#im just gonna get another cat and suffer

[andy-clutterbuck]

Rick Grimes in The Ones Who Live | 1x05 - Become

#HE #Rick Grimes #The Ones Who Live #towl spoilers #* #rg #*looks at tag* #1000% Husband Material #richard pls #im just gonna get another cat and suffer #ok? ok #where are your tasteful noods richard #asking 4 a friend #im the friend #them pecs boy #excuse me but The Nose™ #i would like to know how he keeps getting better looking #HOW #i bet he's a witch #with the soda can pls

[jade-len]

gonna be reading the husky and his white cat shizun vol 1 for the first time, so i've decided to humiliate my future self by making predictions based on the summary or whatever rn. feel free to laugh at me if i get things terribly wrong

just based on the cover, im thinking mo ran was this determined, loyal, and playful guy maybe? awfully trusting? idk he just kinda gives off jokingly smug energy and is probably un serious most of the time which gets on the other guy's nerves. or, he's just. super dedicated. though maybe he's a little overbearing with it?

in the extra picture, his shizun has this armor arm (but not on the cover?), which, to me, implies that something pretty wack happens, leaving him needing to replace it with that badass magic steel limb. mayyybeee this happened in mo ran's old life already or this is a new thing that surprises him

probably really looked up to his quiet shizun, who can be quite easy to annoy (mo ran annoys him to no end because of his constant yapping idk) but would never actually lay a hand on his disciples? or just be pretty light compared to the other shizuns either bc he prefers to use other ways as punishment or doesn't feel the need to for one reason or another. elegant and refined, but maybe a little lazy. he doesn't really look like the type of person to go out of their way to punish or fight

something happened that was actually just this huge misunderstanding or his shizun had to do something pretty fucked which led mo ran into complete despair, being betrayed by his teacher (trust and abandonment issues? yes please). before, he had a crush on his shizun but didn't really realize it? but now he couldn't care less than to create this super elaborate revenge plan, those unknown feelings either buried or wiped clean away

mo ran was low-key depressed after becoming emperor because it purely just to fuck with his shizun and make things terrible and out of spite or whatever. so then he ended his life because nothing was going his way, expecting to be happy with his path of revenge. but now that he's back in time, he goes, "oh i should play it smarter this time, now that i know of my shizun's true nature! i'll get him back. maybe if i get rid of him early, then i wont have to suffer longer. i'll also get revenge on everyone else earlier!" or smth like that idk

but of course, his plans kinda get fucked and slowly he starts seeing sides to his shizun that he didn't see before bc he heavily idolized him in his past life, ignoring everything else. his newfound hatred has kinda brought a new perspective? which is surprisingly helpful but also not, since he's now villainizing his every move and is super distrustful.. straight up in denial about his shizun's good deeds. maybe mo ran will instinctually save him at one point and beat himself over it, or his shizun will save him even though he really, REALLY had no reason to/actively went out of his way which really messes up mo ran's feelings.

anyways, i'll be off to read it now. we shall see how wrong i am lmao

#im gonna get things terribly wrong i know #idk what else to expect besides that im just yapping #expecting this to be much more serious than svsss #no dick jokes here alright.... #looking at u cumplane #i think itd be a cool plot twist if his shizun actually time traveled back in time too/remembered everything #and was nicer to mo ran or whatever. tryna prevent his death n stuff #or because he doesnt want mo ran to become a tyrant #so things change.....? #and then mo ran finds out and he thinks 'that fucker only changed bc of this and that not bc he actually cared abt me' #yeah idk #im a little too used to svsss #lol #mo ran #chu wanning #the husky and his white cat shizun #2ha #2ha novel

[thesecondrabbithole]

springtrap stuff

im like. thinking about my fnaf au with springtrap bc he’s a fantastic zombie rabbit furry with a lot of problems

so I’m gonna subject to you all with some facts and hcs

during the time he was springlocked, William had already injected himself with remnant which kept him alive and in a bit of a dreamlike state and in constant pain at the same time

springtrap goes into like a void?? his brain still functions even hours after getting springlocked and with the added remnant coursing through him, it forces him into a place where he relieves certain memories of his life

it goes back in forth, where one moment he’s remembering the first time creating the diner and cut back into another memory of his childhood

however these little flashes occur less as springtrap goes back to experiencing the pain of being impaled in every single possible way

remnant is not the only thing that keeps him alive, it is also his sheer will to survive and his anger/vengeance like this man refuses to die and continue to be angry (his agony, emotions are very strong)

over the years, the suffering and anger just kind of melts his mind a lil bit and he becomes more feral (he’s still william afton just a lot more,,,angry cat)

bro also has mushrooms growing on him

springtrap has tons of mycelium (thread like filaments) within him that basically suck out the nutrients of his body

shadow bonnie, in charge of keeping him in bay, eases him (I also have an idea that she’s the one to bring him good memories too as a way for him to move on kind of how in the frights books where jake is able to leave the stitchwraith body via remembering good memories)

that doesn’t work oopsies

springtrap has stitches all over his body, some were made by shadow bon or by himself in order to keep himself together (he made those after escaping the closed room and the horror attraction)

he absolutely loathes crows

the birds keep coming back to take a piece what’s left of his rotten corpse and at one point, many of them flocked towards him in such a violent manner he has ptsd from it that he reacts really aggressively at the sight or even mention of them

springtrap thinks quite highly of himself since he was able to cheat death

he’s no longer william afton he’s something MORE not the man he used to be, william is of the past now

but deep down hes pretty conflicted with it, since after living for so long he kinda just wants to end it all (tho his fear of death, i hc that springtrap is terrified at the prospect of it, prevents him)

he’s a gaslight gatekeep girlboss

springtrap sometimes loves toying with his victims but only if he considers them to be enough for his time and effort

other times he just kills them just for the remnant

he misses his family and henry more than he likes to admit it

he adores his wife very much!! but keeps trying to convince himself she’s just going to be in the way (she’s the identity of shadow bonnie btw)

doesn’t actually hate michael but is still angry due to the bite of 83 and the fires

#fnaf #springtrap #gonna do more definitely #tumblr finally works and now I can dump all the lore and stuff aaaa #william afton

[nhularin]

OT7 ★

crack! headcanons

bf! Text messages

bf! Text messages pt.2

bf! insta stories

enha as newjeans songs

SOUR PROM

SERIES

hey reddit! AITA...

hyung line x reader

→ in which four idiotic lovesick men try to find comfort in a shitty app after their break up. but! what happens when you find their burner account?

HEESEUNG ᵎᵎ

Hes cool! But...

→ OR : three things that make you question your relationship

cool with you

-> you loved him, and always will.

do you get deja vu when shes with you?

-> nothing hurts more than seeing lee heeseung doing the stuff you both used to do with another girl. Watching him wrap his jacket around her, playing the same song you both liked around her. everything, from the way he touches her, gives her gifts, was a carbon copy of your relationship. does he get deja vu when he’s with her?

