#its the best but also the hardest

[kiestrokes]

As a forever Bin ult these clips Boo gave us are such an unexpected gift alongside his always lovely vocals.

#rip my fucking heart out seungkwan #seeing bin so full of life and his silly self #its the best but also the hardest #boo seungkwan #svt #moonbin #astro #aroha #astro aroha #mars.fm #keeping the moon #Youtube

[nthflower]

Why can't I clean the settlements. Please I want to cleans that floors. I never wanted the clean dirt this much in my life. I hate cleaning but I need to clean my pixel settlements. Please

#why can't i clean leaves and trash we dont need them #also i wanna be able to repair windows #and doors #i am trying my hardest to make them looks good and then I am showing my mother #and she says this looks like a trash town #and she is right but its not my fault i am trying doing my best #geym #fallout 4 #avoiding main task and reading terminals right now terminal stories are so interesting #and doing settlements of course

[pansyfemme]

yeah so regarding the shit ive been posting about lately: i am safe, i am okay, im staying with family for a little while until its safe to return to school and move dorms. i appriciate all the support and its been a really tough few weeks, but im really trying my best to keep my head up. i love you all.

#im very lucky in that my grandmother lives in a city that i can get to entirely through public transport #its still like a two hour commute with switching trains and stuff but its something i can do immediatly so i was able to drop everything as #soon as i made the descion with my parents and therapist. #this is kind of the best possible choice in keeping myself safe. its just also perhaps the scariest and hardest option. its not the worst #case scenario its the nightmare scenario. im still wrapping my head around all this #i was pretty far in denial about just how bad things were but this is really all i can do

[weallpartyatybcpatricksfuneral]

sorry but rat a tat is the thesis of save rock and roll actually you guys just don't like Courtney Love

#KILLING BITING AND MAIMING EVERY PERSON THAT HATES RAT A TAT #listen idc what courtney may or may not have done and yeah her voice doesnt sound the best anymore but also #consider how srar incorporates MANY different genres and takes on rock in the album and how this is the srar equivalent of #a song with grunge influences (its by no means in anyway grunge itself) #but it definitely is the hardest song on the track list other than maybe my songs? #the phoenix is much more orchestral than rat a tat but still. rat a tat is essentially the thesis of save rock and roll #theres a reason why rat a tat lyrics were found on a 2007/2008 post by pete #years before being finished and released #that song is important it is special #fall out boy #fob #patrick stump #pete wentz #joe trohman #me posts #andy hurley

[jaevy]

your room was square

i once noticed from there

in your bed, as you slept

and i held my breath

everything had its own place

and i wondered what space would i take

in the order you kept

#in this drawing i wanted to use the song ‘Square’ by Mitski #personally i feel like this song is about being in love and trying far too hard to be the perfect lover that you are incapable of being #to me it’s like trying to see where you fit in that person’s life and not knowing where you belong in it #but then you’re still longing for that feeling of belonging there with them #so you self-destructively go to great lengths to ‘earn’ your place with them #i feel that the self-destructive behavior of trying to be that perfect lover just to ‘earn’ their love #is exactly the ‘burning’ that Mitski describes #it hurts trying to fit in but not quite succeeding again and again and again... #this is something that i think i relate to #trying far too hard to belong with someone who is 'only sometimes madly in love with me' #and says that i 'wouldn't be their first choice' #-that person kept switching between wanting me as a friend and a lover and now i am neither #and yet therein lies the problem: if i cared less and gave less effort #perhaps we could’ve worked things out without me trying too hard to “earn” their love #but why would i ever try to care less? #the situation was doomed from the start and i lost a friend in the process #i made this illustration to reflect that the best i could. I think the square motif was particularly obvious— #the canvas itself is a square and the illustration itself has to fit in a square box #everything else i drew would have to fit within this box to maintain the “order” #the colors are all some type of blue with not too much contrast except for the text eyes and teardrop on the figure #i wanted to keep contrast low within this illustration— everything should be “fitting in" after all #for the figure itself i wanted it to be clear that the figure is being forced into that square #its body’s being forced into that half of the box and even then its head is forced downwards #it’s clearly not fitting comfortably but it’s sure trying its hardest to #also also also!!! i wanted to do more angular shapes with this drawing because square and whatever lol :P #i don’t think i was particularly obvious in communicating that in the drawing though #but anyways i just wanted to draw to help process something that happened to me a while back :0 #i still think i love that person but just like how i don’t have a place in their life #i don’t think they have a place in mine and i think i’m starting to make peace with that :D #jaevyart

