#im dead ass so tired

[fayt30l0v3]

Lmaoooo im literally in class typing this but i just finished finals sooooo here are some sketches

#jayvik #arcane #jayce tails #viktor arcane #im dead ass so tired

[lucasoliko]

Sorry for putting so much effort into this it was an accident

#also i havent rendered something in months and i really wanted to #so i just chose the first drawing i saw #slutty marston #don't ask #prob could have rendered the hair better but im tired of this drawing already lmfao #ALSO IM HUNGRY #going to eat now bye #john marston #red dead redemption #rdr1 #undead nightmare #lucasolikos art #fanart #suggestive #tho its just a little ass but whatev #im so hungry rn

[yanderespamton78]

i made a thing

my friend told me to draw them iceskating so here we are

i couldnt be arsed to do a background raugh. also the dress blue is wearing is was inspired by the dress pink addison was wearing in that cool aurora borealis snowgrave MAP here (GO WATCH IT ITS SO COOL AND AURORA BOREALIS IS A BANGER). idk not my best work i feel like the anatomy looks a bit stiff but i might as well post it bc tumblr nice and wont bully me. im happy with the colour choices tho (i actually swatched the colours to see how they would look next to eachother instead of winging it for once wow). also i spend like all yesterday afternoon working on this and when i was finished i left the file open in case i wanted to do a bg and then MY WHOLE ASS COMPUTER RESET IT HAS NEVER DONE THAT BEFORE WTF. thank fuck krita has an autosave feature but if it didnt i would jump into oncoming traffic.

sketch below the cut bc why not i already have it

i made addispams coat longer cus it was bugging me

#whhy do i always sound so dead when i post art wtf #idk im tired i just wanna post it and gooo #rendering was a massive pain in the ass for some reason (idk why its normally pretty fun) #also i promise that the colours look brighter on my drawing tablet im not just shit at drawing #edit holy shit you guys i was confused why this had literally 0 notes I FORGOT THE FANDOM TAGS OOPS #deltarune #spamton #addispam #blue addison #spamblue #welp that was a bit silly of me oops #pixel art #< ill add that that for good measure

[juicyspacesecrets]

Happy Halloween!!! 😊😊😊

at this point don’t expect me to get anything out on time.....

#ITS SPOOPY SEASON #happy halloween!!! #eat lots of goodies and sweets for me!! my work had cookies and cupcakes today but I didnt get anythinggg #anyhoo i haven't posted much bc of work and im tired and need to sleep lol but i'll get stuff out once in a while so i don't look dead #thanks for all the messages and tags I read all of them!! :)))) #ok like the baby pumpkin outfits but on grown men is such a cursed image but also... #will they give you candy or take your candy? test your luck #imagine seeing that in an alley..literally more curse energy than a black cat #kallus the type to give out raisins and whole ass rotisserie chicken bc he wants to look out for the kids health #oops dropped baby! #whos the baby? me im the baby #they do not tell hera or jacen about this..then they joke about it years later and everyone is like...excuse me you guys almost what?? #jacen: i'm genuinely amazed that i survived this long #star wars #ahsoka tano #alexsandr kallus #cassian andor #kanan jarrus #ezra bridger

[von-karmas-a-bitch]

pov you're franziska and you're 11 years old and you just started your first period and papa has NOT been helpful but your brother has conducted extensive research and is handling it surprisingly well

#i am never gonna finish this so have the wip lmao #do you have any idea how difficult it is for me a furry. to draw not only a human but a human with kinda yaoi proportions #by tracing him over eminem's lanky ass. of all people #im honestly amazed it didn't turn out a lot worse #i spent way longer on this than i thought i would #i didn't think it would even result in something i was comfortable posting lmao but here we are #also i thought abt looking up what people use in germany and/or finding the german packaging of products we have in the uk too #but with the god-awful-to-nonexist transparent png's online shops be uploading for their websites i can only assume are ran by boomers #i was like yknow what im just gonna use what im familiar with and consider high end and/or bougie #i would not be caught dead using nurofen and neither would most people i know on account of generic stuff is cheaper + works the same #but i imagine they must make their money somehow. probably from people who are well off enough to not really think abt that stuff #and being the perfectionists they are the von karma household are not gonna use the german equivalent of tesco's own version of anything #so. we've got what in my heavy period having opinion are The Only Acceptable Pads #then we've got expensive ice cream with a european-sounding name bc of course #then we've got the chocolate 11yo me was always craving but could rarely have bc ny dad was a cheapskate so. i assume it's expensive #the nurofen of course #and. i don't know much abt what paracetamol brands are considered bougie and was already soso tired #so i just. grabbed one that wasn't a generic tesco version and went with it #i was also gonna put a hot water bottle in a cute fluffy case but i forgor so just pretend it's there #fanart #shitpost #miles edgeworth #sibling brainrot #my art #my shitposts #im..... not putting this in the aa tag #not bc im embarrassed abt the art itself but bc im afraid that if the cis men catch a glimpse of it they'll clown on me and call me gross #bc cis men do not know how to be normal about periods #it's a fact of life grow up this isn't cursed it is incredibly wholesome and sweet to imagine miles reading several wikipedia articles #in order to better understand and assist his little sister through her first period. it's cute it's not gross fuck you