HEADCANONS

boyfriend heeseung who...

JAY ᵎᵎ

HES COOL! BUT....

→ OR : three things that make you question your relationship

im not gonna be the one to get hurt

→ right person, wrong time, and a lot of miss communication

1 step forward, 3 steps back

-> you had to describe your park jongsaeng in one word, it'd be unpredictable. he was a gentleman, absolutely selfless when it came to his loved ones. somehow you seem to be the only exception. you didn't understand then, and you sure as hell don't understand now.

downpour.

JAKE ᵎᵎ

Forever, always (soulmate! au)

→ In this tale of destiny, two souls longed for that extraordinary connection

SHAME GAME

smau, coming soon!

→ yn has no ambitions. Except for graduating and getting as far away from this mess of a town as quick as possible. With too much free time and an oh so annoying teacher coming at her back, she signs up to be the broadcaster of the Basketball club. Only problem is: she suffers from chronic shit talking and Jake Sim is having none of it!!

you dont even know my name do ya?

-> in which jake is head over heels with that cute barista

HEADCANONS

hes COOL! BUT...

-> OR : three things that make you question your relationship

SUNGH00N ᵎᵎ

Perfect duo

→ when sunghoon forgot his lines, you just know what to do

WHATS YOUR ETA?

→ your friends have warned you about him, will you listen to them now?

GET UP

written series

→ A mage who struck himself and a heroine who couldn't defeat her inner monster

ENOUGH FOR YOU

-> you tried everything, you really did. as the school's hottest student, park sunghoon was in constant spotlight, might it be with classmates or being the light of the party. and for that, you did your best at making your presence worthy in his life. but deep down, you knew you couldn't compete with the girls who seemed much better than you, people who are enough for him

DRABBLE

Bloodlust

HEADCANONS

boyfriend sunghoon who.....

SUN00 ᵎᵎ

oh my, oh my god!

→ your friends are curious about the mysterious guy you've been seeing. well! today's not the day!

JUNGW0N ᵎᵎ

WHATS AFTER LIKE ?! y.jw

Idol SMAU !

→ Life is not easy as a rookie and you know that! After going viral with your fancam you have gained not only the attention of the public but also that of Enhypens cat like leader. What happens if you wake up one day with your names trending on twt ?!

late night shenanigans

→ two lovers enjoying their presence in the glistening moonlight

oh, say it ditto

→ you love him, you really do, but does he feel the same? or in which you hope for his words of affirmations

HEADCANONS

BOYFRIEND JUNGWON WHO...

NI-KI ᵎᵎ

perfect sacrifice

→ niki realizing that despite the hardships, he will alwas have someone by his side

oceans away

→ young love doesn't always last, but the memories do

you got me looking for attention

→ you had done all you could to subtly show your affection, and yet, it seemed he remained oblivious to your efforts

EGOIST

-> "show the world whar a real egoist looks like, nishimura"

TUMBLR.COM

smau, fluff

-> being a writer is hard, especially when you're a hardcore stan on tumblr.com. so when the legendary niki writer disappeared out of the blue, the readers were naturally heartbroken! but! what happens when their beloved nishirikithinker got revealed as THE yn of the hot new girl group?!

HEADCANONS

boyfriend niki who...

#٠ ࣪⭑ navi

[seth-burroughs]

benefits of being yomi kin:

makes me twice as cool and sexy and automatically makes me the objectively correct authority on Yomi's character it is impossible for me to be wrong and if u tell me im wrong ill start scream crying on the floor

won kin lottery and is capable of distinguishing between Yomi Hellsmile the character and Yomi Hellsmile The Character allowing me to both quite literally be that guy and keep another version of him as my blorbo. Manifesting in the ability of fantasizing bout yomi suffering iykwim AND getting past the masochist allegations <3 Also yeah the Yomi fic is currently in works no I will not answer questions on it

this yaoihellsmile shit is sooo easy someone asks me "ouuuyy honey unwrangle my dingle in ur boioioiong and by sproingle well heh lets jsut say. my peanits. any thoughts on that mr yaoi?" and i just answer honestly straight from the heart no bullshit no rp skillz required

woaghhhhhh......... Former director of the peacekeepers homunculus clone Yomi Hellsmile from Master Detective Archives: Rain Code by Spike Chunsoft........ holy shshshit. He's Real......

disadvantages of being yomi kin:

the regular bullshittery that comes free with being fictionkin of any kind cut my wife into pieces this is my last divorce

everybody and their mom hates Yomi and even if the tag here is way less outright aggressive and I can just easily block anyone who makes me uncomfortable in any capacity, youtube is just unusable. Just. AuUUUghhhh. I know one of my fave dr youtubers is gonna play mdarc this year and I also know he's gonna absolutely hate Yomi with a passion and frequently pause the game to talk about how terrible he his yes we get it you are allowed to have opinions on fictional characters and aren't doing anything wrong by it whatever im gonns look up yomi softcore on pixiv fuka u

overly complicates my already fucked sense of self

Blood cravings got even worse😔 bad BAD this isn't sustenance it's toxic as hell christ dude STOP❗❗

not extremely likely but still very possible nightmare scenario where the precipitation cipher gets Big attracting those people and getting bombarded with kinnie jokes and annoying Ironic Kin For Fun crowd finding its way here. And that is the at best scenario, the worst one is 2015 kin drama reignited in 2020s you can't "kin" this character unless you're x or x, you can absolutely control who you're kin with and if i don't like your very voluntary choice you should stop (just stop man <3 i won't tell you how the fuck 😊) being fictionkin with a sinful evil abuser linux user makes you a bad person that deserves to be ostracized and harassed until you unlearn your problematic ways oh my god do any of you remember 2015 warrior cat kin drama what the fuck was that. i wasn't around in danganronpa fandom during that time but im pretty sure it may have been even worse there which is insane to even think about. but i mean like hey at least fictionkin were taken (mostly.) seriously back then (albeit considered deeply cringe by the masses) and not reduced to a cheap komaeda kinnies amiright joke

i suffered more than jesus actually. the demotion and arrest was SUPER unfair and cringe guys i promise im not gonna torture people from now on you can trust me in a position of power please please please no one did it like i did it

EJ MARTINA DZIE MIE KURWA WYWIEŹLI CO TO ZA ZADUPIE MARTINA. MARTINA NIE WYTRZYMAM JUŻ WEŹ HELIKOPTER I MIE KURWA ZABIERZ Z TEGO CHLEWU MAM DOŚĆ POMOCY <- wygnany do Rzeczypospolitej za swoje zbrodnie😔

Yomi is Real (threatening)

#fictionkin coming out post #mom... dad... I'm Yomi He-[GETS IMMEDATELLY TRANSPORTED VIA A POLICE VAN TO THE NEAREST PRISON COMPLEX] #Would youy still lobe me if I. martina cube incident yakouver incident blank week murder spree incident meatbun incident former ceo incide- #mine #rain code #yomi hellsmile

[sleepis4theweak]

(Anon who asked for a hug earlier)

Warning sad pet stuff

So I have a cat who is literally the sweetest cat EVER and I love him so much! (We as in me and my family) We found him as a stray and he literally jumped in our car it was amazing. Every time we come home he jumps on our shoulders and purrs he absolutely loves all people.

