#i woke up and that's good enough !! go me !!

[dreamwinged]

good morning everyone :( i am in a Funk really bad and i wanna say it’s school but i know it’s a bit deeper than that. i dunno what to do i just feel weird… i hope everyone is having a good day tho imy guys :’)

#.mei’s chatter ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖ #yk when you wake up and you just feel like you haven’t slept at all #pretty sure i even dreamed abt my problems bc when i woke up they were instantly on my mind #it’s like this sick feeling #ik it’s a lot of stuff combined and the feelings r just manifesting thru smaller stuff but it still sucks so bad #idunno…. what if im not good enough for f/os and i should drop them all and let them Be Free.. #im just not feeling good abt myself i guess. i think im scared to go home tbh #one week til i go home… :( #then i have to get my wisdom teeth out and start my new job and see my friends again who bully me for fun #can’t wait……….. #im going to try to keep learning japanese hopefully that helps me yk #to have a hobby to throw myself into #i don’t know… i guess it’s a plus that i don’t have school again til august #maybe something good will happen in that time. maybe i’ll get better #maybe i need a therapist but aaaahhhh…… scary….. it’s harder now that im older and no one can make me go #i just am unsure that i can be fixed atp i don’t know if i can have a normal life or if i’ll just always be this way #hhhh…. i don’t want to go home at least here i feel somewhat happy

[do-you-know-this-adhd-character]

Do you know this (canon) ADHD character?

Proof: Discussed within the book, from chapter 2

#poll #canon adhd character #all the feels #alex woodroe #woke up early bc i still have that headache but took some meds #and it's ok enough that i can queue this #so take that headache. tried to stop ME from queuing before the post is supposed to go up #you also made me able to queue before it went up #idiot #anyways googled this book while looking for the cover image #and i think ill have to check it out #im a sucker for fluffy romance (don't read many romance books but i read a LOT of shippy fic) #and this one has good reviews #AND a canonically ADHD main character?! sign me tf up

[deeisace]

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#sorry sorry I just woke up and im having yesterday-was-weird thought again #and they are going here so i don't have to talk to the person that they're um about yet #basically im glad that im in a good enough space now that um #someone ive ive had text-based sex with and uhhh sent an ill-advised video to in like oct when i was Feeling Bad™ and doing. hm. too much. #like 6 months post text-based sex/ill adised video now aha and we've not spoke at all since like january and that was 'how was hols' #they asked to meet up 'not for sex just as friends' or i forget exact wording but basically that #no-pressure museum not-a-date #and i said I'd think about it. because i am as everyone knows a fucking idiot. #basically im glad that im in a better place now than the last time someone like expressed an interest in me as a person #because while this did give me a day long wobble i didn't have a full weekend long actual panic about it #tho they are two v different situs #an ace poly friend asking to go out with me vs someone i uh virtually fucked aha um asking to meet up for (mostly) being-friends purposes #same several-hours-later 'oh god no what have i done bad bad bad no thank you actually no sorry i cant sorry' but less intense this time #but at least i only said ill think about it? #and not actually immediately said yes because it's nice to feel wanted #and then gone Maximum Regret™ because actually all of this is way too much i don't like it i don't want it thank you but im sorry no #weird. i guess i don't have such a high baseline stress level any more? since i'm not at uni n stuff #and someone over messages going no pressure you want to be irl friends (maybe fwb no pressure)? is um #is different. to someone irl going you want to go out acely? yeah? awesome lets hold hands here is the discord with a whole buncha people #i guess #but i am being equally aro-not-super-ace Autism™ about it aha #and i am. eventually. going to be like. thought about it and no sorry. eventually. #if they ask again #i am kinda hoping they'll leave it there and forget they asked so i don't have to navigate social stuff #im much better at navigating canals everybody leave me alone please thank you #(everybody over there leave me alone. y'know. you guys are fine.)

