypersensitivity. that is not me being “boohoo poor me sensitive baby :(”, that is the textbook description of what i experience. thats not exactly conversation material with others ~because of melissas reaction and dannys reaction ive felt very unsure of myself  - im unsure if i did the right thing or not  - i dont know what i shouldve done differently, or where i messed up  - i feel like a terrible person, an awful person  - im upset at myself because i get really really confused by people and their expectations, or what they want me to say or do;  - i wonder if im currently displaying the textbook definition of the borderline symptom “impulsive ending relationships”  - and subsequently, im wondering if im thinking rationally; its kind of scary to not know, because i hate myself when im fucking splitting* ~i see that theyre upset, and from experience, i know that they require alone time when stressed. so when theyre stressed, and im the source of the stress, i leave to give her space. and what does THAT equal??? “YOU NEVER TAKE INITIATIVE TO MAKE THINGS UP” “I’M TIRED OF BEING THE ONE THAT FIXES EVERYTHING” ~WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN “TELL THEM WHATS GOING ON IN MY HEAD?????” ~I WAS LITERALLY TERRIFIED TO REACH OUT TO ANYONE??? WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY????? “GOOD MORNING DANNY I JUST SUDDENLY WANTED TO SLIT MY CHEST BECAUSE I SAID SOMETHING STUPID IN A THROWAWAY CONVERSATION AND IT EARNED A SLIGHT CHANGE OF TONE FROM MY PARTNER THAT I INTERPRETED AS AN ‘I HATE YOU’ VIBE [WHEN THATS ACTUALLY NOT THE CASE ITS JUST ALL IN MY DUMBASS INFERIORCOMPLEX-HEADASS HEAD]”???????? ~IT’S A LITERAL SCIENTIFIC FACT THAT ME AND ALL OF MY BAGGAGE IS A FUCKING BURDEN!!! I CANT ENTERTAIN, CONVERSATE, OR FUNCTION WHEN IM EXHAUSTED, AND RECENTLY??? MY BRAIN IS MAKING ME SO SO TIRED ~BUT MY PARTNER DOESNT JUDGE ME OR MIND MY RAMBLINGS ABOUT TROLLS OR MY REPETITIVENESS OR FIDGETING GODDAMN IT!! I DONT HAVE TO HOLD BACK OR WATCH WHAT I SAY LIKE HOW I DID EVERYDAY IN TEXAS!!! ~I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT I DID WRONG!!! ~”IM SORRY THAT I WAS SO EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE AND, DARE I SAY, MENTALLY ILL, THAT I NEGLECTED TO MESSAGE YOU AND TALK”

“I! CAN’T! DO! THIS! ANY! MORE!”

 - *either too cruel or too nice, too aggressive or too passive, too rough or too soft, im too sensitive/serious or “i need to learn to take a joke”, im either a disrespectful and ungrateful brat or the best goddamn trophy-tranny kid on the planet, i either really REALLY love someone or think “oh my god im gonna have to prepare to cut them out of my life so much that its already happened in my head”  ~im scared that maybe im worse than i think i am, and i just dont know it; ive never told anyone the full extent of my symptoms. i guess thats why im seeing a psychologist, right?

[fe14fiction-blog]

hi, mod lilith! :D do you think you could make a post listing the matchup requests you've gotten and will do? just so we know if you've received ours! it can be a hassle though, so please don't feel pressured to >

hi! could i have a matchup? im a gay boy and id like an awakening match please c: im very kind and i like being and caregiver to people. im really shy though, and it kind take time for me to open up. when i do open up however, im very loud and carefree and i like cracking jokes and messing around. i love singing and i have an interest in rapping and song writing, but im also an artist. i work very hard and i can get very serious and competitive. im also really sensitive and i cry alot and easily        

I'm 19, male, and straight. INFP and Sagittarius. On the bigger and taller side too. I'm mostly interested in gaming and anime, but I also read quite a number of books. I enjoy debating philosophy and religion, but to be frank, I'll debate anything that I can debate. Personality-wise, I have two outward expressions: stoic and emotionless, and smug half grin. I'm usually pretty antisocial, but I like the company of like-minded people. Basically, those I can battle my wits against, and vice versa. A bit follow up, as I ran out of room. I'd prefer a character from Fates, please. And don't let my profile picture make you feel biased towards Soleil. I just like the picture itself. I wish you luck with these, and I thank you for offering to do them! Keep posting all the great content! Good night for now!    

