#i wanna say i am not jealous but i am

[rb9]

charles leclerc has ice cream, a ferrari, and a puppy. he is living the dream. my dream specifically

#lil baby leo leclerc is the cutest lil fucker in the world holy moly #i wanna say i am not jealous but i am #deeply jealous actually #f1 #charles leclerc #ferrari

[kimbapisnotsushi]

haikyuu is NOT realistic!!!! and it's not because of the underdog plotline or the insane athletic skill or funky character designs but because in the timeskip everyone gets a job that they are perfectly content with and more or less suits them to a tee and don't seem concerned for their futures whatsoever all before the age of thirty

#okay except maybe makki. but he's chilling so whatever #it is literally the thing i am most jealous about in hq #do i wanna be hinata with muscles that could smash watermelons in half and traveling the world to play volleyball?? #no i wanna be a side character with a stable job and financial stability who has time to hang out with their friends!!!! #GOD i wish that were me #also hey guys sorry for awol!! #it was a little bit shit both inside and outside my life #and posting might be the only bit of nonhopelessness that i've got so!! going to slowly make my way back into it #haikyuu!! #haikyuu #sou says stuff

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

What Humboldt hospitality looks like at a wedding 😍🤩💨

#from my friend's wedding this past weekend #i probably spent about 80% of the wedding in here #fuck man i wanna get married and have something like this #it was such a picturesque dream wedding and I am honestly so jealous #stoner #i also smoked with a plethora of interesting guests including one of my high school teachers #gotta say though the joints weren't very strong I slammed through like ~10 of them over the course of the evening #even with my tolerance I should have been knocked on my ass at least a little #anyway these were the only pictures I took of the wedding 😂 #also got to smoke a joint with the bride at the end of the night and she was a delightful lady and seems perfect for my friend #life of faye

[koumeowkami]

nah actually i'm so mad that we only have two (2) judah drama track tls. what the hell

#not to say i'm jealous of other fans getting all of their faves drama cds translated but. i kinda am #same thing for a-tan btw. we know so little of these guys it drives me insane #“but we actually know stuff cause there are trivia posts abt it-” I WANNA LISTEN TO THE DRAMA TRACKS GODDAMNIT #i'm so salty tonight oh my god #🌸 ; lyn rambles about stuff

[hauntingblue]

YAMATO NEW NAKAMA PLEASE 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️LUFFY PLEASE!!!!

#do kaido and big mom end up in the same hole??? lmaoo yamato get luffy!!! hell yes!!! #now a military trial for all the beast pirates come on!!! everyone to udon jail #APOO IS STILL ALIVE???. FUCK OFF!!!!!!! #i understand law is not on a state to be a medic but marco.... pick up some slack.... #toko :((( no fucking way they are coming out of the hole..... they aren't.... the better not.... #HIYORI!!!! no reunion??? :(( #tama first girl to adopt a mother... also why do they have the same eyes... also is nami not enough for you.... or luffy.... your uncle... #hiyori girl dont kneel.... thats your 8 year old brother.... tama backstory omg.... tama dont cry omg.... she's gonna make me cry too... #izo is dead for real.... he was shown on the dead people highlight reel.... omg.... kinemon looking like a proud dad... #that hiyori and momo reunion.... i need more... what was that.... #episode 1078 #talking tag #watching one piece #who tf is that talking to the cp0... #hawkins is alive.... oh now he regrets it.... now he is dead... well..... #can't believe izo is dead... marco saying he cant believe he is alive... WELL YOU FOUGHT TWO TIMES AND THEM DID FUCK ALL WHILE IZO DIED???? #i am so mad at this man you dont understand. HIYORI DROPKICKED MOMO AJSHAJA YEAHHH!!! #luffy and zoro waking up at the same time... it started with them too... oof #in my bliss of luffy winning and gear 5 and all i hadn't realised my pink haired samurai hasn't appeared in a while... i fear the worst.... #i love how luffy having a meal is animated like a fight... omg zoro too... using his three head technique... #nami being the first to hit momo akdjaks. well deserved also #yamato not bathing or eating for zoro and luffy and hiyori bathing zoro ajdhskjs. omg this looks like sanji is jealous FA- #nami having to think hard about who bathes where lmao sanji and brook need an execution #OTAMA WHAT ARE YOU DOING AJDHSJSHSJ ME ASF ALSO SORRY. also where tf is robin. DID THEY TAKE HER??? oh nvm there is another group... #kid you are so right he is annoying. kill him. come on!!! SAKAZUKI DIE!!!! they just wanna make me mad atp... ALSO WHERE IS ROBIN?? #episode 1079 #why is there a country with a giant picture of sabo in their clock tower lmaoo #luffy looks so little beside yamato omg.... omg soul king brook ft kozuki hiyori rock version.... AND I DONT GET TO HEAR IT???? #robin with her poneglyphs of course.... AND BROOK OWES HER TWO MORE!!!! #MOMOS GRANDFATHER???? AND HE TOOK CARE OF TAMA WHO HAS ORICHIS LAST NAME!!!

