#just wish there was more content of us

[volitioncheck]

does near every single post-canon DE fic out there need to be tagged ‘Sober Harry Du Bois’? i’m getting so tired of it.

do i expect every single piece of fan content to have to fully delve into the often-depressing always-complex topic of addiction? not really. sometimes you just want to write/read a silly fluffy romance one-shot, whatever. i get it. but i think my issue is specifically with the fact that for nearly every sillyfluffy au out there, there almost must be a ‘sober harry du bois’ tag. and it does feel very slapped-on more often than not.

i think to me it is an unconscious statement that nothing *good* can ever happen to harry du bois until he is completely and permanently sober. before solving the next big case, he has to be sober. before quitting the force, he has to be sober. before falling in love with kim, he has to be sober. before accomplishing anything, starting any sort of recovery, making any life improvement, he must first be sober.

sobriety as a goal, as a journey, and honestly as a concept in of itself is not as cut and dry as so many people think it is. and i think it would serve a lot of people well if they did some introspection on the implications of how nearly every single post-canon fic that isn’t dealing directly with harry’s addiction have him as completely sober instead.

if the plot of the fic isn’t going to touch directly on harry’s substance use (and again, i’m not demanding that every single fic should), why does that mean that sober!harry must be the default?

i think i am just tired of reading a casefic, a smutty one-shot, a fantasy au, whatever, where it almost seems that before getting on with the plot, the author feels obligated to first assure us that the harry we’re reading about is a Sober Harry. it’s established with a couple lines in the exposition, probably about his improved appearance, a tag up top, and then never brought up again; a checkmarked box. like the societal image of An Addict has completely prevented people from being able to imagine a person just, continuing to live life, while still struggling with addiction.

life happens, with all of its backslides and achievements, mundanity and changes, to people with drug addictions just as much as people who don’t. is a post-canon harry who isn’t sober not worth writing about?

i think so. i think the game we all played thinks so too. in fact i think that sentiment is woven into the game’s very core. i just wish i saw that reflected in our fan content more.

#i really hope my point is understandable in that it isn’t that i think that stories where harry *does* become sober aren’t also valuable. #or that i want every post-canon harry to *not* be sober. #but rather questioning why there seems to be a subconcious necessity for harry to be sober to have kind things happen to him. #disco elysium #harry du bois #also obligatory because i am putting this in the main tag: #this isn’t a callout or vague on any one person/creator/group of people in particular #it’s more of a prompt to discussion on a very broad trend #one informed by insidious biases that live in all of us because we live in a society etc #that none of us are immune to but all of us have a responsibility to acknowledge #if there is goal to this post it’s to provoke introspection. not individual attacks #anyways i love quietly consuming fan content until something annoys me enough to make my own post about it #i do wish i Participated in fan communities more tbh especially this one i’m just shy lol #most of the time. #me talking

[shiorimia]

10/10 partner, so helpful

#batdr #bendy and the dark revival #batim #bendy and the ink machine #toon bendy #audrey drew #my art #inspired by me getting curbstomped by 3 lost ones and bendy just sat and grinned #jokes aside i really do wish bendy had more uses as a partner ingame #aside from pointing at trash cans and lookin cute 💀 #the town sequence was too barebones for me it really should have had more content

[sciderman]

You said that if you dated Peter or Wade it would make you miserable. Which– Okay fair, Wade does have a history of purposely hurting the people he loves.

But what about Peter? Why do you think dating him would make you miserable?

because I’ll always know I had the option to climb a 6’8 cyborg and I passed that up for a sweaty little twunk that I perpetually have to remind to bathe (sorry peter)

#I don’t know. I don’t think peter is good boyfriend material. I think his insecurities would get exhausting. #Wade has bottomless patience. me… I don’t know. I don’t think I could. I’ve got my own stuff going on. I don’t want a Project. #peter is definitely a project. and he needs someone with shed loads of patience and perseverance. #me I just. I wanna have a good time. so. come to me my big beautiful time traveller. whisk me away. #take me to the beach. you can disappear after I don’t mind I’m not needy. just spend a beautiful romantic week with me. #sci speaks #I don’t really know what kind of person I’m compatible with really actually. #all my relationships have been. pretty short. #and I don’t think it’s any fault of my own really. and I don’t feel any loss over them at all. like at all. I wish I did. but I don’t. #a sci has so very thankfully never felt heartbreak. #but it makes me kind of question what kind of person I am when it comes to this sort of thing. #because I really don’t know. #I don’t know if I want commitment. I don’t even know if I want sex these days. #I … weirdly… am so devoid of yearning these days. like I feel content right now on my own. I don’t even feel lonely. #I used to yearn but I think I’ve moved past it. and I kind of just want to have a good time. #and that doesn’t even . involve a relationship or anything anymore. like I don’t think I want one actually. it feels like I’m Over it. #it’s kind of great because I’ve never felt so calm in a long time. all because I decided that I don’t. actually Need anything. #I don’t need anything more than what I have. and that’s brought me rest after So Long being restless. #but if a massive time traveller came and whisked me away on sexy adventures how could I say no

