#i really diid

[modulated-emotions]

I really did my best...

#i really did my best #i really diid #lovelorn #unrequited love #options #LDR #second place #2nd choice #2nd #heartbreak #heart broken #love #aching heart #heartache #my heart #reality #unfair #emo #i miss you

[beepmeepmeepbeep]

lady macbeth is not a girlboss imo....

#i feel like the use of girlboss has just become like. any woman who does stuff #imo its more like specifically a woman who fights to the top (but not the very top) of a male dominated thing #and everyones like whoa but she changes nothing about it and ascribes to the misogyny and neoliberal big business ideals #and then ensures other women and poc stay beneath her and cant rise like she did often actively bullying them #ik its really not that deep but that is where the term came from.. itss just more boring to see it widely applied #anyway lady macbeth.... is literally one of the least privileged people in the play. sure she gets to the top but she cant stay there for #long also theres no one beneath her really (at least out of the main characters in the play) #i have many lady macbeth takes..... sorry i dont think she even diid much wrong i think she was so right and macbeth probably would have #done some regicide on his own account. maybe she sped up the process and made it successful. but at the very least macbeth would have #ended up like the original cawdor imo

[caffeiiine]

Siglai "Are you insane?!?" For the ask game!

“ARE YOU INSANE??” 

Sigma began to claw at the strands of his hair closest to his face as he looked out at his beloved casino. Now absolutely covered in soap bubbles.

“WHAT DID YOU DO!?”

Nikolai was happily running around with two massive automatic bubble blowers, one in each hand. “SOGGY~!!” he chirps “do ya like it?”. He quickly disappears into the overcoat, only to reappear about a second later next to Sigma.  He makes several grand guesstures outwards, then brings his hands to his face, mimicking that of a puppy as he turns to sigma. The casino-goers all watch their exchange in near silence.

 “How- how did nobody try to stop you” 

“Wanna know what I told them?”

“..what”

“QUIZ TIIME~!!” He shouts, spinning around in place as he does.

“Diid I.. A: Tell them I’ll spike all the drinks with poison. B: Tell them you’re my husband. Orr C: Tell them I’ll kill you and take over the casino for myself~!”

Sigma breaths an exasperated sigh. “A?”

“Nope! Buzzer! Incorrect~!” Nikolai retorts. “Aaand the answer was: B! It was surprisingly well taken too~ They really just let me do whatever I wanted”

“Of course they did, of course they did.” Sigma slips under a whisper.

He adds, louder. “Help me clean. We’re losing profits.”

Nikolai droops his body a little, slouching forward slightly. “Awwwww, Soggy's no funnn” 

The pair begin to clean as the casino-goers watched on. Sigma would need to hold a meeting later on, seeing as majority of his employees hadn’t met Nikolai it seemed.

[sorry if this reads out weird btww, i didn’t edit it, or proofread it, and i made it at 1am for some reason, i also ignored the next 5 lines rule]

[@im-a-chunky-potato sorry this took like *checks watch* three days]

#sodaramblestoomuch #bsd #bungou stray dogs #soda ask and answers! #bungo stray dogs #siglai #gogsig #sigma x nikolai #nikolai x sigma #soda writes sometimes #soda writes fanfiction?!? #potato i was so tempted to make it into angst #but i figured i already tortured fyolai enough #if the wording was slightly different i would’ve made it sigma walking in on nikolai after he went through with killing fyodor like he #initially plabned #bsd nikolai #bsd sigma #nikolai gogol #decay of angels

[separatedleoau]

@khlegacynexus Both!!

He eventally gets to have his own otfits but for quite some time he basically wears nothing or whatever they give him.

Before the explotion all his clothes came from Draxum and he only had one thing he chose for himself, once he is with the Hamatos they try to get him to chose something for himself but he doesn't really feel like it (something something, One lossinng the little sense of self he had)

The little clothes he has are a collection of hand-me-downs (Splinter picked up all his old blue clothes he could finnd and gave them to him) and some t-shirts with funny text that Mikey (annd then the rest of his siblinngs) started doiing because he didn't wannt Leo to have nothing.

