#im excited bc everyone kicks ass

[nspolaris]

read the sunshine court and have never been more impatient in needing a second book my god

#tsc #tsc spoilers #tagging bc im talking in the tags but holy fuck im ngl i came into the book as a jerejean shipper but now im shipping him with EVERYONE #him and renee were so sweet god i cant #him taking her photo and thinking about rainbows 😭 #but also excited for my man Jeremy bc he's got layersTM like an onion #need to know why he doesn't like his family and if he ever confides in Jean to convince Jean to confide in him #but also them oggling each other was hilarious #jean said his name once and had jeremy kicking his feet and twirling his hear #jean's braim shutting off whenever jeremy is shirtless avdhdj #need them to get together but i love Jean and his story and im so glad i reread aftg before reading this book #obsessed with jerejean as individuals and i love how much Jean appreciates the othrler Trojans #GAAAAH #also heart was in my ass when Grayson attacked Jean and thank god my boy neil sent out a hit on that fucker #also people realizing neil looks insane to other people like um yes...literally everytime he opens his mouth even in his POV #he says some scary shit bro 💀 #adding more tags bc i forgot to talk about kevin but i also can't get over their angst its just so good #their time together at evermore and jean teaching him french only for it to be the used against him by accident #they're too fucked up to ever really be friends again but they've both got their own support systems now #thinking about them meeting to do the interview ... chewing on glass #i have to go ravage ao3 now

[fireglyphz]

NOO WAIT THE COLLECTOR IS SO CUTE THOUGH??? TERRIFYING BUT CUTE

#I DONT CARE WHAT YALL SAY #I wanna give him apple slices and teach him how to play crossy road #I’m not sure if he knows what he’s doing is like. BAD bad? like I think he was only excited about the draining spell bc it meant belos #belos would free him. so I think he’s more apathetic than outright evil even if it means hurting people to get what he wants #like I’m pretty sure he knows people are getting hurt but he doesn’t care? because he sees everything as a game?? #IM NOT GONNA DENY. HE WAS REALLY READY TO KICK EVERYONES ASSES IF KING DIDNT STOP HIM #but like. I also want to give him a high-five cause I think he’s cool #knowing Dana hell probably get sealed again or something but like. I kind of wanna see him have a redemption arc 🥺 #ALSO HIS DESIGN IS REALLY COOL I LOVE HIS WEIRD LITTLE SHOES. HES FRIEND SHAPED #the owl house #toh #toh spoilers #the owl house spoilers #kings tide #kings tide spoilers #toh collector #ALSO WHERES STEVE #txt

[leclerced]

https://www.tumblr.com/enchantecafe/740315672345706496/oscar-with-his-long-distant-gf-and-she-keeps

This gave me an idea!!

Imagine this but hes actually on his way home and she doesn’t her him come in bc she’s wearing noice cancelling earbuds. Hes still guiding her over the phone and asks her to close her eyes.

Can see im going like „imagine my hands on you“ and touching her. I feel like he’d die laughing at the shriek she let out when she felt his touch 💀

🫀

no this is so funny.

imagine he grabs her ankle thinking she’ll open her eyes and get excited when she sees him but she panics and kicks her leg out as soon as he touches her. she pushes herself up into the pillows and opens her eyes and sees oscar keeled over on the bed, thinks he’s hurt, until she removes her headphones and hears his laughter. then she’s like, “oh shit what the fuck are you doing here?? why did you scare me like that??” she feels terrible for kicking him but he’s laughing his ass off bc of course that would scare her, why wouldn’t it ??? then like there’s a knock at the door and their neighbor is like “uhh i heard a scream i just wanted to make sure everyone is okay?” and oscar just laughs and is like “yes sorry i scared my gf by coming home early she thought i was a burglar.”

also got ur pt 2 to med school ask i love it im gna fic it out but i dont have a good timeline for when ill be done i just wanted to say i got it n love it 🫶🏻🫶🏻

#ask #🫀anon #op81

[caluski]

@moldavite tagged me to post my current music faves (thank u kalli a big fucking MWAH goes out to u in this gloomy april evening) so yay!!! i love posting spotify links of course... more belowww. trying so hard for everyone to only post things i havent shared before... trying!!

obviously justice is on repeat - both incognito and saturnine, but im putting here incognito bc it does have the coolest intro and outro everrr like ouuughhhh like justice goes so fucking hard when they choose to have some retro synths................ actually have you listened to planisphere today? you should (talking to everyone)

i havent actually talked about my thoughts on khruangbins new album... which is obviously good but i simply didnt have the time to get into it :/ ive been hoping to give it a good listen, no skips no nothing, on a day off but work has been kicking my ass a bittt... anyway! Pon pón is fun. it came out as a single few weeks back and ive gotten really into it.... sooooo groovy

vampire by sholto is what some of you might recognize from love and food playlist? but ohhhhhh fuckkkkkkk its so good. i dont even know this guy and i didnt think much of it other than "yeah its cool" when i added it to my library. such a great and sinister feeling jazzy number.... AND WHEN THE SAX HITS!!!!!!!!! thats so good. please listen to vampire.

