#im yearning over here

[lemon-wedges]

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#ey #im yearning over here #hey #hey rememeber when dave said he doesnt in god so he only prays to hal?

[guydog]

everything everywhere matters to everything (x)

#brainrotting #its supposed to be something about this emotion only this movie can make me feel #about this loneliness and and detachment and yearning to be a part of life you're not supposed to have #i can't explain it but here we go #ignore this im sorry this movie just makes something to my brain #i can't get over this #swiss army man #manny x hank #hank x manny #its a link to the movie script i took screens from btw #longpost #🦦

[poems-of-a-lover]

ugh. periods /neg. need a guy to hold me in his arms and rest his hands under my shirt on my stomach for the warmth and kiss my forehead and tell me im his pretty boy. or ill die.

#i dont get super super dysphoric a lot. my period however. sends me over the edge. #im dying here #just gotta keep telling myself itll get better eventually even if it doesnt feel like it rn yknow #anyway i gotta eat im faint and dizzy rn KFHSLFJDLFJ #mlm #mlm yearning #mlm post #mlm love #gay mlm #mlm thoughts #t4t #trans mlm #mlm blog #t4t yearning

[enigmaticdoctorscully]

even more animation test redraw because, ✨ Julieta ✨

#encanto #julieta madrigal #encanto art #my art #digital art #i.... am so SO gay #ive got nothing but sapphic yearning #i mean... #LOOK AT HER #ya know? #I could not choose what to do to the background so just..... look at her and let the background stay fuzzy #her serene face just.... #i wanna cHOMP #her neck #her NEEEECKKK #IM fine #imma just be sad and gay over here

[pawbeanies]

coming to the horrid realization i am easily swayed by nice words and snacks. much to consider

#older coworker (which is like all of them i guess) gave me a choco and complimented me for working hard #and like. ive just had the choco and now i am like yearning for another #and the conclusion here is i need to work Harder around her in order to get another treat #which like. is a horrid dogbrained thing to say but like i want another choco. it was good it was hazelnut and im a bitch for hazelnut chco #ways to get my support. compliments and hazelnut chocos...... #but ideally dark choco bc i dont. like milk or white all thatbmuch (too sweet #ne way the sugar just hit me and im like all over and thats why i am rambly

[apollos-olives]

tbh i would kill people over chinese coconut shrimp.

#there's this chinese buffet next to my house that my family frequents and their food is HEAVENLY #and on weekends they serve creamy fried coconut shrimp and good lord if i could eat that for the rest of my life i would die a happy man #their coconut shrimp and their crab ragoons could make me moan. im not even lying. #i yearn for their coconut shrimp almost every day... #i am their biggest fan #shrimp is expensive as fuck over here tho

[devotedlystrangewizard]

totk really is one of those games that make me go "ok thanks for the characters, setting, and general plot, but ill take it from here <3" because the entire historical timeline had so much potential for interesting and nuanced story telling but they just went with the old zelda story formula and YES thats how theyve always done it but botw was such a reset in terms of gameplay that they couldve overhauled how they handle story in totk. but they didnt

#ramblings #all the races swearing fealty to rauru made me so uncomfortable #like yeahhh ganondorf evil or whatever but also. hey. why is the one leader fighting for the independence of his people. the evil villain #am i just not getting something here am i insane #my first thought when i heard about ganondorf returning was 'wow they could turn him into an actual character' AND THEN THEY DIDNT #its been half a year i feel like the honeymoon period is over. totk was kinda mid. im sorry #it was alright but it just. didnt grab me. at all #botw was interesting because it was new but totk made me yearn for the older zelda formula #though tbh. im always yearning for the older zelda formula. i grew up on oot & twilight princess #you hype up ganondorf so much you make him look like THAT (no im still not over this) and then you just. do what weve always done #this happened in twilight princess. it happened in oot. it happened in ww. hell if you count demise it happened in skyward sword #IT HAPPENE.D IN THE FUCKING HYRULD WARRIORS SPINOFF #'oooh noooo the great evil has returned' WEVE BEEN HERE EVERY TIME. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH POTENTIAL #heres the gerudo having a man born and making him king as is their custom but they spend years in fear that he will be monstrous #here they are after all these iterations of ganondorf afraid to even have kids out of fear that SOMEONE will bring the new great evil #heres a child recently given the throne despite being barely more than a baby always treated with fear by everyone around him #ARE YOU SEEING MY VISION???? #the curse is right there. do something with it. oh my god #i KNOW zelda games are just simple heros journeys but pleaseeee i need food #you dont have to make ganondorf nice just. do something with him im so tired of the evil guy caricature #i like guys who are plain evil but i like them more when they have some fucked up motivation beyond taking over the world