So basically this drawing I diid some time ago is very much canon

Thenn for going out on Mad Dogz missions he's gonna get his own set of color matching socks/wraps/whatever you wannt to call them, I havennt designn those yet buut i want them to look a bit lke cannon but different ennough to look like One (I might also redisignn the all the Mad Dogz outfits just to visualy show their little character developmennts)

Evenntually he gets comfortable ennouugh to chose his ownn clothiing and this boy is ggonna have fuunn comfy ouutfits again

((if youu see any repeatiingg letter or miissiing ones, no you didn't. I havent beenn able to buy a new keybord))

#slau asks #slau one

[smallidarityfan]

ship game,,, smalletho !! idk ur opinion on this ship but joel is my special intrest and I like hearing u ramble about him,, and also have u seen the clip about sausage talking about smalletho... if u haven't u need to watch it b4 u answer this,,,,,

I just saw it omg 😭😭😭

(half) Ship it

- What made you ship it?

Honestly i diid watch double life from both their POVs (ranchers as well actually) but never actually 'shipped' them until I saw all the fanworks of the two that sorta convinced me? One especially was the zombie apocalypse au comic by falconearring on instagram (i think they're on tumblr as well actually) (actually you have her art as your pfp so you probably know them already LMAO)

... honestly i think the era when secret life and decked out 2 happened around the same time was when I actually started seeing the romance of it all, with that one "I love you Joel" from etho and the neck kissing bit, ykyk. Then stuff with HC.10 made it concrete that they two were actually going for it! which i mean good for them lmfao!!!

- What are your favourite things about the ship?

everything Sausage said in the clip was so true. they're so shy about interacting with each other that it just ends up into flirting, like not even low-key about it as well. the fan art is also really good, especially that one recent animatic by mellozheist. really cool 👍

- Is there an unpopular opinion you have about the ship?

Not really an opinion? but:

im a diehard smallidarity fan and currently we're losing the war to smalletho 😭😭 LIKE,,, THEY'RE BOTH GOOD,, it just feels like a breakup YK...... 💔💔💔 (im petty and pathetic about it, yes)

edit: we are so back

#ship talk #i tend to be an “allocated characters” shipper? like i struggle shipping 2 ships with the same characters but different partners #so as long as smallidarity is in my heart others will have to come later </3 #this goes for ethubs as well #probably similar to how grumbo shippers felt when 3rd life happened LMAO...... #also fun fact i got my own tamagotchi because of that falconearring comic. teehee :3

[quadrant-x-readers]

looks at you directly in the eyes!!! i would like to ask for sollux ♠️ reader headcanons? idk i kinda tolerate-hate the guy <3

SOLLUX <3< READER HEADCANONS

sollux has a lot of caliginous tension with the entire existence of computers, so if you're really good or really bad at programming, engineering, or something similar you're certainly fighting over that.

you will either be 'hey wheres the spacebar?' or 'enjoy the lorax soundtrack coming from every speaker in your house bitch.' he will either be 'how the fuck diid you even rename thii2 fiile??' or 'iif youre 2o good debug THII2 nerd'

expect a lot of insulting nagging about taking care of yourself. if he needs to eat something substantial in a day, so do you, and he's patient enough to needle you until you give.

loves traditional strifes! fighting until first blood is most fair in his opinion, but if godtier shenanigans are involved you could go even further.

i don't consider troll horns to be sensitive in the way you're probably thinking, but if you're interested in the concupiscent part of kismesissitude you might want to give his a tug, just in case. ;)

when he gets worked up, he curses at you like a scummy thirteen-year-old on fortnite, because he is one.

bites you. a lot. surprisingly(?) does not always draw blood.

#sollux captor x reader #sollux x reader #caliginous romance #homestuck #blood mention #minor typing quirk

[pesterloglog]

Jake English, Erisolsprite

Act 6, page 5516

JAKE: SIIIIIGH.

ERISOLSPRITE: no.

JAKE: Oh! Hey there buddy i nearly forgot you were bobbing about over there what with my emotional dilemmas.

ERISOLSPRITE: oh plea2e, a2 iif that loud heavvy 2iigh wwa2nt 2o obvviiou2ly diirected at gettiin my take on your 2HIITTY, BORIING boyfriiend problem2.

JAKE: Heheheh. Was i really so transparent?

JAKE: Youre a good man mr erisol. A good man with a good heart. Im lucky to have you as a friend.

ERISOLSPRITE: no, you bloody iimbeciile.

ERISOLSPRITE: ii am not a good man, ii dont havve a good heart, and iim not your fuckiin friiend.