more radio pop!!!!! MORE MAINSTREAM KEVIN PARKER!!!!!!!! i do love tame impala's older/more niche sound just as much as i love him "selling out" (whatever, i will defend his minions and elvis tracks until i die and i will MEAN it) so i am STILL excited for this album even though the roll-out of singles has been consistently awful. but i guess dua lipa is a slow riser always (however long did it take her to peak on charts with 'dont start now'???). plus obviously DANNY!!!!!! YAY FOR DANNY!!!!!

its been a really good spring so far, with so many of my faves releasing music, and obviously that includes sebastian. i remember watching the runway show this was made for, but for some reason i didnt hear the whole track - maybe it was just highlights or something? i really love the synths in this one. its unusual for him to bring the choral singing in the start instead of the climax of the track, but its really well done (as always)! i wish, i wiiiiiiiiish there was something happening about the new album, too.

charli's really being weird recently about everything but goddddddd this slaps so good. im usually not that big on gesaffelstein but i do love ag cook so much. its going to be such a good clubbing record like literally.... its crazy she STILL gets labeled hyperpop. i also like club classics, but b2b is TRULY superior out of this double drop....

the beat of this one is just stuck in my head at all times. its cute! fun! perfect for spring. theyre soon to release their debut album, i need to remember to check it out. while its not SOTY material so far, its just cool and pleasant.

more dance sounds - i like this one a lot! really catchy. ive never really been into 1tbsp but yeahhhhh with this one, i get it.

ok i for sure posted this one before, but its ok bc it got like 0 or 1 likes or something. starwolf is a band im really hopeful for!!!! their 2020 album was pretty interesting, but its their three last singles that got my ears all perked up. some daytime disco vibes in them, and its really cool considering i was somewhat.... underwhelmed by poolside's last album. so, i feel good about starwolf now! fingers crossed for summer, as it would be a perrrrrrrfect record to replay over and over during hot sunny days.

and SUUUUUUUUUUUCHHHHHHHHH a spring favorite for the end. kind of getting lost in this one.... number one song i keep thinking of during sweet sunny walks recently. unbelievably cute. 10000% recommend.

#pogaduchy #not tagging anyone bc idw look like a fucking idiot when no one responds anyway 😭😭😭 #Spotify

[neptunite-stars]

OH I HAD A FUCKING CRESCENDO IDEA (FOR THISE WHO SIMPLY DO NOT KNOW :tm: ITS OUR ENSTARS RP GROUP EHEH)

MAGICAL GIRL AU

imagine

CRESCENDO but something like Yuki Yuna is a Hero which i TOTALLY forced you to watch

the heros are the members of the “hero club” or some sort of idolistic club and they go around and sing and dance for everyone else but the main premise of the club is to find sacrifices worthy for “god”—whoever that may be. So when Crescendo’s first mission begins, they freak out.

Kiyama, although excited, has never been beyond this side of the world. Where the gods lay. His flower may be something like… a sunflower, and his weapon being a polaram or breakers or something like that. something with high mobility.

Miharu is given something like. a daisy maybe? (wasnt able to find anything on masking) and their weapon is maybe something defense-related.

Kirina’s flower is a white lily. Since Kirina expresses herself through dance her weapon might be something like a fan or some sort of leg brace based on kicking

Sato’s flower is a lilac, since Sato (i think) values family and close bonds. maybe their weapon is something based on chanting and bringing things together— like the vines itsuki has

Katsu’s flower is a Strelitzia since they symbolize a free spirit. Maybe Katsu’s weapon is a straight up electric guitar or a gun of some sorr

Shion’s flower is a white rose, my gay ass loves to focus on shion’s split between her unit and crescendo, since she can only focus on one after the events of ykyk.

Anyways with these, this idol group is tasked with the duty of protecting the world against the “Vertexes” or the wrath of the gods against humanity.

Hehe what do you think so far?

HI. I GO INSANE OVER CRESCENDO. HIIIIIIII I LOVE THEM SO MUCH DID U GUYS KNOW THAT. ANYWAY I WROTE A LOT IT GOT A BIT LONG SO. MORE RAMBLING UNDER THE CUT ^_^

@twowink @lycanthian @shards-of-brilliance @crooked-corvid hope u dont mind me tagging yall but its ur lil guys (gender neutral)

also im sorry i never got around to watching it o7 i think i accidentally closed the tab for it while doing a tab cleanup KLJHFKJSHDKFJ

also FUCK YEAH . MIHARU WITH DEFENSE. GOD. IM INSANE ABOUT THAT. IVE ALWAYS IMAGINED THEM TO BE LIKE . A PROTECTOR OF SORTS. YKNO . LIKE THEYRE CHILL BUT THEYLL ALWAYS HAVE UR BACK AND AOUR(ITDIFYGSDLIFUGSDFLKJG they have a shield and they most definitely have a helmet that they sometimes wear because im all for the "masking" and "putting on a different face" thing they have going on (if this is how you learn about this then. there u go! altho it seems i alr told you about it mostly . yeah i think i did say somehting about that) anyway. miharu sooo has paladin vibes. hgrhgh

i think kiyama (or katsu) should have gauntlets. they deserve to punch people. altho an entire electric guitar is SICKKK anyway kiyama probably would have Some armor (probably leather) on his upper body bc . hes gonna be in the middle of all these weapons ykno. he needs to be at least somewhat flexible and light on his feet right? hm. i dunno . kiyama and katsu are difficult to think about for this. katsu definitely has some lightning effects going on. That will stay.

