#im sam kinnie...

[eyeaesteria]

let's talk about (and i mean watch me fawn over) supernatural s5 ep11 (Sam, Interrupted)

10 min into the chapter and the good doc's already showing why he's a good one cause the way he spotted the winchester's codependent relationship in only a few hours??? Not only that but he actually said it was "dangerously codependant", i mean he's right but ouch and then we have that talk between dean and his not so therapist, which is actually worse when u re-watch it KNOWING it's dean and his crazy mind. He's having a therapy session with basically HIMSELF and (screams) ofc he's asking himself all the right questions. i mean she started that convo asking 'bout his sleep (he survives w only a couple of hours(and idk if that's the correct word im drunk)) and HIS DRINKING PROBLEM and we got the tell me about ur father thing

AND IN THEIR SECOND CONVERSATION SHE ASKS why is he the one who's gotta save everyone? why it can be anyone else? how is that fair? How many people does he have to save to call it a day? AND the crushing realization that it is horrible. the weight of his duty is crushing him. he can't save everyone.

then the third is the charm and the not so therapist is showing her true colors saying "Did you really think that you, Dean Winchester, with a GED…and a give-them-hell attitude, were gonna beat the devil? Please. The world is gonna burn, and there is nothing that you can do." AND it´s not her saying those horrible things, it's Dean's mind. Those are Dean toughts, that's how he sees himself.....

I CRIED

So they kick ass and save the day, go all c r a z y and almost kick the bucket BUT WE ARE NOT DONE YET cause Sam's mind is in shambles (a-fuckin-gain) and he can't not be honest, not when his crazy mind has told him about how his lies were the cause of all those deaths, not when he finally has a clue of what's happening to him, what was always inside him (it's ANGER) and Dean- Dean says "You're gonna take all that crap and bury it. You're gonna forget it, because that's how we keep going" It's an awful advice, zero healthy, the absolutely wrong thing to say, to even THINK. But that's how he has always been. So Sam shuts his mouth and gets into the Impala, doesn't go against Dean's word, even tho i really think he really WANTS to cause he has most of the winchester emotional intelligence, because, and i repeat, HE'S IN SHAMBLES. Im gonna kword myself UGH i hate them !!! i love them!!! End of the communicate i just wanted to put my very disorganized thought into words lol

#spn #supernatural #dean winchester #dean #sam winchester #winchester #ACTUALLY SCREAMING WHAT I HATE THEM #they're so !!! and Q1021o1 #im drunk btw #lots of quotes because SOMETIMES the supernatural script is an awesome piece of art #and then we have awful scenes to bring us back to reality #dean's emotional intelligence is actually there i swear but he's so afraid to recognize himself #its easier to pretend to be a drunk cruel dumbass than to let them see him for what he is #for what he THINKS #i swear i dont hate sam im just a dean winchester kinnie

[tankshaw]

thinking about the line in the darlin asher vid where ash says ‘i got ur back too’ implying that darlin said that to him. anyway this is my thesis about how darlin thinks the world is a fight and that ‘having someone’s back’ is the greatest show of support in a fight.

#mmmmm darlim trying to fight the world. the world trying to fight darlin mmmmm brainrot #mmmm darlin immediately thinking the solution to everything is fighting and the pack and sam showing them otherwise mmmmm #and that they dont have to fight alone mmmmmm #sorry im a darlin kinnie i can’t help it

[goldfishontheceiling]

"happy gerbil kissing your dad 35"

"what??"

"Im sorry I'm trying to do a thing you did when I thought you were dying"

#sams spoilers #tsams spoilers #if yk yk #SERIOUSLY THAT EPISODE #SCREAMING CRYING THROWING THINGS AT MY WALL- #im curious but at the same time im screaming DONT DO IT SUN I SWEAR IF YOU DO IT- #AND THEN HE DID IT #MY HEART #as a sun kinnie my heart is absolutely broken for my beloved relatable sopping wet cat with a dumpster fire of mental health issues #kinda shitpost #sams #sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #tsams #charlie rambles

[loving-delusions]

//spoiler for new SAMS episode

my fucking head is filled with so MUCH THOUGHTS ABOUT THE NEW EP YYYEEEAAAAHHHHHHHH

my angsty ass cannot handle it

imma go to the tags to ramble in case yall read it accidentally

#rambles #sams spoilers #tsams spoilers #i wanna draw the chase scene out using my human lunar version but i dont have a design for solar flare/eclipse #i mean i could just use solar flare #since yknow he is technically just a robot in the show from how i see it #transferred mind of an AI or wtv #like how the creator did #plus im lazy to make another human design for solar flare. plus i love the monotone robot man he's perfect the way he is rn #okay that's all #IF!!! i do end up making a drawing out of it #do mind that ill make it fucking horrible for me and i would try and make myself cry using it #as a lunar kinnie <3.... also i wanna provide MORE angst for this part of the sams show fandom #there's never enough angst

