#im going to be so fucking busy that week

[waitineedaname]

birthday in under two weeks..... waugh............

#i forgot for a minute #things have been so busy #but it's two weeks from yesterday! #im looking forward to it #im going to be so fucking busy that week #bc i have final papers due + my covid booster + a doctor's appointment all that week #but hopefully i can hang out with my friends that weekend or something

[penn-dragon]

They’re so stupid and I love them so much

#it's gonna take her 12 business weeks after they start dating to even consider using his first name hfksfjsl #im going through my monthly skip beat hyperfixation #skip beat #ren tsuruga #kyoko mogami #the fact that they've kissed and confessed their love but she's only called him buy his first name once in an act and wanted to kill herself #afterwards is so fucking funny

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ok no im so tired but ive had this Thing a Laughingstock Concept Thing in my Brain for Days Now and its.... basically what if Barnaby adopted a lil caterpillar. like it's not sapient or anything its literally A Wriggly Puppet Prop. but he finds it in his home and it reminds him of Howdy and he keeps it. he carries it everywhere. he treats it so tenderly and names it and everything. his delusional smitten subconscious is like "omg... mine & howdy's <3" he and Howdy are not even together at this point

so Barnaby cares for this lil caterpillar and Howdy ends up getting attached as well, because he's on the same shit as Barnaby. and eventually the lil caterpillar pupates, and they watch over the chrysalis So Excited to see what lil wormie will look like as a butterfly. and it emerges and they're so proud and weirdly emotional. the butterfly takes off on its first flight and lands on a flower patch

just in time for Eddie to trip and fall on the patch, instantly crushing it And the butterfly

#in my mind eddie is all 'oh man :( thank goodness frank wasnt around to see that' and then goes about his business #completely missing howdy & barnaby watching on In Horror off to the side #not lil wormie... no.... #also in my mind lil wormie looks like the fuckn. Adorable worm from sesame street #oscars little friend i think? the cutest little thing in the world? the little red wormie? yeah.... #but im feeling very Tender about bigass dog barnaby toting around this teensie weensie lil worm thing #treating it with utmost care and affection #big characters caring for absolutely tiny thing kills me every fucking time #bury me shallow... ill be back to die again.... #absolutely unprompted #laughingstock #ohhhh my god im not even gonna say how i almost butchered the laughingstock tag #sometimes i type letters in the wrong order or add an extra one. that would have been so unfortunate but Deeply Hilarious #ANYWAY LIL WORMIE IS AN ESTABLISHED THING IN MY MIND AND I DONT KNOW WHY #maybe... maybe tomorrow i will scribble it... #also to be clear the events of this post all happen within a week or two. #it is a brief shining Worm Time #ok going to bed now officially. im going #wait no i have to complain about something ive done to myself hold on #so i really like reeses puffs cereal yeah? but the problem is it cuts up my mouth to hell and back and makes eating anything a Pain #tried to eat sauerkraut tonight... it burned... the roof of my mouth is so scraped up... #i Will be eating another bowl when i wake up tho. its too tasty. i can take the annoyance that is minor pain. i have a high tolerance <3 #can i easily Not eat it? yeah. but i dont want to stop. nothing will stop me. its a jumbo box. i Will Finish It. #anyway wormie <3 gonna go think about her <3

[boxwinebaddie]

nothing kicks off my schools teacher appreciation week like breaking up a fight :/

#nina speaks #fucking hell dude that sucked #i had to get up on the table blow the whistle and yell #and i never EVER yell at my kids #but i was genuinely scared and concerned #and i had to go to administration n report it #fucking sucked #i went into that classroom bc the teacher asked me #and all the kids got hype to see me and ran up #and it was like oof brother im love u too #but im here on official business lovelies #however bc it’s early teach appreciation week #i got dank sweets and a lemonade for my troubles #also if ur confused about why i am not posting #i am taking a break #long story short im not doing well #and i cannot keep up with everything right now #so i am stepping back to take care of myself #i need a sec to get better and get re-excited #big shoutout to my kind anons and my rant girls #really carrying #fucking hell all before my morning coffee too #smh bro

