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#ill go one day without mentioning my dad i promise... todays not that day tho ☠️
todayisafridaynight · 11 months
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This might not be anything, but while writing about your fics, the way you have the characters' mannerisms down PERFECTLY got me thinking about mirroring...
There's a lot of it in 7 (Horii is a directorial genius etc etc), most of it more intentional than these probably are, but there's something so interesting about mirroring that takes the tone of a (relatively) fond memory, a familiar gesture, and inverts it in the way shown here.
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OH I'M GLAD YOU'VE NOTICED THESE TOO I think I mentioned it months back (or I drafted a post 'bout it but didn't think it was anything noteworthy) but I always really did like how the Arakawa Family mimicked each other's mannerisms (also circling back to how Jo and Masato calling Ichiban 'Ichi' presumably after picking it up from Arakawa)!
Aoki actually does the same sitting gesture too! I went back to double check and skim through the rest of the game's cutscenes, and as far as I could tell unless I skipped a scene, it really is only these three that do this specific pose:
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It's such a small detail but I love it immensely and it really does highlight their connections with each other and it drives me insane
#snap chats#the fact aoki holds his left fist with his right like jo..... im gonna be sick... (crying)#potential hints that aoki really does favor jo and/or spends more time with him... or i might be delirious. could be both even..#focusing on how jo mimics arakawa though i dont think i have to say i love how it is inverted intention wise#like of course in arakawa's situations he's in a position where he's helping ichi and speaking calmly with him#while with jo Evidently each interaction is more tense and antagonistic#really is a cool way to emphasize that whole 'step parent' angle if that makes sense#OH BUT THANK YOU ON MY WRITING that's a huge compliment: i'm glad you think i have their mannerisms down !#accuracy is a big thing to me... in case we haven't picked that up yet.... i should relax a little tbh--#BUT i'd like to think my brain's good at visualizing things and i think i've 'studied' enough to get an acceptable result in what i show#it's like... if i can't see it in my head clearly or it doesn't look right then i wanna keep trying until it DOES look right yk#dont want a Hello Kitty Wouldnt Do Xanax moment... only on occasion.... a lil xanax wouldnt hurt as long as its not too far gone ☠️#alright im. DELIRIOUS.#to end this off i watched the first episode of Sailor Suit and Machine Gun !#my japanese is. HORRENDOUS BUT the art of inference and context clues and stray knowledge got me through it#i'm excited to watch the next episode even if i'm only really getting half the impact from the dialogue#BUT THE FEELING'S THERE... the emotion's there#embarrassingly i almost cried when izumi was crying in the theater over her dad while she was eating cause like Girl Me Too ☠️☠️#ill go one day without mentioning my dad i promise... todays not that day tho ☠️#IN ANY CASE. thank you for droppin the episodes on me !! i can't stress never tiring of having new things to watch#ill watch the next episode tonight probably. i was gonna go out to get lunch buuuut my moms home#so there goes that plan.. at least my bro got me food while /he/ went out today lmao
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blxetsi · 3 years
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modern eren jaeger dating headcanons
lowercase intended !
college!eren jaeger x gn!reader
warnings: mentions of p*rnhub
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- firstly, this man is CONVINCED it was love at first sight (he ALWAYS tells you this too)
- "babe when i met you i just KNEW you were gonna be mine" "no you didnt" "yes i did- hey dont stop holding me 😣"
- you guys met because you were tutoring him. (he was failing history 😔💔)
- after weeks of shy touches and shared giggles he FINALLY brought his grade up and didnt need you anymore
- that didnt mean he didnt want you tho ;)
- asked you out on a date (and by that i mean to a party smh 🙄)
- and the rest is history 😌✨
- hes the kind of guy that flirts with you even though youre together
- "so uh,, you come here often 😏"
- "eren youre in my apartment 😐"
- he tries to invite you everywhere that he goes with his friends
- like,,, EVERYWHERE
- jean and reiner wanna organize a boys night ? hes pulling out his phone getting ready to text you and saying "oh is it okay if y/n comes ? i didnt get to see them much this week i miss them 🥺" like mf this is for The Boyz 😡😤🥶🥵🔥‼️
- youre weirdly close with sasha, shes just really cool
- eren will call you at the most inconvenient times for the stupidest reasons
- one time he called you while you were doing an INTERVIEW for work and you wanna know what he called you for ? to tell you he bought a bunch of silly string to use on jean.
