#im back but very briefly

[aquello-main]

having a weighted blanket isnt enough

i need to be put into a hydraulic press

#nes posts #im back but very briefly

[skitskatdacat63]

Roleswap anyone??

Tell me Fernando wouldn't make a fantastic general/emperor, and that Napoleon wouldn't make a fanastic driver/tp!!

#this might be the most mentally ill thing ive drawn yet.... #lmao im like ah this would be a funny idea to draw #and then got WAAYYYYY more into drawing napoleon #to the point of cuteness aggression and sadness that him in f1 isnt real :( #cofi and i made up a whole lore and plot line so if you want a pt 2 of that hmu LMAO #but briefly: hes a driver(2 wdc btw) who got kicked out for smth and then came back as a tp again to torment his former rivals #gahhhhh why is he so cute why isnt he real :( i would stan him so hard you dont understand #with his cute little lesbian bob and introverted but brave and outspoken demeanor.... #his mechanics and team in general are all tall men who love to pick him up #but god the plot is just so fun and compelling that it makes me sad that kinda driver doesnt exist irl #my greatest dream is for someone from the actual napoleon fandom to see this #bcs its weird enough for you guys so i cant even imagine what theyd think #BUT PLEASEEE #anyways. this is a very odd post. but im very proud of it :) #lmao this is just like one step closer to actually writing my proper manifesto about it #but yeah i posted that silly meme the other day and it got way more notes that i expected so maybe this will be appealing too? #girls who cannot draw normal fanart #<- like seriously i wont draw napoleon in his normal clothes and fernando vice versa but no prob with the reverse?? my brain... #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #nandopoleon alonsoparte #napoleon bonaparte #napoleon #catie.art

[recycledraccoon]

I have evolved into Scuttlespring anon, just say anything about them. I love them so much

THE ANON PANTHEON GROWS

Ok so. Gorgug likes Mary Ann because she absolutely infuriates him but also, and perhaps more importantly, because she has a type of confidence I think a younger Gorgug would have deeply envied. She's so weird, but entirely sure of herself. She likes what she likes and anyone who would have a problem with that is absolutely beneath her notice. She has friends not despite her oddities, but because she refuses to bend about them and that confidence is incredibly attractive in a person. Mary Ann Skuttle see's something she wants and she just...goes and gets it, easy peasy. Tiny little kobald strides, but when she puts her foot down with force, Gorgug thinks she could crush a mountain under with nothing so much as a blink or falter of her stride. She's certainly physically strong enough for it, and while Gorgug is undisputedly the better fighter, Mary Ann has a physical strength hidden under soft pastel pink hoodies and can, has, and will knock Gorgug on his ass. Gorgug got THRASHED at those Bloodrush field tryouts, and I'm certain he probably got his ass handed to him more than once during the year while at practice but before he quit the team. She made him so damn mad, everything that year was, and endlessly kind Gorgug got real mean to her over it. She was better than him, more casually confident, and didn't blink ONCE at his outburst. And later? When she was resurrected and freed from possession? He talks to her, acknowledges that it was just a game but he had been actually mad to be so easily knocked aside. He never really had to work at Bloodrush to be good at it, he just was, until suddenly she proved herself better.

And yet, without flinching, Mary Ann, famous for not giving a shit but listening to Gorgug say how much he had, just....asks if he has a girlfriend. Unparalleled confidence, shooting a shot he was unprepared for. Planets aligned even as his own orbit was knocked off course. And then, when he admits he doesn't even know where to get a quokki pet, something its been explicitly known to be something she really cares about? She writes down her number, letting him see that folded paper. She initiated this, and he got swept up in it, but instead of just handing over the number and allowing him to be swept up- Mary Ann Skuttle puts the number away and tells him shes gonna put it where you get quokki pets, and if he wants her number he's going to have to go get it. He's not allowed to just be swept up in the force of her, she wants him to put in effort, prove to her and himself that this isn't just a moment but a starting point. He cant be swept up by the tide, he's gotta swim. Gorgug liked Zelda, but their relationship started because they thought she was in danger and Gorgug had the best in. He stumbled into that relationship unsure and off balance, he never would have had the confidence to pursue Zelda without his friends hands on his back and their advice in his ears. Later on he gets more serious, he did love her and he put in the work to maintain that relationship, but it didn't work out and that's ok. Ever confident Mary Ann tho? She doesn't want unsure stumbling steps into this relationship. If Gorgug doesn't make the active decision to chase her, to WANT to be with her and putting deliberate effort to get there, then she doesn't want him at all. Gorgug, confused, asking where you even GET a quokki pet? And she smirks, calls him a loser, and walks away leaving him reeling and dumbfounded. Mary Ann Skuttle wants Gorgug to work for this. And who is Gorgug Thistlespring, but someone who puts in the work for things he wants? He did the seemingly impossible by creating his own subclass of Barbaficer, even if he had to take four years of schooling all at once. He puts in the work and makes the impossible possible, the greatest wizard of this age. So yeah. Yeah. Gorgug Thistlespring likes Mary Ann Skuttle because she makes him work for it.