[widevibratobitch]

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#coming to tumblr for the first time in three days just to bitch because i feel like shit <333 #sorry if i havent responded to your message i will as soon as i get a grip but rn im just too busy #both with uni and with crying because a friend said a mean thing to me lol #and because im tired of this new friendship already and tired of hearing this girl talking how great she is lol #am i jealous? fuck yeah i am. #and it's not like she's mean like straight up. cause like. #when i say im really considering quitting and dropping out she tries to encourage me ig #but then she follows it up with 'ofc *I* never had a problem with this and that because it always just came naturally to me teehee #but yknow. dont give up uwu' #and she keeps sending me recordings of her singing to tell her how good she is and always tells me how her teacher praises her #and like. its cool. like i get it that its a nice feeling when you do something well and wanna share that joy with a friend #but idk. i just think its kinda. well not mean but a litt #*a little tone deaf? when ive just been telling her that im in a Bad Place rn and my voice isnt working as it should #and my pianist is bullying me and i end up crying on almost every lesson #and she hits me with a 'damn that sucks fuck that pianist dont give up tho <3 #now do you wanna listen to me sing bel raggio lusinghier like a pro and my professor telling me i am sublime?' #also when i tell her that im sorry that im not very social and i just cannot stay and chat cause im having a horrible day today #and really dont feel well and she's like 'yeah i havent noticed anything you're always like that... *side eye*' in a way that suggests #im a horrible friend cause im not talking with her enough and yet again im disappointing her (aint that familiar lol) #i just. idk. the last two-three weeks have been absolutely horrible to me. i cant get out of bed i havent done a single colorful make up #in so long ive basically forgotten how to do that. and i loved doing fun make up looks that make people tell me i look like a clown. #but i just dont have the energy to do anything more than put on a random tshirt and spray dry shampoo on my unwashed hair #i dont even wear my rings anymore. ive stopped caring about being the pinkest slayest queerest looking bitch in the room cause i just. cant #and even some casual friend of mine asked me yesterday if im okay cause they can see something is Not Right. but SHE not only doesnt notice #anything. i have a feeling she feels like im disappoing and neglecting her because i cant be bothered to text with her 24/7 #like idk. maybe its just my imagination but i barely even feel like an actual person. more like just a homunculus made to trail after her #and listen to her bragging about how pretty/talented/unbothered she is #oh and also for her to keep dissing m/ozart lol like idk why it hurts me so bad but then ig its not that unusual to feel shitty #when someone keeps talking shit about something you really love and are passionate about and making you feel like an idiot #because you like it. because its stupid and boring and you're a simpleton for enjoying it instead of liking sth more 'ambitious'

[reddiamondyeet]

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#red rants #I'm so fucking awful. god #I care about people so much but my first thought everytime is me first. me me me. #One of my friends will be crying and there will be that overwhelming voice in my head saying “can't they just get over themselves already?” #AND I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT WAY. I DON'T WANT TO BE CRUEL LIKE THAT. #BUT I DON'T LOVE. IT'S NOT SOMETHING I FEEL. IN ALMOST ANY WAY. #the closest thing I have is my mother #I care about them. I really do. But I can't keep doing this. #I can't keep watching them break and not being able to feel anything for them but apathy. #what am I even supposed to say? all the tactics that work with them require those emotions i can't feel! #and all the tactics I can use only hurt them more! I'm so sick of this! #I'm sick of seeing them suffer and my first thought being “At least people see you. You're lucky and you don't even know it” #I'M SICK OF BEING A JEALOUS LOVELESS ANTISOCIAL ASSHOLE I WANT FRIENDS I WANT LOVE I WANT IT SO BADLY #but what the fuck am I supposed to do. I'm too tired to even think about changing myself. #I might as well not even try to be friends with anyone. I'm not going to able to be there for them when it counts most. #maybe I've just fucking doomed myself into loneliness. I don't wanna be alone. I don't want you to be alone. You shouldn't have to be alone. #but turns out my fucking shitty broken brain is too exhausted to care about people more often than not. #i care so much i loop back around to not caring. how fucking amazing. whatever. i've never kept anyone for that long anyway #guess I'm just doomed to fail

[transgender-catboy]

I'M BACK, LOOK AT THIS MAN!!!!

