#just let him stay fucking dead

[luck-of-the-drawings]

EPISODE 2 AND 3 HAVE BEEN SOOOO FUN im already so emotionally attached to each of these characters.. if anything bad ever happens to any of them im killing everyone and then everyone.

#cw blood #cw vomiting #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #ARTHUR BENNETS DRY HUMOR IS SOOO FUCKIN FUNNY OH MY GOOODDD the sleepin upside down bit omg.. #i love drawing him with just the same stoic expression. he is a stone cold pillar of ice to me. one that loves his little kitty kittyyyyy #i loved watching him work with emizel aswell the dynamic is SOO FUN #I LOVE THAT EMIZEL IS SO FOND OF CATS TOO LIKE RAAAHH THATS SO SWEET.. pepper is his favorite cat.... #the part with him defending pepper was SO CUTE UGHH i love emizel he is so small and sharp and pointy AND YET #there is LOVE IN THAT BOYS MOSTLY DEAD HEART I TEEELLL YOU HWAT!!! and in other news: #i love love love the concept of 'royal shut-in gets lost in the big city' MY BABY BOY SHILOOO I ADORE HIMMMM #AND DEACON WAS SOOOO NICE TO HIM givin him a place to stay n helpin him dress up for the party and taking him around town to see the sights #im in love with deacon i love him soooo much. AND ALSO. ABOUT SHILO. #HE CAN EAT FOOOOOD LIKE SURE THE GARLIC GOT HIM BUT WE GGOOOTTA GIVE HIM A MILKSHAKE OR SMTH #LIKE I THOUGHT IN THE FIRST EPISODE WHEN HE SIPPED SODY N NOTHING HAPPENED. I THOUGHT THAT WAS JUSTA FLUKE #BUT NO ITS A PATTERN ITSA PATTERN HE CAN EAT FOOD!!! BABY BOY CAN EAT FOOOD!!!!!!! FEED HIM MORE FOOD!!! food is the best human creation #I HOPE MORE GOOD THINGS HAPPEN TO THESE BOYS. especially since. well. okay so ive seen the 4th episode. sigh. #like holy fuck. hey ep4? what the fuck? hey you just let that happen? what the fuck. what the FUCK. EPISODE 4. HEY WHAT THE FUCK #THAT DIDNT NEED TO HAPPEN. OH MY GOD. THIS BETTER END WELL. IN TWO WEEKS I KNOW YALLRE GONNA BE SCREAMIN TOO BC OHHH MY GLOD. WHAT THE FUCK #EPSIDOE FOUR STILL HAS ME FUCKED UP SO BAD OH MY GOD. I WILL NEVER BE OVER IT. HOLY SHIT. WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK. WHYYYYYY. NOOOOOOO!

[pencildragons]

ok but. glenn spent twenty years in the supermax. that's a long fucking time. do you think he forgot morgan's face. do you think he forgot nick's.

#and then he got out and. three days had passed for everyone else he loved #how out of place must glenn have felt? so many things happened and just So Much Time (twenty years!!!) went by for him #the court trial is a distant memory #so is the quest and the adventure #maybe something he clings to. maybe a good memory he looks keeps clutched in his fist. but it happened a very long time ago #and then he gets out! and he literally does not belong in this time! he went from being the youngest dad to the oldest #and to top it all fucking off #his son isn't his son and there are three other people in the entire fucking universe that know that he even ever had a kid #and his dead wife is alive. but shes married to a cop. and she doesn't know who he is. #i mean. no fucking wonder he wanted to kill his dad #after so much shit happened #no wonder he wanted to stay in the forgotten realms #and. let's be honest. dying is the best thing that's happened to him since his wife died #which. in case you'd forgotten. happened 27 years ago. #damn ! having feelings about glenn close #glenn glose #glenn close dndads #dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndads odyssey #nick close #morgan freeman #mine

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

[mediapen]

this is the worst fucking trip of my life. i spent a week in russia having a massive panic attack every fucking day and THIS is the worst trip of my life

#ive literally never experienced such rude people im gonna snap so fucking bad soon #it’s EVERY DAY if it was a one off it’d be at least a bit better but it’s EVERY TIME I GO ANYWHERE WHAT IS IT ABOUT ME!!!!!!! oh my god #i am so sorry central maybe it’s not you. well it was you but your shitass contagion has spread around the world #I’ve had like six people cut in lines ahead of me people walk so close they push me into walls i just stop dead now it’s the only thing tha #works some guy walked through my arm and WHACKED his arm on my water bottle in my bag and it HURT him i could hear it it’s the highlight of #this entire fucking trip #i have been hit in a cathedral nearly stood on multiple times kids running into me people trying to walk through me ive just lugged my case #onto a bus where these two old cunts with like cabin bag sized cases managed to move to take up SIX SEATS as i got on the bus with my big #case so i had to stand. then nobody would let me off the bus with my big fucking case so hopefully i broke some toes. and THEN in my three #minute walk to this airbnb i am supposed to just get off the planet apparently and also walk in the road because god forbid other people #develop an ounce of brain matter and not walk four abreast on the pavement im fucking over it. fuck off and die you can see me im 5’9 #also the bus people im not done with those fucking bus people like they were in the four seats and one of them went to a two seat but the #one on the four stayed on the edge with his case so i couldn’t get past and there were no other case-friendly seats #like it was fucking intentional what level of fuckhead do you have to be to stop someone sitting on a bus absolutely wank #google translate I AM GOING TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF the next time something happens and i will do it for real #dl

