#im also getting all the aches

[redjaybird]

[i tend to not count like immortals or characters thousands of years old for those older than 30s things because people tend to design all those to look in their 20s anyway. maybe they still have the experience, but if they still look young, it dont count ;p]

#ooc #aka thats cheating #ignore the fact that people think im a lot younger than i am even tho im in my 30s #i still have gray hair tho #but most of the time i also have it dyed because i like colors #im also getting all the aches

[obihoe]

aughhhh, he is literally so babygirl to me ..

#posts #😔 i luv him ... #was going thru some screenshots last night and immediately sat down and drew this asdfdgds #he looks so baby here ... #and this scene its so touching to me somehow #its when hsrm and him have just founded the village #and theyre planning and talking abt how they will further proceed. and hsrm has all these good news abt how more and more clans #will be joining them #and mdr is. he is sooo ... he is so happy and so content here. and so nice .. #there is also this scene where he helps this girl who they see running around and then fall on her face lol #and mdr gets there and tries helping her .. he is so nice here. and kind ... #there's such a warmth between them u know. mdr seems so warm and so peaceful and content #its the only time during the WHOLE story where u see him like this #bc hsrm and him they are close here ... and he gets this warm feeling from him #and he's full of hope and all asdfgdss #i also think its so cute how they talk to each other here like hsrm suggests the thing w the carving mdr's face in the stone hills #and mdr is like. ummm are u sure lmao like he's so Embarrassed #asfsfdfds #its so cute #and then hsrm is like 'well we'd need to make some adjustments tho cuz ur face looks kind of brutal' asfsfdfds #and he Winks at him as he says it! aughh. its like literally they are flirting here #also mdr going 'well at least im not Moping around all the time like u do. my face is still better than urs' asddfdfds #its so aughhh u can just feel the affection between them ... it makes my heart ache #madara #hsmd

[silenthillbunni]

lately i've been finding it so so hard to be positive and hopeful. and it's making me so bitter and hateful. i hate it but i dont know what to do about it

#idk it's just all too much to deal w #i have sm pains and physical discomforts. money issues. stress bc my avpd is making school very hard for me to finish #i have suicidal thoughts and really bad anxiety every single day. i've basically begged the mental health care system for help for 7 months #like i've kept contacting them and asking them but they havent done anything at all for me. i dont even get to see anyone and talk #i just dont know what to do or how to handle it #im so stressed abt the future. i have to finish school but then choose smth so i can go to school/get a degree & get a job #im holding my mom down and back and i need to find a way to kove out from her and support myself #i have no friends to meet or hangout with and destress with etc etc and im really feeling the lack of it #idk the list just goes on and on and on #nothing is working and idk how to fix it. but also i know that me and only me have to find a way bc there is no help #i struggle bc of my avpd and mental health but there is no treatment for me to get. they just dont wanna give me *any* help at all #im just so frustrated. and every day is the same. everyday is full of some physical pain anxiety stress worries suicidal thoughts etc etc #i cant break free idk how!!!! my life is so fkn boring and pathetic and miserable #i never get to relax bc all of a sudden last year i got extremely noise sensitive. and it's never quiet anywhere in this city #anyway yeah i could just keep going. and like now im feeling anxious bc my tooth is aching :(( #it -everything- never stops or lets up or relents. and it makes me wanna die even more. #so... idk im just incapable of being hopeful abt anything and that's really killing me idk

[sluckythewizard]

adventures from a rly fun magma i got to relaxe in today

#jrwi fanart #this gets ONE (one) proper tag bc im actually rly proud o these. thats IT!!!! #anyway AAA okay so. some1 in the magma reccomended i draw edynXkira. n im like OH MY GOD. thats GENIUS #they both work at the same job or watever. coworkers. they meet only bc edyn happens to break down infront of kira #i mean she IS under alot o stress. w knowing her brother is out there in harms way. aching not only from the decades of abuse but also #from her blatant absence and silence. she KNOWS her brother cares for her bc she feels the same way. and worries just as much. #anyway kira feels bad for whatever shes got going on w this brother of hers. whoever that is. and gets her icecream. #thats what happens in MY beautiful heart. i looove kira i loooove her shes so cuuuute and so sweeeet #IN OTHER NEWS. i also love vex n viv their canon outfits are SOOO FUN. evojelly u legend #no one knows how long i fought w those hands. oh my god. drwaing hands and tools and holding and things is so ANNOOYYIINNGG #yknow what ISnt annoying tho. drawing william wisp. he comes so naturaly to my hand now. i love him so much... #ouuuhhh prime defenders oouuuhhh i miisss youuuu hope ur doing well prime defenderrrsss #aauubabbab i think thats all i got in the ol brain. here. eat my scribbles and arts. hauve fun

