#take it little steps at a time

[13eyond13]

Sometimes I still think about how sweet it was when that anon checked on me last year when I was posting overly dark jokes. Thank you whoever you were, that was kind

#i am so much better now but last year was a bad one for me #there was a time in the fall where i literally couldn't get out of bed just because it felt pointless #anyway my mom also forced me to make a doctors appointment and luckily my doctor is super kind and got me on a good medication #but it also was just from stuff like losing my job struggling in school and going through the hurricane etc #im just so glad that i was pushed through that by concerned folks because im enjoying life much better now and that wasnt that long ago #anyway if you're struggling badly right now pls know its not hopeless #reach out for the help youre given and try to see yourself as worth it to fight for #take it little steps at a time #celebrate the small victories like having a shower or taking a walk or answering a call #the best thing for me other than the doctor was just finding ways to be around other people more #instead of feeling defeated i had to think of ways i could fix the loneliness that was affecting me so much #i had to get proactive like i started volunteering and started a book club etc #also i just made myself be very honest with the friends i already had about my struggles and it helps with feeling closer to them #and less alone in it all #because its not that uncommon to have those kinds of struggles and it helps other people open up about their own or just know how you are #the hardest things to do were the most rewarding things in the end #volunteering gave me a reason to get out of the house meeting new people and trying new things and feeling good about myself and #i had to remind myself that i was able to offer things of value and that other people like having me around actually #like the book club is something my friend group looks forward to so much and made new friends through and i started that! #even though i was nervous about it and didnt know if theyd like it at all #other people need you just as much as you need them and thats the truth bby #p

[renecdote]

do you think Bruce ever lies awake at night thinking about all the things he has taught his kids and how it seemed like a good idea at the time but maybe some of those habits are actually more bad than good

#Dick Grayson #Bruce Wayne #Batman #DC #how many times has alfred told bruce to step back from a case? #to sleep? to eat? to take one moment away from an obsession so it doesn't drag him fully down? #and yeah the thing dick can't leave alone here is looking out for bruce #but it's also the case. the cape. the need to Fix things #dick is all but saying 'I love you' here #but I'm sure bruce is just hearing the echoes of his own obsession in the kids he raised into vigilantism #and I bet it haunts him that he has made them even a little bit like himself #having many feelings about them......

[omnificent-orion]

Don't ever forget. Wherever you go…

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#Orion's Art #Kingdom Hearts #Riku #Sora #Kairi #hello #like my big ugly watermark? #ha... ha ha.......ha... #figured I should actually upload this #I have so little free time lately #taking breaks by standing on the back step #looking out at spring rushing by #the chocolate daisies are blooming #the dandelions... #even these drawings are work hahaha #I try to have a new piece for my patrons every month #so I guess its thanks to them that I post at all #I couldn't come up with a caption in the end #so I chose something quickly while drafting this post #hmmm what else #i guess that's it for now

[420technoblazeit]

in my mind dean was always supposed to get older and become the new bobby. like ok you're a hunter, maybe a little new to the scene and still figuring things out. and you're tracking down a werewolf, easy case. except some things don't line up quite right and now you're thinking it might not actually be a werewolf. so you ask around a hunter's bar and they all say the same thing. go to this one bunker in the middle of nowhere in kansas

and you're like sure what the hell. you're stumped anyway, might as well check it out. maybe it's a weapons storehouse or something. but then you get there and there's a doorbell and a bee-shaped welcome mat out front and you're starting to think you've got the wrong place. the door swings open and there's this middle aged guy with a robe and batman pyjama bottoms. and he laughs at the look on your face and tells you to come in, he doesn't bite. not since he got that vampire cure, anyway. you're not sure what to make of that last part but he winks at you when he says it so you figure he's joking. maybe.

he gives great advice about hunting everything under the sun and if you stick around long enough he'll go on and on about how he saved the world at least five times. ok sure. you don't want to be rude so you just sit there and sip your coffee politely while he talks about some guy called chuck and how much of a bitch he is. and another guy who's aged a little more gracefully comes padding down the hallway in a metallica t-shirt and rolls his eyes. has he told you about tvland yet? ('i was just getting to that part!')

