#if you need me i’ll be on the floor

[thetaoofbetty]

the icy grip of a new hyper fixation is trying to ruin my life 😔

#oh my god no #i can feel it happening #rip to me good luck everyone else #it’s not even something that would normally be my jam someone save me before i write fic #if you need me i’ll be on the floor #i'm trying to be normal about it #it's not going well

[muchemoaboutnothing]

Wow, my delayed anxiety attack from two major life changes happening to me at once took 5 days instead of 3.

#I suspect the retail therapy halped delay it #if you need me I’ll be on the floor

[hythlodaes]

o dear soul / flesh and bone

love alone / is your home

#ffxiv #oc: emile jenidaut #estinien varlineau #emile/estinien #can we just ummm can i AAAAAAAA #i literally need to lay on the floor about it #THE WINGS!!! #the way the light hits them !!!!!! #so ethereal and exactly what i envisioned #ty azia for finding them and holding my hand through it <3 #just needed a lil magic. a lil whimsy if you will #if you need me i’ll be staring at these forever :’)

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

could i offer you an L in these trying times?

#death note #death note fanart #l lawliet #my art #small doodle for today #the last thing i did was the lineless misa (excluding nonsensical painting) #and i was like. wow! i like it lineless! (proceeds to not do lineless anymore) #i’ll do it again sometime else i’m just feeling some nice lines. they feel like home :) #anyways y’all want to hear about my day because i said so. if you don’t then that’s not my problem #anyway i got nothing done today (boo) #because instead i was sick and in pain and i could not go home until like 3pm but i had been on campus since 6am #so i just wandered about trying to find someplace to hide #because everything was so loud and too warm and it was wet outside so i couldn’t be there and there were too many people #and i need to sit on the floor. i need it. chairs ruin me actually #so i was just pitifully wandering #i tried to do some assignments bc deadlines are approaching but i couldn’t focus so i was a bit useless today #as soon as i got home i just dry swallowed a number of pills and now i’m better and i drew L (yay) #now i’m going to go to bed at like 8pm because i’m trying to be more well-adjusted #on other news. i plan on stacking a pile of library stools to inconvenience that man tomorrow. very exciting stuff #:)

[seventh-district]

OCD will literally remove your brain's ability to register when a task is Complete and then create 10,000 incredibly ridiculous and extremely specific rules for you to follow in every single aspect of your life (to keep you safe, of course, it tells you.) and then tells you that if you don’t do them Correctly and Completely every single time it tells you to (it tells you countless times per day) then the Entire Fucking World Will End and then it’ll do this fucked up thing where it makes you believe that nonsense.

and then people that don’t have it will make silly little jokes about being soooooo OCD and make t-shirts with fun little acronyms on them like Obsessive Coffee Disorder and tell you how much they like it when things are organized and clean, too!!

and then you’re supposed to just. laugh. like you haven’t been robbed of your entire being and potential and been taken over by a mind and life altering disability

#PSA: don’t fucking tell me to Seek Therapy or Try Medication. i am Aware. i have Tried. it isn’t that fucking simple #and this is my blog. i’ll complain about my illnesses all i want to. if you don’t like it i strongly encourage you to unfollow me #ocd #actually ocd #cw ocd #cw mental illness #mental health stuff #Seven.txt #Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is actually SO goddamn insidious. and only ppl that have lived with it will understand that #it’s a terrible terrible thing. to have something ruin your entire life under the guise of keeping you safe #it’s like being abused by your own mind and i don’t say that lightly #okay. stopped crying long enough to get this post out of my brain and onto my blog #gonna put Walking Disaster on loop and return to my Mental Illness Floor Time now #if no one hears from me for a little while it’s not personal i just. need to not be a Person right now. i’m so tired

[skyward-floored]

actually I really hate being considered a big blog. if I said I only have 10 followers would anyone believe me

