#i'm so sane for her

[honeybearsketches]

i can't remember my name.

#tadc pomni #tadc #the amazing digital circus #tadc fanart #honeybearsketches #she's so wet cat codded #i'm so sane for her #i STILL can't draw #sorry if it looks weird #my brain is stupid #my art

[skulandcrossbones]

Oh dear, what are we gonna do about all this blood? — my liberation notes 1x02

#mlnedit #my liberation notes #kdramaedit #kdramadaily #kdramasource #giffing this show is so hard because none of this seems meaningful out of context #but god!!!!!! #it's about KNOWING each other its about seeing each other's worst moments first #it's about wanting to hide and hating yourself but having someone else See You and still like you and want to know you #he sees her shame and she sees his and it's this. this deep mutual understanding of each other from DAY ONE!!! #i'm so normal and sane about this show and about these two don't even worry about it i'm fine i'm fine i'm fine #originals

[falderaletcetera]

the thing about post-rose ten is he IS casually cruel. he tells donna to her face that she's not clever, not special, not important - and gets slapped for it, which to my mind is kinda the reason the doctor-donna relationship works. he tells martha's coworker not to waste his time, to stay behind, she'll only hold them up. leaves her crying. and like, devoting his energy to the problem at hand (the hospital is on the moon, there's an alien situation going on, everyone here and possibly everyone on earth is at risk) is the practical move at the time. but there's an obvious casual cruelty to it that he wouldn't have stooped to before.

and I'm just reminded of the way donna forgot all her loudness and bluff and immediately snapped to empathy when there were people hurt. you're a doctor, you can help. I remember her watching in horror as the doctor presided over the execution of children and the destruction of a species - and telling him he can stop now. I remember her saying that yeah, her ex-fiance, the man who poisoned her and used her and secretly looked down on her all this time, he didn't deserve to die like he did, which is a pretty big admission given the freshness of that betrayal. she has a good heart. and I can see why she would be good for this new, cruel, forgotten-his-kindness-in-all-his-pain doctor.

and I'm just so, so sorry that martha had to know this version of him in the meantime.

#doctor who #tenth doctor #falderal speaks #like other people have said it so much better but. martha deserved so much better. in so many ways. #shaking the doctor by the shoulders like YOU COULD HAVE LICKED HER FOREHEAD AND WE WOULD ALL BE FINE #you could have found someone who wasn't PINING for you to help keep you sane #because yeah I think he knew it and ignored it from fairly early on #and yeah he knew he needed Someone and. I'm sure he liked martha but he was happy to use her too. #hi. I wasn't planning to keep having thoughts but it is happening so feel free to filter tags if they bug you #there's like two decades of pent up fandom in me is the thing

[melfiiis]

weed

#classes have started back up for me so i may have to slow down my art output #but a shitty rkgk will keep me sane vs. no drawing at all 🫡 #i don't think reed can lift her tail that high but i'm big scaley tail-obsessed so (and yet... cannot draw tails) #arknights #reed #reed arknights #my art

[oftenlyshitposting]

i think my personal favourite part about wolfwren lightsaber duels and them eyefucking each other while their lightsabers are locked in a cross is the way their respective blades reflect their eyes on each other, y'know?

with sabine's green lightsaber, it almost makes her eyes greenish, like shin's eyes

with shin's orange lightsaber, it contrasts just right against her eyes that makes it darker, almost brown

especially when they duelled in low a light setting (like at sabine's comm-tower and on seatos forest)

i don't know if this makes sense but my god they're just the perfect mirror of each other

#sabine wren #shin hati #wolfwren #ahsoka series #ahsoka #star wars #oftenlyspeaks #and my fav part is when artists picked it up too! #the way sabine's lightsaber would add a hue of green in her eyes #while on shin's green eyes it'd be orange/brownish #the inverses..... the mirrors...... #throwing myself against a wall #ouh i'm so sane about them

[miraculouslbcnreactions]

I've recently come across a couple of season 4 fanfics that dealt with the Chat Noir feeling left out and quitting thing and every time I read one I can't help but think "man did they chose the wrong side of the masks AND the wrong characters for this conflict. Chat Noir comes across terribly here". It's weird to see people try and justify his behavior and act like Ladybug was in the wrong.

Was Ladybug being the best friend ever? No, but friendship is secondary when they're wearing the masks. Paris comes first. Chat Noir quitting because he doesn't feel special enough is literally him endangering everyone he loves because his crush isn't paying enough attention to him and I truly can't tell if the show wanted us to feel like he was in the right or the wrong here. In Kuro Neko, Catwalker actually does acknowledge the lesson he needed to learn

There's nothing wrong with you. Maybe the boy who was Cat Noir was more sensitive than it seemed. But his feelings for you shouldn't force you to pay more attention to him than to others. You take care of everybody equally, Ladybug. 

