#its all good i mean wtf

[good-beanswrites]

My lyrics for Double!! I really loved this song and became like a thousand times more impressed by Deco27 and Natsuki Hanae after working with it for so long 😅 I chickened out of recording this one in the apartment but if anyone wants to cover it... lmk.... 👀 I can definitely put something together to help hear how the rhythms work, because I got it all to line up very nicely! (Lyrics under the cut and my little commentary in the tags)

(I’ve got you, leave it to me!)

Welcome home, it's another day, keeping things at bay, you see no change

Not a smile in this mess, you're doing your best, you say (wake up)

"Don't need a break" as you proceed to start breaking, both sleeping and waking makes you bleed

And now, reborn anew -- I'll take in on for you

Not your plan? Who gives a damn, I'm here and here is where I'll stay

It's just the two of us, nothing left to run from. You're safe now, your hero's come.

All I did was dream, is that a crime? Is that enough to name me guilty by?

"He can't be trusted, he lied," you cried. Made me out as the bad guy. But why?

Ah, I'm the one that saved you, don't you see? So tell me why the hell you cry to me!

Let me hear you revel, grateful, cling to me with "savior," "adore" -- oh, sing to me.

Welcome home, it's another day, keeping things at bay, you see no change

Too late, your limits passed. Too late, yourself has cracked (goodnight)

If you persist I'll assist with releasing, keeping your peace is why I exist

And now reborn anew -- I'll take it on for you

(Oh, hello? Mom? It’s been a while. Yeah.. well, I mean, some days are hard but I’m doing alright, don’t worry. How’ve you been? I’ll go home next time I get some time off...)

The reason I'm alive, must be making sure that you survive

"He can't be trusted, he lied," you cried. Made me out as the bad guy. But why?

All I did was dream, did you forget? Go on and forgive me, I'm no threat.

Listen to me confess, honest. Eat your words and I bet, regret

Ah, I just tried to help, tried to be strong. So tell me why the hell it's all gone wrong

Let me hear you revel, grateful, cling to me with "savior," "adore" -- don't sing me this song

Lost my memory

I'm double, it was unavoidable

Living painfully

I'm trying, as hard as possible

Tell me, tell me.

If I wasn't born, maybe this trouble --

Tell me, tell me.

It's all my fault

#milgram #mikoto kayano #lyrics #i feel bad it cut in front of the other milgram songs but it was a lot easier than the others #(not that it was easy by any means but the other ones are giving me even more trouble asdfsdf) #but yeah!!! im so happy with these!!! #i will forever be jealous of the rhyming in the original refrain -- #nante itte/natte nande/datte sugatte/utatte tatte IS SO WONDERFULLY SATISFYING #it makes me crazyyyyyy #i know i dont get half that fun in mine but im still really satisfying with the rhymes/phrasing #wtf is going on in the rest of the song 😭 i came for the incredible refrain and had to deal with all That...... #the 'dont need a break' and 'if you persist' lines gave me so much trouble 😭 he just keeps on going..... #i took a bit of a liberty with the 'sing to me' line because every version of 'thatd be good' sounded so lame 😅 #trying to do some kind of play on sing your sins while its john really wanting to communicate but idk if that worked #an unintended but exciting detail is 'you say' sounding like 'you say wake up' rather than 'you say dont need a break' #since thats right when he wakes john up so to speak #any milgram pals who want to sing -- these are always open to use >:3

[kaus-quietis]

Two of us for [      ] to  s l a u g h t e r

#bsd fyodor #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd fyodor dostoyevsky #bsd fyodor dostoevsky #bsd fanart #bungou stray dogs fyodor #lamb #traditional fanart #fanart #unsolved and endless #now this isn't necessarily a reference to anything from the N T but more referring to lambs and rams as sacrificial animals #we all know what the last time Harukawa drew a ram skull meant lol *cough* Chuuya *cough* sacrifice *cough* #but here - possibly two lambs for who to slaughter? I'll let you meditate on that and all the canon-supported possibilities we know already #the good old 'would a world without ability users mean that Fedya is on a path to self-sacrifice?' #this worrying but highly stimulating thought aside - that lamb I drew? that lamb LOVES him #it nuzzles its nose and face against his nose and lips and snuggles itself under his hair and ah I just love drawing displays of affection #again his ushanka is my nemesis and I'm glad I don't see it in the prison arc lmao and still I refuse to draw it like in the manga cuz wtf #*refuses in slavic version of Rohan's 'DAGA... KOTOWARU'*

[bluewinnerangel]

Larrie Inktober day 7-9: change, phone, and saturdays in one. Laugh with me.

