#its okay people are allowed differences

[nyxi-pixie]

its fine to make interpretation posts on whether u think mikes gay or bi but thats exactly what it is: interpretation

now its interpretation OF canon so obviously its not baseless

but pls dont argue with each other over it🙏 just let people vibe frfr people are allowed to bike wheeler truth without u guys jumping in to explain why u think hes gay. its okay theyre not attacking u for interpreting things differently

we have more in common that not. its us against the straights dont ever let infighting obscure that 😤😤😤😤

#i think hes gay bc he never shows interest in women like ever in the show. (apart from el but ppl will argue however they want abt that) #but that doesnt mean im gonna show up at bi mike posts going #um actually have u read this analysis🤓🤓 #bc thats annoying and weird #they probably have read it and they just dont agree #bc thats a thing ur allowed to do! ur allowed to just. disagree w stuff. u dont have to try and convince people to agree with u #its okay people are allowed differences #ANYWAY. UNITE AGAINST OUR ONE TRUE ENEMY #STRAIGHT MIKE TRUTHERS #*shudders* #byler

[enlichened]

The thing thats consistently bothered me the most in the fallout show is the racism. I would hesitate to recommend it because of that alone. And there was obvious love that the set and prop designers, actors, costume department, and even maybe the writers put into the show! There are themes and characters in fallout that i'm certain would resonate with fans of color!

It KILLS me that so many of the fallout entries are damn well unplayable/watchable in this regard because the writers simply Don't Care how the people in their work are presented. That this like hugely popular world with a lot of worldbuilding and thought behind it does such wrong to so many people, fans and otherwise, that you cannot find any game in the series that does it right or well. It alienates a lot of people who might've been fans just because the majority white creators and fanbase don't give a shit, and I'm sick of it.

it's not enough to say "in the fallout in my head that racism doesn't happen," you actually have to put some things into PRACTICE. Allow space in your head, your games/show, your fan spaces for people of color! notice and say something when you see racism coming from media, yourself, and others!

#like its not AS bad as other fallout media but isnt that the fucking kicker. that its not AS bad #and in fact the games im thinking of that are most egregious in their racism ARE interplay/obsidians games. #bethesda is NOT free from criticism or racism. just look at the elder scrolls. #all of the fallout games have been terrible to different extents to their black characters #the games are TERRIBLY sinophobic. the great war being pinned on china allows for SO much racism in the writing and in fan spaces #but fallout 2 and new vegas specifically have awful and degrading representations of indigenous people. to the point where i wont play 2. #and now this show treating maximus nearly one to one with how star wars writers AND fans treated finn? its not okay #personal / #fallout show #fallout blogging #racism #antiblackness #colonialism #fallout #if not for this i would have thought that the show was GOOD. surprisingly compelling. anti capitalist messaging. but its just. all the time #and this is coming from a white person! i can only listen and imagine how painful it is to play these games or watch the show #and be the butt of the joke every time!!! or the villain or the fool or the one who dies or the nameless entry. #maximus gets to have Some time in the light as a protagonist but for the beginning half of it he's treated SO awfully by the writers #and the latter half does not do enough to make up for it #EDIT: I JUST FINISHED THE SHOW AND THEY FUCKING MADE IT WORSE.... #taking max out and having lucy leave him. for what exactly. why did they have to undermine him and make him look stupid at every opportunit #AND. two of the more major black women being evil capitalists juxtaposed by some white guy who opposes? ......................... #like im glad moldaver was there. i guess. but even she is posed as the villain for the good majority of it and kills innocent people #for no reason and. UGH

[visdiefje]

I'm pretty sure my experiences haven't changed from when I last asserted my identity labels but my view kinda has I guess