[awkwardknight]

Jason, having achy pains in his legs because hypermobility and sciatic nerve is a shit combination: I want to sue my body this is so homophobic

Militia guy: Boss I don't think you can do that, unfortunately, would you like a heat pack

Jason: I want happiness

Militia: Sir I can't microwave that

#arkham knight #jason todd #arkhamverse #arkham militia #because im projecting jason's not hypermobile in his knees but he is in his hips #despite this he gets awful pains in his knees especially and all down his legs because of a little ditty called the sciatic nerve #which is a big bullshit nerve that runs down your lower back and down your legs and it hurts like a bitch #and because i dont have anyone else to project this onto and Jason already has many pains and aches i thought why not #sorry jay but my legs hurt all the time and i need to take this out on someone #also his ankles toes knees and hips are constantly cracking loudly and sorely when he walks #he stubborns his way through the pain as he always does

[brother-emperors]

finally

#hello im very tired and very sad and also very annoyed at auto capitalization and I bars in lettering but at long fucking last #we've done it. chapter one. next chapter has a fucking cave in it and it's already giving me a head ache. i do not live in an area that has #caves for me to look at to get a vibe. ive got all these trees but I NEED CAVES #tbd

[angelpuns]

Me: I haven't been seriously sick since I was in elementary school I'm just a silly lil guy who never gets sick ig :/

Me rn: *has the mist disgustingly vicious, toddler-like cough that makes my lungs ache *

Me: I never get sick tho :)

#this is funny to me #also even FUNNIER: i have tummy ache almost all the time and my body hurtd all the time #so im actually not built different :/ #but i think irs just years and years and years of getting used to it #and the only reason im feeling it more often is im super sedentary rn #sadge

[unexpectedbrickattack]

Pepstavo but its this

#torn bc this is incredibly funny to me #esp the visual of gus going ‘ach nae……..’ like it is INCREDIBLY funny #but also i like the idea of peppino being the EPITOME of masculinity to gnome n dwarf kind #he is FAT and SHORT and he has FACIAL HAIR and can deadlift his own bodyweight #and he can COOK #if he runs around in the gnome forest with gus he gets swarmed immediately #he doesnt get it. he doesnt Want to get it; the forest freaks him out #but gus Knows and he is doing the equivalent of showing off ur gorgeous and out of ur league gf at ur exes party #so like for all intents n purposes #meme post but the tags are my hc heehee #also DOUBLE heehee Im posting at night where my thoughts cant catch me #ALSO sorry for the repost but i am not subjecting any normies to my pizza nonsense 😭

[dayurno]

juggling two job offers and trying to negotiate for a bigger salary has me feeling like i need a kevin day on my shoulder telling me i should refuse to be paid anything less than what i’m worth. save me corporate weapon kevi day save me

#dont get me wrong im very happy to be in a position to pick at all! and i liked both companies very much #BUT IT IS STRESSFUL…!! #i dont like telling people no…. #im not a corporate weapon im a lackadaisical friend-maker with people pleasing issues #but im like omg am i being too cold…. am i being too ambitious… #i guess the good thing about working in tech is that theres more room for negotiation still but ah! ach. you know. #well i guess we will wait and see #save me kevi… kevi save me… #txt #kevin #but also i was talking to my friend and she was like soooo shocked id even have the gall to negotiate #so at least that made me feel better like omg we really are in this protestant work method shit for life… lets free ourselves sister #they dont really care abt us

[soldier-poet-king]

I have too many emotions in too quick a succession with periods of severe emptiness in between I just. I don't have time to PROCESS any of them. It's like I've been incurring an emotional 'debt' for 27 years.

