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dappledpaintbrush · 2 months

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wow, looks like you can do an essay about Dimentio.

What do you think of the other characters?

For me in "short"

Tippi: The protagonist of the story and got her happy ending, I came to miss her presence after the end.

Count Bleck: Definitely one of Mario's best written villains. I cry.

Nastasia: I was in her place, I empathized a lot with her and sometimes I wish she would return in other stories.

O'chunks: I was surprised by her story, I didn't expect that background, for me he is a himbo in a good way. A good guy.

Mimi: I can't say the same with Mimi, a little disappointed, but at least there are headcanons.

Mr. L: Definitely wasted potential, I would have liked to see more with the other minions. It's weird if I got a penny for every time Luigi is hypnotized into being an enemy I'd have two cents, which isn't much but it's weird that it happens twice.

Dimentio: It's thanks to him that I have an obsession with Jesters, he managed to do what Bowser couldn't with just a snap of his fingers. Terrifying, I hope one day we see it again.

OMG YAYAYAYAYAY IVE BEEN WANTING THIS ASK

Okay so. I’ll try not to make this unbearably long. But this game is my special interest so. I apologize in advance. (I turned off reblogs bc reblogging asks removes the read more) (and it’s gonna clog people’s feed) (this IS unbearably long) (I Failed)

Tippi:

Omg I miss Tippi too :( it feels so weird playing the game without her.

Tippi is so . so interesting. All of the characters are interesting, but I especially love the way she’s written. I love how they were able to nail that she’s gentle and caring, but also firm and not about to put up with anybody’s bullshit. To me, that’s hard to write without it feeling disengenuine, and they pulled it off with Tippi VERY well. A particular line of hers I really like is, “Perhaps...my life would have been more carefree without you, that is true,” in response to Blumiere’s, “But I have caused you so much suffering..." She didn’t immediately console him. She told him the truth, as harsh as it was. Idk, that scene had just always stuck out to me. It’s not a line I expected to be written.

I wish her unexplained teleportation powers were. Explained. But that doesn’t really mess up her character so it’s okay. However. I hate how she developed a crush on Mario. I’ve always hated it. I like to pretend it’s not real LMAO. But then again, it can be interpreted in a deeper way- that she didn’t actually have a crush on Mario and she was merely projecting onto him. Her memory was flooding back to her and she was in a very vulnerable situation after all. Projecting those feelings for an, at the time, unknown individual onto Mario makes sense.

I love Tippi dude she rocks she’s my favorite forever and ever and ever

Count Bleck:

where do I even begin on Count Bleck good lord. One of Nintendo’s best villains even outside of the Mario franchise. God he’s so fucking good.

I wish it was more clear whether or not he was planning on erasing Team Bleck from existence as well. Whether or not he was going to do that that impacts his character HEAVILY. Him wanting all worlds to end but sparing the people who cared about him really helps his “redemption” and helps us have more sympathy for him. Unfortunately it’s not directly touched on outside of that one thing Dimentio said, but. It’s Dimentio LMFAOOO we can’t trust him. I personally lean more towards Bleck was going to betray the team just given the evidence about it. I yapped a lot about my reasoning IN A POST I CANT FIND. It had a bunch of screenshots and stuff and I can’t. Fucking. Find it. Oh well I guess that’s just GONE ❤️

Despite this I feel like it’s important to address Bleck with nuance. I don’t think he intentionally planned on betraying his team. I think he genuinely loved them. But he was so caught up in the Dark Prognosticus and the Void and Timpani and ultimately BEING this Count Bleck character the book spoke of that he felt like there was no way out of it anymore. This is supported by the fact he tried to fight Mario in the final battle despite knowing Timpani was still alive. It’s clear Blumiere had completely lost himself, as if he forgot why he was doing this in the first place and let Count Bleck take over (note: I mean this in a symbolic/psychological sense; I don’t believe the book was controlling him). It’s only when he’s on his death bed that he realizes he does not have to do this.

I put redemption in quotation marks because. I don’t think he was redeemed. Granted he didn’t have enough time to do anything, but to be honest, I don’t think he or any other member of Team Bleck is redeemable (before anybody comes at me with the lament au/ajl, THE POINT IS THAT DIMENTIO IS NOT REDEEMABLE NO MATTER HOW HARD HE TRIES!! YOU CANNOT REDEEM THE EXTERMINATION OF LIFE ITSELF!!!)

Also he’s a goofy guy. He’s just a dad

Thoughts thoughts THOUGHTS THOUGHTS THOUGHTS

Nastasia:

NASTASIA COME BACK TO ME. God I wish they kept her emo hair strand.

Her character is so. so sad (I feel like I’ve said that sentence forty seven times, this game is MISERABLE). I love her so much. I love her confidence, I love how she doesn’t take bullshit from anyone, I love how much she loves. It makes me so fucking sad how depressed she remains long after Blumiere’s sacrifice. Like, we don’t know how much time passed between the ending of the game and Mario returning (when you boot up the save file again, Merlon states that it has been a while since he’s seen Mario). It explains why Mimi and O’Chunks seem fine (I’m sure they’re not fine, but I mean it explains why they were able to have a “normal” conversation with Mario and co.), but Nastasia is still so heartbroken.

Of course that is to be expected, and I’m glad Nintendo didn’t make everything all sunshine and rainbows ooo we’re all happy now etc, even IF a long time has passed. It makes total sense that there are repercussions to experiencing a traumatic event and Nastasia portrays it well (for a Mario game). In her epilogue dialogue, her hope for better days is shallow. It’s fake. She shows how she truly feels and immediately backtracks (“I guess I should be happy... I mean, I am, but, um...”). She still wants to put on that confident and secure exterior, but it’s not working. She will always love Blumiere, and she will always miss him. I hope she finds happiness one day, too. She deserves to live her own life.

O’Chunks:

O’CHUNKS IS SO UNDERRATED. FUCK

I know I’m contributing to this I barely post about him but lord he’s so interesting. I know the Japanese and English translation tell different versions of his backstory, but I really like the English version where Blumiere manipulated him in his extremely depressed state to join him. It gives more layers to Blumiere’s character- the lengths he was willing to go to get this job done, lengths that he would have never gone to before losing Timpani (and himself).

O’Chunks has one of the most unforgiving backstories in the whole games and it’s rarely talked about. He was a fucking COMMANDER OF AN ARMY and the whole game he’s just played off as some dumb brute/comic relief. I actually believe he suffered some kind of brain damage from that final battle, explaining his eyes, his struggle to speak properly, and his overall behavior. Also, the fact one of his most trusted advisors betrayed him mirrors his relationship with Dimentio. JUST. GOD . RIPS HAIR OUT. I wouldn’t blame him if he never trusted anybody again after the events of the game. But he clearly has a heart of gold beneath that rough exterior, so I doubt that mindset would come to pass

Also I know it’s not this deep like at All but . Regarding O’Chunks and his backstory, the last war fought in Scotland was the Battle of Culloden in 1746. The Scots lost that battle too, so it fits O’Chunks backstory. It’s funny to imagine he’s hundreds of years old and he just Stopped Aging once he joined the “Mario Dimension” for lack of a better term LMAO. Side note, I also believe Blumiere lost Timpani centuries ago- especially considering the Ancients are extinct by the time the game takes place (although I’ve heard it’s possible Blumiere murdered the entire Tribe of Darkness? but that’s ambiguous) (and my feelings on it would be another yapping session so I’ll shut up for now). It just took THAT long to get the criteria for the Void met. So it’s interesting to think of the concept that O’Chunks and Blumiere have known each other for THAT long. Probably why he sent O’Chunks out to fight the heroes first. He trusted him the most. But then again, I know the game did not intend for O’Chunks to be born in the 1700s lol. Like I said it’s just interesting for me :3

Mimi:

MIMIMIMIMIMIMIMIMIMI!!!! MY GIRL!!!!

I agree with you- her backstory is disappointing compared to characters like O’Chunks and Dimentio. But at the same time I enjoy the unknown. After all, she is the embodiment of mystery. Her whole shtick is mimicking. You never know if a character is truly themselves or it’s a copy (I mean, you do- her mannerisms are obvious- but still lmao)- hell, even SHE canonically loses herself sometimes in her mimics. But even then, I wish we knew more about her. AND I WISH THE CONCEPT OF HER BEING A FAILED PIXL WAS TALKED ABOUT MORE? WHAT??????? HELLO????? REMINDERRRR that you can’t just go about making Pixls. That was a practice for the Ancients, and the ONLY reason Merlon could do it is because he is a descendant of the Ancients with a shit ton of their books. How old is Mimi? How much has she seen? If she’s centuries or even thousands of years old- depending on how long ago you think the Ancients died out- what was she doing this whole time??? LIKE HELLO!!! MIMI!! SPEAK TO ME!!!!

I love love LOVE LOVE LOVE how she can be used as a parallel to the Pixl Queen in regards to Dimentio. Dimentio and Mimi have a sibling dynamic to me, and the story potential considering Dimentio’s biological sister got turned into a Pixl and. Yk. Mimi could possibly be a failed Pixl. Is INSANE and I WISH it was used more because holy shit it has so much potential.

I like to believe the Pixl Creator (aka Dimentio’s father imo) created Mimi even if there’s no evidence JUST LET ME HAVE THIS but I also made a post maybe a year ago that theorized Francis’ ancestors created Mimi. I don’t think it’s really recognized that Francis CREATED A PIXL WITHOUT MAGIC. Yk that spell that requires the magic of the Dark Prognosticus? Yeah just forget that shit I said earlier about Non-Ancients not being able to just go out and make a Pixl, because apparently this fuckass Redditor did it. Anyways. Tipton is a robot. Mimi is a robot. I rest my case (loud applause) (people throw roses at me)

I already made posts about Mr. L and Dimentio, so I won’t ramble anymore here :3 But in regards to what you said YEAH . Mr. L could’ve been so much more it’s genuinely painful. And Dimentio is fucking terrifying. I honestly like to believe he did genuinely nuke the protagonists and the game only said he merely teleported them because saying “Mario’s dead like for real” is probably something Nintendo didn’t want to put in their game. I mean come on- he used the explosion attack that causes actual damage in battle. They died LMOAOOAOA. I hope we see both of them again. I was hoping so BADLY for even a glimmer of Mr. L in the Mario movie-like a mask/bandana hanging out of a drawer cameo or something. BUT ITS OKAY GUYS 😁😁😁😁😁😁 (visibly shaking) (teeth chattering) (is missing patches of hair on my head) (rocking back and forth)

#spm #super paper mario

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banditllamas · 9 months

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Chismest Dialogue (Part 1)

Chapter 4 has a lot of missable dialogue. I'm mostly brainrotting over Elara but if people are interested I can try making a schedule for everyone in Chismest. For now, heres a bunch of dialogue from and concerning Elara. (I have many screenshots so I've only put snippets in, the full conversations are typed up below.)