SHION. I DIE IMMEDIATELY. OAURGHHRGHGRHGJHRGJRHG ourhg. she'd be probably one of the ones dealing dmg too. give em a sword ^_^ classic fighter. also im putting them in a skirt u cant STOP ME. oh if u havent caught on EVERYONE IS GETTING SOME ARMOR. YOU CANT STOP ME. magical girls outfits with just frills and fabric be damned. I NEED TO PUT SOME METAL ON THEM I NEED TO MAKE THEM KNIGHTS (no not en.stars knights sorryy still love them tho ^_^) GOD. IM INSANE. MAGICAL KNIGHTS WITH FLOWERS??!?!?? OUHGHHHH

heheh ok time for kiri~~ she definitely has high mobility!! aaa implementing her dancing ability into her fighting style!!!!! i think shed try to learn how to fight using a halberd at first but she finds it awkward to move around with and then she (or sm1 else helps) comes up with the idea to do what shes used to: dancing. if shes so used to moving gracefully without holding heavy things then why doesnt she just. do that ? !!!! anyway im putting her hair into a high ponytail as we speak. although im having difficulty in imagining her in armor. ill work on that.

satoo waaaa so theirs would kinda be like. immobilizing enemies? kinda?? ough interestingggggg i think their armor would be relatively light (like kiyamas) but im thinking maybeee . ok i lost the thoughts dammit its hard to think about things for sato too :((

tldr i need to draw them all. specifically i need miharu in flowy fabric and armor. with flowers. and a shield. FUCK now im thinking about hades im sorry (i am crazy ok)

#WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CRESCENDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #rambles #ask #pitxroxas

[romana-after-dark]

You guys are SLAYING dead dove december!!!

I've gotten SEVERAL already!!! and i know more are coming!

Ive gotten not one but two William Tell's (one with art!!!)

several Joels!

A frankie and santi!

wow, just 10/10 everyone

if i havnt reblogged yours yet, i havnt read it bc finals are KICKING MY ASS RN but i promise I'll get to them! im so excited!!!

If i dont read and reblog yours by the end of december, that just means i missed it so dont be afraid to send it to me! im not excluding anyone as long as the rules are followed <3

#dead dove december #deaddovedecember2023 #dead dove do not eat #joel miler #william tell #triple frontier

[1moreoffkeyanthem]

Okok this is like very irrelevant to anyone but me rn BUT I’m getting my hair and makeup done so it’s time to re-read In The Truly Gruesome for the six millionth time bc I am so insane for how you write the boys in it. Also read (As Long As It’s About Me) for the first time since the Cryle hyperfixation is kicking my ass, and I gotta say 10/10 just like all the other things you write<3

Dude oh my GOD you have no idea how stoked I am to hear that!!!

In The Truly Gruesome was such a blast to write I had SO MUCH FUN WITH IT I love all the love it’s been getting bc when I say I got so excited writing the dynamics and banter with our 10 boys I MEAN THAT!!!

And DUDE!!! Everyone who frequents my side of hell knows Cryle is tied for my second favorite Kyle ship and (ALAIAM) was my FIRST attempt at actually writing it and I haven’t written Craig’s perspective in a hot minute but I loved doing his internal dialogue there!

Thank you for reading my bullshit man fr, and to anyone who enters the PCE void, DO NOT HESITATE TO LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS *cartman vc* IM SO SERIOUSLY

#like fr I don’t care how old a fic is I love comments #asks #thank you for the ask! #south park #man I just love to hear abt people liking my bullshit #also Cryle hyperfixation is so Mood I regularly go Cryle Mode it’s Winter Butterfly’s fault thank u jwink

[luckyqueenreign]

Suresh Route Episode Summary: 42

GUYS I AM GASPING FOR AIR BC IM LAUGHING SO HARD.... here we go

He asks if its for real...im getting second hand embarrassment rn but I said im serious lets get married 💀💀 and I really thought this man was going to say nahhhh LOLOL but he said hes wanted this so much for so long and that he obviously says yes.

Alfie and Dana both say congrats and good luck but Kat says she doesnt see this nonsense lasting 🫣

Dana asks if MC will miss the dressing room hangs with the girls, like literally no but I didnt want to be mean so I said yet. Kat's bitchy ass had to say if you and MC are so close, then why is she dating Suresh instead of you. GIRL KICK ROCKS! People can be friends without wanting to date...Kat says her and Finn will probably get married before Suresh and MC...call me after you watch the season back babes.

Suresh says hes nervous and asks how you feel about it all. (also died that he said MC and him could blow through the 50K pretty quickly...OK big baller)

Kat pulls MC and Dana for a chat and basically apologizes without apologizing for her behavior this summer and that shes "matured" and basically wishes everyone luck and that she's loved getting to know the girls.