[theythemsam]

In my s8 trials Sam arc rn

#recovering from covid. its been 13 days since my positive test and nearly a week of negative tests #but im so exhausted #feeling very 8x21 table scene rn #sam babbles #when i said im a sam kinnie i didnt mean that 😔😔😔

[drum-bot-brian]

trying to make like a creepy pasta reincarnation to spn au and like im stuck on dean like sam is obvy eyeless jack but dean? ive gone to masky bc he is the closest but its not a close match

#this is the creepypasta that exists in my head bc im insane #<-i got traumatised and now i am eyeless jack or whatever #this is bc im a sam kinnie

[catsconflictscopicsandchamomile]

Hwæt. man I've rly pondered these three questions on and off for four years:

which spn character do I look most like (I act/move most like Cas, that I know)

is there a way I could self-insert my geek as into spn fix-it fic in a way that doesn't have Chuck Vibes and isn't Destiel Lovechild Stuff (hate the trope ok).

WHY DO I KNOW SO MUCH ABOUT THE MYTHOLOGY OF ALL OF THIS AND HOW IT CONNECTS OH GOD I DONT WANT MY SPNSONA TO BE A PROPHET

I just learned THIS WEEK that Ruth Connell and I are one day off from sharing a birthday, and one inch off from being the same height.

I'm (not naturally, but probably sticking w this color for a good while) redheaded, half-Celtic of various sorts, going for my archeology major, love bagpipe edm metal (istg thats a thing), my main hobbies are researching folklore, working on my custom grimoire, and recreating ancient artifacts, and I'm currently in my self-described "Swamp Witch/Faecore/Modern Fantasy era"

....so uh. i feel dumb rn lol

#my 5'2" celtic aries ass in the spn fandom trying to figure out WHY I HAVE MAGIC #DUDE LOOK IN A MIRROR #supernatural #kinnie shit #*sighs* #*puts Rowena on the top of the spn kinlist next to Cas & Dean * #.....*adds Sam too. im not sure I Get him I just wanna kin Grendel* #ranting #nightblogging #stress posting #blah blah blah #this has been a very intense couple weeks okay #kinblr

[actually-a-fish]

the best supernatural episodes

according to an autistic person with a special interest and the ability to make a list.

if youre really serious about supernatural spoilers then maybe stay away :)

None of the season one episodes made in on the list but I will give an honorable mention to S1 E2 Wendigo.

S2 E11 Playthings - A classic, creepy girls in a creepy hotel. Special call out to Sam getting SLOPPY

S2 E16 Roadkill - There's a ghost haunting the highway. the Boys help the spirit move on. This is an early example of monster empathy

S2 E18 Hollywood Babylon - Dean loves hollywood. I love dean. this episode makes me kick my feet like a little girl and i will not defend myself.

S2 EP 20 What Was Shall Never Be - all I have in my notes for this one is "Dean Djinn Dream" which was enough for me to remember the episode and get misty eyes. This is SEASON 2 my son will never know peace.

S3 E5 Bedtime Stories -I had to check the wiki on this one, I think i liked it cause it referenced classic fairytales

S3 Ep11 Mystery Spot - "HEAT OF THE MOMENT" RISE AND SHINE SAMMY!

S3 E13 Ghostfacers! - Im a Facer through and through

S3 E16 No Rest for the Wicked - S3 finale and the Boys are facing consequences! Classic Dean, Sam and Bobby episode.

S4 E1 Lazerus Rising - First Cas Episode. That handprint makes me feel things.

S4 E6 Yellow Fever - What if Dean had anxiety (The Eye of the Tiger blooper is also at the end of the episode which gives it bonus points.

S4 E17 Wishful Thinking - Make a wish? was it for your teddy bear to be diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder? Well thats what youre getting!

S4 E17 It's a Terrible Life - Sam ~ the sales rep. Dean ~ middle management.

S4 E18 The Monster at the End of the Book - There are books about Sam and Dean?! Written by this guy who loves self insert character? Surely the entire show isn't about to take a tone shift?

S5 E3 Free to be You and Me - Sam and Dean are fighting again, but this time Dean has a new heavenly boy toy to play with instead. (Cas has no rizz yet it's actually a little painful to watch)

S5 E5 Fallen Idol - Okay the Wax People episode is on here for one reason and one reason only. Paris Hilton.

