#it made me feel better

[simplepotatofarmer]

people keep misinterpreting 'until i end up dead' and what happened in the music video and even dragging technodad into it and claiming he also just wants money and i swear to you it's going to be my breaking point. i am going to snap.

#that song was the first time my youngest processed their grief for techno #and how scared BOTH the kids were that if he could die then they could die #the song and video made them feel better #it made me feel better #it's okay not to like it but to slander technodad AND straight up lie about it like. #loyal talks about stuff and things

[sirowsky]

When it's been a mentally rough day at work but you end it on the victory of getting your ass to the gym despite the lack of inspiration, and then the Aurora lines up with Big Dipper just as you finally come home... 🥹💙

#it feels a bit like the sky is welcoming me home #totally not true but still #it made me feel better #🌠 #constellations #big dipper #aurora borealis

[ckygetsjobs]

y e a h, Dico stimming

#Don’t even ask #It made me feel better #I love him so much #brandon dicamillo #jackass

[squigglywindy]

I Warned You I Would Write A Sickfic

#I can't help myself #Have some sick Sky #It made me feel better #Linked Universe #LU Sky #LU Wind #LU Wild #LU Legend #LU Four #LU Hyrule #LU Warriors #LU Time #LU Twilight #LU Wolfie #Terror Chicken #Story Time With Squiggles

[effervescentdragon]

#sch this #i dont know where i found it but its #it made me feel better #effervescentdragonrants

[posts-from-employee-427]

what are you drawing? is it something Violent?

I drew William.

#i dont feel like sharing it #but #it made me feel better

[someoneimsure]

hey idk what's going on but i hope you're ok. i can't say i'm here for you if it's like, too heavy a topic but i'm down to distract ya or something if ya ever need it.

I really needed to talk about this apparently. So I'm going to ... talk about it and just talk about my experience with being triggered. And knowing someone is listening does help, strangely. It also might help distract with it, idk. I don't mean to overwhelm this ask but I hope it gives some context as to what was happening and that it helps other people who go through something similar.

I am a little embarrassed to talk about this and almost put all of this under a read more, but I think that might also make it worse so. Apologies for the long post.

What triggered everything is, it's--I can't say it's stupid because that makes the situation worse. It was not stupid. But it felt "stupid".

Basically, I was thinking about something to write about (a personal experience turned into a viligante!reader snippet for tumblr) only to then experience very random--okay, not really random, but seriously intrusive thoughts about my biggest traumas all at once. I was so upset that I felt I needed to leave tumblr temporarily because I believe some BS on tumblr caused it and it was--it was not stupid, my reaction to it was not stupid, but it felt "stupid" because it was a significantly delayed trauma reaction and the situation really didn't call for such an--It's not stupid, but it felt "stupid".

First time I've experienced that in a literal decade. It was horrible. Half of my brain was super pissed off about it, about myself, about my body, which did not help the part of myself that just kept spiraling down a deep dark rabbit hole of nausea, dread, and shaking. It was like a dragon stomping around in the brain while the rest of me was tumbling down a very steep mountain. It caused a lot of emotional pain and the heavy blankets I used would not work.

So I stepped off tumblr. Tried the heavier heavy blanket, which also didn't work. And discovered I couldn't write. So nothing changed.

So I went back to tumblr because there was nothing I could do to change my situation and just... talked about it? Sort of? More like complained about my body--which is not stupid, not my fault, it happens sometimes, I'm okay.

So I posted that I was experiencing something horrible and clearly it's--it was not stupid, but it felt "stupid", and the part of myself that was angry and furious and yelling about it was fighting the part of myself that was starting to seize my heart in what felt like a fist covered in iron needles. Which is the indicator that one of my worst anxiety attacks was starting, which always turns into me lying down on the floor wait for hours for the heart pain to stop.

And then I saw the responses on tumblr. And responded to them. And I felt better after posting and acknowledging that people had noticed and I realized it was Not Stupid like my brain kept telling me. The angry part of me shut up. Then I got more responses. I responded to those as well and acknowledged them, and fuck therapy works guys. I almost felt normal. The heavy blanket was working again.

So what could have been a potential trip to the hospital has turned into a learning experience and I am sooo much better now, omfg. I am also extremely exhausted and tired, haha. But I feel almost normal again. That is such a relief. I cannot express my gratitude enough for everyone who reached out and helped me.

