#i mean okay ill do my best

[green-ghost6]

Tyler Joseph telling us to stay alive and keep fighting till they come back on the next tour has been the only thought in my head since the concert last night

#like #bro #i mean okay ill do my best #yes sir 🫡 #whatever you say #all seriousness though i had such a good time #twenty one pilots concerts will always be one of my favourite things in the world #theyre so fun and comfy and chaotic and emotional and #idk man ive been listening to this band for like what? eight? years?? #idk i started right before blurryface came out #and i just #ill never get over them i think #they helped younger me so so so much #and the LORE #they alllllways pull me back in with the fucking lore #i need to stop writing parapgraphs in the tags of sentence long posts holy shit

[a-mongooose]

okay i pull up (at a reasonable hour) hope you enjoy my absolutely garbage (god tier) shitposting. ! there will probably be more    ! :) also im so sorry that Lord and Savior Wally Franks isnt in this post, i promise im drawing stuff for him . Hes the best one, after all.  in the meantime, though, enjoy my silly designs of the characters! yipee!!! 

#bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #batdr #batim #batim boris #joey batim #allison batim #sammy lawrence #YALL. #THE LAST POST GOT 1K NOTES????? THANK YOU SO MUCH THAT IS UNREAL?????????? #SERIOUSLY MEANS SO MUCH AGH #<333333333333333333333333333333 #GUH!!!1 okay #i said id do some of the JDS crew designs so here they are...in shitpost form #:p #because its what i do best #they were a lot funnier in my head tbh #maybe theyre still funny idk i just work here #ill try to prevent the tags from going off the deep end this time <3 just 4 u

[bunnyreaper]

PLS PLS IM BEGGING UPDATE COLLARS AND CAGES PLSSSSSS IM GONNA CRY THE CLIFFHANGER OF CHAPTER 4 PLSSS UPDATE IT

no

#okay but seriously #im sure you didnt mean to be rude #but im genuinely struggling so much with my physical and mental health #i can barely use my right hand at all #and some days i push myself through to try and write and you know what?? #it makes my wrist worse #and yet every day i sit with this guilt and pain bcs im not doing enough #not writing enough #not good enough #and its not like i have my usual outlets to relieve stress #so yeah #ill update at some point i promise #its coming #but i literally struggle to physically type because i have one hand and one finger #and then wrist pain #and shoulder pain #and i was just SICK #like im trying my best i swear <3

[eyelessfog]

They're not doing too bad, all things considered

#luriart #parasite au #sorry i um. okay i CAN explain what this means but also no i cant. ask me and ill do my best. gbless #nosy neighbors #pearlescentmoon #bigbstatz #bigbst4tz #limited life smp #limlsmp #lilsmp

[lightbulb-warning]

this is getting ridiculous there's so much stuff i wanna draw i need to clone myself immediately

#what do you mean i can barely stand up??? no that was me an hour ago im completely fine now and also am capable of drawing 70 things rn #<- I WISH #genuinely just talking at myself here #okay!! plan time: homework is 7 pages +dialogue. i sketched the rough layouts out already and i my teacher gave me the okay to do it digita #i don't think she realized she gave me the okay tbh? but i asked her twice and she said yes so no takebacksies!!! #i have a timer that only does 55 minutes. in 55 minutes can i rough out at least 3 better pencils? ill find out! #i should start with the ending because that's 1 birds eye view like three times and a car that explodes and a bunch of close ups so ez pz #i just gotta figure out one car perspective im giving myself 55 minutes for the car #lineart is gonna be a pain but when isnt it :') #hey did you know there's an entire ship month prompt list??? im seething that's such a dumb idea i wanna do it so baaaaad #whatever #ill figure it out #that's part one of getting boring shit i need to do done!! part two should be easier bc its just hospitals and the draft is already p detai #ok ok ok i can do this #the essay is an essay and the essay is getting fucked i will do it at GUNPOINT #aaaaa #shut up maiora #p.s. edit: i did some of it and ended up doing a completely different plan. sigh sigh oh well im doing my best

[nerosdayinanime]

"Im worried what people would think of you then, that you're just a personal whore or something- i don't want to ruin your reputation.."

