#im just..v gay

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Some healing otters for my mum

#bc she had chemo medicine injected directly into her liver monday #i never kno whats going on with her cancer stuff. like technically shes stage 4 #bc it started in her uterus now its in her abdomen. liver. maybe her thyroid? #idk but its like not that aggressive of a cancer so fucking idk but ill be v sad when she dies #hopefully thats a long time from now but like shes done so much chemo thats gotta take time off ur life reguardless of the actual cancer #idk its just not fair. she's a good person and doesn't deserve this #original art #otter #lol sometimes when i draw otters blogs devoted to gay otters will reblog it and im like lmao hi 👋 #ugh. i could have drawn this better but time time. who has the time?

[alligaytorswamp]

hehe ^_^

#chaeya #childe #tartaglia #kaeya alberich #kaeya #genshin impact #fanart #my art #full art #im drawing the same stuff over and over #and im v happy #adhalsjdl #tartaglia simp core + kaeya having him in a chokehold is just really important to me personally #i kind of gave up on this in the end but u get the point. the bitches are gay

[agayconcept]

Wild Aziraphale Spotted In Local Thrift Store

@neil-gaiman is there a possibility ur camp angel did a sneaky lil champagne ad in the early 1900s while bored....

#good omens #aziraphale #thrifting #this was a fun lil moment yesterday lol #gay omens #michael sheen #not rly but im just putting associated tags bc im begging anyone other than me to see this #i stopped dead and turned to the person i was with like 'do u....do u see that....' and they went 'yes. yep. that's him alright.' #anyway. i looked it up and it was and still is apparently a v well known ad still used as a collectors piece #not for me personally but the vibes? impeccable.

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[cosmic-d1ce]

youre telling me ppl actually see q!Forever & q!Phil's interactions and go "mm yes this is definitely platonic" are you serious

#how you gonna edit a very obviously romantic interactions and go (/p) WDYM #forever is IN LOVE with brunim #he believed he was IN L O V E with phil #Missa goes “i will give him a forehead kiss if he lets me bc we're just bros” #and Forever slaps him and says “im gay and in love with br- philza minecraft i want to kiss him on the mouth” #let my boys be gay 🙏 #im begging you stop with the /p its 100% /r can you not see??? #“i love platonic sugarduo” what part of “i will lock you in prison until you fall in love with me” is platonic #philever #forphil #forever x philza #everytime someone calls their dynamic platonic i make more romantic fml content in retaliation

[lovesickeros]

☆ lost in orbit

{☆} characters tsaritsa {☆} notes cult au, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings violence [ implied ], unhealthy relationship {☆} word count 0.6k

She had resigned herself to apathy – to burying her love beneath the cold, hard soil and letting it rot amongst the graves of a long dead civilization, burned to ash in only a day. Yet how quickly it all fell apart in her hands, slipping through her fingers like sand, no matter how desperately she tried to cling to it.

Was she not diligent enough? Was she so weak that she faltered at the first person who showed her genuine trust and affection? Had all her work been for naught?

A part of her revolts – the same woman who watched the sky burn and the ground beneath her feet crumble into ash. It would be so easy to wrap her hands around your delicate throat, to squeeze until you finally saw her as the monster she knew she has always been.

Yet she doesn't think she could. The look of betrayal, of fear..oh, it would ruin her, she knows.

Perhaps that makes her weak. Perhaps you have made her weak.

Perhaps she does not mind as much as she should.

You trust her, after all – enough to sleep in her bed like she couldn't just kill you before you ever knew what was happening to you. Your body was so..fragile, in this mortal shell you descended in. How easy it would be to snuff out your life, here and now.

Yet she doesn't.

Instead, she looks at you like an old lover – with all the love of a woman who had died in the ashes of a dying civilization, of a woman who thought she could love no longer. Emotions she fought so hard to suppress well up in her chest and fill the empty space where she knows her heart should beat. Try as she might – and oh, how she tries – she can never quite stem the affection that consumes her every waking moment when she sees you.