[spaceyflowerswriting]

Hello Adrien~ how are you? I hope you've been doing well! Thank you so much for taking the time to accept and write the request I submitted to you. You released it at such perfect timing b/c I was in bed, sick and miserable, but reading your Jonggun x reader made my week and made me feel nice and comforted🥰 as always, I enjoy your characterization of lookism characters and I'm amazed on how you're able to write for so many characters in different prompts like you're a great writer and I hope that you continue to do what you enjoy doing^^

Since I saw that your requests are back open, is it okay if I request a reunion between Jonggun x reader who broke up a few years ago b/c Jonggun didn't want to involve reader into his life as a full-time Yamazaki head since his lifestyle would put them in danger but he and reader still love each other? Whether or not they decide to get back together is totally up to you! Please and thank you for always gracing the Fandom with your wonderful writing❤

-🍒

perhaps (gun park x reader)

details: soft angst-y oneshot, gender neutral reader written in 2nd pov, general canon au, you and gun are exes that still love each other

summary: gun has a sudden reunion with his ex. many feelings are spilled.

a/n: hello cherry anon !! ive indeed been well, i hope the same goes for you T_T + thank YOU for sending requests and enjoying my writing !! im glad it made you feel better 💓

also i really appreciate ur compliments :(( 💖💖 hearing that people like my characterizations always cheers me up ;_;

here's your request, thanks again <33

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Gun's hand reached into his pocket once more to grab his box of cigarettes. He pulled out another cigarette for the night and put the box back to feel around his pockets for his lighter. As soon as he found it, he quickly lit up his cigarette and put the lighter back away as well.

Slowly inhaling... slowly exhaling; watching the smoke escape his lips as he blew it out. The only thing that made it visible were the dim lamp posts nearby the fountain he was currently seated on the edge of.

Feelings of temporary relaxation filled him up, as well as the cool, fresh air of the quiet city night. This was what he needed after his long day. No, make that a week.

He felt rather pathetic thinking about the heavy weight on his mind that he allowed to cause such a wreck of a week for him. And to think it was triggered by a song he hadn't heard in years, playing on an old record player he was looking at in an antique store.

Was this simply a period of grieving he was going through? Was he missing the bittersweet memories of a person he cut off and tried to bury long ago? Ah, but "person" was rather insulting to use to describe you. "Someone he deeply loved and cared for," was a much better descriptor.

If only you were just a "person," though. He wouldn't be feeling so sentimental then. He wouldn't care so much.

The particular memory resurfaced every once in a while, it was just easy to ignore when it was a thought. Hearing something directly from the memory causing him to nearly relive it, however, that he could not just ignore.

Muffled but recognizable, a traditional Japanese song was playing from the inside of Gun's home when he stood outside to have his last conversation with you. He figured one of his older relatives was playing it. Such a small detail, yet it was something that stuck with him. As for what was said in the conversation, he couldn't recall exactly, but your glossy eyed expression and the emotions he felt that day he remembered crystal clear.

At least because of those clear memories, he could guess what he said to you. Something rash, something immature and inconsiderate of your feelings. Despite that, he--in some strange way--still felt like he did the right thing, but he wished he had listened to you more instead of turn you away by insisting what he was doing was the best option for the both of you.

It felt selfish to think such a thought, though, because the reason he regretted breaking up with you the most was hurting you and not having you by his side anymore. He missed having someone that made his heart race in a way that wasn't related to fighting. He missed having someone he could wholeheartedly trust. He missed having a companion.

He missed you.

Of course, he hoped you felt the same. But how could anyone still harbor love for a person that pushed them away so harshly?

"Oh my gosh, hi! I didn't expect to see you here," a rather cheerful yet stiff voice called out.

Gun moved his gaze from the empty sky to the side where he saw someone smiling nervously at him. They sat down too closely to him for a stranger and asked him how his night was going.

He blankly stared at them, unable to feel much other than slight irritation. He just looked the other way and continued to inhale the smoke of his cigarette, every breath helping to keep his mood steady despite his rampant thoughts.

"Right, haha..." said the person, as if Gun replied with something. They then cleared their throat and very quietly said, "Sorry for disturbing your night, but someone's been following me. I'm hoping if I pretend to hang around a friend they'll leave me alone."

Ah. That kind of situation.