[minamotoz]

riley asking shawn, "when you looks at me, does it remind you of what you can't have?" was a crazy ass moment because yes the line was about shawns intimacy issues and his inability to commit to a longterm relationship, but holy shit if that isn't the most blatant way you could confirm that shawn was in love with cory and the existence of riley was just a constant reminder that he had missed his chance and could never be with cory. what if i went insane

#boy meets world #shory #shawn x cory #i havent finished GMW because even though i like the dynamic between the kids everything abt the shaty ship tease makes me want to *** #it took me like 5 hours to get thru girl meets hurricane because i couldnt deal w the horrible way they dealt w angela #who even though i dont talk abt much is in my top 3 for BMW characters #but this one line from that one episode drove me mad like. did i die ? am i dead? #it actually took me until the end of the episode to realize what that line was supposed to mean #bc it read so explicitly to me as a confirmation of shawns feelings for cory #not to mention his ass literally LEFT THE CITY and never came back after riley was born #ignoring the continuity issues that crop up w this . its giving shawns wedding breakdown 2.0 lets discuss #i think that the take of 'shory is entirely one sided and shawns feelings for cory are unrequited' #is pretty surface level and it doesnt add up much if u take a deeper look into corys character #but GMW definitely leans into this take #what with shawn desperately trying to mirror corpanga in all of his romantic relationships (to run away from his feelings for cory) #like ​is it really in shawns character to marry a woman hes barely known a year ? #or is he just trying to mirror cory and topanga who basically rushed into marriage the second they. were legally able to #i'll let u be the judge #am i making sense idk im tired n i havent watched sn episode of GMW in months

[spider-man-2o99]

ok i’m still On Break do not take this post as a sign that i’m like. Actively Tumblring again yet because i’m still not, 4 the most part, but i have had my ear to the ground for special interest things, of fuckign course, of course, bcuz i’m me, and i. just. i am .i’m so fucking sorry to all the new SM2099 comic fans who are only just now realizing just now how dire the straits are, here, LMAO. it has been this way for Years. earnestly and from the bottom of my heart i love spider-man 2099 so much and also nobody on the goddamn planet Cares About Him At All or can even fucking write him half-decently unless every single celestial bodie in the fucking milky way galaxy comes into perfect fucking syzygy, i think, i think, i think. why did u think we (me) had a psychotic episode after that fuckin movie dropped. fucksake. lord above. because it’s all always “ohhh being yourSELF and telling your OWN story your OWN way” until you Look A Certain Way and ARE A Certain Way and Have Symptoms That Look Frightening and Don’t Move Around Like ‘Normal’ People Should Move, fuckin’ freaky-ass creature beast-thing, and so on and so on and so on, Christ all-fuckin’-mighty. gets tiring. but. anywaygs.

it is far easier to be destructive, than constructive. so. ahem. sorry. refocusing. it seems quite simply that just yet another goddamn story missed the point that 90s future spider-man is a story about very plainly and simply loving each other as people. it’s a story about a severely depressed, miserable, cynical little man who finds new reasons to live in every kind person he meets, and there is an open earnesty to that, if nothing else, that no movie can take away 30 years later. anybody can decide to try and be a better person than the one they were yesterday, and that is goddamn important. to portray anything otherwise was an unfathomably cruel decision, on sony’s part, and as soon as we got trailer evidence that they were leaning into his more “intimidating” features back in ~dec. 2021, i.. pretty much Knew it was what they were gonna be doing with him. why wouldn’t they? i mean. who actually even cares about this obscure nobody, right? c-listers are the tried-and-true adaptational chameleons, anyways; they sure suckered in dumbasses like me, who still took blind hope in hook line and sinker, thinking he’d be important to the film, or at the very least portrayed sympathetically to his 30 years of established comic history as a character who is consciously aware that he is an adult survivor of fucking child abuse. but. c’est la fucking vie, i guess.