#me: “im going to briefly talk about gorgug then speculate about why mary ann likes him back” #surprised pikachu face'd myself lmao #mary ann skuttle #gorgug thistlespring #gorgug x mary ann #gorgann #skuttlespring #sometimes you start writing something and it just starts making ALOT of sense #also i didnt get into speculations of mary ann's perspective #but i bet she REALLY likes Cloaca even if gorgug is the worst at naming things #mary ann would see a robot bird dragon pet thing and go “thats cute” #big tough bad kid?? multi-times savior of the world??? incredibly smart and very first barbaficer in the whole of spyre??? #no he's a tall dorky teen boy who made a robot bird with the worst name in the world that he cant seem to change #he's a loser #mary ann just happens to be into that #this is the popular cool girl being really into the nerdy kid dynamics #except the nerdy kid also happens to be an incredibly popular hero/jock/rockstar #and the popular cool girl has all of that self-confidence while also technically being a nobody in the eyes of the school at large

[liquidstar]

wait speaking of getting isekia'd via truck, a couple weeks back me and a friend on were talking abt portal fantasy/isekai tropes (mostly bc i was infodumping abt rz again), and it made me think abt a fun concept for an ocverse. tho its possible similar things have been done obvs with just how inflated the genre is, just hear me out OK

story starts in the normal world, with a typical Nerdy Guy going about his daily life, expositing about how he feels bored and longs for adventure and magic, just like in all of his favorite media. as he's crossing the street, distracted by his mobile game, he doesn't notice The Truck(tm) coming straight towards him. except he's not hit by it- he's pushed out of the way in the last second, saved by a passing girl who gets hit in his place. this is who the story is about now.

mc gets sent to that sort of intermediary dimension that some isekai have, where she meets the Goddess Lady or whatever that was in charge of the whole isekai situation. goddess lady proceeds to freak out, because she nabbed the wrong person, and she's going to be in SO MUCH TROUBLE. she starts questioning the mc, only to find out that this kid has a good social life, does well in school, is in sports, and has barely ever played a video game. basically the opposite of the socially introverted, underachieving, repressed, genre-aware guy she was supposed to have reincarnated. for the sake of fulfilling somekinda hero prophesy or whatever. and the mc kinda bargains to be sent to the fantasy world anyway bc, well, its that or death i guess. so the two of them kinda have to team up to course-correct this mix-up.

mc is kinda given a list of tasks to do that basically mirror how a typical story like this Would Go, expected to fall in line with the tropes in order to achieve the ultimate goal, but kinda ends up failing at all of them... or not? failing backwards, maybe. doing it in a way different from how its meant to go- using the wrong formula, but somehow getting the right solution. while sort of continuing to question the insanity of the whole situation, and the nature of this whole fantasy world. just fucking up all the tropes.

but a layer i'd wanna add on top of all that is the fact that the hero prophesy (or whatever) called for a man. so upon arriving to this new world, the mc is basically put into a "gender swapped" body and... doesnt seem to mind. this isnt an uncommon isekai trope either, but i hardly see it tackled with much care to really explore whole Gender Thing beyond gags about the "mismatch" (which can be in poor taste) or the conclusion that "well because their Body is now this gender, their gender identity changes to match" which i feel is a pretty shallow and binary take-away to draw abt bodies and identity.

but i think there can be more to explore w the prospect if you actually wanna get into gender stuff. in this case, i'd particularly wanna get into the idea of imposter syndrome. the main character was not MEANT to be... the main character. seen as a phony fighting tooth and nail to meet expectations, and constantly fumbling. not a real hero, or a real man. but its meant to be an act anyway, so why does that bother her? it was like that back on earth too, trying as hard as possible to be the perfect girl. a good social life, does well in school, is in sports.... but that good girl thing always felt fake too. or desperate. what was she trying to prove? how long as this BEEN bothering her, actually? why does it feel easier to breathe in this body, despite everything? the way this whole act makes her happy is scary, because its fake isn't it? but wait, which part was fake? the before or after? is it all fake? isn't this all just a mistake?

was it really a mistake? who is more heroic; a guy too focused on a mobile game to pay attention to those around him, or the person who risked their life to save a stranger? but the hero prophesy was for a "man," right? what does that even mean?