Gun knew he had no business playing hero, but he was a decent enough man to help someone innocent in need if it was happening right in front of him. Plus, he had time to spare anyway.

He dropped his finished cigarette onto the floor and gave it a firm stomp. After making sure it was extinguished, he picked it up to flick it into a trash can nearby and finally turned back to look at the stranger.

"I see. Let's talk, then." Honestly, he had to applaud the stranger for daring to approach him. Surely he must've looked as scary as whoever was following them?

"Thank you!" The person set down a bag they were holding into their lap and began to ramble about random things concerning how their day was spent. Gun listened half-heartedly, nodding and replying when polite, and occasionally checking his watch. He wanted to get home before 1 AM at least.

However, the longer he spent with the stranger, the more he felt himself losing track of time. They started to feel familiar. His intuition was never wrong, so he tried to study this person and make connections. The way they spoke, their mannerisms, their facial features: everything about them lead him to a blurry conclusion.

This stranger... were they you?

"What about you? How was your day?" The person still looked nervous. "Oh, wait, nevermind, I've definitely talked too long now. I should head home, thanks for keeping me company!" After an awkward beat of silence, they added, "Friend!"

Gun eyed them suspiciously, but with no malice. And in his ever so straightforward fashion, he said, "Of course. But before you go, may I ask you something?"

"Yes?"

"Is your name..."

When he finished his question, the stranger's--your eyes widened.

"So it is you." Gun nodded, not quite sure how he was feeling at the moment. Ironic was most likely the best word. "Do you perhaps remember me?"

"Uh..." You fidgeted with your fingers, looking away. "Gun," you muttered, "Jonggun Park?"

"That's right." A new emotion washed over him. Relief? Happiness that you had kept him in your memories after the passing years? Well, you most likely didn't remember him in a good light...

You shifted in your seat before turning back to look at him, laughing sheepishly. "I knew you looked kind of familiar. No one wears slicked back hair as good as you." The compliment made Gun raise a brow as quickly as you had slapped a hand over your mouth. "I'm so sorry, that was really inappropriate to say." Your hand slid down and you vaguely gestured with it. "I-I meant no one wears slicked back hair like you. As in, um, it's a very... you look. You know?"

Some people really don't change no matter how many years go by.

A chuckle left Gun before he could stop himself. He'd imagined many times what it would be like to see you again, and the things he'd say. He would apologize first and foremost, but then explain himself and ask if you'd like to start anew. If you said yes, great, if not, then he'd respect your decision.

This time he would hear you out. Maybe there would be an argument and you both would part just as terribly as in the past, or maybe you two would make up and mutually agree to stay out of each other's lives.

Whatever scenario he thought up of, it wasn't anything like this. Still, he knew you better than that.

"We should cut to the chase, don't you think?"

Your smile faded as your brows slightly knit together. "I know we're exes, but that doesn't mean we have to be hostile to each other."

Gun still had a raised brow. "Even though the reason we aren't together anymore wasn't peaceful?"

Immediately, any lightheartedness in the mood blew away with the wind, revealing only the tense feelings shared between the both of you.

"Gun..." You moved your gaze away once more. "What's happened in the past can stay in the past. I've moved on." You held up a hand just as he was about to question you. "And before you ask, yes, I can't help but still hold a little grudge against you, but I understand now. I was upset back then, but after having years to think about it and mature, I get why you did what you did."

He nodded, taking note of your sincerity. "I suppose I don't have to explain myself then."

"No, you don't," you sighed softly.

"Then... at least allow me to say I'm sorry, too." You stayed quiet. "I didn't give you a chance to explain your feelings. It was arrogant of me to decide where we should take our relationship without hearing your input." Gun subconsciously turned away from you as well. "But I will say I don't regret what I told you. You knew very well the dangers that came with associating with someone involved with the Yakuza. Especially as the head of a clan."

"Right. You were keeping me away for my own safety. I know." You sounded tired, like you were being lectured at. "It probably was the best decision for our relationship. Didn't really stop me from hurting, though." A somewhat bitter laugh came along your last sentence. "It definitely hurt a lot more back then when I didn't understand, but even today..."

Gun didn't need to hear you finish what you were going to say to get the message. He said your name and then, "I feel the same. In all honesty, I miss having your presence in my life." He looked back at you. "You know, when I said I don't regret what I said, I meant it. Although, I do somewhat regret what I did: cutting off all ties with you. It was the logical thing to do, to ensure no one could trace you to me or vice versa, but sometimes I feel it did more harm than good to us."

"Hm." You shrugged with little emotion. "You look like you did fine without me."

"And you?"

"I turned out fine, too, I think." You didn't lift your head up to meet Gun's eyes, but you turned back at least to look at him. "I'm not dressed in rich people brands or anything, but I'm living. I have friends and a comfortable home."

The mention of his clothes mildly embarrassed Gun, but he quickly brushed it off. "That's good. You're living a normal life."

"Yeah. The kind you wanted me to live."