We’ve had him for almost 3yrs and now he’s dying…

he has some medical thingy that stops him from peeing (it only happens to male cats) and I had another cat who died of the same thing.

We noticed it on a Friday and the vet was closed… by the time we could take him to the vet it was Monday and he could barley move his head.

When we took him to the vet to get the surgery the doctors said he should be fine… then we got a phone call saying he might not survive sedation because his kidneys were failing. But! He survived the surgery (yay!) thennn there were more complications. He’s currently alive but in a lot of pain and still can’t pee

We visited him yesterday (keep in mind this cat absolutely LOVES people and gets so excited when he sees us after like 2hrs and we hadn’t seen him in 3 or 4 DAYS) and… he didn’t even acknowledge us he had pain meds so he was kinda out of it . He looked awful and I hated seeing him like that.

They said he would hopefully be fine today but we got another phone call saying he hasn’t improved.

The doctor doesn’t know what to do and neither do we.

I think the only thing we could do is try the surgery again or put him down…

SO I HATE IT IM SO SAD BC HES IN SO MUCH PAIN AND IF WE PUT HIM DOWN HES JUST BEEN SUFFERING FOR A WHOLE WEEK FOR NOTHING AND IF WE GO WITH THE SURGERY (which I think we are doing) THEN HES GONNA SUFFER MORE AND IT MIGHT NOT EVEN WORK (sry for the caps lock)

And every time I think about coming home from a vacation or something and him not being there to jump up on my shoulders and give me a hug I start crying.

So uhm… thanks for the hug ;-;

(I’ll be fine it’s just kinda stressful and sad at the moment also thank you for letting me talk about this)

That sounds really difficult, it can be really hard to loose a pet. And it sounds like the two of you were really close as well.

I really hope that talking helped a little bit.

I'm sending you many hugs! Your cat sounds absolutely amazing, the sweetest! I'm sending him so much love as well <3

#There's not really anything that I can say to make this better #And I know that; so I hope talking about it made you feel a little better :) #<3 <3 <3 #answered asks #tw pet loss

[morethanmeetstheass]

alright, let's do the lowdown of "where the fuck has suna been all this time." probably gonna be long so ill put a keep reading, but tldr: life got bad, life got better, im working on existing in fandom space again

SO. i cant remember the last time i posted, so let's start at where shit went bad. 2020 baby, the rona hit, i graduated college virtually, lost my job, and ended up having to move to another state bc new jobs were so hard to come by. started anew down here in maryland, though a little worse for wear bc i went from living with my 4 best friends to having exactly 0 friends. very isolating, no fun. got cats, one of them died, so that didn't help at all.

fandom-wise, iacon online was both a huge benefit in my life and a huge pain. a lot of stress and misery went into that convention, but a whole lot of good came from running it. i ended up getting the chance to do 3 covers for idw, which was a massive blessing. became friends with multiple members of the cybertronic spree, made new friends with other organizers, got to accidentally roast james roberts to his face.

but it was also very stressful, and admittedly, my love for transformers did a huge swell and then took a big hit. i spiraled into a weird pit of having no interest in anything, lost interest in writing my fic, and started exploring other parts of my life. especially when idw lost the license to transformers, because fuck, now if i want to do covers again, i gotta make MORE connections. i was just very tired and burnt out. started hating all my artwork and despising how i was drawing for validation instead of passion.

sort of accidentally became a prominent creator on tik tok, so i got to explore other parts of my life that got lost in the transformers shuffle. got a new job working remotely, adopted another cat, things were looking up. then my apartment had a fire and i spiraled again, even worse. my mental health still hasn't recovered. it is a miracle that my belongings, health, and pets were ok, but i didnt even feel safe in my own home anymore. still struggling with it almost a year later, even in a new apartment. its been hard.

but i was shuffling on spotify today and stumbled onto my blitzbee playlist, and i got a little twinge in my tummy. i miss transformers. i dont miss being completely consumed by it, but i want to reintroduce myself to the fandom, start making mecha art again, as well as other art.

and i swear on my life, i WILL finish my fic. even after all this time, i still read all the comments i get on roe, on aufn, and especially kwz. i see how many of you want me to finish it, and i want to too. and i will. itll just take me some time to reintroduce myself to the fandom, to get comfortable with creating out of a place of love rather than out of a place of need for external validation. roe was a passion project, and its so clear with how much it was loved. it was good bc it was made out of a place of excitement, out of me genuinely wanting to share the story, not just wanting the likes and kudos. and im feeling that passion again. not 100% just yet, but i am.

so yeah, thats the deal. life has settled. still suffering with post traumatic stress from the fire and trying to feel safe in my space again, but im improving. im finding love for transformers again. im finding love for a lot of things again, and i dont want to box myself into one passion or the other. im a lot of things and i want to give myself space to love all of the things that i love. and robots are one of those things, but not the only one.

blitzbee forever. i will die a dirty bee kinnie and a blitzy simp.

#suna speaks

[ill-say-this-fast]

Hi! Idk if you're still taking scarletsilver/maxicest asks but I'll just shoot my shot I guess.

Idk if I'm alone in this or not but one of my biggest maxicest headcanons is that if Wanda didn't magically create her twin babies... she still would have had them... with Pietro. (Ya know what I mean).

I know, I know, I know. There's plenty of reasons why it sounds illogical. BUT! I feel like if Wanda never loved Vision (or just said "frick it" and just elopes with her brother) or if she really really REALLY wanted to have babies (the 'traditional' way) and asked Pietro... you know that man is 1000% gonna go with whatever his beloved sister wants whether he likes it or not.

Another reason why is because I want them to raise my boys Thomas/Tommy and William/Billy. Especially our lil speed. Baby boy deserves all the nice things. We already see how Wanda interacts with her boys as their mother-not-mother. But imagine if Pietro was their actual dad and how he would interact with the boys?? So many possibilitiessss

And if Wanda and Pietro did raise them, they would also train/mentor Billy and Tommy with their powers early on which would probably make them more powerful or at least more in control in their powers.

