#ill beg for food

[untitledinstinct]

Turns out I did hurt my broken rib a little bit with that stuffing session last night.

But I can't stop thinking about eating more, and getting fatter.

I kinda want to binge eat in bed, so I can try to get to a point all I can do is lay down and wait for food to digest (before continuing to eat, I want this gut packed full. I want to be so full I cannot get off the bed.

I'm not fat enough yet. I still have at least 50lbs to go.

Fk me fatter and tease me gently. Treat me like your toy, and objectify me.

My dms and asks are open. Tell me your fantasies.

My dms and asks are open. Tell me your fantasies.

Fk me fatter and tease me gently. Treat me like your toy, and objectify me.

#ftm weight gain #ftm feedee #ftm feedist #make me fatter #fatten me #need to be fatter #weight gain #gaining on purpose #fatten me up #ill eat for you #ill beg for food #ill be your piggy #fk me fatter #make me your piggy #help make me fatter #help stuff this gut #help fatten me #help fill me up #help me get fatter #stuffed gut #bloated gut #fat gut #gut #not big enough yet #big fatty #big tummy #bloating #belly play #fat belly #basketball belly

[shvkespearc]

so LOL my new job completely fucked me over and scammed me by telling me i'd work 20 hours a week immediately, then saying they won't have proper availability for a few more weeks, now saying they can barely give me hours at all, IF ANY, for the foreseeable future.

well my life goes on and continues to include expenses even as i try to apply for new jobs

in the meantime well my poetry books are still for sale!

you can get them for as little as 1 dollar or customize the amount to anything! PLEASE THEYRE NOT BAD- (INSERT REVIEWS HERE) the site is perfectly safe to buy from and v easy!

#whatever. uses the last 30 dollars on my credit card #i know later ill check this post and there will be 0 notes #which is fine #i just dont know what else to do? #i applied to my local library yesterday and tried soooo hard on my app and cover letter #so im begging pleading ill get it #but i know its kind of compteitive so :( #then theres just fucking nowhere left thats hiring except like fast food #which is a bummer cause i said id never work in fast food again after i did in high school #but like hello? hello girl? girl help? #all my cards are maxed because ive had no money to pay them off #needless to say nothing in my fucking account #im in debt to all my friends #i got a few jobs art modeling this month #but its only like 150$ total #which like. i need 800+ a month . so #epic my dude #.txt

[loopnoid]

by the way, friendly reminder that i have a ko-fi! i don't think i've posted about this on tumblr before, but if you tip me USD$10 or more, you'll get a little personalized thank-you sketch :-)

#most of the stuff ive been posting this past week are thank you sketches hehe #just tell me something you like/a blorbo/etc and ill make something! its good if youd like a drawing but nothing so fancy as a full comm #im thankfully in a much better place financially than last month so i dont have to like beg for food money at the end of the month #however every cent is still very appreciated. the economic situation here is still very dire lmao so there are things that still fall #outside my monthly budget that i'd really find useful! specially since i'd like to work on a few pieces before fully opening comms again

[spadefish]

Ghhhh I just BARELY have enough cash to cover my end of the month bills but I have no grocery money... I applied for SNAP and did my interview but I've been waiting for them to send me a ledger in the mail that I have to fill out before I can see if I actually get approved or not.

If anyone wants to throw anything at me I would very much appreciate it... If you want, tell me an animal or a Pokemon in your donation note (and tell me your Tumblr URL if you want me to send it to you) and I'll doodle it!

(tip jar here)

#sorry for e-begging again im very tired and i just want to afford food #i hope this stupid ledger gets here soon #ashe.txt #im going to bed now but if anyone sends anything ill doodle ur animals tomorrow #EDIT: added tip jar link to this post

[straawberries]

hi happy halloween im out of food again

please commission me or donate

ive pretty much given up on being able to afford moving out so just being able to afford to live until i get kicked out would be nice

c*sh*pp (does this actually need to be censored?) is delilahswagga, p*yp*l is @delilahkill

not asking for a lot here even a few people donating a few dolalrs or getting 2 dollar commissions would help me a lot

#working on a new comm sheet ill reblog with it later #not eating regularly is like the biggest thing that makes my depression worse and it fucking sucks #thanks god for making the biggest thing that makes me happy the one thing i cant get regularly #meow #i hate e begging i feel like such a fucking loser right now. god #gotta love that autism!!!!!!!!!! #my dad keeps intentionally buying shit he knows i cant fucking eat without meltdowns #just because he thinks 'more food in pantry for longer = better' regardless of means #ive started just throwing away the fucking disgusting cans of soup in the hopes that he'll go to the store and buy something else #but every time he goes to the store he just buys me like #a bag of chips #and everything else is for him #if i touch the fucking meat he'll kill me and he buys like several hundred dollars of meat every month for his stupid smoker #he has bought 4 smokers in the last year but cant fucking stomach the thought of giving me some money for groceries #like expensive smokers #i know hes fucking lying when he says hes too poor to get me the shit that im actually able to comfortably eat at the cost of a few dollars #wow i am ranting hard in these tags. sorry #saved for later #<- so i can reblog this later if i need to