You can catch Elara as shes walking to and from Beth's diner. Before entering:

You can pester her while shes walking to the diner.

“Hi, sorry…” “I can’t talk right now…” “I’m…” “Starving…” “I must be at the diner right away…”

If you keep trying to talk to her she will ignore you then repeat herself.

"..."

"Please excuse me…" "I'm going to the diner." After leaving:

As she's leaving you can also pester her. This dialogue plays out much like the previous one.

“Hi, sorry.” “I can’t talk right now…” “I need…” “To get back to my research…” “But, if you want to talk,” “Find me in the diner between midnight and 5AM.”

“...” “I have important research to conduct now.” “Find me in the diner after midnight.”

Questioning:

I'm sure most people know about this, but if you're like me you immediately agreed to help Elara and missed all the stuff she had to say when questioned.

(Included Bard's prompts for context.)

Bard: “A cohort?” Elara: “Uhm… An accomplice.” Bard: “Why an accomplice?” Elara: “I can explain if you’re interested in doing it.” Bard: “Why should I?” Elara: “Hmmm.” Elara: “Maybe you shouldn’t. It could be dangerous.” Bard: “Sounds like a bad idea.” Elara: “I’m acting in the best interest of the town.” Elara: “Danger sometimes is an unfortunate necessity.” Bard: “How dangerous?” Elara: “OK, not really very dangerous.” Elara: “I was trying to make it sound exciting.” Bard: “Oh?” Elara: “All we really need are people on the inside.” Bard: “Like secret agents???” Elara: “Yes, just like that.” Bard: “Secret agents are exciting!” Elara: “Hmm. I suppose they are.” Bard: “But where do we find them?” Elara: “Well, that's the thing,” Elara: “I need someone to help me find them.” Bard: “How do you find secret agents?” Elara: “We’d need to focus our search on certain individuals.” Elara: “I.e. People who are awake during the day but unemployed.” Bard: “Perfect recruits…”

She also has a different response if you agree at any point where she mentions danger.

"Whoah." "Seems reverse psychology works, after all."

If you accept at any other point she will simply say "Excellent." then continue as normal.

Recruit intelligence:

She has two hints for winston; theres the standard one:

“There’s a man who is constantly crying around the town during the day.” “He seems to have no direction in life…” “So he would probably be willing to help us.” “Find out what he wants.” And one for if you help him out before meeting her:

“Have you seen the man who used to always cry around town?” “He has a dog now…” “He seems emotionally susceptible…” “Seek him out.” Peter only gets one tip cause he's always sad even if you help him beforehand:

“There's a sad man who plays music from a rooftop at all hours.” “Since he’s so sad and hopeless,” “He almost certainly could be convinced to help us.” She also has a tip for recruiting Mirriam. This happens if you fail to find Mirriam by the time you've recruited Winston:

“There’s a girl standing in the field outside town.” “I pass her every night on my way to and from here.” “I don’t believe she’s from here…” “But, maybe she could be an ally.”

On the flipside, if you completely ignore Elara and go to Mirriam first (+ attempt the overseer song) She will give you hints on finding Elara.

Mirriam hints:

“Apparently there's an astronomer outside of town.” “They have a big telescope.” “Who knows what kinda stuff they know, right?”

“Nobody knows much about the astronomer.” “They just research stuff at their telescope all day.” “But… they have to eat sometime, right?”

“Sounds hokey, but grandma Saphy always said…” “Look to the stars for answers…” “That’s what makes me think the astronomer might know something.”

Part 2 here.

#wandersong #wandersong elara #wandersong bard #wandersong mirriam #Chismest is so cool #they synced the npcs movements with the music #which uh can lead to them getting stuck in doors but shhh #I kept finding new stuff while typing this up #long post

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Topic: Missing Kid Alola School Trip

[celadontoast:] What the title says. Anyone remember that case from 2023 with that kid on a field trip where he just went missing? I remember reading about it back then, but I don’t know if there was any follow up. Did they ever find out what happened to him? Here’s the main article about it I could find: https//www.hauolidaily.com/articles/student-still-missing-after-stor…

[>earlypidove:] oh yeah. I don’t think so? It’s a cold case now or something.

[>aerlaceventura8:] ^^^ Guy’s just presumed dead iirc. But yeah there was a bunch of media coverage for that, especially cause of the school trip thing and all.

[>toxicSTep!:] Why’s this under the UW tag?

[>>celadontoast:] Because that was the leading theory- the kid fell into one

[>clefairyfables_:] Feel really bad for his family. Doesn’t help that a lot of cases involving wormholes just...stay unsolved :( I don't think they'll ever get closure

[>>skip76:] its honestly really sad how ineffective the government is with shit like this. weve known about wormholes for like a decade now and they still cant do anything outside of say ‘oops the wormhole got him, nothing we can do’ like??? what about that recon squad they were talking with? professor burnet? hello?

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[>xXdarkmattergengarXx:] Remind me to never go to Alola LOL. Honestly if that kid was going to that nepobaby school he probably deserved it

[>>loadeddiceenjoyer:] what does him going to bb have anything to do with this

[>>>xXdarkmattergengarXx:] How did you know I was talking about BB? Sounds like you’re one of those Blueberry Bitches yourself 💀

[>>>>loadeddiceenjoyer:] maybe its because i read the fucking article? it says right there what school he goes to. and even if i am one of those 'blueberry bitches' literally what does it matter. grow up. no one deserves this kind of shit

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#ask answering!#ooc #pokemon irl #pkmn irl #pokeblr #pokeblogging #rotomblr #//wowzers doesn't one of those usernames look familiar???/silly #milkyway myosotis event #tw swearing #<- possibly? just to be safe !!

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Xavier: Renegade Angel #13: “Free Range Manibalism” | March 13, 2009 - 12:15AM | S02E05

I’m sorry, but this one is simply too crazy. Xavier finds a restaurant that very snobbishly turns their noses up at his offer of meat. The meat in question is splattered stuff from roads. He is accused of being a bathroom user, and truly, he is. So, they throw him out and he encounters two bums, whom he convinces to pose as pigs so he can offer them to the restaurant. The restaurant’s whole deal is that they pamper their livestock until they pass away from natural causes. Then, and only then, are they turned into a nice meal.

From there it goes off into a direction that I’m not even that sure I can adequately summarize. So, I won’t. Like, no, really, the episode was great, and I laughed at it a bunch, but I genuinely felt like I missed a key word or something that would have explained, sorta, what was going on.

The honest truth is, sometimes I just don’t want to write about Xavier. That’s because the show is just one incredible joke after the next, and I tend not to enjoy write-ups where all I do is list jokes I like. Here’s some I wrote down, to shut you up: Xavier’s belabored pun of “Heil-er Meatler”. The part where he distracts the sporting goods store (to steal footballs from, so he can sew up new pigskin for the hobos) by getting them to chant “sports” over and over. “Spreading like a mother’s legs on free peanut butter day”. There’s like, way more insane wordplay in this episode than most others, I think.

This is a wild one, and I probably should have watched it twice before covering it here. Oh well! Merry Christmas, everyone!

MAIL BAG

I definitely took a couple days off so I could use the above screenshot on Christmas Day, and no other reason. Time to shine a spotlight on the man of the hour, Mr. Ho-Ho-Ho himself, Santa Claus:

I don’t think you’re nuts! By the time Delocated season 1 started airing, 30 Rock already had appearances from faces familiar to Late Night w Conan fans, like Brian Stack, Brian McCann, Andy Richter, ofc Jack McBrayer, Conan. i wondered too if they hoped to get those Conan fans who gave 30 Rock a chance bc of those cameos. Good theory!

Hey, thanks for that. 30 Rock was definitely a movement, and it's something we could all get behind.

hey man i dunno who told you that SH*T about robot chciken being canceled but creator-whos-not-seth-green just said in a interview two weeks back that its still going so get your hopes down

The funniest case scenario is that Seth Green is too mad about his monkies that he refuses to do the show, and they try to continue without him. He was probably running around the writers room doing nut taps and throwing Nickelodeon Gak on people so they couldn't write funny sketches ever. Maybe this made-up thing that I'm making up right now is just what the show needs.

Tommy Wiseau is an absolute nut job. Mike Lazzo was playing with matches letting that guy in the adult swim ecosystem. Wish he got burned, boyo.

True that!!! Tommy Wiseau is not "WISE" at all... he is a menace

If Santa could put on piece of Adult Swim swag in your holiday stocking this year what would you want it to be?

A new Space Ghost Volume 5 DVD. The second disc on my copy stopped working. I can't even sell it on eBay anymore! WAAAH! Also, the actual plastic case it came in got extremely brittle and it caved in when I tried to open it last time. It's just all the way fucked. I have a digital backup of it, at least. But, I prefer tactile sensations, and the crackle of the vinyl record.

Santa has just left my house. He left 10 presents and ate all four cookies we left him. I was telling my dog who sleeps in my room how great a deal that was. 10 presents for four cookies? My dog didn't seem to care but enjoyed all the attention he was getting. Welp, back to bed.

I'm glad Santa came. I have a question about dog ownership for you: do you have a dog door and do you ever go through it for fun? I feel like if I had a dog and a dog door I would be going in and out of that thing constantly.

If you got bit by the Santa Claus bug, what would you do? Merry Christmas from LA

Hey, thanks, cool to hear about the move. If I was bit by the Santa bug, I would be in heaven, and I hope that answers all of the Christmas Day questions for AdultSwim.Com (my blog).

#adult swim #adultswim2021 #xavier renegade angel

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angst-and-fajitas · 1 year

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While musing on that post about Minecraft and the constant presence of portals and themes of escape, I found that I had come to an entirely different conclusion from the same information.

When I picture those unknown, long-gone ancient inhabitants of the Minecraft world that the game implies to have once populated the overworld, I don't get a sense of fear and the need to escape. Mostly, I get a sense of hunger and hubris.

Think about it. As the player, why do you build portals? Why do you go through them? Why do you burrow to the bottom of the world? Is it to get away from the creatures of the overworld, when the monsters and dangers you encounter once you leave that grassy surface are far worse? No. Every time you dig deeper into the universe, it becomes more dangerous. When you make that step, you make it from a need and longing to know what lies beyond. Assuming that those ancient people were beings like the player, why would they have been any different?

Why else would you plunge into fire or into void, if not to find what lies on the other side at any cost?