[machinefetishist]

endgame isnt bad at all you just like to bitch about things for absolutely no reason

#megadeth #like. its not the best its not the worst it just is #i really like the hardest part of letting go #and head crusher #i need more megadeth enjoyers as my mutuals please #titular song’s also pretty good

[zorphie]

doodle page of these guys bc im insane hello🤭

#wizard101 #w101 #zorphie art #oc #oc: erin #oc: quinn #oc: althea #hey mind if i........ Inhales so loudly and starts rambnlinf #the dragon twins :)))) #these two arent from the spiral. theyre from a part of the firsr world that failed to integrate and was forgotten about #in stories about them theyre just called ice wyvern and fire dragon (salt) #so when they come into the spiral theyre condused about the whole spell cards thing. why are they on a card. its uncanny. #ice wyvern was actually one of the hardest spell for quinn to learn because ironically he couldnt get along with it #also hes an actual dragon not a fluffy serpent. doubly confused. yeah theyre trying their best #althea is their mom shes a seraph #they are so average annoyinh siblings. god. lpve that for them #they can't turn into dragons too much because their genetic makeup is weird after reincarnation its a ..Whole Thing don't worry about it #titan genes with human doesnt work too well I think . 🤔 #also yeah erin is technically classified as a shadow creature #a shadow creature is going to ravenwood and taking classes there that's the funniest shit ever yeah ambrose hates him #only reason he isnt expelledyet is bc his mom works there .well wait until he saves the spiral too or something for the full w101 experienc #hes so emo but hes so silly I swearrrr. he gives friendship bracelets to his buddies with the fire emblem on it #so they can contact him. wah #he also works at the fairegrounds on the side hes. hes.. a clown. in some way. yeah. #their pets are twins too um I was gonan draw them but lazy #ANYWSYD THEY ARE SO DEAR TO ME I MISS THEM . #their backstory sucksss i'll share it one day because im finalizing/editing things idk </3 but for now . silley

[slashingdisneypasta]

I wrote some Then He Got Rough!! I love it so much <3<3 I wish it could just be done and I can read it XD

#i wrote a '5 years later' #which i cant give away much about but- it involved characters Rodney and Winnie #Rodney is played in my head by rob englund #and winnie has the same vibes as the evil succubus reader in that one jennifer/reader/inkubus fic i wrote-- #she constantly made poor rodney uncomfortable coming onto him #... but now she's a recovering sex addict trying her fucking hardest and its the best dynamic ever XD #i also wrote a fun little maggie/arthur thing cuz i want them to be together so b a d #Then He Got Rough #Original WIP

[yo9urt]

video games....