#in the sense of. who cares about an orientation label if nothing ever really comes from it yknow. #it's fruitful yearning towards individuals my brain latches onto. that's the extent of it #there's no reciprocated dynamic that allows it to ever get to grow into sexuality #so like yeah I'm demi but 99.9% of the time sexuality just doesn't play into anything at all #and when it does it's brief blips that also don't go anywhere #and I have a pretty good idea of the pool of people I'm theoretically attracted to #but that also just. doesn't matter much once my brain latches onto someone and runs its tiring one sided course #and my gender is still accurate technically but I also have Nothing to say or think about it. it's all whatever #basically all the labels are still accurate it just means very little to me anymore. #it's weird cause it used to be an identity point right. of like hi! I'm [gender] [sexuality] and it's rooted in how you see yourself #and now if I think about how I would introduce myself. well. I wouldn't know but those elements aren't really on the radar to be honest #it comes into play so rarely that like. literally who cares #it's just wild cause people my age who I used to share online spaces with are still strongly debating over what it means to be x or y #and it just. doesn't matter to me anymore. I'm Anders and I like people out of my league generally speaking. hi etc #anyway musing rambling. it's okay if you feel different also #I guess those posts about how definitions matter less when you're older and more in irl spaces were right #bien rambles

[greyeyedmonster-18]

(ive been away from tumblr etc for the better part of a month, i'm not "back" quite yet, but I've spent some time "catching up" so to speak this evening and have a bit of a heavy heart.

some i already knew-- death threats, death threats and more death threats. hate mail.

my friends leaving fandoms they love. people i barely speak to burning out and needing a break from their fics and the constant/consistent stream of "update??????" and rudeness.

and i just need to say that there is an alarming pattern of bx i see, where the authors and creators that make themselves the most accessible and approachable and welcoming to their anons and their followers and readers are often the ones who get shit on first. yall take their openness as an excuse to be dicks. period. you take the people who are willing to have a convo with everyone, who make discords and mod fests, or give people chances and run them into the ground when they post something you dont agree with. the second they post something you don't agree with or write something you don't agree with. or update on a schedule that doesnt align with yours. or write a new ship that isnt part of the #brand. or whatever it might be. and you've made yourselves so comfortable with someone who is FRIENDLY online that you take it as permission to take a shit on the carpet in someone elses home.

and i understand thats a weird metaphor, but i don't much care. y'all forget these tumblrs, these works are still the creators. it is not your space. i repeat: it is not your space. and while they may be welcoming and happy to have you in it--it is still not yours.

and as someone who operates on the opposite end of the spectrum where i don't interact a lot with my readers or my anons or even my mutuals, and occasionally gets a nasty anon about this (cue the folks who @ me for not reccing their fics or doing their prompts; cue that one person who told me i was an asshole, which like, fair enough), i also want to say you can't have it both ways. you cannot be graciously invited into someone else home and then ask them to change the colors of the duvets to suit you. it is not your space.

that is all).

#cw: death threat mention #general observations on fandom culture #ya know. along with other artists stealing from artists here #this is also a trend ive noticed #you dont shit where you eat yall #if you dont like something #then move along #(also please note that i understand there is nuance in this) #(and there is a difference between 'i dont like this' and 'this is straight up WRONG') #(though tbh im not going to unpack the nuances in that on here either) #also feel like some of yall need a reminder that even if it feels like you know us...you don't #we have whole ass LIVES and things and even if we are open about facets of it online...you still dont KNOW us #and so if you're like 'well its okay for me to say it because i KNOW them #we're friends!! #no. #even my friends are not allowed to shit on my carpet or leave their shoes on #whats more my friends tell OTHER PEOPLE to take their shoes off #you know? #cool. #have a nice day. #disappearing again

[caffeinatedopossum]

Intelligence (a rant)

Being smart is actually really over rated because it just means that any conversation you have, you have to choose between correcting people or feigning ignorance. You have to mentally weigh the damage that letting people hold misinformation could bring in a variety of different scenarios vs how much that person *realllly* doesn't want to be wrong.

Like I noticed something weird and it's that all of my friends are really smart people that are utterly CONVINCED they're actually stupid. But they're my friends because they don't get defensive if they're wrong about things. That doesn't make you stupid, it makes you open minded.

Actually smart people are wrong about things all the time. Have you ever heard of the kinds of hypotheses scientists come up with before actually discovering something? Like before people discovered oxygen, they thought a substance called phlogiston (yes that was the actual supposed name) was present in all combustion. Now, we obviously know that's wrong but that doesn't mean the scientists that proposed the theory were dumb. They were just scientists.