MC gets a text in third place...Alfie and Dana (no surprise there) Alfie uses your nickname here again 🤣 Suresh asks to hold your hand while you read out the final text...the winners are.......MC AND SURESH (duh!) you can jump into his arms and kiss him, passionately kiss or play it cool. I jumped in his arms 🥰 Kat and Finn are surprisingly good sports about losing. (especially Kat) A SPECIAL VIP IS WAITING TO SPEAK TO YOU ABOUT YOUR SUMMER OF LOVE....BOBBYYYYY (they butchered him so bad 😭😭)

Bobby goes over the best bits of the summer...highs and lows. ITS ALL WORDS AND QUESTIONS not like s2 where you actually saw your best / worst moments...He asks what it feels like to win...if you thought u'd end up with Suresh...if you were happy to see him when you walked into the villa. He asks about excess baggage and says that he'll come back to rings in a minute, Arlo and Meera's entrance and Bobby digs into Suresh how he chose Arlo over MC and Suresh gets mad 🤣 He talks about Casa and how you picked Nic/Johnny and the crowd BOOS LMAO. Bobby says Suresh brought back Lulu and immediately Suresh says he feels terrible for using Lulu to get back in the villa bc shes a great girl. he asks how we feel about the ex drama being over...and one word to describe the summer.

BOBBY GEM SCENE: he asks if Suresh and MC want to chat for a few so he can give them advice. He asks if MC is excited for the opportunities she might get after they leave the villa, Suresh says theyre gonna be celebrities (lmao what?! not Suresh wanting to be an influencer...im dying) Suresh asks Bobby if he thinks he and MC have what it takes to make it and Bobby explains why he thinks yes and its really cute. OMG LMAO U CAN FLIRT WITH BOBBY HERE!!

Time to make decision love or money... Bobby asks MC to choose an envelope I chose Black Heart (but I dont think it matters) MC has the money and the choice...Love or Money...I chose Love. We can kiss Suresh and the crowd goes wild. Suresh can carry you away into the sunset 😭

FB confirmed they are working on a new season and they are "factoring in our feedback from the start" we'll see about that!

#litg ex in the villa #litg suresh x mc #litg mc #litg suresh #litg s5 #litg #litg spoiler #litg spoilers #love island game #love island the game #love island the game: ex in the villa #exinthevilla #ex in the villa

[shingogf]

Its 1 am and im bored and i cant stop thinking about just how fuckin tragically complex spamton's character really is like. That's grade A fuckin writing.

Not only was he not so great from the start and life was by all means not kind to him bc his sales never hit no matter what, but after that benefactor (be it gaster or whoever) contacted him and he was drowning in money and fame, everything was ripped away from him once they left. He had everything a man could wish for in life and it was all just...lost in a matter of seconds. Not only that but his friends abandoned him before that too out of jealousy and after his imminent fall they entirely refused any kind of contact with him and society turned its back entirely on him, deeming him as an outcast. His past fame and success was irrelevant, because everyone looked down upon him now that he was a nobody.

But i think what he wanted the most wasn't just easy cash and bitches, but sentinence. He wanted to "call his own deals" as he puts it, he wanted autonomy over his own life and for whatever the fuck reason neither he or jevil or kris for that matter (the kris/jevil -> spamton pipeline is a whole other story theres too much to say on it) have it. And he may have had a vague idea about how it felt when being helped out by that benefactor but that didnt last either and when he saw it didnt he entirely lost his mind, further driving people away from him bc they didnt wanna be associated with his unstable ass. While you can't blame the system and other ppl necessarily for potentially targeting and "destroying" his life (i.e evicting someone who cant pay rent isnt inherently malicious), multiple factors from his environment contributed to his ultimate ruin.

And i wont even get into how fuckin good the pinocchio parallels are bc man...the character WRITING. At the end of the spamton neo battle after u defeat him peacefully he mentions he's gonna become "a real boy" with understandable excitement, but even that does not happen cuz he fuckin dies the second u cut his last string which is such a beautifully sad way of putting it. No matter how much he struggles he will never gain the free will he craves so much because he is made to be stringed around. He cannot live without an outer higher force that makes choices for him and directs him and he loathes it. Even he sorrowfully admits it at the end by saying that he couldnt be more than "a simple puppet" then recognizes kris' potential of overcoming their condition, unlike him. The inherent difference between him and pinocchio is that pinocchio at the end of the story achieves his dreams and becomes a real person, spamton, on the contrary, had lost everything relating to his person a long time ago and will never be able to get it back no matter how much he kicks and screams and tries. He also hates jevil for being able to "accept" his fate and choosing to live in blissful ignorance towards his mediocre condition, something which spamton simply cannot accept which brings his inevitable downfall.

Another parallel that makes me so fuckin normal abt his character is the weird ass icarus theme he's got going on. Besides the obvious physical comparison you could make with neo and his literal wings that look like they've been put together in a frenzy by a first grader during arts and crafts, spamton, just like icarus, tried seeing past his given role/condition and had unceremoniously fallen because of it. He had forcefully crafted his own wings and stubbornly ignored others' words, flew too close to the sun and failed, because spamton's core driving force is his stupidly high level of perseverance. Achieving absolution and ultimate truth had rendered spamton fully incapable.