"Are you kidding? 'My dick was so good i got promoted-' Thats the biggest flex i can think of!"

"Well, you're certaintly enthusiastic about this."

#ive been thinking of the au from @planethoneybee's tags in that writing prompts post #on the topic of giyuu wanting sabito to have political power in case something happens or someone tries to pull shit- #him & shinobu debating the pros and cons of giving him title of concubine before giyuu brings up the social aspect #so shino calls sab in to get his thoughts on the matter directly and it made me laugh #another bit w sanemi- theyre at a meeting talking abt finances and theyre talking of cutting sanemi's beetle funding- #G: i can pay for it /Sane: what? /G: keep as much funding to the project as possible- i'll finance the rest of it out of my #own allowance. that works doesnt it? /Shino: i suppose. ..but you'd do that for beetles? /G: i see importance in it. /Shino: very well- #sanemi doesnt thank him or even mention it but he definitly looks at giyuu differently after that- he used his own shit to keep #the project going full blast? damn. he did that for sanemi's beetles. man. #somethn somethn giyuu bringing up the idea for shinobu to have a personal guard(/helper) as well #shinobu 'i know what you are' @ giyuu before he hurriedly explains he doesnt mean get a side hoe hes genuinely just #offering to find her a trusted guard/helper whos sole purpose is to do errands n shit specifically for her 'oh! that sounds nice actually' #'sab has someone in mind for you- says shes one of the best in the forces and a pleasant personality' 'ill see that for myself first' #'okay [thumbs up]' #im imaginging a mix between european kingdoms & east asian/chinese/japanese empires except i dont know shit about either #only thing i vaguely know is theres advisors & like sub-royalty & in traditional japanese more (/complex) layers of clothing = rich/royal #the 'sub royalty' has a name im p sure. i forgor. fuckiinnn. #nope its just not there. oh well. giyuu w the fingerless sleeve-gloves my FUCKING beloved #also vague thought of sabito & mitsuri wearing helmets that utilize their pink hair as fuckin. yk the european knights #w the stupid ponytail thing/romans w the gold helm/red mohawk thing. somethn like that #they wouldnt wear like full Heavy Armor like knights do their fighting styles & w the close-quarters they wouldnt need it #but like for Show at Fancy Pantsy Time theyd dress up similarly #loserboy giyuu posting #loverboy sabito posting #sabigiyuu #of all the shit i have for this au THATS the scene that gets front page. dick joke funniee #(in case its not clear text goes Giyuu-Sabito-Shinobu talking)

[theygender]

Apparently the scene you get with Shadowheart if you get her approval all the way up and then tell her you want to get to spend time with her is the same one you're supposed to get at the tiefling party, which means if you trigger it early you may not get any scene with her at the party at all. This made things pretty confusing when I showed up expecting to advance my romance with her and instead she just gave me some generic "lol wine is good huh" dialogue meanwhile every other companion* BUT her was actively trying to jump my bones... Literally just had to beat everyone else off of my Tav with a stick and then go to bed alone 😔

*Except Lae'zel, who instead went on an unprompted rant about how she knew I wanted to fuck her sooo bad but I had Pissed Her Off by making her be Nice to People so now she would NEVER allow me the pleasure of having crazy hot githyanki sex with her. (She propositioned me a few days later anyways)

