#ive always been in the city

[aka-indulgence]

I’m a very city girl and now I’m imagining going to the country side and meeting farmtale Sans…

You moved there for some reason and need a place to stay, Sans was kind enough to give you somewhere to stay with some chores to do to lower your rent. You’re not experienced and you’re not that good with the chores- sometimes farm animals freak you out (cows are big, theres so many chickens, what iS THAT GIANT SPIDER?!), you can’t move heavy stuff around, even the tools are heavy for you.

And… Sans thinks you’re cute. He can do the work you do much faster than you could, but he likes your company. Every time you drop a stack of hay and panic he can’t help but chuckle and throw it on top of the pile in his arms. He likes how you’re impressed by his skill with tools and the fact that he can drive tractors. You may not be good at your job, but he likes that you want to learn anyway. You like the animals when he teaches you how to read their behavior better.

He really likes it when he saves you from a giant bug and you give him “my hero” eyes…

“those darn eyes are gonna be the death of me.”

#cityfolk where you at #im scared of bugs but i like running in the mud if thats anything dsjhdff #ive always been in the city #its kinda embarrassing when a country person mentions how Bad I am at farm stuff dsjhf #brain: BUT WHAT IF HE FINDS IT CUTE #me: but what if he finds it cute… #he’s got rough phalanges #you’ve got soft ‘i havent touched dirt in 20 years’ hands #you sit down a lot because your back’s aching #from raking/moving vegetables into a truck or something #Sans: *moving whole crates into the truck on his own* what an angel she’s makin’ work so much easier for me #ofc hes big stronk skeleton… hoheheheh #aka writing

[meowthiroth]

Feel free to go more in-depth in the tags, I'm curious who else's brain does this & where it decides to put you when it does

#ive noticed my brain likes to conjure up some REALLY elaborate settings for my dreams #sometimes they take cues from places ive been/go to frequently but always with a TON of stuff added #theres this one city i end up in all the time that's huge & COMPLETELY made up & yet i just. know where literally everything is. it's wild #poll #tumblr polls #dreams

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the thing about chronic migraines that they dont tell you is the lingering terror of the long stretches in between them. bc you know you'll have one again. its inevitable. its just a matter of time.

but then you desperately try Not to think about it because you dont want to jinx it / somehow psyche yourself into one

#its been a little over two months and im scared #its gonna be a bad one i know it.... #but i will continue on doing my best to ignore it #freaking out every time its a little harder to think or i get a spot in my vision #im doubly scared one will hit while im driving.... especially when i need to take the long drive into the city #migraine + winding roads = Oh No #absolutely unprompted #migraines i hate you i Hate you #and the extra fear is it always fucks with my brain for a while afterwards #ive been able to think so clearly lately #and im terrified of losing that. its like they scramble my neurons #and it takes so long for them to untangle.... #ive been dealing w this since 6th grade and ill never get used to it #its horrible.... #that being said if anyone reading this is ever writing about migrained #Oh Boy Do I Have Firsthand Experience For You!!!! #*migraines. typing on phone rn

[pickled-flowers]

The blue jays have started building a nest that's right next to my balcony and I see them perfectly from my usual seat!

#i hope ill get to see some babies blue jay #but anyways its a blessing whenever they come on my balcony or when i can just see them #the back alley of my appartment is basically my backyard ok ive decided that #anyways theres a bunch of trees (AND MORE IMPORTANTLY RIGHT ACROSS FROM MY BEDROOMS WINDOW IS A LILAC TREE) #i cant even begin to explain how awesome that is to me #anyways ive been feeding the birds sporadically since living here and my downstairs neighbours have as well #so theres lots of city wild life #also the water is pretty close by i suppose that helps! #i forget i live in a “green” part of the city #le saint laurent est juste a côté #cant wait to go smoke by the fleuve during the summer #also fun Winter lore : when i was a kid i used to always call Montreal “pays pas beau” (ugly country) #i would say that everywhere i went that had no/little trees 😭😭😭😭