- bitch im trying to get PAID. rn . trying to make a LIVING. so i dont end up below the POVERTY LINE. tell me about ur silly string after i secure the bag 🙄‼️
- is very touchy. like very touchy.
- but also respects bounderies
- hes NEVER mad when you have something to say about him or your relationship together
- you dont feel comfortable with the pda ?? He Wont do it Again
- you think you two could work on communicating better with each other ?? hes already googling ways to do that
- he cares and cherishes you and the bond you two have created together, hes not gonna try and ruin that
- is a fucking lightweight. dont go with him to parties.
- but if you asked him to hold his drink he will NOT forget about it.
- a couple times he broke the plastic cup he was gripping it so hard 🤩
- is also the type of guy to just protect others ?? like for no reason
- he sees a guy trying to get close to a girl who had made it abundantly clear that she didnt want that ?? hes going over there and playing bf to protect that stranger
- he can thank first year drama class for his superb acting skills 😌✨
- will literally help anyone he sees in a bind
- also his brother is weirdly cool ??
- his parents live far away but his brother only lives like,, 40 minutes away from the university
- hes like an older brother to everyone 🤩
- if you like reading classic literature zeke is your guy to talk to. has so many ideas and opinions on those stories and stuff, and will NOT hesitate to lend you a book of his
- eren has led lights in his room. he ALWAYS has them on the colour red
- he doesnt understand why ppl think hes horny bc of the red lights ?? his eyes just adjust better to the red lights compared to the blue 😔
- he has stretch marks all over his body 🤩 like on his biceps, tummy, back, thighs, etc. etc. doesnt really think about them anymore but he used to be SO self conscious of them in highschool. he saw berty (bertholdt) with his shirt off once during his freshman year and saw how he had stretch marks too, and immediately thought they were cool
- he likes to play with your hair and scratch your scalp, but he likes it when you braid his hair because he thinks it makes him look pretty
- will get you weird things because they remind him of you
- one time he came to pick you up for your date and before you could even KISS HIM hes pushing you away and pulling out a tiny ceramic frog 😐
- "no you dont understand zeke took me to a thrift store today and i found this and it reminded me of you-" "i look like a frog to you ? is that what youre saying ?" "NO ! its just so cute, and youre so cute so i had to get it. do you like it 😊"
- doesnt like most meats, his only exceptions are chicken,
- thats it 😐
- you guys were having a picnic and you made sandwichs (with the sliced turkey meat) and he took one bite out of it, looked you in your face, and spit it back into the baggy without breaking eye contact
- likes just laying in bed with you. has a playlist of songs like arctic monkeys and shit like that, just sitting in the dark with a song on low volume, whispering whatever he wants into your ear is like,, the DEFINITION of love in his book
- also can and will recite lines from shakespeare plays to you ?? will be at the most randomest times. you could be sweeping and he'd just wrap his arms around you before whispering "two households, both alike in dignity. in fair verona where we lay our scene. from ancient grudge break to new mutiny, where civil blood makes civil hands unclean."
- okay mf this isnt english class 😐‼️ but thank you 😁👍
- will always try and do new tiktok trends and make funny videos so he can "blow up"
- he gets on average like 20 views 🤩
- he likes seeing you and his friends get along, it just makes him so happy that you love mikasa and armin just as much as he does, and hes so thankful that youre all friends
- likes to help you reach whatever you cant, and if youre taller (even by an inch) hes making you grab things for him
- he doesnt have a major yet, and he doesnt really know what he wants to do with his life, but being a hairstylist sounds cool
- whenever youre having a bad day mentally, he'll just give you your space unless you say otherwise
- he doesnt know if its the best idea, but he knows when he gets into a bad headspace he wants to be alone
- if you do say you want him with you, he'll lie right beside you in bed and spoon you, and if you want he'll put on the arctic monkeys playlist and whisper about the project he worked on for his business class
- he doesnt like sharing, BUT will steal your shit all the time 🙄
- "oh hey heres that thing i borrowed from you" "oh my fucking god eren i thought i lost that months ago"
- may not understand everything he learns in class, but he always tries bc this is his education !! his parents saved up a lot of money for him to be able to go to university !! hes gonna try his best to make the most of this
- i feel like he would play baseball at university. he asks that u wear his jersey to every game so "everyone knows that the most beautiful person attending this educational establishment is MINE" like,, k ill wear the jersey 🙄🤚
- has a list of the best websites to use to illegally stream movies, anime etc.