#mine #i love my steam deck sooooooooo much im so happy i can actually play games again like a big proper library of them #and everything #everything on steam AND emulators is available to me. do you know how many games that is! #i started a new beegee3 playthrough on the HARDEST DIFFICULTY (!) today. which is also a single-save difficulty #and im in one of the most difficult parts of the game right now (level 4) and kind of nervous lol #but at the same time im really proud of myself for learning the game to the point i feel comfortable challenging myself in it #and im happy i get to at all :D i love you video games #and sooner or later ill come back to stardew valley cause there was that big update and i have some games on my wishlist too #and its not verified yet but i might play that pomeranian making the house dirty game cause it looked cute #oh and yakuza also because my friend got two of the yakuzas for me #YAYYYYY GAMES #also kind of sad though because tomorrow i pack and sunday i go back for babys last quarter of college #and im worried about how busy its going to be with classes and job apps and then of course actually graduating #and moving out and haivng a job and stuff #when all i want is to enjoy being able to play video games again.... sig #sigh* #WHATEVER...future mes problem #oh i almost forgot...one of the best parts of the deck imo is the versatility because with games like beegee3 #you can play it in controller mode which has its pros and cons but you can also swap to computer mode #which also has its pros and cons so like. i can adjust as needed #when im just exploring or trying to loot an area etc i go controller #but when im in combat i go computer because the hotbar is REALLY helpful for decision making #its really nice to have the option to choose since no console players have that it seems #and the only pc players who can do that are the ones who have and are willing to connect controllers #and most of them dont seem to be into that #but im really glad to be able to do both #ok done yapping now

[grymmdark]

on one hand I'd love to run a tumblr blog for the cat shelter i volunteer for and think it'd be really fun and probably pretty successful

on the other hand I'd want to ask permission from the owner first obvs and i would have to admit to her that i use tumblr

#grymms spectacular fucking posts #we have such wonderful cats with such diverse personalities and it's a really great shelter that always tries its hardest to get the best #home for every cat even if other shelters would consider them a lost cause #like its ''no-kill'' in the sense that we dont euthanize cats unless strictly necessary for their health but we also will take any and every #cat we can. we've had many senoir cats and cats with health issues and behavioral issues etc. #like we had a cat named emily who was a senior with severe food allergies and we managed to get her adopted. we have FIV cats and help treat #FIP cats #this place is really great i love it so much and i justvthink it'd thrive on tumblr but also again. I'd have to admit i am a tumblr user to #the owner. so. yeah.

[13eyond13]

Sometimes I still think about how sweet it was when that anon checked on me last year when I was posting overly dark jokes. Thank you whoever you were, that was kind

#i am so much better now but last year was a bad one for me #there was a time in the fall where i literally couldn't get out of bed just because it felt pointless #anyway my mom also forced me to make a doctors appointment and luckily my doctor is super kind and got me on a good medication #but it also was just from stuff like losing my job struggling in school and going through the hurricane etc #im just so glad that i was pushed through that by concerned folks because im enjoying life much better now and that wasnt that long ago #anyway if you're struggling badly right now pls know its not hopeless #reach out for the help youre given and try to see yourself as worth it to fight for #take it little steps at a time #celebrate the small victories like having a shower or taking a walk or answering a call #the best thing for me other than the doctor was just finding ways to be around other people more #instead of feeling defeated i had to think of ways i could fix the loneliness that was affecting me so much #i had to get proactive like i started volunteering and started a book club etc #also i just made myself be very honest with the friends i already had about my struggles and it helps with feeling closer to them #and less alone in it all #because its not that uncommon to have those kinds of struggles and it helps other people open up about their own or just know how you are #the hardest things to do were the most rewarding things in the end #volunteering gave me a reason to get out of the house meeting new people and trying new things and feeling good about myself and #i had to remind myself that i was able to offer things of value and that other people like having me around actually #like the book club is something my friend group looks forward to so much and made new friends through and i started that! #even though i was nervous about it and didnt know if theyd like it at all #other people need you just as much as you need them and thats the truth bby #p

[juniaships]

That post about centaurworld i just reblogged is exactly what i wanted for tfa season 4: optimus alleviating himself of unfair blame placed on him by Sentinel and Blackarachnia, that all of their current misfortunes are their fault and it is not his job to fix them. Nor does he owe them anything, especially when he already did so much for them but they still didn't consider his feelings in the matter. Optimus finally realizes his true self worth and focuses on the things that matter to him & hi true friends are in his crew and he doesn't need to apologize for taking up space. Space that he took the time and work to create and flourish in without those two assholes breathing down his neck.