And Chat Noir apologizes at the end of the episode for causing Ladybug trouble, but the whole thing is incredibly lackluster. They don't actually have a meaningful conversation about why he was feeling that way and the rest of the season seems to present Ladybug as being in the wrong, especially the final! Trusting Alya leads to nothing meaningful and not trusting Chat Noir loses her the miraculous. Basically, I still have no idea what season 4 was trying to do with this conflict and it's been dropped forever now that Adrien is fully reduced to nothing more than arm candy.

HOWEVER, this basic setup could have been a fantastic b plot if the "Adrien doesn't feel needed" conflict wasn't a Ladynoir conflict, but was instead a conflict between Adrien and Nino. Move Rocketear up to earlier in the season and have the fallout from that be that Adrien's relationship with Nino is strained. He can still feel leftout because Ladybug has a bigger team now, but instead of him pouting about it and skipping fights, focus on how that need for connection has transferred to his civilian life, but he doesn't have Kagami or Nino now and he's lost. Then you can either have an Adrien and Nino b plot because that relationship needs more screen time OR you use this to make Adrien and Marinette start to grow closer because Rocketear's fallout is also Alya paying more attention to Nino. Then, when season 5 does the whole crush switch, it actually feels earned.

#ml writing salt #ml writing critical #adrien deserves better #marinette deserves better #ml season 4 salt #Can you tell that I'm a little tired of fics that try to blame Ladybug for Chat Noir feeling left out? #It's reasonable for him to have those feelings but boy did they have him express them in a way that was totally unbecoming for a hero #She's a little too busy saving the world and trying to stay sane to worry about his emotions #Especially when he never actually tells her that something's wrong #Though I will absolutely grant you that he needed to know about the Alya situation and keeping him in the dark was BS #I love Alya but that plot was so stupid for so many reasons #It felt like it was just added for cheap drama and not because it was a good addition to the show

[cuteniarose]

Personally I find it really funny that based on what the twins said in the Book 2 finale re: having to tell their mom about what happened to Unalaq, it's literally canon that Unalaq's wife a) exists, b) is alive, and c) is just chilling in the Northern Water Tribe

She took one look at all the spirit fuckery her husband was getting up to and went "Well that's none of my business" and honestly I respect that

#oh and when I say spirit fuckery I mean it in both the literal and metaphorical sense. blame kat's latest raava and vaatu fic #yeah I'm just gonna start posting random LoK opinions on here now. this blog's been dead long enough #not really an incorrect quotes girly anymore sorry #not even a girl anymore. but you know #most of my red lotus and oc posting will remain on my personal blog though bc no one wants to see that #anyway. yes. Unalaq's wife. when I say the avatar franchise has a mom problem this is exactly what I mean #80% of characters don't have a mom. the moms that are alive either have little to no screen time or mentions #or they're basically Schroedinger's mom in the sense that they exist but not really #the exceptions being like. pema and suyin. and maybe senna though she also has very little screentime #my point is. the twins are younger than korra. I know avatarverse has a precedent for putting kids on the throne. looking at you zuko #but really we should have gotten unalaq's wife as chief of the nwt #introduced her in book 3 during the lead up to p'li's prison break #but that's just my objectively correct opinion #northern water tribe chief raspberry when #(according to avatar wiki her name is malina so I've been calling her raspberry in my head ever since I found out #malina means raspberry in russian that's why. probably in a bunch of other slavic languages too idk I'm not an expert #and she shares a name with katara and sokka's weird white stepmom from the comics which no sane person considers canon. so that's fun) #the legend of korra #unalaq

[hermidetta]

[ 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬 ] : after being misinformed that the sender has died, receiver is grieving.