Anyways, sorry for the rant! Just wanna know what you'd think of this headcanon of mine and anything you'd like to add really! :)))

I'm never not taking asks, thanks for sending this!

i love having them all as a family. for tommy especially. the kaplans are good parents, but tommy never got to have that and that sucks because wanda loved him so much the whole time and ughh they could have been happy. i would love more wanda and tommy stuff in canon or otherwise. but i also love pietro being more a part of tommys life. not sure if pietro is more competitive or concilliatory with him? bit of both probably. seeing himself in tommy and whether that creates friction or pride or pity.

like in 616 i feel like they have major old cat vs new hyperactive kitten energy and idk if that would be the same if pietro helped raise him from birth but i do love it. pietro's slightly put-on long suffering exasperation and tommy's overwhelming need to annoy this one guy in particular but underneath pietro's really fond of him and tommy's looking for attention and for someone to appreciate him and care that he exists. but they should also get to have stupid fun at high speeds (and together cause i imagine its usually pretty isolating).

in 616 i go with the headcanon that billy and tommy are pietros genetically, like wanda made them as if they were his, but it was still done magically and he just had to see it from afar. theyre the children she always imagined having, the ones she really wanted. so i have no qualms about just making them fully biologically his in AUs, its the way the rebirths and subsequent life experiences affect their personalities that i have to work around.

im working on (slowly) a 616 post childrens crusade fic where the two of them sort of readopt tommy. and they form this kind of nuclear family but dont talk to each other about it really because theyre all afraid the others will reject it. 100% happy ending they get the family they were supposed to have eventually.

also something i probably wont write but have as an idea. a very lighthearted fox xmen au where billy and tommy exist and theyre like 12-14 and pietro (peter i guess) has to keep juggling his job of Saving the World(tm) with dealing with whatever bullshit the boys have done. like the phoenix force is out of control and we need to do something to stop jean from destroying the world, but billy really wanted to see a dinosaur and now theres a time rift in the garden and pietro cannot let his coworkers find out about his children and their godlike powers, so he's bouncing between some really deep placatory conversation with jean and trying to find enough cages to put all the velociraptors in before wanda gets home and finds the house in a mess.

#im not getting alerts for asks dont know whats up with that but i will always reply to them when i see them :) #maxicest #txt post #billy #tommy #answered

[beachdemonkira]

i have a thyroid tumour. the doctors have given me 2 ultrasounds and a biopsy and they say its not cancer. i basically have nothing to worry about. for now. what if it is cancer? i know i'm gonna die someday but what if my days are gonna be cut short, to 6 months to a year? then what do i do?

what happens after i die?

i always act like a dramatic bitch by crying "i wanna die" whenever i'm just feeling bad. i need to stop. because i'm a natural living organism. my undeniable fear of death is hard-wired into me.

my main hope is that dying doesn't hurt. i want death to feel like sleeping on the couch at a family party as a child, and having my mom carry me to my bed and tucking me in and kissing me goodnight. i hope death feels like that. that's comforting and reassuring to think about.

i hope there isn't total nothingness after death. death is a ceasing of brain function. what will i see? nothing? how will i know what it feels like? idk. i probably won't care at all. i won't be suffering or scared, or angry, or depressed, or anguished at all. or happy. or anytging. i'll just be... nothing. its scary. but at least there's no suffering. i think. i hope.

if there's a hell after i die, im gonna take my clothes off and run away from the devil, the demon masters chaining us up, i'll run away and go for a swim in the lake of fire. if i'm in hell forever, i'm sure i'd get used to it after a while and call it home. i'm definitely gonna see some old friends of mine there.

if there's a heaven after i die, it'd be the same. i'd see some familiar faces in the happiest most blissful eternal realm ever, but i'd get bored of it quickly i imagine. but it is nice to think about.

reincarnation? :D oh boy. correct me if i'm wrong but i heard the Hindu tradition says that the soul you have now is passed onto another animal's life, where your life ends, you start a new one as a new animal. which sounds pretty sweet. the concept of anatman says i think, that there is no "self". just consciousness at this moment, socially ingrained behaviour, the body, physical touch sensations and feeling. form, perception, consciousness, fabrication, and feeling, all impermanent. these sensations are carried over into the next life. which sounds pretty sweet. Ship of Theseus.

i want to be a cat bathing in the sun in a nice apartment. or a monkey foraging for fruit in a jungle, climbing trees n shit. chances are i'll be reincarnated as bacteria and bugs a million times before i turn into a multicellular mammalian being, due to the sheer volume of mammals, insects, and bacteria in the world. but still. nice to think there'll be something new to experience after all this.

what if when i die, there's a tiny undetectable part of my brain that lingers on, that allows me to experience my decomposition underground for thousands of years? what if i get to ever-so-slightly feel my flesh and my bones slowly decomposing into the soil surrounding me, my corporeal form becoming one with the mycelium and plant matter surrounding it? what if i get to feel my bones and flesh metamorphose into grass, trees, massive fungal systems, constantly repeating the life/death cycle, over and over again?

or if i get cremated, cuz i'm dead i'm likely not gonna feel it in any way, but at least i get to think about what happens to this body i inhabit. i'm turned into ashes. my family takes my ashes over to Seattle. my ashes are spread across the great vast blue Puget Sound. my corporeal form, this little insignificant, only body i have, which can only be in one place at a time, is now the size of an entire body of water. the individual particles of ash making up my body spreading out farther and farther as time goes on forever. the ash that was once my arms, my legs, my penis, my eyes, my teeth, my heart, my brain, it's all dust. and it all goes into the water, becoming one with it. some of it will stay near the shore, others will hit the shore of other places, like the San Juan islands, maybe Alaska, maybe east Asia, Australia, Aotearoa, or just.... floating all over the water, the great ocean, forever and ever, until the planet gets eaten up by the sun. then my atomic molecular particles will become one with the Sun, the same Sun that gave me life and warmth and light. once my Sun body blows up, it will be a great big supernova. cosmic stardust forever. the stardust going who knows where.

despite my potential loss of consciousness after my bodily death, despite it all, my physical form will go other places. if i can't be reincarnated as something new, the flesh house i inhabit now will become something so much greater. so much bigger. so infinite. eventually, i will live up to my About Me post.

i will never die.

I WILL NEVER DIE!

#thoughts #rant #afterlife #philosophy?

[bubblingstream]

been wanting to make another warriors blog for a while but i finally caved after writing up stuff about my new ocs and not knowing where to post it. im just copypasting this directly from an info dump i made so it's not extremely well organised LMAO but here are said OC ideas :]] im probably gonna spend quite a bit of time on this blog just building on them and drawing them tbh. that's the plan anyway

so imagine a cat becomes a medicine cat apprentice, and when they finally go to meet starclan at the moonpool instead of like.. awe, wonder, admiration etc. this idea of all powerful godly ancestors that can apparently predict fate and maybe even control it according to some cats, and watches them constantly.. fucking TERRIFIES this cat. like he is absolutely shitting his pants level afraid and he becomes gradually extremely paranoid about it all. he tries to keep doing the medicine cat stuff but eventually begs his leader to let him just become a warrior to try and get away from it as much as possible. and it helps but not.. a lot? hes still afraid and struggling.