And yet, the dangers that the ancients found on the other side of every door they built were likely their undoing: netherrack and lava creep like a fungus out from the ruined remains of nether portals. Those who traveled to the End never came back to tell the tale, judging from the lack of loot and the cobwebs in the stronghold. And the Deep Dark..... Is that unknown portal in those ruined cities really an escape route from the skulk and the Warden, or yet another door greedily opened to a new plane, accidentally freeing new horrors that leech out and consume? Like the dwarves of Moria, did they delve too greedily and too deep?

As the player, if you could open that portal too, would it be to escape the Warden? Or would you brave the dark in spite of the Warden, just for the chance to see what lies beyond?

What calls to you? Is it fear of the world above, or is it the siren song of the abyss, drawing you ever deeper?

I think the game speaks for itself, after all:

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He was one of my heroes tbh, despite the fact that I've always told myself to "have no heroes" because idolizing people is dangerous business. But he was never my hero because I idolized him, or thought he was perfect, unbeatable, or had a perfect moral compass. It was because I saw so much of myself in him in the sort of way that made me believe in myself.

His dry, deadpanned humor, his big dreams, his struggles with adhd and social anxiety, the English major background and jokes...... He was so much like me, and yet so much brighter, and stronger, and even more determined, that he made me want to do even better. When I was struggling and wondering if I should give up and drop out of college, he was the person I thought of. In his silly videos and the personal bits he told us, he reassured me that it would be ok even if I did have to stop, but also gave me faith that I could succeed despite my problems and failures, and that I should never give up on my dreams.

I hope he knew how much he meant to us. I hope he knew that every time we lamented his absences and teased him for his upload schedules, it was because he brought genuine value to our lives. We will keep missing him, and even more than us will the people who knew and loved him irl. All the work he did for good will live on and keep helping people.

Technoblade never dies💜

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HE!!!!!!!!

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I wanted to give him ~fancy hair~

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My #1 post of 2022

Fun new activities to do with your Blorbos!

Put them in a snowglobe and shake it

Bake on high until crispy at the edges

Stretch them like saltwater taffy

Hang them from your rearview mirror like fuzzy dice

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grahas-gourmet-hamburger · 2 years

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I haven't been terribly active lately, mostly because I've been busy doing stuff instead of posting about it or reading tumblr. I'm not sure anyone cares anyway? It feels sometimes like my online activities are just sort of shouting into the void, and my FC is.. some of my favorite people have left or are (I think) in the process of leaving and that makes me sad. It's sort of the story of online things, I guess. The life cycle of online groups.

Anyway, enough with the self-pity. This probably should be like 5 posts but oh well. Have a long rambling blog post about stuff I've been working on that makes me happy, if nothing else.

I got my amaro mount! It's a little sad that I've been playing since 2014 (off and on, but mostly on; though, granted, on many different alts) and only just now got everything to 80 on any one character, but I don't even care. He needs a name that isn't Seto Jr, but I'll figure out something.

I got the last two rare animals for my island! Twinklefleece and the alligator. Twinklefleece is both cute and horrifying, and unsurprisingly my partner loves him.

Very minor when it comes to the forbidden tooling really, except that faces are a little difficult, but I finally gave Mercutio his real scar instead of the drawn on line facepaint that I had been using. And added his Garlean eye so I can tell when a headgear will actually cover it or not. Thank you Penumbra for making it so I can do this without turning every face 7 Midlander into a Mercutio clone.

Worked on my G'raha/Aedan AU worldbuilding a lot and did.. way too many alterations of gear so they sort of fit what I imagined. I can't really draw, so I guess I use the game as my concept art engine~ It's conveniently teaching me a lot about Blender along the way.

I'm sort of afraid to talk about this AU because 1) it might suffer from "oc with identity theft" issues for Raha, 2) it causes.. many story issues for the main scenario (because Raha never goes to Sharlayan in it - see #1), and 3) I may have taken enough inspiration from Wakanda that it edges into ripping off territory.. It's not enough Wakanda to just like.. say it's a Wakanda AU, though. Where's the line? I don't know. Plus it's like.. 95% OCs. It will eventually make contact with the main cast (if I can work out or handwave the butterfly effect issues of no G'raha in the main game - all of Shadowbringers is a giant ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ right now), but for most of it, it's just Aedan and Raha and a bunch of people who aren't part of canon. It makes me happy though, so I guess that's enough for now.

Also many screenshots with poses that are varying levels of my work, though sadly I just noticed my favorite one is.. fucked in one very obvious place and I have no idea how I missed it, so I guess I'll have to redo it later. You can have this one instead (base poses def not mine): AU Aedan and Raha in their late teens (like 17-18). Raha's top mash-up is one of my alterations, for better or worse.

And, if you made it this far, here's AU Aedan's and Raha's first kiss as a treat. They're older here, like 21-22, have their older hairstyles, but their outfits haven't evolved yet. Yes, there's a reason for the flowers. :)

Bonus Raha on his tippytoes with his curly little tail.

#ffxiv #shadowbringers #spoiler mention #grab bag post #amaro mount #island sanctuary #g'raha tia #g'raha x aedan #au stuff #forbidden tools #so many forbidden tools

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weirdthoughtsandideas · 1 year

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THE 1 YEAR REWATCH CONCLUSION POST

AND THERE WE GO, I REWATCHED THE ENTIRE SHOW!!!!! AND THE TAG IS ALMOST LIKE 900 POSTS NOW HOLY FUCK

Where to begin, where to begin... you're never finished talking about dcla shows, there 100000 things I wanna discuss and I have forgotten them all.

I've realized that I like Lutteo when they are friends. When they're just buddies joking around. I also only like their scenes in s3. Again, when they're just being friends.

I really change my opinion depending on the episode. If you ask me pre-s3 about who I want Luna to end up with, it's with Simón. I'll write 10 emotional posts about it. After 3x10? I want her to end up single. She'll be thriving as single.

I am grateful for all the context I've gotten for @soylunaoncrack. That blog will update much less now. Every day I change the queue, so sometimes it's 15 posts per day, other times 4, other times 28, other times 10, etc.

Luna, Ámbar and Simón really are the core three. The show is not the same without them. All three have a very special relationship with each other and I'd argue all three are soulmates - but I honestly think, as i've mentioned before, Luna is soulmates with Ámbar and Simón, but it's a little unclear if Simbar are soulmates. Maybe they're "accidental soulmates" aka, they weren't supposed to end together and then just fell for each other and became soulmates by chance.

Sharon could have done so much worse. So, so, much worse. But she didn't. She just sat in her car and stared at them. Like, when the adults got arrested and Luna was alone with Maggie and Rey? Sharon could have come and taken her. She could have come and kidnapped her or anything. I mean, I'm also happy she didn't, and she did commit arson, but I mean... yeah.

Emilia deserved better… but especially Amanda deserved better. Really really did not like what they did to her.

Ámbar!! My girlboss! I love analysing Ámbar's scenes tbh. How she acts, especially how she acts differently in all three seasons. How she wants to break free from Sharon already in s1, but she also goes back to being her perfect little goddaughter again, and again... until eventually, once Sharon's not around, she snaps and then breaks out and can become her true self.

But you know what scenes I love analysing too? JIM AND YAM'S SCENES!!!! :D I hope you will miss my little comment-analyses where I write little comments on screenshots, cause i'll miss them and I wanna use them in the future again. God, it's so fun just seeing them having their little love story in the background and how they slowly realize they're in love.

And I do think that, one reason Yam was so rude to Ramiro in s3 was because she doesn't like boys, and he was the boy everyone told her she was in love with - everyone else convinced her she liked him, everyone else said "you should date him". And so I think that, perhaps, if she was nice to him again, other people would think it was because she had a crush on him and try to make her date him again - and she didn't want that! It was much more about her than about him. And every time I say this, I feel so silly cause the only ones who does analyse Yam in s3 are Yamiro shippers, so they always come with "but she really loved him and was hurt". Which, valid! And I don't want to step on that! But, I also stand with my take on it. Yam is a lesbian and is in love with Jim.

I've really taken a swing on my headcanon of Nina's sexuality. I've really changed it so much. On the one hand, it makes sense for Nina not to be straight with the whole "hiding who you are", "discovering who you are", "coming out of your shell", etc. On the other hand, she's probably the straightest of the bunch. I remember a year ago, I liked the concept of her liking girls, simply because I had the idea of "oh her parents are so nosy but what if they think that she has a crush on a boy when she actually has a crush on a girl and they get surprised". But the further I watched, the more I realized "nah she likes boys". For an entire year I had an ace headcanon on her, but now after rewatching?? I don't think she's ace anymore. For starters, the way she just moaned "ROLLER TRACK!!" out loud, how she's always the one cracking dirty jokes and wiggling her eyebrows... I'd make the argument that, of course an ace person can enjoy and feel all that, but Nina... yeah, I feel like... no, she's not ace. Right now I see her as straight but perhaps... biromantic. Simply because I do like some small scenes with her and Luna.

But Luna to me? Will always be pan. And yes, it may be due to her whole color scheme being the pan flag and the pan flag even showing up in the intro everywhere and in the logo... but it's also that I feel like she's just such an... open spirit? Open for anything, you know? Plus, I have seen chemistry with both boys and girls for her. But I know that this headcanon really won't matter, cause in the end, she always will prioritize roller skating and friendship above anything else <3. Some people see her as ace, and I really get that. I've even considered that she's perhaps ace but panromantic. But... just taking myself as an example: I'm bi, but i'm not really... actively seeking romance. It's not that I don't want it, cause I do feel intrigued by it and I really see myself one day being in a relationship, it's just that... well, no one has really caught my interest and I also introverted and have never been someone who puts myself out there. If it happens, it happens. In the meantime, I love hanging out with my friends (who all are introverted and interested in romance, but too awkward to put themselves out there lmao). And when I am getting a crush, which has happened, then I go into a "haha nooo I don't have a crush whaaaat" spiral - similarly to how Luna is. She's literally the last person to know when she has a crush x)

Even if I bascially don't ship any of the canon ships besides like 2 of them, I do love how supportive the friends are of each other. It's so cute to see.

Well now I have been sitting and writing this for 1 and a half hour, it's fucking 3:30 AM!!! I gotta sleep!!

I'll definitely add stuff. In the meantime, how have you enjoyed my rewatch? Was there anything in particular you enjoyed me talking about? I wanna hear your thoughts!

And thanks everyone who has followed me on this liveblogging journey! It's been so fun! We'll see what's next! All I know now is that it's time to work on a new out of context video, as well as hopefully starting on that new AU...

#sara's 1 year sl rewatch #soy luna #THANKS FOR FOLLOWING MY CHAOS!