It is like an addiction that she cannot rid herself of, no matter how she tries. She always finds herself back at square one – back to you.

Her hand lingers against your cheek, undue affection filling the empty spaces in her chest until she feels like cannot breathe. She traces her hand along your jaw, her vision narrowed on the softness of your lips.

Yet that same thought rises unbidden to the forefront of her thoughts. Love was a dangerous thing – you both knew that. To let it fester and rot her from within..she would be throwing her plans out the window, and for what?

Because she was too weak? Because the affection and trust in your eyes whenever your looked at her made her feel whole, like she was more then just an Archon playing God with the fate of the world?

You do not even stir as her thoughts toil like a brewing storm. She swallows the lump in her throat, removing her hand like she'd just touched a piece of hot metal. A part of her still screams that it's for the best, that you've corrupted her enough, torn apart her plans in the span of a week, a mere blink in time..

But it goes silent as she leans in, pressing her lips to your cheek. She will not let the thought fester, tonight – she will let herself be weak, if only for another day. If only to covet the affection that she finds herself drowning in for just another day.

And when you stir, she pretends that she had never thought of it at all, that she has only ever known love with you. Even if her heart that does not beat leaves a stabbing pain in her chest in the agony of knowing that even this is futile..

She lets you wake, let's the recognition and the affection fill your vision until she is all you see – two stars locked in orbit, unable to break away.

And when the day comes that you collide, she will be holding the blade that drives into your chest, and she will know nothing but love when she does.

#sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #tsaritsa #fellas is it gay to think abt murdering ur lover bc u love them so much #everyone hcing that her lover died in khaenri'ah but what if she killed them.. #tsaritsa killing her lover so they dont have to walk down the same path and suffer the consequences when celestia retaliates>>> #tsaritsa killing her lover bc to her them dying is better then living and she refuses to let them be corrupted by going down the same path #i just think shes a little silly!!! a little goofy!!!! i forgive her #theres just smth abt tragic lesbians and also tragic lesbians whose tragedy is one of their own making #yknow :) #but at the SAME TIME. her lover dying and wanting her to move on and LIVE but shes so spiteful shes willing to destroy herself to #destroy celestia. she doesnt care abt what happens to her bc if her lover isnt there with her then what does it matter? she has nothing lef #to lose. #characters who become their lover would hate bc living in a world without them is agony>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> #also i only tagged unhealthy relationship bc the tsaritsa is. unhinged but shes actually v normal in the relationship #she loves u!!!! and shes a good lover!!! she just thinks abt killing u sometimes bc she loves too much and its easier to kill u now vs lose #you later on where it will hurt WORSE #also bc smth smth she thinks itll make it hurt less if she kills you vs someone else bc she would actually LOSE IT if someone hurt u #spoilers it does not and she spirals and is haunted by what shes done and constantly tries to lie to herself to justify it. it does not wor #did i scare off the normal ppl w this one.......maybe!!!!! #i meant morally grey at best when i said morally grey at best!! #crawls back into my ditch okay im shutting up now

[anotherpapercut]

I know several people who like LOVE seasons 5-7 (11th doctors run) and think the storylines and moffats writing are brilliant and I don't get it!!! what am I missing??? why does literally every single episode have the exact same stakes: Rory/Amy/the doctor is dead. forever. so dead. but wait!!! what if they aren't!!! why do so many of the explanations for why they're not actually dead feel so rushed like they were added at the last minute!! why does every single queer character act kind of weird and awkward about being queer!! why does the doctor casually say that women are inferior when no one's around!!! what the fuck!! hello!!!