NSFW ! -------
- also hates pornhub. knows about all the controversies and shit about the website and doesnt use it. supports smaller porn companies that respect their workers 😁👍
- his parents love you. Im Serious
- carla asks about you all the time (hey mommy 😏) and his dad wonders about you too even though hes more lowkey about it
- always has to open the door for you or pull out your chair for you. no matter what setting youre in he Has to do it bc hes a gentleman
- bohemian rhapsody is his comfort film
- i think eren thinks that Youre the One for him, and this idea is solidified when you two graduate together 😍
- he takes you back to the library where he first met you, gives you a promise ring and just asks you to move in with him, hes not ready for an engagement and he knows you arent either, but he knows that youre it for him, and he just wants to be with you for as long as youll allow it
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GAH this felt all over the place and very mediocre but i hope you enjoyed !!! remember asks are open so feel free to request something 🤩
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kimmie113080 · 5 years
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Refusing to Yield Chapter 18
This is based on real life. Just the name has been changed to protect the person identity. There is mention of all types of abuse. If that is a trig, please don’t read. Reader get into a relationship with Kim Seokjin and Min Yoongi but all BTS is in this series.
 I told her my name was little w and she told me hers was Ann. I go we use code names and I said how do you like Kim. I love it that is how Ann became Kim back home. Okay I understand almost everything. Thank you, guys, for protecting and keeping Ann safe. If she lived with you guys? How did David find her here? That is for Ann to tell you herself? It is not a good topic for Ann, but if you ask. She will tell you just like she told us, Tim and her uncle. 
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I can tell you it is not a good subject. Why is it not a good subject? It might best for Ann or Tim to tell you. I can respect your wishing on letting Tim or Ann tell me why it is not a good subject. I will tell you Ann didn’t remember him until she had a flash back with Jin in the bathroom. Tim and Ann were thinking the same thing. I will tell you a little. Ann went to a party one night with some females from high school none of us could go with her, but we thought she would be okay. She came home all happy and I asked if she had a good time she said yes, and I met a guy. Knowing what she had been through with her parents. 
I asked for the guys name so I can run a check on his name to make sure he did have assault charges against him. I ran his name it did come back with charges, but he told Ann and us they were from his father that he couldn’t sit by watch his mother and sister get beat anymore. What your saying is Ann didn’t remember him from school and what he did to her in the bathroom at school? You are right Jason. Believe if I had any kind of hidden doubt, I would have called Tim right away to make sure he was safe enough to be around Ann by herself. I took his word that he was telling the truth to us. She didn’t move in with him right away. It took her four months to think about it and another two months for her to move in with him. When she did move-in with him. I went over everyday to check on her to make sure she didn’t have any bruise on her.
The last day I saw her 4 years ago she was screaming I went running to see what was going on. She told us here that she lied to me David was hitting her, but she protected us. He told her that if she didn’t lie that her mother would have all of us threw in jail for rape over 4 years because of her supposed mental illness. She knew that none of us ever touched her that away so she covered for him to keep the ones who protected her and who took care of her wouldn’t go to jail. She did try to call me back that night to get her, but they were watching her phone for calls to us and to Tim for help. She tried to get out a window, but they were nail shut. I feel bad forever letting her go to that party by herself and not being able to protect her from them for over 2 years. Little w yes Jason don’t blame yourself for what David and her mother put Ann through those years you weren’t around Ann. You were there the night Ann left home with nowhere to go and you gave her a safe place live for while where she could know what it felt to have people who care and love her. Thank you, Jason for understanding but still hurts.
Little w Jason is right you where there when I need to be protected that night or I might not be here today. Ann what do you mean? I will explain with everyone around because I need to talk everyone. Can you please bring everyone in here, so I can talk to everyone? Ann are okay no but maybe if I get this off my chest and we all talk about it. I might feel a better or the flash backs might stop coming frequent has they are. Princess little w said you need to talk everyone. Yes, Yoongi I feel the need to talk to everyone about something almost all of you know this, but I need to tell when I was going to do it and a couple of things. I feel like if we talk about this stuff it just might help with the flash backs too. Uncle Jim please don’t judge me for some of the stuff I am about ready to say.