Well. That just stung.

He went quiet for a moment, thinking carefully of what to say next. "Are you happy--"

"What's the point of this conversation?" You cut him off, voice strained. "I know you hate beating around the bush, so just tell me what you're trying to say."

"...You're right." Gun sat up straighter and rested his hands on his knees. "I miss you. But I'm still living the kind of life I told you to stay away from. Do you see my problem?"

You let out another laugh, this one sharp and short. "Glad to know you haven't changed much. Still living a dangerous lifestyle and still not asking for my opinion."

"Except this time I don't think I need to ask for your opinion. You've made it rather clear where your feelings lie for me."

There was a moment of silence before you sighed. "I hate your confidence and your knack for reading people correctly."

"I think even a child would be able to pick up that you miss me from the bittersweet way you spoke."

"Shut up." He smiled softly, seeing you attempt to hide the small smile on your face. "What do you want me to say anyway?"

"I want to hear what you think. I'm making up for my past mistakes. Most importantly, I want you back in my life, but only if you want me back in yours as well." The unfamiliar feeling of mild nervousness had Gun conflicted on what to do. "Back then, I said we should never see each other again, no matter what, but maybe if we tried now we could make it work."

Finally, you looked up to make eye contact with him. "Why don't you just leave your criminal life behind?"

"I can't. And I don't want to." As your expression turned into one of concern, he went on to say, "It's just the kind of life I'm suited for. Call me immoral or a bad person; I'll be whatever that allows me to keep fighting. You already know I live by my own standards anyway."

"You're as weird as ever," you chuckled with a shake of your head.

"Yet you fell in love with me anyway."

"I know. That was my fault."

"Give me some credit for charming you at least." He leaned to the side just in time to dodge your hand moving to whack his shoulder.

After a huff, your shoulders dropped and a worried frown replaced your smile. "I don't know what to do. I do know I want to be by your side, though, and it's honestly relieving to hear you've been missing me all these years, too. It's just... are you sure this is okay? What do you mean by we could work things out now? How's it going to be any different from the past?"

Gun slowly replied, "The harsh truth is that it won't be any different. I still advise you to stay away, but my selfish side wants you by me despite the danger. It tells me I'll just make sure my work doesn't affect you." You nodded along while he added, "I won't force you into my lifestyle, either, of course. It'd be inappropriate to shove someone into a life they're not made for. Even if I do get you used to it, that doesn't guarantee you'll ever grow fit for it. Some people are not made for certain things. And... I want you to be happy with me, not miserable."

He let his words hang in the air for a while, to make sure you could properly digest them and then said, "There. That's all I can say." He crossed his arms. "I now leave the decision up to you. We're both adults now, aren't we? We've had time to grow and we can make our own decisions and talk things out like adults do. Whatever you choose, I understand."

"This is all very sudden, you know." Your frown turned even more lopsided. "After experiencing the horrific feeling of thinking someone's following me, I run into someone who I thought vaguely resembled my ex from when I was a teenager, only to find out he IS my ex and wants me back the same way I do, too. Except it's not that simple." You sighed in frustration and Gun nodded in sympathy.

"I'm not expecting you to think of an answer right away. I understand this is all very sudden." He reached a hand out, placing it atop of yours which was resting on the fountain edge. "I'll wait as long as needed. As long as you give me an answer, I'll be satisfied. Patience is needed for love, after all, whether that love flourishes or is buried as a loving memory."

"Okay." It seemed like you were trying to give him a reassuring smile as you stammered, "I'll--I'll think about it, then."

"Please take your time." Gun glanced at his watch. It was nearing 1 AM, and he decided you two had spoken enough. "It's become rather late, so I believe we should head home. Would you like me to walk you to your place?"

You scrambled up, grabbing your bag with a hand and leaving the other free to wave at Gun. "Oh, no, it's okay! It's been quite a while, I don't think the person following me is still sticking around."

"Nonsense, how ridiculous would it be if I let you walk home alone only to find your death on the news tomorrow morning?"

He had tried to say it in a half joking way, but the wide eyed look you gave him said you clearly didn't see it that way. At least until you began to laugh.

Once you quickly settled down, you had a soft smile resting on your lips. "Asking me a question only to ignore what my reply is and do whatever you want. Your feigned politeness hasn't changed either, I see."

Gun decided not to mention he was attempting to make a joke. "I hope you realize you haven't changed much either. You're still the same person I loved then, and love even now." He smirked when you began to look a little nervous.

"Right..." You side stepped and gestured forward. "I'll get going then. You can walk with me since you insist."

"Good." He followed after your stride, walking alongside you and easily keeping up with your pace. "What were you doing out so late, if you don't mind me asking?"

You glanced down at the bag in your hand. "Um... midnight snack craving."

Now it was Gun's turn to laugh and bring up the repeated sentiment of, "You really haven't changed."

"Whatever." You playfully rolled your eyes. "Can I ask why you're wearing sunglasses at night?"

