#i wish i could get more involved in it

[fablexdreams]

I like the rdr2 epilogue, and I'm tired of pretending I don't. (I literally have never pretended. I have always made my love clear.) Is John's model questionable? Mhm. Does he look a bit too much like Arthur? Yep. Could R* have put a bit more work into it? For sure. Do I still love it, tho? Very much so. The family moments between John, Abigail, and Jack? His friendship with Sadie, Charles, and Uncle? The whispers of Arthur and Dutch in everything John is/does? R* actually showing John's struggle to leave the outlaw life behind and be there for his family instead of just pretending he became a perfect family man overnight, (like a lot of other games would have done)? John's adorably sweet and emo journal entries? It all makes up for it for me. I love the epilogue.

#john marston #red dead redemption #red dead redemption 2 #could it just be me blinded by love for everything involving JM? #probably #definitely #still love it tho #the best things in life are flawed #I'll take any john and jack content i can get #john and arthur as well #and the epilogue had plenty #that's good enough for me #i really do wish they would have spent more time on his appearance tho #I'm just glad to be playing as John no matter what tbh #love that man fr

[sweetandglovelyart]

#Kirby #Kirby memes #Bandana Waddle Dee #Bandana Dee #Parasol Waddle Dee #Sailor Waddle Dee #Sailor Dee #rip Sailor Dee not appearing in a game since 2011 #I think my one complaint about Kirby as a series is that characters outside of the main four are often forgotten about or never used again #like I feel like every game will introduce a new character and then we maybe see them just one or two more times before they disappear #and don’t get me wrong I do enjoy seeing new characters introduced in new games #but I do wish that the characters that already exist would be acknowledged more or given more depth and development #because I feel like there’s a lot of potential there like we could see so many more stories or games involving them #I feel like there’s a lot of potential for more Magolor Epilogue type of stuff with other characters #I think it’d be nice to see what all the former antagonists have been up to after the end of their games #I think that Star Allies kind of does this a little bit but just on a surface level not more in depth #this is why I like exploring this stuff in my fanart lmao like if HAL/Nintendo won’t do it I’ll do it myself

[sciderman]

You said that if you dated Peter or Wade it would make you miserable. Which– Okay fair, Wade does have a history of purposely hurting the people he loves.

But what about Peter? Why do you think dating him would make you miserable?

because I’ll always know I had the option to climb a 6’8 cyborg and I passed that up for a sweaty little twunk that I perpetually have to remind to bathe (sorry peter)

#I don’t know. I don’t think peter is good boyfriend material. I think his insecurities would get exhausting. #Wade has bottomless patience. me… I don’t know. I don’t think I could. I’ve got my own stuff going on. I don’t want a Project. #peter is definitely a project. and he needs someone with shed loads of patience and perseverance. #me I just. I wanna have a good time. so. come to me my big beautiful time traveller. whisk me away. #take me to the beach. you can disappear after I don’t mind I’m not needy. just spend a beautiful romantic week with me. #sci speaks #I don’t really know what kind of person I’m compatible with really actually. #all my relationships have been. pretty short. #and I don’t think it’s any fault of my own really. and I don’t feel any loss over them at all. like at all. I wish I did. but I don’t. #a sci has so very thankfully never felt heartbreak. #but it makes me kind of question what kind of person I am when it comes to this sort of thing. #because I really don’t know. #I don’t know if I want commitment. I don’t even know if I want sex these days. #I … weirdly… am so devoid of yearning these days. like I feel content right now on my own. I don’t even feel lonely. #I used to yearn but I think I’ve moved past it. and I kind of just want to have a good time. #and that doesn’t even . involve a relationship or anything anymore. like I don’t think I want one actually. it feels like I’m Over it. #it’s kind of great because I’ve never felt so calm in a long time. all because I decided that I don’t. actually Need anything. #I don’t need anything more than what I have. and that’s brought me rest after So Long being restless. #but if a massive time traveller came and whisked me away on sexy adventures how could I say no

[hood-ex]

wait idk anything about the tevis’— why would tommy tevis call dick his son? would you be willing to give a quick rundown

After Dick failed to get himself incarcerated, he became an enforcer for a mob boss named Tommy Tevis. Tommy took Dick in and made him part of his family. Tommy considered him an honorary son and thought very highly of him.

Nightwing (Vol. 2) #107

He even told Dick that everything he had (his home, his reputation, his family, etc.) was Dick's as well. Lynette, Tommy's wife, told Dick that Tommy would let Dick do anything. The whole family loved Dick, including Tommy's 15 year old daughter, Sophia. Sophia actually had a crush on Dick, but Dick acted like an older brother to her, helping her with her homework and such.