[cptnbeefheart]

crazy eyes bc i got sick of having this ITYSL summer lovin’ skit painting on my floor. didn’t really finish it so much as i gave up but thats okay i think. happy new year more details in the tags :]

#my art #ok to rb #:d #used the ‘fuck an1sh kap00r vanta blk 3.0’ paint for the background #(its on a wood surface #i started this at the end of July (i think) right after the new season came out #id been really yearning to get back into acrylic painting again so i thought If i can finish this then that means im capable and also it #will get the scaries out by refamiliarizing myself w the medium #but basically it sat half finished on my floor until dec 27 when i was like you know what im sick of this i need it gone #anyway theres a lot of things i wish id finished on this but i think i just need to move on for my own sake perhaps ill revist it in the #future. I dont think ive ever shared a painting on here but i guess you could call this my style? i think it’s informed by doing mostly #digital painting and not really knowing how to blend. i like acrylics because they dry quickly. i like for my layers to be pretty visible #and shapey. #i think you should leave #itysl #i put it right next to my bed the two tims watch over my sleeping body now

[semisolidmind]

uuuuuuuggghhh i wanna draw monster boyfriendssssss

send me some suggestions if ya got em

#get creative #ill take scenarios #im just....yearning over here

[bewilderedbuck]

it's all about the blood and yearning for me isn't it

#sorry for all the fuckigng. yearning. lately. is there another word for yearning. longing pining hungering etc etc #ooooh hungering. yes. fits in w my whole 'totally normal about cannibalism' thing. yeah. #anyways yeah. sorry. im just. going thru it over here #s.txt

[lightbulb-warning]

16 classmates means 256 potential dynamics to explore if we only consider 1 on 1 interactions (which i will! ...until this sentence ends) and that means 256 drawings. considering that group interactions exist and it can be any combo that is... a way larger number.

i have 2 hands, 0 time and too much ambition!!

haha! oh no.

#i would like to live my life and also fundematally tear apart my hpfxtn from the inside out and roll in its guts #that's not really possible unfortunately #because TIME #bitches love to hate on me for “quality over quantity uwu” which is valid as FUCK babe you do you #i need to do me and me wants to be engulfed in the concept of interaction. yes specifically through ship art. #that means gotta go fast. #as in. i get told a lot i should not try to improve my drawing speed because i draw fast enough. they fail to consider that i want to!!!! #my brain is an enigma to me too im a barely functioning human if me having social competence comes in the form of free art then #my therapist is gonna make so much fun of me i guess #/lh #mind you. this here talking to myself? this is all silly bullshit ego. i know very well whatever i WANT to do ill end up drawing koquichechi #“ok me we made a plan to practice drawing subtle understated emotions with charact-” “what if we drew koquichechi slapstick instead” #“but the PLAN??” “look at that. it's koquichechi.” #and then i babysit myself into FORCING myself to draw shit i want to draw and would enjoy drawing but it takes SO LONG #an doing things that take time *takes time*. outrageous. how dare you. i hate it. (bla bla bla time is an illusion i KNOW) #and im still figuring out subtle. groooooaaaaaaannnnnnnnn!!!!!!! #eh whatevs! #whether i make ANY of my bullshit projects real or not what matters is having fun with it before i die /lh #its gonna be okay #*yearning* i just think itd be cool!! #shut up maiora #rambling #i get threatened with violence constantly by art friends. they're so completely right. #anyway tell me all about your rare-pairs if you want!! i might scribble em in my free time :> #(use the ask box) #(yes platonic too!) #(i think itd be fun 👉👈) #(i wanna hear people's thoughts!!) #(might be done in pencil ^^') #(im getting distracted HAVE A NICE DAY BUHBYE)

[lith-myathar]