if you go to the basement you'll find shotguns filled with salt, wooden stakes, holy water, and demon-killing bullets for sale. and if you're lucky the witch who sells hex bags might be around. low-grade curses only, of course. you better leave the powerful stuff to the professionals. and she'll get in trouble if she gives you anything stronger, not that she can't be persuaded. a girl's gotta make a living after all and she's always encouraged eager new witches. it's worked out pretty well for her so far. and then a guy you swear is twice your height will raise an eyebrow at her and insist she only sell the weaker hex bags, please. you don't need any more witches in your coven, rowena. you've got plenty

pagan god giving you trouble? there's a man who swings by every once in a while who knows how to deal with those. give him some candy or a fun magic relic and he might help you out. it depends. he's a little picky about dishing out advice and he likes to play favorites. and if you've got a demon problem they can give you the number of a guy who swears up and down that he used to be the king of hell. but you've seen him walking around with a purse-sized terrier tucked under his arm and a dozen more following him so you're not really sure if you believe him

idk i like to think that dean got to grow old and retire. that doesn't mean he stops helping people, it just means he hangs up his coat and becomes an old man who rambles on and on about 'back in my day' and makes a dent in his leather armchair. there's a foosball table where the dungeon used to be and sam complains about beer bottles being everywhere and it becomes a safe haven for anyone still fighting the good fight. it's just that for dean and the rest of team free will the fight is over. they're done hunting now

#THIS GOT AWAY FROM ME BUT. i was thinkign about the spn finale and what i'd picture as a happy ending for tfw (mostly dean sorry. samgirls) #adn like. i dont think dean would ever give up helping people but i also think at some poitn in time he'd recognize that the way he views #hunting really does hurt him. n maybe eventually he coudl be convinced to take a step back yk? and be a little more hands off like bobby wa #and YES im givign rowena gabe adn crowley happy endings too. up to you to decide if htey live in the bunker now. (i think crowley does at #least once he abdicates the throne. he went full will graham and has like a hundred dogs n dean complains about how much mud they track in) #supernatural #dean winchester #castiel #rowena macleod #sam winchester #gabriel spn #crowley macleod #crowley spn #the pig squeals

[ritoryb]

did god still love you at the end?

second part of this which was meant to make things a bit clearer. i feel like it came out ok but it just seemed awkward with two. well take both but pretend you only saw the first one.

#my drawing #egil #xenoblade chronicles #xenoblade #meyneth #fiora #i think everything i draw is starting to be a bit Too Much. take this as a cutscene redraw if you will #like i think this is getting too into my Brain Goo #Maybe its time to take a step back or somethin #also while finishing this off i just watched a crack creep menacingly across my phone screen #also sorry for making meyneth Small. i wish i could have a little meyneth floating around and following me though #idt oomfie who's playing this for the first time follows me on here so we may be OK!

[stardestroyer81]

When Pizza Granny doesn't find herself misplacing her medication, she regrets it once she recalls the grueling process of taking it.

#⭐ Star's Art ⭐ #Pizza Tower #Pizza Granny #Pizzahead #Pizzahead Pizza Tower #Redraw #Sprite Art #Coolness #Open up... it's time for the pill! #My very good friend panurei-derogatory and I found ourselves discussing Granny Pizza and her hub world dialogue yesterday #Specifically her dialogue on the third floor where she makes mention of losing her medication 'again' #It didn't take long for my brain to go 'what if I redrew the one scene from Spongebob where Mr. Krabs takes the pill but with Pizza Granny' #One concept sketch turned full-on art piece later... here we are! #This was a good enough reason as any to draw Granny Pizza for the first time #Plus I wanted a reason to draw Pizzahead again seeing as I've drawn him only once before. Very recently too #I swear every time I draw in the Pizza Tower style I get a step closer to perfecting it #I'm really proud of this even if it started out as a simple joke sketch! 🍕✨ #Another thing I'm proud of are the little pizza buttons I added to Pizzahead's overalls #Probably not the first person to do the such but I think it looks cute!