Peanut I will never judge you for anything you did, or you wanted to do? Thank you, uncle Jim, for saying that it’s kind of makes me feel a little better for what I am about to say. Papa m remember how I asked about giving free fan fair or concert tickets to the family whose son was kidnapped and I helped reunited them. Yes, Ann honey I do. Remember how you asked me why I wanted to give the family tickets? Yes, Ann honey I do because you wanted the family to know no matter what life threw at them don’t give up on life. Papa m is still talking, and I asked you to what you meant by that. Yes, papa m and that is when I asked all of you promise me none of you will look at me different with what I am going to say. I told all of you that I tried to kill myself twice, but I think they were thoughts more than attempts. The first thought was the night I met little w.
When I left my parents home. The thought that was going through my mind was go to the river and jump off the bridge but I my way there I met little w who asked if I was okay and if I needed help. Little w you gave me a place to stay and made sure I was safe no matter what. You saved me not only physical that night also mentally. You never let me go through anything alone when I had to deal with my family. You gave me the emotionally support I need right then and there. I had missed that when I graduated from school because everyone who is in this room who I went to school with gave me that emotional support every day to keep pushing forward no matter what. The second time I had the thought was when I couldn’t make the tape again for the military and not knowing what I was going to do again. That is the day I met papa m, Namjoon, Jimin and Fred trying to get back to the shelter. I was at the edge where if I couldn’t get back to the shelter for the night I was going to find a bridge and jump off it.
I had asked a lot of people that day for direction back to the shelter they looked at me like I was scum but when I met all of you. None of did. Papa m you asked if my family knew where I was, and I told you I was safe if they didn’t know. You didn’t push the subject to find out why. You just asked Fred to drive me back there and make sure I got a good meal in me. Namjoon and Jimin to make sure I got in safe and made sure I could stay the night. When the staff asked if I had an emergency contact, I said no. Namjoon step in gave them their information for me then he gave me the apartment address and told me to come over the next day to hang out. When the rest of you found out in was at the shelter you all wanted me to move in with you it touch me. The same way when little w took me in not knowing me. It gave me hope again that there are good people in the world.
The night I was rush to the hospital from the shelter and when Jin came walking through the door I knew I wasn’t going to be alone in the hospital not knowing what was going on with my back and you all decided that I needed to move in with all of you because of the physical problems. It gave me the same emotion support I need to hang on just a little longer knowing things might change around. When the nightmares, flash backs and the trouble that came along after all of you took me. None of you ever turned your back on me and always made sure I felt loved, cared and safe. Now that everyone is on the same page. I know asked nine of you not to judge me, but I need to know from each one of you how feel about the thoughts and if it changes anything. I asked the nine of you not to judge me so I could at least say everything but now I have been able to get it out in the open. I need the nine of you to tell me if your opinion change about me and you all can tell me whatever you want, and I will not hold it against any of you? Papa m started first. Ann honey first I want to say I am proud of you because this is the first time you talked about your feelings without anyone asking you.
I stand by what I said the first time I got you out of the flash back before we knew that you are my daughter. I love you and I will protect you like a father should protect his child. You are my child and with everything you went through growing up and afterwards you push through it with support by many people and I am grateful everyone in this room who helped you along the way before you came to me. Uncle Jim is now talking peanut I will never walk away from you no matter what your thoughts were in the past like what your dad said you pushed through everything that was thrown at you and you still turned out to be a very loving and caring young lady. Fred is now talking my opinion doesn’t change. I will always treat you has my little sister. I will say anyone in this room who holds your thoughts against can leave because you have been through hell and back but you still no matter what you always try to look for the good in everyone. When you should be the one judging everyone if they have your best interest at heart. Bryan is talking now. Ann first they were just thought and second with everything you have been through it doesn’t surprise me. If you never had the thought or tried to hurt your myself but like the papa m, your uncle and Fred said it doesn’t matter you made it through, so my opinion of you doesn’t change at all your caring, kind and you live life to the fullest that you are able to. Jin is talking princess both mine and Yoongi opinion doesn’t change we love you and we will never stop loving you until the last days we are on this earth. Yoongi say princess Jin hit it right on the head because that is exactly how I feel. I also agree with Fred whoever holds the thought against can leave now. I start to put my head down because I don’t want to see if anyone does leave because then I will know in my heart that they can’t handle knowing what my thought were in the past.  Tim walks over to me picks up my head. He is now talking you should know better that myself, Big B, little r, little k, Big S, little j, Big A, little c, Big C, little f, Jason and Greg saw firsthand what you went through during your school days. We are sorry that none of us where there to protect you when it got worse, but we are glad that when you were at your point of giving up you met the right people to help you out. We would never judge you on your thoughts or even if you acted on them. Like what Fred said you have been through hell and back.