#sure is entertaining me and I hope it does you #if only it's to laugh at wtf I did to harry in the first doodle ahshddh sorry im actually sorry #this isnt something thats meant to look good #i dont think it looks good #just. so were clear. ok thanks #i cant believe im posting this shit dhfhd #listen i wanna get through all the prompts ok its either i post this or ill feel crap about failing the challenge and all that #and i mean yeah i did .. just.. make that. it exists now #might as well share the funny #inktober #larrie inktober #my art

[whywoulditho]

being a movie nerd is so embarrassing because i've recently rewatched fantastic mr. fox and now it is literally the only thing i am physically capable of talking about. we start chatting and before you know it i'm telling you about all the symbolisms and hidden details in that movie (you haven't even watched it and you have no idea what i'm talking about)

#and you will never understand how much that movie means to me bc its literally my childhood #we had it on cd when i was like seven and at one point i watched it like every weekend for like three months #I WAS OBSESSED #and watching it now noticing all the things i couldn't see as a kid #just makes me love it even more i know its not an underground niche movie or anything its by one of the biggest drievtors in the industry #but still i have a different kind of connection to that thing i swear no one gets it like i do #AND THE MUSIC IS LIKE SO GOOD WTF #AND THE OVERALL AESTHETIC #AND THE FUCKING CHARACTERS #ASH WAS SO PERSONAL TO ME WHEN I WAS SEVEN #i love fantastic mr. fox i love stop motion i love the weird hand gestures and stuff they do i love the weird ass dialogue #fantastic mr. fox #fantastic mr fox #wes anderson #stop motion #animation #animated movies #nostalgic #i talk films

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#aaaand thats a 3rd doctor. a psychiatrist. who listened to me ans thought: mm sounds like bip0lar lol #me: wow its so easy to get diagnosed as bip0lar. thats bc u r exhibiting lots of depression and a limit amount of mood elevation. that's #like. thats what bip0lar is. she was like yea ppl with bip0lar 2 spend like 75% of time being depressed and a lil elevated mood... which #sounds like what u r describing. me: #...yeah. but again its complicated by the 0cd and spectrum issues. but she independently brought up 4dhd. just when i was like no its all #0cd. here we r again. stuck back in the messy overlap. but whatever i got proscribed bip0lar medicine. lam1ctal. we'll see #bc everyone i talk to is like. we need to control the mood 1st. like so u dont die. and im like hm yeah good call lol #she seems super cool tho. like i would love to just talk to her. ugh. she wants to get a handle on the mood and then maybe add a stimulant #bc shes had it happen in thr past where someone comes in with debiltating 0cd and got treated with lam1ctol and a stimulant and the #obsessive rumination stopped. so well see. idk if ill actually qualify as 4dhd enough. well see. fingers crossed #my mood is a lil elevated rn so its all fun. well see if we tip off a cliff bc im getting less sleep and go go going #unrelated #ugh im scared to start the medine tho bc the ssri i got proscribed fucked me up so much. which is also an indicator of bip0lar #god dammit. if this works im gonna have to actually accept the idea of being bip0lar. i mean. it makes sense being on that spectrum #is just sounds insane and i was not expecting it despite my fucking obsession with understanding wtf my deal is #idk. whatever. doesnt matter

[omnomnb]

i can't stand the 'liar revealed' trope so if that's where they're taking levi's whole "w-w--what do you mean go back to your world, is that all you were making pacts for 😦" thing i am going to be pissed off