S5 E7 The Curious Case of Dean Winchester - Old man Dean and old man Bobby. This is also the episode for HH Husk kinnies.

S5 E8 Changing Channels - Dr Sexy MD is that you?!

S5 E9 The Real Ghostbuster - *in a grizzly voice* "I'm Dean Winchester, this is my brother Sam. Have you experienced anything strange?" "Dude that was so good! Now we can go solve the puzzle" "Man you're breaking the immersion!"

S5 E10 Abandon All Hope - This is here for Crowley's first appearance and not because the end will make you cry.

S5 E12 Swap Meat - "uh... its Audi Nos". Freaky Friday starring Sam Winchester! An angsty teen and April Kepner from Grey/Sloan Memorial Hospital.

S5 E16 Dark Side of the Moon - The Boys lives flash before their eyes. Dean is pissed forever about Sams.

S5 E19 Hammer of the Gods - this is for all my pagans out there!

S6 E4 A Weekend at Bobby's - What do you think this episodes about idjit.

S6 E15 The French Mistake -  “For whatever reason, our life is a TV show.” “Why?” “I don't know.” “No, seriously. Why? Why would anybody want to watch our lives?” 

S7 E4 Defending your Life - consequences? for fucking people over? how about you stand trial.

S7 E20 The Girl with the Dungeons and Dragons Tattoo - The self insert character made for us :) Luv u 4ever Charlie XD

S8 E4 Bitten - found footage will always scare. this one reminds me that this show started as a psuedo horror.

S8 E8 hunteri heroci - Cas tries his hand at being a hunter

S8 E12 As Time Goes By - FINALLY THEY ARE CARVING TRAPS INTO BULLETS

S8 E17 Goodbye Stranger - verbatim here are my notes for this episode "Cas chooses Dean, but the way he handles Meg... Fuck Naomi"

S8 E18 Clip Show - If you only want to watch just one episode of Supernatural this should be it. It's not actually a clip show, theres a broment, bonding time with favorite characters and crazy plots that only supernatural could get away with.

S9 E5 Dog Dean Afternoon - Dean is finally a dog person

S9 E11 First Born - Another bro fight leads to shipping <3 SamxCas + DeanxCrowley <3

S9 E15 #thinman - the slender episode feat. GHOSTFACERS. You come away from this episode thinking "supernatural is so fucking gay why wont the boys kiss"

S9 E21 King of the Damned - my favorite crowley era change my mind. Also the way the Boys interrogate an angel is so funny

S10 E5 Fan Fiction - I would unironically fuck w a supernatural musical and if helluva/hazbin taught me anything the rest of you would too

S10 E6 Ask Jeeves - The Clue episode. (Pay attention to the improvised weapons Dean chooses. It brings me joy)

S10 E9 The Things we Left Behind - Cas is suffering a midlife crisis and his besties are there to help him repair his relationship with his daughter. Funnily enough, Crowley is also getting some family bonding in.

Okay, I'm all caught up on my list. Should I have stayed up late transcribing this with an 8am class tommarow?

Probably not but it did bring me great joy. Tell me your favorite episode! I'll continue to add to my list as I continue my rewatch :)

#supernatural #destiel #castiel #dean winchester #sam winchester #crowley #list #tumblr recommendations #episodes #im bad at tags #sam and dean #favorite

[scorpioide]

𝐏𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐏𝐨𝐬𝐭

-Call me Yu or Zim, I accept any type of nickname, just ask me first if you want to give me one

-My Pronouns are They/Them or Ze/Zim (DO NOT USE FEMALE OR MALE PRONOUNS WITH ME, I WILL BLOCK YOU IF YOU USE THOSE.)

-Im non-binary, aroace and demi-romantic btw :3

-Im a minor, I won't expose my age, but yeah. I don't mind NSFW, sexual or suggestive jokes, etc. Just don't be a weirdo with me (I'm fine with flirty jokes as long as you're not an adult making them with me)

-Im multifandom!! :DD The main fandoms I'm in at the moment are Invader Zim, FNAF, Undertale, Cult of the Lamb, Sam & Max, etc.

-I like Zadr (no proshipp), So, if you feel uncomfortable with this ship, feel free to block me peacefully, it's okay, just don't threaten me with death or anything like that. This blog will have several mentions and perhaps art and fanfics about ZaDr so be warned.

-I am not a proshipper, please refrain from calling me that. I don't want proshippers interacting with me, mainly cuz many of them may like shipps that trigger me, So please refrain from calling me that. Thank you

-Im a Zim kinnie!! Me and Him are literally THE SAME.