#the end is all questions bc if i ever did anything w this i would want to explore them basically #i dont know if i ever WILL its mostly just a concept im throwing out there for rn. brainstorming #but i think it could be fun #the only other isekai/portal fantasy type ocverse i have is the one w the dream traveling ocs. i wanna get back to them also #so many small oc projects that ive posted abt very briefly but i have not forgotten abt any of them i still think abt it #same w this even if i never really elaborate more on it im sure the idea will stay in my head #its obviously very much in its first draft baby phase rn a lot of ironing out the creases to do if i did wanna follow up in some way #like again its basically just a concept i dont have concrete characters or worldbuilding or anything just ideas. thata all

[ectonurites]

Sorry to bother you, but you seem to know a lot about the comics, and specifically about Tim Drake. I was wondering if you knew off the top of your head when Tim and Steph last canonically dated? Because I see people blaming Meghan Fitzmartin a lot, but I could've sworn that they last broke up before she became Tim's author.

So, the people 'blaming' Meghan Fitzmartin are correct—but I can understand some confusion happening because the breakup occurred off-panel. So like, if you weren't following things closely at the time these books were coming out, it might seem like the first Tim story Fitzmartin wrote was referencing a breakup that already happened somewhere else... but that is not the case.

The other possible confusion point would be that there was an earlier 'break up & get back together' storyline with them in the Rebirth era, a few years before she wrote Tim.

To briefly go over the Rebirth & onward Tim/Steph dating timeline just to clear things up (and I'll be using cover dates just for consistency, so if you want release date subtract two months):

Detective Comics #934-935 August 2016 [written by James Tynion IV] Tim & Steph are established to be dating in Rebirth continuity. We don't see the actual moment they start dating, we're just shown that this is now the situation.

Detective Comics #940 November 2016 [written by James Tynion IV] Tim is 'killed' (he's not really but everyone thinks he is, and he is out of the picture for a while) and thus that effectively pauses any relationship between he and Steph, obviously.

Detective Comics #969 January 2018 [written by James Tynion IV] Tim is back and reveals himself as alive to Steph, and the two of them resume their relationship. After a short timeskip, we then learn that in the aftermath of his return... Tim is not being honest with Steph about his plans (to not go to Ivy like he said he would, to instead continue hero-ing indefinitely).

Detective Comics #970 February 2018 [written by James Tynion IV] Tim & Steph start to have some tension here because of how he's overworking himself, how he's handling things with her, and there's a moment where she says she's leaving, he asks if she means 'The Belfrey, the team, or me?' and she says 'I'll get back to you on that.'

Detective Comics #974 April 2018 [written by James Tynion IV] In the aftermath of the team sort of exploding due to ~plot events~ Steph breaks up with Tim while he's throwing too much of himself into his work.

Detective Comics #981 July 2018 [written by James Tynion IV] More plot stuff happens (a whole big mess with Brother Eye) but once that's settled, the two reunite and rekindle their relationship as they head off ‘to Ivy University’ as they tell Bruce, but we know that’s not actually where they’re going.

Young Justice (2019) #5 July 2019 [written by Brian Michael Bendis] Flashbacks show us that after leaving Gotham, Tim & Steph had specifically gone to see the Justice League/Zatanna for help with timeline memory things rather than going to Ivy. Even though they’re in separate places at the main timeline of the book, this shows us that they're still together.

Young Justice (2019) #11-20 February 2020 - January 2021 [written by Brian Michael Bendis] Steph & Tim immediately try to get ahold of one another via text once Tim's back on the correct earth, and work on getting back in touch until eventually reuniting. They are shown together [and depicted as still dating] during the later parts of the book.