[macroglossus]

being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED

#which is dumb bc i have been formally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses i dont think they can just take it back right????? #this is so stupid and cliche but what if i have been faking it........ all along........ Argh. #when i was in res i was put on adderall (bc the house psych just kind of experimented w meds LMFAO) and i had to go off them after like #two weeks bc it was affecting my appetite in a way i couldnt afford at the time lmao. but i do genuinely feel like it helped during that #time.... which is why i want to go on it again!!!! but im scared theyll just be like nah and i wont be able to take any of my meds anymore #is that crazy. am i being crazy rn. idk i truly do think most of my experiences w school and like. life could be explained by adhd and #when i was a kid they thought i had it but the two meds they tried didnt work for me so they just. kind of gave up #and i was really extremely unable to do school and graduated hs w an insanely low gpa and then dropped out of community college. LMAO. not #that people w adhd cant be good in school i just couldnt make myself do homework and couldnt listen in class bc i was too busy focusing on #listening. if that makes sense #IDK. idk. i know it's become like. a trend to have adhd is the issue and everything is being attributed to having it so im worried that ive #like. accidentally fallen in w that? even though ive thought i had it for forever and everyone has been like girl do you have this. IDK!!!! #idk. idkkkk im just like. genuinely scared. it's not the end of the world if im not diagnosed obviously but that means that #im just like this for no reason at all. and there's no way of helping it bc it's just the way i am. and i actually am just shitty n lazy. #epic. which incidentally is the proper name for how fucking long these tags are my bad. if you read this far sorry for being insane 👍

[jestroer]

Being incredibly social and thriving in a company of literally anyone pleasant enough to talk to and also having an extreme social anxiety is not an easy work but somebody has to fucking do it

#don't you love feeling physically sick when you just embarrassed a bit. or your message in a group chat hasnt been noticed by anyone #i sure do #i just love company and having dialogue so so much #i love talking #when im having a chat with my mate i just put aside everything and i just spend like 40 minutes just talking to them and nothing else #and i love hanging out #but having social anxiety makes it extremely fucking hard to ask anyone to hang out #but nobody fucking asks me to hang out and i know like that people are busy #but when i force myself to finally ask someone its so easy to arrange a meeting and we have such a nice time and then it repeats #fucking clawing and biting my way out of my extreme anxiety every other week to just like go to a museum. on a walk #love hanging out too much for my own good #shitpost #anxiety #social anxiety #also like. discord servers my beloathed. im trying so hard. but there are always so much going on i just cant #honestly im just trying so hard lately to be more social #but god forgive its so fucking hard holy shit 🙏 Literally sweating crying throwing up trying to write a message first #or like join some social event and then actually be social in it #fucking. struggle on earth man. what the fuck for real

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[arionawrites]

1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!

2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr

3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!

overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!

#aritalks #i did cry a little bit when i first woke up because i dont really know what to do about work and also i hate not having a car i can use #not only because of the work aspect but also getting my license when i was 18 gave me a freedom i didn’t have before #and i don’t like having to rely on other people just to like go to the fucking store or something yk #but then my best friend/roommate messaged me happy birthday and i was like fuck it! today is going to be a good day! #the stressful uncertainties can wait until tomorrow #also one of my best friends who hasn’t said happy birthday to me the past two years #(not intentionally im p sure they were just busy on my birthdays the past two years #and then had that moment of ‘oh shit i didnt send a message fuck i think its too late now’ which i totally get bc anxiety things yk) #was one of the first people to message me happy birthday!! #i’m also hoping to still be able to go see my mom and then stay the night at my dads tonight #so i can see both my parents and also my baby siblings for my birthday #my dads working today but after he texted happy birthday i sent him a text asking if he thinks we could still make it work #my mom is asleep still i think (she called me at midnight and left a voicemail singing happy birthday!! but her sleep schedule has been all #over the place recently so i’m waiting until 11:30 to call her which is in like 30 mins) #but she said something yesterday about driving out to me to give me a hug and also bring me my diabetes stuff that got delivered #(her house is my mailing address because i know it’s not going to change bc it’s my great grandparents house that she’s partially inhereting #when my great grandpa dies but since i have moved out of my dads my address has changed twice and i didnt have a mailbox at my last place so #just for the sake of consistency and not having to worry about important shit getting sent to the wrong address i’ve had her house as my #mailing address since i moved out of my dads at 19) #so i think i’m gonna ask her if she can just pick me up instead so i can go to her house w her and hang out with her #and hopefully my dad will be able to at least stop by with my siblings so i can see them too #i’d like to stay the night with them but if we can’t make it happen then i can also stay the night w my mom and hopefully tomorrow figure #out the car situation. might have to rent a car for a week if i can afford it? best case scenario is my moms car can be fixed but i still #dont know whats wrong with it ik there are two potential problems and one is fixable the other is not #the fixable one would cost like $150-$400 to fix depending on if we get a used part or a new one #if its $150-$200 ish i can probably afford to pay for the whole thing or at least most of it #but if its more than that hopefully my dad or one of my family members can help #and i can just pay them back in like $50 increments with my next few paychecks #just realized i said i wouldnt worry abt the car thing today and also i think im at tag limit to i’ll stop now lmao xoxo gossip girl ❤️

[raksh-writes]

Im a pent-up ball of pure stress and restlessness (like chest-tight and heart pounding type of stress) and I have 0 idea what to do with myself, because anytime I want to try and go distract myself with Something my anxiety spikes and my brain goes "!!! NO!!! DANGER!!! LOOK OUT FOR DANGER!!!" so I guess I'll just spend the day pacing the house and refreshing the same 3 pages on repeat, huh...