#talking tag #atsv #spider-man 2099 #i predicted All Of This and i am SO TIRED OF BEING RIGHT THAT I WANT TO THROW MYSELF IN2 THE SUN ABT IT :)))) #i WANTED to be wrong. /CHRIST/ i wanted to be wrong so goddamn bad #articulation isnt at its peak rn. how do i even- /bridge/ the breadth of this gap. wwoof man like. just. #i just. did yall think i started writing the dissection fic with extreme violation + dehumanization themes Just Outta Nowhere?? y/k??? #y’KNOW. haha. i am Intimately Aware firsthand with how years of it without reprieve shapes a brain over time. and. writing helps. #hhahaha. lord. id just go back 2 how i was Raised if i wanted 2 Constantly Hear so many ppl talkin abt how much they want evry Like-Me dead #(not-- not. not Like That. not in the nasty-ass too-online Way or whatever disgusting Assumptions that could Imply. im just a basket case.) #chroist. #not even . not even getting into the whole ‘also comic sm2099 is canonically staunchly anti-cop yet movieboy is weirdly fashy’ Thing. #i already Have a migraine im NOT getting into that right now #(holding back tears) wwelp looks like these next Seven Years Of Terrible Public Perception r gonna b long and suck so bad :)) #ok goodbye again now im going back to frolicking morosely in the Fields . be safe drink some water be kind to urself and others. mwah.

[boxwinebaddie]

sooooo is peppermint ever updating like...lmao....

woah.

wooooooah.

okay, like maybe i'm being sensitive, but i do NOT fuck with this energy. do not come at me with this passive aggressive bs. thx! <3

jokes aside, i'm sorry for being unprofessional, but this message feels very meanspirited and not chill to me....please take several seats.

so, no one asked me to, which is fine, but since about april, i have written over 100k, which is about the length of two novels. i wrote very detailed plot journals, meticulously planned my fanfiction out, did extensive research, nearly destroyed my fingers formatting, spiraled mentally several times, cried several nights over peppermint, self isolated, frightened several people in my life, ate and slept so infrequently that i developed a bacterial infection, and nearly failed my finals trying to put peppermint out every single week without fail.

and i do it for me...but mostly...

i do it for all of you.

because i love and cherish you all very much. ( even you, ominous energy anon who is currently polluting my hot girl vibe palace. )

a lot of you have expressed to me that my fanfictions bring great joy, that you feel seen in them, that they positively influence your real lives, that you get excited about my updates and like my writing style, characterizations and storytelling. that gives me great purpose.

recently, the tags have been dry as hell, the sp fandom feels almost nonexistent, my faith and inspiration is fading, but i am doing my very best to hang in there because even though sometimes i get stuck, or my fingers hurt or i feel inadequate or uninspired, it is worth it to me...to make you happy. making you happy makes me happy.

but this...this is really not cute.

and i have had a lot of self doubt and struggles with writing and wondering what the hell i'm even doing and if it's worth it and stuff like this...this energy...really makes me want to irish goodbye! lol!

i do not know when my fanfictions are updating. i wrote old chapters 11 and 12 under a lot of stress, pressure, with no planning, just because i was anxious about keeping you all waiting and i have never felt worse or more embarrassed about something i've written.

so those chapters are gone. because i care about quality. and i cannot rush to produce quality or i will produce garbage which benefits no one. i care about you all too much to half ass my shit.

i don't like to write when i don't want to. and this....really does not make me want to, so thank you very much! feeling the love, bestie!

but to my friends and dear devoted readers who have been kind to me, patient and supportive of my journey as a writer/whatever twists and turns i may make, whether i stop or start, take off or take breaks. i love you very, very, much and i really do write for you. ily, ncu. <3

so when rm 4 drops ( if it does ) and new pep 12 ( if it does ), it will be for all of you kind, lovely, wonderful people and it would be my honor.

but as for you...my friend.