ERISOLSPRITE: ii thiink you may be the dumbe2t liivviin beiing ii havve evver encountered.

ERISOLSPRITE: ii dont evven knoww wwhy ii bothered floatiing dowwn thii2 liittle gra22y gulch twwo fliip you the daiily biird. ii mu2t be out of my already tortured pan twwo bother wwiith ANY of you ovveremotiional fuckbag2.

JAKE: I suppose its true. You can be a bit of a surly customer.

JAKE: I dont hold it against you though. You have always been a wonderful source of amusement and companionship in this desolate place.

ERISOLSPRITE: wwoww, iit2 cool ii amu2e you, that really giivve2 meaniing to my joke of an exii2tence, ii mean WWOWW, thank2.

JAKE: Sure thing.

JAKE: Im just not sure who else to talk to about my issues with dirk.

ERISOLSPRITE: ok, wwhy dont you giivve thii2 per2on a wwhiirl: NOT ME?

JAKE: Im so conflicted. Ive enjoyed our time together and all the adventures weve had over the last few months.

JAKE: But as a paramour he has been overbearing to say the least. I dont know if i have the gumption to withstand another round of needy overtures.

JAKE: What do you think sir sprite? Should i put the old kibash on the affair?

ERISOLSPRITE: ii hate howw you 2ay evverythiing. howw can he 2tand you.

JAKE: Although frankly that prospect alone sounds arduous.

JAKE: I wouldnt even know what to say to the poor fella.

JAKE: You are my mystical guide on this adventure! What perchance might you advise?

ERISOLSPRITE: alriight you wwant 2ome redrom coun2el, wwell here you go.

ERISOLSPRITE: iim of the miind2et that wwhen you havve a rock 2oliid piiece of a22 tiied twwo the dock, you dont bloody wwell tug the knot loo2e and 2hovve the fucker off wwiith the heel a your boot.

ERISOLSPRITE: but then another part of me ju2t wwonder2 wwhat the FUCK ii ju2t 2aiid there? liike that wwa2 ju2t 2uch a wweiird 2ociiopathiic thought ii had, ii hone2tly had no iidea howw bad ii could po22iibly feel about my2elf untiil ii BECAME my2elf, iif THAT make2 2en2e.

ERISOLSPRITE: your bro ha2 feeliin2 twwo con2iider, he2 not 2ome 2liice of grub2teak. wwhy are you con2ultiing wwiith me, iim a dii2a2ter. no iim a dii2a2ter that 2hiit iit2 emotiional pant2 wwiith thiick liiquiid CATA2TROPHE, 2o dont evven come near me.

JAKE: Oh mr erisol. You are in rare form today.

ERISOLSPRITE: fuck you jake. iim not funny. ii havve no actual clue wwhy you thiink iim 2o funny, 2o PII22 OFF.

JAKE: HAHAHAHAHAHA!

ERISOLSPRITE: ii 2hould havve exploded my2elf the moment he 2pawwned me.

ERISOLSPRITE: evvery day iim wwonderiin wwhy ii havvent blowwn my2elf up yet.

ERISOLSPRITE: one tiime ii thiink ii almo2t diid?

ERISOLSPRITE: then ii ju2t thought...

ERISOLSPRITE: MEH.

ERISOLSPRITE: ii thiink the truth ii2 deep dowwn ii mu2t lovve 2ufferiin.

ERISOLSPRITE: ju2t liike you and wwhat2 hii2 face and your TRAINWRECK of a mate2priit2hiip.

JAKE: STOP! STOP!!! MY SIDES.

JAKE: Your act is too rich. Thanks buddy this is cheering me up at least a little.

ERISOLSPRITE: 2hut up.

ERISOLSPRITE: oh and you knoww wwhat el2e ii2 fliippiin BULL2HIIT?

ERISOLSPRITE: thii2 hoax that youre iimplyiin there2 no one el2e twwo talk twwo about thii2.

ERISOLSPRITE: TALK TWWO A MEMBER OF YOUR OWWN FUCKIIN 2PECIIE2 FOR A CHANGE.

ERISOLSPRITE: wwhat about crocker. try ruiiniin her day wwiith your wwii2hy wwa2hy rubbii2h.

JAKE: Youre right. I really should catch up with Janey.

JAKE: Its been a while since we spoke. It does seem like more and more im the one to get in touch with her.