#i drank water 4 times while writing this #.txt #mine #dr #the deltarune hype may have died down but my burning interest for spamton and his immaculate character writing will forever live on #deltarune #like i cant stress enough how amazing of a job toby does at portraying dark themes esp shit like societal neglect or the pscyhe #i legit cant wait to see what else mans got in store for us next #they rlly said lets make this mf the most accurate portrayal of a tragic comedy

[bunnie-bits]

I've had a rly nice time getting to know myself this year (❁´◡`❁)

i had been on hormones already for like 5months but didn't get to explore myself any further bc the relationship i was in didn't rly leave any room for it 😓

but i started to explore myself a bit more in november n we broke up in december so january i was alone but Free 4 the first time in 6yrs (⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠;⁠) it was p rough ngl (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) and the first half of the year kicked my ass emotionally bc i was struggling to make some good friends, but things rly turned around 4 me in the second half of the yr and I'm a lot better at being a social bunnie n making friends and i even have a good friend now I'm always excited 2 see (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠) I've been wanting 2 know someone i clicked with ever since i moved here but it hadn't happened yet ╮⁠(⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠╭

this has actually been the longest I've gone without being in a relationship before :3c i usually have been in LTRs or had a few consistent fwb i was p sweet to n would have over a lot, but as thirsty as i am on here i haven't actually been trying to get with anyone (☝️😌 yet!) for a while lol.

but it's given me a lot of time to learn about myself n my thots n feelings and desires :3 and i am learning new things all the time (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠) and i can make a fwend when i want to! ₍ ᐢ. ̫ .ᐢ ₎ ᶦ ʷᶦˢʰ ᶦ ʷᵃⁿᵗᵉᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵐᵒʳᵉ ᵒᶠᵗᵉⁿ ᵗʰᵒ.

and then old ladies have been so nicey to me, and i always am feeling prettier n happier w myself (❁´◡`❁) not that i change that fast but i just rly love myself a lot more bc i Know myself a lot more n im rly comfies w who i am. it's been rly lovely settling into this next phase of Me and im happy 2 have my kitty n my friends n all the hobbies i never had time for, and my friends on here have been So sweet n supportive the entire time 🥺💕 i would've been so lost if i wasn't on tumblr thru all that omg (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ��.⁠ ⁠`⁠) i didn't even have time to second guess myself or be self conscious bc everyone was so nicey 2 me and hyped me up immediately and always!!

being trans just feels v cozy as an experience 👉👈 mm, hm. yeah i realized i was enby in my 6yr relationship then became an enby trans gal during the later half of it too but i didn't rly get to find out What That Means until i left yk? (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) i was just happy that i finally did something besides be upset abt my body (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) but i didn't get to hang n talk w other trans ppl regularly, i barely got to see the friends i Did have (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠) it was v isolating and getting to finally visibly Be trans and interact with the world that way is like i just got absorbed into a very big loving community and I've also grown 2 love myself n b comfies w myself sm more (⁠*⁠´⁠ω⁠｀⁠*⁠) i rly feel like Me rn and I'm glad I've grown into this other important side of me. everyone is always so supportive ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡

omg like getting she/her'd at work all the time when i use she/they (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) ppl also rly did learn n don't misgender me anymore. aaaakkskdks i have so many feelings i want 2 share them all but it's midnight and i have to eat™™™ (⁠ ⁠･ั⁠﹏⁠･ั⁠) n e ways, hi everybunny how r we? rly happy 2 night (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠)🐇💕 i could talk forever 😈

#sleepover talk

[aria-ashryver]

Chemo day 2 thoughts? 💪

im a lil bit out of it, but the tl;dr is CHEMO KICKS ASS IM SO HAPPY WE'VE STARTED ✨✨✨ WOO

Re. your question from earlier - the actual bags themselves take anything from 30mins to 90mins each once you're hooked up to the IV, but its all the stuff either side of that that makes it take so long (ie. any additional pre-medications, the saline flushes between drug treatments, taking vitals, observation periods, etc).

I only did one bag yesterday, but that appointment still took like 3 and a half hours (in large part bc I had a minor allergic reaction to the chemo drug itself and had to pause mid way through and get an infusion of steroids and antihistamines, then sit through an observation period before we could continue.)

It wasn't a major, but I still feel like im half sedated rn from the antihistamines - they basically gave me a straight jolt of the stuff that's in night time cough syrups that makes you super drowsy via IV, it was like an IMMEDIATE feeling of being sedated 😅. Got home and had a 2 hour nap, then my fiance made me dinner and i just went right back to sleep again haha

And no, the actual transfusions aren't all that uncomfortable 💗

The first day was especially fine, as two of the drugs I am getting are targeted HER2 receptor antibody treatments (i.e. they very much attack directly where they need to, so the wider effects like nausea and fatigue and stuff aren't as noticeable).

The third drug bag (the one I had on Day 2, yesterday) was the actual chemotherapy drug itself. Because its the more widespread, "lets just start a fire under this whole thing and get stuff happening" drug, yeah, that one was a little more noticeable, both while I was hooked up and after the fact, bc it hits everything, and it hits HARD (but overall, really not too bad!)