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#so #here is the thing #when you've spent most of your life in a very happy relationship with fantasy #the idea of having a relationship in *reality* #well that may not be very happy. might result in feeling like your heart got ripped out your asshole. but even ignoring that #suddenly the amorphous idea of a partner (which can be anything) takes the shape of an actual person #which can very much only be one thing. this feels like doors closing. feels like getting trapped #part of the difficulty here is that i have difficulty not thinking in the long term (this is a defense mechanism apparently) so #even allowing the possibility of being with someone feels confining #because what if the reality is painfully disappointing (like everyone keeps telling me it will be #bc nothing can measure up to the fantasy) and then im trapped between a lifetime of disappointment and breaking somebody's heart #like. fantasy and Yearning leave one empty to a degree but they've kept me *alive* #and how could the reality ever have that same emotional high while also being Safe and in control #also it doesn't hurt anybody #my over the top desire for intensity feels like something nobody's ever going to want to match. too big. too much. unhealthy prolly #even if they did it wouldn't necessarily be a good thing #so. better maybe to quarantine myself to fantasy. #the Rewards of Being Loved tho. i want those. #realistic and rational part of me knows that Those are the Real Good Healthy Thing that will help the pain #but damn if im not attached to my little pet torments #what if i don't want to be healed? does suffering and trauma just sort of get you addicted to the intensity of emotion and then you're jus #chasing that forever? is anything healthy ever going to feel like Enough??? #like how do you just ask somebody ''hey do you want to crawl inside each other's rib cages and take everything way too fucking seriously #so we can attempt to maintain a perpetual state of Desire and the subsequent altered state of consciousness until we both die?'' #''but in like a chill way?'' #like that's *insane* #im insane. is there any way to have both??? #ugh. anyway. don't get crushes this sucks.

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[possiblytracker]

valentines day became a lot more fun and less agonising to me as an ace-aro person after it finally clicked over the past few years that whatever the fuck happens today is what i make of it, and that can and does include loving and appreciating the shit out of the friends ive decided i'd like to spend my life with in a way that i can define on my own terms not limited to the generic concept of romance. which i absolutely revel in doing, personally

#first and last post im gonna make about it BUT #kinda wild as a kid who got picked on on vday and got Insanely bitter abt the whole holiday for most of my teenage years #and coped by being 'totally fine with' the idea of living and dying alone bc who could Possibly want to get that close on my terms #that im here now and actually vibing with it #and like. if you hate vday personally i am giving you a pat on the back in solidarity. me too still for the most part #i am not going to be annoying about it for your sakes i respect you so much. best of luck avoiding Designated Love Day #but i am personally reclaiming this shit as a semi-recently discovered Bitch Who Yearns. #what a nice day to consider love in all its incredible forms! how great to remember i love and am loved in return #despite the years and years of thinking it just wasnt something that even loosely applied to me #funny how that works out sometimes. that im still learning things about myself #(some of this is slightly exaggerated ofc i have and have had friends who mean a Lot to me throughout! when i say 'alone' i dont mean Alone #(but it is still only recently ive started to unpack the 'i dont Need to bond that closely with people im Fine to live on my own' kinda #shit that i internalised for a stupid long time as a teenager #maybe i Do want to spend my life with other people in my own queerplatonic way and not only are there people who want that with me #but also make me want it with Them. and thats more than i could ever have imagined as a teenager) #ok tags ramble over im done getting sentimental khgCSDJ

[astro-inthestars]

As much as I love friendship and the innate wonder of platonic love and how strongly it empowers and shapes this world... you all know I'm a romantic, and thus I must give some Valentine love to my most beloved f/os <3333

....But it looks like they got to me first-

#astroarts #ren is stupid with love #will i explain who any of these were from and which fandoms? no :D #some might know though! #i knowwww valentine's is over but like. .. .. .. i needed to do something cheesy and romantic okay IM YEARNING #anyways yes here's a glimpse of astro being cringe and self-indulgent. you all asked for this #i will nOT BE TAKING QUESTIONS AT THIS TIME. THANK YOU AND GOODBYE

[onlyliquoranointsyou]

i am so desperate for an im only me when im with you url but i cant!!!! find any!!!! that arent!!!!! taken!!!!!!!!!!!!

#theyre not even being used theyre being hoarded and they dont have names so i cant even ask for them #WAILING #i just love im only me so much i want to support her :((((((( #if anyone uhhh knows any good iomwiwy urls or know anyone who has one uhhhhh let me know pretty pretty please #otherwise ill be over here. yearning. #*daniposting