"...That's a story for another day."

"...Right." Your eyes lit up as a new topic popped into your head. "Oh, and I can't believe you smoke now. I know you did it a few times whenever you were offered a cigarette when you were younger, but you should really stop if you want to live a long life."

Gun chuckled. "I'll think about it."

In some miraculous way or another, the rest of the walk to your house went peacefully. With a little healthy bickering, of course. You both exchanged phone numbers before finally parting ways.

On his way back home, Gun found himself thinking again, "Ah, that was exactly what I needed." Forget the cigarette he was using earlier as a stress reliever. Apparently what he needed most was a real conversation with the ex he still loved, and luck decided to be on his side today.

Yet, out of habit, (and because his walk home was extended by accompanying you home) he was pulling out another cigarette and lighting it.

"I wonder what decision they'll make."

#lookism x reader #gun park x reader #gun park #requests #i have decided to leave the relationship status to the reader B] #anyway i feel like this oneshot perfectly captures/allowed me to show how i characterize gun #like hes just some freak but he's Romantic and not entirely heartless despite how harshly he acts #that side of him is best shown thru eli; letting eli go by saying hes 'gotten soft' #and then him actually keeping olly's promise to not hurt eli?! youd think gun would be like- #'nah eli got me fucked up im gonna kill him anyway' but he stayed true to what he told olly #'i only grant dead people favors.' he truly lives by his standards only.. #him being harsh is just how he is as a 'nuturer' (according to his genius title lol) #outside of that tho? hes cold. calculative. but hes still human. youd just have to be damn lucky to even get a glimpse at his softer side #hes surrounded by coworkers anyway he doesnt find the need to be 'nice' to them only 'professional' #maybe im being delusional and am only romanticizing a criminal but. oh well 💖 #shoutout to anon for this request!!!!!! got me writing a whole mini 'character analysis' essay in the tags !!! #btw if ptj releases anything in the future debunking my gun analysis i will cry 💔 /lh

[samuraisharkie]

me every time I think about the current state of The Amazing Spider-Man comics: Here’s How Peter Can Still Win

#spider-man #I’m concocting schemes and plans that would bring it out on top I swear #hire me marvel but only after Quesada is fired #I’ll have Dan Slott doing letters while I’m fixing their fucking mistakes #it ain’t fuckin much but it’s honest work #listen so we have to reveal that current MJ is a fake. go animated series on them. #fuck them kids. fuck former aid to genocide with a boring ass name Paul #give the Jackpot thing to someone else. it’s a good gimmick but please for the love of god not on MJ #fix poor fucking Ben Reilly and maybe just let him stay dead #tackling the Parker Industries bullshit is gonna be harder #but it all culminates in beating the everloving shit out of Mephisto #Peter and MJ reunite and are once again best friends #and this one could be controversial but hear me out: Peter and MJ polyamorous relationship on and off w Felicia Hardy #since Harry is alive again (even though it’s stupid) maybe him too #things gradually fall back in place as they were before #Peter isn’t ‘dated’ bc he’s been around since the fucking 60s and he finally has a chance to grow up and be an adult again #and we focus on the other plethora of teen superheroes that are now around #bc Spider-Man may have been the first teen superhero but he doesn’t own it and the point of his character is not ‘youth’ #listen. I’m so anguished every time I think about the comics. #I don’t want it to be destroyed I don’t want it to be irreparable #it sucks that any other marvel characters can keep running but Spider-Man is just going straight in the dumpster bc of idiots at the top

[kennyomegasweave]

I've seen a lot of posts saying Nueng should have kept the bracelet or asking why he didn't just keep it and I just. He couldn't. He could not keep that bracelet and still leave. He wrote a goodbye note telling Palm he doesn't work for him, he doesn't want him to follow him, he wants him to meet someone and love them and be loved in return, but that can't be him. We know Nueng loves Palm. We know Palm love Nueng. We know they're the children of the sun and they were once glued up back to back. But Nueng thinks all that follows him is heartbreak and loss and that's all he can ever bring Palm, so he is willing to break both their hearts to keep Palm safe. It's misguided because Palm can't just walk away now. Palm knows they once had four legs and four arms. Even if his mom was still alive and his dad wasn't in jail, he can't just walk away from Nueng. But Nueng needs to break Palm so he stays away from him. So he breaks up with him in a letter after his mom dies and leaves in the night. And he leaves the bracelet, he has to leave the bracelet, because if he doesn't Palm might realize how Nueng still believes, even while breaking his heart, that they were once glued up back to back. And if Palm thinks Nueng still believe in their love, he will want to fight for them. Palm is a fighter, he's been fighting his whole life. And Nueng leaves needing Palm to fully believe his words and leave him alone and move on.

The tragedy of this show is we know neither of them will, or even can, move on. But they can't be together. Nueng can't just be a dude working on an island with Palm. Palm can't be Nueng's CEO house husband. They both love each other more than anything. But that doesn't mean it works. That doesn't mean they work. And so Nueng leaves the bracelet. And we all cry.