...clearly, there is something hardening over your heart.

something in your life....something you can't process...something that you're projecting onto me...whatever the case...

negativity is a disease, darling,

and from the very bottom of my heart,

i hope you heal. :)

-uncle nina

#sorry for being kind of intense but this...respectfully kind of pissed me off #i do not exist chained to my writing desk no food no drink no sleep writing #and to be honest! i did that! it was very unhealthy! it sucked! my work sucked! and im still reaping the damages #i got so unhealthy writing pep that i literally malnourished myself worse than kenny and got a bacterial infection #i already felt like going into hiding and never posting again bc i was frustrated and felt tired and lost #but this message.....to quote u 'lmaaaaoo' does really not make me want to write ever again! #like i licherally write because i love you guys and u light up my life and i want to give u a safe happy place #but when u pollute my safe happy place with this whack ass energy...its a no for me... #for the people invested in my stuff and kind thank u so much im excited abt my fics its just hard to write multiple chapters #its tedious for me im tired i just want yall to know the plot details the tag is dead its taking so long...ugh #but when theyre out they will be my platonic love letter to u #hopefully this anon was just weirdly worded but if not...please kick rocks and maybe never read my fanfiction again lmao

[histrionicscribbler]

realizing that you are cancellable for at least one thing you have done ever in your entire life and theres nothing you can do about it but embrace it or grow from it is like. a rite of passage on the internet these days

especially as a preteen/young teen because they are notorious for making bad choices

if you think you are perfect and exempt from this and still find it perfectly justifiable to tell internet strangers they should die for such things, you will fuck up one day because you are human and then you will understand what im talking about. and hopefully stop your clown ass behavior as well

it happens to everyone eventually. nobody can be mother theresa before they finish puberty

#im so tired girl #i made this bc i just scrolled past a callout post for someone i dont even know #their crime you ask? #shipping hikaru and kaoru when they were 11 #i am dead fucking ass rn #why are we cancelling a 23 year old over some 12 year old fandom activity #i get it guys incest is gross but some nuance would be nice bc this grown ass adult's blog hasnt posted about ohshc since 2015 #post was literally acting as if this person was still actively shipping them but then you check their post history and they obviously dont #peeb post

[m0e-ru]

she had leftover paint from the last show, one minute, and a dream

#cw alcohol abuse #cw blood #// ??? not really but the imagery might be present #// ok got newsflashed this is how they do blood in dngrpa okay. sorry. i didnt mean it. #arttag #boot.tingting #ゲッー #saki konishi #p4 #// believer that the thoughts in the shopping district at that time were just yosuke's #// mayumi's tv studio was quiet since she was already dead and sakis dead and yosuke's shadow was manifesting at the time so #// i cna explain this all in detail but right now im TIRED #// anyway heres vague mad hatter saki idea i had for a while now #// all because it was called 'twisted shopping district' adn i was like okay ...thats pretty swag #// i also have 100000 reasons and ideas ot this but yeah.not today sorry put it in the inbox so i remember i guess #// ohhh gas station's zero assed post of all time sorry guys i'll keep talking but it wont be substantial information #// ANYWYA her tv show would be like this alcohol review. whatever. tea party but it's just local liquor or something #// 'ahh and heres our guest for tonight!(the only night)' and camera pans to saki #// since theres no IT or physical audience. they make saki insecure with people watching through a camera or somehting #// the fog's cleared at this point so shadows would be more agitated and the whole process of going berserk even without people around #// and the fact sakis shadow could actually find her #// since theres literally nothing to chew off of what her deal could be um. im sorry saki im sorry sakiheads im doing this to your girl #// anyway her 'reality' is that um . yeah shes stuck at the hatter's tea party im sorry girl everyone hates you probably youre doing your #// best GOD worst articulation of ideas ive had to date GOODNIGHT OKYAKUSAN

[bingobongobonko]

YOU ARE INBETWEEN THE WHERE AND WHEN

#been dead ass haleee for days... good morning tumblr.. #work gott me dragging my feet and life is being batshit awful but.iam drawing #been thinkin about hassan and his ummmm #roommate of sorts. jules #scratching my head. lips zipped but. We are in situations #campaign started last friday so im RRAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but holy fuck #yea #i mmmay #or may yy not have an nhp! shes very sweet! smiles. She's an unstable NHP. #Do with that what you will but she and hassan have a neurological link thru psychic means. thumbs up #bingo art #lancer rpg #but yea ill probably be online eventually ive just been very. man. putting my hands in a fist. iiiii am tired.

[piplupod]

one more post while i am insane but i do think maybe Wanting to live should be ... enough to live. like can it just be all that is needed maybe. instead of [gestures vaguely at capitalistic society] all of that. a person should just Want to be alive and be allowed to live and given what they need to live. i dont want to have to beg and grovel for the ability to keep myself alive, i already did that (and continue to do that!) with my parents and now apparently i have to do that with the govmt and just... Everything.

