#i struggled enough this year i think

[aroaceleovaldez]

i stand by that a better, more sensible, and more intriguing plot for TSATS would have been, instead of retconning literally everything:

Bob is dead (because he was very explicitly absorbed/killed by Tartarus Himself in House of Hades, alongside Damasen), and nobody is going into Tartarus to save him. He made his sacrifice and is gone. However. Remember how the Titans, including Bob, were just kind of kicking around for several years? Particularly. On a cruise ship full of mortals. And Bob happened to be kicking around in general for an extra year versus all the other Titans. And he mythologically sometimes has a mortal demigod son who partook in the Calydonian Boar Hunt (Dryas of Calydon). Yeah.

So turns out, Bob/Iapetus leaves behind a demigod (demititan?) child. And because Nico was pretty much his only friend, he named Nico his child's godfather. And while he's not being left in charge of the child, as a son of Hades and godfather to this kid, Nico is duty-bound to fulfill Bob's last will and go find this like 2 year old to make sure they're safe. So Nico has to undertake this very unusual quest (that raises many questions, such as "demititans are a thing?" and "DOES THIS MEAN THERE'S POTENTIALLY MORE-?!" and "SHOULD WE BE CONCERNED ABOUT THIS?") and is kind of freaking out because. He's the son of Hades! He's notoriously bad with living things, and animals, and definitely small children! Even if he does find this kid and assure they're safe, he is the last person who should be undergoing any kind of quest involving even potentially having to babysit. Fortunately, his boyfriend is the human embodiment of sunshine and calmness and good vibes, and also once helped a nymph give birth, so he feels Marginally More Confident in theoretical demititan babysitting and offers to come along on this Epic Journey of Figuring Out What In Hades' Name Is Up With This Demititan Baby Business.

Proceed with wholesome epic shenanigans quest of Nico and Will scurrying around trying to locate this random OP baby while Nico has an existential crisis about the nature of his powers because he doesn't want to let Bob down! Both for Hades Kid Honor Reasons and because Bob was his friend! But what if he's destined to fail this quest just because of who he is? Because he's simply not built for hanging out with the living/mortals? And Will reassuring him that He Will Probably Not Traumatize The Weird OP Titan Baby And It'll Be Fine, and simultaneously getting a peek into the weird other life Nico leads hanging out with immortals much more than the average demigod, which Nico considers his norm. Bonus shenanigans of both of them getting caught off-guard and culture shocked from where each other's respective worlds (Nico's mostly-immortal versus Will's mostly-mortal) cross over and learning to navigate those for each other - Nico finally starting to make some mortal connections and get glimpses at modern mortal American life, and Will trying not to get his brain literally incinerated while Nico's happily casually catching up with some of his old friends who happen to be literal gods.

#pjo #riordanverse #nico di angelo #will solace #solangelo #long post // #LISTEN I JUST THINK WE DONT NEED TO BE RETCONNING THINGS WHEN THERE IS A HIGHLY INTRIGUING MYTH RIGHT THERE #listen. *listen.* Iapetus in myth has a demigod child? and we're in the series? that's all about demigods? #and had titans running around for 4 years? some primarily on a giant ship mostly full of mortals? #and Iapetus himself was running around for closer to like 5 years? #I AM JUST SAYING. that is enough time. and the right conditions. that there are perhaps demititans now. #that alone is a fascinating plot set-up that ties in basically all previous series inherently and has a reasonable starting point #of *course* Nico would be named Bob's child's godfather! #of *course* Nico would consider it a very important personal duty to see out Bob's final will and go on some quest about it! #and under those conditions it makes *perfect sense* for Nico to want to bring Will along! and that he would be very helpful on said quest! #bringing along a lot of skills and abilities in areas that Nico lacks! that are crucial for a quest like that! #also then immediately the plot becomes Will reassuring Nico about his powers being cool and not evil and him being spooky is okay #while Will is also trying to not literally have his brain melt cause Nico's casually introducing him to a trio of death gods or something #forgetting that Will cannot look upon a god's true form #and Will's dragging Nico across the US while Nico is struggling to keep up cause Will forgot that Nico's not American and not from that era #its cute! it's interesting! it immediately begs the question of a next-gen series focusing on a main cast of demititan kids #dont go back to Tartarus that's lame and overdone and ruins a ton of stuff. dont retcon everything that also ruins a ton #give us the fluffy roadtrip comedy that they clearly wanted to write instead anyways #you can even keep the elements of Nico feeling out of his depth and Will constantly on the verge of death. except it makes sense this time. #and it's kind of funny cause Nico's just freaking out over babysitting and it highlights how much tankier Nico is vs Will #even just in casual interactions. yeah Nico can casually look upon a god's true form. dont worry about it #meanwhile Will is slowly collecting sunglasses the entire trip and layering them up for whenever Nico introduces him to another deity