#never let me go #I have seen a lot of people mad at my boy Nueng but like #he truly believes he's doing the right thing #and like how can you say he isn't at least from his perspective #he has to leave palm all he's ever brought him has been sorrow #his mom is dead his dad is in prison he's not safe himself #nueng needs to leave palm because he loves him that much #he loves him enough to let him go #now palm doesn't want to be let go #and palm is most likely not gonna be like THANKS FOR DUMPING ME IN A LETTER AFTER MY MOM DIED #but Nueng is truly believing that Palm will read his letter with the bracelet and be like welp moving on #because remember Nueng doesn't think anyone would ever like him for him #and he def had to leave the bracelet or it would be a sign to palm that like #I DIDN'T WANT TO DO THIS I LOVE YOU BUT I WANT TO KEEP YOU SAFE #but Nueng doesn't want Palm to know that #because he knows Palm #he knows Palm would be like FUCK MY SAFETY I'M STAYING WITH YOU #so he has to leave the bracelet #he has to leave every trace of Palm's love behind #because he has to reject it so maybe just maybe Palm will believe him #and Palm will stay away from him and move on with some other person and be happy #but this is a show so it won't be happening but like dammit #Nueng isn't the bad guy here okay #and I'm in my feelings #obviously from these tags and this post #about how it seems like all of yall are making him that way #I am chris crocker levels of LEAVE NUENG ALONE LEAVE HIM ALONE lol #regular clyde #if this isn't the most coherent I am very drunk lol

[lishenkaaa]

not to point out things that have definitely been pointed out in the twenty year history of this game, but the way miles at first completely bulldozes over the fact he left the country and left ppl thinking he was dead and is like "you can't do this alone, but don't worry phoenix, im here and with teamwork we'll discover the truth" while wearing the smuggest little smile and then only dropping it and reverting to his angsty arm grab when phoenix (rightfully!!!) points out how shitty his behaviour was..... im gonna be sick

#look #i'll admit my characterisation might not be perfect rn bc i still haven't even finished aa2 lol #but ALSO #he didn't think he was gonna be missed!!! #at least not as a person!!! #he comes back and he's sayinglook at how i've changed #look at how i no longer wanna be the demon prosecutor who just fights to win. look at how im ready to find the truth. to help. #but phoenix is still mad at him bc he just LEFT and he even makes digs at him that he STILL is the demon he used to be!!! #bc all he can see is that miles didn't want to stay and just let him think he was dead for a YEAR #im gonna shoot myself in the foot #this is gonna be so funny if im completely off the mark #but honestly idc. i am thinking (threat) #i will return to these thoughts after i finish aa2 dw #omodru talks #ace attorney #narumitsu #im just having so many thoughts on this fucking scene

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Naruto shippuden things that made me lose my mind (ep 244-260):

Dark naruto my beloved 🖤 (I wish naruto could externalize these thoughts to someone else and they could comfort him so he wouldn't have to comfort himself)

Kushina @ naruto: wow minato didn't tell u shit

There's something very... unsettling? To me about minato. I think maybe it's just bc bad writing but something feeling deeply wrong about him?

Child itachi: don't worry, sasuke, I'll protect u (I think they're framing this as a sweet moment but it just feels sad and fucked up and sinister bc itachi u literally r going to create a monster. Like u meant well in ur own fucked logic but u hurt him so so bad)

Kushina, dying: naruto, stay the fuck away from lord jiraiya

Kisame, confronting his impending doom: I choose death by shark attack

Tobi, on his way out the door to murder someone and desecrate a corpse: kabuto don't do anything fucked up while I'm gone

I can't take Kabuto seriously in that snake hoodie???

In Madara secret hide out of horrors he has a chamber of eyeballs, a mutieyed beast that sucks the souls from jinchuriki, 100,000 lil white soldiers, and the petrified remains of hashirama. What a fucking place to live.

Everytime we find a new character with part of hashirama in them, it only gets funnier

Spend 20 episodes traveling to keep naruto safe then just fucking instantly their position is compromised lmao

I would like everyone to stop lying to naruto, please

Yamatoooooo in the belly of a snake :'(((

7yr old naruto: what were my parents like? The 3rd hokage: fuck off. Bye.

The writers: what if we reanimated the original Naruto but gave kakashi smaller hair?