JAKE: I do hope she hasnt tired too badly of listening to my problems. The last thing i want is to give the impression that everything revolves around my various romantic hurdles.

ERISOLSPRITE: revvolvve around? iit2 a biit late for that jake.

ERISOLSPRITE: your flu2hed quadrant ii2 a black hole and wwe are all beiing dragged 2creamiin through iit2 evvent horiizon.

ERISOLSPRITE: ju2t talk twwo jane, and nevver fuckiin look at me agaiin for the re2t of your liife.

ERISOLSPRITE: iim leavviing. hey here2 one for the road.

JAKE: Ah! There she blows. Your favorite finger of all.

JAKE: You sure do love showing that one to people. Its actually become a vaguely comforting gesture.

ERISOLSPRITE: you knoww wwhat youvve done jake.

ERISOLSPRITE: you havve totally RUIINED the act of fliippiin people off.

ERISOLSPRITE: iit wwa2 the one joy ii had left. ii hope youre happy.

JAKE: Boy howdy!!!

#homestuck #jake english #erisolsprite #homestuck act 6 #page 5516 #homestuck act 6 act 5 #homestuck act 6 act 5 act 1

[broadway-sollux]

here iit ii2 the 2ong youve all been waitiing for.

congratulatiion2 we diid iit. 

we cliimbed that mountain and diid a 2iick piirouette off the handle of my priide.

lyriic2 beelow the cut. cover art by candyGroove​.

Sollux - Aradia - Feferi - E̲r̲i̲d̲a̲n̲

---

iif ii wa2 your mate2priit iid never let you go we dont need no 2pace 2hiit two make that body glow loo2en up your bra2 girl2 and get up on the flow boondollar2 iin my claw2 that iid really liike two blow

2wag, 2wag, 2wag on you

headcanon bout my diick? lemme tell you that iit2 true do a double take, yeah, baby ii got two that mean2 one of them for FF and one of them for you

(2wag)

id like t0 be everything y0u want

)(-EY SOL! Let me talk to you!

iif ii wa2 your mate2priit, iid never let you go yeah iid get the biitche2, hiighe2t blood two low cyberiing on trollian, puttiing on a 2how iif ii wa2 your mate2prit, iid never let you go

iid never let you go

tell me bout your feeling2 2itting on a pile 2oon iill get you 2quealing and make iit worth your whiile yeah, ii dont mean to boa2t but feferii liike2 the view AA ha2 been a gho2t once but now 2hell be my boo

m̲a̲t̲e̲s̲p̲r̲i̲t̲, m̲a̲t̲e̲s̲p̲r̲i̲t̲! g̲o̲d̲ i̲ w̲w̲a̲n̲t̲ a̲ m̲a̲t̲e̲s̲p̲r̲i̲t̲!

eriidan, what the fuck are you doiing here?

i̲ j̲u̲s̲t̲ n̲e̲e̲d̲ t̲o̲ b̲e̲ L̲O̲V̲V̲E̲D̲

you piiece of 2hiit get out of my 2ong!

y̲o̲u̲ s̲a̲i̲d̲ t̲h̲o̲n̲g̲

(2waggiie)

id like t0 be everything y0u want

)(-EY SOL! Let me talk to you!

iif ii wa2 your mate2priit, iid never let you go yeah iid get the biitche2, hiighe2t blood two low cyberiing on trollian, puttiing on a 2how iif ii wa2 your mate2prit, iid never let you go

iid never let you go

y0u kn0w y0ure my w0rld y0u g0t all i need s0l spend a week 0n the sun, ill be calling y0u my matesprit

If I was your girl, I'd never leave you, Sol! I just want to LOV-E and treat you RIGHT!

iif ii wa2 your mate2priit, iid never let you go yeah iid get the biitche2, hiighe2t blood two low (highest bl00d t0 l0w) cyberiing on trollian, puttiing on a 2how iif ii wa2 your mate2prit, iid never let you go iid never let you go

na na na na na na na na na

iif ii wa2 your mate2prit

#broadway sollux #sollux captor #homestuck #broadway homestuck #broadwaystuck #sollux #mate2priit #2ollux.txt #2ong2 #twofoldAnnihilation #anticipatedAffliction #convivialChameleon #cantankerousAxolotl #((aradia feferi and eridan did SUCH a good job in this im so happy to be part of such a talented team!))

