#ig i journal now??

[helpwhatsthis]

self-care is crying while making a page in your journal about how you've never emotionally related to a character in any sort of media as much as will byers.

#stranger things #will byers #will byers kinnie #ig i journal now?? #journal #will the wise #byler?

[fruitsofhell]

I used to be one of those guys when I first joined the Kirby fandom, but everytime I hear a discussion of the series writing that starts with "So the Lore is InSaNe-" and not like, "Kirby has a fun writing style that takes advantage of its cute exterior to tell cool stories that reward player's curiosity and leave lots of room for imagination-" I cringe so goddamn hard.

I kinda just hate that people approach things that encourage investment when they don't expect it as inherently absurd. Like it is fun to joke about how absurd Kirby lore can be, but it really often comes with an air of disrespect or exhaustion rather than like, appreciation that these games are made by people who want to tell interesting stories when they could easily make as much money just making polished enough fluffy kiddy platformers. And when it's not met with exhaustion, it's met with - like I said before - that tone that it's stupid for a series like this TO have devs who care about writing stuff for it. Which is a whole other thing about people not respecting things made to appeal to kiddie aesthetic or tone.

Maybe the state of low-stakes YouTube video essays just blows cause people play up ignorance and disbelief for engagement, but like I STG I hear people use this tone for like actual narrative based games sometimes. Some people don't like... appreciate when a game is made by people who care a shitton in ways that aren't direct gameplay feedback. And they especially don't appreciate it when it comes from something with any sense of tonal dissonance intentional or not.

Anyways, I love games made by insane people. I love games made by teams who feel like they wanna make something work or say something so bad. I love that energy, especially when invested into something that could easily rest on its laurels or which obviously won't be taken seriously. I love this in a lot of classic campy 2000s games, I love this in insanely niche yet passionate fanworks, and I love it in the Kirby series and its writing. Can we please stop talking about it like it's an annoyance or complete joke?

#shut the heck up #kirby #kirby lore #fandom #midnight rambles #im quite talkative today cause my rambling bestie is busy #im also bitter cause im too burnt out to make the things i want to properly express my adoration for this series #but i can waffle about it ig #ive been relying on prose and essay ro express myself a lot in leiu of my usual creative outlets... #i always wanted to make a video edsay series about kirby lore with this expressed ethos #maybe i should just start with essay-essays somewhere #still need to replay all the games for that first though #more streams coming up eventually i swear #tag talking #i read a cool analytical article today that had the same tone as a video essay and i was like 'ah thats the origin of the essay part' #so now i wanna explore that world more of article game and media journalism and such

[skitskatdacat63]

"The Boy With The Thorn in His Side"(x) - The Smiths × 2023 Strollonso moments + pundits' reactions

#baby's first web weave please be kind #frankly i could make a giant masterpost on my opinions on which Smiths songs fit which drivers/ships #i like their music a very healthy amount and I don't spend countless hours daydreaming to it...no.... #but this particular song has been haunting me bcs i think it fits them super well!! #with their relationship dynamics and then the way everyone doubts their relationship #though its been hilarious watching the f1tv commentators kind of resign themselves to 'ah well ig this is what AMR/Fernando is like now' #went from being confused and shocked at their on track comradery to just accepting it for what it is #now theyre like 'ah yes lance dutifully lets fernando pass' compared to the previous ouright disbelief and denial #yeah thats right...theyre in love...what are you gonna do about it... #i think one day itd be fun to make a vid comp of all the times the commentators were ?????? at strollonso's lovey doveyness it is fun TO ME #it was really funny to look through shitty articles for negative comments #but the funniest part is that istg all of the articles just quote this one singular man who is hellbent on being a hater #i am in your walls peter windsor. #i think its silly when they bring in 'f1 experts' for their opinions ona drivers motivations and mindset #they act like such armchair psychologists like bruh your degree is probably engineering or journalism calm down!! #hehehe anyways happy with this!! i wrote it out on paper like a whole ass essay draft to brainstorm what to put #and then i scrolled thru the draft while listening to the song and im just EEEEEEE IT FITSSSSSSS #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #lance stroll #fernando alonso #fa14 #ls18 #1418 #1814 #strollonso #alonstroll #normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion

[blackbackedjackal]

I just wanted macdondaled...