#anyway rant about smart people because im tired of my incredibly intelligent friends #ragging on themselves over something that is actually a positive in my book #also I think its really hard for people to recognize that theyre smart because its not socially acceptable #behavior to tell someone that youre smart or even admit it if complimented. its something ive always found weird #like if you accept your positive traits youre instantly bragging and its not okay #but how else are people expected to accurately assess themselves? #everyone has good traits. even intelligence is an incredibly vague description for a wide variety of different traits #its like an umbrella term #idk the whole way society as a whole views ego and self is a little bizarre to me anyway #like it almost kinda... doesnt matter you know? #i have no reason to care if one person is smart and another stupid. or one empathic and the other not #because if you are allowed to accurately assess yourself (both positively and negatively) you'll know where you fall short #and where you don't #and i think thats important if people ever want to work together or help each other

[adamsappl]

honesty seems to be something that's very important to adam -- say what you will about him, but he isn't a liar. keeping the exterminations quiet is as close to a lie as he gets ( but i would say it isn't technically a lie of omission, as that would require someone questioning the goings-on in hell and adam not bringing it up in his answer ) and he actively seems to hold a lot of disdain towards liars ;; particularly towards vaggie.

when he confronts her in episode 6, she lies about not knowing what he's talking about -- and it makes him drop the fun, overly-obnoxious act he puts on to question if she REALLY thinks he wouldn't recognize her, asked as if she thought he was that dumb. and again, one of his last lines in you didn't know ;; "did you ever think your little girlfriend might be a liar? " he was already pretty angry by this point, but while it's definitely condescending, the delivery of this line makes adam sound almost angry FOR charlie, and i feel like how sure adam was that exposing vaggie would damage her and charlie's relationship beyond repair only emphasizes that. i mean, one of his first formative experiences was being cheated on. it only follows that being lied to, ESPECIALLY about something so important, would be a dealbreaker in adam's mind.

but i find it especially interesting that "don't lie" isn't on adam's list of what he believes gets someone into heaven. and this isn't about lying specifically, but i also think it's interesting that "don't kill" isn't on that list, either. he's a massive hypocrite in other aspects, but murder is something he has nuanced feelings about. killing another person is a situational case, but not theft. it's so interesting.

#//i think the fun thing is a case can be made for “dont steal” being one of his hard rules #//its more difficult for him to see the nuances in modern society bc before he was in heaven (where isnt really a REASON to steal anything) #//he lived a life where stealing something for yourself could very well cause someone else's death #//and that “someone else” is part of his family 100% of the time #//hes never HAD to steal to survive. honestly i dont know that hed ever consider it as something ANYONE would have to do #//hes too disconnected from modern-day earth to think about it #//i LOVE thinking about his weird moral code and what is and isnt effected by his hypocrisy #//like yeah stick it to the man but only if “the man” isnt him or his superiors #//yes those are the same people that HE stuck it to when he was alive but its different shut up #//be selfless. except hes allowed to not do that when he wants something actually. but ONLY hes allowed to do that. #//murder is okay if he thinks its justified #//but god help you if he catches you lying or stealing. THOSE are no-no's. #˙⋆✮ 𝗶'𝘃𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗲 𝗮 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝙛𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙇𝙄𝙁𝙀 𓂋 character study ✮⋆˙

[aauroralightss]

i made myself a little trigun sona and commissioned my best friend rae @zipsunz for art of her and her birdy sidekick… her name is josephine “jo” luu and i picture her living in a little geo dome/animal sanctuary and taking in orphans/vagabonds. she has a little crew of people and birds who she adores (and adore her) and she lives her best life for the most part.

i like to think about her meeting vw when they’re in Dire Straits and she takes them in and lets them rest up, only for trouble to fall upon the geo dome and for vw to return the favour by protecting her home. i’ll write a little oneshot for it one day but i’m nowhere near brave enough yet to post it :’)

#rora rambles #BEHOLD. LOOK AT MY OC #also look at rae’s art…. whimpers #i got this man drawing the triguns #now and forever #he does such justice to people of different ethnicities and backgrounds #and that parrot design is my actual real life parrot tristan GAJDBDJDJ #its a sona!! im allowed #rae drew her so cutes #and jo so cutes #also i only just finalised her name after having this oc for ages #because im so bad at naming but she needed a name to post #i do NOT often fork for chibi comms but raes chibis are different #adorable and clean and consistent #hes gonna open comms again in april please consider commissioning and following him #especially if you like p3!!! #also rae works very very fast #really the ideal commissioning experience #i would know because ive commissioned him um four times now i think #tip him also. #if you wanna see how he draws vw just check my header #nobody knows the person i became the day he finished that #OKAY BYEEEE

[summerlycoris]

Guess whos potentially working a triple tomorrow?????????