[junebugtwin]

even while it was happening, you knew it wasn't going to last

#parahumans #worm #lisa wilbourn #tattletale #feeling BAD about my girl lisa in the club tonite #i am convinced she is the most tragic main character in worm #which is a bold statement i know #but i just cant handle even thinking about her shit FOR REAL #she knew the cops and robbers shit was bullshit! from the very beginning! #of course she did! Coil fucking forced her to work for him at gunpoint and she totally understands that #if she doesn't do what he wants shes going to end up in a torturebasement!! #she knew aall of taylors funny little problems n Issues from the start! she tried SO hard to keep her alive and at least a little happy #struggling and clinging and digging in her claws as she watches this girl somehow get Worse(?) #and every time taylor takes a step towards the void guess who sees it in excruciating detail even when taylor can't/wont!!!! #and in the end it doesn't matter!! all her schemes and plans don't amount for shit!! she doesn't save the girl! #she doesn't save the girl. #my art

[sidetongue]

There are so many people in my day to day life who see dogs as just pets. So many people who don’t understand how much I’m struggling with Miller’s condition. Even people in my own workplace are surprised by how “hard” I’m taking it. The reality is these people go home to a partner or family of an evening, I go home to my dogs. That sounds really miserable and antisocial - but I’m an independent person and I’ve bought my own home and set up my own life and I’ve done it all by myself… except for the little pack of supporters who’ve been there through it all. Miller has been through it all.

Miller knew me when I was 18 and living with my grandparents; still a kid and having no idea about being an adult. Miller knew me when I went through my first break up, and she stuck around through the heartache. Miller knew me when I first ventured out into the big wide world; renting a “big girl house” with a friend and having a stable income and working towards my dreams. Miller knew me through my second break up, where I fled the country and went on a journey to “heal myself” and left her (and Henry) with my grandparents. She didn’t mind. She enjoyed the extra snacks. Miller knew me when I bought my first home, alone, and was right there beside me throughout.

She’s known me through my entire adult life. But I’ve known Miller through the day when she first came home… carsick on the passenger’s seat with only petrol station toilet paper to clean it up. I’ve known Miller through her “drug overdose” where she decided to snack on a pack of ibuprofen (again, with Henry). I’ve known Miller through horrific and uncontrollable ear infections. Where I thought the kindest thing was to let her go. Where I saw her in chronic, severe pain and several ear surgeries and procedures. I’ve known miller through her, um, “back end” problems, and having to remove stitches from her actual butthole. I’ve known Miller through her mellow years, where her only crimes are barking at a yellow lab on the beach or greeting our guests with a loud and persistent voice.

Today someone came to my house and there was no loud voice to greet them. She’s in a vet clinic cage, yellow as a highlighter, trying her hardest to stay alive. She’s 8 years old and has lived a life rich with joy and adventure, but my god I’m not ready to say goodbye yet. She’s not grey, she’s not creaky, she’s still got so much life in her. So many more rivers to swim in and songs to dance to and yellow labs to bark at. Every waking moment is spent agonising over my special little blue dog.

We don’t see leptospirosis where I am located. It’s very rare, and my vets have little experience with it. Today we contacted other hospitals in places were it is more prevalent so we can get a better idea of what we’re dealing with. It can take 7-14 days to see a turnaround. Miller is on day 4. I don’t know how I will afford 14 days of intensive care. I don’t even know how to think about money right now. I don’t know when the right time is to call it; to let her rest, or whether she wants me to keep fighting for her. Every minute is a nightmare and I miss my best girl.