[incorrect-hs-quotes]

Sollux: . . . iit wa2 a great movie. Iit wa2n't a good movie, but how often do you 2ee a great moviie?

Eridan: Oh, I saww a great movvie last night. It wwas on the late show. It wwas-- um, uh, wwhat was it called? It's a classic. It's uh . . . oh, I hate this. I hate it wwhen this happens.

Sollux: Well, what wa2 iit about?

Eridan: It's about this newwspaper tycoon and he's dead, and evverybody is telling stories about him, and--

Sollux: It's Ciitiizen Kane.

Eridan: Nnnno, that's not it. No, no - but something like that. It's uh...

Sollux: Okay, who wa2 iin iit?

Eridan: Orson Wwelles is in it. It's called . . .

Sollux: Then thii2 ii2 Ciitiizen Kane. Iit'2 Ciitiizen Kane.

Eridan: Nnnno, that isn't it, but you're not far from it. It's uh . . .

Sollux: Well who el2e was iin iit?

Eridan: Oh, um, I dunno.

Sollux: Was Jo2eph Cotten iin iit?

Eridan: Wwhat else has he been in?

Sollux: The Thiird Man, The Magniifiicent Amber2on2 . . .

Eridan: Oh, The Magnificent Ambersons. Yes, yes, yes, he was in it, yes. That's one of my favvourite Orson Wwelles movvies.

Sollux: Well thii2 is definitely Ciitiizen Kane then. You're talking about Ciitiizen Kane.

Eridan: Nnnno, no, no. But it's something like that. It's ci . . . ci, ci . . . Si. Si . . . sy . . .

Sollux: No, not 2y. iit'2 cii. Cii, cii.

Eridan: Sy . . . sy . . . sy . . .

Sollux: It's ci, Citizen Kane.

Eridan: Sy . . . sy . . . Psycho!

Sollux: No iit'2 not P2ycho.

Eridan: It's Psycho.

Sollux: No, no, no, no, iit'2 not P2ycho. Ii2 iit about a motel owner who goe2 crazy and kiill2 a woman iin a 2hower?

Eridan: No, no. I just told you it's about this newwspaper tycoon, he has a sled called Rosebud, and they're all trying to--

Sollux: Then Ii gue22 iit wa2n't P2ycho, wa2 iit?

Eridan: No, it wasn't Psycho . . .

Sollux, painfully: iIt wa2 Ciitiizen Kane!

Eridan: No, it was an . . . angie, angie, angela-- angels! The Trouble Wwith Angels.

Sollux: No, no, no. Iit wa2n't The Trouble Wiith Angels, no. That'2 a Hayley Miills vehiicle, that'2 not even clo2e.

Eridan: The Front Page!

Sollux: The Front Page ii2 a comedy. Diid you laugh once?

Eridan: No.

Sollux: Then Ii guess iit wa2n't The Front Page, wa2 iit?

Eridan: Wwell wwhat the hell wwas it then?

Sollux: Look, that guy ha2 a new2paper. Ii'm going to borrow iit, read the tv lii2tings, and we'll settle thii2 once and for all.

Eridan, holding him back: Please, I wwant to remember this myself--

Sollux: Plea2e, Ii want to settle thii2--

*The two argue for a second until Sollux pushes Eridan back into his chair*

Sollux: Just 2iit down!

*Picks up a steak knife and drives it into Eridan's hand, nailing it to the table*

Eridan: Oh great. That's really going to help me to think. That's great. You know wwhat? I almost had it. I almost had it but noww thanks to you, I've gone blank. Thank you vvery much.

Sollux: What tiime was iit on la2t niight?

Eridan: It wwas 11:30. Wwe don't need the paper . . . The Paper Chase . . . paper, paper . . . Paperback Hero . . .

Sollux: Okay, what channel?

Eridan: It was channel 3. Paper. Paper . . . paper . . .

Sollux: Aha!! Look! Ciitiizen Kane. Iit was Ciitiizen Kane! Iit wa2 Ciitiizen Kane! IIT WA2 CIITIIZEN KANE!!

Sollux: *crumble2 up new2paper and triiumphantly throw2 iit on the floor*

Eridan: . . . okay, big deal. Look, wwould you take the knife out? Just take the knife out.

Sollux: You admiit you're wrong and Ii'll take the knife out.

Eridan: Oh c'mon, groww up! Take the knife out.

Sollux: No, no, no. You never admiit you're wrong. When you admiit you're wrong, ii'll grow up.