While Dick was away from the family for a few days, the cops busted into the Tevis's home. Lynette got killed in the gunfire, Tommy got taken to jail, and Sophia got taken in by the state.

Dick, while mentoring Rose, broke Sophia out of the state home. He got Sophia to help him with the mob. Then, when Chemo fell on Bludhaven, Dick saved Sophia and left her with Amy. When they reunited at the hospital, Dick asked Sophia to leave the mob behind and join a boarding school.

So, yeah, that's Dick's relationship with the Tevis family.

#no but i love when tommy tells dick that bruce must be proud of him--and dick gets this shameful look on his face and stays quiet #and then tommy playfully pinches dick's cheek and tells him not to worry bc he thinks dick is great/he thinks highly of dick #i mean say what you want about tommy being in the mob and all--but he does seem to be tuned in to dick's emotions #and when the other mobster was kinda grilling dick about being bruce's heir--tommy was frowning real hard on dick's behalf #and he later checked in with dick and was like hey that was kind of shitty and i don't want you feeling like your back's against the wall #like idk it just shows that tommy does care about dick--and he knows bruce is a sore spot for dick #dick--on the other hand--is a bit more emotionally distant from the family #he's just gone through some very traumatizing events and now he's doing some morally questionable things #so there's no way he can be truly authentic with the family when his whole lifestyle is now inauthentic to who he really is #and we see that when dick goes on a job that has a kid involved--and he didn't know there would be a kid there #and he gets very upset about a gun being involved and having a kid watch her dad get beat #so even though he might care about the tevis family--i don't think he could ever feel Truly part of the family #honestly wish a writer would bring back sophia though. would be nice to see dick still in contact with her #Dick Grayson #Tommy Tevis #anon

[turtletoria]

i feel like an incredible hater for this but i feel as i get older the more my tolerance for shipping decreases. like i went from an avid enjoyer to just tolerating ship art to now getting outright upset and fighting the urge to curse every time i see shipping content (this doesnt apply to my mutuals and friends who ship things because they can do no wrong ever)

#idk why it boils my blood like that. like genuinely it makes my online enjoyment really take a steep nosedive since 99.9% of any fandom- #content is shipping #maybe its the hater in me. maybe its the aroace tendencies in me. maybe im just antisocial and disagreeable. idk! #like shipping isnt morally bad or anything it just makes me so sad. idk #like ppl always prioritize romance over friendship and make fun of friendships as if they arent gay enough or smth and it rlly hurts me. id #like idk how to say it. everyone can have fun and stuff but it rlly makes me feel like im having fun wrong bc shipping looks fun but i cant #stomach it. like i miss having fun like that but i cant stand it anymore #like friendships r so devalued and even in frienship is magic type media friendships STILL take a backseat like whats up with that #like i hope this isnt coming across like a “i hate romance! i hate love!” kind of post but more so a why dont ppl focus on characters if - #they cant be romantically involved? #like i will alwaayyss be bitter abt willow from toh getting sidelined until she could be shipped with hunter like that pissed me off so bad #but like ur fave characters cant stand alone they neeeed to be romantically involved with someone for their love or dedication to be real #like love and dedication cant be genuine unless theyre romantically or sexually attracted? idk man #talking abt this is tricky bc u can fall into anti-sex/conservative rhetoric with this but i hope u can understand what im saying #like sex is great and romantic love is great but i wish the greater public would just have some freedom to explore concepts of dedication- #and trust that go beyond that framework. like there was a comment on reddit that framed aroace as the nonbinary of relationships and I- #thought that was really neat. yeah

[devilsskettle]

dinner in america is such a “take what you want from it and leave the rest” movie for me because i do think it’s very cute and i can buy into some of the wish fulfillment nature of the story but admittedly there are some parts that really don’t work for me, there are some parts that fall a little flat either in terms of the characters or humor, and the pacing is a bit of a challenge tbh. but it’s unbelievable what the human brain can overcome by virtue of simply Just Liking That Guy