#personal #Raksh posts #tomorrow I'll know if I got back into uni #so that's the culprit #but I also have no way of assuaging it so fuck me I guess 😩 #and depending on if I do or dont get in #its either gonna be a full on depressed crying or a crazy busy next week #plus so much has been happening all around #I finished my internship last friday #we found out our doggo is sick and we're going with her to a vet cardiologist next friday #my younger cousin Ive always been quite close with came to visit with her boyfriend and announced yesterday they got engaged #my bro today said he's planning to marry next year #Im trying not to let my crippling loneliness take me over #it's kinda a lot when all put together 🙈 #I thought maybe I could finish typing up what I have of my recent vegaspete AU #its a super indulgent time travel a/b/o shifterd thingy with outsider pov - Nops in this first part #and so I could maybe have something to finally post sometime soon and motivate me to write some more #but I can't focus on that #Ive also thought of maybe gaming a bit #Id actually like to check out Cyberpunk with this new 2.0 update #but again it feels like anytime I try to occupy myself with something my brain goes into alarm mode ughhh #this stressing business is so useless and unproductive why isnt there a switch to it I could just flip and turn it off?? #ughhhhh anyway #Im just venting dont mind me #hoped putting it down in some way shape or form would help but will it work? prob not 😂😪 #vent #rant

[orcelito]

Submitting myself to physical therapy for my cringefail shoulders bc I remembered it's a muscle problem, aka something that can possibly be fixed, SO

On the 16th, I am starting physical therapy again 💪

#speculation nation #same place i went to back in 2022. tho a different problem. #my insurance company's gotta be gettin sick of me scheduling so much shit 😂😂😂 #but it is the year of Unfuck My Life!!! even if my life continues to try to fuck itself for me!!!!! #so im in therapy again and im getting new glasses and i have a doctor's appointment end of june And new PT #AND i am also still keeping up with my dentist appointments!!! #look at Me the absolute picture of health #i really do hope they can help me with my shoulders bc this has been a problem for most of my adult life #and it kinda really does suck 😅 #PT sucks ass but it really did fix my lower back pain problems (Most of the time. sometimes it flares. but it's Mostly gone.) #ill take a Mostly better but sometimes flares with my shoulders. pretty fucking please. #scheduled it for later next week bc im busy this week. but then i will be doing biweekly appointments #i am the pina colada of fucking health. look at me go

[britneyshakespeare]

He won't leave my fucking friends alone.

#tales from diana #sorry this is about that bad friend i have to break up w that ive posted abt on and off the past couple weeks/months maybe #i still have to send him that final 'i dont wanna speak to you ever again' #ive been fucking busy ok. my summer has been full of family events and obligations #i have one brother getting married and the other having a baby!!! i have a LIFE and SHIT TO DO and PPL TO BE THERE FOR other than YOU!!! #i havent spoken to him in over 2 months too and he knows it's bc i don't want to #he's so difficult bc you can't fucking tell him the truth. you can't!!! he can't handle it!!! do you know how hard it is to handle??? #the things i have to do to cut him off. because he doesn't respect normal fucking boundaries. make ME feel like im in the wrong #like im the shady person and the liar. #i can't drift from him bc hell pull me back #i can't communicate w him bc he won't hear anything i have to say he'll just turn it around & make it abt himself. #he literally does not understand ppl having motivations to do things that don't relate to him #and he has no sympathy for what he does to other ppl. nothing but self-pity for how they don't like him anymore. #if he dealt w someone who put him through half of what he put ME through. no he couldn't actually. #i only allowed him to manipulate me for so long because i cared abt him. who i thought he was. #and he just point blank period doesn't care about other ppl. so he could never go through what ive gone through w him. #i feel like all this friend breakup has proven to me is that im actually a good person and it can be used against me by ppl who arent #some fucking lesson i needed to learn huh? #i hate feeling as negatively towards anyone as i do towards him. it's so hard for me not to have at least #a little spark of hope deep down for everyone. even ppl ive removed from my life before. i dont HATE them #theyve disappointed me or insulted me or mistreated me but at least their motivations seemed simple and clear #and MOST of them seemed to understand SOMEWHAT that they were in the wrong #even if they don't admit it to me or still find an excuse to hate me. whatever #i can see them as ppl who might feel remorse someday and grow from it #i do not see it in this guy. bc if you have a problem w him he'll only make it 20 times worse. #he's so selfish it genuinely baffles me to think about it. and he's one of the least honest ppl ive ever known. #he'll never see the error of his ways. i do not believe he has that capacity. #and will i say none of this to him? no #im just going to say thanks for leaving me alone these past couple months. it's been good for me. #i don't think i can continue our friendship anymore for my own sake.