Im going to transform into my final form if this shit keeps up i swear to god.

#summerly talks #im just. gonna have to tell my boss that. effective immediately. i cant work the weekend anymore #sad because its good money #but this is becoming a fucking pattern and if it does i may actually dive into a fission reactor while singing meltdown ;_; #like. i was okay with the double? my coworker called in because her baby was sick #and she promised me if i couldnt get anyone to cover for my am shift tomorrow she would take it #then at like 9pm i get a text saying. she cant. her baby wont let her leave #and i feel selfish because. she has a baby. but i have cats and luckily i was able to drop by today to pick up my sleepover kit #and also make sure minty had food. (fieldie has an auto feeder so hes okay) #and i just. want to go home #the reality is i cant. i cant go. not unless one of the people i texted gets back to me saying theyll come in #and no one has yet. its 11pm. no one will at this point. #im tired im tired im tired #i dont want to end up like i did at my ladt job. giving away entirely too much of me and destroying myself #ive already lost most if not all of my passion for this job #and when i was younger i dreamt of working with disabled people. i burnt too quick and now im a shell of what i was #but this is the only thing im trained for that would allow me to like. keep my home #maybe if or when i move to brisbane i can look into a different job. do an it course idk. something where there's less people skills needed #i better try to get some sleep orz tonights gonna be a bitch of a thing

[biteapple]

got this weird thing always where im always wondering if im a gay man or a bi dude-kinda or a bi girl-a-little-bit or a gay man-also-woman-a-bit, and its like. whenever im like "OKAYY I DONT CAREEEEE MAYBE I DO LIKE GIRLS" .... IMMEDIATELY my thoughts about liking women are gone like. when im trying to appease that. and then im like "hmm maybe i DONT like girls??" the thoughts about liking girls comes back

#and GENUINELY... COSMICALLY... if i really want to date a woman i would love to just allow this for myself. and am trying to #and whenever i try to its like ''yeah nevermind man it wasnt even anything'' #so when i do go ''oh okay i guess it was nothing'' the desire to like women comes back #and maybe its a case of ''putting it off the table makes me want it more'' .. but its like.. when i say ''ok im bi'' its gone. #its like hey. come back. what happened i said i liked it. gone. until i accept that its gone. and then its back. chameleon type shit #permanently grass-is-greener type of living... please.. #ALSO.... this happens with ''being a little bit of a girl'' because then im like ''ok cool man im a girl now. yup'' #but when i put this into action i HATE IT and VEHEMENTLY need to go back immediately #and then when i go back im like ''but what if i WASNT just a guy..... hmmm...'' #and its like that bit from courage the cowardly dog where baby muriel wants her mac and cheese 500 different ways #and is never happy when you give it to her #when i MOST think about ''being a girl who is bi'' is when i feel THE MOST like a gay man #& when i think about and put into practice ''being a gay man'' i CANNOT enjoy it due to the ''what ifs'' #its like i have to do a schrodinger's sexuality on myself #genuinely really dont mind what my sexuality and gender is as long as im happy and YET.... its like chasing my own tail with myself #its funny because what i do know is that i love masculine terms i love being he/him'd i love being called a man i love my body on t #but... ''what to call this other than blanketly 'transmasc'.. if anything'' and ''who do i wanna fuck about it'' are like going in circles #and NOT to say people need anything more specific than just being transmasc or just saying ''im gay'' or being blanketly queer or anything #and maybe i need to take a page from that if its giving me grief. but ... *gestures vaguely*