Dark Nights: Death Metal: The Last Stories of the DC Universe #1 February 2021 [written by Joshua Williamson, James Tynion IV, and Scott Synder] Shows the two of them together within the larger group of former Titans/YJ members—specifically one panel towards the end shows us Tim with his arm around her while they talk with others [fun fact that’s the panel my icon is from I just had edited Steph’s head out of the way]. As I recall/as far as I'm aware, this issue is the last time we see them interacting together/together as a couple before Future State and then the Infinite Frontier relaunch. [disclaimer that there could be like... a splash page group shot or something that I'm forgetting elsewhere during the Dark Nights: Death Metal event but like, that's not actual interaction that's just physically being present in the same group shot].

NON-CANON BUT RELEVANT: Future State: Robin Eternal #1-2 March - April 2021 [written by Meghan Fitzmartin] During the Future State event which was used largely to tease/set up plotlines for the Infinite Frontier relaunch, in this potential future Tim & Steph are seemingly no longer together but still on okay terms—teaming up in the story, but with clear tension and history there.

Batman: Urban Legends #4 August 2021 [written by Meghan Fitzmartin] We learn that Tim & Steph broke up off-panel before the events of the issue. Steph appears in the following issue further reiterating that they recently broke up.

So yeah! They broke up off-panel and this was first referenced in Batman: Urban Legends #4, thus under Fitzmartin's pen.

#sam explains #i did briefly reread each of these issues im referencing here to confirm they had the content i thought they did but i was doing that #in a very Speedy way so. keep that in mind. but like the general events here im certain of. + i was keeping up with almost all of these #things as they originally were released. [except like. some of the later parts of the 'tec run. i was there at the start but checked out #for a while bc busy with college lmaoooo but i was back in and keeping up with stuff once later parts of YJ 2019 was coming out] #<- though to be clear i have READ all of these. i just mean the later parts of 'tec i read like a while after their release

[ozymoron]

my type is so obvious its like comical

#⚠️ #what can i say i know what i like #pathetic socially awkward dorky dudes with strange hairstyles #<- hairstyle is usually like slicked back but its even better when its like spencers and just looks really silly #like man they all have glasses (spencer has them briefly but it still counts) and theyre all in formal wear #theyre all nerdy as hell #theyre all very autistic #im so predictable

[aropride]

my shirt that says "i don't have an eating disorder" has people asking a lot of questions already answered by my shirt

#text #(this is a reference to another tweet i dont have a shirt that says that) #ed tw #weight loss tw #talk about weight in general tw #like yes i eat the same thing almost every single day & have to force myself through every bite #no i dont have an eating disorder #i just have autism and anxiety and its making my life a little bit unliveable at the moment ❤️ #i know i also have arfid which yes is an eating disorder but not like. in the way people probably think of if they look at me during #a meal and judge the way im eating and decide they think i have an ed (which i know is anxiety and nobody does that but still) #but i probably wouldnt get diagnosed bc im at a ''healthy weight'' #even tho i know that for My Body it's not healthy . i was eating relatively well for a brief period of my senior year of high school #& very briefly my freshman year of college #and i got to around [number] both times #and they were both short periods of time so i still dont know what like. a healthy weight would be For Me and for My body #but i know a doctor would tell me my weight rn is Normal and Good and that if i gain weight thats Bad and Wrong #even though i am definitely not eating enough and not getting enough Fuel For My Body To Work Right #its such bullshit. also i hope whoever invented the bmi kills themself #Well anyway. swagever ive been eating one singular slice of pizza for half an hour so i gotta get back to that

[eternally-tired-cryptid]

I like being cozy snuggled up in my bed but the reality of chronic pain is even at my most relaxed and snuggled in bed, I am still in pain

#jasper rambles #chronic pain #i wish it werent true but it is. it is very rare that im actually pain free. so rare in fact that im surprised whenever it does occur #someone popped my back in such away that my pain was briefly gone in my back and for the ten or so minutes it lasted i literally dissociated #from the shock of how little pain i was in. like i couldnt comprehend it

[motherspores]

the part of me thats been claimed by the sea and will return to it someday is very happy that grian clearly intends to continue The Bit with the fisherman stuff seeing as he hasnt bothered to change out of that skin yet despite having had mending for a while now

#he appeared very briefly on scar's stream the other day by charging at him cleo and etho on pluto #yelling 'guys guys guys guys guys' and then immediately dissipating into the ether on contact #and he was still in the skin. so. hey! #im looking forward to This. #it was a missed opportunity in s6 when he had a whole base out on the water. glad we're coming back to this. #sorry im rambling its one of those days

[incorrect-threehouses]

Hi, it's me, the person who said she was considering skipping Engage cause she hated the character designs. I caved and bought the game and I have to say...