#literally in my driveway #i drug him back towards my house #mine now ig? #yes it's legal for me to pickup deer and even more so because he was in my driveway 😭 #dead animal #roadkill #jackal's journal

[tehcann]

they r holding hands and being really dumb and gay in the few minutes they have together during a containment breach 🙄

#scp #scp containment breach #scp 049 #scp 035 #049 x 035 #they make me really homophobic actually /j #a bird and a porcelain mask walk into a bar . theres a joke in there somewhere i swear #049 probably has corrosion holes all throughout his journal because of 035 and he gets SO SO RIGHTFULLY MAD ABOUT IT LIKE #“mon étoile i spent hours creating diagrams for myself so i can refine my cure and you...you're getting corrosive on my pen now. get OFF” #but they love each other anyways ig #ur honour put them back in jail for another 100 years i just cant stand these gay people and their lifestyle 😭😭😭 #tehcart

[keytaryourheart]

slow journal 😵‍💫 w/ stickers from @petite-gloom's patreon

#i never properly considered using a ring planner until megan rhiannon's videos #im still in my leuchturrm for time tracking and ig 'venting' #but the filofax has been so useful for habit tracking and other stuff that i would loathe drawing up in my bujo #now i just draw it up once and print when i like its magic #filofax #journal #teddy journals #fyi the stickers are printed by me and are not the ones from megan rhiannon's store (so not indicative of the actual quality....) #idk it feels like im falling back in love with journaling #i never fully stopped but this has just opened saur many possibilities #okae journal rant overrrrr

[allisonlol]

it’s 3am but i literally forgot that it’s now my birthday wtf?? i don’t rlly like my birthday but happy 20 years to me 😭😭 gettin OLD

#ღ: alice's journal #no more teenage years #i don’t wanna think abt it #wait me and aku are the same age now #slay ig

[vzajemnik]

im truly in such a fascinating position in my life right now i think

#🗞️ #just remembered that that guy whos gay and has a boyfriend and theyre in a monogamous relationship. asked me to write him a love letter. #bc i told a story about how i have this journal with letters i never gave people but that i used to write letters all the time #and that combined with the flirting combined with the makeout combined with . All Of That. literally what is even happening #would i lavender marry him yes absolutely in a heartbeat. but would i actually have a fling with him absolutely not................. #how does he kiss me with his boyfriend right behind the door and how does he flirt with me with our friend RIGHT HERE NEXT TO US........... #eeeewwwwwwww. and now im avoiding every single party opportunity ngl. and i like his boyfriend soooo much id love for us to party again.. #but this is just so weird and i feel like if i confront him or bring it up to our friend im gonna make it 10x weirder. so. #like now its fine bc its ig unspoken. but as a person who went thru all of that already i dont wanna be in the same situation i was in #exactly 2 years ago like what the hell.............................

[yuukimiyas]

( ˶ˆ꒳ˆ˵ ) good mornin!! its finally the wknd!! yay!! :3 its 12/30 over here in the states but im wishing a HUGE happy nye/new yr to all of my sweets in dif timezones!! ໒꒰ྀི∩˃ ᵕ ˂∩꒱ྀི১ you’ve done an amazing job in 2023 & im so excited to see what 2024 brings you all!! <33 lets finish out this yr strong w spreading sm love & light to others!! (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و squeezin you in a HUGE hug!!!

#ᕱ⑅ᕱ.* journals! #happy saturday!!! ଘ(੭ˊ꒳​ˋ)੭✧ i wrk all day today but im off tmrw & mon!! woo!! #i wonder what you & your faves will get up to this nye hehee!! i’ll have to try to make my lil rounds & see ( •ॢ◡-ॢ)-♡ #OOO GOOD NEWS!!! i got a SUPER amazing deal on a SUPER RARE psycho pass enamel pin & ITS COMING TODAY!!!! :D #it was supposed to get here on tues!!! ig shinya rlly can’t stay away from me huh ૮꒰ྀི ∩៸៸៸∩ ‎꒱ྀིა hehee!! #i’ll show you guys a lil pic when i get home from work!! its SO PRETTY!! & ITS 2/5 !!!! LIKE ONLY 5 WERE MADE!!! & NOW I OWN THE 2ND!!! #okie i gotta get up & get ready for work but i will catch up w you guys there!! :3 i got sm to dooo on here im sorry i’ve been slackin!!!! #ILYA SO SO SO SOOOO MUCH!!! i hope your ‘23 was as great as you are!! ꒰ ˃̶̤́ ꒳ ˂̶̤̀ ꒱ MWAH!! a massive smooch from me to you!!!