#when moby shoves his nose in the food bin he looks like miller #when trickle does her little pinned ears waggy butt appeasement dance she looks like miller #when someone comes stomping up the steps I can hear miller’s voice #except none of those are miller #and there’s a very real chance they never will be again #she may never come home #and I’ll be stuck reeling from these tiny fractions of time where I think it’s her #my very best friend #my loyal sidekick #who hates everyone in this world but me #and has always driven me absolutely nuts #please don’t take her away just yet #please let her come home for a little longer

[stuckinapril]

I want to be an artistic generalist but it’s so unrealistic for me rn!!

#by that I mean like. practicing art + piano + writing + reading books #& practicing languages !! speaking French & Arabic calligraphy #all my time is consumed by full time studying & clinic & research rn #which is completely fine bc science is equally important to me & I don’t think I’d feel whole without it #but it feels like my other half is a little dormant rn #which I’ve already accepted. the next few months will be intense w prepping for one of the biggest tests of my life #but once that’s out of the way I will be UNSTOPPABLE #so many hobbies I want to take up. and hobbies I wanna resume bc a couple of these I was doing already but just don’t have the time lately #daydreaming ab it will sustain me in the meantime I suppose #or I can try to make it work somehow but rn my focus is all the new shit that’s coming up #one step at a time or I will lose my mind #p

[sluttylittlewaste]

Hilarious that the same people defending any and all questionable choices the Bad Kids make (namely Kristen lbr) by saying "They're just kids! They have all this trauma and it's fucked up to expect teens to be good and nice all the time!" are the same people insisting that Kipperlily is an evil bitch and the Ratgrinders deserve to die.

#it's almost like the rules of empathy and nuance only apply to characters you like 🙃 #we know absolutely nothing of significance about the Ratgrinders #and i can't wait for Brennan to remind us of that #you want to complain about Kipperlily using her families money to try to buy the campaign??? #The entire shrimp party that kicked off Kristen's campaign was bankrolled by her rich friend #Adaine is a total bitch to anyone who isn't in her immediate friend group #Fig is a literal full time criminal at this point #they have at least 50+ murders under their collective belts at this point #the only verified difference between the Bad Kids and the Ratgrinders at this point is that we know nothing about them #I hope they are the biggest red herring Brennan has ever pulled #because I feel like there are people in this fandom who are so used to self-identifying as victims that they've become full bullies #and they're projecting that shit in some really gross ways #The same way Brennan had to remind Adaine that she wasn't the only one with a shitty life when she was dunking on Zayne? #how about we all take a big step back and try to have a little more perspective #instead of jumping straight to being triggered by a CHILD who had the audacity to not love your faves behavior #let me die #if i die #d20 fhjy #fhjy #dimension 20 #kristen applebees #kipperlily copperkettle #the bad kids #the ratgrinders #we have no context on what those kids went through in all the time the Bad Kids have been running around doing other shit #Aguefort is an awful school and their friend is dead #maybe she has a reason not to like the super special “chosen one” that got personally resurrected by the principal and keeps failing upwards #i didn't want to be a Kipperlily defense page #but the energy of the Kipperlily hate reeks of double-standards and unprocessed high school bitterness

[wildwood-faun]

more spring walkies! feat. some adorable piggies.

#find exciting new places and sleep in them #was that my hiking tag #inaccurate today because i'm SO BAD at taking breaks oh well #my photos #i've walked almost 26 000 steps today and now i am In Bed #i would like a little treat after this but unfortunately there is at the same time nothing i want

[inquebrar]

QSMP was one of the projects that had one of the biggest personal impacts on me. since i was younger, i have always been fascinated by getting to know different cultures and learning new languages ​​has always been something that captivated me. although for years i have "been part" of many fandoms and followed different projects, series, groups and things like that for years sometimes, but i just had my interests without having no one to talk with and share it. so this was the first time that i really participated actively and was so engaged in the "fandoms" i'm part of, to talk about it, share my theories and analyzes and stuff like that. so at the beginning (and tbh i still feel a little) i was always very nervous to talk about it or talk with other people in general (especially in a language that is not my mother tongue) because it was something so out of my comfort zone, but through qsmp i learned more about cultures and languages ​​that before i didn't even thought about learning, i felt the desire to continue learning languages ​​that i had left aside, i felt more proud of my nationality, i met very kind people from different countries, it brought me a lot of joy seeing many people starting to learn my language too and see so many people who like the same things as me who share opinions and interests and even people who speak my language who are also very engaging it's so cool to see and the whole feeling of unity, comfort and cultural mix between different people made me extremely passionate about this project and the things it provided.