Eridan: You're being vvery immature. Wwould you please just take the knife out?

Sollux: Why don't you admiit you're wrong? You never admiit you're wrong.

Eridan: You're making a fool of yourself in front of everyone, alright? Wwould you please take the knife out? Take the damn knife out!

*Sollux finally complies*

*Eridan clutches his wounded hand*

Eridan: Ow! Oh geez. Listen, um, wwould you mind just calling me a-- uh . . . oh, wwhat are they called? A uh . . .

Sollux: An ambulance?

Eridan: No. No, I want a uh . . . a um . . .

Sollux: Do you want two guy2 iin a van to come take care of your hand and bring you to a ho2piital?

Eridan: Yes. Exactly, yes.

Sollux: Then you want an ambulance.

Eridan: No I don't! I wwant a . . . uh . . .

Sollux: Iit'2 an ambulance.

Eridan: No iit ii2n't!

Sollux: You want an ambulance.

Eridan: Sh!

Sollux: Iit'2 an ambulance.

Eridan: Sh!

Sollux: You want an ambulance,

Eridan: Sh!

Sollux: Iit'2 an ambulance.

Eridan: Sh!

Sollux: You want an ambulance.

Eridan: It's a . . . uh . . .

Sollux: No, you know what you want?

Sollux: *piick2 up hii2 2teak kniife and driive2 iit repeatedly iinto eriidan'2 che2t*

Sollux: You want a mortiiciian! You want a mortiiciian! You want a mortiiciian! YOU WANT A MORTIICIIAN!!

*Eridan's dead body slumps over the table*

Sollux: Thii2 one ii2 on me. Check plea2e!

#submission #source: Kids in The Hall #homestuck #incorrect homestuck quotes #eridan ampora #sollux captor #mod terezi #well that was a roller coaster #surprised he didn't cut to the chase and just blast him with a laser though

[fictionkinfessions]

iit feel2 2o weiird 2eeiing eriidan2 who are 2tiill ob2e22ed wiith me. or me2 who are ob2e22ed wiith eriidan2. iit miight ju2t be that iim not really iintwo 2hiippiing but ii 2eriiou2ly diid not care for the guy at all. diidnt hate hiim, diidnt piity hiim, diidnt even acknowledge hiim untiil ii had two becau2e he wanted two bla2t my friiend2 two 2miithereen2. there were ju2t better troll2 iin my liife two giive attentiion two. ii would feel kiinda bad 2ayiing thii2 to an ed2 face though, 2o iintwo the confe22iion booth iit goe2.

it feels so weird seeing eridans who are still obsessed with me. or mes who are obsessed with eridans. it might just be that im not really intwo shipping but i seriously did not care for the guy at all. didnt hate him, didnt pity him, didnt even acknowledge him until i had two because he wanted two blast my friends two smithereens. there were just better trolls in my life two give attention two. i would feel kinda bad saying this to an eds face though, so intwo the confession booth it goes.

#fictionkinfessions #fictionkin #solluxkin #homestuckkin #hstxt #seekin #anty ship #mod party cat

[freebooter4ever]

how's the job hunt going? would you ever relocate for a job love?

Oh wow what a question lol! Honestly i dont expect to be able to find anything new till this strike is over, the competition is insane right now. In the meantime my plan is to teach myself faster hard surface sculpting in z*brush using hockey gear \o/ mostly because i dont want to pay the $150 a month for maya, that shits insane. Like a fucking health insurance payment.

For the second question - i dont think i've ever experienced love like that. I think it would take a lot of devotion and sacrifice to give up your dreams for someone else. Admirable, for sure. And also a sacrifice that historically women are the ones expected to make. Every time. :( For a job? Lol, i would move in a heartbeat. I stayed in pittsburgh 6 years after college for my dream job - i only left when i lost it. Knew the next dream job wasnt going to be there, so made my way to LA. And now im having to come to terms with the idea that the dream job doesnt exist as i imagined it - or only exists for a very VERY select few.