[manjibunny]

RIP to me because I lost my dream journal and RIP to whoever reads my dream journal after finding it

#zaya's silly lil thoughts #I've had this journal since I was 13. Literally wrote down all my dreams that I had and now it's gone #I'm genuinely sad #been looking for my dream journal for a week. ig I gotta accept that I won't fund it again and start a new one 😔

[tapucocoafgc]

Had a very good talk with my gf last night that basically boiled down to: you can't care for others until you can care for yourself

And it's so obviously like, I needed to clear brain space to do that anyway, but having another person say it put it really starkly into perspective

#tapu irlposting #I let her look over what I'd been journaling about over the past several weeks #and she was like #“you spend a LOT of time framing what you do and how you feel in the context of other people” #and I was like #“...huh.” #and it really set the ball rolling on me thinking about everything leading up to this #how I've had to people please basically my entire life #and how I've been conditioned to think of how I see myself as purely being how others see me #and I don't think I even know how to exist as myself without that qualifier #and it's very daunting to think about learning #but I clearly need to do *something* just for me #and that's what my writing has been honestly but maybe I need to do more #maybe I need to be a little selfish as a treat #these tags got out of hand lol but tl;dr I have been way too busy making myself emotionally available to others #to be emotionally available for myself #and even now my brain is telling me: nah don't do that you're a shit person who doesn't deserve it #but I gotta tell it to shut up ig

[e77y]

Trying to fix my resume ☝️🤓 Small problem: I sound like a loser no matter what

#not really lol. I have a lot of experience in this field #for someone my age anyway #but like. idk 😭 I wanna get out of journalism I HATE journalism #I’m applying for publishing internships and idk I just wish I had more publishing experience…. #a lot of my extracurriculars are music related and idk if I should include them or not #just to fill space ig #bc I have only ever had one singular job #and one other piece of experience as editor in chief #idk maybe I just feel this way bc I’m using Harvard resume templates #and so I’m seeing everything that’s on a Harvard student’s resume 😭 like damn. I hope they’re not applying for this internship.. #it’s based in NYC so I doubt I’ll get it? but like? idk how many applicants they get??? hm #there are also lots of different internships with the same company all listed rn so idk #I have until the end of the month to fix this shit hehahah #hopefully my cover letter will better demonstrate my relevance to this position #bc all of my journalism experience feels kinda irrelevant on paper. editing news is VERY different from editing communications research lol #ellyposting #🤓posting #<- kinda. it’s about work not school but I did start doing this (researching internships) for a class #and now I’m kinda invested bc I need an internship in the next year anyway… I could get it over with over the summer #idk. if I get a job this summer I will make a job tag like. jobposting. workposting. perhaps hellposting if it sucks really bad (again 🥲) #that’s why I’m scared of another internship. even though the last one was paid and so is this one… people are straight up abusive to interns #😅😅😅😅😅 AUGH. SCREAMS PUNCHES WALL etc #okay goodnight :3c

[ban-joey]

sending laser beams to my professor with my mind. kenneth you said midterm grades would b up by this afternoon. it is officially TONIGHT and guess what? kenneth i would love to not be clenching my teeth in my sleep tonight. kenneth i will be sending you a bill in the mail. yes i know its probably a TAs responsibility but i blame you personally. i hate school