#this is insane ik as the hyperemotional 24/7 guy but also like #all the work stuff. the move stuff. #r&g last night. time change giving me mood swings. PATHFINDER TONIGHT WAS INSANE #soooo good and such fun rp #but also OUCH MY EMOTIONS. i wouldn't trade it for the world but i sure am experiencing SMTHN #given the whole manipulative mentor people pleasing sense of self woth thing #PLUS A COOL GF??? I WANT A COOL GF #and then just this last bit of an astarion fic that made me cry #in terms of just. emptiness. gentleness. how do you move on. how do you build a life #when you didn't expect there to be an after? #how do you free yourself when everything you are was shaped by that person #how do i free myself when everything i am was shaped by my parents #and its just constantly this bitter ache and anger #the upcoming move its like. im in the same city how can i get a clean break #i feel guilty for wanting it but also. fuck i need it #how can i build a life for myself. yknow? #anyway. im uhhh. a lil fragile. a lot stressed abt work stuff. joints been hurting a lot lately too. #i am so hungry. ever hungry. for the unnamed thing. #the duality of fran #anyway. shits wild and that is both good and bad and also neither??? maybe??? #i am trying to find meaning and purpose in it all. or to create it. #i am a skittish stray but i am also kissing you all gently on the forehead. idk. i can be both things at once maybe

[variousqueerthings]

finished reading "tell me I'm worthless," which was an interesting experience. I think there's something really good for you in your soul to be able to understand the genre conventions you're in and the kinds of structures and language and character that can be explored in these genres. I think about how people tend to -- with fiction about marginalisation and/or about people who are marginalised as a blanket whole, regardless of the story -- operate on a checklist of dos and donts, but mainly donts: don't ever tell us a deadname, don't ever use these "problematic" words to describe them/or have them describe themselves in this way, don't ever describe negative emotions or "problematic" emotions, don't let the characters have harmful traits (either towards themselves or others), don't hurt your characters at all actually, don't make your characters politically uncomfortable or "problematically" complicated in their political outlook and/or journey, don't make your characters be assholes ever, certainly don't traumatise your characters, and under no circumstance do you kill your characters!

which of course, this book does praaaactically every one of these things, thank goodness

#with the deadname Thing i am reminded of responses to the last of us part 2 and tbh also the latest doctor who specials #there's a kneejerk reaction as if writers/directors have outed someone's actual deadname or as if knowing that someone has #a deadname will invalidate them to a non-trans audience #lot of scar-tissue that aches around all of these points generally and horror has the ability to kick down the door on that and say #you do not have to read this story -- but this will be in this story. so if you are ready to approach these themes and these ideas #this is a safe structure -- the walls of a book or a screen or a play or an audio drama or wherever you are #my issues have very much been around social coding and not understanding what is and isnt allowed and an intense anxiety around #always saying the exact right thing at all times (not just in marginalised spaces but everywhere all the time) #(im doing it right now actually -- getting anxious about all this phrasing) #(this book is opening up pathways in my brain) #very much a meta piece as well -- it knows and acknowledges shirley jackson especially but ofc also angela carter and du maurier #and i did feel a smigeon of clive barker in there and then he was in the acknowledgements too #i have not read the last person listed so helen oyeyemi goes on the list #im reading books #alison rumfitt #tell me im worthless

[httpiastri]

okay hear me out on this one. i saw this on tiktok yesterday:

and since i’ve been in such a lando mood recently, all i could think about was him and his baby…

so here’s the scenario: lando is a single dad, idk why he split up with the mother of the child but lando is sure he’s never going to find a love like that again, especially now that he has a little daughter to take care of. but seemingly out of nowhere, he meets a woman that he falls completely head over heels for, but yk how when he gets excited about things, he can forget about certain things? yeah, well, he forgets to tell you that he has a child. and then he freaks out because no way are you going to want to raise another woman’s child – but in reality, he’s worrying over nothing because of course you love kids and you’re amazing with them.

and everything moves on so quickly, lando watches his like 8-month old get attached to you instantly and he watches you take such good care of her. and then all of a sudden, his daughter is over a year old and he’s filming you teaching her the alphabet, practically melting because he’s so much in love with you both and he will cherish moments like these forever