I'm still healthy at the moment, and have a decent immune system to fight back against things, so as that wears down over the next few months, yes chemo is going to get harder and i'll feel the effects more. But as of right now, all I have a little bit of muscle/joint pain, my teeth hurt for a while, weirdly, and food tastes kinda weird rn.

But, you know what?

That just means this shit is working 💪💪💪

That is SO damn exciting. What an absolute privilege to notice tangible effects already. God I wish this level of medical care was available to everyone who needed it, bc holy shit... I have never been in doubt that im going to beat this thing, but all the people I have behind me are helping me to believe that a thousand times over.

And it's only the beginning baybeeeee 💅💖

#aria pincushion tally: 40 #caesar: currently shaking in his red leather senatorial boots

[yanban-san]

i let a full, solid decade of pmd experience go out the window because of volo and how excited i was that someone was mentioning/talking about the lore nshit in game. they need to add a clown outfit to legends arceus so i can put it on and finally embrace my true title as booboo the fool hrHJDGKDSM-- im almost done the post-game thing with him and ive been putting it off bc i got attached nd just... idk i wanna sit down and talk with volo in a "i'll pick at your brain if you wanna pick at mine but hey no forreal what do you think is up with those unknown and why are they here/how'd they get here, whats your take on that" kinda way.

also i hope your headcold isn't kicking your ass too hard and that it leaves you be sooner rather than later!! ingo will make an eggmans announcement about your cold too bc these hands are rated e for everyone, germs and sicknesses included - feather anon

We already have a clown outfit and it's being worn by a lil bitch named Kamado- Oh wait no that's just his silly suit of armor!

I think it'd be great to sit down with Volo and just discuss pokemon lore for a few good hours- He honestly seems like he'd be extremely fun to just sit down and chat with about myths n' legends, maybe have a battle with, eat anything but Bitch Beni's potato mochi, and have a few good laughs and just chill out together

On the subject of Unown though I do like the one fan theory that Unown are the supposed 1000 arms of Arceus; Or at least what are essentially a medium by which Arceus's divine powers act. We saw a bit of this in the movie with Entei and the little girl and the Unown; By spelling out with the glyphs that she wanted a mama and a papa, the Unown began to create her reality.

And then in Arceus and the Jewel of Life and, if I remember correctly, in the other movies featuring the Creation Deities, their dimensions are swarming with Unown. Coincidence? I THINK NOT

And don't worry! I think it's almost run it's course, I just wish I'd stop coughing so much.

Also like the idea of Ingo just running into the middle of Jubilife to start shouting at the top of his lungs an Eggman Announcement about something he hates whenever the mood seizes him.

Ingo:

I've come to make an announcement. Kamado the Commander's a BITCH ASS motherfucker. He kicked out my fucking niece. That's right. He opened his bitch ass bearded mouth, and told my niece to leave the village. And he said the sky turning red was her fault, and I said he's disgusting So I'm making a callout here in Jubilife Square: Kamado, you got a small dick, it's the size of this oran berry except way smaller, and by the way here's what my team of Alpha Pokemon looks like. That's right baby- All Filled with Wild Might, All level 100, LOOK AT EM THEY LOOK LIKE A BUNCHA KAIJUS OVER TOKYO.

He kicked my niece outta her house so guess what, I'M KICKING HIM OUTTA HIS HOUSE. THIS IS WHAT YOU GET: MY GARCHOMP'S SUPER LASER HYPER BEAM.

*blows up Kamado's house*

HOW DO YOU LIKE THAT KAMADO? YOU HAVE 23 HOURS BEFORE THE HYPER BEAM DRRROPLETS HIT YOUR FUCKIN OFFICE NEXT- NOW GET OUT OF MY SIGHT BEFORE I HAVE KLEAVOR CHOP OFF YOUR HEAD.

#In all honesty I imagine Ingo fucking hates Kamado for kicking the player out of the village #Ingo feels a weird sense of camaraderie with the player because ya both have amnesia sort of and you help Ingo remember the future and #you're also both good trainers #And ahdsjkhal I hate Kamado so much #Hate him #Pokemon Legends Arceus

[dragonfly0808]

its me and another helia question again 👀 sorry

a wizard who has a staff must use their staff like a part of their body right? nabu is a great example to this. combining it with his inner magic or something something BUT. i personally dont think helia is a type to fight with a staff unlike nabu, he needs to fight with his all body instead of summoning the power in one place, he needs to move fluently like.. like a waterbender!!! and i feel like staff would make trouble about that

and bc of all these thoughts i always thought if he ever get a staff, he wouldnt get it completely. he would only get the gem and use it with his necklace or bracelet or something. but these are just ideas that im having before sleep AHSHAJSJA

in short, im SO excited to see what you'll do with him. he has SO MUCH POTENTIAL my mind is on fire every time i think about him. in this house, we love every version of helia. yippee. and i LOVE how you write our boys and i cant get enough of them. they love each other so much no matter what happens and im gonna cry 😭

p.s. i feel like nabu helia and bloom are gonna kick some ass👀

p.s.2 this got longer than i planned and im sorry if there is a mistake in my english but i wrote this so fast bc i was so excited omg

p.s.3 i also think winx fandom deserved a spin off about specialists🧍

Kay, so, Helia won’t use his staff very often and it will transform into something a lot smaller for him to use it more comfortably since he isn’t used to fighting with something like a staff.