#listen. the flashback eps with kushina and minato are so fucking good. like best episodes so far #i would die for kushina. i lov her so much. minato just doesnt feel like a real person tho? #lile it feels like he read the script so his actions are dictated by the plot and he has no emotional reaction to them #bc he knos what's gonna happen. he is v pretty tho #i am hype for this war tho. i wanna see madara murder everyone #and i wanna kno obitos whole deal. i wonder if i would have figured him out by this point if i didnt kno #bc like at this point it seems pretty obvious bc like also im fucking awful at seeing things like that #anyway... i domt even kno im just glad naruto got to meet his mum #naruto #also i assume kabuto got to stay wuth tobi bc he dragged up the actual dead ass corpse of madara? #which is really fucking funny to me. like kabuto being like: yo look what i got here madara #and obito is standing there sweating like: fuck. this fucking snake is gonna spill my secrets better keep him close #i assume he needs to keep his identity a secret until he can actually revive madara bc that's why everyone is so scared of him #bc i was like y does he care if everyone knos who he is. at this point kakashi is the only one who would b emotionally affected by knowing #but yea its gotta b bc madara is scary powerful so the whole world is like. mmm lets not fuck with masked man #unrelated

[oflgtfol]

theyve got a janky astromech with anxiety joining the team now

#alright 👍 #brot watches the mandalorian #mando spoilers #better than the ig-11 shit SORRY i dont think ig-11 should be brought back #such a weird fucking storyline and completely takes away from his sacrifice in chapter 8 #just let him stay dead. christ

[minarcana]

thinking about my wol urianger au while i was at work and making myself sad

#the way shb works there is that the secret hes convincing exarch to keep while exarch tries to summon the remaining scions is #that uri fully plans to die and made exarch agree to send him to the rift and abandon him once the lightwardens are all dead #hes tired of watching other people die and would rather do it himself especially in this verse. of course. gwaha simply doesnt let him at #the end. you ever have two suicidal guys trying to arm wrestle about who gets to die while also trying to keep all their friends from #realizing thats the endgame plan is someone trying to sacrifice themselves #he still stays in il mheg for a while trying to study titania but its nowhere near as fervent as in canon because hes just. oh its fine. #ill die and then itll be done. #me lying on my back on the ground #me: hey uri are you ever gonna like go to ye olde therapy for that ptsd? #uri: nay why? #me: thats what i thought youd say you fucking elf #also the arr bit where you have to kill a bunch of soldiers while fighting rhitatyn. bad for wol au uri. thinking abt that also #laurel views things like that as a natural byproduct of war and idealism so shes not as fucked up about it #meanwhile this clown-- #ooc

[ofdeference]

#You want to hurt Tseng? #Bring up Zack. #He saw a purity in Zack Fair that is surpassed only by Aerith. #A man who only wanted to do something right. #Something good. #He started out wanting to be a hero to the world. #He settled for being a hero to one. #On behalf of everyone everywhere. #Fuck you Zack Fair. #For making Tseng CARE about you. #And then not being strong enough to hold out until he could save you. #That's just bad manners. #He considered quitting. #I won't even fucking lie. #A good man lost his life because HE wasn't fast enough. #He stayed because he loves his Turks. #That is the simplified version of events. #Let it be known that Tseng was going to defy Shinra to save him. #They wanted him dead. Tseng wanted him to survive.

[quickhacked]

i love this part so much because you have this very intense fighting scene and then it slows down a little into this and then the harsh reality of what's going on kicks in. but it's not over yet. but you can Feel the uncomfortable tension lingering in the audience

#personal #ultimately none of this is vitali's fault. in my honest opinion. the guy should've just left him alone. stay in your fucking lane bestie #but ouuu at the same time it's very symbolic for like. what happens when vitali does the impulsive thing people Want him to do #people get hurt. people die. which is not what he wants to happen at all #he lets himself go here a little bit and it results in a guy dead and at the end of the day it's night city and it's just business #but man. in the bigger picture of the whole fic. man!!!

[cherry-shipping]

BTW during my nightly nap i had a dream abt horrortale sans...... it was sorta all over the place cause i fell asleep watching youtube so it affected the course of my dream a lot but i think it was something along the lines of him working someplace on the surface and saw me from afar semi-regularly and was like. really weirdly fixated on me. but he was totally nuts about it too like hed follow me around with the sole intention of trying to figure out WHY he was fixated on me and what id done to make it that way. like. obviously there was something mega suspicious about me since he couldnt get me out of his head and also he thought i was the one stalking HIM because i kept showing up in places he went to. like i remember he had some special quiet place near his work where hed go to watch a nearby lake and calm down (super cute) and it was way behind some bushes and shit so it was like a secret for him. but then he went there one day and i was there napping in the grass and he was like ok what the fuck. anyway all in all it was a good dream and i think thats sort of what hed be like, even just regular sans is like that too. also my appearance in this dream was that of my self insert which was neat and also there was a part where he was watching me in secret and i was stressed out and he saw me take my eyepatch off and stab myself in the fucking eye over and over again and he was like. woah Thats just like when i pick my broken eyesocket....... and it was like a whole thing. lmfao