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 99

i have NEARLY finished the skirt for my ren faire fit i just gotta get a few finishing details added and also get the undershirt bleached (bc i got a bunch of makeup on it at last years fair and shit Stained) but THEN i can show yall the final fit!!

#day 99 #year 5 #aradia megido #homestuck #its gonna be cute #i was so fucking stressed abt this one because like. #i bought my fabric and i was like oh yeah dude this is toooootally more than enough for a circle skirt #went to finally cut things #realized i only had enough for a half-circle skirt and it would end up with a bunch of weirdly-shaped scrap at the end #(ie i would have to do a bunch of weird piecing to make the waistband and pockets and such) #and like honestly a half-circle skirt was NOT enough volume for me i need my skirts swooshy #so i was like well. okay. i think i can optimize my fabric usage more if i draft a paneled skirt #but this of course required..... Math. #and unfortunately. i was an art major. so. there was a lot of struggling #BUT I DID IT. THERE WAS STILL A LIIIIITTLE BIT OF PIECING THAT HAD TO BE DONE BUT IT IS MINIMAL AND CAMOUFLAGED PRETTY WELL #and also this is for a ren faire primarily bc i dont wear a lot of skirts in day-to-day #SO. economical fabric usage is absolutely period accurate. even though none of the rest of my outfit or techniques are. #basically all thats left for me to do is add pockets and the closure at the back #i meant to add the pockets as i was doing the main construction but i got too excited and forgor #so theres gonna be some seam ripping but nothing too bad

[cobaltfluff]

so i started playing persona 4

where are the QoL features

#persona series #art tag #ACK I FORGOR TO COLOUR THE BITS BEHIND HAIR nvm #i have no idea how to tag this!! #i fear what original p3 might have been like #i feel like a fake gamer man #like how did you guys do that #i feel like i would have given up if it was the first one i played #i am too stupid!! #im glad i have played through 5 and 3re #i am somewhat used to the flow of the game and the ability names #otherwise i would be STRUGGLING for my LIFE i tell you #like to be fair i dont think it's a huge world #BUT LIKE PLEASE IM LOST IN MY OWN HOUSE #also these protags are basically my OCs at this point #i borrow their canon personalities #and reshape them into something i like more hehehehe #edit: im crying im getting lowkey flamed on tweeter dot com #i just meant it as in joker spent a lot of time in tokyo!! one year changes a man!! #I KNOW inaba is small!! but QoL additions are always good!! #i get the appeal!! that you use your brain!! #you spend enough time to know the place!! but it's called QoL features not NECESSARY features!! #im cryin the boys ate just bantering #you can even read it as yu being like LOL you're a city boy now huh?? hahaha #now i really am fighting for my life and mental

[micamicster]

Spotify edit for THE GET DOWN BROTHERS from The Get Down (2016-2017)

Companion edit for Mylene Cruz & The Soul Madonnas

Credit where it’s due to @9clouds for the template psd I used for these edits. Thank you for making it available!