[spiderziege]

oc doodling. who are these people

#dont ask me about their story there is none #/j youre always welcome to ask about them but there genuinely is not much of a story. they just vibe. and live in a haunted city #finally drew all their dogs tho ive been meaning to do that for. years. but dogs are so hard to draw #my art #oc art #the shadow game

[orgonongurlz]

merry computerchipmas!!

chip snuck a little mistletoe as we went to close wholesome foods for the holidays ://3 slash silly

#fanart #big city greens #chip whistler #self insert #selfship #romantic f/o #selfship community #>computerchip #ive always thought chip would be a big christmas guy since last year… #ive been feeling bad about my selfship stuff lately because of something that happened on twitter </3 #but im gonna keep trying to ignore it and have fun!! #have a merry christmas!! and if you dont celebrate have an amazing day <3 #grady arts

[tunamayojazz]

a look into yuta and toge's couple dorm life

(template by pckgmeat)

#i just think yuta plays takashi kokubo's music bc it helps him sleep/have a peaceful time #i really tried to nail the average japanese self-help book cover vibe lol i hope i did #ive drawn toge reading skip to loafer before so naturally he also reads hirayasumi #which i highly recommend for slice of life enjoyers by the way #kinda regret drawing toge's cursed speaker bc i think i could have drawn something else that showed his personality more #well ill say it here #it would have been a personal planner/journal plastered with splatoon and panda stickers #the stickers are slipped in between the cover and a protective sleeve he does not stick them directly onto the planner itself #it must be said #ive also talked about this before in another artwork but toge takes his stationary very seriously #the first years have observed this and actually chipped in to get a expensive gift card from his favorite stationary store for his bday #they also know which store because they all go on shopping trips ! and that's canon #as you can see i have a lot to say about this and i love it. brainrot is a wonderful thing #in contrast to toge enjoying cooking at home maki is a restaurant/cafe connoisseur #she enjoys eating toge's food too but really finds joy in eating out and exploring all the food tokyo has to offer. mostly unhealthy food #that's why yuta looks out for chances to get food coupons and brochures about new eateries in the city #a thoughtful person to his friends #he's always thinking of them #ok im done for now but i have more to say. will continue in another post lol #thank you for reading ! #ottoge #inuokko #inumaki toge #inumaki #okkotsu yuuta #okkotsu yuta #yuuta #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #art

[wonder-worker]

Queen Margaret (of Anjou) had written to the Common Council in November when the news of the Duke of York's coup was proclaimed. The letter from the queen was published in modernised English by M.A.E. Wood in 1846, and she dated it to February 1461 because of its opening sentence: ‘And whereas the late Duke of N [York]...." However the rest of the letter, and that of the prince, is in the present tense and clearly indicates that the Duke of York is still alive. The reference to the ‘late duke’ is not to his demise but to the attainder of 1459 when he was stripped of his titles as well as of his lands. If the queen’s letter dates to November 1460, and not February 1461, it make perfect sense. Margaret declared the Duke of York had ‘upon an untrue pretense, feigned a title to my lord’s crown’ and in so doing had broken his oath of fealty. She thanked the Londoners for their loyalty in rejecting his claim. She knew of the rumours, that we and my lords sayd sone and owrs shuld newly drawe toward yow with an vnsome [uncounted] powere of strangars, disposed to robbe and to dispoyle yow of yowr goods and havours, we will that ye knowe for certeyne that . . . . [y]e, nor none of yow, shalbe robbed, dispoyled nor wronged by any parson that at that tyme we or owr sayd sone shalbe accompanied with She entrusted the king's person to the care of the citizens ‘so that thrwghe malice of his sayde enemye he be no more trowbled vexed ne jeoparded.’ In other words the queen was well informed in November 1460 of the propaganda in London concerning the threat posed by a Lancastrian military challenge to the illegal Yorkist proceedings. Margaret assured the Common Council that no harm would come to the citizenry or to their property. Because the letter was initially misdated, it has been assumed that the queen wrote it after she realised the harm her marauding troops were doing to her cause, and to lull London into a false sense of security. This is not the case, and it is a typical example of historians accepting without question Margaret’s character as depicted in Yorkist propaganda. Margaret’s letter was a true statement of her intentions but it made no impact at the time and has made none since. How many people heard of it? The Yorkist council under the Earl of Warwick, in collusion with the Common Council of the city, was in an ideal position to suppress any wide dissemination of the letter, or of its content.