#god #GOD #... #breathing... #breeeaathiinggg #👁️👁️ #i. am fighting the urge to draw him...um. #ehe #....... i shan't say #i mean. i might. it's just gonna take a minute to get there so expect a wall of tags #teehee :3c #okayokayokay let me ramble for a minute... okay. so. peeb? you see him. he's right there. he's beautiful. #let's talk about him. but like not coherent thought because I'm so head over heels that i can't even think straight #(also because I'm a raging homosexual. ain't nothin straight about my infatuation) #his hair? im jealous. i wish my hair was that effortlessly nice. but. he'd totally use that like 76-in-one shampoo conditioner body wash #at least when he was living on his own. man was not practicing self care and that was visible by him sitting in the shower in his suit. #mood peeb. i understand. #good god. uh. whoa okay. that made me think of somethin gay #i... wanna draw him and widow sharing a comforting bath #the kind where one is gently washing the others hair. massaging shampoo into their scalp. the poor sap damn near nodding off in the tub #false widow and tragedy would be so kind to him (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠) thats why I'm making a peeb for them #he's not gonna be a spider. idk what he's gonna be yet. maybe a high school teacher #and widow has/had a sibling that went there and they became friends from him always picking them up from school #AH #okay okay being gay now #cuddles? thinkin about it again. but I think mayhaps sometimes he'd like to be little spoon #someone needs to hold that man and i would be more than happy to step up to the plate #oh also have i mentioned how i love that he doesn't have perfectly straight teeth? yeah. happy about that #little details just make me love him nore #more*

[jonny-b-meowborn]

Y'know I really wish I knew more furries/otherkin personally. Like some of my friends are furries, but to my knowledge no one I know is otherkin, and I just wish I had someone like this around me. Maybe someone I know online is, but idk. My best friend who I love more than anything is a human and I mentioned to her a few times that I kinda vibe with the therian label, but I never went too deep into that. Honestly I'm just too embarrassed to talk about it with her, and that's the main reason why I go to Tumblr to talk about that. If I can't talk with my bestie about something I'm just gonna say it to a bunch of strangers online who can't judge me to my face lmao. But yeah, I really wish I knew someone like this irl, I really wish to have just. Otherkin interactions. Y'know I wanna have someone that isn't weirded out by me making some animal noises sometimes and could pet me like a kitty and all that cool stuff. I just wanna have more doggy friends to be doggies with

#sometimes i read patricia taxxons posts where she talks about interactions with her friends and how they do treat her like a dog and. #im just so jealous ngl #i dont think im at the same level of dogginess as her #shes way more into that therian stuff than me #but still. some of the things she says. i want that too #and if it turns out i do know some therians online thats really cool and i love that #but yknow as much as i think online friends are just as valid as irl friends there are some things you just cant do with an online friend #like cuddle like lil animals or get pets and all that physical stuff #okay also. i am again worried that all this sounds like some kink stuff #i dont know if its just my anxiety or if it really reads like that #but it is not that im just. an ouppy #not that like pet kinks or whatever are bad in any way theyre cool i just wanna be clear that i mean therian stuff not kink stuff lmao #bee buzz

[melchinafan]

[Image ID: a screenshot from the Redfall hero trailer for Devinder. The shot is from the perspective of his phone camera, showing him in profile with a charming smile as he turns to start documenting the ashed vampire (not pictured, but laying off-screen on the floor of the general store).]

Find yourself someone who looks at you the way Devinder looks at that sizzling vampire skeleton.

#redfall #devinder crousley #am I jealous of that vampire skeleton? #...maybe #what of it?? anyway #I have enjoyed all of these trailers #but I love Dev's the most #the questions the others bombard him with #the fact that each question DOES get answered one way or another #'that's delicate equipment!' Dev it's your phone #I'm sure you've tinkered with it but still #'self-taught I'm proud to say' SIR YOU INVENTED A /TELEPORTER/ #Dev's sentiment of why he endeavors to share his stories (which is also VERY much an Art mood) #his book title accidentally(?) being one that could double as a monsterfucker romance title #I hope there's chapters of it scattered about in-game #I wanna read it so bad #I want ALL THE LORE and Dev is the PERFECT avenue for it I love him

[boimgfrog]

how am I actively losing weight (not a good thing, dont congratulate me) and yet all my pants are still too tight on me. brother I bought you when I was this exact weight last year what do you MEAN I can't even button you fully

#jay says a thing #the disclaimer is unfortunately necessary #we live in a society where i can say 'i have a medical issue that makes me erratically lose weight' #and ppl will trip over themselves to tell me how lucky i am and how jealous they are #hm. maybe dont say that to someone suffering a medical condition. maybe dont do that. #anyways. WHY DONT MY PANTS FITTTTTTTT #i just wanna wear my cute slacks to work and i CANT

[xamaxenta]

Idk im really against the whole forgive your parents trope in media it feels very eyeroll to me

Maybe im cynical bitter and all that fun stuff from my own less than fun experiences but I was thinking about if Roger would ever show up in pokemon au bc I’ve mentioned several times how he’s a deadbeat who got himself lost and whats why Ace never had a dad in his life and he’s fucked up about it because his mom loves him still and Ace cant understand why if the mans never around whats so great about him

Why does his mom still love and speak of him fondly if he never comes back for them?