#i dont im having a lot of fun (genuinely) but it is often pretty stressful #did find out there are a few folks adjacent to my program doing zoonoses & climate change research so im very excited to chat w them next w #possibly directing my thesis towards one health. social epi gradually becoming less interesting #plus i think my strengths do lie in applying epi to biological concepts so. one health works there #my brain continually trying to get back to lyme disease :( sometimes i really do miss the east coast tbh! #not lying actually i think the number one thing i miss is the amt of vector borne disease research LMFAO #i do unfortunately kind of have a crush on a classmate so that's fine but whatever. grad school. men are nice to me and i lose my mind ig #need to go make out w a hot trans person i think that would solve my problems rn #but also it's nice to be so excited about someone deciding to sit next to me in every class :) #like wow how isolated have i been the last 3 years to be so delighted by like. active signs i have Officially Made Friends. #even if he does live like a block away from my dad and jokes every goddamn day like 'so i saw your dad yesterday' no you DIDNT shut UP #idk yesterday he sat right next to me in a class he usually sits w other people in and it sort of sent my brain off the edge and now im jus #yeah. sitting with this one. it's fine like it's normal. but wowie i do think it's my first time having a Big Ol Crush since (redacted) #a little scary for my animal brain i think but it's okay! #im 25 in like 3 ish weeks and i still get embarrassed about this stuff somehow? stupid. #he's just really nice and always really fun to talk to! i think i had to officially Sit With Myself today bc epi is doing a holiday party #and there's a baking contest and we were talking abt it in class and i was indecisive abt whether i want to participate #and he like fully cut me off and was like oh you should bake something so i can have some :) #and. well fuck now i have to lmao. IM SO EASY IT'S SO EMBARRASSING #good evening everyone. guess this is my journal now. anyway ken rice you owe me twenty dollars and i aim to COLLECT

[queergrittys]

‘cause you’re a dream to me

men’s hockey | artturi lehkonen/nathan mackinnon | mature | 12.1k

“The Board Trustees and I now open the floor to members of the community,” Artturi hears Mayor Bednar say. “If any members of the Tulipa community would like to comment on tonight’s proceedings, now is the time to do so.”

Nobody from the town who’s not a Board Trustee, town employee, or a sleep-deprived journalist ever comes to these meetings, and so Artturi starts to close his notepad.

“I have a couple things, actually.”

#me??? finishing a wip?? ig it's happened now lads #mine #my fic #hockey rpf #hrpf #hockey fic #tbh this is mostly a love letter to small towns specifically queer community in rural small towns masquerading as fic #also a love letter to local journalism masquerading as fic #also me processing my feelings about the 2016-23 avs seasonas masquerading as fic #anyway shoutout to in rare form bc without a deadline i don't think i'd have finished this and it was really fun!

[theresa-of-liechtenstein]

jus rambling lmao ignore me but like just lingering on the graduate division website for my program and half of my brain is like i don’t know should i even bother going for a phd i’m not the brightest person i’m kind of slow and i feel like i’m always working twice as hard to get worse scores than other people and my grades aren’t best of the best i’m a straight 3.5/3.6 gpa and i’m not part of any clubs or anything i just play my little violin on tuesdays and thursdays and spend two hours a week being insane about physics in front of other undergrads and i’m not allowed to be a transmission electron microscope authorized user bc i’m baby i’m honestly just kind of a cringefail loser who likes materials science too much and gets butthurt when people inevitably drop me because i talk about school too much and everyone hates school or whatever. and then i remember i’m an honors student and literally working in a lab and due to write a paper and present at a symposium next year and half my tuition is paid by a state merit scholarship so even though i might be kind of stupid in the classroom sometimes, overall people did see something in me in 2020 and i haven’t been kicked out yet so people must still be seeing something in me. but idk.

#the program i’m aiming for is where i’m at for undergrad and it’s fully funded #also i feel like i know people here and i don’t want to leave my parents without help #and i really really want to be a teaching assistant too obviously i don’t condone how TAs are treated by the university #but i love love love talking with students #it touches me so much that students will trust you if you show them you’re on their side #and as frustrating as my research is right now it’s fun to not know what’s around the corner #hmm. thoughts #<- just for journaling purposes ig #iskul bukol: undergrad edition

[pearlpool]

more tagsposting because i’m having tweetable thoughts and i can’t tweet rn

#can’t tweet (not allowed) (twitter break) (i have a problem about that app) #i hope that like. it’s clear how much i’ve grown/changed in the last few years #i hope it’s not just visible to me #i feel like a totally different person from who i was in 2020. which was when a lot of my online friends actually got to know me better #and it’s so crazy to think of what i was like at that time. i was SUCH a baby #and there are some mistakes i’ve made that still fuck me up to this day 😭 #so ig like. hey if we’re friends i feel really weird about that time in my life and in our friendship 😭 #but at least in my view of myself a lot has changed for me internally. and some of these things are good! #crazy how you learn as you get older #anyways #this actually probably isn’t something i would tweet now that i’m thinking about it #but anyways. yeah reading my old journal is really insane #and i hope im still someone you think is cool. maybe more so now idk