#surprise! #the get down #tgdedit #netflixdaily #afroelf #spotify edits #the get down brothers #i used some of zeke's quotes as album titles #and i decided they did a collab with the soul madonnas later in their career (post tragic loss of shao) #songs playing are ones they collabed on with the girls on the soundtrack #suggested artists are real rappers of that era #(well. gil scott heron is genre defying) #im sorry this took so long! i made the first version a year ago at least #i had some photoshop struggles since then #but i think this set is in decent enough condition i might as well upload it <3

[vitruvianmanbara]

not the kind of thing I usually share, but I came across the CDC's national intimate partner and sexual violence survey and their 2010 findings on victimization by sexual orientation, and some of the statistics for women are really shocking (tw for rape and assault)

anyway I wanted to share these because I hear vague stats about queer women and sexual violence being thrown around constantly, but we rarely take a step back and look at the actual numbers these days. direct pdf download of the report here: 2010 Findings on Victimization by Sexual Orientation

#the stats for men are worth looking at too but this is long enough. #not shocking as in unexpected but seeing it all laid out this way is so grim. it makes the ways in which my own experiences have been #dismissed feel even worse than they already have honestly lol. I've been thinking lately about how after he kept text stalking me sending #homophobic slurs & stuff and I was just so numb to everything I had to convince myself it was no big deal. #and I was a clued in person like smart enough to know that that type of violence is worse for queer women but I still felt very alone #in my experiences for all these years and I struggle a lot to talk about it still.

[themyscirah]

Vanessa didn't even die and yet her story is still sadder and more fucked up than jtodd's. He wishes he was on her level

#may be a controversial one but i dont care this is my house #dont think there are enough of you to get hate over this anything #anyways no she didnt die. she wasnt killed by voter poll. but like the stuff that fucked her up was so much more real than a psycho clown #like im sorry but what is “you get beat up and die” to essentially getting taken and having the bad guys confirm to you that everything you #thought about yourself in middle school was true and everyone thinks youre ugly and worthless and not special and no one loves you. and then #ofc the medical torture. like im sorry but one of these things IS worse than the other imo #especially as the teen girl in the wonder woman comic like jesus christ #and while of COURSE the stuff about diana not loving her and all that is NOT true its something we see her struggle with as insecurity for #years beforehand. and then dc goes and brings her back into continuity in the past few years only to basically say “yeah wonder woman DIDNT #care about her! what a loser to think so and get all worked up about it! abt a vers of her who only has the name in common #like she wasnt dianas baby freaking sister with 100+ appearances #blah #vanessa kapatelis #anti jason todd #she also literally did the red hood arc before he did #with the whole attacking the successor and everything #yet another woman for him to steal from lmao #(this is mostly a joke. i dont think anyone making anything about jtodd canon or otherwise even knows what a wonder woman comic is but the #comparisons are still there.)

[meirimerens]

bruh the creep i had to romantically reject three times (four if you count her "lovesick ramblings" [direct quote]) in the span of not even a year and who called me a "jerk" and "insecure" for not wanting to long-distance e-date her unwarranted-evadaniil-porn-sending ass followed me after a year of no contact on the instagram i don't update, haven't posted on in a year, don't share any followers/following with her on, & that i only mentioned on this blog Once over 2 years ago. on Valentine's Day Eve out of all days. what in the maidenless behavior is this.

#i know for a fact you're not ~organically~ finding & following ~random~ french artists who post horses under 70 followers sister. #wanted to keep your eye on me on the account you thought i'd be the least likely to notice you on? #too much of an insecure jerk [for rejecting you] that you won't follow me on the myriad of accounts you know i'm active on & pretend like #nothing's happened; but nicey enough that you'll follow one where you think i'd be least likely to see you? #i know you combed my blog for multiple-years-old pictures of my face before; did you do it for this account's @ as well? #well if you're still on that creepy creeper grind maybe you'll see this message as well! learn to lurk better & maybe you won't get blocked #ps: maybe don't have your discord name + pfp be the same as your instagram's if you don't want me to immediately know who you are. #& if you wanted to rekindle; well; grow a pair & don't creep on the one acc i never mention. you won't find pictures of my face on it btw #neigh (blabbers) #stay_away_from_[ME]_get_a_job.png #incel & coquette Pick A Struggle girl. do not hmu ever again you creep.