#i seem to have accidentally started a romance with lae'zel astarion AND gale in addition to shadowheart 😭 #like the next day i had a notice to talk with astarion and it was the scene where hes talking about not being able to see his reflection #and it was literally like dodging fucking bullets trying to pick an option that wasnt flirting #i ended up having to pick some mean dialogue that was like 'maybe its for the best youre not exactly aging gracefully' #bc the ONLY other two options were like 'tell him you think hes beautiful' and 'gaze lovingly into his eyes' or some shit #and i was like '...okay im picking the mean one but i mean it as a joke. maybe it can be a joke' and i picked it an he was all horrified #but then the next dialogue gave me an option to say 'lol im just kidding' and i was like PHEW #but then he just went back to being fucking flirty again and was like 'really~ well then tell me what you like about me the most' or smth #and i was like FUCK. NO #but then the next dialogue tree in addition to having the normal flirty options had three additional options #that were like 'youre fine. but lae'zel/gale/shadowheart? now theres real beauty' #and i was like. fuckin. OKAY #ill wonder wtf those other two are doing there later but for now ill pick the one where i tell him in interested in shadowheart #so i picked that option and this bitch fucking APPROVED. told me he was going to have to work harder to keep up with his competition #like SIR. what do you MEAN competition. i let you bite me ONE time bc you said you were dying of thirst and i wanted to help a bro out #and then the next morning i immediately told you i didnt like it and i never wanted it to happen again #what do you mean competition dude you arent even on my radar 😭 im a DYKE #and why were lae'zel and gale there as options too?? #the next night i got gales weave scene where he shows my character how to use magic #(my tav was pretty unimpressed as a fellow mage tbh but hes my friend and i was being polite) #and when i clicked the option to clearly say at the end that i was not interested in having an intimate moment with gale #he got all misty eyed and was like 'oh how quickly these moments fade away...' #like bro the moment didnt fade away i politely shut it down on purpose bc im not interested. what are you talking about #and THEN i got lae'zel trying to fuck me and when i turned her down she gave me the exact same dialogue #about how i would miss out on having hot githyanki sex with her. AGAIN #yall im JUST trying to romance shadowheart 😭 leave me alone #if anyone else is gonna try to trap me into flirting with them then at least let it be karlach next time please 😭🙏 #(ill come back for lae'zel on another playthrough bc being between her and shadowheart sounds like a safety hazard tbh) #rambling

[echo-the-ghost]

do y’all have mutuals that like, you wanna send them a love letter that says “we are different, maybe too different to really be friends. but you are valid and incredible and amazing and I want you to be surrounded by all the things that make you happy in life and I hope that you continue to discover new wonderful things” but you’re too damn awkward and maybe that’s too weird anyway so you just mentally send them positive vibes

#because i can think of a couple people #like genuinely i love and care for them (not romantic). but there are certain differences that will always set us too far apart i think #kjldfh this sounds sad but I don't mean it sad!! dkjflkhjf it's hard to explain #echo rambles #edit: okay I keep having anxiety about this post and I wanted to make it clear this wasn't some passive aggressive way of telling anyone #not to message me or anything. this was prompted by seeing posts by this one mutual that I care a lot about but they post stuff I'm very #much not into.. so i assume we are rather incompatible as close friends BUT I still wish them the best #and also them + everyone else are totally free to message me anytime and I will do my best to respond but I'm a mess so ;;;;;;;;;;; #...........................the more I try to explain myself the more mentally ill I sound

[blazersparker]

VENT KIND OF:

I've spent like. All my developmental years in some form of horrible relationship with an adult or another and it's been a year no contact with any of them and I feel decidedly strange . Like there is an empty space somewhere somehow and I should be stressing over something particular but it's not there . Hm

#vent #marbleztalks #i dont like it #i still dont feel like i broke up with my ex honestly #like ? our last talk was just like any other talk #i didnt shout or scream and she acted the same way she always does #always feels like she'll just message me saying im sorry and ill tell her its okay and i know she didnt mean it #and we start talking again #weird weird #i hope she explodes also #best friend told me she posts about pedophillia and grooming awareness on her twt #guhhxhxbvvbb it makes me feel so gross #idk how she can fucking do that after what she did and said and denied vehemently #ok.thats enough #i have to eaattt and study rn