Hi!! Could I get a matchup please, if the mini event is still happening? I was thinking Awakening characters, and I prefer guys. I am an Aquarius and infp; I like people who are very protective, and usually calmer/level headed. I enjoy people who make me feel significant and treat me fairly, and with plenty of attention. Thank you!                

Could I have a match for Fates, specifically Conquest; preferably a male character? I'm a shy person around people I don't know; yet I don't show it too much as I feel I need to force myself to be out there to make others feel comfortable. I have a short temper and am a very sarcastic person by nature. I take things seriously if needed but tend to like to be the one cracking jokes to ease serious tension. I get nervous often in public situations etc. I enjoy reading and writing, I'm an Aries!      

Could I get awakening male match up? I'm a girl, pretty chill. I'm not the most outwardly social but I like talking to people more one on one and having kind of long conversations to really get to know someone. I do have depression though, and sometimes get days where it's bad, so basically just anyone caring and sweet is what I'd look for, but I'm okay with whatever. Thank you!!!!!!!!!                

May I have an Awakening matchup? I'm a female looking for a male. Logically minded, but creative. I like cooking and playing video games and I spend a lot of time taking care of my siblings to help my parents out. Also ridden with anxiety and ADHD, but I work through that by working out (I'm in the gym three times a week). Total cat lady. Happiest when I'm alone, but I dearly love my small circle of friends. Also, if it helps, I'm an INTP and Aquarius. Thank you!

For Match-Up; From the Awakening men, please! As for the person to be matched, he is kind and gentle with a soft, warm smile. Patience and optimism are his strongest points being he is never known to lose heart or give up. He does tend to lose track of his own health due to his diligence in his duties though. His mind is sharp however, and often used to devise new and clever approaches to things. He is also a Mage. ISFP-type personality, falling under the Lawful Good morality.                  

Sorry if I'm sending this through via the wrong method! I'd like to give your match-ups a try (if that's okay) Game: Fates (I don't care which path) MBTI: INTJ (more turbulent) Astrological Sign: Cancer What I like personality wise: • Someone that I can discuss intellectual (especially history-related things) with • Able to comfort/chill someone out • More "mature" (stoic is even okay) • Determined in one way or another • Doesn't mind cats • Does well with a busy partner • Is a guy Thanks! 😸Oh geez, it didn't occur to me that you wanted more info on us as opposed to what we like in relationships. Terribly sorry! It's probably too late, but here's some info on myself (I submitted my request prior to the deadline, but if it was too little info.  too late, I totally understand) I'm quite the worry wart use ten words when two would do honestly. I'm a major "dilettante", I dabble in many things but have mastered none. I don't handle extreme emotions all that well. Sorry, and thanks!                            

I'd like a match up for an awakening character please. No second gens though and preferably a guy. I'm a girl who likes art, reading, and crafting. I have an INFP personality type and I'm a Leo. I tend to keep to myself mostly so someone else would have to initiate conversation. I love animals but I hate bugs. My favorite genre to read is adventure because I find my real life about as interesting as a stale corn chip. True to my zodiac sign my pride is everything to me.                        

id like an Awakening matchup! Second gen is fine! im 5'8, pan, virgo, INFJ girl with long af brown hair and freckles around my nose and cheeks. im reserved when you first talk to me and its hard for me to really trust people sometimes even if im already close with them. i also make self deprecating jokes to cope w not liking myself a whole lot. im pretty spacey too and i have a hard time remembering stuff. i draw a lot digitally and traditionally and i write sometimes too. thanks in advance!                    

Hi~ I'd like to request a matchup please! Game: Conquest (all the guys I want to marry are in Nohr oops). Please skip the 2nd gen. Personality: Pisces, INFP, Gryffindor. Easygoing, affable, humourous, thoughtful, observent, affectionate, ambivert, shy but doing my best to put myself out there, introspective, openminded, I've been told I come across as mysterious and intense by people I don't know well. Preference: open/fair minded, loves to learn and travel, even a little romantic/affectionate.         

fates matchup please? 😁 i'm a straight entj girl. i'm an outgoing person and take up a lot of leadership roles, e.g. i’m stuco president. i'm a little shy around people at first but i open up quickly. people say that i'm funny and smart, although i am a little mean and a perfectionist... i'm also actually wildly insecure lmao... i also love reading and writing. i don’t enjoy sports but i like volleyball! going out is fun but i can't be around people for too long and like alone time. thank you!  