it also turns out he's also had a pretty rough lot in life up til now, which doesnt help bc if these starclan cats control everything why has he suffered so much? what did he do to deserve it? bad things continues to happen and he questions it more and more. he feels like hes watched constantly and even like hes being punished for something he did, even though he doesnt know what his crime actually was. this makes things even worse.

at some point because of all this he runs off maybe? but he misses his family and clan and he also feels watched still no matter where he goes. and maybe something horrible happens to someone he cares for while hes gone and he blames himself for it because he left and thinks starclan decided to hurt his loved ones for it. so he becomes afraid to even leave the clans and doesnt attempt to run away again.

mind you, in the meantime starclan hasnt caused ANY of this. the things that happen are unfortunate coincidences. but he has no idea and after actually seeing what to clan cats basically counts as God Himself™️ hes a wreck. the books always show meeting starclan as a positive experience but i feel like it's something youd need at least some level of willpower for. youd need the right mindset. not just anyone can become a medicine cat and communicate with their ancestors. it's a big deal and some cats ,id think, just wouldnt be able to do it.

hes called whisperingstorm, he has a littermate called bubblingstream. his mother had other litters so he has many siblings but that's the one he knows best and grew up with. he also has an older brother maybe. dovesomething im thinking. bubbling has his own set of issues but im still figuring out how to make that work. another litter in his family is two more kits who are gonna have matching names, this serves to contrast bubbling and whispering who have conflicting names (they have rather different personalities but they also just. dont get along despite bubblings initial efforts to bond with whispering). bubbling as in excitable and upbeat, then when he grew up stream became his suffix bc hes actually rather.. not that basically. yknow how when ppl picture streams they see a calm, gentle stream that some would consider a relaxing visual? like that, as well as their family having a water/weather theme to their names. hes quiet and slow worded, not much to say. compare whispering, something quiet and soft, then when he got older his suffix became storm because of his explosive, high energy and honestly aggressive personality. so not only do they oppose each other in personality, their birth names themselves wouldve better suited them if theyd been swapped around as those are juxtapositions as well. whispering is loud and aggressive, bubbling is quiet and softspoken.

the reason whispering and bubbling dont get along is cause.. well, whispering is a prick, to be blunt. but hes like this as an active attempt to push people away bc of trust issues. he cares a lot about bubbling, he just also thinks anyone being close to him = him inflicting his 'bad luck'/'curse' (see: STARCLAN IS OUT TO GET ME) on others.

eventually it works and bubbling gives up trying to support his brother for his own sake because whispering goes anywhere from mildly mean to downright verbally abusive trying to get bubbling to go away and the guy cant really keep dealing with that. and whispering hates himself for it but he got what he aimed for so.. yeah.

not sure where im going next with this but i want. drama. but not murder. none of them are gonna be murdery. it's a very family issues and trauma and mental health kind of theme i want going on here. yeah someone will probably die bc that's just kinda a given in the clans but not from killing. i can enjoy warriors ocs that go and kill cats for one reason or another but between them and canon i want something different for once, and this is what i want to create to achieve that. plus running off somewhere and coming back to find out, say, a family member died of greencough or something? it's harder to pin a blame on anything material there. as opposed to a cat from a different clan outright killing them in battle or something.

this is where my blog url came from as you can all guess lol. that's all for now while i finalise things like the names of their other siblings, make solidified designs and come up with more stuff.

#my ocs #bubblingstream #whisperingstorm

[dromaeo-sauridae]

drop the spoilers of the bad stuff real

under cut incase anyone else cares about spoilers. im assuming you mean the stuff i mentioned before that was making me want to leave, it wasnt due to the movie itself it was really just stuff that i personally didnt want to watch and wasnt prepared for. read reviews and warnings before going to movies kids this was a doozy 👍 tw for animal abuse and experimentation

gotg3 goes in depth about rocket’s backstory, if you dont know he was part of a bunch of experiments. i closed my eyes for most of it cuz experimentation stuff especially on kids or animals grosses me out real bad. they go into it REAL HARD all throughout the movie, idk how much they actually showed but my mother and sister said there was a part where they mutate a turtle and its apparently really gross.

rocket has friends who were all experimented on as well and when he tries to break all of them out they all get killed. hes kept alive because of an anomaly in his brain(? im gonna be honest i was covering my ears, the sound was HORRIBLE it was so loud it gave me a headache so i had my eyes closed and ears covered at this point. thats why he managed to escape and survive, they didnt want to damage his brain).

the whole plot of the movie is the guy who did all this shit to rocket wants him back so he can have his brain, and while attempting to kidnap him rocket gets shot (or hit i couldnt tell, the whole scene was complete chaos and again i had my ears covered cuz FUCKING LOUD). theres multiple fairly graphic scenes where hes convulsing n shit, and they have no way to help him due to the guy (I CANT REMEMBER HIS NAME HES JUST THE GUY TO ME I NEVER READ THE COMICSSHSHAH) installing a kill switch on his heart so that if any surgery or anything gets done itll kill him.

it was bad enough to make me cry over a raccoon and i cant stand raccoons irl they make my skin crawl. but i always liked guardians and rocket was my favorite (i have two cats named rocket and groot. i love em) so watching this kinda sucked. i will say though, i havent watched a marvel movie since i think endgame and i havent been impressed with anything they do, but all of the stuff i couldnt watch aside (plus like 1 other thing)… its a good movie. i probably wouldnt watch it again and suffering through chris pratt being emo that his girlfriend lost her memories(???? I DONT REMEMBER THIS FROM ENDGAME BTW?? WAS THIS IN ANOTHER MOVIE) was really annoying, it was good. i liked the ending and was prepared to see rocket die horribly, which didnt happen thank GOD.

all that to say the VERY FIRST SCENE OF THE MOVIE made me so nauseous i almost threw up and seeing the part where rocket figures out that hes a raccoon made me cry. good movie probably wouldnt recommend

#people talking to me #im rereading this and god its rambly but im not gonna make it pretty idc enough #anyway tldr. rocket has a very bad time and it made roach upset 👍

[satoruhour]

GRAHHHHH T YOU'RE BACK !!!!!

*in geto voice* satoru...long time so see 🥺🥺🥺

i'm absolutely dying and tired like gawd i have a physics paper next week i completely forgot about bc i only remembered the CHEMical engineering and forgot i actually am not here to play mixing pot with the chemicals. My chem professor just went "nah your project isn't enough to make you suffer" proceeded to put 2 tests on the same day just two hours apart from each other like please i promise you this will not get you a wife that actually likes you. THEN HE ASSIGNS ANOTHER PROJECT- this one's independant and what not but im pissed since alr have a showcase i have to work for😭😭😭

n e ways i am so not ready my husband die next week like i smile when i see his pics then i remember what's gonna happen then i get sad and cry. at least i have the real version-

speaking of blondie, he took me to go see cats yesterday since i was stressing, there was an orange cat named Sanji it was so cuteee 😭we had dinner and fought over paying since it was a really nice restaurant. He as usual, sent me home and walked me to my dorm.

other than that, i'm doing great !!! how are you rn with exams coming up T.