-Basic DNI (also DNI if you sexualize Dib, Zim, Gaz, Tak, etc. Y'all nuts in a bad way, FLY AWAY FROM MY BLOG)

-The owner of this blog is too Silly and takes no responsibility if they make someone Silly too

-Maybe I'll post art here, just don't expect it to be good. I draw on my cell phone, which makes the quality of the images a little questionable. Sorry

-Expect a lot of shit from this blog like REALLY

-my blog tags are #scorpodoodles (for drawings) #yurants (for my rants/vents) #stfuyu (No definition. Random.) #defaeau (for my Invader Zim au, drawings, spoilers and facts about this au). #yuoutbreaks (In case I'm having psychological breakdowns and end up saying something I don't really mean, But I'll still say it anyway and I'll probably regret it).

-My ao3 account

That's it for now, maybe I'll update this pinned post, idk

THANK YOU FOR READING

WELCOME TO MY BLOG

#pinned post #intro post #blog intro #invader zim #zadr #cotl #sam and max

[pastel-rights]

whats the most iconic/memorable thing abt ur friends

what ISN'T memorable about my friends tbh. /lh

hmmm.... let me think.

Tae - Well in light of... recent events!! Tae trying to give me roses is right and present in my mind!! /lh/pos

but for most memorable... shit, there's a lot tbh. If I had to choose something though... I'd have to go with either "Move it, pretty boy!" or the day she told me Morningstar can't count/do basic math.

Oh and whenever I hear "I Love You Like An Alcoholic" or "This Day Aria" I will think of you.

Sam - "Is it Sammmmmuelllllll?" [ thanks for that one, mama!! /j ]

There's also the day me and Sam learned there's a KFC dating sim and we just lost our shit. Or them on their [ fake ] marriage counselor/priest/divorce attorney arc.

Or Dan the Divorce Deer!!! We still have tea sometimes, they're the best!

Or Immortalpheus with the questionnaire. Now THAT is the funniest shit I've ever been subjected to.

Navi - I always think of how Navi had that train conductor crisis and giggle. It's just so... Navi!! /lh

Fifi - Timothy has severely traumatized me.

Pins - YOU CALLED ME A FURINA KINNIE IM IN TEARS. IM NOT A FURINA KINNIE!!!! is this how Tae feels when she gets called a Light kinnie /j

Oh and your Jade musing arc was also pretty memorable to me!! Your Jade is so funny /pos

Clown - Clown's stepparent shenanigans are so fucking funny, and I never thought I would have a muse to accidentally become a part of them. /pos

Orange - Anytime Orange would entrust me to be their anon crime messenger was pretty funny yknow I think Orange is funny as FUCK.

Boris - the fool's gold simping arc. But I also giggle whenever I see their art, it lives rent free in my head it's SOOO good.

Klai - I always will think of Narrator Phineas when I think of Klai. I don't know what it is, but Klai loving Narrator Phineas as much as they do fills me with a warm and fuzzy feeling. /pos

Beth - i

i'm so sorry

the tram beth. the tram /lh

But I also will always and forever think of the commission of Susannah and Beth you did for me!!! And the next commission will go right next to it once it's finished🫶I want to get them printed out and put on my walls, will update you if I ever get to it. /gen

Marioguy - Brendan trying to murk Hare the moment they met will never NOT baffle me. congrats.

Emma - "only one monster lover can exist in this server. GET EM!"

[eemoon]

i’m currently on a 12 hour road trip SO!!!! redacted-verse car rolls >:) (it’s just the pack, clan and damn)

designated driver: david, sam, huxley

passenger princess+aux cord: asher, gavin (damien is fighting to be in that spot tho) vincent, angel, lovely

(in the back)

has both headphones in, trying to ignore everyone: damien, darlin and occasionally lasko

asleep: milo, freelancer

carsick: lasko, please help him he’s dying over here

is in the middle seat, practically crawling up to the front seats to talk: baabe, this section is also asher and gavin

pov. im a lasko kinnie

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #david shaw #sam collins #milo greer #redacted gavin #vincent solaire #redacted asher #redacted huxley #redacted damien #lasko moore #redacted freelancer

[pepsiwatermelon]

I think a lot of people, especially younger people who weren't integrated into the otherkin community before they started making their kin lists, don't realize that it's always been at it's base a spiritual identity. I'm not a hard gatekeeper, if someone sees like, Bakugo or whatever, and goes "oh shit he's literally me" and doesn't introspect farther than that, I'm not gonna tell them they can't be otherkin. But if you're going around being like "oh yeah I just relate to him, I'm not like these ✨ crazies ✨ who actually believe they're Eda Owlhouse, or a dog, or a dragon lololol" then congrats, you're both ableist as hell and not fucking otherkin man. You just think a character is neat. And that's okay!