but unfortunately, recently it has been very difficult to deal with the excess of negativity and heavy topics and serious matters that came to the surface and started to accumulate with disappointments and overwhelming things that i had been feeling for a while. having hyperfixation on qsmp stopped being something that motivated me and brought me happiness, it started to affect my mental health in a bad and unhealthy way, which already hasn't been so good in the last few days. so i thought i'd just vent a little so that maybe someone who is in a similar situation and having similar feelings to mine will feel less alone or a little more understood.

i heard Quackity's recent statement and i was relieved to see that he handled the situation responsibly and addressed the matters without taking away the importance also genuinely apologizing, it was a difficult and sad situation to witness in general but with the server closed on a temporary break, i really hope that he now stays informed and aware of how his team is working and how things are happening behind the scenes. i hope that this brings more organization, communication, correct and respectful treatment to all those who work to maintain the project with care and commitment, and i hope things get an extremely significant change and that everything improves from now on. i still have a lot of love for this project and i want to believe things will be more positive again, but in the meantime i hope that everyone who was affected by everything that has been happening takes care of themselves and always remember that you are important, your feelings are valid and you're not alone. speak up when you feel the need, when you feel disrespected, when you need help. also don't forget to be kind (to yourself too) and i'm waiting for better days.

#qsmp #after actually participating in a fandom for the first time i felt like i needed to vent about how i was feeling #i needed to get these things out of my chest and if anyone identifies with something or isn't feeling well right now you're not alone ok?🫂 #i hope everything gets better soon let's take care of ourselves and if necessary step back a little and rest #mental health comes first! hoping for better days ❤️‍🩹 #qsmp fandom

[rexcaliburechoes]

gale is ambition, so he has both crippling self doubt and debilitating pride in his work.

gale is ambition, so if a character tries to undermine him by one-upping him, he'll think he's not nothing left. more else can the orb destroy that it hasn't already?

gale is ambition, so if a character tries to undermine him by one-upping him, he'll vehemently deny that. he's the wizard of waterdeep. he was mystra's chosen. he was her lover. who could be any better than that?

gale is ambition. it's his greatest flaw and his greatest asset.

#baldur's gate 3 #gale #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #gale bg3 #bg3 gale #spoilers #bg3 spoilers #rex rambles #obvious take is obvious but i've been ruminating on his reactions to sorcerer tav/tav generally undermining his experience and expertise #it's the same principle if anyone's every played an instrument and you see a 5 year old playing music better than you #who has had 20+ years of study and practice #it's humbling; it makes you feel like shit; it incenses you to try harder to get better #that's ambition. it's both the self doubt and the pride #of course gale is going to be petty back; you've literally just stepped on both the pride and self doubt at the same time #ruminating on the bg3 cast a little too late but it's fine lmao. i think he's neat and i like him a lot #i'm very obsessed with my own drow war cleric though. oh no he's hot ig lmao #i also have some thoughts about the soundtrack which ar very interesting to me

[undercoverangell]

spiderverse means that theres a spider riz out there and it also means that I will make him.

edit: i am writing a fic abt this ! its on ao3 rn. go crazy!!

#sklonda knows. obviously. she figures it out the first time she sees spiderman #i think hed def have a funky name. and also the implication of the green goblin in riz's world is so funny #can u imagine. some elf like 'im the green goblin!!' and he's like 'wow ok. uhm. seems a little weird.' #dimension 20 #fantasy high #riz gukgak #him and sklonda just do not stop fighting when he encounters her as spiderman #he asks her to take a step back from the crime scene and shes like 'excuse me?'