[goldiipond]

YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS THATS RIGHT ITS ART SUMMARY TIME. OH YEEAAAH

tpn is definitely one of the longest fixations i've had in a very long time, these kids mean soo much to me and have helped me branch out with my art in really fun ways. i'm really happy with where my style is now, and heres to another year of drawing the same damn anime characters <3

2022 | 2021 | 2020

#skye's doodles #skye's ramblings #ive been using both tags for these im not quite sure why. but i do love to ramble on these #did NOT have enough space for all my favorite pieces choosing was soo hard for some months ... 2024 skye should space out his favs better #to be honest this year was. interesting !! my motivation became a little rocky towards the end #partially due to finally getting a diagnosis for something ive been struggling w forever + med trials and annoying side effects YAAY #but i am glad i have still been able to make art that i can be happy with despite all that and it honestly feels. a little more special? #idk if that really makes sense but yah. really happy with how my art has developed this year cant wait for next year <3 #also godd the way ray n don each take up half these spaces... anime boy disease is incurable i fear <3 #n yah i totally just grabbed this template from the one i made last year n changed the top doodle/year. i will probably keep doing this <3 #shoiuld i tag this as tpn? it is all tpn and ive seen other summaries in the tag today. much to think about

[jestroer]

Thinking about getting a drawing tablet with a screen......... Oghgghhhh.......

#^ says as if wasn't saving up for it for like half a year #but oughghh bro im so broke i saved up so little... #i was really wanna get a tablet with a stylus that i could just use anywhere by itself so like. just usual tablet with a stylus #but good ones are so expensive.... #maybe i should just get the one that works with a laptop I've been working on a regular graphic tablet for years i can manage #they're much cheaper #maybe i could even buy it for my birthday.... with the birthday present money added of course. i don't have enough rn #god.... #i know graphic tablets without screen are perfectly fanctional and i dont have problems with using mine #(although there is a.... well a hole in the surface level of it.. it isn't a problem but yk it's there) #i just really want to see what im drawing bro i think its neat #shitpost #drawing struggles

[lovelaceisntdead]

should I get a ticket to a book signing on thursday.

#or is that a bad idea. #i feel like i need to get out and do something before i. yes. #but idk if I'm well enough :/ #maybeeeee if i can get my dad to drive me so i don't have to get the train but that is a big maybe #it's like a whole evening thing but the vibes sound fairly lowkey so i don't think it would be too much #idk I've been struggling a lot with not being able to do things lately so. idk! #and I'd be going on my own which i don't mind but it is always that bit harder not having someone there in case i need help #i liked the author's first book well enough and there will probably be many gay people there so it might be nice to try and meet some peopl #idk!! i know i need to do things and have things to look forward to because otherwise. the demons. but it's so hard to balance when my body #is not on the same page #I've decided i will go and see lisa frankenstein when it's out and maybe also drive away dolls #so if nothing else i have my few times a year cinema trip to look forward to so maybe that will make me not want to kill myself for a bit. #sorry for vent essay i have been very much struggling to feel human recently. microdosing interacting with people. #being online is still making my brain feel strange so. idk what's up with that.

[koukaaa-descent]

I’ve been a bit afraid of writing for monsoon for a while now but like. i remembered that this is my own character. anyways! a moment of monsoon’s life, inside of a future that never exists.

It was warm. It was so, so warm. It didn’t remember it could be this warm.

Cold is easy. It is very easy to expect, and sometimes hard to endure. But cold is easy to know, to expect. Warmth is everything but.

There is warmth, here. It is so impossibly warm. Its oldest friend is asleep against itself. It does not think that the warmth will ever fade—at least, not while its friend is still with it. Its friend’s lungs like to catch on themselves when he is relaxed, an unfortunate result of his fragility. Even still, it is warm. It is so warm, it does not know what to do with it.

It closes its eyes. Listens to the rattling breathing, brought on with age. A decade. A moment of time. When had ten years passed? It did not know. All it has ever cared for has been the one against its side. What matter did time have when they two seemed so eternal?

Gentle. Gentle. Its hands are not clever like his are. If it is not gentle, it will break him into pieces. Gentle; as if he is food, meant to be stored and kept safe. Gentle; as if he is made to break.