... When Margaret joined the Lancastrian lords it is unlikely that she had Scottish troops with her. It is possible that Jasper Tudor, Earl of Pembroke, sent men from Wales but there was no compelling reason why he should, he needed all the forces at his disposal to face Edward Earl of March, now Duke of York following his father’s death at Wakefield, who, in fact, defeated Pembroke at Mortimer’s Cross on 2 February just as the Lancastrian army was marching south. The oft repeated statement that the Lancastrian army was composed of a motley array of Scots, Welsh, other foreigners (French by implication, for it had not been forgotten that René of Anjou, Queen Margaret’s father, had served with the French forces in Nomandy when the English were expelled from the duchy, nor that King Charles VII was her uncle) as well as northern men is based on a single chronicle, the Brief Notes written mainly in Latin in the monastery of Ely, and ending in 1470. It is a compilation of gossip and rumour, some of it wildly inaccurate, but including information not found in any other contemporary source, which accounts for the credence accorded to it. The Dukes of Somerset and Exeter and the Earl of Devon brought men from the south and west. The Earl of Northumberland was not solely reliant on his northern estates; as Lord Poynings he had extensive holdings in the south. The northerners were tenants and retainers of Northumberland, Clifford, Dacre, the Westmorland Nevilles, and Fitzhugh, and accustomed to the discipline of border defence. The continuator of Gregory’s Chronicle, probably our best witness, is emphatic that the second battle of St Albans was won by the ‘howseholde men and feyd men.” Camp followers and auxiliaries of undesirables there undoubtedly were, as there are on the fringes of any army, but the motley rabble the queen is supposed to have loosed on peaceful England owes more to the imagination of Yorkist propagandists than to the actual composition of the Lancastrian army.

... Two differing accounts of the Lancastrian march on London are generally accepted. One is that a large army, moving down the Great North Road, was made up of such disparate and unruly elements that the queen and her commanders were powerless to control it.” Alternatively, Queen Margaret did not wish to curb her army, but encouraged it to ravage all lands south of the Trent, either from sheet spite or because it was the only way she could pay her troops.” Many epithets have been applied to the queen, few of them complimentary, but no one has as yet called her stupid. It would have been an act of crass stupidity wilfully to encourage her forces to loot the very land she was trying to restore to an acceptance of Lancastrian rule, with her son as heir to the throne. On reaching St Albans, so the story goes, the Lancastrian army suddenly became a disciplined force which, by a series of complicated manoeuvres, including a night march and a flank attack, won the second battle of St Albans, even though the Yorkists were commanded by the redoubtable Earl of Warwick. The explanation offered is that the rabble element, loaded down with plunder, had descended before the battle and only the household men remained. Then the rabble reappeared, and London was threatened. To avert a sack of the city the queen decided to withdraw the army, either on her own initiative or urged by the peace-loving King Henry; as it departed it pillaged the Abbey of St Albans, with the king and queen in residence, and retired north, plundering as it went. Nevertheless, it was sufficiently intact a month later to meet and nearly defeat the Yorkist forces at Towton, the bloodiest and hardest fought battle of the civil war thus far. The ‘facts’ as stated make little sense, because they are seen through the distorting glass of Yorkist propaganda.