Plus a lot of people are forgetting that otherkin and therian overlap widely. Hell, I bet a lot of newer self identified kin folk don't even know what therian is. When people genuinely new to the kin community ask me for my kin list, they're surprised and confused when I say deerkin, dragonkin. They think when I say I'm angelkin, specifically Lucifer, that I identify as a blorbo from their shows, and no I don't. Otherkin doesn't mean you identify as blorbo from your shows. I mean, it totally can! That's also extremely valid, our old host fully identified as Sam Winchester and The Batter on top of these other kintypes. But it's not JUST that, and in tired of getting erased and added to like, cringe comps by PEOPLE WHO CALL THEMSELVES OTHERKIN because I want to connect to my spirituality.

Also, when I say "people who call themselves otherkin" I mean literally just that- not that I think these people are faking or whatever. But if you're kin-for-fun and are self-identifying and CHOOSING this community, learn your history. Respect the people who's experiences you don't understand. Iirc, otherkin in the form I'm familiar with has existed since the 70's. Therians even longer before, though I'm admittedly not as educated on that one because I don't generally ID as therian despite having deer as a kintype and "qualifying".

It's, at it's core, a spiritual identity, and y'all are forgetting that. It's not a funny little roleplay game, that's being a furry or a cosplayer. Which is fine! I am also both of those! But if you're coming into the otherkin community, as a newer otherkin or an outsider, do your research. Talk to people who've been in the community for a while. I've been here for what, like nine or ten years now. Some of my mutuals and other friends even longer. It's more than just "lol I'm soooo like komeda 🤪" and while yeah that can be part of it, we have such a more in-depth and RICH history.

I used to get death threats and gore because I was openly otherkin. Now, being "a kinnie" is more normalized, but only within a very narrow window of expression that can go TikTok trending. Im glad these kids can express themselves without having to worry about what I did. But so many turn around and make fun of those of us who genuinely feel a spiritual connection to our kintype, and it's disheartening.

#j0.txt #otherkin #therian #kin for fun #kin

[kimiko-the-angel]

ASMR Vent/Rant with Me

This is either the best or worst idea I've ever done but I just wanted to say this- take this as you will and if what I'm gonna say offends you; you can feel free to have a civilized talk with me in my asks (as anon or just yourself as you prefer) or my dm about what Im about to spout out, Im very much gonna regret this sooner or later but I wanted it out my system- may or may not lose a few moots and followers bcuz of what Im abt to do

Stop romanticizing toxic behavior

If you're already at the read more, you're probably itching to know what bs I'm gonna be talking about rn and you're probs going; "Bro, there's alot of toxic behavior in characters, which are you talking abt???"

And I'm gonna start with the LISTENERS. Yea, stupid to be ranting abt a character that you insert yourself to, right? but its blowing my mind how some fanon listener behavior is a bit romanticized

Yes, I'm talking abt Darlin'

It just bothers me that some people who kin Darlin' go to lengths just to prove they kin our fanon listener... Going as far as to endanger their health bcuz a non-existent character is doing the same toxic thing

Its ok to sometimes forget things but to think its cool and quirky that you relate to a character that basically kills their own health with their actions, shouldnt be romaticized- Like, The person forgets to eat to the point its like they're starving themselves

Darlin' doesn't eat for days at a time? Oh boy, same, I kin them so much!1!1!11 I'm abt to pass out from exhaustion and aint this just a Darlin' kinnie moment?

But what some of them fail to see is that Darlin' as a character has Sam to stop them from running themselves ragged, They, however, does not and it bothers me so much that they would go through that just to say they relate to a character

Darlin' is a character that you can insert yourself to, They're failing to see that they're already a walking kinnie without having to show the unhealthy coping

Ya'll aren't getting a romantic life that you so wish if you tryna kill yourself with how you neglect your own health, just to relate to a character-

The Darlin' we know is the bandwagon idea that the fandom has in whole and not 1 person alone and it deeply concerns me how they have to prove themself to be doing the exact same unhealthy coping mechanism to just say they kin a character

What I'm trying to say is; You don't have to endanger your health to prove that you relate to a character, You don't have to keep on doing the same toxic behavior bcuz you found a character you relate to.