And actually, thats not totally true about me and love. I think if i thought for one second that nick could love me back like i diid him, id already be in new england. When i applied to this one job, that sounded like a dream come true it listed the salary, and brian and i just read it and gaped. We looked at each other and i was like i dont even know what the fuck i would DO with all that. And of course the first thing that popped into my mind was i could buy that sailboat nick always talked about. When i was writing my programming textbook a decade ago, and really going through it, and nick and i were up until 3 or 4am every night painting theater sets, he'd talk about his sailing adventures, teach me rope knots, that sort of thing, basically a mental escape. And so last week i texted him like 'hey no promises but what if im suddenly actually making good money. Do you still want that boat?' Because, nick's worked so long and so hard and all he's gotten to is the point of still working on boats other people own, and its just not fair how devalued physical labor is, you know? And his immediate reaction was to launch into our very old daydream - the whole 'yes and you're coming with me, sail off into the sunset' stuff. And that hadnt occured to me - my idea was just- id give him the boat, and he'd fix it up, and id maybe demand photos or a visit or two every so often. Because i think finally -finally- im at a point in my life where being in love isnt enough - i want the other person to love me back. And lol definitely not someone who declares love one minute and then stops talking to me for weeks or months, and the cycle repeats over and over. I think its possible to love someone enough that you recognize you arent the one for them, but still want them to be happy? Happier than you could make them.

So long answer is yes, i would relocate for love, but i have learned the hard way to know when i shouldn't.

#And if this anon is who i think it might be? #My friend i fully support your adventure across countries for love <3 #Just please have back up plans cause as romantic as love is #Sometimes it can go wrong and you need to be independant enough to extricate yourself from bad situations #whether thats just having the savings or having family friends connections who can help wherever you are going #I know personally how VERY wrong love can go #And im not saying it would happen but if something does go wrong you dont want to end up trapped #Out of the frying pan and into the frier so to speak #Im on the negative side of this debate #a positive example of relocating for love would be my favorite youtuber couple justin scar*ed and ally war*en #Her whole story was absolutely an escape from her family the minute she could and helped by justin #but i feel like theyre the lucky ones not all of us get that #anyway lol if this isnt who i think it might be sorry!! #that was a long rant from me

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[freddyfazbears-kinhelp]

cryiing child timeliine question answerrs if youre interrested.

1. lizziie was nice enough. shhe just wanted to bbe around dad though, sso she was mosttly distant. miike was scary annd dauntiing at the time, but lookiing back i jusst feel frrustrated and annoyed. dad wass.. he mostlyy ignored me. sometiimes hed give me finished protootypes of toys with and trreated them like giifts. he diid make them himself, but he didnnt like them very much. thhe ones he liked went right to the priize shelves att fredbears. i ddont remember mom.

2. i ddidnt like fredbears much. wwasnt really scared of the aniimatronics untiil mike would tell horrorr stories about thhem. wwith my nightmares on ttop of that, i jjust wanted to avoiid it as much as possiible. the fredbbear and friiends show was niice though.

3. i wwas friends wiith charlie. i dont reallly remember anybodyy else. but charlie wwas nice. shee wasnt weiird about me cryiing. neiither was uncle henrry. i liiked it at theiir house.

4. the frredbear plushiie was one of the prototyype toys fromm dad. i ddont know why he diidnt put it on the shelves. it lookedd good and kiids loved fredbear. it was reallly soft.

5. he desserved it. if he wannts to “always ccome back,” thhen he can do iit again, and agaiin, and againn.

6. ii met charlie before anyoone died. the other mmissing kids i was intrroduced to by charlie. they were fairly niice. too manyy of them, thhough. they didnt deserrve that.

7. chharlie helped. mosst of them movedd on, thankfullyy. charliie knew she couldnnt stop me, sso she set up safeety barriers to keep him from gettiing out somehow. also helped repliicate things fromm his memmories and ourss - the missiing kids and their aniimatronics, sstuff like that. i starrted it alone, thoughh. i wwas really stubborn at firstt.

8. old man consequuences.. he was a chharacter for sure. i diid meet him. never gott a chance to tell who exactlyy he wass though. i thiink he was being secretiive. thatss fine. i diidnt let him know who i was, eiither.

9. i ddont remember muchh about possessing gollden freddy. i was definitely “cconnected” to them, but ii wasnt tethered byy any means. i ccould roam freely arouund wherever i wwas. i couldd go further, but leaving the place whhere golden was felt wrrong, and besiides. i lliked bothering mike. ppayback. sometimes ii left during thhe day though. onne of the freddys locations had a lake nearby wwith frogs i liiked to visit. and nno, i couldnt movee golden. well, a liittle bit. but thhey didnt have an enddo, so iit would take a llot more energy tto move theem than if theyy had an enndo.

that's very interesting! thank you for sharing :)

#timeline answers

[turqlotus]

rants

So, i didnt get a medal.