#why is rory continuously proving himself as the Only Man To Ever Exist only for the characters/narrative to continuously imply hes lesser #amy tries to kiss the doctor?? at her wedding?????? #when amy is stuck for 36 years why is she like i forgot how much rory loved me?? GIRL HE WAITED 1000 YEARS FOR YOU???? WHAT???? #he is CONSTANTLY the butt of the joke despite being unequivocally without a doubt the best character from this era #what the fuck was up with river being their kid #THE 50TH ANNIVERSARY???? WHAT?? THAT SHIT WAS WEIRD RIGHT??? #does anyone else find it annoying that moffat changed the opening theme and the tardis and the sonic and the doctor ALLLL at once #and then retconned the entire storyline the early seasons are based off of?? #WHY IS THE DOCTOR SO GODDAMN ANNOYING?? LIKE SO MUCH MORE ANNOYING THAN THE OTHERS #and fucking sexist!!! so sexist!!! #anyone remember the characters who were like 'were the short fat and tall skinny gay men why do we need names' LIKE HUH??????? #gay people still have names steven 😭 #i feel like im going insane bc i have no one else to talk to abt it until my partner catches up #but you guys still think these seasons kinda suck right? like coming off of martha and DONNA and her AMAZING storyline #these just kinda pale in comparison right?????? #the last centurion is probably the last really good plot of that era imo. none of the other plots come close to having an ending that cool #like rivers story couldve been amazing and then it was just uh. kinda weird. a bit confusing IDK #i dont want to be a dick when talking to people and like shit on smth they love but i genuinely have a hard time #finding kind things to say abt a lot of this era #also and this might just be me but i do not like amy and clara v much 😭 theyre so fuckin mean and not even funny #why were martha donna and rose sooooo well written and they all have rich backstories. we know their fuckin families!! #literally its never even fully explained what the fuck happened to amys parents 😩😩 they just move on. the only friend of theirs #ever shown is fucking river??? as a kid?? #am i the only one who found all thay confusing

[pogasm]

i’m like a schrodingers queer where im every queer gender and sexuality at once but also at the same time i’m cishet

#theres two wolves in me one is superstraight the other is supergay #so like. that’s y i dont rlly click w labels bc all of them fit me?? idk #like i’m bi and pan but also a male lesbian enby and im definitely aspec #i don’t spend my time thinking about my labels bc tbh i have bigger fish to fry in my life. i just put up the pride flag and call it a day #so people usually assign me labels based on what kind of attraction i show? so like. basically irl people read me as a cross between- #- a butch lesbian and a gay man. which is sooooooo me #anyways i jst felt like dumping out my feelings i dont rlly care for concrete labels #also i feel like my sexuality/gender changes over time bc i’m been bi and a lesbian and nonbinary and transmasc and all of them fit but also #they kinda don’t? #and i’m a v radical person so queer love to me isn’t about labels but about doing who makes u happy #and if it takes one man or eight nonbinary people two bigenders to get me there idrc… jst as long as thé love and happiness is there

[gayleviticus]

the book of job can be a very queer book actually. it's all about how you can't actually just hold to theological propositions totally divorced from reality and personal experience bc you think the world doesn't make sense otherwise. it's about clinging to your own righteousness even as your 'friends' try to drag your name into the dirt bc it threatens their elaborate theological diorama of the world where everything is nice and neat. it's about how pain and suffering is not a punishment for something wrong with you. and it's about struggling with God, and understanding that in the end we know nothing and can say nothing, and yet if we resolve to speak our truth perhaps in the end we can be judged to have spoken rightly of God like his servant Job.

#bible #religion #christian #christianity #queer christian #gay christian #(i know this is v much a jewish story initially i just dont feel its my place to tag it as such; im not trying to claim its christian only)

[placid-styles]

ok i just finished s15… i’m literally shaking in my boots i’m TERRIFIED of s16. like i am so afraid of s16 macdennis idk if i can handle that becoming real to me

#them looking at each other in the s15 finale when frank is talking about when you love someone you never let them go… #i was screaming #i think that’s what he said… i wasn’t listening bc i was watching them be gay #just based on gifs and vids i’ve seen in tumblr im terrified of even just the gang inflates #let alone frank v russia #idk how i’ll make it through #macdennis #iasip

[sualne]

i’m this close 👌 to finish the main quest and i’m so normal about it.