#redacted asmr #redacted darlin #redacted asmr darlin #redacted sam #redacted asmr sam #redacted asmr sam collins #redacted sam collins

[taylorswiftserialkillergene]

sorry about when i say things here but you can’t stop me

[ sam / tinkerbell (or tink)

sam-winchester-kinnie>

liqu1d-smooth>

laptoppin-it-up>

jason-blossom-understander>

alivegirljasonblosson>

hispanicsabrinaspellman>

betty-cooper-kinnie>

taylorswiftserialkillergene

(im sorry) ]

#my tags: #sam rambles #save for sister #watch later #read later #bettycore #miss swift #riverdale amv #fav #lana #taylana #wallpaper #save #headers #sam reads #keep #icon #stick figure violence #robots #girls #riverdale #pinned #sdc #fiona #mitski #listen later #mecore #my poetry #succession #merriecat core

[diviinaee]

TALKING ABOUT THE QUINN TRILOGY OF VIDS WE GOT

obviously spoilers ahead for all 3 vids !!!

i had this post in my drafts to put my love reactions on so that's why the tenses are so fucked up LMFAOOO

tws are the same as all the videos!!

Your Cruel Vampire Ex Got Caught

FIRST OFF SAM N DARLIN TALKIN WILL ALWAYS GIVE ME SUCH HAPPINESS. THEN BEING HAPPY WITH EACH OTHER. THAT IS WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY.

oh davids calling slay

THEY WHAT.

i dont trust this shit for a SECOND BRAH

david speedin lol thas hawt

THE DEPARTMENT IS ON THE LINE ISTG THEY GETTING ON MY NERVES. if at some point we don't overthrow the government imma wore out M Y S E L F.

MR FOX? OMGGGGG (also got accused of being erik by @blutomindpretzel because earlier i mentioned foxes and wolves😝)

Henry sounds like someone who drinks expresso just enough to gain back his social cuts

YEA HENRY FUCK OFF (im so sorry Henry ik your just doing your job)

ok yall got quinn. let darlin kill him now please 😻🙏🏽

HE WHAT.

imma be so honest a part of me said, "LET HER DIE JUST FUCK HIM UP BRAH" intrusive thoughts did not slay as usual

IM SORRY? YOU WANNA BRING UP THE ETHICS OF THIS SHIT NOW? (everyone welcome philosophy student div)

SO THE VERY SYSTEM THAT WILL (W/O CONSENT REMEMBER) ERASE THE MEMORY OF UNEMPOWERED HUMANS TO MAINTAIN COVERT IS SAYING THAT USING THE VERY POWERS THEY ARE GIVEN TO FIND INFORMATION THAT COULD SAVE A LIFE IS UNETHICAL BECAUSE "HE STILL DESERVES RIGHTS"??? DAVID IS RIGHT, HE DOESN'T DESERVE THEM. HE IS A FUCKING HOMICIDAL PSYCHOPATHIC ABUSIVE SADISTIC AND MANIPULATIVE VAMPIRE.

are the rights of a murderer worth more than the life you can save. ISTG THE DEPARTMENT IS SO LUCKY THAT I DON'T EXIST IN THEIR WORLD BC I WOULD FUCKING DESTROY THEM

sigh.

oh shit the video still playing. who he wanna see?

you've gotta be fucking kidding me.

SAM? oh he's gonna mindfuck this shit all up

the CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT OF DARLIN OHMYGOOOD. Early Darlin would've shifted and ran to the department the moment David called. But look at them now. They are calm. Angry, but calm. They encourage Sam to talk because they realize that their want for vengeance is less important than the life they could save.

im FUCKING SCARED

Your Mate Confronts Your Cruel Vampire Ex

Sam's breath before he enters the room im alr sobbing.

HES FUCKING BRITISH

oh my fucking gawd. OH. MY. G O D .

also GBA love that. i love him.

YUHH SAM GETTIN STRAIGHT TO THE POINT

"your manners could use some work" YOUR ENTIRE PERSONALITY COULD USE SOME WORK QUINN

gba is doing such a good job like i genuinely wanna punch my phone

"i wanna get to know you" this ain't A FUCKING DATE HIJO DE SU PUTA MADRE

"i do look rather dashing in blood" lets test that theory. im gonna use a chainsaw, a bat with nails, etc. ALLÍ SI YA VEREMOS QUIEN SE RIA ENTONCES IGNORANTE HIJO DE MIERDA

FRED MENTION IN 2023 LETS FUCKING GOOOOOO

nvm i hate this mention.

FREDRICK COLLINS? IM FUCKING SOBBING.

HOW DOES QUINN KNOW ABOUT SAM'S TURNING-

ALEXIS ISTG.

this girl is either dead or doesn't exist bc quinn just fucking loves talking

i wanna know what coffin you'd like quinn 😻🫶🏽

"humansblah blah blah" mf YOU WERE A HUMAN ONCE YOU STUPID DENSE IDIOT

imma be honest quinn reminds me of my ex and my darlin kinnie is FUCKING SCREAMING AND CRYING

"is her life worth less than your comfort?" ......props that's a good line.......