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SORTAAAAA.... i hope your exams went well icy!!! 🥹❤️❤️ also ur chem prof sounds like a nightmare LMFAO that wife statemnt 😭😭😭😭😭 also the nanami ep.... how are you doing ... 🥹

aw im glad to hear the guy treating u well <333 he sounds like a gem, but also all the best to your showcase !!!!! 💟

#asks #❄️ anon

[maestro-of-clockwork]

[Oh this is gonna be one long ride, then-/j Im gonna try doing a more fast list about the Ocs here and how i imagine they would interact with Antonio, And maybe in the future im gonna do a more detailed version in rp or ooc (Tw of manipulation mention and also longass text)

Also all of these versions are like "Au" almost because their og version is your normal DHMIS goofy ahh bois Laurence - I've already showed a bit how much of an asshole he is and how he would interact with Tony in rp but oH GOD THERES SO MUCH MORE ABOUT HIM- If Lesley is the equal of a "God" to the puppet world, Then Laurence is the equal of literal Lucifer to them- Cunning, Puts himself high asf in a pedestal because he KNOWS he has much, much more power than anyone else, Wants to see everyone bow to him and Will play with your sanity like how a cat plays with a toy. But even thought he acts more "Nicer" normally, He is a lot more cruel and direct to the point when acting more agressive (aka he would totally place his feet on someone's head and squish it out of spite) OH AND I DIDNT EVEN TOUCH ON THE PART ABOUT HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH LINNA- THAT'S A WHOLE PIECE BY ITSELF- But explaining quickly how it is; It's him dangling a little light of hope that the loop will stop some hour or another if she listens to him, Making her basically his servent while she doenst notice he is the cause of her entire suffering- Theo - Already mentioned in RP, But he is like- The equal of Colin ig because he is a computer too- but he is so much, much more fucking bitchy and horrible that makes Colin look like a angel beside him. Manipulative, Sadistic to the point of being the word "Schadenfreude" itself, And even if he doenst show it, He could hurt people out of pure spite or boredom all because he can- I can imagine him and Antonio probably talking about the people they manipulated for own benefit or about their enemies, But just if Antonio is able to handle someone with non-stop ADHD behaviour and loud asf robotic voice (also that loves angering people with anything because, again, he can) Marie - Oh hey, That one who gave Linna trauma about medical stuff! Anyways; Your standart mentally insane nurse/doctor type- Always having a extended creepy smile, Having a questionable interest about dissections and vivisections, Acting SICKY, DERANGEDLY sweet and cute in the WORST times possible, And also doenst help that she has hands like the other mother from coraline true form- So maybe her and Antonio would go along really well? Who knows Lucy & Lisa - One is the embodiment of the universe and the other is fucking dea- i mean a spirit/j Ok but- Maybe those two would not really be the type to talk to Antonio, Maybe Lucy would try because he already talked with Laurence and all, And both are togheter so manipulative bitch going to see manipulative hubby's frienb :> Overall, Lucy is the more colder, Snarky type around others, But also would do a amazing "Rapunzel's mother" type if she had the chance. (*cough* linna *cough*) She can really put on a nice talk for hours and hours, And with that, Can get people on her cosmic web pretty well until some day she'll feel like crushing someone's hope- Lisa in the other hand is just- Too quiet and nice i think; They just want to chill around blooming flowers before winter comes and they needs to go help Coffin with all the dying people in the cold, So pretty indiferent about life and death. Rosé & Sabrina - Not really having much about these two interacting with Antonio tbh- Rosé is a literal cult leader like shrignold but instead about love its about the fame world and stuff and Sabrina is snarky and acts more like a popular teenager girl who loves picking on people even thought she is already pretty much an really old adult- And Rosé is the type of old gossipy man who wants to see his enemies fall without having to move a finger- Im gonna end here for now because i have more of them to talk about but it's already so long mjnhbgabhsnjd SORRY FOR LONG TEXT I JUST LIKE U AND THIS BLOG VERY MUCH-]

[[ first off, sorry for not responding rp-wise for so long, sometimes longer writing takes more outta me BUT i have the writing power(tm) now!

& from the sound of it, i think he'd generally get along with all of them! but also want to see what makes them tick, but that's just an antonio thing ]]

#ask and you shall receive. {{ a s k }} #reoltherabbit #long post #tw manipulation #[[ ooc ]]

[cats-thoughts]

procrastination

alrighty while i wait for something else to distract me, anyone who stumbles across this must hear about minecraft and my best friend. suffer >:] anyways my pfp is me n my best friend the Frogord. we r opposite vibes. also they r annoyed by sounds and i am annoyed by sounds that arent me but i also vocal stim so we suffer when we r together but its FINE apparently i give them energy or smthn its wild. he is very cool tho love him lots. anyways we play Minecraft together when we can except i have no time and their computer is baaad sucks 2 be him lol. but we try. anyways we play a modded server now is lots of fun, i made a big yellow tower bc its my favorite color and they're making an edgy mansion right next door, and i call my house the lemon tower and they call it the piss tower >:[ and i realized i did not have any space in my tower so I'm building a huge base under it, like with rooms stacked on top of each other, and all of them are pride flag colored. this is bc my chest room ended up being pan colors on accident i just was like. yellow walls! blue is a good color, floor :] oh hey pink would be a nice way to finish the room! oh this is just the pan flag okay. anyways the next room is the ace flag it's my smelting room. my next one's gonna be nonbinary it'll be my villagers. but i cant work on it bc SCHOOL. which i should work on. anyways we play characters too and by that we pretend like we do bc no one else cares about storylining LMAO im an enderdragon person thingy and he is a shapeshifter. except we are also actually ancient people tied to gems after this whole ordeal with something or another i don't actually know i don't focus on that my character has amnesia and only really remembers their current life. they r very old tho like a few hundred thousand years at least. i found out how to turn netherack into netherite too using a mod bc im just that good. we have no storage space im a grade a hoarder in mc i never get rid of anything. i haven't moved anything but valuables into my house hhsghjs im working on killing the dragon 20 times so i can prevent anyone from ever respawning it again it's a long story im gonna build something in one of the towers. it brings the dragon egg back when you kill the dragon I've got like 12. i don't want anyone else to get one cause then they can have a pet dragon and im being evil and gatekeeping that. if they get one i may or may not be forced to kill it because im evil like that. side note i don't like being evil but i also get way too committed to the bit and the idea of someone else having a pet dragon makes acid rise in my bones for some reason i guess im just an asshole or something i genuinely do not know why??? anyways so much love for froglord they let me talk about my wet cats (lifesteal) and i also got them addicted to mcyt by showing him technoblade's potato wars it was so funny. he is now in love /p with charlie slimecicle. i did this. oh and ivory too he loves /p ivory. i was actually with them when the techno news dropped they tried v hard to comfort me i appreciate it. anyways that's the post haha sorry for the terrible everything i don't want to punctuate properly. or spell. that's for losers. sidenote i wrote this in like 5 minutes why am i so fast at typing no i want to procrastinate more pls there is not much more i can ramble about hhhhh i don't wanna do history claaaaassss it suuuuucks