Sorry if this is too heavy. Putting the experience into words helps me contextualize it and even feel better about it, strangely enough. I'm gonna maybe write a reader!vigilante snippet that covers the feelings aspect and how it was resolved but with the BatClan. It might turn into something longer, though I probably will not post unless someone expresses interest.

Thank you sincerely for the ask. <3

#i am not ready to talk about the trauma that did trigger this #only because i am worried about triggering myself again #chest and throat are still a little tight but otherwise i feel so normal right now #i could cry i feel so good #just thank you so much for asking! <3 #asks #personal stuff #my body is exhausted but at least it's not super exhausted #i am probably going to bed early because of all this #i forgot that i actually started writing because it was like therapy #it made me feel better #triggered

[cinderspots]

Ok I finally caved and responded to kokobot mostly because I wanted to see if it was fake (bot trauma, sorry) and now I'm mostly upset that it's real and it works.

#cindertalk #kokobot #LOOK #I HAVE BEEN CONVINCED THAT IT WAS A SCAM #And lo and behold #It made me feel better #I am glaring at my phone while typing this bc i am UPSET

[considerad]

my friends from Canada just came back here and they went oh hey how’s the dissertation and I told them in moderate detail how it is (nightmarish and bad) and they went oh yeah normal stuff dw it sounds like you’re on track you’ll definitely make it to the deadline you’re okay

and then told me their own horror stories (still ongoing for both of them) of grad school and writing-to-submitting the Big Final Thing

#it made me feel better #they were very sympathetic but also confident that it's going okay and I trust them so ig it's going okay :) #you gotta believe a PhD in compsci when he says that complete data deletion is STILL not the worst case scenario #and a Data Engineering PhD candidate who says she wrote her Masters dissertation in 48 grueling hours (with a 90% grade!) #it was also just really really nice to see them - we got bubble tea! here! at a so-called Korean cafe! what strides our city is making <3 #thought

[strawberryspence]

happy birthday dae!!! 🥳🎂✨ hope you have a great day, sending you a birthday hug from here! 💛

thank you alice!!! sending you back the hug with a slice of cake! ily! 🫶🏻

#dae talks #the hug was very warm #it made me feel better

[thethirtyproject444]

spent the whole first half of my evening walk sulking bc i just wanted to finish work and crash and i felt ugly and didn’t want to go outside

spent the second half in childlike glee feeling the cold breeze on my face and watching the sun turn everything golden as it set

#i hate to say it but #it made me feel better #it felt so autumnal omg #personal

[lgbtlunaverse]

Nothing will dispell the "the curtains were just blue" myth faster than writing something yourself, because the amount of pretentious symbolism i am putting in my silly little fanfics is ridiculous. I mean SO much with these words, literally every single one of them. This fic has twenty five typos and zero correct uses of punctuation but if there's curtains you bet your ass I put thought into what colour they were.

#writing #fic writing #like this is stuff i'm doing for fun with my perfectionism meter turned down as far as i can get it #and i am still thinking about it A LOT #talk to me about how in red string fic jgy perceives the memory block both as syrup and as mud but nmj thinks it feels like blood #it's just a thing in their heads that mentally feels kind of thick and sticky but they both made something different of it #it's about issues with cleanliness / lies as a way to craft an illusion of a better lopking world vs the constant violence nmj lives in

[atlas-affogato]

I threw up in a bar bathroom tonight :)

#it made me feel better #super drunk feels like #drunk for my birthday 🥳🥳🥳

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[beanghostprincess]

Laios saying he's stronger and better organized than Shuro because he eats 3 meals every day and sleeps properly is probably one of the most encouraging things a fictional character has ever said to me

#no bc i don't i have the words to explain how much i love this #my mental health regarding food has never been more optimistic #like wow are you telling me that eating will actually made me feel ???? good ????? #between this and sanji i might actually get a lil bit better huh #dungeon meshi #laios touden

[healpimp]

offense classes bonding

#tf2 #own art #i saw a tiktok and it made me unreasonably mad bc it was ooc #made this to make myself feel better #shoutout to the helmet party shipper that got me to draw instead of playing video games