CAN HE STOP TALKING ABOUT FRED ICAN'T DO THIS BRO

as someone who was refused closure. yea. the worst thing a monster like quinn could do is deny them closure. FUCK. ERIK YOU BRILLIANT BITCH

darlin is dissociating so hard i can feel it

"betryal" THEY RAT YOU OUT FOR BEIN HOMICIDAL AND YOU- i need to calm down before i break this phone cause i JUST got it 2 months ago.....

ouch. erik did you text my ex for this 😝🫶🏽

comfort from the world in pain and suffering GOD.

SLOPPY SECONDS? AHORA SI LO PIDE VOY A MATAR A ESTE PINCHE HIJO DE PUTA

shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up.

QUINN. OH MY GOD HE KEEPS FUCKING TALKING.

HE WAS STALKING THEM? EWEWEWEWEWEW

"surely they've asked for it by now, knowing them" not gonna lie this activated my ptsd and i had to take a lil quirky crying break 😻🫶🏽

HIM CALLING TOWARDS THE WINDOW BC HE KNOWS DARLIN IS THERE FUCCCCCCKKKKKK I WOULD'VE PUNCHED THAT WINDOW

goddammit erik you brilliant genius.

Quinn's Aftermath

I'm alr crying and i haven't even pressed play brah.

OH THANK GOD THE ADDRESS

F U U C K THE HUG I'M CRYING

DAVID HEARD EVERYTHING? FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I'M GONNA SOB I CAN'T DO THIS

"i need to get you out of here" I'm sobbing. I'm fucking sobbing. did i mention i was sobbing. cause if not, im sobbing.

CAN I JUST SAY HOW MUCH SWEETHEART IS A FUCKING MVP LIKE THEY INFORMED DAVID FIRST AND IS KEEPING THEM IN THE LOOP I FUCKING LOVE THEM

DAVID AND DARLIN HUG IM SOBBING EVEN HARDER NOW

i can feel the dissociation radiating off of darlin im still crying

"what can i do darlin" pls remove my tear ducts and give me a goddamn lobotomy/j

did i mention I've been sobbing this whole time 😝

"i thought you'd be angrier" that's dissociation for ya.

cold hatred > fiery hatred : you cannot let the rage consume you because if you do, it becomes your whole life and you can bring yourself to a position where you have no chance of moving on in the future

this audio deserves an oscar IDC THIS HELPS SO MANY PARTS OF MYSELF THAT WERE LEFT UNHEALED IM STILL SOBBING

"what he told me doesn't change us" you guessed it. sobbing.

"you are my absolute priority" I'm gonna be so honest. I had to turn off the video. I never knew that was something I needed to hear but DAMN.

HOURS? HE DUMPED THEIR TRAUMA FOR HOURS? OMFG LET ME AT HIM

the way he says that he sees darlin after knowing about their past. As someone who's been through

"What I heard, in all his rambling, was the story of a good, kind person...with an open heart... trusting a man who promised to care about them and him using that trust to hurt them." + everything after that. jesus christ um. I'm gonna rant so if you don't wanna see that skip till i says BALLS 🤪

I've been in this position of close people finding out about my past and I'm gonna be so honest. If I had someone like Sam, I don't think I would've fallen to rock bottom as hard as I did. All a victim wants is for people to understand what they went through and not think less of them. I remember the way I was talked down to and still am due to the person's knowledge of my trauma. Sam saying that he sees a fighter who got up from the amount of trauma, is something that I begged for. It's what Darlin needs. They need to see that although this is a big portion of their life, it does not reflect their person. Erik truly, once again, hit a very sensitive topic right on the bullseye.

BALLS 🤪🫶🏽

THEM BREAKING DOWN STOP IM GONNA BREAK DOWN WITH THEM.

all the listeners think crying and being anything other than happy is stupid and i RELATE

my momma bear is coming out jesus christ. THEM THINKING IT'S HUMILIATING TO LIKE THAT ASPECT? FUCK I'M GONNA SOB

[imma skip to David calling because the rest of sam and darlings talk i was just ugly sobbing]

hold on. "You're my heart darlin." "You deserve so much better than the hands life's dealt you" sobbing even more.

N E W A Y .