I had no doubts that none of you would leave the living room or your opinion change about me. The reason I knew that you all have my best interest in your heart. Little w what are you thinking because I see that look on your face? It is the same look you had on your face the first time I met you. The same thing I thought when I first met you. Why no one was ever able to get you away from them. I should have called Big W when I found out that David had assault charges on him. You would have never been put through that hell for two years. Ken it is not your fault my mind blocked out what he did to me also. Please don’t blame yourself because when I need you again came and taught everyone on how to give me my treat and keep me from collapsing.
We can’t change the past just learn from it and we did. Ann how can you forgive me when you put back in their hands? You hide me the best you could for almost four years in our home area. If it weren’t for the girls from high school, I would have been safe, and you could have gotten me out soon. Ann what do you mean if it weren’t from the girls from high school? The ones who invited me to the party. I am starting to remember something from the party that night it has been coming back to me. I feel like that was a set up. Ann honey would do you mean. I can’t place my finger on it yet, but I feel like some of these new flash backs are from the party that night. I am not going to try to figure it out right now.
We have a tour that we all are leaving for in two days. I want to stay as calm has I can because I have started realized when I get stressed, I have a flash back. Okay Ann honey but if you start putting more piece together please let us all know? I will little w but if I remember correctly, I wanted either you or Big R to go with me? You did but we were told the party was for everyone you graduated with. If that was the case why wasn’t Tim, Big B, Greg, Jason, little r, little k, Big S, little j, Big A, little c, Big C and little f there. I don’t remember see any of you there that night. Little w you said Ann met her ex at that party. Yes, that is correct. How long was Ann living with you when she went to the party? She started dating him to days later, but it was 6 months later she moved in with him. Ann was living with us about 3 in half years.
Why are you asking Jason? Ann said who people we graduated were able to go to the party right? Yes, Jason that is right why? If I am correct the party was our 5th class reunion. If that is the case how come none of you were there, then. Crap I know why now none of you weren’t there because it was a set up. Ann how do you know it was a set up. I don’t remember the one girls name, but she kept saying someone I haven’t seen in 5 years was in this one room. Everyone we need to change the subject. Ann honey are you okay?
I say no in a small voice shit. She pushed herself to hard to remember she is going into a flash back. Papa m should we start singing or what to see if Ann starts saying anything in her flash back? Amber there is no one here that wants to see me. Everyone who cared about in school isn’t here. Ann they all are in this room. Amber I don’t want to go into that room please don’t make me. If they are in there have them come out of that room. Ann there is nothing wrong it is just a room. No, it is not just another room that is the sex party room.
Ann honey come back to me please it is Tim. You are having a flash back please fight it’s a bad memory please fight. I promise you I will make them all pay. Papa m start talking now. Honey it is your dad papa m please fight this flash back. Tim what is wrong. We just need to get her out of this flash back and after we do Bryan don’t ask Ann if she remembers anything before, she took the flash back. Tim is it what I think it is. Yes, Greg crap. Ann it is Greg you are here with Bryan, little w, Fred, Jin, Yoongi, Jason, your uncle Jim, Big R and everyone else fight it and come back to us.
Little sis I am right here with you get out of it I will take you out back to the pool. Fred yes Ann honey I am here you are okay. Please someone be honest with did I stay anything. Ann honey, yes Tim you did, and it was a set up. Why did you call little w has soon as you saw the house? Tim, I don’t want to talk about it right please? Okay Ann honey we won’t talk about it with you around, but I need to fill in everyone else. Okay Fred is going to take you to the pool with Big B, little r, little k, Big S, little j, Big A, little c, Big C and little f. Fred and Big B are going to get into the pool with you and everyone else going out with you are going to be around the pool. Okay Tim, but is the rest of you going to come out and join after you get done talking? Yes, princess we all will be out, and we will have a fire also.