#artists on tumblr #pathfinder kingmaker #my art #my ocs #kingmaker shenanigans #im not tagging everyone lol #i realised while finishing the lineart that i had forgotten to add my feral goblin in but i just. thats already six people and I Am Tired. #havent been able to play for a few weeks so ive just been thinking about it #i tried to give them new clothes to show the passage of time. linzi's outfit is my favorite ;_; #she looks so good. everyone turned out v nice here. for once i didnt draw tristian a bit derpy. he can have some dignity for once. as a trea #treat* #also gave my man (gender neutral) sycamore the slighty hint of greying hair because 1 gay right to me personaly 2 boy!! taking care of that #kingdom is nerve wrecking!! #ive finally got it to have that stability stat. took a thousands years and some reloading failed attempts but the kingdom is ok for now #the only thing left to do is fight nyrissa

[hella1975]

me and my (also bi) flatmate were talking about date guy last week and out of nowhere she goes 'if you get a boyfriend im gonna be so annoyed we haven't even done anything gay together yet' and like i laughed it off but i keep remembering it bc we dont have a flirty friendship AT ALL like even in the moment it came WAY out of left field and im just here like hold on was gay shit ON THE TABLE??? NO ONE TOLD ME

#furious #you know that tiktok audio that's like 'i am not trying to seduce you... would you like me to seduce you?' #and it started off as a smirky flirty thing but the gays and neurodivergents #latched onto their own interpretation where it's more like #'wait.... did you WANT me to seduce you?' #i feel like that rn #like me and her have a very hateful relationship LMAO the only time we're ever nice to each other is when we're drunk #which is so funny bc she is actually one of my favourite people and she's told me im one of hers #so we go from sober and 'i literally despise you i cant wait to live without you next year' #to drunk and 'DONT GO TO AMERICA FOR YOUR PLACEMENT DONT LEAVE ME HERE' lmaooo #so being NICE is odd for us let alone being FLIRTY #like she said it and even when i didnt even consider the repurcussions i was like 'idk how to respond to that' #bc i have a hundred mean responses ready and waiting for her but NOTHING to respond to that with #like i literally said 'as if you'd be my type' but it just didn't hit as well bc she was being NICE/SUGGESTIVE #UGH IDK #like i dont fancy her like that btw and i dont think she likes me like that either it's v much platonic #but bisexuals will be bisexuals i v much think it's part of bisexual culture now to just hook up with any other bisexual you find #hella goes to uni

[heartslobbf]

been having nimona thoughts for the past week or so since i watched the movie, just kind of reflecting on nd stevenson’s wider body of work and development as an artist and mulling over his statements about the movie having a more explicitly happy ending than the comic. and i think it’s so interesting and beautiful in a way that just makes me so fucking happy. like, nimona the movie is so nice. it is softer and warmer than the comic, rounding its edges (but not completely sanding them away) to turn into a kids movie, and what a kids movie it is! nimona the comic is cruel and gritty and complicated in much more uncomfortable ways than the movie, and its ending is so profoundly bittersweet and hopeful and just. deeply deeply meaningful to me. and then the movie’s like hey :) what if nimona saw ballister for who he was :) a friend :) and im like WAHHHHHHH. it’s so nice :’)

also just think it’s neat that goldenheart are overall a much happier, more stable couple in the movie, because whilst i personally prefer analysing crazy gay bitches (utena fan), watching gay people get to be gay in nice and fun ways is like :) like what’s a mainstream animated film with a gay protagonist who starts the film in a relationship and has that relationship be a central plot point throughout? and also they kiss and are in love at the end? it’s a big deal!!!! it’s awesome to see!! it made me incredibly happy !!!!! god fucking bless

#gay people :) #ok now im done. thoughts unloaded #i was thinking about this sm bc obviously i was getting distressed about comic v movie discourse #like both are good they’re very different and have some core similarities but also don’t #if there’s any major thing to gleam from them i think it’s like. look at how nd feels able to allow this happier ending now #*GLEAN #especially when thinking about how he originally wanted to end the comic #it’s just like. gah. i love you art developing alongside the artist i love you hope i love you choosing happiness #good good good stuff. yes :) #shut up daisy