I FUCKING KNEW IT THAT GIRL WAS DEAD ISTG THIS IS WHY THE DEPARTMENT IS FUCKING STUPID WHY WOULD QUINN GIVE THEM A CHANCE TO SAVE SOMEONE

HE HAD PICTURES AND VIDEOS??? I'm gonna gag istg THAT SADISTIC FUCK

"he's gone quiet" he'll go quiet when i KILL HIM

fuck. man fuck what anyone says, vega, regulus, blake have nothing on quinn. VEGA YOU COULD'VE FED ON THIS BASTARD AND GOT MORE POWER THAN WHAT YOU GOT FROM IVAN

YES. YES. NO WITNESSES FOR ME TORTURING HIM FUCK YEAAAAAA.

only condition is that they're still is something to kill? I GOTCHUUU

i need William comforting Darlin. And Asher. And Milo. HELL I'LL TAKE CHRISTIAN TOO PLS I NEED MORE COMFORT.

FUCK YEAAA VAMPIRIC LAWS ARE SLAYING

KILL THE BASTARD. LET IT DIE LET IT DIE LET IT SHRIVEL UP AND DIIIIIEEEEEEEE

can't wait to see quinns face when he realizes the fact that darlin is gonna torture him the same way he torture them.

NOW TIME TO WATCH GUY, OLLIE, AND CAELUM BECAUSE HOLY SHIT I NEED IT

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #redactedverse #redacted shaw pack #redacted sam #redacted darlin #redacted quinn #redacted dump

[astrobei]

hi suni astrobei my wife my love my bug <3 top 5 movies of all time?

YVIE NNILKYWAY my light my life my pumpkin pie omg ok so i am the Most indecisive person on the face of this entire planet and my top 5 movies Of All Time will literally change day to day and i watch movies a lot less than i do tv shows but. today my top 5 movies Of All Time include (in no particular order):

1. everything everywhere all at once bc i am the eldest gay daughter to asian immigrant parents and let me tell u . i walked out of that theater with all of my makeup transferred to the inside of my mask and None of it left on my face from the sheer force of my tears. idk it is just so special to me it Gets Me i have never felt so seen and i have never ever cried so hard at a movie before and it’s just one of those movies that permanently changed the chemistry of my brain (+mitski in the soundtrack ! hello !) i need to rewatch it so bad actually

2. ratatouille! idk what to say about this one it’s just so nostalgic and such a comfort movie and i could watch it a billion times for the rest of my life and never get bored! the vibes the ambiance the bittersweet ending idk it just is so 🫂🫂🫂🫂 to me just the embodiment of a hug

3. the empire strikes back is also one of the most comfort movies of all time for me !! and IDK i don’t rewatch star wars as much as i should probably because there are so many movies and i get overwhelmed so i’ve seen the others like once or twice each, maybe a few more for a new hope but esb i’ve watched like. a million times EASY. just everything about it!! the iconic ice planet hoth opening and the hanleia moments and everything about luke in this movie is so top tier. such a classic feel and watching it feels like the equivalent of a warm mug of tea for my brain. just also feeling very star wars today so that might be playing into a bit but this movie is just mwah chefs kiss for Me

4. ok this is definitely on here because i just watched it and have been thinking about it nonstop since but i FINALLY !! watched it (2017) (and also the sequel but whatever .) and i can like Feel the neurons in my brain rearranging themselves i get it i get the hype i understand why my mutuals are going crazy all the time i get why people have not shut up about it since it came out I GET IT OK ! IM ON BOARD I AM A SHELL OF THE PERSON I USED TO BE I AM CHANGED FOREVER i am so. yeah

5. probably the perks of being a wallflower not to sound Annoying but every time i watch it i can Feel my soul getting ripped out of my body and shredded to pieces bit by tiny bit. i literally have watched it so many times i know it by heart i KNOW WHAT HAPPENS AND YET. i cry every damn time. infp charlie kinnies rise up 😔✊ i think this and eeaao are two movies that are on my Actual For Real Favorite Movies Of All Time list and yes i sob like a baby while watching both of them let’s not think about why all my favorite movies are so sad Ok. idk something about the ending of course but also the scene w sam and charlie in the kitchen of the party and the scene with his brother coming home and the fight in the cafeteria OHH idk. it is just so special to me i could watch it every single day forever and i’d melt from the sheer force of my tears eroding away at my body but it will have been worth it!

anyways. when u sent this i immediately forgot any movie id ever seen in my entire life Oops! i’m usually more of a tv show girlie bc i do not usually have the attention span for movies (especially long ones) but this was very fun and now i want to go watch All Of Them again LOVE U SO MUCH YVIE THANK U FOR THE ASK 🫂

#(gets asked for my fav anything): starts visibly sweating #um #suddenly i remmeber No Movies Ever #and they change every day but these are Up There for sure #/ask