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I honestly don't even need to dress up AS the characters to be happy. I just want their clothes 🤣🤣🤣 Ignis especially. I just want to feel that fancy 🤣🤣🤣🤣 but yeah I've seen all the crap people give cosplayers these days and it really irks me. Like. If you don't like it, move on? It's not like you HAVE to look at them? And 90% of the jerks couldn't even do it better anyway.

Omg yes please. And Ignis has to wrestle with the logic that Noct might still be alive somewhere despite all the facts. And Gladio has to work through his emotions better this time damn it! He needs and deserves the same amount of growth as everyone else!

Exactly! Like. The female mcs can be fun without being annoying. Soft without being weak willed. And cool without being emotionless. Like come on. If your males can be, so can your females! There's literally no reason it has to be treated differently.

I agree. That's why I said I don't think I'd count Noct as "broody". I've just seen a lot of people outside the Fandom call him emo and broody and stuff and I'm like. Nah. He had legit reasons for his pain. And he didn't wallow in it ALL the time. Just the second half. BECAUSE AFTER ALTISSIA HE DIDN'T CATCH A DAMN BREAK TO BE ABLE TO COME BACK FROM EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED.

It sounds horrible but I love blind!Ignis and Nocts growth to much to not play to the end each time. Not like I'm happy that Iggy is blind but the way it affects the story and the way he takes it in strides really impresses me from a narrative POV. It hurts. But it's beautiful in a way, if that makes sense. I'm on my 3rd new game+ in like.. A little over a month I think? And I'm gonna go to the very end again 🤣 even if the alt ending is the only true end to me lolol

I kinda want many fictional characters’ clothes, but I fear it’s gone be like… how something looks good on a mannequin and then I buy it and it looks like garbage on me 😭 Because I mean let’s face it, they have the power of anime on their side 😂 Some of these outfits stay plastered to the right spots on their body at all times, some defy physics in ways we don’t realize until it turns out you need body tape to keep some shit looking good… stuff like that.

I think that’s why I like FFX-2; it was an entirely woman-led FF and it was just a group of chicks kicking ass with full personalities. And while Yuna was focused on reuniting with Tidus, that wasn’t her whole thing. Idk why Squenix can no longer do that 😂

Noct in the OG concept was broody and emo, and tbh I am so glad they didn’t go with that. Yeah, it would have been in line with what folks apparently wanted, but I’m over the stoic protagonist trope. Seeing the boys hang out and just be a bunch of dudes on a road trip was a great choice, imo! And no offense to Lunafreya, I’m so glad that the romance was an afterthought in the game, cause tbh square doesn’t really do romances well enough to shoehorn it in almost every damn game.

You are stronger than me cause I can’t take the pain and the disharmony the group had after Altissia 🥲 I know it gets better but I was in PAIN going through all that! I could only play through the whole game once, and the DLC once. I still haven’t played Ardyn’s DLC and I highly doubt I’ll go back to do it at this point either, it’s been years 😂 But the good thing about being on tumblr when it dropped is that I pretty much got the gist of it all through gifs and screenshots and discourse so I don’t feel I missed out in the end.

#you know what FF I have played over and over tho? FFX LOL #bought it for the switch and went right on ahead and sunk hundreds of hours into it again #redoing the whole sphere grid like I ain’t got sense #I also did the same with FFXII #I think those two games are my comfort FF’s or something idk #not so Anon ask

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britswriting · 2 years

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Unbroken (32)

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THIS CHAPTER IS 16+! If you are under 16, read with caution!

Trigger Warning: Talk of Addiction, drug use, remembrance of abuse and suicidal thoughts

This whole chapter is about Leighton hitting one year sober, keep that in mind for your own personal triggers with recovery!

There is A LOT of drug talk in these! Please use your own judgment when reading!

*Leighton's POV*

Waking up and seeing the date on my phone that read July 13th 2020, felt surreal.

I was officially one year sober.

God that feels weird.

The first thing I did this morning was take a screenshot of my 12 steps app showing that I was one year, and then I clicked the text from Aaliyah that read

HAPPY ONE YEAR BITCH! YOU FUCKING DID IT! I'M SO PROUD!

Causing me to smile.

I did it.

I accomplished something that felt so out of reach.

I got out of bed, and I was hit with a huge wave of Deja Vu.

I walked to my bathroom, memories of me this very morning a year earlier playing around in my psyche.

I was high.

I was higher than high.

I remember inhaling the weed and whatever else was mixed in it that night, walking out the door to head towards my job.

Stephen told me to have a good day and to be safe...

I walked into work and went through the motions, before it was time to check out and I was going to head over to my friend Haden's house.

When I arrived at Haden's house, there were a bunch of people there doing all sorts of drugs. Shooting, snorting, crushing...

"Hey Leigh! What can I get you?" Amber asked, holding a bong in her hand.

"Um... whatever"

"We got coke? Want some?" She asked and I felt myself hesitate for a moment, until I remembered everything happening at home.

They kicked me out.

They don't care about me, or what I'm doing.

"Um, sure" I followed her over towards the table and they had a few lines of coke ready.

I watched one of my friends snort it before it was my turn.

I felt nervous.

Nervous, because I have never done anything like this.

I always inhaled it.

You earned this.

You deserve this.

It's worth it.

Worth the high, worth the feeling of being numb.

Do it.

I leaned down and I snorted the cocaine

I stepped into the shower, the warm water washing away the horrible memories.

That was until I closed my eyes...

"It's just a little wine Leigh, c'mon!" Haden egged on, but I shook my head, feeling my phone buzz.

xxx-xxx-xxx Meet me behind the trailer park at 2

"Fine, at least do another hit with us!" He encouraged me and I agreed, taking the rolled up concoction between my fingertips, taking a deep inhale.

The second I opened my eyes, I felt my hands shaking, my body was almost itching...

I missed it.

More and more flashbacks played in my head of my friends and I doing drugs, and drinking.. Gabriel getting mad at me, my dad getting mad at me..

Before I knew it, I was screaming and crying in the shower, hitting my fist on the wall as his words echoed throughout my head "IT WAS ALWAYS JUST ONE LAST TIME WITH YOU!", "I DON'T KNOW WHO MY LITTLE GIRL HAS BECAME!" "HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO YOUR MOTHER! TO ME! TO YOURSELF!"

"I'M TIRED OF THIS LEIGHTON! YOU SAID YOU'D QUIT, THEN WHAT THE HELL IS THIS!? SNEAKING IT? REALLY?! FUCKING REALLY LEIGH?!" Gabriel screamed, holding the small little baggy between his fingertips as I stuttered.

"YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND! I NEED IT!" I screamed, trying to snatch the bag back, and he shook his head, tightening his grasp on the bag.

"YOU SAID YOU'D STOP! YOU'D GET HELP! THE ONLY FUCKING REASON I'M STILL HERE IS BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME YOU'D CHANGE!"

"I AM CHANGING! I JUST.. I NEED IT, OKAY?! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!"

"YOU'RE RIGHT! I DON'T UNDERSTAND! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS?!"

"FUCK OFF AND GIVE ME MY FUCKING BAG!"

"NO!" He yelled, and he quickly rushed towards the bathroom, myself hot on his heels.

"DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE! I PAID FOR THAT! IT'S MINE!" I yelled, watching him walk over towards the toilet.

"WELL NOW WE'RE BOTH FUCKING PAYING FOR IT, GET HELP!" He screamed at me and the second he poured it into the toilet and flushed, something inside of me snapped.

The next thing I knew, my hand was wrapped around his throat as I shoved him up against the wall.

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO! THAT WAS MINE!" I growled and he shoved me off of him, gasping for air.

"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU! GET THE FUCK OUT!"

Everything else was a blur...

The bathroom door sprung open, Colby running into the room in a sheer panic.

"What's wrong?! Are you okay? Is the baby okay?! Why are you yelling! Why are you crying?" He quickly asked, myself sat on the shower floor as I was curled in a ball, rocking.

"Leighton, what's wrong? Talk to me, please!" He begged and I just stayed silent, picturing the fear in my boyfriends eyes as I pressed against his airway.

I remember the feeling of rage, hurt, and disbelief... I wanted to kill him.

I wanted the satisfaction of seeing him slip beneath my fingertips and crumble against the wall, his head falling to the side as he fell unconscious...

I wanted him to physically feel how I emotionally felt...

"I'M FUCKING SORRY!" I cried, screaming as another memory popped into my head.

I looked up, my vision completely blurred from my tears, but all I saw was this black mass coming closer.

All of a sudden I felt arms wrap around my frame, holding me tight against their chest.

"Shh" He soothed, and I just cried against his soaking wet t-shirt, clinging onto him like my life depended on it.

"I'm so sorry!" I cried, feeling his palms rub against my back, after moving my hair out of the way.

I don't know how long I sat there crying and shaking, but I slowly backed away from him, our eyes connecting for the first time and then it hit me..

I was naked.

I quickly shoved him off of me, pushing myself back against the shower wall, covering myself up the best I could.

"OUT! GET OUT! NOW! OUT!" I screamed, Colby's stunned face speaking volumes as he got out of my shower, turning his back to me before asking "What just happened?"

"OUT OF THE BATHROOM!" I yelled, ignoring his words until he left.

I got out of the shower, staring at myself in the mirror.

My face was bright red, my throat was sore and my chest was rapidly moving as I tried to breathe.

I quickly got on my work uniform, walking past Colby in the hallway, heading towards the stairs, when I felt him grab my arm.

"We need to talk! What the hell just happened?" He asked and I shook him off of me, quickly walking down the stairs.

"Morning Leigh!" Jake called out and I just waved, walking towards the door so I wouldn't be late.

My shift today was from 9:30 to 3pm and then I had the rest of the day free.

I had never wanted to get further away from Colby than I had this very second.

I took the car ride to work to calm down, drinking some water and taking my iron medication.

I rested my hands on my bump, a strange feeling of dread and regret washing over me.

"I'm sorry baby" I spoke softly, rubbing my bump.

I hated that I was pregnant today, because there was no way in hell I was going to be able to stay calm all day. Especially with all the flashbacks my brain decided it was going to show me.

All day throughout work, I would get these horrible reelections.

I remember waking up in my cell, and making the bed, getting it inspected before going to breakfast.

I remember standing in the cold hallways, lined up as we headed towards the chow hall.

It was like every hour that passed, I was reminded of what I was doing every moment of every second a year ago.

From trying coke for the first time, to my parents finding out, to Gabriel and I fighting... I was reliving my worst memories on what was supposed to be my best day.

It didn't make any sense.