[toelessbastard]

finished mashle. finished mashle. finished mashle. the fanfic authors LIED TO MY GOOD FACe

#WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU SUMMONED IT.......WHAT DO YOU MEAN......WERE YOU TALKING ABOUT HIS FEAR OF GHOSTS??? #like WOW my heart is bouncing accross the country rn but WOW okay. yeah okay this is fine im #HHHNNMMNNMMNNNM #mashle #so many characters to love...... #i do just. find it so fucking funny. after all the shit his bio dad pulled mash was like no. no one is going to get the CHANCE to redeem you #AND HE BECAME THE PASSITIRE UHBBJJNNNNNMG IM SOBBINNN NNNGGGG #im. so. distraught. over. DOMINA.........i think thats his name goooooooooodddd fucking lorrrddddddddddd #sorry someones ahvjng a baby on tv and the sounds r very graphic wth #ignoring that. #red blue gays strike again . to me. #my faves besides mash and punkrock sound gal #was anna. and mother fucking FINN HELLO IM GONNA PUMP YOU WITH #no im not finisihing that sentence thats too much even for me #u know me i love sibling dynamics so this comic FED #i keep seeing stuff ab dot having a sibling too so im Assuming its from the fanbook? which is a innaccessible to me rn hnmng #so i will just. STALK THE WIKI YAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY #enstars all over again HHCJSGSVXVX #i love that everyones so fucking weird. they all have flaws its v prominent. gorgeorus to ME #lemon has a mash shrine me too girl. but for finn. #FINN AND THATS ITHER GUYYYYYYYYYYY I DONT RMEMBER HIS NAME #i promised my bro id make him a powerpoint on the charas #so ill learn their names then. #all of mashes siblings were v unique deaugn wise i was obsessed. frat boy was so funny to me #GOD I NEED TO KILL SOMEONE W A WORD WALL AN THIA MANGA BEFORE I COMMIT CRIMEA AGAINST MYSELF

[deathdxnces]

my toxic trait is constantly wanting to pick up new muses

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #i've considered kaisa but i. #only really am interested in her alt verses ISHDJSJDJHD #i've considered ahri bc i always loved her and have tried to write her in the past i'm just #too baby to write popular characters #i really really wanted to make one other character that the band hype actually killed my mood for USBAJHDJSHR #even ksante although i feel thats a little out of spite bc people be leaving him out #and its gross and i think he deserves more love #ive considered varus bc i love the 3 gays in a trench coat #ive considered xolaani bc what is self control #also going back to nidalee.... i like the kitty.... she just difficult to interact w #in runeterra. in modern verse it'd be v easy #ultimatrly im barely keeping up with stuff here so #im just. 'bitch stop' AJBDKSJDJSJD

[hjemne]

(Gay bear flag anon) I’m stupider than anything because after realizing your pfp wasn’t the gay bear flag I was like. Ah yes the beach in the evening. Except it’s not it’s Wolfwood having a smoke sitting on a crate. Which is excellent btw. And your vibe is immaculate don’t worry

Sjfjsjskd the possible interpretations of art are as limitless as the night sky and this is most definitely a vibes-based pic, especially when squashed down to half a centimetre

It's not a very recognisable picture of Wolfwood I don't think & tbh (especially when it's so small on my phone screen) it's kinda like abstract art to me too lol. I had a pic of WW from the manga which I thought worked better as visually legible pfp but I used that for my alt account so I landed on this instead

#asks #you know the world can be okay sometimes when you get a message that starts (gay bear flag anon) sjdhds #im actually v curious what the initial vibe of my blog is based on thr pfp + url (+ fucking shane madej) is because its all v disconnected #just as long as jt doesnt give the impression of one of those right wing weirdos then im happy #i dont need brand unity or coherence its a fuckin blog sfjsf #though #illegible pfp + keyboard smash of a url + shane 'i think we should kill the elderly' madej is possibly a little too incoherent #shane is staying hes haunting this place #so is hjemne #pfp & bio are negotiable #wait fuck i havent fixed the html link to my ao3 #Goddamnit i gotta get my laptop for that ahhh