#chatwithcat

[noticemedeku]

haha no worries.

i'd say thats quite recent. i mean, grief doesnt really have some kind of 'expiration date' if you will. if it still hurts, it hurts. doesnt rly matter how many years tbh. but yea date-wise, sure i'd say it be quite recent.

yes! i feel very grateful i got such a long time with majority of them. the youngest i had to put to sleep was, its gonna be 3 years in june, he only got to become 2 years old. i was destroyed by his death. because he was so young. and another younger one i had to say goodbye to was 5 years old. i do believe though that the average lifespan of a piggie is about 6-8 years. so even 6 years is quite old for them.

awe, sucks you didnt get more time with them! but at least you gave them a good life no doubt.

what?? i had no idea! all i was told it was due to age. however that veterinary clinic has been soooo sketchy for years i refuse to take me pigs there, or even our cat anymore. yall they were so insensitive when my pig was having seizures due to something in his ears, or brain? idk really, he was old though, 8 years old and this one fucking vet was like 'he has outlived his time hasnt he' like no lol....if i could save him, i would. age doesnt matter unless surgery is involved.

jesus i will never understand how people can watch stuff like that and not pass out hahahaha i'd have hit the floor before they even started haha.

about your tag if i ever had a skinny, no i havent! however when i was looking for pigs i saw somebody who sold skinnies and that is the first time i ever seen one for real i think. however i have followed some youtubers who had skinnies and, im not really sure how to take care of them as i recall her saying something like you gotta put coconut oil on them so they dont become dry and whatnot? idek haha

SORRY I JUST CHECKED MY ASKS TT

but yes grief does not have an expiration date! and im sorry you had to put him to sleep, a very hard choice to do but its always for their benefit. a lot of people choose to be selfish and refuse to put their pet down just to be with them for a couple of more days.. even tho their pet is suffering. what im saying is that putting him to sleep was probably best for him, now hes resting somewhere peacefully! and im sure hes grateful for the life you could give him and that you were there for him when he left ^^

also sorry you had that vet experience. but its not uncommon for vets to suggest an old animal be put to sleep, especially if they are prone to having seizures which could be very hard on a small animal. but i didn’t experience what you did, so i cant really say much… doctors just become so familiar with death that they seem insensitive. its tough for all of us.

but if you feel uncomfortable with your vet, its okay to find another! do what you think is best for your family <3

and wait do you watch skinnypigs1 😭 cuz thats the youtuber i watch and i always admired them, it takes a ton if devotion to care for all those pigs she has. and usually a few of her pigs had special needs ofc like her skinny pigs… i think she uses coconut oil for them tho but i don’t remember. there was a video of her rubbing one of her naked little guys with some type of moisturizer

#ani talks #tw pet death mention #🐹.anon

[minzart]

Im living for rsa overblots make yuu suffer more pls 😔👀

With pleasure~

Ok ok so. I Know the overblot boy is usualy the representative of his dorm character

However consider: Dorm Leader Zazul

Bc Cheka exists and I think it's funny

After the disaster that was "Alice" overblot Yuu went straight to the nursery, and next day they sent a message to their friends, lo and behold, hours later they receive a message from Idia warning of their friend arrival... togheter with Shroud's attempt at concern, boy doesn't know how to comfort and hades less so

Their new friends were at class now

And with the subtitle of a truck they heard from a new "roommate" that some troublemakers from NRC were causing a ruckus out there, yup, their friends no doubt

Hours later Ambrose enters the nursery with six beaten up teens that spare no thought to jump right into Yuu's broken ribs

Less than a week and they have already beaten another overblot, looks like a curse

The firsts years are very protective of Yuu that Grimm decides to stay with them, just in case, it's not like Yuu can defend themself without magic... WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU HAVE OTHER FRIENDS-? !

Anyway, they spend the next few days healing and receiving many gifts from very worried dorm leaders with the occasional visit from the first years from time to time and a surprise visit from some dorm leaders when they can pass the first gate... or just invade the school like Leona and Malleus Idia and hades have a score, Yuu has so much time to spend that they pass it talking via chat with Idia, the only one whose online most of the time

Chapter 2: lion king-> twst Zazul's overblot

After finaly healing most their wounds, Yuu introduces Grimm to their new friends, a little bit of tension, but nothing to worry about

The next overblot occurs when RSA is holding a event that two dorm leaders have to prepare, and this year's are "Alice" and "Zazul", the latter is running on spress coffee with two hour of sleep per day

Hoping to make sure everything is running perfectly ok, "Zazul" decides to approach Yuu to:

1)make sure the monster cat won't ruin anything bc last week accident was enough to give this boy paranoia

And 2) keep tabs on "Alice" so the boy doesn't overblot a second time

He doesn't notice that his paranoia and stress is making blot and when one thing goes wrong right before the finale, he loses it

"NO nononono NOT NOW I WORKED SO HARD IN THIS"

"We can fix it in time, it's ok"

"NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND IT'S RUINED AND THAT THING WAS ONE OF A KIND AND TOOK ME DAYS TO MAKE"

"W-we can find a substitute, calm down or you'll-"

"I AM TIRED OF THIS BULLSHIT! WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME THAT HAS TO FIX EVERYTHING IN THIS GODDAM SCHOOL"

And there you have, a perfect overblot that almost costs Yuu their life if Grimm wasn't there, though Yuu did Kin "Zazul" in the stress meter

In the aftermath Yuu makes sure to be there for "Zazul" most times, even if the boy say he doesn't want pitty Yuu keeps coming back and most times is just to chat or... hear his problems... why is it so easy to open to this student?

Chapter 3: little mermaid-> Rielle's overblot

Rielle is a curious soul that took an instant interest about this mysterious magicless human who has a monster as a familiar and defeated two overblots in a roll

And oh how he's amazed when he discovers that this magicless human is nice AND FROM ANOTHER WORLD, he's a chatter box once he takes a liking on you and his friends tend to try and distract him or else Yuu's ears are gonna burst

Rielle has a love for the unknown, his first year he couldn't belive everything new he learned about the surface

Tho his father is hell bent on getting his son's ass back to the water, it's a safer option, in his father's eyes, as he's a prince and in constant danger out there

And that's what causes him to overblot, he doesn't want to go back, he wants to be selfish for once in his life and be where he wants, the fear of his father's disapproval and wrath, his desire to stay in land, to not lose the firsts true friends he has drive his mind to a panic and everything goes black

His friends went to find Yuu the second Rielle burts, and the battle begins

"I WANT TO STAY! WHY DO I HAVE TO LOSE EVERYTHING THAT I LOVE?!"