[pikachupapi]

Lil miss girl ✨

#me #don’t reblog #damn brown looks so cute #i should have more brown in my wardrobe #I’ve studied since 10 am today #till 7pm #but it just doesnt feel enough #i think im sleep deprived thats why #plus i did like treat myself today too #i went to the movies #had hot chocolate cos they didnt have matcha :( #bought some yummy sour candy #and now im going to end the night with an episode of bluelock #pretty eventful yfm #but i feel like i shouldve studied more :( especially cos i woke up at 8:30 lolol #oh well #good night💓

[mothram]

#diana's music diary #good afternoon I'm very tired... #yesterday was okay enough.. maybe even good? Lancer was fun! Ophelia messed up really bad and now the crew is in danger!! yay!! #didn't do all that much else really... I was so exhausted and idk why... I've been so so tired lately... more than my usual eepiness... #I don't know what the exact reason is too it's like... I'm sure I got enough sleep... I had a headache and stuff too so maybe that? #well whatever... I still haven't decided on changing urls yet... today I woke up after like 3 or 4 hours of sleep so my brain is melting #spent an hour looking for a part for my coffee grinder cause I needed it for something (something that isn't coffee) #I couldn't find it so I ended up using a knife to cheat it into working... which worked well but was a little bit more messy n.n;; #I found a couple of nice things when I was looking at least! #a rarity plush an ex gave me and the jacket Sheila gave me years ago... I should clean them up they got a bit dusty from my last move... #anyway later I'm going to try to have some fun... will maybe hang out with friends or just vc with my partner... idk... #the thing I had to get up now for should be done by later at least 😊 let's keep making today good and fun even while eepy n_n;

[wutheringmights]

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#my digestive issues are literally under the most control they have ever been in my life and they are still ruining my life #woke up fine today. went to a coffee shop. had to leave after an hour #i had so many plans for today and now i'm stuck at home because i can't be too far away from a bathroom #i didn't eat anything that would trigger this. my gut just hates me i guess #earlier this month i have a risk food but i thought i took enough precautions to be safe and it fucked me up for like #2 weeks straight #i wonder what its like for people to not have to wonder about bathroom access every time they leave the house #i wonder what its like to eat normal foods without calculating how sick its going to make you #i wonder what its like to not have entire plans tossed out the window for reasons beyond your control #fucking sucks man #i hate ibs #in exchange for my terrible gut i do have a fantastic immune system somehow but weirdly that means i never take time off work? #ok so i am so good at just managing my issues that i just power through whenever im sick. #it's not like i can afford to take time off whenever i feel sick anyway and besides once you have to take multiple AP tests in high school #while in the middle of an episode you grow a lot of tolerance for being functional while sick #but then. i just i could have excuses to take days off because i have a cold or something. get a rest every now and then #but what illnesses i get beyond digestion issues are so slight that i can just. power through. i am never ill enough to take time off #and i get so worried that one day I will need that PTO that I can't convince myself to use it for like mental health days and ugh #this is more of a personal problem than anything but still. i wish i got sick like a normal person

[izzy-b-hands]

If ur waiting on a reply from me (and i know a couple of folks are rn) thank u for ur patience in waiting. I'm working on typing things up but today is just. idk how to put it but i keep winding up grumpy and my replies i feel are suffering for it. Pls know i do wanna chat and exchange ideas, I'm just trying to make sure the Grumpasaurus Rex side of my brain that's v loud today isn't mucking them up before i send them 🫂🫂❤️❤️

#text post #like it's genuinely nothing just bad takes online some shitty messages in my inbox on here and reddit and not sleeping well at all #attempted a nap i woke up from like tenish minutes ago and it was all a realistic nightmare #in which ct house was somehow connected to nd condo & i kept getting caught on one side or the other at a time #unable to touch or talk to anyone until i was fully on either 'side' for a good while #made the flow of time feel fucked up and i fully expected this to have been a longer nap considering how time felt in there lol #but yeah. I'm trying and im v grateful to y'all waiting for being patient with me. thank u & i promise ill have my shit together soon #(aka might take an edible and just. idek. bake maybe? my brain isn't happy doing anything rn but cookies are always good) #have a potential call with mum later i need to prep for #...worst case scenario i try to nap a bit more and hope i don't wind up stuck in that weird hallway from my dream again #worst bit was the nd cats and my mum and ct cats and Housemate on each side both trying to get me out but couldn't #really don't wanna feel as stuck as i did in this dream but hey!! maybe it's trying to tell me something lmao #not entirely sure what but that's nothing new for me lmao #normally wouldn't post like this for replies but everyone waiting follows me so i figure this reaches everyone easily enough #& hopefully is better/more useful than me going radio silent bc my brain is being a baby abt shit that means nothing lmao

[red-moon-at-night]