#idk i just like that guy #obviously i’m a loser girl enjoyer but i have some qualms about how infantilized patty is throughout the script #it must be said i worry how much of the wish fulfillment thing is about guys wanting to date fairly naive young women who don’t know things #and who are ‘innocent’ and easy to take advantage of etc #but i also think that a LOT of the wish fulfillment thing is being a young woman in the world for the first time #feeling unsure about how you make sense of the world and your place in it #feeling pretty inexperienced wrt intimacy etc #and having someone see you very clearly for who you are and not caring about you figuring your shit out #and just liking you and wanting to be with you and thinking the stuff that makes you a freaky little weirdo is rad af #so like simon’s narrative role ends up being WAY more mpdg than patty’s and that actually saves the movie for me lol #anyway sorryyyyy for turning into a kyle gallner fan blog. frankly predictable behavior from tumblr user ‘devilsskettle’ though tbqh #also this movie is like. if may from may (2002) grew up in a healthy family and found somebody who could match her energy #instead of that asshole poser she gets involved with #so good for her. definitely part of the weird girl cinematic universe #honestly feels like a movie that should’ve come out in 2002 instead of 2020

[polaraffect]

i really wish you could name achievement showcases on steam because i really want one that looks something like this

#damien.txt #sdkjfghsdjs it would be fun #in case you're wondering what the achievements are: #1) baldur's gate 3: dark urge take over the netherbrain and destroy the world #2) hollow knight: leave zote to die (<- worst on this list tbh ifykyk) #3) pentiment - get matilda executed (no spoilers but unbelievably she does NOT deserve that. like i felt incredibly fucked up doing it) #4) A Date With Death - kill your flower. this one isnt that bad lol just a fun little insert #5) DRAMAtical murder - get the clear bad end. (😳) #6) slay the princess - kill/get killed by the burned grey. (many betrayals involved in this one) #7) DRAMAtical murder - get the virus/trip bad? end (😳😳😳) #sdfjghskdf most of these are not actually that bad and if i cared to look thru my achievements more i could probably find better replacemen #but fr i wish this was a steam feature. would be very cool.

[pathologising]

I hold hope for the future of our youth only because I see the efforts the world is undertaking today despite the evils that are currently ongoing

#my boss was at the free palestine protests at dc this weekend and took pics and videos for me and i cried #i wish i could have gone i think im.going to fknd something local and see what i can do bc i want to get involved in my c0mmunity more

[oveliagirlhaditright]

I still can't believe out of everyone and everything that could have gotten rid of the loophole in Angel's curse, it was Illyria (strongly hinted at the very end of the season 12 comics). Just goes to show how the Powers That Be don't care about their champions, and are really kind of evil (though we already knew that). And they were probably keeping the loophole on purpose, thinking that if it wasn't there he and Buffy would just run off and be happy together instead of fighting for them, the bastards.

#buffy the vampire slayer #angel #bangel #buffy comics #buffy season 12 #buffy the vampire slayer comics #buffy the vampire slayer season 12 #but this has gotten me thinking 'could only someone in the series who was a god. or had god-like powers. get rid of the loophole then?' #and making me want to write some different aus now. like part of me is now wondering if maybe in the future dawn could have somehow gotten #rid of it. as she was the key connected to the goddess glory. and in the comics she stars figuring out how to use her powers and stuff #there are some ideas here for fanfiction #especially since usually in fanfiction that gets rid of it it's usually willow (maybe with tara helping her. sometimes buffy's blood being #involved) #which i GET. but the idea that it was illyria opens some other doors in fanon maybe #and how i wish more 'canon' things would explore it. and bangel in general again. looking at you boom #but you know the god thing kind of does make sense because there's also how buffy and angel have sex in s8 when they're both gods and that #doesn't trigger the curse. either because angel's technically not a vampire with a cursed soul there he's a god and/or they keep the curse #(probably he does) keep the curse being triggered with their powers or something #but back to the dawn thing: as silly as this no doubt is. there's a part of me that wants to write her just portaling the loophole away whe #she discovers her portal powers. lol. i don't think anyone's ever done anything like that before #but i bring this all up because i just read this one really well-written fic where illyria got rid of the loophole #which got me thinking about how she's the one to do so in canon #and then about the loophole in general

[running-in-the-dark]

I've gotta go to the dentist again tomorrow. I got two fillings done on Thursday but they feel really rough and it's hurting my tongue (plus my brain doesn't stop noticing something like that so I'm constantly aware of it and it's exhausting), so I've got to get that fixed.

this time I have to drive myself, so I can't take any Lorazepam. I'm pretty sure it's gonna be a quick visit anyway, at least this kind of thing has never taken long in the past, so. it should be fine, I know that. but I feel so shitty anyway. it's like the anxiety/fear is there right below the surface but it can't quite come out (probably thanks to the anxiety meds) so I just feel off all day. it sucks (though I much prefer this over the actual anxiety, that completely ruined the days leading up to anything like this).