[shdwtouch]

kinda just :/ cuz I have to convince my anxiety I haven't done anything wrong when stuff happens that I don't like. I am the best I can be. I am my most authentic self. if people don't like that... okay then. and if there is something wrong with how I act (entirely possible, I'm human thus far from perfect) and people choose not to let me know ? I can't do anything about that either. there are things that I can't control. it doesn't make me bad. I'm just doing my best with the best intentions I can muster. it's okay. I'm not bad.

anyway. sorry if my ooc posts about myself and shade are annoying. sorry if my rules are long. sorry if I overexplain things. I'm just apologizing for things I worry I do "wrong" but I do mean it. I just. I'm just being myself, and I don't know how to be anything else ? anyway.

#《 ° puffin.exe 》 im a puffin ! i dont do much #° mobile post ! #° to be deleted ! #° personal ! #anyway anyone else with the tism have to convince themselves they arent aliens doing a really bad human impression ? #i constantly worry that im bad. bad at being human. bad at being kind. bad at being myself. #things out of my control suck. but its okay. ill adapt. things change but ill breathe and get past it. #that doesnt mean im bad. and if i am bad and i dont know any better... i need to know better to improve. #im just. doing my best. #aka puffin takes things personally when its not personal tbh

[stellacadente]

hi Nico! I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this, I hope you’ll be okay and can take some time to yourself :( <3

thank youuu silver i really appreciate this!! i'll be okay, shit just isn't Fantastic rn been struggling w this and other stuff so like. it's not easy but i'll be fine i'm trying my best to take care of myself and find peace within myself which is the hardest place to find it but honestly i think the only one?? but yeah ly and i hope you're doing well 🩵

#the world's too fucked to find peace in it i've pretty much grown certain of that #and i don't even mean this as like... there's no hope and no good things #i just mean we have to find the good things and the good people and do what we can together to like #make things better and all live in the most comfortable and meaningful way possible? #community in the end is the answer to the question is there any hope for a peaceful and free and comfortable and happy life. there is if we #stick and work together l #SORRY this was a tangent. i'm just like. finding peace within myself and realizing more and more that what i need is other people #but not in the way i've always thought i needed them. and that i still feel i need them. in the most fucked up way i still feel like that #bc the way i've p much always interacted w others is thru the lenses of my mental illnesses so it's alwaysssss been so distorted #and damn isn't it hard to break free of that. w no therapy especially. but anyway this is a whole thing #which you didn't ask me abt sorry silver fjdbkrvkfbj #been in a very reflective mood lately. bc i'm struggling and need to find a way out so yeah #but THANK YOUU again and yeah dw i'll be fine i'm gonna do my best to be okay #asks #cheri #i don't think you have a preference name wise btw but if i'm wrong pls do let me know i've just been using cheri and silver interchangeably

[hellyeahsickaf]

I wish I had a normal immune system. I do everything right and I have a UTI again anyway. 😒

Just hoping I last until tomorrow when I can get antibiotics and not develop another kidney infection overnight. That shit comes on faster than you think.

#a bit scary because i know my body's fighting it #i feel weakness but once the fever hits you're in trouble trust me #last time i felt this way but had a migraine coming on so i took a nap. woke up it hurt worse and i had bad kidney pain #a fever of about 103 going on 104. inching towards sepsis. family member tried to convince me to wait it out #i told them i might not make it overnight considering the timeline from kidney infection to sepsis and they didn't believe me #same person that gave me covid through negligence lmfao #chronic illness #disability #chronic pain #here's hoping i'm fine in the morning i mean i have an 11am appointment #but uh my antibiotics will have to wait till about 6-7pm #i have to be okay for 20 hours... i need my immune system to do its best till then. #sometimes i think about how id be so dead in another time period like this is the legit only time period that a body like mine can survive