The ravages allegedly committed by the Lancastrian army are extensively documented in the chronicles, written after the event and under a Yorkist king. They are strong on rhetoric but short on detail. The two accounts most often quoted are by the Croyland Chronicle and Abbott Whethamstede. There is no doubting the note of genuine hysterical fear in both. The inhabitants of the abbey of Crowland were thoroughly frightened by what they believed would happen as the Lancastrians swept south. ‘What do you suppose must have been our fears . . . [w]hen every day rumours of this sad nature were reaching our ears.’ Especially alarming was the threat to church property. The northern men ‘irreverently rushed, in their unbridled and frantic rage into churches . . . [a]nd most nefariously plundered them.’ If anyone resisted ‘they cruelly slaughtered them in the very churches or churchyards.’ People sought shelter for themselves and their goods in the abbey,“ but there is not a single report of refugees seeking succour in the wake of the passage of the army after their homes had been burned and their possessions stolen. The Lancastrians were looting, according to the Crowland Chronicle, on a front thirty miles wide ‘like so many locusts.“ Why, then, did they come within six miles but bypass Crowland? The account as a whole makes it obvious that it was written considerably later than the events it so graphically describes.

The claim that Stamford was subject to a sack from which it did not recover is based on the Tudor antiquary John Leland. His attribution of the damage is speculation; by the time he wrote stories of Lancastrian ravages were well established, but outside living memory. His statement was embellished by the romantic historian Francis Peck in the early eighteenth century. Peck gives a spirited account of Wakefield and the Lancastrian march, influenced by Tudor as well as Yorkist historiography. … As late as 12 February when Warwick moved his troops to St Albans it is claimed that he did not know the whereabouts of the Lancastrians, an odd lack of military intelligence about an army that was supposed to be leaving havoc in its wake. The Lancastrians apparently swerved to the west after passing Royston which has puzzled military historians because they accept that it came down the Great North Road, but on the evidence we have it is impossible to affirm this. If it came from York via Grantham, Leicester, Market Harborough, Northampton and Stony Stratford to Dunstable, where the first engagement took place, there was no necessity to make an inexplicable swerve westwards because its line of march brought it to Dunstable and then to St Albans. The Lancastrians defeated Warwick’s army on 17 February 1461 and Warwick fled the field. In an echo of Wakefield there is a suggestion of treachery. An English Chronicle tells the story of one Thomas Lovelace, a captain of Kent in the Yorkist ranks, who also appears in Waurin. Lovelace, it is claimed, was captured at Wakefield and promised Queen Margaret that he would join Warwick and then betray and desert him, in return for his freedom.

Lt. Colonel Bume, in a rare spirit of chivalry, credits Margaret with the tactical plan that won the victory, although only because it was so unorthodox that it must have been devised by a woman. But there is no evidence that Margaret had any military flair, let alone experience. A more likely candidate is the veteran captain Andrew Trolloppe who served with Warwick when the latter was Captain of Calais, but he refused to fight under the Yorkist banner against his king at Ludford in 1459 when Warwick brought over a contingent of Calais men to defy King Henry in the field. It was Trolloppe’s ‘desertion’ at Ludford, it is claimed, that forced the Yorkists to flee. The most objective and detailed account of the battle of St Albans is by the unknown continuator of Gregory’s Chronicle. The chronicle ends in 1469 and by that time it was safe to criticise Warwick, who was then out of favour. The continuator was a London citizen who may have fought in the Yorkist ranks. He had an interest in military matters and recorded the gathering of the Lancastrian army at Hull, before Wakefield, and the detail that the troops wore the Prince of Wales’ colours and ostrich feathers on their livery together with the insignia of their lords. He had heard the rumours of a large ill-disciplined army, but because he saw only the household men he concluded that the northerners ran away before the battle. Abbot Whethamstede wrote a longer though far less circumstantial account, in which he carefully made no mention of the Earl of Warwick. … Margaret of Anjou had won the battle but she proceeded to lose the war. London lay open to her and she made a fatal political blunder in retreating from St Albans instead of taking possession of the capital.' Although mistaken, her reasons for doing so were cogent. The focus of contemporary accounts is the threat to London from the Lancastrian army. This is repeated in all the standard histories, and even those who credit Margaret with deliberately turning away from London do so for the wrong reasons.