We will be getting more of Helia and Nabu’s magic next season and even a bit more for Riven’s (though Riven is still a relatively weak magic user and much prefers fighting without magic, he will mostly use his magic to make himself a little faster and stuff like that)

P.s. everyone will be kicking ass

P.s.2 no worries at all! English isn’t my first language either I feel ya

P.s.3 we absolutely deserved at least a few Specialist-centric episodes I mean cmon

#winx club #winx rewrite #winx #winx headcannon #winx q&a #winx headcanons #winx fanfic #winx helia #winx specialists #winx riven #winx nabu

[hanafubukki]

Seeing Rook like that makes me SUPER excited to play book 5, only a week left till they most likely drop the last batch??? THEN THE BINGE CAN START BC HOOOLY SHIT ROOK??? LIKE HOT DAMN WHATTA MAN HE IS?? A FINE SPECIMEN INDEED

I knew I would love him when he started smooth talkin in his R cards like??? Whisper them sweet nothings IN. MY. EAR. PLEASEEE

And Epel, poor thing his chibi always looks so sad and for whyyy :( But I think he’s so cool, the way he switches like be your country bumpkin self I love it!! And and Vil?! I didn’t really know how to feel about him until Beansday?? The amount of effort and work he puts in to be his best self??? The way he’s not actually a narcissistic pretty boy like he can appreciate inward beauty too??? He’s not afraid to get down and dirty like????

Hello Anonie 🌻🌺💕

YES! I can't wait to see everyone's reaction to the end of book 5. It's dropping soon I think, in about five days? (I believe right after Ghost marriage ends) I hope you have fun binging it anonie 🙌💚, You're in for a treat. Oh man please tell me how you feel after you finish book 5, I cant wait to see everyone's reaction. if you're a fan of Rook now, anonie, I can't wait until you read book 6 because pomefiore fans be thriving in that chapter even more. and rook? vil? Epel? *chef kiss*

I adore when Rook just smooth talking. You know that no matter what, you wouldn't be able to escape his flowery words and sweetness. You definitely know you would never feel insecure with this man.

but also? the way his voice changes? from that flirting to that deep and serious?? please....just freaking please *chef kiss* 💚💚 OTL I am begging here lolol

ironically, I just noticed that too! specifically his alchemy lessons one but I think that's almost all of them and who can blame them? plus he's learning and growing so im sure his chili will reflect that too. His groom card is so cute (they all are honestly). Nice epel --> Feral Epel! I adore! and it happens at the most hilarious moments, you just wait anonie.

omg anonie, please, don't get me started on Vil. It's sad that when the EN server first came out, people didn't have a good view of Vil (which I understand) but the way they attacked him and hated on him and tried to change canon? it was heartbreaking.

Vil is such a hard worker and he knows what he wants and he tries his best to get what he wants. he also knows your limits and what you can and cannot do and that's why he pushes others so much. He also, like rook, sees the beauty and potential in everyone and I hope the fandom can see he's a great character and I just adore him.

and when he's ready to get down and dirty? Oh, he will literally kick your ass and he with command you like a queen. Book 6 Vil *vibrates in excitement* will break everyone and I am here for it 🙌🙌

#answered #anonie ask #rook hunt #epel felmier #vil shoenheit

[itlivesproject]

seeing all the absolutely MESSY love square potential for the ilitw crew in the redfieldmc route and grinning bc at this point in time everyone is basically at the same level as eo. i have a playthrough for EVERY ilitw LI in the redfieldmc route except for connor (i love him however i personally do not want to experience his nerve going down and potentially dying or worse bc of ilwmc pushing the noahmc agenda. living vicariously through other people's screenshots for that one 😳 also i am using that save option JUDICIOUSLY bc of this i am now on page SIXTY 💀) and i have a mental ranking of each one of them based the criteria of what the FUCK they're doing to bring mc back. noah unsurprisingly is number 1. ava was the sole second but then dan came in with the steel chair so NOW they're tied. lucas andy and stacy are all tied for third and im mentally poking them with a stick to do SOMETHING bc they WILL end up getting their bf/gf stolen at this rate. im manifesting a last minute big showing for them next chapter bc if they don't. oh my girl WOULD get their ass for not even doing the bare minimum (and in stacy's case. it's even worse. her BROTHER did more for her love than she did 💀 dan deserves to steal her girl fr with the amount of research he apparently did – that lucas BETTER have joined in on in his route i can't have my main man slacking like this 😭). i would make all of them have an endgame (which makes it three for each playthrough. one for the LI one for noah and one for dan. stem prepped me to categorize everything meticulously but good god. i would have over two hundred saves by the end of this — not even considering the abel/mc/lincoln hoe route, the abelmc matthiasmc route that would be SO messy i have no idea why no one is mentioning the betrayal in this case bc abel ADORES this man and he goes in like a dilf and goes for the person they're falling for like hello? 😬 and the lincolnmc matthiasmc route that would simply be the definition of explosive. the clean routes i have for each LI are already part of the first sets i started bc i am in love with them but damn. i need an excel chart to keep up 💀) but their rankings would be the basis of whether or not i would go full throttle on the angst for their secondary route before i let them resolve things in a narratively satisfying manner (while ilbmc is simply living their best life and ilwmc also if she's not dodging the hoe allegations. ilitwmc poster child for why you should NEVER be so awesome that almost half ur friend group is in love with you at any given time 💀). mc choosing someone at the end of this unexpected ilitw bachelor would make my heart hurt for the other two losers but i KNOW i would be enjoying it the whole time alongside the main ilwmc romances. ilitw gang best friend group of all time i love them so much which is why i cannot help but put them in situations. this got absolutely lengthy and actually longer than some of my assignment answers but i wanted to cover all my bases so sorry for the one who gets to read this wall of text i simply got so excited 😁 this story lives rent free in my mind and whatever happens i cant wait to see how it would turn out for everybody in the cast it's been an honor playing your game 🥰❣️