After work, I head straight over to my sponsor's house to get my one year chip before going to an NA meeting, wanting to sit in on one just like I had a couple days after I had gotten to Aaliyah's.

I wanted a memory of sitting in one, clean, sober and a whole year later.

I didn't want the sob story. I didn't want the memories of me struggling to be the last ones this place held.

I wanted redemption.

I walked in and the host of the meeting hugged me, thanking me for coming before I took a seat by myself.

I glanced around the room, seeing all sorts of unfamiliar faces.

I crossed one leg over the other, bouncing my foot a little as I waited for the meeting to begin, when I heard "is this seat taken?" causing me to quickly turn to my right.

Colby Brock.

"What are you doing here?" I hissed in a low tone, not sure how I felt about having him be somewhere so personal to me.

"Aaliyah told me you'd be here. She wanted to come, but she got held up at work, and River needed her after.. so here I am" He grinned. "So.. is this seat taken?" He tried again and I just shook my head, letting him sit down next to me.

"So are we going to talk about what happened this morning?" He asked and I glared at him.

"Not here. Not now."

"Okay" He said slowly, glancing away from me.

I listened to the man in front of us start his welcome speech. Welcoming the new comers, and the returners.

"Hello, I am an addict and my name is Mark. Welcome to the Narcotics Anonymous meeting. I would like to open this meeting with a moment of silence for the addicts who are still suffering" He spoke, the room was dead silent. He went through the motions that I knew like the back of my hand. "I'd just like to give a friendly reminder that applies to everyone who has walked through these doors. Drugs and paraphernalia are not allowed on these premises during these meetings. If you are carrying anything, please leave it outside, and you can come back in. No one will judge you, or stare. We have all been there. That's why we are all here. Now that I have that done with, Is there anyone here attending their first NA meeting?" He asked a few people to raise their hands. "Welcome! I'm glad you could make it! It's very exciting to be at your first meeting. It is something you will remember forever, and I'm happy to be a part of your journey! Attending NA meetings are completely free, and you're a member when you decide you want to be. You don't need to be a week sober, a month sober or even a year... just being here, and wanting to take this step means a lot. If you've used today, please listen to what we talk about, and maybe consider talking to the members beside you today. Is anyone willing to read the "Who is an addict" reading?" He asked and a few of us raised our hands.

He picked some girl in the front and handed her a piece of paper.

"Who is an addict? Most of us do not have to think twice about this question. We know! Our whole life and thinking was centered in drugs in one form or another, the getting and using and finding ways and means to get more. We lived to use and used to live. Very simply, an addict is a man or woman whose life is controlled by drugs. We are people in the grip of a continuing and progressive illness whose ends are always the same: jails, institutions, and death." She read off and he nodded.

"I am going to hand out a questionnaire and some pens. No one will see this paper but you. Fill it out as honestly as you can" he said, handing out a sheet of paper, giving us each a pen.

I looked at the paper and it read "Are you an addict?" with a bunch of checkboxes filling it.

He gave one to Colby who shook his head. "I'm not an addict-" he said, but Mark wasn't having it.

"You're welcome to fill it out as well" He nodded at Colby, myself taking the piece of paper.

"This is weird" Colby whispered and I glared at him.

"Shut up or get out"

"I didn't mean it in a bad way. I mean it like.. it's unfamiliar.. I've never been in anything like this"

"Answer the questions Colby"

"But I'm not a drug addict" He muttered and I rolled my eyes.

"Answer them for alcohol then"

1: Do you ever use alone?

I used to, check.

2: Have you ever substituted one drug for another, thinking one certain drug was the issue?

3: Have you ever manipulated or lied to a doctor to obtain prescription drugs?

4: Have you ever stolen drugs?

Yes

5: Do you regularly use a drug when you wake up or when you go to bed?

Not anymore

I slowly went through the list, checking certain boxes and leaving others unmarked.

I couldn't help but glance over at Colby, curious to see how his was going, and to my surprise, he had some boxes checked.

I finished filling it out, putting the cap on my pen and flipping my paper over, glancing down at the floor as I waited.

After a few minutes, Mark started talking again about how most of us were finished, and that if we wanted to, we could keep the papers, or throw them away in the bin.

None of the papers had our names on it, and from my memories of these meetings, most people threw them away, but some kept them.

Colby was quiet the rest of the meeting, just listening to everyone read their papers, and talk about their life stories.

I talked a little bit about how I was a year sober, and what that journey had been like.

It was weird to be in this setting with Colby. To have him listen to me be openly vulnerable around these strangers, when just this morning I was screaming at him to get out of the bathroom.

I walked out of that meeting feeling strange, but what was really throwing me off was how Colby kept staring at his paper.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked, and he stayed quiet. "We don't want to. Why didn't you just throw it away?" I asked and he sighed.

"I checked more boxes than I wanted to... am I an addict?" he asked me, surprising me.

"You're the only one who can say if you are or not. Do you think you are?" I asked and he shook his head, still staring at the paper.

"Can I see your paper?" I asked and he nodded, handing it over.

"I marked them when it came to drinking" he told me and I nodded.

Do you ever use alone?

Check

Have you ever stolen or stolen to obtain prescription drugs?

Check

Have you ever taken one drug to overcome the effects of another?

Check

Have you ever used a drug without knowing what it was or what it would do to you?

Check

Have you lied about how much you've used?

Check

Do you put the purchase of drugs ahead of your finances?

Check?

Have you ever thought you couldn't fit in or have a good time without drugs?

Check

Have you ever used drugs because of emotional pain or stress?

Check

Do you continue to use despite negative consequences?

Check

Colby marked 9 out of 29 questions.

"Why do you think you have an alcohol problem? Did you think this before attending the meeting?" I asked and he shrugged.

"Colby, my personal opinion is that you are not an addict. You drink to have fun, not to feel numb"

"But... I checked 9 of the boxes Leigh.."

"If you're really concerned about it, take a break. Try saying no. Drinking something else instead, during a party. If there is anything I learned, you don't need things to make it better" I told him truthfully and he nodded.

"I think I'm going to try, because checking even one box was scary, let alone nine"

"Do you want to know why I don't think you're an addict?" I asked him and he nodded.

I handed him my paper and his eyes widened.

"Because our papers don't match. I didn't use drugs to have fun with friends at parties. I used them to numb the feelings I felt of my mom having cancer, of dealing with High School bullshit and everything that came along with being a teenager. You drink sometimes for videos and to have fun. We aren't the same"

"Can I ask you a personal question?" He asked and I nodded.

"Why didn't you ever drink?"

I sighed, looking the other way, biting my lower lip.

"You don't have to tell me. I shouldn't have asked"

"No, it's okay. I knew alcoholics ran in the family. Especially being Italian, and Irish... my family started drinking early... so if you had it.. you had it young, it always scared me. The thought of being addicted to something. Dependent on something. Hold your snicker, I get it. J know. I just... I thought drugs would be different. I don't know why... I just... I wanted a momentary release... and weed did that. It made me relaxed, and it honestly did help me focus on my studies and calm me down when my mom had chemo.. it wasn't really weed I'm addicted to.. it's when I pushed the boundaries, that I fucked up"

"Why were you screaming in the bathroom?" He asked quietly and I sighed, leaning my head against the headrest of my seat.

"Some things hurt Colby. Being a recovering addict isn't easy. I always thought my first year sober would be exciting... but all I'm getting is horrendous flashbacks of my mistakes. I hurt him, Colby. I should've never put my hands on him like that... but I was just so mad.. and desperate. He flushed my lifeline. Addiction isn't a simple snap of the finger fix.. I will forever be a recovering drug addict.. and it sucks" I admitted, breathing shakily.

"Hurt who?" He pressed and I shook my head.

"I understand you want to piece the puzzle together... but I'm not your jigsaw to solve"

"You said you expected today to be different.... different how?" Colby asked and I smiled softly.

"I wanted it to be filled with happy memories..."

"Meet me back at the house?" He asked and I gave him a weird look, but nodded and he climbed out of my car, walking towards his own.

~ "What are we doing?" I laughed and he smiled, opening my car door.

"Turning your day around! Is there anything else you really wanted to do today besides your NA meeting? It's already 7" he said and I shrugged.

"I need to at some point this week pick up my sobriety chip, but other than that, no"

"Okay, well, after you, m'lady" he opened the door for me and I smiled, thanking him.

We walked into a pretty pastel bakery.

"What are we doing here?" I asked and he just grinned, ignoring me.

"Hello, what can I get you guys?" A younger looking woman asked and Colby glanced over at me.

"Anything you want Leigh?" He asked me and I took a moment to scan the options, and then I heard "I'm here to pick up an order under Colby Brock?"

"What did you buy?" I asked him and he motioned that his lips were sealed, causing me to roll my eyes.

The women came back with a white box that was sealed, the bakery logo on the side.

I ended up getting some fudge and Colby got a piece of their cheesecake before we sat down at a table.

"My bump isn't allowed to get bigger" I grumbled, feeling it rest against the table.

"Your bump isn't even that big" he laughed and I groaned.

"That's my point! Anyway, what's in the box?" I asked, but he refused to tell me.

"Can I try your cheesecake?" Asked and he nodded, sliding the plate over.

He got a maple cheesecake, and it was mouth watering good.

"Mmm" I moaned, a smile finding its way on my rosier cheeks. "I'll always be a cheesecake girl" I chuckled and he laughed. "Want to try my fudge?" I asked and Colby shook his head.

We talked a little bit about my experience with recovery. The good and the bad days, and we even compared our jail experiences which made me laugh.

"So why didn't you take today off from work?" He asked and I shrugged, digging back into his cheesecake.

"One, I need the money, and two, and I wanted to treat today like any other day"

"But it isn't any other day Leighton"

"Trust me Colby, I know that now" I laughed, remembering this morning's flashbacks.

We finished back up at the bakery and Colby and I listened to the radio for a little while before we arrived at the beach closest to our house.

"Come on slowpoke!" He called out as he climbed out of the car.

"Shut up, I have a bump in my way" I muttered, using the car door to help me get out of his low car.

"What are we doing at the beach anyway?" I asked, Colby holding the same box from the bakery in his hands.

"You ask a lot of questions" he chuckled and I glared

"I'm tired and pregnant"

"So I've heard" he laughed again, and if it wasn't for him holding the bakery goodies, I would've smacked him.

We stopped at the ocean, taking a seat far enough away so we wouldn't get wet.

I got flashbacks to the fourth of July, and being with Silas.

I shook away the memory and Colby cleared his throat, catching my attention.

"So I uh.. I didn't exactly have a lot of time to prepare.. but I uh.. had this made" he told me, opening the cardboard box.

My eyes widened as I looked down at the cupcake.