#nightbringer spoilers #also like. they already did that whole thing in s1 #when belphie 'wtf you mean ur a human 😡' #spking of belphie whyd he have such a change of attitude this lesson. boy this isnot what you were like at the end of s1 #unless its his sin acting up somehow and hes next ig #whtever im not really feeling anything in s2 #the extra lore is nice and all but like im not here for that #im here to get *CENSORED* #like the lore would be easier to appreciate if there was more of what i acc play the game for #i know some players are all like 'idc about romance i here for lore!!' good for you. ur so special. thats not what IM here for #obey me nightbringer #saying things

[depressed-fanperson]

Crying rn. Only plausible solution? Commit a crime.

#imma fucking die #good omens #ofmd #our flag means death #good omens 2 #go2 #hannibal #these things have me crying #luckily the comfort of piracy is tight outside my door #I can’t sleep because I accidentally stayed up too late so it’s either go to bed on time #or pull an all nighter #and it’s about 2 am rn about to be 3 #and I got so bored #that I started to volunteeraly watch the bee movie #ik ik #I’m disgusted too #THATS NOT HOW HONEY IS MADE #WHY IS THERE A PATRIARCHY IN THE HIVE WHEN ITS LITERALLY THE OPPOSITE #WTF IS THIS #I can’t even start with this #the inaccuracy with the honey I can grudgingly excuse #but getting rid of the matriarchy is an insult to Barbie #yes I know this was made before the Barbie movie #idc #barbie movie #bee movie

[grahamcarmen]

Have a lot of asks and takes so just gonna dump them all here:-

opinion on chase and dexter.

you know i really want carlotta to meet the faculty and coach brunt and gray.

carlotta is gonna get such a biased version of gray that it cackles me up.

I can just imagine carmen telling her about gray and her response is "so you inherited my taste in bad boys".

you know, i understand why people think that if el topo killed someone he'll feel really guilty nut like he's the one to remind crackle that no witnesses should be left behind he's a cinnamon roll who can kill you.

rn i'm giggling at the idea of someone catching carmen and grey making out.

Commander is adorable.

1)i like them! Chase i maintain has the best line about the trufffles in his brain in s2. vivid imagery. poetic. and he gets such a solid and clear arc so congrats dude!! i really also like in s1 where he doesn't really buy that mimebomb is important but does have a tactic to keep tabs on him . tenacious, resiliant, and really intelligent sometimes. a lot of fun to watch and occasionally hear the out of pocket things he can say, he starts out abrasive but seeing him soften up and do what he can do best is fun and rewarding

dexter we don't get much but he was literally so!!! for getting only barely caught on cameras dating carms mom (which he refused to stop doing heck yeah <3) and doing his best to long con his way OUT of VILE for all of their sakes. and as a VILE agent? he was so smooth like steal those jewels, fly away, get paid for minimal teaching...ajsdnfasdkfn cool. RIPERONIS you were pretty cool

i really hope that carmen gets told by her mom that she has her dads eyes it was such an awwww moment when she said it. :( + just ugh can you imagine the conversations if she gets even more hints of similar things between them...ughhhhh carmen would really hold that dear...

2) hmmmmmmm like i really am into maybe her mom wanting to occasionally help carmen and that could happen VIA that (faculty and brunt) as for GRAY...

3) asdkjfnaslkfdjasd ok carmen gives literally all of gray's good points in such heart eyes and happy voice that the context of how carmen knows this just like makes her go "WAIT WAT" but lmao the idea of them falling for bad boys who are actually so soft and will do whatever it takes and actually turn over a new leaf <3 [i do think she might be a little harsher in her opinion on gray at first because thats her baby >:( waddyumeanyou! but like

:(it was everything...it was literally everything he held dear for carmen to exist and ugghhhhhhhhh i can't with them.