[nowandthane]

Remember when I was complaining about Coco’s vet bills and the fact that he needed another blood test? Well Fifi is sick too and she ALSO needed a blood test and also medication and my bill yesterday was RM588 im genuinely DEAD

the good news is Coco is healthy. The bad news is my life

#saving money is so hard 🥲 #all my savings in the U.K. was used up getting me back here etc not like the asshole was gonna help pay for anything #even though he was the one who ruined my life #and then I start saving again here and I’ve already had to dip into it #my parents were helping a lot when Robb and Coco was sick but I can’t ask them for any more 😭 #I’m so screwed lmao #at least I can always go over to my grandparents and beg them to feed me…………. #(since. yknow. whatever money I have left goes towards buying CAT food) #they’re so fucking expensive why did they all decide to become ill one after another 😭😭

[soo-won]

soohak smooching...smooshak...smoohak..

#akayona #akatsuki no yona #yona of the dawn #soohak #yotd #soowon #suwon #soo won #hak #son hak #couldnt decide on which one i prefered.... #take it as a valentines day thing #i have to make my own food with them...it's fine ill do it #posting this from the train for everyone in the car to see!! #talk to me about suhak im begging talk to me about suhak please please pl #lumen draws

[lunar-pantheon]

Heyo, I know this site is literally only posts like this, I swear this is the only post I'll make. But after years and years of trying I'm finally going to move out of my abusive household, and FINALLY be able to be in a non abusive environment and transition medically in my last year of college.

If you have funds to spare I'd really appreciate it. I'm currently employed at three different places but paychecks just aren't coming in fast enough. I have just enough money for a uhaul and first month's rent, but not any for like. food. And other moving expenses. And furniture although that's less of a priority until I get the whole food thing squared away.

If you don't have the funds to spare, literally no worries, and I'm not trying to guilt anyone into reblogging. If you'd like a tarot/oracle/pendulum reading or something in return, please lmk and i will gladly do that for you!!

Thank you so much for reading!!

Venmo: @LunarPantheon

Cashapp: $lunarpantheon

#im so sorry for begging for money on here #literally the only time ill do this but my student loan and scholarship money is coming on the 8th and i need money for food and such #signal boost #trans #lgbt #mutual aid

[lunchboxtrolls]

hi i am Really low on money and i dont want to have to tap into my savings, which doesnt have that much anyways! i am also still unemployed and still job hunting! -i am selling designs and adopts HERE (will be frequently updated) -my COMMISSIONS are always open!! -i also just decided ill be doing 15$ chibi customs! slots will be open forever!

#boost #i hate to sound like im begging for money #but eating the same thing Every Day is fucking TORTURE!!!!!!!!!!! #like. its so hard to find a job thats close to me which wont cost a billion dollars in uber #bc i dont have a mode of transportation outside of that and my parnents #umm if u cant afford anything but still want to support #just rb ? :'] #and also im not so much worried abt me than i am my cat #he needs to eat #and cat food isnt That expensive but ... you know? #ill Survive somehow!!! #um sorry if it sounds like im guilt tripping anyone #i dont want this to come off like that #if u think this is annoying ummmmm #suck my dick? #starving artist #LOL #kidding #lb.txt

[untitledinstinct]

One of the biggest things I've always had an issue with, is I've always eaten to be full, and because I was bored.

Everyone else would eat to not be hungry.

I even growing up I took "all-you-can-eat" literally.

I was 8 and eating about 5 plates full. I would be waddling my way out.

I would also eat between 4-6 plates full every single holiday dinner.

I've always been fat.

I've always been a fatass.

I've been genuinely into being a feedee my entire life.

I genuinely think this is part of my life path.

To be a fatass. I mean, 199lbs is the smallest I've been since I grew past it growing up. And that was done badly, only so I can get top surgery. When I went back up, I landed around 250 again.

250 is my neutral. 250 is my starting.

I don't think I've ever been meant to be skinny or thin or hell, even chubby. I'm literally meant to be fat.