[pyreshe]

once again i am thinking about luke c.astellan,

#SON BOY ALLOWED #like i see a lot of luke slander on tiktok and stuff but like. i think people tend to forget he's only like 19 in the first book #and even percy admits that if things had shaken out different he could have been just like luke #luke is a kid too and he's got a GREAT reason to be pissed and want things to change #is hurting younger kids the way to go about it? no! but again. he's a kid who's being manipulated by an eldritch abomination #i also heavily subscribe to the theory that he's schizophrenic and is starting to show symptoms when chronos slides in #like the age and family history lines up with that #he is dear to me okay #like imagine having a home life so unstable u run away at 9 live as a homeless child for a few years watching out for two other vulnerable #homeless kids - while being hunted by monsters mind u- and then encounters his dad. a literal god. who can't give him a good reason #for leaving him all alone with his severely unstable mother. and then he gets to camp only to find out that for a lot of kids its just #where there parents throw them so they don't have to think about them anymore #me? i would be furious #✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ: ooc / [mothman vc] take me home country roads #tbd

[axiolotl]

im being normal and not angry about the fact that someone said the mass effect universe is hollow. im not going to angrily reblog the post. and I'm going to go about my day like normal. and not be mad that they generalize that combat in every bioware game is bad and doesn't serve the narrative. and im going to move on with my day and have a great one and play my favorite game

#clenches my fists nails into skin #people are allowed to have different opinions than me (grits my teeth and draws blood from my palms) #JUST DONT MAKE IT A HIGH CONCEPT DATING SIM GOD. MASS EFFECT TRILOGY IS GOOD BC OF THE COMBAT AND THE TRIALS #THATS THE REASON THE RELATIONSHIPS HAPPEN AT ALL!!!! #okay im normal again #ellis.txt #JUST BECAUSE IT'S NOT COMPLETELY OPEN WORLD DOESNT MEAN ITS HOLLOW #SKYRIM FEELS MORE HOLLOW TO ME im tearing my HAIR OUT #no im not im normal.

[poorlittlevampire]

i hate the catholic church genuinely fuck off

#‘in certain circumstances we will allow trans people to be baptized’ #wonder what the circumstances are #also i love u if ur trans i am sorry but just dont fuck with the catholic church #u can find other faiths that will not hate u by default #i promise #they still completely oppose same sex marriage #and its just the current pope who is kind of progressive #the vatican is still deeply bigoted and once hes dead theyre gonna go right back to being as exclusive as possible #dont fall for their shit #my number one enemy is the catholic church sorry #it has completely destroyed multiple lives of my family members and friends #so i get to be mean #i lost my cousin who was my best friend to the church #like we do not speak at all anymore #and i grew up hating myself #bc of the church #OKAY WHATEVER just find a different faith thats all im saying

[lotuseatingstone]

the modders in my fc being evil to my bnuuy (and hien lmao)

long explanation in tags if curious

#ffxiv #final fantasy xiv #zenos galvus #bastard man lmao #okay so HOPEFULLY people know why putting zenos in hien's clothes is fucked up and evil lmao #YOU KILL MY FATHER YOU SUBJUGATE AND TORTURE MY PEOPLE YOU STRETCH OUT MY PANTS #but anyway the lore of my rabbit he had a similar attack on his tribe which resides nearby garlemald's mainland #howlen (bnuuy in question) literally watched zenos slaughter his brother and mentor in front of him #and then zenos took howlen prisoner to which for the next four years of his life he was constantly tortured indirectly and directly by him #granted in the lore zenos has several times saved howlen's life but only bc 'hey only im allowed to torment him' reasons #so at the end of these four years zenos lets howlen loose to 'go get stronger and impress me when you come back' #howlen gets his ass kicked in ala mhigo but rather than kill him zenos is like. nah i cant thats my rabbit he can try again. #(the hien being howlen's bf is in the lore they bond over fucking hating zenos lmao) #('man he sucks' 'you have no idea') #fast forward to endwalker. howlen finally thinks hes killed zenos. finally. fucking finally. #but his own voidsent was not strong enough to fully devour and conquer zenos' soul #so later when howlen is in doma helping rebuild and is asked to go get some furs hes like 'yeah okie i havent practiced with voidy in a bit #so he goes and summons his voidsent and man. this bitch looks different. his original voidsent was wolf like and now its uhhhh #a mix of shinryu and zenos and neither howlen nor zenos are happy about this arrangement #'YOU CANT EVEN KILL ME RIGHT????' 'I THOUGHT I DID LEAVE ME ALONE ITS HARD' #but anyway tldr #zenos is fully convinced howlen is His and its so fucked up and evil and funny that my fc does this to him #*me minding my business as howlen* are you porting shinryu again #'yeah'