A thin, aquiline whistle; a sound so similar to its own vocalizations it is suddenly reminded of his warmth. He is still sleeping, but even still he is echoing to it. Singing in the only way his body knows.

A thick, roiling emotion drags itself into its body. It rests its head beneath his arm, savoring the heat. His head drops easily back onto the length of its neck, hardly jarred, trusting in its presence as he would trust in his own body even while it betrays him. It wonders how much time he has left.

He was not made to last. He was born to die. It was born to live. One of them will die before the other, and it is afraid that he will be first.

For now. For now, it is warm. It is reminded of impossibly large hands, and an eternally familiar face. It is reminded of the taste of his blood. How bitter it was, how thick. It is reminded that he will die and it will not. It is reminded of sun blessed mornings and long nights spent together, wandering forests and chasing lightning bugs and manticoils until the sun lit the way back home. It is reminded of an overwhelming, encapsulating warmth, surrounding it so wholly that it felt as if nothing in the universe would ever dare come near. Nothing except for its oldest, dearest friend.

In its dreams, there is a star on the horizon.

For now, it rests. There is little else to do.

#oc monsoon #oc indigo #lethal company oc #lethal company #lethal company bracken #lethal company employee #kokadrafts #i think that the reason I struggle to write about the ‘canon’ timeline monsoon is that.. #it is simply not old enough to have developed complicated thoughts #it is an animal. An intelligent animal #but still an animal. #I’m just thinking of happy things for these 2. I think they deserve some tenderness #this is jsut a hypothetical ‘what if they both lived beyond the destruction of Gordion’ thing #ten years… a whole decade of life……

[osoreruna]

threads where the ua teachers are fighting each other as a demonstration for class = good shit. 👌🏽

#𝗦𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 + [ OOC ] #is this just because i wanna see toshi get his ass beat and i know some of the ua teachers would be able to do it ? #possibly. #but also fight threads are fun. #i don't get to indulge in them often enough to justify the hours i put into studying how to fight write. #there's also some students that i KNOW would be able to kick his ass if they had the same level of battle sense as toshi does. #but unfortunately for them he's been doing this shit for 40 years... #he's definitely what we would call old #i mean — experienced. #and until they get a little more of that i don't think there's many that'd be able to take him down. not alone anyway. #if they all collectively jumped him....then maybe. #wait that'd be kinda funny actually — #anyway in case you couldn't tell i'm sorta around today. #tomorrow is the cardio appt at 2. #tbh i am struggling. i'm constantly in pain and no sleep is good sleep. #so even though i just slept for like...14 hours #ate breakfast #and then took a 4 hour nap #i am still exhausted. #BUT I'M GONNA MAKE AN ATTEMPT TO POST SOMETHING TODAY. hopefully multiple somethings. #maybe....small things.....we'll see. #tbd

[lemmymade]

this is my only finished art of this show so far and like when i say finished i mean like. mostly finished? because i intended to go over it and add little details and refine it which i did start (you can kinda tell by looking at alastors hair lol) but i kinda gave up bc it felt like too much work for something that didnt actually add much

also i didnt want to only post this so heres a bunch of sketches and stuff ive done too. mostly screenshot redraws

((+the sketch of the finished drawing bc i like it still))

#hazbin hotel #alastor hazbin hotel #rosie hazbin hotel #charlie hazbin hotel #lucifer hazbin hotel #my art #hi. i had to force myself to post this bc i was struggling with perfectionism i think?? #like i was so focused on it not being 'good enough' even tho i wanted to like. idk #participate in the fandom ig? #IDK ITS DUMB im just self conscious about my art ig.. .. . . #i was in a complete art block for over a year so thats probably why but oh well. trying to get over it at least #i feel like every single one of these drawings look like theyre in a different style but im trying not to think about it

[neurospicyyy]

Yes, I threw fits when I was a kid.

No, I wasn’t in control.

No, you shouldn’t judge me for it.

Yes, I am aware you think I had the choice.

But surely you understand I didn’t really have one?

Surly you understand I was struggling?

That I’m still struggling?

That I always will be?