... The uncertainties and delays, as well as the hostility of some citizens, served to reinforce Margaret’s belief that entry to London could be dangerous. It was not what London had to fear from her but what she had to fear from London that made her hesitate. Had she made a show of riding in state into the city with her husband and son in a colourful procession she might have accomplished a Lancastrian restoration, but Margaret had never courted popularity with the Londoners, as Warwick had, and she had kept the court away from the capital for several years in the late 1450s, a move that was naturally resented. Warwick’s propaganda had tarnished her image, associating her irrevocably with the dreaded northern men. There was also the danger that if Warwick and Edward of March reached London with a substantial force she could be trapped inside a hostile city, and she cannot have doubted that once she and Prince Edward were taken prisoner the Lancastrian dynasty would come to an end. Understandably, at the critical moment, Margaret lost her nerve. ... Queen Margaret did not march south in 1461 in order to take possession of London, but to recover the person of the king. She underestimated the importance of the capital to her cause." Although she had attempted to establish the court away from London, the Yorkist lords did not oppose her for taking the government out of the capital, but for excluding them from participation in it. Nevertheless London became the natural and lucrative base for the Yorkists, of which they took full advantage. The author of the Annales was in no doubt that it was Margaret’s failure to enter London that ensured the doom of the Lancastrian dynasty. A view shared, of course, by the continuator of Gregory’s Chronicle, a devoted Londoner:

He that had Londyn for sake Wolde no more to hem take The king, queen and prince had been in residence at the Abbey of St Albans since the Lancastrian victory. Abbot Whethamstede, at his most obscure, conveys a strong impression that St Albans was devastated because the Lancastrian leaders, including Queen Margaret, encouraged plundering south of the Trent in lieu of wages. There must have been some pillaging by an army which had been kept in a state of uncertainty for a week, but whether it was as widespread or as devastating as the good abbot, and later chroniclers, assert is by no means certain. Whethamstede is so admirably obtuse that his rhetoric confuses both the chronology and the facts. So convoluted and uncircumstantial is his account that the eighteenth century historian of the abbey, the Reverend Peter Newcome, was trapped into saying: ‘These followers of the Earl of March were looked on as monsters in barbarity.’ He is echoed by Antonia Gransden who has ‘the conflict between the southemers of Henry’s army and the nonherners of Edward’s. The abbey was not pillaged, but Whethamstede blackened Queen Margaret’s reputation by a vague accusation that she appropriated one of the abbey’s valuable possessions before leaving for the north. This is quite likely, not in a spirit of plunder or avarice, but as a contribution to the Lancastrian war effort, just as she had extorted, or so he later claimed, a loan from the prior of Durham earlier in the year. The majority of the chroniclers content themselves with the laconic statement that the queen and her army withdrew to the north, they are more concerned to record in rapturous detail the reception of Edward IV by ‘his’ people. An English Chronicle, hostile to the last, reports that the Lancastrian army plundered its way north as remorselessly as it had on its journey south. One can only assume that it took a different route. The Lancastrian march ended where it began, in the city of York. Edward of March had himself proclaimed King Edward IV in the capital the queen had abandoned, and advanced north to win the battle of Towton on 29 March. The bid to unseat the government of the Yorkist lords had failed, and that failure brought a new dynasty into being. The Duke of York was dead, but his son was King of England whilst King Henry, Queen Margaret and Prince Edward sought shelter at the Scottish court. The Lancastrian march on London had vindicated its stated purpose, to recover the person of the king so that the crown would not continue to be a pawn in the hands of rebels and traitors, but ultimately it had failed because the Lancastrian leaders, including Queen Margaret, simply did not envisage that Edward of March would have the courage or the capacity to declare himself king. Edward IV had all the attributes that King Henry (and Queen Margaret) lacked: he was young, ruthless, charming, and the best general of his day; and in the end he out-thought as well as out-manoeuvred them.