It's pretty damn good

I am still not too taken with the art style, but I'm really enjoying the game so far! The characters are pretty charming, the story is enjoyable, the voice actors are killing it and the gameplay is PHENOMENAL. I wasn't sure about it cause I thought they'd take a fates kind of approach to the story, and even though it's not the most exciting or deep story ever it knows what it's trying to do and does it well. The humorous moments are also done pretty well, they're not cringey like I was expecting and it's all just a lot of fun!

Ok, now to fade back into obscurity

#fe engage #im very glad i kept an open mind for this game cause im having a great time #pepsi protag is very lovable actually #just wanted to pop back in briefly to say this

[harvestmoth]

man.

#hey did you know its rwby season #because its rwby season #😔 back on my bullshit #to those that followed me for rwby way back in the day. im sorry thanks for sticking around though #and to those that didnt. please dont look at it im begging you #anyways saw v9’s first episode very cool very nice im really liking it so far #but enough about that. ilia time #still really like her and heres to hoping she shows up briefly in v9 sometime (coping) #also still think her with silver eyes is funny okay thats all #probably wont post more rwby but that didnt work out for me last time so who knows #ilia amitola #rwby #argh. back to my roots aka why i even started posting here. curses. #i do like to think ive improved a little tiny bit though. but just a bit

[steampunkedparm]

bluh 7.30 rn and i need to go to bed but how can i go to sleep when i just had that experience at the bus stop fhfjfh

#you think people are weird only at night? #WRONG #6am dude was being a fucken weirdo and. larping??? as someoen of indigenous american descendant??? #like he was veing a fucken racist charicature and claiming the he was the creator and some cheif and speaking in what sounded like a very?? #butchered?? spanish??? #i could be wrong yk like my knowledge of languages isnt as expansive as i maybe want to be #he was also rmabling about the bible too?? #and something about how we tell our true ages is wrong??? #indont remember what he fully said this was over and hour ago now but like??? #also rambled about how his true eye colour is on a different spectrum??? #and then when i got on the bus he apparently was getting on the same one as me #and usually yk i look up briefly if someoen walks past me just as a general see if their approaching me specifically #bc it happens sometimes someone needs help #motherfucker looked at me and said something in what was probably actually a vastly incorrect indigenous american language #no idea what he said but he was definitely trying to get my attention like he was at the bust stop when he very loudly said good morning to #me (i just nodded at him lol. i just got off of work im not in the mood to interact unless someone needs directions) #(i ignored him when he spoke to me on the bus lol dont worry) #BUT THEN THIS FUCKER SITS IN THE BACK AND STARTS. LIKE STOMPING AND CHANTING AND JUST. BEING A STUPID FUCKING RACIST CHARICYATURE AGAIN #AND THEN #AND FUCKEN THEN DEAR GODS THIS DUDE #has the gall to start pestering some poor sap who happened to sit too close to him about jow the cdc is bullshit and how he himself is the #cheif of medicine or what have you of the state i live in #i just?? #gods i need a drink after this morning dude #i dont normally mind if someone is being loud and disruptive #i tune it out and its bound to happen takin public transportation. its kinda whatever. thats their business #but this shit took the fucken cake dude what the fuck #anywyas good morning lol i guess #tldr i had the displeasure of dealing with a freakazoid racist at the bus stop this morning after work

[themyscirah]

OMG sorry i fell asleep last night so i didnt see ur top 5 ask.

BUT! top five NON-lantern dc characters!

No dw I literally rbed it like 2hrs ago you're good

This one was actually really hard for me. I didn't realize how many characters I love would technically be counted under "Lanterns" haha

1. Amanda Waller

2. Cass Cain

3. Ben Turner

4. Sandra Wu-san

5. Kenan Kong

I generally bounce around the DCU looking for acclaimed books more than I do following specific characters but these are some of my faves that I love to think about and that keep popping up in my mind. And Kenan. : )