[lavender---sunshine]

i am so deep in my feelings right now, i both sad and mad enough that i cannot sleep

#ive been angry oscillating between angry and sad pretty much the whole day #i had a rare saturday off and i feel like i wasted half of it for my mom and she didnt appreciate it #i wanted to take her to somewhere new for brunch and a cool bookstore and to get our nails donw #and she drove like 30 minutes in the wrong direction and wouldnt listen to me and tried to blame it on me #im not allowed to be sick on my own. she has to be sick too. if i have a headache so does she and worse #if im nauseous in the afternoon she 'threw up' that morning. she'll say its something we ate even if we ate nothing in common #ive broken our in hives that keep popping up and the whole day she was acting as if she was itchy too AND dizzy. #we had to stop multiple times because she was so dizzy. im not saying she was lying but it stopped her from cleaning #she didnt want the original breakfast place near the bookstore and salon and when we got to the second one it was closed #found a third but she didnt want to deal with parking. went to option 4 and she didnt like her food. #she also kept asking me what she was getting instead of just ordering herself. 'what was it that i wanted? yes can you tell her i want xyz' #(and let me just say i have 0 patience left for people who cant do anything themselves. helplessness is a hard hard no for me #we didnt go to the bookstore or the salon and shes like oh okay tomorrow. i told her i had plans and shes like oh you always make plans #with your friends and none with me. Girlfriend. what are we doing right now? #went home to try to clean up our apartment and got overwhelmed when i realized i have to do everything myself because she no help #while she laid down and watched pitch perfect for the 1000th time #im also trying to figure out how to tell an ex friend i dont want them back in my life because theyre so much work #but i dont have room in my life to have that conversation. im also probably going to start looking for a different job soon #i just want my parents gone. my apartment furnished. free time. and a vacation.

[semercury]

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#stuff sarah says #i think the problem is that im me #i somehow think it would be different if i was anyone else #not that im uniquely horrible or anything (i am tho. am i? i am not. i am?) but just that i have so little to offer #anyone else is allowed to do whatever they want within reason #but somehow im limited #and i just hate it! and i hate myself even more for it!!! #i bet if i just sucked it up and did the things i wanted things would be fine #but theres that what if. what if theyre not fine. what if something bad happens and it was indirectly my fault? #maybe i spoke too soon when i said i was fine without therapy #its been a while since i rawdogged life #and tbh im still medicated. so theres actually still a buffer. this isnt even as bad as i could be!! #i just. want to withdraw from everyone except like 3 people and my family #bc i think those 3 people are okay enough with me that theyd support me in my endeavors #and maybe thats shitty of me to say and want to do #but like. fuck man. im so fucking scared of everyone all the time. scared of them and for them #i think i need yo be prescribed 3 months by the sea #or a lobotomy #one of the two idk #i just dont want to be me. i hate her. #i hate that she has to worry about everything all the time #but someone has to. #might as well be me

[antstarion]

something about my mental health history being blasted to my professors every time i apply for an extension makes me really uncomfortable. like yeah!! he was understanding today but i dont feel like i should have to share that?? (plot twist i dont but i was a dumbass and didnt realise how much would get shared LOL)

#I regret ticking that box #I thought it would give like an outline but they gave full diagnosis stuff #I have just spent my whole night thinking about this mannnnn #I'm gonna fail out so hard #should've known when I went crazy (like actually) #forgot that last time I had psychosis covid happened so I had years to recover #none of that this time #backslide really captures this #it's just psychosis recover psychosis repeat #well hopefully not now I'm sober but that's a whole different battle #I just wish I could press a button that allows people to understand #I want to be understoood and I don't think anyone does #okay this is a whole VENT shrug whatever #its my account and an extension of my journal #welcome to my brain