and like a changed person who her daughter has so much love for and obviously loved her enough to do that?? plus her mom runs an orphanage like i want to see him try to wiggle his way in the middle of respectful and being called out for old habits he can't shake yet and not being used to her brand of warmth. or her just asking him to keep watch the kids so she and carmen can have a day together mijo :((((((

and him being decent at corralling all those kids...not great he almost lost a couple but decent (he is good at charming distractions but gets snippy at the troublemakers if any...he's the only troublemaker allowed there<3) + always my evidences that he was the one who split up carmen and sheenas fights, the boys looked at him when they needed help at the tunnel, lmao he actually did have a decent distraction of codenames at the ready, and he's a head patter with a chill laid back disposition he projects...he can distract them with candyland for an hour...i think he can catch their attention like lmao he has such de facto group leader energy even if its not what he primarily does/the role he always wants...can he hold it tho...

or even a seriousish conversation after with gray realizing that was her trusting him lol + just long way round is still the way around conversation

5)...is that a thing? i mean el topo initially felt really bad about carmen because they were friends and might* have felt bad for shadowsan because he was his teacher but le chevre just tells him to focus on the bad parts of his class to get over it. old man in the desert who he has no attachment to? crackle remember to kill him + next time le chevre/ el topo both get over any lingering attachments and el topo even captures carmen with a smile and an ho-la. cinnamon roll who can kill.

6)I NEED THAT SO BAD ! NEED THEM TO BE INSEPARABLE AND INSUFFERABLE AND GET CAUGHT BEING ABSOLUTELY INTO EACH OTHER AND ABSOLUTELY SO HAPPY. askjdfnaskfjna and absolutely with only half an idea of what to do when caught

7) COMMANDER ...is cute <3

#asks #red crackle thoughts #lone wolf dis lone wolf dat wolves are pack animals dex ma dude #carlotta is gonna be just like me going awww look at how in love she is...wait pardon rewind that what #oh ok he actually is capable of being so sweet and loving carry on #XD aaaaaaa like they need to always be together it means everything #we love the death of destructive self service for true love and redemption #but also wtf is esteemed faculty and authority wtf who did this #i only put him at decent because idk what he's gonna do if theres troublemakers like him or carm in that building ... #braver teachers than him have tried #ALSO THE EL TOPO THING IS WHY I FIND GRAY AND HIS FRIENDSHIP ...intriguing? because of the way el topo looks to le chevre that time withcar #calls himself a pawn and chills the moment its all good and has such a sweet manner about him that apparently people forgot he too #knows the rules #asdkjfasdkfn im sorry the way le chevre is like >:( don't pun it up gray we won't get taken seriously #red crackle

[snekdood]

idk who needs to hear this but growing native plants is not hard at all, at all

#you could be starting seeds RIGHT NOW assuming your last frost date is some time in april or somethin #put the seeds in the fridge in moist sand or a moist paper towel #if its too late buy them from the fuckin store somewhere. or wait till next fall and toss em on the ground after mild tilling #throw some metal mesh of some sort over it to protect it from the rodents and BOOM. there ya go. the seeds are cheap asf too #its hard to kill a native plant. they naturally grow in that environment for a reason. #you can go a day or two without watering sometimes in summer and still be fine (depending on the plant ofc & if theyre potted) #idk its just. like. so easy. everyone could do it. everyone SHOULD do it. #in an apartment? get a window flower pot and plant some in there. #no excuses to not try and do the bare minimum. every piece of turf grass you see should fill you with violent rage to the point where #your body feels physically compelled to grow native plants in retaliation. #some you can even grow inside. i have some vine cuttings im growing inside rn that i started some time last year at the end of summer #from a wild plant outside. just look up how to grow it. watch the jankiest video you can find first. #i trust the guy with the scuffed set up thats shakily holding his phone scooping home-made dirt into a red solo cup over the #pristinely filmed shots of a garden and a man all dressed up nice #i mean idk hes prolly got some good advice too i just trust the other guy more ykno #give a fuck #literally tho this vine is so tall rn its touching my ceiling sdvvfsdhgdfs idk wtf imma do with it. #but i love it and its one of my favorite native plants and i LITERALLY grew it in a fuckin red solo cup.