Yeah, we get to have a fire tonight. Tim why did you Ann ask why she didn’t call me has soon as saw the house? I will explain has soon as I know Ann is at the pool. Big S are at the pool yes Ann is enjoying herself. Okay we all will be out soon and keep an eye out for flash backs she pushed herself to hard to remember. I will and first sign I will call you. Okay Big S good. Little w to answer your question. I only know of one house that has a sex room. Jim where are you going to be with my peanut.
Jim are you okay no. I am just glad that night she did get back too little w. What are talking about Jim? There is a reason why the nine with Ann. Jason, Greg and I weren’t invited. Jason and Greg where are you going? We are going to be with Ann. Everyone gets outside quick. Ann is in other flash back. Amber where is my phone?
I want to call my friend to come pick me up. I don’t want to go in that house. Ann be real this house throws the great parties. I don’t remember the parties were great here. We all have had fun at these parties come in Ann don’t be scared. I just want to go home. Where is my phone? I took it from you because you are the guest of honor at this party. Little sis you are not with Amber. You are with your brother Fred and papa m is here too.
Everyone who cares about you is here at the pool please fight this memory. Tim we now know why Ann never called me that night. Amber I never seen you at the parties my parents throw when I was younger? I used to enjoy helping you get ready for them. Ann honey it is Fred your brother come back to me little sister you are not at the party. You are at home at the pool side with everyone who love you and cares about you. Fred when did everyone get out here. Sis you took another flash back, but you did give Tim his answer from earlier. He heard why I couldn’t call little w when I know was at my parent’s house? Yes, Ann honey but how did you make it out of there.
I don’t know that answer. I don’t remember who drop me from at little w home. Maybe David played the hero that night to get on my good side. Okay enough question Tim Ann needs to relax and calm down. Let’s get you changed princess so we can have the fire. Okay let’s go and uncle Jim are you going to make the fire? Yes, peanut I will make the fire. Jin and Yoongi take me upstairs. Let’s wash you up since you were in the pool before we get you changed okay. Jin you go get our princess clothes and I will help her wash?
Okay Yoongi sounds like a plan. Jin comes back to the bathroom with a couple of minutes from getting a change of clothes. After they get me changed, we head back downstairs to the pool area for the fire. Uncle Jim the fire looks great? Thank you, peanut but I think we are missing something. Peanut what are we missing? We are missing the smores’ ingredients. I am sorry honey, but I don’t know what smores’ ingredients are papa m is saying. Kookie goes graham crackers, Hershey chocolate bars and marshmallows. I have all them in the kitchen.
I will go get them all, so we can have smores’. What is taking Ann so long to get back out here? One of us should have gone in with her to make sure that she didn’t help reaching the stuff. Jin and Yoongi why don’t both of you go see what is taking your princess so long? Sorry it took me so long came back out, but I broke a glass getting everything and I wanted to clean it up. This way no one step on it if they walked into the kitchen with bare feet. Princess how did you break a glass? It was on the countertop and I need to get up on there to get the graham crackers. When I was getting back in my wheelchair it fell off the countertop and broke. Princess you know you’re not supposed to climb on anything.
I didn’t want to call anyone in to help me. Honey yes, papa m what would have happened if you would have fallen off the countertop and none of us knew until someone went to check on you? Papa m your security system would have alert all of you of my fall. I set up a safety measure on the system. Remember when I tried to get myself out of the bath tub the first day, we found out I couldn’t move my legs. The same night uncle Jim came. Yes, honey I do remember will that next day I added the safety feature for here and at the company. This way if I was fall out of the chair or off anything all your phones will be alerted and told right where I am at. I just need to added Bryan, Greg and Jason to it. This way if Jason is around, he will get the alert also.
Honey that was a smart idea to added that feature, but I don’t want you to take unnecessary risks anymore. Okay papa m I promise no more unnecessary risks. Who all would like a smores’? Peanut I already know you want one but who else? Everyone said yes to wanting a smores’. This is a good away to unwind from a hard week of work and to relax before we go on tour for three months. Princess you are right we should do this every weekend no matter what we have done that week. Can we do after we get back from the tour? Yes, honey we can do it, but we also need to find you a neurosurgeon as soon has we get back? Bryan should we tell them, or should we wait until the tour is almost done tell them?