It cannot be argued that no damage was done by the Lancastrian army. It was mid-winter, when supplies of any kind would have been short, so pillaging, petty theft, and unpaid foraging were inevitable. It kept the field for over a month and, and, as it stayed longest at Dunstable and in the environs of St Albans, both towns suffered from its presence. But the army did not indulge in systematic devastation of the countryside, either on its own account or at the behest of the queen. Nor did it contain contingents of England’s enemies, the Scots and the French, as claimed by Yorkist propaganda. Other armies were on the march that winter: a large Yorkist force moved from London to Towton and back again. There are no records of damage done by it, but equally, it cannot be claimed that there was none.

-B.M Cron, "Margaret of Anjou and the Lancastrian March on London, 1461"

#*The best propaganda narratives always contain an element of truth but it's important to remember that it's never the WHOLE truth #margaret of anjou #15th century #english history #my post #(please ignore my rambling tags below lmao) #imo the bottom line is: they were fighting a war and war is a scourge that is inevitably complicated and messy and unfortunate #arguing that NOTHING happened (on either side but especially the Lancastrians considering they were cut off from London's supplies) #is not a sustainable claim. However: Yorkist propaganda was blatantly propaganda and I wish that it's recognized more than it currently is #also I had *no idea* that her letter seems to have been actually written in 1460! I wish that was discussed more #& I wish Cron's speculation that Margaret may have feared being trapped in a hostile city with an approaching army was discussed more too #tho I don't 100% agree with article's concluding paragraph. 'Edward IV did not ultimately save England from further civil war' he...did??? #the Yorkist-Lancastrian civil war that began in the 1450s ended in 1471 and his 12-year reign after that was by and large peaceful #(tho Cron may he talking about the period in between 61-71? but the civil war was still ongoing; the Lancasters were still at large #and the opposing king and prince were still alive. Edward by himself can hardly be blamed for the civil war continuing lol) #but in any case after 1471 the war WAS believed to have ended for good and he WAS believed to have established a new dynasty #the conflict of 1483 was really not connected to the events of the 1450s-1471. it was an entirely new thing altogether #obviously he shouldn't be viewed as the grand undoubted rightful savior of England the way Yorkist propaganda sought to portray him #(and this goes for ALL other monarchs in English history and history in general) but I don't want to diminish his achievements either #However I definitely agree that the prevalent idea that the Lancasters wouldn't have been able to restore royal authority if they'd won #is very strange. its an alternate future that we can't possibly know the answer to so it's frustrating that people seem to assume the worst #I guess the reasons are probably 1) the Lancasters ultimately lost and it's the winners who write history #(the Ricardians are somehow the exception but they're evidently interested in romantic revisionism rather than actual history so 🤷🏻‍♀️) #and 2) their complicated former reign even before 1454. Ig put together I can see where the skepticism comes from tho I don't really agree #but then again the Yorkists themselves played a huge role in the chaos of the 1450s. if a faction like that was finally out of the way #(which they WOULD be if the Lancasters won in 1461) the Lancastrian dynasty would have been firmly restored and #Henry and Margaret would've probably had more space and time to restore royal authority without direct rival challenges #I'd argue that the Lancasters stood a significantly better chance at restoring & securing their dynasty if they won here rather than 1471 #also once again: the analyses written on Margaret's queenship; her role in the WotR; and the propaganda against her are all phenomenal #and far far superior than the analyses on any other historical woman of that time - so props to her absolutely fantastic historians

[lesvegas]

#polls #tumblr polls #self defense #i used to have a wallet knife but stopped carrying it after i almost got caught w it at work once #and ive never carried anything else because i always felt like #id forget to leave it at home when i go to work. and get caught with it #but now that im working from home im kinda thinking about getting something #although mace is illegal and a knife isnt much help #and idk much about guns #but also like. nothing has ever happened to me. like ive never even felt unsafe in my city #my brother meanwhile has been attempted mugged twice? somehow? idk