[a-nybodys]

spending any amount of time on twitter is like walking slowly towards the chernobyl elephants foot

#i just want to see peoples art i feel like fanart is so hard to see here now bcus ppl get demoralized when nobody reblogs it #but like otherwise i have to go on TWITTER #its genuine hell #anyway people are talking about how izzy dying is somehow the worst thing anyone has ever done and it erases any good that came from ofmd #yknow the show with one of the most diverse casts and crews ive ever seen in my life thats about middle aged gay romance #but yeah killing off the morally gray character who most of the fandom hated last year negates every bit of good the show ever did #legitimately fuck off #i think we all need to take some media literacy classes PLEASE #cus like wtf do u mean he died for no reason it was practically spelled out in all his big speeches in the last ep #and it was foreshadowed the whole fucking season!!!! #just cus u couldnt see it doesnt mean it wasnt there #and just because u didnt understand what the show is trying to do doesnt mean its bad writing #grow tf up PLEASE jesus christ #thanks for coming to my ted talk #anyway

[tastymarbar]

Kenji seems like the type of guy who would ask p3-kun to practice kiss with him. you know like, no homo and all that. just two dudes kissing for "practice".

#mar kenji posting #kenji tomochika #persona 3 #''hey dude you wanna practice kiss with me? not in like a gay way just for like... our future girlfriends y'know?'' #''...uh huh sure'' #p3-kun goes with a lot of bs in some of his SL he probably would go with this too #plot twist its all well and good until kenji realises he actually like kissing p3-kun #and suddenly it's not so no homo kissing practice with his bestie #and now he's feeling weird and oh god he can't possibly let p3-kun know this #except spoiler alert kenji is not subtle(tm) and p3-kun knew this whole time lmao #after ages kenji confesses what he's been feeling and p3-kun just bluntly states ''yeah i already knew that'x #and after a long time kenji finally confesses and p3-kun just goes ''yeah i already knew that ur not subtle dude'' #and kenji just stares at him flabbergasted bc tf you mean you knew this whole time?? and didn't say anything??? #(more spoiler alert p3-kun liked it to but he was too neurodivergent to say anything) #(they totally just sat there for like 10 minutes looking at the floor bc wtf do you even say after that) #whoops I'm gonna write a whole ass fic in the tags at this point #I'd actually write that but im not that great at writting orz #also hi if you read all that i hope you have a nice day :D

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ok. this is the fucking bullshit thing abt grad school. u go to fucking grad school bc u r a fucking tryhard nerd freak #who is either naturally very smart or ur so fucking anxious u r incapable of allowing urself to get a bad grad #and then u go to fucking grad school and everyone's like: man fuck ur classes. if youre getting streight As then u aren't focusing on ur #research. and theyre right. but u still cant fucking let go of the idea that if u get a bad grad the world is gonna fucking end and u r a #bad person. u didnt try hard enough. all this to say i have a final project that i put way too much energy into and not even in a good way #i would just open the document. start sobbing. and then close it and spiral abt how i didn't want to work on it. so its bullshit #i mean. its a good project idea ans i probably sound like i kno wtf im talking abt bc i do. i worked on that topic for 4 years but like #i could make it wayyyyy better. its bullshit. i didnt even number the citations to give more page space. i made section headers. i didnt #wrap text. i could add like 4 more lines of text if i wanted but i think im not gotta bc fuck it. ugh. i dont even. i fucking avoide #stochastic stuff altogether which i kno im gonna have to fight abt but like fuck it who cares abt randomness. i just wanna focus on the #predictably aspect of community composition. fuck u. i shouldnt have picked this topic. i mean. i had to bc its like the one microbe thing #i could do but its also like the exact topic that makes me wanna rip my hair out and start screaming. like jesus christ who tf cares? ugh. #i think id give myself a B if it was an undergrad class. but the standard is higher in an all grad class. ugh. i hate this. i should just #send it abd be done. i dont even kno when its due tomorrow. before class i guess. idk i felt like garbage today. fucking vertigo bby. i feel #ok now tho. so maybe the allergic reacting is over???? fingers r still arthritisy tho. jesus. im falling apart #ive got a pretty good sounding excuse for being lazy tho: owo i had an allergic reaction to my antidepressants 🥳 but nah no excuses we run #this body into the ground. like the good old days. #unrelated