[pinkopalina]

as a huge batjokes shipper i want batman and joker to hate each other in the sense they dont really hate each other, they just have really different goals and see their own version of potential in the other and right now hate is the best word for their situationship. they both love the other for what they could be but neither of them wants to be what the other one wants, and that's equally as frustrating as it is necessary for them to keep existing in their current roles. they're deadlocked and that fate surrounding each other is kind of the point -- we both have to be like this, the opposite of what the other wants, for us to keep existing at all, and for giving me that gift i both love and hate you. it's an agreement. i think the hate that's there now is born from an intense underlying love.

i think batman "hates" joker for being so amazing and smart and cunning, for being able to create grand gestures and schemes, to pull people together under his charisma and make them all believe in something, for being as extraordinary as he is but batman hates that he uses it to hurt people. he hates that joker can't channel his energy into doing something good for the world, that he hurts himself and others just because he wants to be batman's greatest enemy. i think batman wants to help joker but also hates him at this point for joker exhausting him, constantly getting hurt both emotionally and physically by him, joker never trying to improve his situation, throwing away other people's lives, showing batman he loves him by lashing out and hurting him. batman hates joker because he loves his rogues, he wants to help them, and he knows they can do better. he wants to live in a gotham that doesn't need batman but he still needs to be needed, because when there's no batman, what is bruce going to be? without joker, he will continue being batman, but it's an empty crusade. some of my favorite interactions between harvey and bruce are the ones where harvey thanks bruce for "always being there for me, never giving up on me, my very best friend." even with someone like harvey, bruce can still hold onto that hope for his rogues, never give up on them, keep going for them, even if it puts them through the cycle one more time.

i think joker hates batman in the most toxic way possible, but it's still love. i just think he's selfish and doesn't want batman to think about anyone else but him, the same way he operates for batman, but if he must think about other people then joker will make it as amazing as possible! i think he hates batman for wasting his time on ordinary people, people who are so boring that batman claims he has to protect and serve and love them but joker thinks it's all surface-level. batman won't kill joker but he'll leave room for people dying in his crusade. it's a choice he allows, and even if joker knows that's a morally fucked up way to put someone in a box, he doesn't care. batman is the type of person to train himself mentally and physically for decades and dress up in a half-silly-half-menacing costume so that everyone can have an idea about him. batman himself is not normal, and joker knows that and loves that! why is he wasting his time trying to save people that use him, abuse him, don't want him to be the best he can be? i think joker's motivations for loving batman and lashing out as if he hates him lie somewhere in between extreme admiration -- like i truly believe in your cause and that you're the right person to do it, but i'm so angry at you for wasting your time on other people and i'm so hurt and jealous that you choose them over me, just so you can be a hypocrite and let them die if i want them to anyways -- and anger at his hypocrisy -- like it's easy for joker to dedicate himself to chaos and just being in batman's life by putting batman in situations that force him to be a better and better hero, but how can batman sit there and choose and pick what morals he'll uphold and who gets to live and who gets to die?

i want to be your greatest enemy because you are the greatest hero ever, and the only way you and i can keep being the best at what we do is if we do it together, because of what we both believe in.

#does this make sense. they love each other because theyre perfect for each other #but in order to create that perfection they have to do things that build resentment #and in order to ebb that resentment they have to be in constant flux. back and forth. ebb and flow. good and evil. chaos and order. #obsession and indifference.... the two themes i think we miss out on the most bc it hurts when indifference is the opposite of love #and obviously these two cannot be indifferent toward the otther #but when they have plots that do they really fucking hurt! #like when lex luthor comes into the picture and helps joker and joker starts to make batman a little jealous #like okay maybe i dont need you to obsess over maybe any strong ideals can overtake me if u lnow what i mean #and then suddenly batmans gotta prove how well he knows joker and has to be on top of him at all times #um anyways i hope these kind of! made sense!!!!!!!!! djhdkjghijsdfhksdfh #like ideally i think joker just wishes he had batman all to himself but knows he has to share #and hes such a jealous baby that he makes it hard for batman bc of it #and batman is like yes joker jesus fucking christ i love you too but you have to let me have friends #and u have to stop killing people #and jokers like why are you friends with murderers and liars and thieves but IM BAD? #and batmans like bc i actually love everyone and want to help you all and that includes u #and jokers like jo fuck you hypocrtie hahaha see at least in my loneliness i have no laurels to rest on #and bruce is like i may struggle with my morals often but that is only because im always figuring out the best way to keep helping everyone #and if i lose sight of that ill go blind and be like you and then u wont have me anymore #lol sometimes funny tag convos get the dynamic better than the meaty posts #long post #anyways sorry i just havee 2937973957273 thoughts about them and so does everyone and i wanna throw my hat in