There was a sobriety symbol on it, and laid next to it was a number one candle.

"Oh my god" I whispered. "Colby... you didn't have to do this" I spoke softly, blinking away some tears.

"You deserve to be celebrated, Leighton. Even if it's something small... it's still a big accomplishment" he told me and I couldn't help the tears that rolled down my face as I leapt over to hug him.

"Thank you" I whispered, holding him tight.

"Well... I say we light the candle so we can try their cupcakes" he smiled and I nodded, Colby pulling out a lighter.

He placed the number one candle on the cupcake before lighting it. "Here, hold it real quick" he told me, handing me the cupcake as he pulled out his phone.

It was a minute before he said "Happy one year Leignton Rae", myself blowing out the candle as he had his phone pointed at me.

"What did you wish for?" He asked and I shook my head, grinning.

"That's between me and the 11:11 Gods" I teased, Colby shaking his head, grinning.

We split the cupcake in two, and my eyes widened when I saw the filling.

"How did you know?!" I spoke loudly, the vanilla bean filling falling out of the center.

"I had Aaliyah on speed dial" he laughed and I grinned, taking a bite of my favorite cupcake.

It was nice to just sit on the beach for a while, listening to the waves and watching some people swim and run.

Colby and I took a couple photos together and separately. He ended up posting one of the sunset photos I took of him to his Instagram story before we sat back down, working on building a sandcastle.

"Thank you for today" I said out of nowhere, molding more of the castle walls with my fingers.

"It was no problem. I'm glad I got to spend today with you. I actually have one more thing, let me go wash my hands real quick" he said, standing up and walking towards the ocean to wipe the sand off.

When Colby sat down in front of me again, he pulled something out of his pocket and my eyes followed his hands with wonder.

"It was short notice... but I was able to get this made... I hope you like it" he said, handing me the small jewelry box.

"You're not proposing right?" I asked and he smirked, shaking his head.

I opened the jewelry box and gasped.

Immediately my eyes filled with tears yet again, staring at the perfection in front of me.

It was the sobriety symbol. A circle with a triangle in the middle. The necklace was small and dainty, which I loved. It was silver, another thing I loved, and the triangle in the middle had small little dainty diamonds along it.

"Turn it over" Colby said, and I followed his directions and felt the tears roll down my cheeks.

"Colby" I whispered, wiping at my cheeks as I read the words' "progression not perfection" engraved on the back of the circle.

I carefully placed it back down in the back, reaching over to hug him again.

"Thank you" I whispered, turning awkwardly so my bump wasn't crushed.

"You're welcome" He told me and I awkwardly sat back down, making him laugh.

"Just because I'm pregnant, doesn't mean I'm your comedic relief for the day" He muttered, picking up the necklace again. "Can you put it on?" I asked and he nodded.

I let the necklace fall under my shirt, smiling to myself as I felt it rest against my skin.

"How do you do that?" I asked, Colby giving me a funny look.

"Do what?"

"Know just what to do all of the time"

"What do you mean?"

"Like.. with my panic attack.. you calmed me down. You bought me the ring for my anxiety... which I wear daily now... and now this necklace..."

"I don't. I guess it comes easy when it comes to you" He shrugged and I felt my cheeks redden.

"I just want you to know that this means a lot. A year ago today, I walked out of a police station with just the clothes on my back, wondering if I'd ever talk to my dad again... and now I have a necklace hanging around my neck from someone I met only a few months ago... makes me feel grateful. Things really do work out in their own funky ways" I giggled, letting my fingertips play with the anxiety ring Colby had given me from my birthday.

"I really like the quote" I announced quietly, the words progression not perfect repeating in my head.

"I liked it to" Is all he said, looking out towards the ocean that was washing up on the shore.

We sat on the beach for a while, talking about their upcoming paranormal trip, my pregnancy and how I'm handling Logan being gone.

"Do you know when he comes back?" Colby questioned, drawing in the now wet sand.

"Um.. I think the training is 10 weeks? So sometime in August? Unless he gets sent out right away? I'm not sure, cause like.. he's never gone back, ya know? Like... he's gone to training, came home, gone on a mission, came back.. he's never returned. It sucks knowing he missed my twenty first birthday, and my one year sobriety. Like even if he didn't know.. it would've been nice to at least see him"

"Where was Logan when your dad kicked you out?" Colby asked, catching me off guard.

"Um.. he was freshly married to Cynthia. I don't know. I don't remember. Some things are foggy... He's never yelled at me.. but everyone hated it. I hid it for about a year.. and he was the first one who found out. By then I had already experimented with some stuff..."

"Why did you do it?" Colby asked and I scrunched my face up.

"What do you mean?"

"What made you turn to drugs?"

"Um.. well that's a tough question. I hate saying my mom, cause I don't want to put the blame on her, ya know? But... I was scared. I was stressed... There were a lot of emotions when my mom was diagnosed with cancer. I also had some relationship problems.. and job issues.. There was just a lot going on. My friend... ex-friend, Haden.. gave me weed for the first time. Telling me how it would take that stress feeling away. How I'd be back to who I used to be.. and he was right. He was right that it would make me feel numb and just kinda like I'm existing.. not living. So I kept doing it. But things got scarier, and harder, and the feeling got worse... and I uh.. got it laced once.. and that was kinda it.. really" I spoke slowly, memories flashing in my head as I spoke.

"Why did you get it laced?"

"I wanted something more. Something different."

"So you chose to get it laced?" He asked and I nodded slowly.

"I got it laced with Ketamine... don't do it. I shouldn't have done it. He just.. he said it would make me happy.. ya know? I just.. I wanted to forget, and feel fine again..."

"What is that?" he asked and I sighed, playing with the sand in front of me, feeling it slip between my fingers.

"It's kinda known as a date rape drug? Cause they slip it into drinks, and it sedates people... it's a white powder like cocaine..." I explained and he nodded slowly.

"What were you caught with?" He asked and I frowned, remembering getting stopped by the police, and being questioned...

I still remember the panic, and the fear that I felt.

"Um, I know I had Ketamine. I had something else, but I don't remember. It was for a friend" I told him truthfully.

It felt weird to be honest. To sit here, and tell someone who at one point hated me.. to tell him facts and information no one else knows...

"You said you tried cocaine?" He asked and I nodded, my head hung low.

"I rather not talk about it, but I'm willing to answer questions I guess"

"I guess I just don't get it.. sorry" He apologized and I shrugged.

"No one does, to be honest. You don't understand it, unless you've done it. Unless you've been through the motions, and know the reasons. I do wish I didn't do it, and just went to therapy instead. I ended up going to therapy instead in the long run anyway so" I shrugged again.

"Why don't you still go?" He asked and I pursed my lips, molding some of the clay in my hands.

"Money" I told him truthfully and he nodded slowly.

"That isn't me asking for it by the way!" I reminded him and he nodded, understanding.

It was weird to see him be so quiet today. So in his head, and playing with his own thoughts.

"Is there a reason you're being quiet? Did I say something wrong?" I asked, afraid of the silence.

Colby shook his head, almost looking like he was trying to figure out how he was going to piece his words together.

"I guess I'm just... never mind"

"No, tell me. I just told you a hell of a lot about me, spill" I chuckled, spinning the ring as I waited.

"I feel bad" He confessed, confusing and surprising me.

"Why?"

"I just.. I judged you so hard. You walked into our house.. and I decided you were the villain" He shrugged, almost seeming to be beating himself up over the past.

"Maybe I am the villain" I joked and he rolled his eyes.

"You're not the villain, and I'm sorry. I truly mean that. I'm sorry for the issues I caused you.. and the things I put you through. I guess.. I don't know. I just can't shake how bad I feel about it" I grumbled, appearing more upset at himself.

"Good, you should feel bad" I joked and he yet again, rolled his eyes at me.

"You're really good at these talks" He mocked and I grinned.

"Thank you. I try. In all seriousness, we said we were going to let the past go, remember?"

"I know. I'm annoyed that you're turning out to be a good person. It was a lot easier to blame you for my problems" He smirked and I shook my head, letting out a small laugh.

"It's always easier to play the victim or the villain and be blind to the equality brought to the table" I gave him a small smile and he nodded, staring out into the beach.

"We should start heading back, I have work in the morning, and you have a video meeting with Sam" I mumbled, seeing the sun had now set. "Can you help me up please?" I asked and he nodded, grabbing my hands to pull me up.

The drive home was quiet, and before we went to our rooms I quickly said "Don't tell anyone about today" before closing my bedroom door and finding my baby journal.

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Written on: April 23rd, 24th, 25th, 26th, 27th 2022

Word Count: 5.4k

Part Thirty Three

#colbybrock #samgolbach #samandcolby #colbybrockimagine #colbybrockfanfiction

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the-book-in-the-mirror · 4 months

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Mary Plays Pokemon Gaia - Part I: the beginning [Reposted from Twitter]

Hi! I'm @miyamoris and this is my blog for essays, let's plays and other more thought-out posts and conversations. To kick off the blogging, I'm bringing my Pokemon Gaia playthrough, styled after forums screenshot let's plays. (I'm not a video person. Sorry!)

I started this playthrough two years ago - it's hardly a long game but took me a while to finish it for... reasons. The first posts are reproductions from the original Twitter threads that I'd rather archive somewhere more reliable. The only thing I'll change is formatting so they flow better as blog posts. It's very likely the posterior updates will look different in style - instead of posting as I play like I did before, I have already finished the game and took a bunch of screenshots to organize while memory is still fresh. This is the first time I post let's plays on tumblr so I'm still discovering what works better.

For those who doesn't know, Pokemon Gaia is a Pokemon FireRed romhack created by Spherical Ice. Right now it's completed up to the Elite Four and thecomplete game with post-game and all is currently being overhauled as a Emerald hack. This hack is pretty popular for getting the exact feel of an official pokemon game plus some impressive technical achievements like perfectly reproducing the Mega Evolution system from gen VI into a 3rd gen rom.

Without more delays, let's begin. Enjoy!

[Original Thread]

let's goooo

-> #maryplaysgaia for my organizing and your muting convenience

Right off the bat, I already like the player sprite - it's visibly drawing from the FRLG sprite but it's well-done.

The Orbtus region map - the game seems to revolve strongly around archaeology (the professor in the intro says he's an archaeologist (typed it right on the first try!)) so it's unsurprising to find a lot of caves and ruins there.

Running shoes before even getting a starter! lovely game!!

I won't do a whole let's play-like thread summarizing every game bit but I'll try to keep threading the most notable game moments and whatever observation I have.