#love the big divide between 1 thru 4 and kenan here. very 'im insane abt them' vs. 'i just think hes neat' #the top 4 probably get shuffled around a bit depending on how im doing #lots of waller thoughts recently #shes SUCH a tragic (and i mean that in the literary sense) character to me #i can spot ppl who dont know her's waller opinions as bad from a mile off #its just so clear they dont get her just aaaaggghhhhhh!!!!!!! obsessed with this woman #and cass omg love cass. this is self explanatory #and BEN AGGHHH!!! i have so many ben feelings its kind of unreal. for ben himself ofc but then when you get into the whole shiva cass david #cain debacle and ben's role in it.... bro..... bro........ #like ik there are differences in canons but like no matter how you look at it ben knew carolyn and he knew sandra. they were friends. in #some canons i think they may have grown up together (correct me if im wrong) and then ben gets brainwashed by the league #and during this time he briefly works for david cain to train cass. BRO. #its so wild and just !!!!!!! and i have so many feelings about ben #i read a fic where he got brought back on as leader of the squad post all of this and his retirement and everything only to be put on a team #with DAVID CAIN and just bro. oh my god. #just so many ben feelings #yeah 👍 #1 through 3 were super easy 4 was logical too although i havent read anywhere near enough of her comics #and then 5 was evil. not enough/too many ideas for 5 #went with kenan bc proportionally ive read more of his comics and know him better but there were a myriad of contenders #answered

[risingroseakira]

hey you ever make a littol personal angst playlist for a blorbo and put a Song™ in there,,, and then you remember there's official playlists a day later and you go to look at that characters actual official canon list of songs (from like 3 years ago?) and the Song™ from your angst list is Right There? In the canon?? Playlist??? anyway thomas what the fuck /pos

#sanders sides #logan sanders #THOMAS SANDERS WHY IS ERASE ME BY BEN FOLDS FIVE IN YOUR OFFICIAL LOGAN PLAYLIST FROM LIKE 2020 #I mean I THINK I KNOW EXACTLY WHY ITS THERE but SIR #/pos?? #uuuaeegh the conflicting feelings of “HEY HOW DARE YOU” and “hehe logan angst logan angst logan angst-” #absolutely losing my mind. #i remember only very very briefly looking at logans playlist back when it was posted #of course art is dead is also in there hdfkjg #guys im going insane. one of my friends made me mention sanders sides a week ago and i just fucking dropped face first into that fixation #out of nowhere #and i do not know what to do with myself

[liquidstar]

a friend who'd wait :)

#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops. #and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can! #and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol #finn's ocs #finn's art #i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me #and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun #i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here: #barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past #he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it #he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned #which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them #they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore #but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird #and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place #though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library #and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together #since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door #eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement #barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time. #barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate #but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd #he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself #but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done. #and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies. #and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them) #and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances'' #from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov #sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3 #but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh

[readymades2002]

something difficult about writing/storytelling but only in short disconnected bursts is that writing anything longform is very difficult. there isn't as much time to practice long-term character development or subtlety (implying character instead of immediately clarifying) when its not really meant to go anywhere but a notes app. its a little frustrating...i'd love to do something more longform though. i've considered maybe just doing some short writing scenes in my various original universes a lot recently mostly because i just havent had time to draw anything fancy recently </3 maybe that would be something...

#briefly talked about it with a coworker today bc i mentioned my brother makes music #and she got excited because she paints and she showed me some of her work (beautiful btw!!!) #and said she hopes he pursues music and doesnt get his heart crushed by retail like we do #we still make things but ive been thinking about it...it really is like #i feel like ive had less TIME to make things but ive also developed more interest in my own ideas #and in constructing them on their own terms. its hard to describe and even harder to share because its #not churning out fanart for a response i guess? #i dont know. i do feel more satisfied with what im planning but theres less to share #anyway i promised her i'd show her my art sometime so essentially i have to flee the country now #she does lovely work she paints pictures of pets and it seems so nice. she seems so happy with it! #its like...i love it. im a little jealous of it. i feel so much pressure to Do Something New with my art #try to craft scenes and settings (i think setting is such ann important part of storytelling but i have so much trouble drawing it!) #and try new compositions and poses and just not have everything look the same all the time #its led to a lot of work im proud of but its also hard to create under those expectations... #i wish i could find a niche and settle into it comfortably. i think fun character drawings could be that for me #but its...it frustrates me to post those because it feels like if its easy and i like doing it and how it turns out then im not trying #okay i think im done now. sorry for these rambling introspective posts lately lol im #trying to warm back up to posting so i can use this website again (despite how very very bad it is)... #i want to see my frieeeeeends <//////3 i want to be here without running away <///3