#plus I've been extremely tired all day so that doesn't help #I should go to bed but I don't want to #then I'll wake up and it'll be tomorrow and I'll have to go there and it'll be scary and I don't want to :( #it's so weird that going to the dentist used to be one of the things that DIDN'T scare me. or at least not any more than just regular #everyday stuff #but now anything medical that involves anything being DONE (so not just a visit to talk about something) is fucking terrifying #i just don't want to struggle anymore. I want to get up every day/most days and just feel alright and for everything to be neutral #everything feels so difficult and like I can't do it and what's the point anyway. if I can't do this at 31 then it's never gonna get better #right? how could it #ugggh #I'm so fucking scared of being done with uni. if I get a job I don't know how I'll cope. I already can't handle life and I don't do #ANYTHING right now 😭 #I just wish my brain would shut up #for a little while at least #personal

[echoed-evenings]

I don’t know which is worse, the fact that thousands of people are about to be and currently being murdered or the fact that I can’t do anything about it

#times like this I wish I was just a god who could wrap my arms around everyone and keep them safe #I know this is not my fight but that’s a stupid sentiment #just because im not involved doesn’t mean I can’t care #I will cry over this as much as I want and pray to whatever is out there that as many people get the out of there and somewhere safe #I wish the world wasn’t so evil #and I wish I could do more then just protest or throw money it’s way and hope it turns out #palestine #genocide #Gaza #israel

[7thbutterflyofspring]

I get that people love the whole ‘everyone knows Alice is in love w/ Bob except for Bob’ trope but, as an aroace person, I’m kinda sad w/ how this always ends w/ Alice & Bob getting together. Where are the stories where it turns out Bob isn’t interested? Where Bob’s obliviousness is due to disinterest in dating anyone? Where Bob was entirely aware of Alice’s affection, and it was everyone else who was oblivious to his attempts to reject her? Where are the stories dealing with the fallout of this situation where everyone is expecting Alice & Bob to end up together, and that doesn’t happen?

#aromantic #asexual #aroace #romance #tropes #I get that it’s a romance trope #but as someone disinterested in romance #I wish there were more stories dealing w/ how that disinterest clashes w/ other’s expectations #also it’s not like this can’t be in a romance story #this could be a setup to a hurt/comfort thing where Charlie offers emotional support to Alice while she gets over the rejection #(as long as that doesn’t involve demonising Bob for being uninterested)

[seraphlin]

Thank you still for staying, even despite my weaknesses and flaws and traumas. Your patience and kindness during my silly breakdowns always means a lot

#any patience and kindness towards me no matter the situation still means a lot #but in moments like these were I feel like I'm in my darkest again- it's a lot more appreciated #sometimes- most times. being always. I get scared of being vulnerable #I'm scared some of you will walk away when I'm at my worst. when I show the worst of myself #I can understand if it's not something you can handle. but I appreciate if you still tried to stick around for the best of me #if you still hang around- even at a distance. to just. let me know even after everything. you're still here #even if you don't want to get involved or say something when I get like this #she's always been scared- the child inside of me. or maybe that's just what I've decided to think my fear as #because she's. she's an embodiment of all the fears and traumas I have. all from that time #do I seem silly for putting so much importance to it? my traumas? do I look like someone who's too consumed by it? #especially since I can just. let go. but I can't. not when these things and fears have shaped me to who I am #what I am. how I act. how I survive. it does not define me yet it shaped me to who I am today #how I think. how I feel. I try to run but I can never escape it can I? #sorry. I started rambling again there. there's just so much I wish I could process properly #thank you still for reading. even if u can't say anything to comfort me #at least in a way. I still feel heard and seen #the clouds cry too (vent)

[casyawn]

in discussing the show and specifically ep 5 the thing that bums me out the most might be how quick people are to assign intentions to the writers.. like 'they didn't think it through', 'they only did x/y/z for the drama' or even 'they don't care about survivors" all get thrown around so easily and often and it makes me really uncomfortable.. i honestly don't feel like that at all? everything about the show feels extremely intentional and i personally think everything that happens in ep 5 feels very carefully constructed and thematically appropriate. but even if i didn't like the episode, idk i feel like it should be enough to just say 'i didn't like it' or 'i didn't agree with that decision'. we're all happy to gush about how invested everyone in the show seems to be, but when it's something we don't like suddenly they don't care? i don't know. i guess i just feel like it's unfair and weirdly judgmental and it makes me sad