#rambles from the floor #rant fueled by weird emotions incoming watch out #feel free to ignore (in fact please do I’ll probably delete this) #I think I’m getting worn out by this fandom #or something idk #I don’t like being big #there’s that whole intimidation factor that comes into play that I DESPISE #‘well you have a lot of followers so you’re scary’ why???? #why does other people deciding to follow me make me scary #I don’t understand #plus I always feel like posts about big blogs are vagueing about me #even if they aren’t #and everybody always NEEDS to know my stance on fandom crap and I get political asks for some reason and #and #*falls on the floor face-first* please just treat me normally guys #I’m twenty [redacted] years old and I’m barely holding my life together as is

[goldkirk]

I opened Pinterest for the first time in months.

That made me realize a lot about how bad I was actually doing and how much of a Waffle House Index use of Pinterest is for adult me, apparently.

I hadn’t realized it had grown that foundational to me in a healthy-brain-exercise-and-hobby-joy way. Nice to know moving forward! It’s another sign I can keep track of and use to spot correlation/indicator patterns earlier my behavior.

I love this kind of thing, it makes me so excited!

#personal data hacking is my passion #someday I’ll tell a story about the most notable times I tracked things or hacked my own mental processes from childhood to now #including the fear of spiders and bed wetting and behavior changes and posture and heart rate and cursive and putting kitchen items and #trash away as soon as I’m finished using them instead of never ever or ages and ages later #I’m so proud of that #you have to give it time and still commit. chaining thoughts and routines and behaviors really works #we are not separate brains and bodies and external environments #anyway I’m gonna go haha I used up he last of my energy burst on Discord and here and I need to go rest and lie on the floor and probly doze #love you all be back soon bye mwah! #add to journal #trauma evolution #my Waffle House index #this is going to be a fun new tag I’m so going to have fun with this and I bet it’ll be a helpful example reference for other people too #more than just for future me! #so excited so proud of myself so happy so grateful for hope about me really trusting that my ability and my behavior and my performance #are able to and going to yes keep getting better #long many-milestone path-journeys of potential #like when I was a little 6-7 year old kid-team athlete looking ahead at a concept of a future with me over time getting #stronger and cleverer and faster and slicker and calmer and even happier and more and more capable and able to accomplish! #a gift. all this time I didn’t think I’d have and have been living anyway is such a gift. #knowing that I truly have future time to grow and explore and change and improve in even though I still can’t FEEL or IMAGINE that future #time yet. also a gift. #the time I will one day realize I can imagine a future and imagine myself alive? will be a gift. #breath is a gift. experiencing life is a gift. other life is a gift. rhythm is a gift. motion is a gift. awake is a gift. color is a gift. #such a great expanse. all of it new. all of it eternal. all of it me. all of it nothing I’ve ever known before. all of it all of it #all of it. gifts. #gonna go have floor time now. this would be such a nice time to re-re-regain my ability to cry! #mwah I love you future me. take care of your hand and thank u for writing all this down 💛 #hey little star whatcha gonna queue? #my poetry

[demigodofhoolemere]

Just watched Jamie and Zoe’s episode and I am feeling way too much

#if you need me i’ll just be lying on the floor dead for probably the next few years #i can hardly breathe right from all of the emotion wracking my body lol #classic who #tales of the tardis #jamie mccrimmon #zoe heriot

[winchesterszvonecek]

when he laughs >

#if you need me #i’ll be on the floor #dying from cuteness overload #chicago fire #chicagofire #brian otis zvonecek #otis #brian zvonecek #otis chicago fire #otis zvonecek

[mellaithwen]

.