#i have very strong feelings ok??? #tfa optimus #transformers animated #it's the hero arc finally completing its course that juet bcuz youre a hero now doesnt mean catering to ppl who dont appreciate you #it's optimus realizing that sometimes one of the hardest choices are the best ones and that he is allowed to take up space #HE'S ALLOWED TO HAVE THE THINGS HE WANTS AND NEEDS WITHOUT JUSTIFYING HIMSELF OR SELLING HIMSELF SHORT #It's about letting others face the consequences of THEIR actions and that some people cant be saved and thats okay #that some responsibilities truly arent yours to shoulder thats also okay #transformers

[butwhatifidothis]

Three houses has repeatedly stated that Edelgard's and Claude's goals aren't that different. (Even if they really are pretty different???) Has Claude be willing to surrender in favor of helping out the empire later when he's got an axe to his throat. Seems to me it's less "This is out of character and bad writing" and more "This isn't isn't what I expected and I don't like it." Also you can't really go "This isn't canon" When it has writers from three houses writing for the game lmao

spoiler talk, mostly for GW and a bit for SB

Nonnie. Pal. Buddy.

If 3Hopes Claude was written in line with 3H Claude, and he is ready and willing to join Edelgard - for whatever reason, even if to backstab her - then why doesn't he... do that. In 3H. Like on CF or AM or SS, where Byleth isn't around to *~guide him~* (which is the most common explanation I’ve seen given to his character portrayal in 3Hopes, but also applies to other possible explanations).

What part of that makes any sense? What stopped him from doing that in 3H, outside of 3Hopes writing his character badly? Why is it when Byleth has no influence on him in 3H, or when he doesn't trust the Church in 3H, or when he doesn't have many friends/bonds in 3H - all those things that are the same in 3H as they are in 3Hopes - does he not do in 3H what he does in 3Hopes? In fact, why does he not flat out join Edelgard genuinely on CF, since he's apparently oh so willing to join Edelgard and/or kill Rhea and on CF there's Byleth to act as a Stamp of Approval?

I mean, I could tell you what stopped him from doing that in 3H; his base, core moral standards, that he always has as part of the foundation of his character. He does not like causing needless bloodshed and always avoids doing so whenever possible, he does not like Edelgard's methods and thinks them too harmful, he does not trust Edelgard in general, his curiosity over the Church's/Rhea's secrets stops him from ever outright destroying it/killing her (along with his acknowledgement that both the Church and Rhea - or someone in her position - are needed for Fodlan). You cannot write Claude properly without keeping in line with these base facts about his character, unless you've established a pretty damn in-depth character arc that dissolve these traits off of him.

So, yes, when I see him cause needless bloodshed, utilize similarly harmful methods like Edelgard, trust in Edelgard's word and nothing else, reject any curiosity he has for the Church/Rhea in favor of just killing Rhea without getting any answers (because Claude certainly gives no shit about answers to mysteries amiright), yeah, I'm gonna call it out of character and bad writing. Because it is out of character and bad writing.

Cuz, like, "[3H] Has Claude be willing to surrender in favor of helping out the empire later when he's got an axe to his throat" those circumstances - and the results of them - are nowhere near comparable to what happens in GW, and is (and sorry if this sounds rude) a bad description of what happened in CF. Claude in CF surrenders and agrees to leave Fodlan entirely and pleads with Edelgard to leave the Alliance - and his friends - alone because he swears they'll be cooperative. Maybe I'm stupid, but that doesn't sound anything like "hey Edelgard let's team up and invade the Kingdom because Rhea Bad lol” or “I think it’s a good idea to instigate conflict between Faerghus and Sreng to make the Kingdom weaker (you know that thing TWS did for Edelgard with Duscur).”