REALLY LOVELY GAME though tbh I am not sure if we even have gyms in this region

So for now an iffy lady asked back a book I got from the library, there's a lot involving earthquakes and instead of getting a mon in a lab, you meet the professor in a library.

Okay this is funny

The starters are 4th gen starters - this game has up to 6th gen mons and mechanics (updated type chart, physical/special split etc.)

Empoleon is easily my fave among those so I'm grabbing piplup. they tell you their nature right once you chose them too.

- there's no rival battle for now, it seems

- you don't see the exact pokemon IVs but they give you an idea how well the mon is faring there

...and yeah I ended up picking another piplup cause those E's were grating me. look, it only took five minutes.

Rival battles you (another neat sprite) after you talk to the professor and get a bunch of stuff and instructions. which is cool to me, cause I just got a neat taillow.😎

NOT CALM NATURE COME ON

Okay so there's the professor asking teens to help him investigate fucking earthquakes and a subquest about a missing weedle and I just got into this special room with a clefairy boss??

Girlboss team!

YOOOOOO

Ariados isn't too good but I could do a few things with this one in the early game.

Early game team: done ✅though I expect a few of these to stick around beyond that.

I just realized I've been writing this thread for nearly two hours and it's lacking a better overview of the game so:

- You're travelling through a region where an ancient civilization was supposedly wiped by earthquakes

- There are tremors happening again now so you're working with this region's ProfessorTM to investigate it. Your rival is very the May/Brandon 3rd gen type of rival (assistant that is pretty chill)

(Thread content will continue on the next post. Apparently tumblr does not want me to post more than 30 images. Ah well!)

#Mary plays Pokemon Gaia #Pokemon #Pokemon Gaia #Screenshot let's play #pokemon rom hack #romhacks #Let's Plays tag

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Overhearing a Conversation/Eavesdropping Trope Comparison Part 2/2

So I wanna finally get around to finishing Part 1/2 of this post so please check out the link before reading this post.

Warnings: Not a fic, contains spoilers for Bad Batch and Arcane, thoughts/opinions/headcanons, lemme know if I need to add more

While Part 1 of this trope comparison post is more about showing screenshots and writing out thoughts about both shows individually, I wanted this post (Part 2) to be more about the similarities and differences of both shows. To be honest, there were more differences than similarities (which is similar to the other comparison post about the ‘Left Behind trope’).

So let’s get into it:

To start with similarities, both Omega and Powder internalize what was said. The girls believe who they are causes problems (Omega being an unaltered Jango clone and Powder being a jinx/screw up).

The accuser in both situations feel like their opinions/thoughts aren’t being heard/valued. Echo feels that Hunter and the group should be doing more to fight the Empire (which would give Omega the life she deserves by removing the obvious threat). Mylo isn’t wrong when he says that Powder is a problem (though Vi also has a point when telling Mylo that Powder is younger compared to them).

I’d say that the last similarity between these 2 scenes would be during the confrontation. Both Omega and Powder use the words Echo and Mylo (respectively) used earlier with Omega saying they don’t have a normal life because of her and with Powder telling Vi that she was ‘twice the person at half her age’, something Mylo had mentioned earlier.

Now for the differences between the shows. Imo, the differences really make the whole ‘eavesdropping’ trope so different (with varying degrees of success).

While both Bad Batch and Arcane use the ‘eavesdropping’ trope, the execution is actually quite different, obviously because they are 2 very different stories.

In Bad Batch, Omega overhears the entire conversation between Echo and Hunter, while in Arcane, Powder only overhears half the conversation between Vi and Mylo. This is important to both girls’ character in different ways. Omega hearing all of the convo allows her to interpret CF99s situation in her own way (mostly internalizing—‘you don’t have a normal life because of me’) while Powder only hearing half the convo is more about foreshadowing for her character. Powder left when she heard Vi agree with Mylo, missing the part where Vi stuck up for her and even accused Mylo of being the screw up. It’s a great foreshadowing moment for ep3 when Vi tries going back for Powder only to be taken by Marcus (which is something Powder didn’t know, believing to be abandoned by Vi at that point).

The second difference would be the actual conversation between the ‘accusers’ (Echo/Hunter and Vi/Mylo). Echo’s convo with Hunter seems to be about their motivations going forward/the direction of the squad (Hunter wanting to hide and Echo wanting to fight the Empire) rather than Omega herself (yes Echo does say ‘our lives are like this because of Omega’) but honestly, I think he was really only talking about the eps in S1 with the bounty hunters (ep4, 8/9). Meanwhile, Mylo and Vi actually talk about Powder and how she affected the situation (Powder hears Mylo tell Vi ‘she’s a problem’ and Vi tells Mylo that ‘there’s a bunch of things Powder just can’t do’).

The third difference would also be that Echo has a differing goal than the group while Mylo doesn’t. I’d say that Mylo even looks up to and wants Vi’s affection/support just like Powder, but often gets shot down by Vi (Vi kicks the door open when Mylo takes too long picking the lock and she turns on him during the 2nd half of the convo for valid reasons).

Another difference could be the girl’s reaction. When Omega overhears Echo, she stays in her room and hugs Lula. Yes, she’s clearly upset, but I also think Omega is also frustrated and possibly even confused (about Echo’s motivations). It’s a mix of emotions, whereas Powder is just upset. The situation Omega and CF99 are in seems new to all of them as it should. It’s a time of change. Contrasted to Powder, who is purely upset because this is something she’s heard before and clearly has related self-esteem issues.

The last difference I noticed was the problems the ‘accusers’ have with their respective girls is that one is fixable and one is not. Powder obviously trained (and already being an excellent shot) to get to where she was in Acts 2-3. She becomes capable as she gets older and is able to hold her own against most (she loses twice and both times it’s to Ekko). Whereas Omega is an unaltered Jango Fett clone. Bounty hunters are after her because of who she is. She can’t change the fact that she’s a clone.

That’s it for the similarities and differences between the shows/characters having the same trope of eavesdropping/overhearing a conversation. While I prefer Arcane’s version over Bad Batch’s, I will say that Omega’s reaction isn’t bad. I wish her emotions were a bit more intense since she is just a kid and I loved seeing her reaction in the Zillobeast ep to Tech saying that it ate the crew. I know some of you didn’t like that little part, but I loved it. It really shows that she is just a kid imo (I mean yeah the VA is a little off, but it makes sense that Omega would be scared).

But overall, I liked how both shows managed to pull off something totally different using the same eavesdropping/overhearing a conversation trope.

Thanks for reading💕

#star wars #star wars bad batch #bad batch #tbb #comparison #bad batch scene comparison #arcane #arcane scene comparison #eavesdropping trope #part 2/2 #scene comparison

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aanteater-nose · 2 years

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Fat Mac!!!

#my love #my favorite #my ride or die #iasip #mac mcdonald #fat Mac #just a bunch of screenshots cause I really miss him

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monstas1ut2 · 3 years

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2/3 Eren Yeager (Smut Warning!)

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That's why I fucked yo' bitch, you fat motherfucka!

The screenshot sound was pretty loud as your back went up and down like a roach sprayed with raid. The male on the other side of the phone laughing his ass off. Well, he wasn't the only one.. but he's the one who took the screenshot.

"Delete that shit, don't put it on Instagram Connie!" Your pretty face was immediately in the camera's view. Your eyes a little wide at the fact that you were caught off guard. But at the same time, you let yourself go in front of the group. That's your wrong doing. But it made them smile nonetheless.

The people who were on the call at the moment were Connie, Jean, and Sasha. The rest were either too bothered to be in such a crackhead group, or they were busy.. probably the first one. Anyways, everyone in first period happened to be your friend, they were all different but they adored you nonetheless... even Annie... she just hides hers pretty well. Anyways, It's almost the end of senior year already and the bond is hard to break..

"That's my favorite song, you can't be catchin a hoe off guard.." you scolded the bald male who still happened to be laughing. His controller in his hand since he was playing nba2k. Jean was also playing but at the moment he was trying to figure out what you were doing.. and he's mad he didn't see..

"What did she do now?!"

"She was throwing her back out of place!" Sasha muffled out as she was stuffing her cheeks with a Hershey chocolate bar. She was also watching Hell's Kitchen on her tv, you could hear it.

"Daddy Jean aint need to hear all that.." you playfully spoke as you bit your lip at him. It was obvious he liked you, not to the point where he wanted a relationship though.. he's just a bit of a man whore.

Though everytime you mumble a 'Daddy Jean' , he's all for it. That's yo bitch.

After a bit of a pause of talking, Connie had picked up his phone and you were now cleaning the table that was in your room. The last time you were in this room, you didn't even have time to clean... Your father was screaming for you to hurry.

Let's explain, this weekend, you are visiting Hange, your mother . She missed you so she invited you to stay for a few days. Today is Friday so you have the whole weekend with her. She had planned Saturday and Sunday. Not to mention, Monday is a holiday so no school.

"Hey guys... uh Armin and Eren having a party.. y'all comin?"

All while Sasha said yes, along with Jean.. you were still jamming to 2-pac spitting his shit. Your hand movements not going unseen by the three on your phone. So in result of not having a response from you, Connie screamed oh so suddenly which caused you to jump pretty high.

"What the Fuck is yo problem!? You bein held by gunpoint nigga?" Your voice showing 1% concern as you moved closer to the phone on your dresser and you stared into it.. quite surprised still.

"(Y/n)... you makin my hair fall out..." Connie spoke as he gave a sarcastic smile and... wow it was hard for everyone to suppress their laughter... your face would turn purple instead of red though..

"Ight~... watchu want?..."

"Eren-"

"Oooh, Eren.." you spoke in interest, your long eyelashes fluttering. This however made Jean and Connie 'throw up' at the same time. All while you rolled your (e/c) eyes.

"Yall do too much-.. and Jean, stay in yo game ight?.. befo I come through the screen and punch-"

"Eren havin a party.. are you going..?"

Tilting your head in slight disbelief that Connie interrupted you. Your eyes rolled as you looked to the side. Obviously leading them on, but at the same time they knew that Hange will let you go...

"Fine. But somebody pickin me up.. and Sasha cuz boo-boo can't drive worth a dime.."

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As much as you hated it, you sat uncomfortably in the dodge... Ugh... It's just something about you and dodge's. The cars radiate fuck boy energy, and guess who happened to be driving this car? Jean..

Though he let you sit in the passenger seat just because. Your eyes staring out the window as you messed with the stockings you had on. They were in a bit of a web, that was the design. You also had on a plaid skirt and this crop top with some white platforms. Oh you looked scrumptious.

The person who put this outfit together in the first place was Hange.