Idk how it can be redeemable but Roger is probably a foolish man with an untameable thirst for adventure and thats why he’s been away, like even Rayleigh his best friend never got any calls or whatever to say hes even alive god

But i just thought about Roger appearing on Ace’s doorstep, the resemblance is frankly uncanny and Marco gets to rise earlier than he would’ve liked on his day off with the sound of fire engulfing one of the old (empty) storage barns

And Ace might become something unhinged in the next several minutes, say some awful things he doesn’t mean, fights his father with a team of five fire type Pokémon that would die for him and Ace loses

Snarls at this strange unfamiliar person to leave him alone and it all condenses into him crying uncontrollably in Rogers arms because where the f. U ck was he?

Anyway it doesnt make much sense but it made me go 🥺

#am i projecting #absolutely! i just want to have a loving parent. because my parents were narcs and verbally abusive and misogynisticassfucks #op pokemon au #sometimes i think about the people who have good relationships with their parents and i get eternlly jealous. i cant have that. #it fucking sucks sometimws i wanna say mum dad i need help #but fat chance my parents ever would.

[marinaimsure]

date idea: we watch aot and we kiss everytime someone dies

#LMAOOOOO #nah im kidding #i dont go to dates LMAO #my best friend was telling me today abt her going on a first date with some guy #my other two friends have had a boyfriend for over a year now #im LONEEELLYYYT #im okay. it's fine. (says through gritted teeth) #sometimes it feels like a curse that i am a hopeless romantic but also demiromantic. #i don't think ive ever experienced love. ive always been in love with the IDEA of being in love tho #btw. im happy for my friends. VERY HAPPY. i dont wanna seem like im jealous. but yyyeeaah

[blueprint-han]

did i make a mistake?

#sigh dawnie crush issues in the tags #so yeah fair warning #........................................................................................................................................... #idk man I just. i feel like instead of getting closer weve grown more distant ever since he asked me out and its killing me man #i dont wanna be hurt. im so fragile rn and just starting to heal from the years of trauma i faced in my family. when i try to talk #about any issue i have to him he just. ignores the text #or gives me a very dry response which hey. im not trying to say u should listen to my issues all the time. i get that some people dont want #to. but i would just much rather have someone tell me that directly yk? just a hey i dont do well with rants. but the thing is he said hes #fine with them. but then when i get nothing to address it i just. i feel hurt. like... ive started to wonder if hes just keeping the #relation for namesake at this point but ik that isnt true. weve only been dating 2 weeks or so i shouldnt judge so soon. but man its hard #to not overthink ive always been conditioned to do that. ive always been super excited when he plans a date (which he doesnt even call #a date) but when i try to plan smth its always that he has some other plan to attend to which again i get it im not the jealous date who #asks her s/o to be for her every waking moment but yk it does hurt and i feel instead of just letting it bottle up its better to admit it. #i tried to ask him to get cotton candy once and he said wed go the next day and then he forgot. never asked me a time or anything. i didnt #think of it much cuz hed gone to meet a friend outside the city and he mustve been tired. yesterday i asked him again and he said he was #again going outside the city to meet his 12th grader friend. man am i jealous of that girl who gets to spend more time with the guy #who asked me out than ive collectively spent with him #and no i dont mean this in a toxic way like “oh hes meeting other girls he shouldnt do that” i just. man i pictured so much out of my first #relationship. and i got nothing. not one thing out of it. i guess it makes sense cuz my love language is mostly physical touch and u cant #really do that in a campus in India. and its also wrong of me to hold him to such high standards of a perfect relationship when the guy #himself has been in one for the first time (i assume?) but like i said id rather not try to hide my emotions and express them out openly. #theres still so much more about this that i feel wrong but the thing is its confusing cuz i feel like the two years of torture in my house #has made it so that the trauma from never hearing i love you wnd words of affirmation from my parents has been reflecting off this place. #its wrong of me to do this but i expected everything that i couldnt recieve to be fulfilled in a relationship and i now realise how stupid #i was yk? cuz its wrong of me to put such harsh expectations on him like that. i feel like such a shallow person for getting depressed over #a relationship that has just been going for 1 week #theres also the thing where he generally seemed more excited to talk to me before? and now i just get the dryest responses ever out of #which no conversation can be built. and again im not expecting him to be online and respond immediately but a thoughtful response goes a #long way. again ik im being so harsh on him cuz its his first time too and he must be facing the same awkwardness im facing but jesus. i #ok my tags are over im continuing in a reblog