#neurodivergent #adhd #actually adhd #ocd #childhood memories #sorta vent in tags vv #I’m still dealing with the social consequences of that time period. People’s attitude towards me after those years #really damaged my mental health. Sometimes I think I’m not enough. #That my problems aren’t enough to say I was struggling. Then I look back… and yeah I can tell I was struggling #Idk wtf was going on because my adhd and ocd probably didn’t cause that. But I don’t show enough signs of autism to even #consider being diagnosed. Sometimes I wonder if I actually was in control. There was no trauma. No serious issues. Nothing. #Because I was running around like a maniac whenever I got upset. It stopped only after 3rd grade. With the help of a good teacher. #my so called “meltdowns” are probably internal now. I kinda s3lf h@rm and stuff when I don’t get my way now. When I’m seething in self #loathing because of something I did. You know. Normal behavior. #My life is a freaking mess. And it’s nobody’s fault. Except maybe my own? I don’t know. I always forget about that time period. Probably ca #se the teachers gave me a lot of bad memories during it. It wasn’t because of the teachers… but they certainly weren’t helping. #neurospicy #neurosparkly #actually ocd #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #I tell myself i didn’t have the choice though. I was young… #sorry for the vent

[musubiki]

hello! quick question, i know this is very soon after you posted the comic of young lime trying to bully mochi, and i’m sorry if a question like this has been asked before, but when mochi sees the candy bits and is able to recognize what spells they could be used in and the effects they have, is that from studying magic a lot or is it like a natural identification ability/instinct that she has? thank you!! i hope you have a good day :)

oh thats a great question actually!!!! it comes from studying!!!!

as a kid she was already trying to be a very diligent witch-to-be!! she would spend a lot of time with her mom while she was making spells, so between reading a lot of spellbooks + hanging out when her mom was making potions + wanting to be like her mom, shes good at spotting things that could be used in spells even from an early age!!

(that being said, as a kid she still messed up a lot on the right ingredients. shed bring home random items and be like "I got us spell ingredients!!" and tiramisu would be like "Oh!! Thanks sweetie!!" and didnt have the heart to tell her that whatever she brought home was some useless piece of grass or something jkldj)

#i guess nothing is really USELESS to a witch but there are items that are like. dont really grab those #either cuz theyre abundant enough that you dont need to collect them or the effects are so weak its not worth it #baby mochi had such a passion for magic and was so excited to be a witch and have magic one day #but when she gets magic and works with it she gets hella discouraged #she frequently wishes she had the mind of her 5 year old self who was so full of enthusiasm #but she messes up so much as a witch and its so exhausting it becomes more like a chore #like how you have a childhood dream of being an astronomer or artist something #but once you grow up you face so many struggles pursuing it you lose the love for it #magic burnout is mochis character arc #she finds herself again eventually and becomes confident in magic #but in a more mature way that uses it responsibly and loves it for what it really is #and less like her baby self that wanted to make cookies and fireworks appear out of thin air #the tags got serious but the question was cute #i hope you have a good day too!!!!!!!!!!! #new thing i never touched on: mochi character arc #you see hints of it in the webtoon though. its rough for her starting out. pom was not easy on her #but i think its the kind of familiar she needed

[gideonisms]

explaining my lifestyle: no see this looks like horrible depression but I actually feel much better than I did when I was putting work into improving myself ♥️

#my apartment looks fine and average and my grades are fine and average #my skin looks fine and average my clothing is just okay my relationships aren't in the trash fire #yes i spend 10-12 hours a day zoning out or doing stuff unrelated to anything i'm supposed to be doing #yes i only leave this apt a few times a week #yes i struggle to eat enough sleep at consistent times and turn stuff in on time #but being kind of dysfunctional is incredibly relaxing #i go to bed actively hoping i'll wake up! like i will be there going oh hope i get to live the whole year/decade/next fifty years so i can #do my fun activities! #idk if this is actually true but it *feels* like the very first time since i was 18 that nothing is on fire #love to not be actively on fire #i think everyone should experience 'oh man i've been exhausted for a decade and i am going to spend most of a year being weird about it' #you truly have to work it out of your system it makes you hateful and anxious otherwise