* for you i would.

when does a war end? when can i say your name and have it mean only your name and not what you left behind?

they already died once.

bernadetta thought she had lost jules forever. but jules turned out to be alive. jules is yuri—yuri is jules. yuri is alive! and wasn't that the most wonderful discovery? yuri, her childhood friend, being alive?

bernadetta doesn't think she has the right to most everything in this world, let alone the right to ask which name of theirs is real. what matters is them. yuri can use whatever name they want as long as they stay alive.

alive. yuri is supposed to stay alive. she's probably begged it of them more times than she could possibly count—arguably sounding silly nine times out of ten, arguably just enough so she doesn't give away that she cares more than she should (she does, she does, she does care more than she should) because she is a repulsive worthless thing that nobody in their right mind would want caring for them—

and because yuri is no longer jules. yuri is no longer jules, and she cannot just wildly lunge and hug his arm like the girl she used to be. she is lucky enough that yuri might still think of her as a friend now. might. she does not dare assume beyond that. she can live with being a ghost or a blemish or nothing at all as long as yuri stays alive.

but whatever the case, yuri is supposed to stay alive.

yuri almost died because of her, already, and bernadetta can only imagine from the glint of their lavender eyes what hells they have clawed through afterwards. one 'almost' should have been more than enough. if not for her, then for them.

but yuri does not return from their mission. that is at least what she has been told. the debriefer shakes bernadetta off his elbow like the pest she is, and before he walks away, the punch of his words slams her into silence.

her first friend is dead. her first heart is dead. her father crushed them once and now they're dead again. immediately, the loudest thoughts come back:

if yuri had just brought down the knife that night like they were supposed to—

if yuri had just been able to take that gold and run without looking back—

later that night, she slinks haggardly into the greenhouse with rot in her steps and a pouch in her grasp.

bernadetta von varley is allowed a corner—a very humble one, secluded, but her own all the same. there she grows her peculiar motley of flowers, from colorful blooms to carnivorous plants. next to a fanged flytrap, there is a space in the dirt from a recent harvest of herbs. into her palm, she turns over the pouch in her possession, and small seeds tumble out.

she usually sings while she does this, but has no heart for it tonight. the seeds get buried in the soil with the care of a casket; her hands pat down the soft mound, then clasp—she doesn't know if it is a gesture of prayer or a mere pantomime of. she just doesn't know. she just doesn't know.

all things considered: she cannot bring herself to pray to the goddess her father claims to regale. the man's wretched face flickers through her mind. acid and ache rise in her throat.

and there, bernadetta cannot pinpoint exactly when the dam breaks—just that it breaks.

it shatters like the porcelain of a teaset she gets punished for dropping. it bursts like the double doors of her old room when the suitors won't buy her. it claps like a palm against the wood of a table and sends her careening over the edge.

so bernadetta, unable to hold back any longer, finally tells yuri.

crying, gasping, she hangs her head to the planted seeds and tells them everything, through the uncontrollable hiccups and sobs, the words streaming from her lips like the tears down her cheeks. she tells them about the wicked count, tells them all the truths she never thought would see the light of day. she explains to yuri that she is just property. she tells them that before the academy, she had forgotten how much it meant to be offered a hand instead of taking the back of it.

she tells them about why she cut her hair, about the fist in it that made her kick and scream so hard that even her mother could no longer stand by—how the woman had bernadetta bagged like garbage and shipped to the monastery without any say. she sobs and apologizes, over and over, for everything that makes sense, and for everything that doesn't.

"and sorry, i'm sorry, i shouldn't be dumping all of this on you—"  because even in death bernadetta gives yuri more humanity than she will ever give herself. more humanity, more grace, and infinitely more kindness.  "but i always really, really wanted to tell you the truth, you know? always. that i wished i could've ran—"

her voice cracks. "—ran away, with you, wherever you went, even if that was selfish of me. or that i wished you could've killed me if it meant one of us could live happy. a-and i know, i'm just bernie, i don't mean much! i know already! bernie's worthless and doesn't have to mean anything to anybody! and i promise that's okay, but for me you're someone who... who...!"

bernadetta swears that her heart has been ripped out from her ribs, flung to the dirt and stomped into paste. she can't take it. she can't take it. not when it's yuri. not when she has spent her life shut in that birdcage, bars just wide enough to have a loved few she can count on a hand—and to lose the one she already mourned most? what kind of sick punishment was it? why was it hers? she loves, and loves, and loses. bernadetta always loses. she weeps into her hands, nails curling crescents into her face.

she doesn't know how long the moon hangs over her head, sneering down at her foolish lament. at some point she balls into herself, head tucked over her knees with clenched fists on the ground. bernadetta cries and mourns until she's out of air, out of strength, out of everything—and somewhere along the way she toes across the line into slumber, limping onto her side with finality in her bones. the last thing she thinks she sees is the watery blur of lavender petals.