Claude in 3H does not actively help Edelgard at any point in all of 3H. Ever. The most he does to "help" her is, again, swearing that the Alliance won't stand up against her, and that wasn't to help Edelgard as much as it was him trying to keep the Alliance safe. Because that goes back to his want to keep the bloodshed to a minimum. That core character trait of his that is completely absent in GW, because siding with the one causing the bloodshed and himself causing the bloodshed does literally nothing to stop the bloodshed as 3H!Claude shows is his belief because he never sides with Edelgard *specifically because of her blood-filled methods.* The ones that he is literally replicating in GW.

Because, again, there is literally. No. Reason. Why, if it is in-line with Claude’s character to side with Edelgard, that he wouldn’t just side with Edelgard in 3H (or do the equivalent of that like he does with Dimitri, like giving over Failnaught), because there are exactly zero things that differ between the two games that would explain him not doing that in CF for 3H. In CF, he does not have Byleth to help him open up to others. In CF, he would have Byleth actively feed into his distrust of the Church because of their decision to side against it. In CF, he wouldn’t have many bonds with others. And yet and still, he does not join Edelgard on CF, he does not harm the Church in any way on any route (higher ups or not), he only “invades” the Empire after it’d already made multiple assaults against the Alliance army and never invades the Kingdom in any way - on and off his route we see time and time again him make a resolute stance to not assist the Empire/Edelgard in any direct way, to not cause undue bloodshed, to keep fighting to the minimum he can, and the one “exception” is still not meant to help Edelgard or to take down the Church/Rhea but to keep his people safe from harm.

And it’s just because in 3Hopes, Claude is not written in character. He is going against multiple core facets of his character that was established in 3H with no development - positive or negative - to explain why that is. And given that this is literally a self-described “alternative storyline” - AKA, it is not 3H - then I can in fact say that this isn’t canon because it literally isn’t. I accept 3Hopes as its own story separate from 3H as that is 1) what it sells itself as, and 2) the only nice way to explain away all of the blatant contradictions between it and 3H. Which include Claude lol

#ask #anon #Fire Emblem Warriors Three Hopes #Fire Emblem Warriors: Three Hopes #Fire Emblem Warriors Three Hopes spoilers #Fire Emblem Warriors: Three Hopes spoilers #and mind you - and I've said it before - Claude in 3Hopes *as a standalone character separate from 3H* is still terribly written #his motives and logic make no sense and go against what the game is trying to say his character is #he can't be distrustful of others but also just take people - that he already doesn't trust - at their word with nothing to back their words #he makes claims about the Church/Rhea that have NO standing whatsoever and uses that as justification to kill her #he can't be a ''Master Tactician'' but also have his plans fail all the time - with his biggest one failing the hardest at that #like disregarding how he's acting nothing like his character in 3H did - 3Hopes!Claude in at least GW is a shit character #and mind you he's not the only character who's acting OOC - Edelgard is too #unless you're saying that in 3H Edelgard is also capable of being completely brainwashed and Thales just. Didn't. #even when she literally declared war on him #like it's fine if this isn't canon lol #there's no need to try and fit a square peg into a round hole #this game in its entirety is AT BEST fanfiction fuel but pretty much nothing in it should be taken seriously #which from what I heard is *already* the standard for musuo games anyway

[needylittlegirl]

i need new jeans . but i dont wanna measure myself. thats scary

#that was always one of the hardest parts when i was peak eating disorder #it was always my numbers that messed me up #sorry u got some banging thighs girl!! u cant do anything abt it!!! #and oh my GOD its also just so anyone bc ive got some good thighs but my waist is like lowkey snatched #i hate saying that its stupid ahsjbdh but its the best way to say it #so finding jeans that fit both is Hell #ive altered almost all of my jeans and i just dont want to #mytxt

[berrymeter]

i'll be honest i didn't even process the homophobia in paprika as such bc all of it was expressed by a character who turned out to be the villain's henchman, & maybe that's on me but like, it really did not hit me like that at all.

