Mav is gone. I have a thousand things I want to say but I don't have the bandwidth to write a proper post right now.
Send me asks so I can tell Mav's stories. I want to talk about him and remember all the funny and good stuff.
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I'm so confused with tomorrow
there's a soccer game. I don't know where I go. Only certain kids can go to the media center. You have to have a 504 or IEP. I have a 504. But I don't wanna go to the media center... I wanna be able to sit and watch a soccer game with my friends and partner and make jokes and be freezing on the bleachers and complain about how I should've just not come because this day is pointless
The media center isn't gonna help anyway. I don't understand anything that's happening I'm gonna freak out. The soccer game...well...at least I know what's going on..
I just wanna be like the other highschoolers...I don't want to need special accommodations. I don't want to go into the "backup plan" for the kids who can't handle it...
I'm just gonna he alone when I freak out and they'll all try to help in the wrong way and it's gonna get worse and I'm gonna wanna die before going back to school...it's gonna make me hate myself even more and then im just gonna be miserable all weekend
Because it basically shows in my face that I can't be normal. I can't do fun things like other teens. I just have to sit in another room while the world goes on without me. They don't know how miserable that can make a person feel.
When I do freak out, they're gonna make it worse. Because they think they know how my brain works but they don't. None of them do... I hate when they follow something because "protocol" or some bullshit...because last time they did they tried to drag me into a wheelchair. It's terrifying...
It. Doesn't. Help.
And I don't even know what my 504 plan is...I don't know how it works. Nobody told me.
So basically. They're really fucking good at making someone feel worthless...
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With gay moon post approaching 600 notes (600 notes... 😥) I have had a few realizations
1: not everyone shares the same observations that I do. Which I say just bc I was IMMEDIATELY struck by the framing of Vash with the moon in that one panel the first time I saw it, but I've had a number of ppl mention they hadn't noticed it
Which leads into 2: the reason that post has so many notes is bc pointing out moments like that holds value to people. Plus I guess my commentary & conclusions? Plus acting as something for people to bounce their own ideas off of.
And then 3: there are probably more moments I could explore in such a way, & that could hold value to people
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rant/vent inc, on mobile so idk how to read more
told my best friend of 18 years i couldn't hang out 2 weeks ago because my bf was at my house + sick with covid so i didn't want to risk infecting people (also she wanted to go swimming and i don't have swimming clothes + dysphoria) and shes been literally ignoring me ever since
didn't respond to me saying i can't, didn't respond to me telling her when im back home and if she wants to hang out, didn't respond when i updated her about when im coming home due to train rescheduling,
like. im not available one time??? and im getting ignored???? if there was something bigger happening that she wanted to discuss during the hangout then i wasn't made aware. as far as i know she just wanted to go swimming and then has been ignoring me for 2 weeks when i said i couldn't.
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