[uglypastels]

I love tiktok but i hate tiktok

#eddiefied #enjoying things is just not a thing anymore is it #like its all a trend and the second its over youre cringy #merch i regret bying in my stranger things era #BESTIE!? season 4 came out 4 months ago #5 is still going to come out #what do you mean WAS #and how is liking one of the most popular shows on the planet cringy- a show that is actually good may i add #and liking a character is cringy?? #now with wednesday #people are scares she'll be bitch wtf #or people saying they dont wear their merch out bc they domt want to be judged #its a shirt of a fictional dnd club #if you go out to places where people judge you for it #move #i just #when has it become a bad thing to enjoy shit

[deusetco]

You should feel like you can't call yourself a lesbian. Because you're not. You're a straight man and you know it.

Very grateful for this ask. This weekend has been a long series of failures and I was feeling really bad about it, until now. Now i'm inspired, genuinely, because you've just helped me realise something important. That no matter how understimulated bored and useless I feel, I will never be as pathetically worthless and devoid of higher purpose as someone who goes out of their way to send transphobic anon hate to a random ass blog with like 18 followers and no hills to die on. Thank you.

#highlight of my weekend fr #i wear this pinned ask as a badge of honor #proof that i've been on tumblr long enough to recieve anon hate for literally no reason #AND ITS NOT EVEN GOOD HATE #motherfucker i've been trans for three years now you think calling me a straight man means anything to me???? #i developed immunity to that ages ago!! #i've literally gotten way worse hate in Pinterest comments #this was the cheapest shit ass thing you could've possibly said #you used proper punctuation and all wtf #who tf are you??? #no actually please reveal yourself i am anthropologically curious #what kinda human being does this?? that'll be my grad thesis #damn this was funny as hell seriously thank you #approved official message from deusetco.

[lesbiancarat]

i will never forgive junhui for the time he recommended a c-drama that he pitched as a wholesome found family show so i started watching it and it was so good and emotional and i cried like every episode for the first 10 episodes only to find out like 20 episodes in that the found family aspect turned into a psudo-incestous romance drama where both of the brothers fall in love with the sister. like that's 20+ hours of my life I'll never get back i will never forgive him for that 😔

#and u may be thinking that it sounds like a childhood friends to lovers trope which doesnt sound that bad #but u gotta understand that in the first half of the show they emphasized SO HARD that they saw eo as literal siblings #and after the brothers confessed the mc was literally like WTF ew yall are my brothers #and when she was trying to come to terms w her brothers being in love w her and figuring out how she felt #she literally read incest p*rn???? #and her coworker kept teasing her about it??? #like the show REALLY leaned into the psudo-incest/taboo aspect of it #like literally they could have kept everything the same and just not called each other siblings half the show and it would be fine #i mean i would have preferred it wo the romance at all but like i get it #the drama is called go ahead if anyone's curious lol #also not judgement to anyone whos seen it and likes it (or to jun for that matter lol) #i know its a popular drama and i genuinely loved a lot of it but that turn was just too much for me lol #mostly i just find it funny even though i was really disappointed at the time bc the beginning of the drama was SO good #but yeah i just remembered it randomly and it made me laugh so i thought I'd share #melia.txt

[felidaefatigue]

has anyone come up with a better short form of nonbinary yet i fuckin hate enby

#not for any reason and i dont care if people use it for themselves or me #but like the mouth and brain feel of that combination is terrible and i dont want it #also #so long still #i liked nonbinary cause i could shorten it to 2 letters ykniw #and im all for like not taking space from use as nonblack but like #considering using agen as an alternative? #still long and not... as good and likely no one will know wtf i mean #but its better than enby #also its not even PRONOUNCED HOW ITS SPELLED #and whERE DOES THE E COME FROM #i dislike everything about it #also vaguely infantalizing #agen is more accurate to me but isnt as broad for when im trying to talk about gender spectrum vs binary #also i dont love having gender in the name #like i dont even want a gender but i gunna use agender LOL #anyway