[oatbugs]

anyway this upcoming trip w my gf. will decide a lot i think

#travelling tgth can tell u a lot abt a person #my gf has quite strong anxiety #but nevertheless for me. i know i cant be rly in a relationship w someone who becomes like #irritable and panicked and clueless under pressure instead of looking at it like a fun challenge or an adventure #like genuinely the attitude of becoming snappy when travel stress hits is smth ive seen in my parents and i Cannot deal w it personally #ive been held up a lot at the border and ive been trapped in foreign countries cities w a dead phone at 4 AM etc #and somehow its always been an adventure esp when im w a friend w a similar outlook of like. omg this will be a good story to tell later #lets make the most of it let's sit on the beach or find a bar thats still open lets discuss smth we love until sunrise!! #anyway i know shes an anxious person but regardless of that being . not pessimistic and enjoying adventure and stuff #is so important to me in a person. it reflects not just on travel but abt how they will handle life later yk. what happens if our car #stops in the middle of the road? will you start freaking out about it? will you be calm through it? #so #well see #i hope it goes well i love her sm

[skrunksthatwunk]

hitting that point in a road trip where you're so bored and so sick of being in the car is actually so heinous. IT'S BEEN LIKE 8 HOURS. I CAN'T SLEEP I CAN'T READ MY PHONE IS NEARLY DEAD I'M BEING FORCED TO LISTEN TO YES (<- it's alright im jk) EVERY TIME I CHECK THE ETA IT'S ONLY BEEN A COUPLE MINUTES

#WE STILL HAVE AN HOUR LEFT #AURHGHH #IVE BEEN CHILLING IN MY MIND PALACE FOR THE OTHER 7 HOURS I CAN'T KEEP DOING THIS I NEED TO KICK SOMETHING #I NEED TO FROLICK AND BITE AND ROLL AROUND ON THE GROUND THIS SUCKS #i haaaate doing this trip tbh. it's our main city in this chunk of the state for events but it's still like 3 hours away #but it never takes 6 hours round trip it's always 8 somehow. full day excursion to shitville #and for some reason i don't ever bring the amt/level of distractions i need for it so i'm perpetually going out of my mind #booooo it sucks it's stupid and i hate it >:(( #ouughhhn TWELVE MINUTES

[drewsaturday]

does anyone else remember when facebook had built-in video games... rainbow unicorn attack and backyard monsters i miss u

#txt #there was also a slot machine one that i unsurprisingly used to play with my dad. #a gambling addict. #lmfao. #anyway there were also... there was this vampire one that rly did nothing #there was one where you could play as a city girl going to shops and dating guys #OH THERE WAs ONE YOU OWNED A NIGHTCLUB IN that introduced me to a bunch of cool music jlkdf #and the npcs had... Names... like ben dover #i also remember an island game? where u were in charge of shipwrecked civ's survival #and another one where u kinda were in charge of this small fantasy forest town/fair? #OH of course there were the cityville ones too but i always ended up in weird ones instead #it's for the best i no longer have access to them bc i spent way too much time on them all but i miss them #ough i think there was an aquarium one too maybe #i know a lot of them were genuinely standalone games that were integrated for partnership purposes but so many of them #ive tried to find elsewhere and theyre all shut down :( #i think rainbow unicorn attack was the only one i'd been able to still play thru its app

[raksh-writes]

Maybe this doesn’t need to be said, but Im feeling awful about it, so -- to any mutuals that might notice Im not following them anymore, I'm sorry about that. I've just seen too many posts on my dash that I have no way of blocking because they're not tagged in any way and they're distressing enough it's turning one of the only places I considered a safe space not safe for me anymore. So for my own mental health, I had to unfollow. I Will refollow in the future and I still love y'all, but I just-- I can’t. Ive been noticing some very worrying stuff about my mental and emotional state and it's just too much currently. I hope it's at least an understandable decision, and I wish y'all are having a good day out there 💗