#ftm feedee #ftm weight gain #ftm feedist #fattening thoughts #weight gain #bhm weight gain #gaining on purpose #gaining weight on purpose #make me fatter #fatten me #need to be fatter #fat belly #help me get fatter #feedee belly #help fatten me #meant to be fat #ill be your piggy #ill eat for you #ill beg for food

[inkubye]

6 months of unpaid labour moodboard

#@self if you thought that you can afford to go to uni without putting yourself and family in debt... think again bastard #compulsory part of the final year being doing a 6 month unpaid clinical placement which is legal btw wtaf #cant do my side job bc the placement + uni obligations take up too much time + im mentally ill and need the rest #depleted majority of my savings to afford rent so far #loans dont cover shit #entire family is gonna have to work extra to help me out #resorting to begging the bursary and funds people for financial help #i literally cannot afford my rent and bills next year without bursary and/or family help let alone food and other necessities #what is the point of uni anymore bro im 😭 #mmmm yummy exploitation #im so so sad and angry #unpaid labour.... for students.... IN THIS ECONOMY??? UOE die challenge #personal #og post

[horce-divorce]

could anyone send me literally like. $1 to my venmo (idleseas)? I have $22 and some change, I just wanna pull the $20 out for gas and most ATM fees are $3 so im sure you can see how this is very frustrating for me

#me #if you have any extra to spare for additional gas/food thatd be awesome #i am gonna sell some stuff this week i hope but idk how much itll get me #and we dont have a ton of food as is #so ill be begging again soon anyway

[igneous-croc]

I find it amusing when people go like "one day we'll all move away from our family and we'll be able to swear" like, brother. Im the one preventing them from swearing

#If you guys feel better away from your parents then god bless and godspeed #As for me theyre people who buy me things and cook me food and theyre only mildly annoying #If you want me to move out youd have to pry me with a damn crowbar and even then ill tank every electronic device #Just so they have to beg for me to come crawling back. HAH! #Who will record your sportsball games father

[starb0oooy]

My kitties are always excited to see me when I come home from a trip :')

#cat chat #so much purring and snuggling #and food begging bc they know ill give them a Lil smackeral

[theygender]

I'm reading up about hognose snakes rn and I want one SO BAD but I can't have one both bc my gf has a phobia of snakes and also bc I don't think I have the heart to feed it mice 😭

#i dont think ill ever really have the opportunity to get a snake with my gf's phobia #but if i did it would need to be an insectivore #apparently hognose snakes can also eat eggs but id imagine an egg only diet wouldnt be very nutritionally balanced for them #and im not about to buy an animal just to neglect it #(they can also eat amphibians and lizards but that can introduce parasites to them AND i still dont think id have the heart for it) #theyre so cute tho omg. they crawl in between your fingers and take little sippy sips from water #ideally their startle responses wouldnt be something id ever see bc i wouldnt want them to get stressed out but even THOSE are cute #they flatten themselves to the ground like a pancake to make themselves look Bigger but they actually just look cute #they flare their neck out to pretend to be a cobra but when baby snakes do it its adorable #instead of biting to ward off predators they hit them with their noses #and if that doesnt work they full on play dead. LITERALLY roll onto their backs and loll their tongues out #and if someone flips them back over when theyre doing that theyll roll back onto their backs again like noooo dont look at me im deeaaad #they get really excited about feeding time too and apparently some of them will open their little mouths like a baby bird #mice are one of their main prey sources in the wild and to my knowledge they don't eat fish #but when they're babies you gotta teach them to eat frozen/thawed mice by putting juice from a tuna can on it like you're weaning a kitten #once they get past their picky toddler stage tho they'll come up to the front of the cage and beg for food #i want a snek so bad 😭 #someone who can take really good care of a snake without getting in their feels about feeder mice please get one so i can hang out with it #rambling

[andillbeancuteboyifiwantto]

best by dates featherless, full can in hand consumed by inner turmoil bare feet on kitchen tile yet it has slipped away, white noise thoughts of stupid human shit waste absurd etched scars of all the lies why are we this way is it really even your life to live? one accident could end it and others can debate pulling the plug keep you selfishly alive, despite organ failure the thought makes me tremble or that to barely scrape by- costs more than is possible healthcare, or bills box of pasta/can of sauce or toothpaste you can’t afford any of it even if you worked twenty jobs when am i allowed to pull the plug? i don’t want to be dead, not really don’t qualify for the circus of governmental bs can’t earn a single cent best by dates my expiration is long past years of mental illness, poverty this body is crumbling in prolonged agony heart in constant pain nothing fixes it 22 years at risk of heart failure from 22 far too long years on this rock hurtling through space this suffering is cruel, naught for any purpose yet it’d be oh such an waste in other eyes best by dates, stupid can in my hand abandoned

#suicidal thoughts cw #chronic illness cw #poverty cw #spilled ink #my poetry #(full of rage over the state of the world and just... dont get why me being in literal agony with no likelyhood of a future is priority..) #(over i don't know acknowledging sometimes people just don't live long lives) #(my literal heart is trying to eat itself basically and like my loved ones should understand that paired with my diseased brain...) #(the best thing would be if I died just not even from being tired of life mentally but logically as well) #(wouldnt you rather your loved one was at peace feeding nature- instead of literally having arythmia heart problems daily?) #(with no hopes of even being able to afford food or bills let alone healthcare they need or even the odd like candy bar?) #(not ill enough to qualify to become an jester begging the government for help but not remotely able to grit teeth into nothing either) #(screaming into the void because im just... so fucking tired and in so much actual pain mentally+phsyically)