Me 🤝Yumemi

Wanting to fucking SLEEP

#capri talks #vent (? sort of) #5 hours is an improvement on yesterday's 1 hour of sleep... but still not enough sleep in general >:( #accidentally got into the 'too tired to eat' -> 'too hungry to sleep' cycle last night (well early morning) and uh. Do Not recommend #so even though I only had 1hr that day I still took 500 years to go to fucking sleep... then noises outside woke me up earlier than I wante #SO... all in all I'm having a shit time in that general department of life right now. as I frequently seem to do :') #and also to top it off my weekly food order is missing stuff that I was really looking forward to T^T sighs loudly #going to try and make today a better day since we've already started at rock bottom... wish me good luck on my mission *thumbs up* #delete later

[genderjuicee]

yall ads are fucking everywhere now

genuinely but also last night i had a dream that turned out to be an ad

i fucking died 😭

#i was at a place and some guy walked up and was like "a few years ago when i was homeless the guy who used to play piano here gave me his #sheet music and told me i was good enough to play professionally and that i should go to college for music #and with the help of ABC-Funding (presentation pops up) I went through college easily and cheaply and am now a successful music teacher #then i woke up #ads

[nexus-nebulae]

waugh the struggle of figuring out what to eat after waking up from being Very Sick

#emetophobia #i don't wanna make myself sick again right afterwards but also there's very few safe enough foods that are also easy for me to get #i don't even know why i was sick i just woke up feeling like i was going to throw up and cried for ten minutes before passing out again #and then i slept for five more hours! cool #i slept for five hours longer than i probably should have and now it is 2am so i can't order anything either #if it were slightly earlier i would've gotten dominos theyre open til 1 #dominos is good usually #also i am desperately craving garlic right now but garlic is one of the things that makes me more sick i am Sad

[tortademaracuya]

love being reminded by the "bestie" that keeps being close friends with all the girls that treated me like shit about the other friend not from that group that also treated me like shit and tried to convince others to leave me

#and she talked like it was such a pity i didnt want to try anymore to 'fix' things. i never had a problem with her #she just woke up one day and decided i was shit and deserved no friends while acting like nothing was wrong when i asked #and i didnt even learn she was talking shit until years later!!! #if she doesnt think that was messed uo what does she even think of how their grouo of friends treated me...? #i knew it was being too good a day :/ always end up finding some stupid comment that makes me feel like shit #woooo im unloveable and everyone will end up hating me sooner or later wooooooooo #maybe shes right and both that and the other Incident werent anything and im being an idiot about it #why does it even matter. they were right and its my problem for getting sad that they were saying what a horrible person i am #maybe its true and my presence does ruin everything for everyone. i should just stay home and never go out again #sigh #haunted.txt #maybe its all my fault for not trying hard enough ti earn forgiveness #even though i embarrassed myself so many times to do so and it was her shit friends that kept treating me like garbage #even after saying they forgave me and refusing to give me any apologies

[bylerpoet]

one day i'll write an essay about why rory gilmore is a great character and she's so well written and her ""downfall"" is just a natural response to the way she was brought up. but that day is not today

#as a fellow gifted kid no one gets her like i do #do they expect people to make no mistakes???? EVER?? #i want to see characters that feel like humans and that includes sometimes making mistakes #but that's just me #this is also mike wheeler coded btw #i would love to see rory thriving and doing everything she ever wanted to do but #sometimes life doesn't work out that way!!! sometimes you don't have everything figured out even when you're an adult #and that's okay #and i honestly find it so refreshing that a show chooses to portray that instead of painting everything pink and perfect #rory was literally brought up as a gifted kid who everyone thought the world of #and then she realized that the rest of the world doesn't find her as special #and that's so relatable??? and raw?? and sad and great i really love that #also when they condone her for dropping out of yale my girl was having a mental breakdown give her a BREAK #literally one of the most important men in the industry told her she wasn't good enough and you expect her to go on like nothing happened? #when they bring the fact that she cheated with dean i genuinely don't care lmao #anyways why am i rambling about rory gilmore the second i woke up #ended up writing the essay anyways #rory gilmore #gilmore girls