#please tell me i’m not the only one who sees this #and like #watching you carrying her around #taking her to preschool #holding her in your arms in the paddock when he’s racing and making sure she doesn’t get scared of the loud cars #and him jumping out of his car after securing a podium finish and running up to his team waiting for him by parc ferme and #coming up to the two of you and just falling in love all over again… seeing his little daughter in your arms and hugging you both #pressing his lips to yours and realizing how lucky he is to have not only the perfect daughter but also such a wonderful woman by his side #okay im spiraling #lando does crazy things to me #oh and lando would be aching to make a new child but one that has your genes too… but that’s another story #lando norris #f1

[s0fter-sin]

@ my homies with pain disorders, if i described a pain as hollow and feels the way metal tastes, do you know what i mean?

#its my main type of pain other than just a basic ache but my family thinks im nuts (lovingly) #my dad and my sister both have chronic pain and my sister kind of gets it but no really #it feels exactly like a hollow metal bar inside my body that youve licked #but Painful #i had a pain flare today #all in my back and ribs #it came on so damn sudden i got up to make dinner and within five minutes i didnt want to move so it wouldnt get worse #i had my compression belt on so thought that might be making it worse so i took it off #turns out that was definitely the wrong choice and i immediately tanked even harder #i woke up way to early and spent the day on the couch so im not surprised #and its also march and i always flare in march #any other potsies or dysautonomias get march flares? #i know the october slide is a thing and its Very real #but i flare every march like clockwork too #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #spoonie #pots #chronic pain #dysautonomia

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

what do you mean my disabilities disable me 😟😟😟😟😟😟 what do you mean they aren't just funny little things that make me quirky and I can joke about 😟😟😟😟😟😟 what do you mean they're actually delibitating and prevent me from doing things 😟😟😟😟😟😟😟

#and at the most inconvinient times like please 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️ please stop i have so much to do #this is about my autism cfs and depression all ganging up on me at the same time #im struggling to get out of bed and stay awake let alone go outside #what do you mean time keeps going when im like this????? #wdym i cant pause time so i can rest for like a week and go at my own pace and there will be no consequences wdym thats not possible #im also recovering from covid #i cannot stay awake for more than a few hours and my entire body aches #i feel like ive gone for a marathon yesterdsy except i have done nothing but sit up sometimes #this is bullying my own body is bullying me #and my joints are fucking killing me i feel like im 50 #specifically my wrists and my neck #i wanna snap my head and hands off i feel like that would help actually #and i have absolutely no mental energy at all the thought of going outside is horrifying #and trying to do anything but idk watch tv is virtually impossible #BUT I HAVE SO MUCH TO FUCKING DO 😭😭 #autism #cfs (chronic fatigue syndrome) #depression #disabilities #wooo i love having a non functioning everything #doesnt effect me badly at alllllllll

[skunkg1rll]

when i love someone i WANT to learn abt their past traumas, their insecurities nd pain so that i can learn how to love them right. i want to understand how i should treat, reassure and comfort them. i want to learn their love languages so i can love them the way they need

#but why.... does no one ever want to do that for me? #i always have to bend and reshape so im as little bothersome as possible #and ppl always say stuff like omg u need to communicate nd u need to tell them blah blah blah #ok but what abt when u actually do all of that but no one listens to u???? #i actually do communicate my needs. very clearly #yet... im never heard or listened to #am i just not worth that??? idk.. i dont get it #i just ache to be loved the way i love. bc i know that i love wholly and profoundly #but im gonna run out if i cant receive the love that i need #:(((( #also it just hurts to be so understanding and supportive and want ppl to be comfortable #but then i dont get to take up any space or i dont get to have needs #i should only listen but never ask for anything in return #it just sucks #have i done smth wrong??? or am i just an awful person? delusional? #bc i have NEVER been in a space where im safe to express my feelings #not w my family. not friends. not even my therapists lmao (theyve also criticized nd judged me) #so im starting to think that maybe i actually am wrong #maybe if everywhrre i go im met by this. maybe i just need to suck it up #and be grateful for whatever scraps of love im thrown #bc clearly i am doing smth wrong!!!!!!