#aubins #it got so long i cut it help me im so doomed im so doomed #asks / #abuse cw / #just in case but yeah :laughsob: #s: ⚘ * i've left you flowers — all sorts of types (i don't know what you like) | aubins #this was all over the place because she was all over tghe place HELP LMFAO #i scream with my entire mouth shut and act sane i scream with mg entire mouth shut i will not talk about bernadetta making herself small #when i'm in a self destruction competition and my opponent is bernadetta von varley #ty for sending darcy!! i love them both a lot and love getting to bounce her off of yuri. sorry she's such a mess rn #bern when she learns this was all a sike won't be able to look at yuri for ages like [marge simpson.jpeg] #it can def be taken as either canon or not whatever you would like hehe!!

[psystirene]

i like the whiplash of going up to astarion on durge and having him worry about how he noticed you haven't been sleeping and it must mean you're having trouble w your urges, trying to joke around and cheer you up. and rthen going to minthara who immediately goes "you're a bhaalspawn?!! HOT ‼ let's go kill my ex and rule the world together 🥺❤"

#she's a little down bad actually #when you first turn into a slayer and everyone freaks tf out / judges you #and she's just like “wow <333” #go off #i was going thru the options for telling her ur a bhaalspawn again and like #she gets so curious and excited (???) that she goes into your brain to go look at your memories #even if you don't initially decide to share your brain thoughts w her #she's like “wow your mind must be real fucked up i need to see this” #I love Minthara I'm so sane #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #durge spoilers #baldur's gate #the dark urge #rambles

[running-in-the-dark]

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#currently crying because I'm alone with my husband's 94 year old grandma and I'm the only one who ever lets her talk about certain topics #so she just talked about her childhood and youth for one and a half hours #which means. the war #I'm not gonna go into it but it makes me cry every time even though I've already heard it all before #how can you not cry about a child who lost two of her teenaged brothers and had to watch the third one very nearly die too #the stories about how careful they had to be because the police constantly went to every house and checked everything #how they had to hide some of the milk from their cows so they could make butter because they couldn't afford to buy it #and how dangerous that was. #idk I'm so tired of people dying over senseless and unnecessary shit forever and ever and nothing ever changes and no one ever seems #to learn from it #or at least the ones in power don't #as long as there's disposable people (men) to send to war it doesn't matter. and now that's not even necessary anymore you can just kill #people from far away and. I'm just tired #and I'll shut up now and not talk about these things again as usual. it's not because I don't care it's because it (literally) drives me #insane to think about it and I know it's weak and pathetic but I have to choose to stay just barely sane enough to stay alive #can't stop crying. 🙃 #anyway. shouldn't talk about it so. bye

[justdonotaskmewhy]

ok, I came out to my parents as bisexual

mother's reaction: well, I didn't expect much about you. do whatever you want outside of this flat. BUT MY SOUL WILL NEVER ACCEPT IT

father's reaction: FUCK😐🤬😭🫥🤮🥴

just for the context: my parents are Christians and the God doesn't believe in himself as much as they do

#I do not care about my dad's opinion anyway. the only thing he excelled at was being an absent father #and in my mom's eyes I was a disappointment since day 1 so her reaction is actually pretty much sane compared to dad's #imagine what will happen if they find out I'm working on a relationship with a girl #bisexual #coming out

[gillianthecat]

Ah the joys of the internet (currently responding to tumblr stuff, but it applies more broadly obviously). Find a great feminist post? Oops turns out it was written by an anti-trans bigot. That Jewish blogger tackling antisemitism in the media? Yikes turns out they're also a racist zionist.

(Also (only tangentially related) I came across someone asking if the Kdrama Goblin was antisemitic. 😐 Babes you know that cultures outside of Europe have their own histories and mythologies, right? That the titular "Goblin" is unrelated to the antisemitic caricatures? That it's a translation of a Korean word?)

#i am in a mood apparently #why are people #venting #bigotry #off all sorts #tmblr life #goblin kdrama #dokkaebi #is the actual word #don't mean to implicate that show in this nonsense #anyway i blocked the zionist but left up my reblog of her twitter screenshot 🤷🏻‍♀️ #lol my incorrigible nosiness sent me back to her blog and on her dni list among reasonable things like dni terfs #is dni amber heard lovers. so. that's sane and normal you know. #not sure why i'm vagueing her. i think i feel particularly *betrayed* by zionists in a way i don't by other bigots #being jewish #oy vey

[sleepy-bunbun-ace]

what the dorms think of each unit leader pt. 1

heartslabyul:

ichika - she doesn't visit much, but they like hearing her play the guitar when she does. they don't have much of an opinion on her due to her rare visits but those who have classes with her appreciate her help.

minori - they enjoy her optimism and bright personality. they're also glad about how open she is with her emotions and how she says the things that are on her mind. they wouldn't ask her to help with the hedgehogs though...