[27-royal-teas]

im so fucking done. I think im going crazy.

#someone needs to let me out of my brain #i miss being stressed because when i was stressed at least i was too busy to THINK #now i have too much time and im always sad or angry and my friends dont want to hang out with me because they’re having too much fun #and its hot outside and i want to claw off my skin and my entire family’s trying to force me to go vegitarian and if i say i dont want to #then im selfish because we’re doing it for dads health!!! but also if i fall into diet culture again i might not make it out!!!!!!!!! #and my brother’s always obsessing about the food i eat and what I eat and how much of it i eat and is it too much to be LEFT ALONE. #WHY CANT I BE GRADUATING THIS YEAR. I WANT TO DIE #im so fucking done i am so tired of being sad and its only going to get worse because 80% of my friends #are GRADUATING in two weeks!!!!!! #fuck!!!!!!! #vent #delete later

[wtfspocks]

reblog, like, or read this post if I should quit my job

#do I have another lined up? #no #am I on the verge of insanity? #yes #I could focus more on my small business #which isn’t as reliable #but it also doesn’t make me want to kill my self #i have so much shit going on in my brain #the part 8 months I have given #ALL of myself into all this shit that keeps happening #and I don’t have anything left #I am empty and dead inside #not to mention #I’ve been bleeding for 5 FUCKING WEEKS STRAIGHT #IM GOING INSANE

[firebuug]

checked my bank account 8262848585 dead 15 injured

#WHAT DO YOU MEAN I HAVE 3 DOLLARS. #ITS THE FUCKING SUBSCRIPTIONSSS BUT I NEED A SUBSCRIPTION TO KEEO MT ART FILES BACKED UP AND A MUSIC SUBSCRIPTION OR ILL KILL MYSELF #im going to go insane. and the gas money. and the food. and the pair of earrings and trinkets i got from ren fair because if i #came home with nothing for my last ren fair and my friends came home with a lot of stuff id kill myself of jealousy. #BEING ILL ISRUINING MY LIIIDE #how am i going to survive in the real world if i cant make 40 dollars last a WEEK #my friends need to stopctaking me places im so broke but i cant say no bc if i dont hang out with my friends when they go out i will end it. #GEAHHHHHHHHHH #WOLRD PLEASE BE NICE TO ME PLEAAASEEEE IM UNEMPLOYED AND IM SO SO TIRED AND BUSY ALL THE TIME #i need to start my commissions this week but literally every time i have free time im too tired and use it to lie down and scroll or i get #fixated on literally anything else i need to STOPPPP I NEED DISCIPLINE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #yelling into the void complete. i wil lgo on to change nothing about this becaude i have no discipline #vent #txt #delete later

[rillette]

Any fun facts about kilowog? He is like an uncle to me

Kilowog is really fucking smart!! i feel like people tend to forget that bc he's pretty down to earth. He used to be a geneticist back on Bolovax Vik, before it exploded. Bolovax Vik was super populated and the Bolovaxians share a mind link, so Kilowog is a pretty social person. He's also super good with mechanics!! Kilowog hung around the JLI embassy for a bit and did some mechanics work. Him and Guy were pen pals back in the 80s, when Guy was with the JLI and Kilowog was at the GL hype house on earth. Kilowog and Guy are besties ^_^

#asks <3 #ty for the ask!! #i will be honest i kinda skim read the parts where kilowog happened to be introduced bc engelhart's run was physically painful to read #smth smth communism is the closest thing earth has to bolovax vik so kilowog ditched the hype house to go hang out with russians??? #and then that almost started ww3 or smth IDK man that run fucking sucked for a variety of reasons #sorry this took me like a week to get to LOL. id say i was busy but i was literally just bingewatching cw the flash #im on. season two now in case u guy were wondering. it's still really bad. why is jay there and why is he young. #this show is not good you guys should read the flash (not geoff's run) and then watch the show for like. maximum whiplash.

[pigeon-splice]

im back to doing this

i'm really really obsessed with little talks, the song. like a lot. also i just really like this image. its a pleasant day at the beach and there's a house in the ocean for some reason

For this one i tried to use only the default dry brushes. i only use the same 5 brushes even if they dont work for my purpose and maybe i need to find brushes that do things that my favorite brushes dont do

also for bd2 anni i'm going to take it easy and do something just with a boat so this was good practice

I'll be back with another one of these real soon. Its of the Gambler because its a cover that also i really like.

#also my husband is out of town so i need to keep myself busy or else i'll get very sad #also i apparently have adhd. i'm not joshing i got the piece of paper with the official diagnosis a week ago #and that whole process and implications was/are stressing me the fuck out which is why i have not been painting #but im back and im going to try to take better care of my mental health ;_;