Ann, we need to tell them now since you kind of let the cat out of the bag. What are you two talking about papa m is asking. The day we went to the family doctors to get my treat. We also saw a neurosurgeon. The date for the surgery is set for three weeks after we come back from the tour. What? You all heard me the surgery is going to be three weeks after we get back from the tour. The surgeon looked over all the scans and yes that the surgery will help relieve some of the pain and some of the damage might fixes itself. The surgery is not a 100% miracle and I told him I understand that. I just want some relief from the pain and hopefully be able to use my legs again.
He already knows about the safety precautions. We can security around the clock while Ann is in the hospital and there is no inpatient physical therapy. Since we have a pool here, we have set it up aqua therapy at home. Princess are you okay with all of this? Yes, I am okay with all of this. Bryan was there to help me understand everything and he voiced the concerns about the safety and that I take flash backs because of past physical abuse. The hospital is also aware if I am to be given any medicine orally. That it needs to be called my treat and it needs to be put in pudding or yogurt but not applesauce since I don’t like taking medicine. They don’t know the really reason and Bryan is going to try make sure they don’t find out.  Papa m I am sorry that we didn’t include you on this decision, but I remember that you wanted to be seen.
On Monday Bryan looked up neurosurgeon he found one who had a patient that is a UFC fighter and two years after his surgery he win the heavy weight championship belt. We talked about and decided to give him a call see if UFC fighter could win the heavy weight belt two years after his surgery, he would be the best option for me. Papa m is talking now honey believe I am not mad that I wasn’t include but you should have to us that you had appointment so Jin and Yoongi could have went with you. I know I should have told all of you but with the tight schedule we all had for this tour I didn’t want to both any of you. Jin and Yoongi are you mad at me making and going to the appointment without you guys? Princess we would have been upset if you went by yourself knowing how it is hard for you to voice your concerns around people but you had Bryan with you who is a Register Nurse he knows more medical term and understands them better then any of us, so we are not upset. Thank you for understanding everyone. Bryan is talking I know this Ann’s decision to have the surgery, but I want to know what all of you think. Bryan before any of us answer that question I have one for you uncle Jim said. Jim what is your question.
You meet the surgeon what do you think of him? Bryan is talking again. I like him because he listened to Ann and when she was having a problem talking about her concern, I stepped in to help her out. He didn’t mind me doing that I just explain that Ann has a hard time voicing her certain concerns and I have known her for over 2 years now. When I found out she ended up in the wheelchair because of her lower back. I took the role of being her private nurse until she could get the surgery and maybe being able to use her legs again. He explains that they will never do surgery on the middle part of back since it mainly holds the orgasm in place. He showed us the film and where the problem areas in the neck we must watch but his focus is on the lower back right now. He is hopeful that Ann will get the use of her legs back since she just got put in the wheelchair about two weeks ago. Jim does that answer your question?
Yes, Bryan it does. Papa m is talking now it is Ann decision, but I agree with Ann decision to have the surgery. Peanut if you want to try to see if it helps you than I also agree with your decision. Princess we agree with your decision. Bryan is talking again, so everyone agrees with Ann’s decision to do the surgery to see if it helps her. Yes, Bryan we all agree with Ann’s decision. Okay I know everyone likes to be on the same page that is the only reason why I asked. Bryan is still talking since we can use our own security team at the hospital. Do we want to use our security, or do we want to trust the hospital? Fred is now talking.
I am sorry but I am not trusting any hospital security with my little sister. I will do it. How did I know you wouldn’t the hospital security protecting me? Fred is talking again because I have been protecting you since I might you. Tim and little w say we will help Fred at the hospital. Can we quest a private room? Ann do you want a private room. This way Jin and Yoongi can stay with me and if I start to have a flash back, I won’t bother other patients? Mike that does make sense for Ann to have a private room Bryan is saying. We will make it happen when we get back from tour. Jason is now talking. I will also be at the hospital also since I am a state trooper. This way if there is any trouble, I can just arrest them without waiting for the police to arrive. Okay know that is all settled. Let’s enjoyed this fire. The weekend goes by real fast it is Monday morning when we are leaving for the airport.
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