[steelycunt]

aus where r/s have a kid are a little strange to me sorry. because well s okay i sort of get it but r? what about that man makes you think he would a) want a child b) be a good father to one. be real

#when i say aus i also mean the child she made him father in the canon material. which never shouldve happened #teddy lupin means nothing to me. those are just words. there is no residual fondness left over from my affection for his father #sorry but even if they got married. i dont think theyre having kids. that seems like such a strange next move for them i cannot imagine the #wanting that #r endangered every child in hogwarts incuding his dead best friends son so as not to damage his reputation with the big boss. and now you #have to understand i dont see that as any sort of crime because i dont give a shit about any of those kids if it was up to me #he wouldve eaten harry when he got the chance. but the principle of it does not scream to me 'man who should have a child :-(' #as much as i HATE to acknowledge the existence of hjp. he was kid enough for s i think and i grant you he was a good parental figure to him #but like. for him and his loser boyfriend to go out of their way to have a child. feels unlikely ill level with you. but this might all jus #be my disinterest in kidfic showing. i think im right though #like its one thing to take h in as the orphan son of ur dead friend in canon. but like in aus...hm. #its the same as i feel about them proposing to each other. said it b4 but i cannot imagine either of them planning some big heavily #orchestrated candles and roses down on one knee proposal. that is not them its just not. if they DO get married its because they are #brushing their teeth together and one of them goes we should get married and the other one goes what? and the first one says we should #get married again and the other one goes take your toothbrush out of your mouth i cant understand what youre saying like that. and the #first one takes their toothbrush out and repeats i SAID we should get MARRIED and the other one goes oh okay. if you'd like #anyway. this post got away from me no one is reading these tags are they jeez #r/s

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

my maths teacher is essentially making us all do the work for his class digitally and the laptop-tablet thingy i lent from the school is never doing what i want it to and it's incredibly frustrating and the only reason i somewhat tolerate it is that he's the same teacher i could talk to about not using gendered pronouns for me whenever possible in school papers and the like and he also remembered that and made a conscious effort in front of the entire class to reword what he was saying to refer to me gender-neutrally. which really is a feat in my native language, so like, i love him for making the effort and remembering. but also why digitally

#its an internal conflict #bc i HATE to work digitally for school. i DESPISE it #i have so many reasons i can write an entire professional argument about that #i probably will. not professionally but by god i will vent on tumblr.com #but also. NO GENDER FOR ME!! AND HE REMEMBERED!! AND MADE SURE TO ADJUST HIS LANGUAGE!!!!!!!! #i just sat there with the widest grin ever istg #a biscuit's rambles #we stan gender supportive teachers!! #and also the 60 something secretary who knows everyone by name and also everything theyve told her ever #(okay this applies to all three secretaries istg they are literally the best) #and she said she was sorry that their computers still dont get that theres third options for gender #and that they might mess up but they know and are doing their best to not refer to me as a girl #and i am sos o so so happy #i mean. none of the other teachers know i think (yet?) bc going up to teachers and outing oneself alone is like. hooo boy #but like. itll spread ig. or ill just mention it off-handedly instead of a traditional outing #like my class knows. half the other class knows bci have maths w/ them. a teacher and the secretaries know. its only a matter of time now :