#personal #I know its important to keep up with current events #but life overall's been a bit too much for me lately #I should prob go back to my therapist #I haven’t seen her since I went back to uni #for one because I didn’t know my schedule when we last meet and we both thought this should balance me #finally having purpose again and doing what I actually enjoy #but I also don’t have a job now so its costs and... I don’t know #but I probably should now that Im thinking maybe its time to actually get medicated for real #tho first maybe I should just visit my family doc and ask for those vit d supplements my therapists talked about #see if thats gonna be enough #autumn (and winter) has always been an awful time for me in terms of mental and emotional health #but it feels even worse these days #like Im battling against depression every day recently and rarely anything works to distract me #which is why its been hard to get back to peels in dms and such too #I was meant to meet with a friend now that Im studying in a city she lives in but I have yet to get back to her #and it feels like I have not only Zero but like Negative energy and motivation #+ Ive been dealing with an upset stomach for Weeks now #no matter what I eat it feels weird and achy and barely anything tastes good for me already so now its even worse #anyway this turned into such a rant Im sorry #I just didn’t want the lovely peeps Ive been mutuals with for a long time to think I stopped liking them or smth #its just certain untagged posts that I would otherwise block if I could #and I dont wanna impose onto anyone like a 'rule' to tag them or whatever #so yeah this is just temporary #hopefully at some point I get better enough to survive the couple distressing posts heh...

[bosspigeon]

i think i saw some people saying that a vampire has to willingly give their spawn blood for them to become a full vampire. thats at least what ive seen when i saw people asking why unascended astarion couldnt just bite cazador before killing him to become a full vampire. idk much about dnd vamp lore to know if that true or not but thats what ive seen people say!

I've also seen lore that says if the vampire spawn's sire dies, the spawn becomes a fully-fledged vampire too? but i mean d&d lore is constantly changing so 😅

#pidge replies #bg3 spoilers #i mean you can heal astarion with spells when it used to be undead took radiant damage from them #im fine with ignoring lore i think is stupid <3 #personally think it makes zero sense for astarion or any of cazador's spawn to remain spawn when he's fuckin dead so #teehee my city now #i can also always backtrack to my original idea #of pyre tearing Cazador's throat out with his teeth and force-feeding astarion his blood #maybe the 'willingly' thing can be interpreted as the spawn being unable to take it by force #not that someone else cant do it foe them #ive been writing fanfic for literal decades #when it comes to canon that sign cant stop me cause i cant read

[orgonongurlz]

urgghGGHH the new s4 minute promo has me ill insane rabid foaming OUT THE MOUTH!!

im being a little ridiculous but the second i saw the scene with the mannequins i looked at the one on the right and immediately connected it to chip (because of the chipped tooth)

so… chip potentially full blown LOSES AN EYE?? foreshadowing, hear me out *clasps hands together*

#big city greens #chip whistler #theory #an eye for an eye a tooth for a tooth am i right? #im losing my mind #ive been freaking out for the last 2 hours ask my boyfirwnd and my friends #MY BOYFIRWND WONT STOP MAKING JOKES THAT HELL BE BALD TOO BECAUSE OF WHAT IM SAYING #almost started crying when i saw the promo HELP #my lg chip design always had a scar on his eye but now i have to change the side </3 #and yknow fully /get rid of it/ #grady speaks

[paulmccartneymybeloved]

do ya'll fuck with john mulaney

#i know #bit of a strange question #considering my blog #but im just watching his most recent special #baby j #and thinking about how much he means to me #but there was also all the chappelle stuff a bit ago #and as a trans person #i was disappointed #but ive been wayching him since i was 15 and im now 22 #i saw him live last january #and i still cant believe it #i never thought he'd come to the uk #so i always imagined id have to fly to america in years to come to be able to see him #but he performed in a city not that car away from me