I know i tried my best, but then it's also why it sucks more because i know i tried my best. I didn't really endure many sleepless nights and mid cramming breakdowns just so i would cry after the school year. Where diid i go wrong? What did i lack? Is my best not enough?

All my close frienda got one. Im proud of them, they truly deserve it. The feeling of not being with them just sucks. I don't want to envy them but i just can't help it. I love them but it just makes me cry. I just hope these thoughts go away.

#sorry for the rant

[obitv]

hi your riptide / killjoys thing sounds SO FUCKING SICK please tell me about it

prefacing this by saying i havent finished riptide im on ep50 ok evverything else i know is gathered from fics and from my dash so if it doesnt properly line up with backstories FUCK YOU DONT TELL ME YET. also im using a ton of kj fanon slang bc its what im used to, if you dont know what a phrase means just ask. ok anyway

the factions honestly line up pretty well?? the navy is BLind, the pirates are killjoys. high ranking navy officers like jays family are crows and exterminators. the boats are cars, the undersea is like.. maybe the lobby. tritons are droids for the sake of this ok (not often seen out in the zones, have a wildly different culture, etc) because i diid NOT want to have to worldbuild an entire faction of like. goddamn radiation mutants since the reason nobody can leave the zones is bc its surrounded by a fucking killzone. alright. so we're doing droids

whether or not chip is sandpup or cityborn is kinda irrelevant - he ends up out in the ones real fuckin early regardless and gets picked up by the black rose crew etc etc. but they get caught in a REAL bad clap with crows and he just has to fucking leg it and pray. that OR theyre cauht in the bombing of zone7 idk i havent listened to the oneshot and i dont believe in factchecking. whichever works. he ends up stuck in the zones, alone, at a way too fucking young age and nobody ELSE wats some ittle kid dragging them down so he ends up in the lobby and makes it work there instead. he has something to do with juvie halls? i dont know enough canon backstory to say much more but yeah. he falls in with tthem until he meets JAY!!

ferin family = scarecrows thats fairly obvious. higherups in BLind get benefits so shes never been on their meds (this helps out in the desert with being a better shot, bc she has no withdrawal shakes. same with drey) and just like. generally is allowed more freedom. but obviously with this freedom she realises BLind fucking SUCKS and somthing something her sister was a crow and died etc etc. also i think ava wouldve been fairly known in the city for being on BLind broadcasts. jay too maybe because i think chip teasing her for it is funny, and because obviously crows use fake names so the "ferin" name would be less known than her appearance. she visits the lobby fairly regularly but doesnt have the guts to leave until she meets chip

GILLION THOUGH. since im using droids we're Going to pretend here that in my version of kjs there are sentient droids that ARENT SEXBOTS. OK. WE'RE PRETENDING THOSE ARE A THING. he was probably a sentry or guard or something. robots are autistic so this tracks. but he gets kicked out of his post for some fucking reason and ends up just kind of. aimless in the lobby. he becomes VERY invested in the preachings of destroya. at some point, after jay and chip have left, he somehow manages to get out by himself and collapses in the sand in zone one which is how chip and jay find him. also ive yet to decid how to handle the plus addiction thing since thats. not really a topic that comes up in riptide. ill think on it maybe

um other than that.. as for names im . well gillion tidestrider sunds like a kj name its insane and punny enough. i have a lot of naming convention hcs that i cant explain concisely but ill just say chip only having a first name makes sense despite kj names being 2-3 words typically. jay im totally stumped on though bc girl she HAS to change her name and it should really follow the two word format and again. she cannot keep her last name bc anyone from the city would recognise the ferin name. so theres that. yeah thats all i got hiiii i will make this better when i catch up i promise

#mailing list #i need to think more about their outfits

[2hiit]

@kuruising

#i think your eyes are trying to say something to us.#blink twice if...wait.#not but really. you look pretty cool.#hopefully this isn't a pain in the ass for you.

[♊︎] II heard once that eye2 are the Wiindow2 11 two the 2oul. [♊︎] . . . [♊︎] II diid not iintend two liink that, but II 2uppo2e II have miiniimal choiice iin the matter. [♊︎] Feel free two iignore iit.

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