PS: when i saw the dan romance option the image of redfieldmc's LI kicking noah's ass while dan sneaked in with his steel chair and stolen mc right under their noses went to mind 😭 the other two were all pikachu face it was hysterical. i cant WAIT for the absolute mess redfieldmc's love life is going to be. their staying power (which is especially miraculous given yt fmc's looks. asian fmc face ure pretty and my baby girl but black fmc outpaces you in the face card department) is UNMATCHED

LMFAOOOOOO this is so 😭😭😭 first of all PAGE 60 on SAVES???? u are so brave idk how you filter through all of that😭 also yeah the ilitw drama is very eh hem,,, dramatic!!?!! but i’m glad ur enjoying it!!! and im sure you’ll like the next chapter very much ! for reasons i will not say hehe 🤭

(ps im glad u see my vision🤭🖤)

#mod sugar #ask #anon

[thecurseofclever]

i don't know how to write anymore but i know i should. it's the only thing i have left it seems.

i wish there was something in this world that excited me or made me feel anything. well i guess feel anything other than lost.

lost & anxious. that's the only two emotional settings i've had for a while.

as much as i tried to dissociate from the whole experience losing my mom has made my life empty in a way that i don't think it will ever really mean anything again. she was my reason not to off myself bc i knew she would be so sad if i did something like that and she had to live without me. that and the fact that i promised God I wouldn't do it again after the last time didn't work (& we all know there's only one consistent thing about me & it's my fear of him).

im just tired man. tired, scared, & lost as fuxk.

i moved back to the place i had enjoyed most so far in life. only coming back it's just as much of a hell scape as anywhere else i've been. there's too many people here now. i just want to be alone & unbothered.

i stumbled my way into my first actual relationship born out of not great circumstances. i don't think it fits. we both try to cram ourselves into space in each other's lives but no matter what happens we are one puzzle with two separate pictures. really the whole thing has been confusing. sometimes the logical part of my brain is activated and i can see all the ways that this whole thing has just been a careless disaster ; but it's the only thing that belongs to me anymore. she says she loves me & i can tell that for whatever fucked up reason it's important for her to have me in her life...but i don't think that love--theres definitely a lot of things missing here...

im so fucking scared of the whole thing. some days we can have fun as two people just existing together but it never feels better than that. we don't have the same morals or values. our pictures for life look completely opposite. it's no secret that this whole thing is some kind of devoted trauma bond.

i want to love her so bad. i want this to be something. it's the only thing i have left that belongs entirely to me but i just don't think there's a way that this works out in both of our best interest. & i am afraid in a way that i can't nor will i ever be able to explain to anyone close in my life.

my relationship is fucked up sweetly. i have no family. i want to be involved in my friends' life and still add value to theirs but i am so disappointed in the fact that i am not the person they were friends with before this all happened. i can't get past that let down of my own expectations enough to reconnect with anyone. not only that but everyone seems to have found their own things in life. & i don't want to be uncomfortable squeezing myself into spaces that aren't intended for me now. so i isolate bc it's what's best for everyone involved and it's an easier outcome for me. im saving them the disappointment of my life and i don't have to make myself fit.

life is getting too serious in a time where nothing is safe. i can't imagine myself ever having a career. my gf wants a baby and for someone whose seen all the different types of parenting and struggles with a child i cannot imagine anything worse. being a parent feels like a death sentence in a way i can't ever fully explain i just know i don't want it. i want to get married and there's a chance i could but i only want it to know i have something in life that belongs to me. i have no intentions of a career or school or anything like that bc i can't unsee how fuxked up the conditions of the world are so why would i inconvenience myself for something that's not promised to benefit me. my body is so broken and needs so much work to be a valid member of society but i can't afford healthcare. my depression is kicking my ass. i can't keep paying for antidepressants and i don't have time---

i don't know man i just feel alone anxious tired and in a constant state of confusion and i just want to find just one little part of me before it's too late