it was a lot of background details, but it did hit me on the second rewatch that osanai doesn't yell at paprika for bringing up himuro bc he feels guilty about himuro's comatose-dead state but bc he's disgusted himuro liked him. osanai is not shown as a sympathetic character again from the moment you learn he's working against the protagonists, and frankly he's not too sympathetic either before then - at least if you don't trust him, everything he does & says comes across as him potentially becoming a problem later. again, on the second rewatch, i was able to retroactively notice another part that showcased that 'homophobia' mentioned by that person ; when they visit himuro's place & there are men's magazines all around his house, to which osanai makes a grossed out face (on first watch i thought it was more exasperation due to the previous fatphobia & general infantilisation of the fat characters).

the thing though, is that the messiness of the room, the 'gross' aspect, it doesn't hinge on the fact himuro is gay as much as it does on the fact he's fat. and it's weird to pinpoint homophobia without mentioning the glaring elephant in the room. they do the same shit to tokita! it's the exact same shit and tokita is straight as far as anyone's concerned! idk, tokita & himuro fit into a certain view of the 'nerd' that a lot of people hold, & the magazines are frankly the least of our problems with that view! if you want my opinion, the only reason tokita escaped the magazines treatment was that he was infantilised enough to not even be allowed the ability to be sexual. everyone constantly insists on how he's "a genius with the mind of a child". the fatphobia is absolutely paprika's biggest problem & it pisses me off someone would say the HOMOPHOBIA puts them off. like?! did we watch the same movie??

#perth.txt #cw fatphobia #like look i love this film. i can't say i don't. i do love it. but jesus christ does its One Massive Fucking Flaw bring it down. #and anyone who somehow bypasses it? i don't think they care one bit about fat people #satoshi kon did not hold the best views that is undeniable & frankly he could also have been massively homophobic for all i know #i'm just saying. if you're gonna take issue with something in paprika it better be the fatphobia first & foremost. #bc it is fucking aggressive & vile. the way tokita is treated is consistently the hardest part to watch in the movie #barring the one scene in the dream w osanai. #& there's no possible argument of 'well maybe it was meant to be seen in a negative light' at all. #hi sorry i have opinions. on movies #u could argue abt ableism due to how the like director guy is portrayed but i have mixed feelings on the matter #it doesnt exist in a vacuum though. so i 100% get the ableism criticisms even if i personally can examine it through diff lenses #& honestly i'm probably wrong! i just overanalyse stuff a lot once i get to thinking

[libraryofruinaofficial]

Hands-down the most useful tip for anyone trying to figure out how divisions of astral, etheric, spiritual, etc. work (especially in relation to the mechanics of magic, the paranormal, the supernatural, etc.) is acknowledging that they all have phases and states of "matter" affected by levels of energy like the physical does, and that those phases and states will affect their own "matter type" differently than they will affect others depending on those energy levels.

#we're still trying to do a big long breakdown of this but so far the hardest part has been figuring out those interactions #the mad mage muses #theoreticals and interpretations #magical theory #now realizing we'll also have to get more firm definitions of things like plane realm etc. #this is also why discussions of vital energy are confusing and also a pain #in our system we do utilize the notion of overlap or transitional states between groups #so like there's a mid phase between physical and astral a mid phase between physical and etheric and even mid phases between more than 2 #and our current working theory is your vital energy will likely be a unique mix #most normal mundane humans seem to have physical-dominant etheric mix vital energy #on occasion astral or spiritual if they're visionary-types or religious and they're serious about it #but that's why you'll get a lot of psyvamps who don't care for that taste #athletic-types are either the best or the worst of normal humans btw because they either accidentally pull more etheric in (best) #or drive it all into the physical (worst) #actual nonhumans and legit magical practitioners seem pretty unique and variable since they pull from several places actively/natively #we couldn't even begin to tell you what the fuck ours is since it's mostly library data #which has its own periodic table/hexadecimal base coding type deal. it's insane and can arrange itself to mimic damn near anything