#I struggled with what to talk about in therapy this week so of course my chronic illness said cHALLENGE ACCEPTED. #but here’s the kicker — I know the second I open that box that it is going to fuck me up so I’ve been drifting past it #but. idk. #I want to sit on the floor in therapy but I can’t even say it cause it sounds stupid but I really want to sit on the fucking floor #I know if I’m not ready to dive in then I’ll undo progress #but equally I’ll never be ready cause the medical trauma bullshit runs so deep and is so prevalent in all aspects because the fucking #disease is prevalent everywhere and #I don’t have the resilience for any of it #I have one dose of victoza left and that’s it - the pharmacy have giving me 5 IOU’s so far #and I was finally seeing my numbers steadying out #and it makes me so angry because it’s too much #it’s too much to advocate for yourself and research and manage and try and you ask for help and you get shit in return #and I’m so burnt out with it but you can’t even BE fully burnt out because that would mean death #so all you can do is be a bad student #and then the endocrinologist tuts #in your five minute appointment that you waited 18 months for #it’s too fucking much I WANT A FUCKING BREAK #will delete this later #just needed to rant and get it out of me so it doesn’t fester like always #I’m tired #t1dlookslikeme #type 1 diabetes

[atomicradiogirl]

THE LOKI S2 VOL 2 SOUNDTRACK IS OUT IM GOING TO LOSE MY MARBLES

#loki #I HATE THE FLOOR #team natalie holt #if you need me i’ll be crying #i’m normal about the loki soundtrack as usual #loki soundtrack

[loop-deloo]

pls let me know if any of you sit “normal” like are there people out there who genuinely sit. facing forward, feet on the floor… and stay still? i’m not asking this in a weird way i just. who are you and did someone teach this to you?? /nf

how do you guys sit

#it changes literally every time i sit down and at least 5 times while seated. #rarely rarly if ever i can’t think of a time do i sit with both feet on the floor #if i need to be professional or whatever #i’ll sit with one leg crossed over the other #the foot in the air will be bOuncin yk #i just #I DONT UNDERSTAND #i’m just sitting in a lecture with both my feet up and my legs bent i look kinda like a spider but my butt is also on the seat and just. #thinking. #bc the people around me are. well a lot of them are just. sitting #feet on the floor #and i am #floored - if you will

[sailforvalinor]

After avoiding it for many years of my life, I’ve finally read The Little Prince. How am I supposed to just exist normally now

#like I understand the ending is supposed to be ambiguous but I NEED to know what the intended interpretation is. (he is alive TO ME) #just the whole thing about him ‘taming’ the fox and the act of making connections with people is what makes them special to you FLOORED ME #I’m not phrasing that well but. you know the book does it better #also I’m realizing (of course) that I could make some absolutely HORRIFIC parallels between the Prince and his rose and the Doctor and his #Rose (he regrets that he never learned to love her properly he regrets not doing enough to protect her all he wants is to get back to her) #maybe I’ll work that into Joker and Ace—wouldn’t that be evil mwahahahha

[boltgunkiller-archive]

when i draw santana in a band then what 😭😭😭!!!!! u are all not preparedddddd. & like it’ll be in the vampire au specifically… because they have that band episode in mbav with the girl that says “the d-d-dark 👿” LMFAAOOO

#thank you vino for the inspiration… i have been thinking about drawing my favs in a band since u mentioned it #u are an inspiration actually #<- still ab vino #anyway that episode of mbav literally made me and my sister LOSE IT #like actually on the floor #it’s perfect. i really do need to draw this asap #even if it didn’t go exactly like how i’m picturing with blamtana cohen-chang… i’ll make it work #vampire au

[glendover]

damn I forgot that ronan drove an hour every day to the barns to sleep in an office at the back of a far off barn and try to dream something to wake up the cows and he does it bc sometimes he dreams of wasps, this boy screams lovely solitude

#trc #the raven cycle #ronan lynch #like he’s rather be alone than hurt gansey #bye I’m crying again #if you need me I’ll be on the kitchen floor

[stomperofhearts]

calamity trio blorbos bc the hardest thing came out a year ago </3

my art feels like a mashed pickle

#if you need me i’ll be curled up on the floor #amphibia #anne boonchuy #sasha waybright #marcy wu #the hardest thing #amphibia spoilers #my art #aethart