#cherry chats #bf (bone friend) #long and jumbled ass post but whatever it was a dream so it was pretty messy already #another fun thing was that at times hed see me pass by his workplace and he would be dead set on following me #so hed just up and leave. not even on break or anything like he just Left #and if any of his human coworkers tried to stop him he would literally grab them and break their arms #like. they reach out a hand he grabs it and just fucking crushes it #like that scene in from dawn til dusk. if anyone remembers that. #and that was like a regular thing. dunno how he didnt get fired but it was funny as hell #in fact i think he even regularly crushed peoples fucking skulls with his huge hands too #he would leave to follow me around like a huge weird creep and if anyone tried to get him to stay he grabbed their head and crushed it #like. completely silent and nonchalant and still on his way out.enriuhgeruihgwg9prodgboirdhfg #anyway. it was cool i fucknig love that freak #and i also love my self insert a whole bunch. theyre also fucking weird #i wonder if i should make that eye stabbing when stressed thing an actual habit of theirs.....? #itd be cool and a fun parallel between sans' eye picking habit #but also the eyepatch is based off of my eyesight being garbage on my right eye #and at one point the eye doctor said i might have to get an eyepatch on my LEFT eye (the good one) so the bad one could get better #so if im realistic then my s/i would have one functioning eye thats covered by their eyepatch and then one shitty eye #but the eyepatch is also bloody. maybe i should just let myself be edgy and say the doctors removed their eye or something LOL #aaarghhh. i love horrortale so much. fuck

[regular-lord-reckoner]

today has been a really long and incredibly stressful day and my dad's okay now, but my mom had to take him to the ER tonight because he's been having some issues and needed to get checked out and he also fell today so they went and did that

as soon as they get back and were trying to get into the house i guess the last of my dad's energy just gave out and he just kinda sunk down to his knees and then slowly slid onto the floor and neither of us could get him up

we tried to help him grab onto his wheelchair and work with him but he just couldn't do it and neither of us were strong enough to lift him without making things worse

our family friend is out of town and my mom tried calling another friend but nobody was able to come so we had EMS come out and thankfully two guys were able to lift him into his chair and help us get him into bed and settled

he's finally resting after a long, long fucking day and my mom's going to take off work tomorrow so she can be with him

i am...beyond exhausted so i am also going to go to sleep and hope to god tomorrow's a better day

#he got a new oxygen machine recently and we're wondering if maybe the level is too high now #she's going to talk to one of his doctors tomorrow and see what he says #but with his condition and everything it's possible that's what's the cause is because ever since we got that thing #it's like he's been going downhill where he had just started to make a turn around #and they did a bunch of lab work and stuff on him tested him for covid and everything and he's not sick #but he's just been acting bizarre lately and then everything today #he also slept a lot yesterday almost like he was in a coma #i kept checking on him and even tried to wake him up a few times #because at that point i was worried he wouldn't sleep through the night and i know that throws him off #but he was dead asleep and normally he's not like that #so i dunno #all i know is i've been scared out of my fucking wits multiple times today #and have cried a shit ton #and just...yeah #oh also when they went to the er i stayed behind to hold down the fort and take care of the pupper #so i thought okay let me go get in the pool for a little bit to decompress and calm down #should be fine it's been sunny all day long #wouldn't ya know it a fucking storm started blowing in right as i got in the water #but that's fine #i got in for a few minutes at least and that helped #and now i'm gonna sleep and that'll help too #and tomorrow's going to be a different fucking day than this one and that's all i can ask for

[protectcosette]

living with a friend sure is a great way to find out you enjoy their company a lot less than you originally though

#certified protectcosette original #like #this dude genuinely thinks of gerard way as an asshole? i'm not even into mcr but his source is that his ex has a friend that dated gerard #idk about y'all but i personally don't go to people's exes gor character references #he acts like queer ppl who live in the city have a certain experience despite never really seeking out ppl with similar childhoods as him? #he's a TERRIBLE driver which i get bc his parents were terrible teachers and he just got his license a week ago #but like. he listens to music that distracts him and doesn't understand intersections in a way that makes me feel unsafe #and I can't drive bc my car battery is fucked so i'm kinda stuck with this kid who makes incredibly questionable decisions behind the wheel #and he will just start talking to me about stupid shit when i have headphones in. one of the most basic signs of 'dont talk to me' #and he's like. BARELY started looking for apartments. was deadass only looking on fucking zillow #homie i am letting you stay in my one bedroom with me bc your parents are abusive. not because i like sharing my bed with you #i need my goddamn quiet time back. i need space. he doesn't have anywhere else to go i really cant kick him out but this is making me crazy #ESPECIALLY AFTER LIKE 10 PM FOR FUCKS SAKE I AM LYING IN BED WITH MY HEADPHONES IN NOT LOOKING AT YOU AND NOT RESPONDING #why the FUCK are you just reading craigslist listings out loud? why are you reading me every text from this potential roommate? #why are you watching tiktoks 2 feet from my head with no earbuds? do you not know how rude that is? like jesus christ #all this on top of my car battery being dead and my dad threatening to stop paying for my therapy unless i comply with his demands #can i please have a little bit Less right now? literally begging #venting