[lonelydncers]

vent post

#literally nothing i ever do is good enough for my father #today i woke up in a good mood and tried interacting w him and he was complaining that i didnt say good morning #which i did btw #and then he started ignoring me for like half an hour and i kept trying to talk to him #eventually he yelled at me to stop bothering him #which triggered me and made me go non verbal and i completely shut down #so during lunch i was Not speaking at all to anyone and then he yelled at me again for being quiet #which just made me want to cry even more #i hate it here why am i not good enough for him ever #im so tired of this #i hate going nonverbal cause he always yells at me for being quiet #but if i speak he get angry at me for speaking?????? #like pick a struggle #anyways. #at least im going over to my aunt’s house to make brigadeiro #but my uncle is probably going to be there and he’s just as bad as my dad #hopefully he’s not home

[mesanthropi]

is it like. bad to be really petty about a sandwich (if you check tags, cw for food talk)

#selenicives.chr ✶ #edelweiss.txt #tag wambles incoming #so like. for context #earlier this afternoon i made some banger sandwich spread #hard boiled eggs. two kinds of mayo because the first one wasn't enough. diced white onion. black pepper. #its actually good and thats why i say its banger #its also like #rlly good with cheese slices on top. #anyway #my brother woke up at that time #he didnt see anything he could eat (the bags of bread were right there) #so he went out to eat. had pork sisig. its good but we had food at home wtf #and thats what made me think that he wouldnt want it in any way. the spread i mean #so tonight im woken up by my mom bc its 8pm and i ghavent eaten since i slept #i go to make myself my sandwich. spread and cheese slices. #my brother walks out of his room and asks me to make him one too?? #but i didnt rlly wanna fight so i js did it #after that i asked him to buy eggs bc i wanted to make more of the spread #when i took them out of the bag #i found that one of them was broken and i panicked #so i went to cook it sunny side up style #i planned to eat it btw #later on tho??? bc i toasted the sandwiches before cooking the egg #my brother asked if he cpould take them out now. i said yes. his sandwich was the one on the left. #“so yours is the one with spread AND cheese?” / “yeah” / “can i take both of them? im starving” #and i said no bc i too was starving!! he also took the fucking egg i made!! #so im a little miffed rn

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#woke up today with a looming sense of dread #i'm sitting here with tears rolling down my face because of minor inconvenients #i have no energy and find no joy in anything... #wouldn't you guess i'm due my period any time now... #every month i'm more convinced i have pmdd... and every month i'm full to the brim with anxiety and depression... #this is SO FUCKING FUN! #also yeah yeah i need to go to a doctor i need to speak to someone about this and i need to get medicated #i don't deserve to feel like this periods shouldn't debilitate you this much etc etc... #i don't think there's a human professional in this country that believes pmdd is a thing enough to medicate me #i know for a fact that my mother (a person i live with and in some way still holds power over me whether on purpose or by my own issues) #doesn't believe is a thing because she's the kind of person who says depressed people just need to ''choose happiness'' so... #not exactly a possibility now #not to mention i FUCKED UP the only regular client i had and now i won't be earning enough money to waste on doctor appointments #just to have some old male doctor tall me my ''womanly problems aren't bad enough'' so... yeah not doing that #ANYWAYS i don't see hope in the world today this will pass in a few weeks and everything will be fine #why don't i go watch good omens and maybe i'll calm down am i right? #lol #angel talks #personal

[disneyprincessdxminatrix]

wallowing in self pity as an after work activity.

#I also watched tv and almost fell asleep #I woke up with a bad stomachache last night which kept me awake for a little over an hour before it got better #so I didn’t sleep enough and went to work #and then received a text that my boyfriend wouldn’t be home tonight cause he’s meeting from friends #and of course I’m not invited because one of his friends is my ex I keep shit taking about (rightfully I might add) #saw him for like one minute after his work before he left again #I’m really fucking sad rn still because as I told some friends #one of my Guinea pigs died just yesterday #and I’m tired and #I’m hungry #and yes my boyfriend offered to bring me food but I don’t even know when he will be back and he’s probably going to bring cake which isn’t #real dinner food anyway #my stuff #give it half an hour and I’ll be better I hope #maybe she least good enough to make myself something to eat #at least my cat his here he always comes when I’m crying #edit: I think the part about tonight that hurts the most is being invited but not being invited #one of the boys sent a message to the group chat if anyone wanted to join #and idk if all of them know #but my bf knows I won’t go anywhere near my ex #even though I haven’t seen one of the other friends there in a awhile and wouldn’t loved to see him #so it’s like #being invited #but not really #cause I can’t go there #I’d feel sick #I already do feel sick knowing he talks to this despicable piece of shit