#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #this is mainly just. why do i need to work when i Cannot work. #i wanted to work ! i really did ! but then things did not line up properly and now i am fucked !!! #and i cannot get onto disability bc that would involve so much sneaking around getting shit done and i Cannot risk it #i have simultaneously nothign to lose and everything #like. if i get caught by parents applying for disability then i will be in so much fucking trouble #my already nearly intolerable living situation will get Truly Intolerable. and then i'll be dead basically #and i dont even really qualify for disability bc i can Do stuff still. i just... can't do it often enough to make a living. #regular ass ppl can barely make a living. i'd never even come close #me when my disability is disabling enough to Need disability payments but not disabling enough to Qualify for disability payments 🙃🙃🙃 #straight up i am tired. i am so tired. i cannot see a way of living past whenever my bank account runs out. #like no i dont want to kms but yeah im gonna kind of have to ... ????? #because what do i do fhsdfjkl there is not a way to live !!!! idk man its fine its just fucked up #i'll go eat some food and not think about this. i feel like a rat stuck in a death maze #no matter which exit you take u know ur going to be euthanized at the end. ARGH !! #suicide tw

[widevibratobitch]

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#vent post vent post lalalala #i wanted to post some pictures from my weekend trip with my friends before its too late but then i saw my fucking face and now i wanna kms #like oh my god. oh my god this is really truly the face im stuck with forever and ever and ever till the day im fuckin rotting in the groun #incredible how unfair life can be lmao (<- girl who is having such incredibly superficial stupid fucking problems but is otherwise #quite privileged but of course that will never be fucking enough for her because she's soooooo fckn stupid and selfish and annoyinggg lol) #i dont know why im so obsessed with it now #like i genuinely remember KNOWING that im kinda ugly (and fat) in high school and being like 'so what lol idc' #so WHY is it such an issue now????? #idk. i just kinda wish i was dead every time i look at my face and realise there's nothing i can do to change it #i can dress in ways that will cover my ugly ass shapeless body. maybe i can even go back to my ed properly this time #and lose some weight. for a time. before i gain back twice as much and the circle begins anew lol #but my face is not gonna change no matter what i do lmao unless i fucking scrape it off with a grater or smash my head into pieces #and like. even if i do get that rhinoplasty (its not gonna change my faceshape anyway. nothing i can do to fix THAT fuckin atrocity) #every time ill look in the mirror i will only be reminded that its fake. and that my natural face was disgusting enough it had to be cut up #to be fixed somewhat. #i just wish i had ONE. just ONE nice thing about my body. literally just one its not even funny lol #and its so fucked up when you look at my mom who was so insanely fucking beautiful when she was my age. like. i cant blame her #cause how could she have known that the genes she'll pass on will not result in anything good lol but also i feel like such a failure #like its not really my fault i got the genes i got. but yknow. #anyway im tired of always being the ugliest person in any group im hanging out with. my cousins? check. my hometown friends? check. #my uni friends? my GOD check (how ARE they all so pretty and skinny??? insane). #god i wish i were dead. like fr fr. im not actively suicidal since i cant bring myself to *do* shit anyway. but i just wish i never existed

[brewed-pangolin]

#my dead ass coming out of 24 hours of call #that i didn't even know i had #why do people need surgery? #stop hurting yourselves dammit #im so tired #gonna go sleep for a week

[corancoranthemagicalman]

Can you believe that, before watching the show or seeing any of the fandom presence, I genuinely thought Blackbeard was going to be a mysterious figure that was only introduced in the last half of the season as a sort of antagonist in the show.

#our flag means death #ofmd #I GENUINELY THOUGHT FROM THE VERY FEW PROMOTIONALS I HAD SEEN #THAT BLACKBEARD WAS GOING TO BE AN ANTAGONIST CHASING AFTER STEDE BONNET FOR SOME REASOM #TURNS OUT THE REASON IS HES GAY AND HES ALSO LIKE IN YHE ENTIR4 SHOW #LMAOOOOO #im so dead ass tired bout to pass tf oht but had to make thi post finally #blackbeard #stede bonnet #gentlebeard #ofmd spoilers #i guess #blackbonnet

[lionbearfox]

i was hoping to do a few more but looks like that won't happen so i regret announce no more inktobers i must focus on other things. 😔

#my ass is SO TIRED u guys #ive had 12+ hour days this whole week buts its worth it ... even if im dead... #taught neuro to middle schoolers today which was very fun tho thats a highlight #lbf.txt #i have sketches down at least for most of the trick or treats i think i can finish and schedule them on saturday #and close my box so im not scramblin last day