#i feel like fandom sometimes has this weirdly entitled relationship with writers where like #we assume that we care more than them and that we understand the material better than them #and i won't deny sometimes that's not a ludicrous assumption to make like i've spent time in the spn fandom believe me i get it #but with shows like supernatural or idk sherlock the writers actively gave us reasons to think that #portraying fans of the show in insulting ways in canon or talking shit about them in interviews and on social media #consistently disappointing the viewers with dropped plots and unresolved story and character arcs etc etc #and i just don't feel like that's been at all the case with the iwtv writers and everyone seems to agree on it until ep 5 is brought up #i also see people saying stuff like 'they made a mistake there but they could still fix it' and gang #again i understand not agreeing with it but i honestly don't believe anyone involved in the show sees it as a mistake #and people expecting them to “fix” it will only end up disappointed and even more resentful of them #idk what i'm on tonight tbh i'm just procrastinating before my date #wish me luck and have a good night #iwtv #my posts

[dragontamer05]

Reason #???? Why Iruma is great,

They take the whole trope of a character choosing not to tell others about a thing only to later be shamed for it and treated like it’s a bad thing and chuck it out the window.

Instead saying that it is perfectly alright not to tell everyone (yes even your closest friends) everything. You’re allowed your secrets and being respected for that choice.

That being friends can mean both being able to tell them anything you want/need to but also equally means being able to feel comfortable not having to share in everything and keep secrets.

Which is especially important given a big part of the series is our main character Iruma dealing with having to keep the big secret that he’s actually human and not a demon (and being terrified of what may happen should they find out)

Which comes to conflict when he starts to consider should he tell his friends the truth? Leading to him having a talk with Azz’s mom who basically questions and brings up the whole idea of ‘is a friend someone you HAVE to tell everything too?’

Some good shit right here.

#like I get the point that at least sometimes when written wanting to get across by keeping X thing secret how it say ended up hurting others #or at least feel hurt by it #which is valid but also just gets irritating how it also like always ends up painting the other in the wrong even if there was a valid reaso #but not here #like sure I could still see one of the characters comment on how they wished they'd been told sooner but would never #harp on them for it and still be understanding as to why they did it #m!ik #irumakun #like I can imagine even if they were to feel a bit down or upset at not being told sooner 100% Clara n Azz wouldn't be mad #(if anything Azz at least might be more mad at himself for how could he have not realized these things sooner maybe hecould have been- #a btter help to master Iruma or something) #but they'd for sure just be glad to that they know now and he felt he could tell them #-and just Nishi's general writing style even if she did write a moment of character reveals a secret upsetting B #I'm sure she could write it in away that'd 1 still subvert expectations 2 over all makes sense in context and for whoever is involved #and also likely wouldn't drag it out the conflict part #or something idk

[forcedhesitation]

I'm actually still pretty disappointed about the changes that were made to implicate a canon relationship between gortash and the dark urge. you are given so much choice in this game! so it feels shitty that they took away your choice to interpret that dynamic how you'd like.

I had a dark urge campaign that I started and no longer will finish because I don't want that to sully my character's romance with wyll. it angers me enough how wyll is given barely any material for not just his story, but also his romance. like it's so unfair that rather than new material added to wyll's romance, all I was going to get was lines about how my character had a relationship with a fucking fascist. load of shit that is.

#bg3 #thoughts about media #I'm deeply upset about things to do with real life that are unrelated to this and that I do not want to talk about. #but justifiably complaining about media I care about? I have a degree in complaining about media. I can do that. #anyway. I had a really cool character planned and now I have to now reinvent him or make a new one. #likely the latter because he doesn't really make sense as a character at all if he's not a bhaalspawn. #and no I refuse to romance someone else. I want to finish wyll's story with the romance involved. #I only recently managed to finish astarion's because I finally got myself to focus enough to finish ONE campaign. #I really wish I had finished two by now. so I could have finished the dark urge and seen what the story was like without any changes. #also no I cannot ignore these changes. I think gort's a GREAT villain. but I don't want to fuck him. I don't get how people DO. #out of the chosen three he's easily the fucking worst and a kind of evil that can't really be understood as “fun” or “fantastical” #whereas ketheric and orin are largely fantastical in what they do and what they represent. #that people cheer over canon durgetash despite the atrocious way larian continues to treat wyll? #I loathe it. #I. have. a few ideas for a new character. I know I want him to have daddy issues because that's what urged me to romance wyll with durge. #boyfriends with daddy issues is not only interesting. but hot. so I want to keep that element. #idk if I'll keep the paladin I made though. or go an entirely different direction. #because in the process of trying to reinterpret my bhaalspawn into a tav...I had a rather clever idea that I'm liking more and more.