"Rielle calm down or you'll hurt yourself! "

"I WON'T BE ABLE TO SEE YOU GUYS AGAIN SO WHAT'S THE POINT?!"

"But you will see us again! We can stay in touch and-"

"LIES- they always go away..."

Rielle remembers to wake up in the warm embrace of his friends, Yuu included...

This time Yuu wasn't the one who got hurt, they friends were

Rielle recovers and has to explain himself to his father... it's not a pleasant talk but, for the boys surprise, his father gives him one more year at land, then, he's going to go back to the ocean, like him or not

The boy doesn't understand what is this feeling when he looks at the strange magicless student some days, maybe it's just the warm felling of seing a friend, or maybe it's because they are so close now... or maybe... oh "did it really took them to beat your ass for you to notice this now?! You were giving them heart eyes for weeks!" His friend smacks his head

Chapter 4: Aladdin-> "jasmine"'s overblot

"Jasmine" is constantly under pressure to chose a wife and be the next sultan, he has constants reminders of his position and is getting tired of it

No wonder that one day Yuu finds him at the town trying to get away, it's an easy chat, the boys is tired, but nothing too worrying, what does worried the magicless students is the amount of magic that he uses to get away from the pressure

The boy trys his best to eliminate the blot but... it's not enough, slowly he transforms, slowly he gets more and more tired, he can't carryout tasks anymore, he just wants to fly... away from... from everything

He's overwhelmed

"You don't understand... it's... it's like a cage, I know my future and there's no running away, life is no fary tale"

"No, I don't, but I know that there's better ways to resolve that than... than this"

"Why do you even bother?"

"Life is too short and I swear it if you cut this shorter I'll never forgive you"

"And what makes you think I care?"

"Because I won't let this end here SO COME OUT OF THIS FUCKING HOURGLASS AND FACE ME! TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT AND WE CAN FIGURE THIS OUT TOGETHER"

"YOU CAN'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO!"

"TRY ME!"

Not too bad at the end, many tears and many truths told, the boys is just exhausted, his father stops sending him constants reminds by the headmaster's wish

"Jasmine" feels guilt of how hurt Yuu is in the aftermath, he lears about how Yuu has survived before an dis rather intrigued to hear their stories, they talk and talk until Yuu's fully recovered, they become rather good friends in the end...

Chapter 5: Snow white-> Neige's overblot

Neige remembers Yuu quite well from the VDC, they become friends quickly once the boy finds out that Vil's VDC "manager" is in RSA now

They talk and... mostly run from his fans, courtesy of Yuu not wanting to deal with this shit, Neige is touched by Yuu's little gestures, this interaction is refreshing for the boy

"So... what did you think of VDC?"

"Not gonna lie to you, I prefer Vil's choreograph over yours, but that may be bc I saw his hard work"

"I-is that so..."

"N-not that I belive your group didn't work hard! It's just, it's more easy to sympathize with the one I saw over the one I didn't even heard of y'know?"

"No no I understand, I... I think I didn't gave my all either in that performance. Vil is aways so hardworking, I wonder if I can ever be like that one day"

Days pass and things happen, Yuu almost prevented that overblot, almost, if only his managers hadn't got him in a mood, the pep talk, the dismissing, the dwarfs didn't helped either..."don't worry, just look pretty and it's enough", "look cute Neige", "you don't need to worry your little brain Neige", "look at him, tripping again, don't worry Neige, everything is forgiven"-

"Please, just once- TEACH ME HOW TO BE BETTER!"

The dwarfs are scared, Neige never looked so pissed

"I DON'T WANT TO BE PUT ON A GODDAM PEDEATAL"

Yuu was summoned by the headmaster as fast as possible

"I DON'T WANT TO BE A PRETTY FACE PLEASE FOR ONCE! LET ME LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES WITH CONSEQUENCES! "

"Your wish is my command!"

"But we c-can't! He's our friend and we can't hurt him-"

"If we don't, he will die or you will, pick one or go, he wants to vent and be heard, so for once, let him breathe"

For the first time, beige was apprehended for his behavior, he never felt so relieved, it maybe not the best of times but... maybe it's a beggining?

Chapter 6: Hercules-> "Hercules"' overblot

"Megara" is the dorm leader, he asked Yuu with help, since he heard of Yuu's friendship with NRC's students and hopes of getting some info about their tactics of Magishift

"Hercules" is a weakling first year, he has a surprising force but his fisic is unappealing, he wants to get a better form so he can show off, so he trains non stop

Yuu happens to notice this a little bit too late, the boy is exhausted but wants to continue, and he does, and he overblots as a result

"THIS IS WHAT I AWAYS WHISED FOR! CAN'T YOU SEE? NOW THEY WILL FINALY... FINALLY..."

"YOU HAD WHAT YOU WERE LOOKING FOR BEFORE!"

"WHAT COULD YOU POSSIBLY KNOW ABOUT WHAT I WANT?!"

"BECAUSE NOT EVEN YOU BELIVE THIS STUPID FORM IS GOING TO GIVE YOU TRUE FRIENDS"

Yuu has to make sure he's hydrated and eating well after he wakes up, slowly the boy learns to treat himself kinder and that everything as it's own time, he doesn't need a better form to see his friends, he will try again but... this time is for himself and not for the others, and this time, he'll take it slow

Chapter 7: Sleeping beauty-> Aurora's overblot

"Aurora"s the dorm leader of his dorm, he's quite charming and for exudes an aura of grace and calm, however he spends his time alone, liking to roam in the areas with the most trees and hum songs to himself

However the one who truly commands is the vice dorm leader who is a childhood friend or a brother to him, treating the boy like a child unable to deal with his own decisions, unable to handle a real world that "Aurora" can and is handling very well, but his vice refuses to acknowledge it, after all, what does a boy who lived in isolation could possible know about teh outside?

Yuu meets him at one of those nights, exiting the infirmary, the have a night walk, the boy can't help but hum a familiar little song that Yuu joins in, the part ways as good strangers and who knows, maybe they will meet again

That causes the vice to go furious with the boys, becoming more strict and at the end, "Aurora" can't take it anymore.... he overblots

"Why... why can't you trust me with anything! I'M NOT THAT NAIVE I KNOW WHAT CONSEQUENCES ARE"

"EVERYONE GET OUT OF HERE!"

"I JUST WANT FOR YOU TO SEE ME"

"Leave him to me, I'll take care of this. Oi! Your majesty! Do you really know what consequences are? Bc this doesn't look like it!"

When I tell you the war zone that school had become, because at this point the NRC boys were well versed at entering and getting out of RSA and boy did they came at a convenient time

They make peace... well Yuu does, the NRCs are desperately trying to get out the fuck out of that school bc they already suffered enough with overblots for the rest of their lives

Now to make the SGS part, the spirits of the great heroes are going to make a more sustainable appearance next time!

#twst rsa #rsa overblot #sgs au #twst sgs au #spirits of the great seven au