"Baby Jean, you need a new car... cuz-"

"It radiates Fuck boy energy.. you said it the first time you ever saw it... I know.." Jean pouted as he continued to drive to Eren's house. Who was shared with Armin. The two always lived together, some speculated that they were... sparkle sparkle.. gay.. but they aren't.. not that you would've minded.. it just would've been a bummer.

"(Y/n)... Didn't Your father take your car away...?"

Glaring back at Connie, who was wearing a white shirt with black pants and some timbs. You rolled your eyes and looked through your window again.

"Yeah but my car is a Mitsubishi.."

The neighborhood around these parts were quite pretty. Just like where you lived with your dad. But at the same time you were confused as to how Eren and Armin could afford such a place. The first thing popping in your mind being. Drug dealer and then you thought about what Sukihana said about dating them...

That's probably why Levi didn't want you around him... Yeah.. This whole senior year has been Levi making sure Eren doesn't sit beside you... nor have a project with you... It's like he barely existed at first. Though you always had these ways to talk to him. He's not even that bad.. he's quite the hottie and he knows what to say... he's just a flirt, and you edge him on every time...

"(Y/n)! Can you come with me to find the food?"

Snapping out of those thoughts of Eren, you didn't even realize Jean had already parked. A small 'mhm' coming from your throat as you opened the car door. Everyone else doing the same. Lord it was a bunch of people out here. People were outside and inside which was baffling honestly.

A soft hand touched your wrist and started to drag you towards the house door. It was Sasha, her mouth almost watering for something to eat. She told Eren to make sure there was extra cheese in the fridge for her. Hidden... and lo and behold when you both shimmied through the crowd, the cheese was in the fridge. Her eyes beaming as she grabbed some chips as started eating like it was her last meal, nothing out of the ordinary.

"This music actually hits..." you spoke out to nobody in particular as your hips started to move ever so gently. Though as nice as your body was, it looked more seductive than anything. Popping one of those chips into your mouth as your hips continued to wine ever so gently.

The looks you were getting, not only lustful but want... The way your long dreads just complimented your look had only made it worse. The second you decide to stop, it seemed like everyone stopped looking at you. In slight despair that you'd stopped. Though one individual in particular was continuing to stare...

His hand, wrapped around the cup as he'd sipped at the liquid inside. The black ring on his middle finger caused his hand to look hotter than it already was. He had these prominent veins that would just look so pretty on your brown skin...

"She likes you too..." the blonde that was a tad bit shorter spoke to his childhood friend, Eren.

"What makes you say that..." lord, somehow over all this music, and his low tone... you could still feel the vibration of Eren's voice. Just glancing from the kitchen as Eren was sitting on the couch in the living room. Leaning back like he owned the place... well he did.

Fine ass..

Giving him a bit of a stare, your glossy lips curved into a smirk as you glanced at him up and down. All before turning your attention back to your friend who was having the time of her life eating...

"So Sash.. what's up with you and Connie...? Yall gon date.. or-"

"(Y/n)!"

"My bad.. my bad.. I just wanted to know"

The party was a bit lively, more than anything since this is a longer weekend. So everyone was happy.. including you because they were playing your favs. So of course your body started to move again. That skirt of yours being a paid actress in helping you look more hot. Though, what you did not expect was someone coming up behind you...

Now that's nasty..

You whipped your head around about to give them an earful... though... you saw that smexy... face and you looked kinda shocked...

"Oh..." you choked out before turning your head again.. Eren's evil little smirk had caught you off guard. It boosted his confidence even more that you didn't feel the need to even move away from him. His hands slithering onto your full hips.

Man, he was really risking everything this time... considering your father is.. Levi...

This however was thrown out of the window because of the fact that you could feel Eren's... crotch against that thick form of yours. That little smirk on your face only widening as you started to gently rub against him, your back bending over somewhat.

His long brown hair then started to ever so gently fall in front of his face as his greenish eyes stared hard into your body. That harsh little grip on your waist made you feel all different types of high. Gawd.

"You like that huh...? I know.." your cute, but seductive voice made Eren chuckle just a tad. It causing you to almost choke on those words.. This man didn't need to TRY to be hot... he was already smexy.

His hands then started to travel up your body to your arms and he gently pulled you up towards him, your back against his scrumptious chest. All you could do was open your mouth a bit, quite surprised that he wanted to be this close with you.

"Eren... You a lil close... you needa tell me sum?"

The way you spoke, the way you carried yourself... it was new to Eren when he first met you.. but he got used to it real quick and he noticed he wanted something he never knew existed.. and that was you.

"Can't tell you here... but I can tell you in the bedroom..." Eren purred out, his voice smooth as a babies skin, smooth as butter. It caused you to tingle, the female between your legs wanting that more than anything.

Biting your glossy lips, the room started to become hotter than it already was. The people who were in the house started to pile out of the main and started to go outside. It was quite cold outside as well, but the party continues.

"Where the hell is (Y/n)..." Jean spoke to himself as he watched Connie and Sasha become drunks in two seconds. It was obvious he himself could not drink since he is the driving parent tonight.. but he now had nothing to do... he's just wondering where... you are..

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"S-..Shit Eren~..."

The (f/c) nails you had were now digging into Eren's muscular arms as his lips caressed your neck. The seductive kisses making dark marks on your brown, beautiful skin.

Your head being thrown back onto the soft black pillow as your pretty toes curled. Feeling Eren's slender fingers inside of your pussy. His intimidating green eyes watching your every expression, every move. Seeing that your crop top was already rolled up over your pretty chocolate mound breasts that were covered with your bra.

"E-Eren, s-stahp..." choking that out, you could hear the loud rip of your stockings when Eren moved his hand out of them. The wetness of your brown pussy lips being known pretty well when Eren's fingers slid your panties to the side.

"You don't want me to stop... huh...?"

"N-No.."

The electricity shocked through you when you watched Eren stare down into your eyes. Lust and want, all in them as his key necklace dangled in front of your face ever so gently.

His shirt immediately being discarded as he watched your pussy pulse from his fingers being pulled away from it. It was amazing to him how much you wanted him.. it was amazing... it ran something through him...

All you could see was his muscular frame, his hands to match as he easily tore through your bra. Watching the way your breasts fumbled out of the cups. He never seen a black woman's breasts before.. but it couldn't get any better than this though.. is what he thought.

"Daddy~... don't stare at em..." you pouted playfully before licking your glossy lips. Just running your fingers up Eren's arms as you eventually made your way up to his luscious hair. Running your fingers through the locks. Pulling him down ever so gently to finally get that kiss you wanted.

Eren's eyes glowed when he felt your soft lips, the lip gloss giving him this taste of lovely. His lips tasted of some sugar, kinda made you wonder what was in his cup before this.

The wetness of Eren's tongue touching yours as the both of you withered in this naughty, sloppy kiss. Something you both weren't supposed to do.... It was fun, crazy... scary..

"You act all bad outside of the bedroom huh... but you ain't ever have someone touch you..." Eren teased gently, in a whisper against your lips. His hand gripping your chin as he stared at your innocent looking face. Gently spitting all nastily into your mouth and you moaned out seductively. Swallowing it so easily..

"Show daddy you'll be able to take it..."

Eren's cock was so hard in his pants, it being unzipped by him and his underwear was now restricting his release. His eyes staring at your pretty pussy, the wet, pink insides were bright and untouched. Though his pale cock was eager to invade it.

"I-.. I can take it daddy..." your whimpers echoed In Eren's ears as he pushed his underwear down. Your knees being pushed to your chest as you felt Eren's stare. The plaid skirt you had was still on, so you tried to cover your pretty pussy with it.

"Stop... don't hide now.." Eren scoffed out as he gripped under your thighs, the underside of his cock rubbing up and down your wet and gooey pussy.

"Hold your legs... don't move.."

It was so demanding, your pussy clenching already as the wetness dripped down to your other hole. Your pretty, long nails visible to Eren as you held your legs as tightly as you could. Knowing Eren's cock was a monster. You could see it... right between your legs.. right between your brown pussy lips.. the contrast was unbelievable..

"F-Fuck!! Eren~~ ow~" the way your painted toes curled gave Eren a shiver of excitement. Your back arching ever so slightly as your virgin hole was taken away from you. Squeezing tightly around Eren's experienced cock.

"Shh.. it's Ight.. take it babydoll.." Eren's whisper was gentle and sincere as his thumb started to gently rub at your clit. Causing you to swallow your spit, though it spilled out. What also spilled out is your loud whimper. Your legs staying wide open for him as your hand slowly slid up his muscular structure.

"It's .. i-it's so big..."

Hearing these whimpers and words spill from your throat, Eren couldn't help but take his hand and wrap it around your throat. Causing your breath to be taken away oh so suddenly when Eren snapped his hips forward even more.

"Fuck!" Your moan could probably be heard outside as your breasts bounced from the impact. Eren's smirk wide as he felt the tightness of your insides. His necklace going back and forth ever so gently as his pelvis started to clap against you. The feeling was so foreign to you, having someone ram into you like this. But it was Eren... it wasn't just 'someone'..

Your (f/s) scent was powering against Eren's own scent. The feeling of Eren's cock was starting to really take a toll on you..

"A-Ahgh..."

Eren's cock was being enclosed so tightly, you just wet up his Dick so well.. he was starting to become obsessed.. more than he already was.

"Daddy's. little. pussy..." his deep voice echoed in your ears as he started to get a bit faster. Your breasts bouncing even more as Eren made sure that skirt was moved out the way. He wanted to make sure to see everything. His hand squeezing harder at your throat. It was keeping you firm against the bed, like a little fuck doll...

"I-it's your pussy Eren~"

Curling those pretty toes again, you could feel the bubbles in your lower region. The craziest orgasm you've ever experienced... just tip toeing to the tippy top. All you could muster was a pathetic whine. Your eyes watering up behind your long eyelashes.

"I'm-.. I'm cumming..." Your voice was so weak, it sounded like you were passing out almost. Just rolling your eyes back as the bed frame started to hit the wall. Your pussy gushing more than usual as the white cum started to coat Eren's cock a little.

"Shit... yeah~..." Eren growled under his breath, watching you come undone on his pale cock. Your thicker form was just so adorable, looking all bent up. Your locs scattered around ever so softly.

It was like he was fucking a goddess...

Eren was between harsh and soft, his manhandling ways were shown easily by the way he pulled out quickly and turned you over. Your plump ass shaking like jello as his cock easily slipped inside once again.. filling you up for the second time. God you just couldn't wait till you could feel his cum...

"Imma Fuck you till you turn dumb..." Eren spoke harshly as his long fingers gripped at some of your locs. Pulling them and wrapping them around his wrist somewhat. Gaining all control over you and your own body...

He wasn't playing either...

(๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ Masterlist 2

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