kohane - their number 1 animal care person. the more intimidating ones in the dorm get a bit sad when she gets scared by them. they're all very impressed by how enthusiastic she is with their insane ideas sometimes.

tsukasa - they love him!! he keeps up with the weirdness of the dorm and can keep up with the rules. they do wish he was a bit quieter but over all they like him and his very weird energy.

kanade - it's very rare she visits but they cherish each visit she has in the dorm. things are a lot calmer and go much more smoothly when she's around which is a great relief to the upperclassmen. they're all very appreciative of her.

savanaclaw:

ichika - they all respect her drive in music even if they don't understand it. out of everyone in ramshackle, they deem her the most sane. very neutral about her.

minori - her energy is very hard to keep up with for them even though she's super active. they sometimes give pointers to her on how to keep in shape but they don't always align with her own exercises. they'll support her however they can though.

kohane - they all agree this girl needs more confidence. it's not often they see her because she gets intimidated by all of them so they can never really give her pointers on how. neutral about her too.

tsukasa - fucking terrified of this man after he threatened (read: acted like he was going to kill while holding a knife) some students while saving kanade from them. they try to avoid him at all costs (except a certain freshman). those who have worked with him are a little less afraid of the loud guy but are still afraid.

kanade - they feel super guilty about kidnapping her when she realized who was organizing the injuries. they act extra respectful towards her and offer to help when they see her struggling with physical activities. they always wonder how she's friends with such energetic people though.

#ace rambles about aus #twisted sekai: project wonderland au #project sekai #ichika hoshino #minori hanasato #kohane azusawa #tsukasa tenma #kanade yoisaki #twisted wonderland #heartslabyul #savanaclaw #tsukasa put his whole pussy into acting threatening when saving kanade he accidentally traumatized a whole dorm #he was also cooking dinner at the time so that's why he had access to a knife #i need to read ichika's focus events bc i don't know her character that well :( #i'm gonna find translations for all of their events #ichika is not the most sane in the dorm. it's actually grim

[hatake]

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#my poor therapist caught covid just before his vacation 😢 #he had to cancel our appointment today obviously/understandably #and i'm kind of stressed bc i won't see him next week either #i feel like my therapy sessions are the only reason i can feel sane lately 😭 #sounds like my cousin is getting a divorce #and i just know my fam is gonna complain about how poor chester the molester was taken advantage of by his evil wife :( #if how he acted when we were growing up is any indicator #wouldn't be surprised if he was abusive towards her and that's why she's leaving #just not excited about having to hear everyone pity his gross ass #and having no outside source to affirm that he's actually capable of and & has done so much wrong lol #ughhhhhh

[arsonist-chicken]

Do you ever like.. get a sudden surge of love and admiration and just general happiness because of a friend, so much so that it's almost overwhelming, and you are just so, so glad you met them and hope you'll never have to let them go and get to keep them in your life forever? Yeah ❤️💖🐗🧚‍♂️🦄

#i should go to sleep #but these are the moments i wonder again if i know what a crush feels like and if i can tell the difference between periodical very strong #but platonic affection for a friend and having a tiny crush on them #oh well. in the end does it matter? #but it would still be nice to be able to tell the difference. if nothing else then to know when i actually have a crush on someone i'm not #that close to like that friend or that fond of #fucking hell god please never let me have to let them go. i don't think i've ever met someone i'm that comfortable around and around whom #it's so easy to just be myself #or rarely. maybe with two other friends i don't feel the need to hold back myself from blurting stuff out and interrupting them and #apologising and asking them to continue or just like.. say whatever comes to mind or touch electric pasture fences to see if it still stings #(it does btw but in a sensorally really nice way 10/10 would recommend) #why do amazing people often live so damn far away? last time i met a bunch of people i really got to love was almost lifesaving and #definitely mental health saving. we used to talk every day and now i barely know what any of them are up to :( covid really fucked us over #with everyone just trying to survive and stay sane. we really lost touch and now it #*it's hard to get that back because we're strewn across europe and brasil and the us and everyone's an adult with responsibilities now #i miss them :( gotta try harder to rekindle that #anyway @the universe or whatever fuckers listening: if you put me in circumstances that make me lose touch with her like with them #i'll set the world on fire. she's become far too important to me to let that happen #okay as always i couldn't damn shut up in the tags alright bye bye good night whatever my cat's purring now instead of snoring #scientists of tumblr invent a teleportation machine now. i want to lie in a park and watch dogs and read side by side and remember how good #life can be #mine