May I please have match up for a male Fates character! Thank you! You're a doll for doin this! I'm generally a calm, if a bit moody kind of girl who adores cute things and nature! I always aim to please and I act sweet and innocent when really I'm only pretending so that people will like me. In reality I'm much more down to Earth and lonely and can care way to deeply about keeping up appearances when all I really want is for someone to look past my façade.

Can I get an Awakening Match-up please? Female, 5'9", strawberry blonde hair and grey eyes, INTP. Looking for a guy who's more of a sweetheart and would never raise his voice to me, long hair is preferred. I need someone who will be strong for me when I can't, and enjoys being showered with affection in return. I enjoy reading, drawing, and cooking. Please no second gen characters. Thanks a bunch!

Please could I ask a match with somebody from awakening. I do not mind which gender you choose. I'm a happy, bit cheeky, kind and caring person, it takes awhile for me to get angry and I will show sympathy to people who needs it. I like other people showing kindness to others and being friendly. I am a Taraus and I own Awakening, Birthright and Revelation      

I'm a Taurus whom has a love for food, music, and poetry, tries to keep things orderly in his life for the most part, and yet also loves to flatter those whom I love with compliments and gifts. No gender preference, Fates character.  

fates matchup? male please!! i'm an infp gemini,, i'm p outgoing and try to make friends w everyone (which can also be a bad thing bc rejection is the Worst) but i love making people laugh most of all!! i play sports solely for the team aspect (soccer n softball) so i'm also p athletic. but i also do love to write and am v easy-going!! thank u v much for doing these!  

Matchup for Fates! I'm an ace girl with romantic interest in everyone, 21 and only 5'3" and I'm kinda shy due to being Autistic. I love horses and archery though, with more interest in writing and drawing. I'm a Cancer, and my favorite time of day os the mid afternoon. I used to be a sport swimmer and diver, but now I enjoy the pool for fun. I can be a little overprotective of those I care for when new people come around as well!    

fates/conquest, preference male (anyone BUT Leo, Xander & Laslow), cancer & INFJ Tiny, quiet girl. Doesn't like war or fighting and just wants to make her friends and everyone around her happy. Enjoys music and can play almost every string instrument (except the viola) including the piano. She's very timid yet enjoys talking, especially about different lands and myths. She's kind of sick though and has medical issues that affect her ability to go out a lot. Has no preference for males.           

Match-up please! I'm a male who enjoys creative writing, animals, baking, fashion, and nature. I'm playful and tend to tease those who I'm close to. I'm pretty nerdy and I'm scared pretty easily. I also love terrible puns. I'm a Gemini, and I'd prefer a female from Fates! Children are fine, too!      

  Hi I'm hoping the matchup are still open, thank you for this!! I'd like someone from awakening and preferably one of the dudes pls :) I'm an istp, gryffindor and a Scorpio, I've been told I'm a bit intimidating as well as bold and a bit blunt, but also funny. I prefer to hang out with people who are honest and have integrity, people who start shit for no reason piss me off to no end. It doesn't matter if I don't share similar interests with people so long as we get along and have a good time c:  No Kid Characters      

For matchup I'd prefer Fates Second Gen characters except for anyone younger than Kiragi, I have no preference for Gender or Personality. As for my personality I'm a very lazy hermit who likes literature and I have a good memory. I can be shy and my mood changes a lot between pessimistic and optimistic. I'm also someone who likes to try new things a lot as long as it doesn't require much of physical activities. I also get lost a lot in my thoughts.      

Matchup if still open! I'm five foot 3 and INTP in personality. i don't mind either BR or CQ guys. I'm somewhat distant at first glance. I'm kinda moody and irrational, but try to hide that with jokes and silliness. I'm a pessimist at heart. Very picky about things too, whether it be food, clothes, friends, etc..   

Can I have an Awakening matchup? I'm a bisexual ESTJ 5'1 1/2" Pisces girl with too many things to say. I've been told my best traits were my charisma, imagination, consideration, and articulation but that I was stubborn and feisty and I can't be intimidating due to my height. I love engineering, history, and hands-on projects and people say I can never stop smiling. To my s/o I can offer comfort, humor, and perspective. They'd just have to deal with my strange sense of humor, unorthodox way to do things, and when I'm mad, a sharp tongue. But after any fights if I'm not blinded by my own stubbornness, I'll be the one to give in and ask for forgiveness. In the relationship I need someone as willing to hold it up and be a part of it as I am.                                                    

#match up event #y'all so lucky I copied them to a doc as I got them to keep them sorted for myself #Anonymous