[skitskatdacat63]

2011 British gp Fernando is such a mood...

#okay now obviously i could make a super accurate actual version of this using a wider variety of pics #but i found it so funny that all of these are literally from one day #and hes exhibiting every stage of grief and expression known to mankind #there was literally almost 50 pics just from this one day at this specific time #thank you to whichever ferrari photographer this was 🙏 #(i feel like we dont really get pictures like this so much nowadays?) #(or at least not the sheer amount?) #(but i feel like i dont really have any pics of him from recently just chilling in the garage) #(i loveeeee the candids!! so cute to see the drivers just in their 'natural habitat' and also great for ref) #(but yeah idk i think i like photography from this era better) #(i remember reading an interview w a photographer who talked about how fernando was willing to let him take more candid pics) #(and i wonder if it was a more novel thing back then? and now its a lot more content based and performative? idk.) #anyways!! sooooooo obsessed w the amnt of pics of fernando chilling in his garage from the ferrari era #literally thousands of them and im so endeared!!!! #i wonder what was going on in this practice session for there to be so many pics of him incredulous 😭😭 #i wish I could just post all the pics from this compilation bcs hes soooooo adorable but also very memey #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #fa14 #2011 british gp #we do a little bit of f1

[seagull-scribbles]

ʟᴇᴛ'ꜱ ɢᴏ ᴘᴀɪɴᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴏᴡɴ ᴏɴ ᴏᴜʀ ᴡᴀʏ ʜᴏᴍᴇ,

ᴛʜᴇ ʙʟɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ʟɪɢʜᴛꜱ ᴀʀᴇ ʙʀᴇᴀᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴏɴᴇꜱ

#tmnt 2007 #casey jones #raphael hamato #rasey #thank you to everyone who voted the lyrics for the caption #I love doing little things like that it makes posting feel more like a community #also using this to try out an art signature for the first time…it’s took just over 3 years but #the turts day posts are doing very well and someone mentioned making a video so it seemed time to sign stuff #I watched 2007 last week and I bought the dvd from my friend #I really love this movie and it’s concepts and idk if it’s because they’re 20+ and I’m in my teweties #or because the Rasey content in this movie is the best canon rasey rep we have BUT I had to draw them #April definitely knows what’s up with these two but she’s not going to tell anyone #and I love what they have lmao #this was a play with lighting exorcise and I found some great music to listen to while I did it and i I #I just wish I had the energy and time to draw more of these guys fully rendered #this is meant to be when they first meet up for the night #you can decide who’s saying what and weather ralhs lifting the mask up or about to pull it down #oh oh also shout out to Helen who is a lovely catholic lady who saw me do this in public and was very supportive and understanding #also listen I know this is like the other 2007 one I did back in March but idc #there just isn’t enough of these guys I want them to f*ck on roof tops and fire escapes #and ride motorcycles obnoxiously out in public and beat people up in the most sadistic way possible #I want them to drink on Aprils couch together #I want them to offload their mental health issues to eachother in supportive healthy ways #I want them to do it in unhealthy ways where Casey shouts at ralh for making him think he was bedridden for 2 years #I want the #to talk about boring adult things and rediscover silly things they did as teens #idk i hate how aprils main role in the film is trying tk change whk casey is thats not a healthy relationship dont romanticise it

[wildtornado-o]

I THINK. they should get to have a sleepover at some point. It would be so cute...

Ko-fi Link!

Text under the cut:

[Text:

Marinette - You've really never had your nails painted?

Félix - Never seemed like something i would enjoy (Didnt have friends)

Kagami - Mother never allowed it.

Next panel:

Marinette - Project sleepover is a go!!]

#Marinette and her entourage of weird sheltered rich kids <3 #Wishing and begging on my knees for content of these 4 in season six #and also just more Felix and Kagami hanging out with the rest of the friend group pretty pleaseeee #this is intended as platonic for both felinette and adrigami not romantic :p #my art #miraculous ladybug #does adrien having the rings count as spoilers #hmmm #jic #ml recreation #ml recreation spoilers #miraculous adventures of ladybug and chat noir #Felix is blushing a lot bcs hes not used to other ppl being affectionate to him btw #Marinette Dupain Cheng #Adrien Agreste #i think he should become sancoeur or graham de vanily until marinette marries him btw #Felix Graham de Vanily #not tagging his other name i refuse #Kagami Tsurugi #sorry this has sooo many tags i just have so many thoughts in my brain #please disregard Kagamis weird arm idk why it looks like tjay #that

[marciabrady]

also, needless to say but all of ariel's poses are taken directly from her original film in ralph breaks the internet

there's the obvious ones like the parallels below

but literally every single pose in the below scene is an exact walkthrough of ariel caps from the first movie

#mine #marciabrady #for them bringing mark back we could've gotten NEW iconic poses #or new 2d animation as a bonus #anything #the mcdonalds commercial animation was better than some of the stuff we got in the movie #so i feel like we should still be getting more ariel content #i honestly hate people and jokes and tiktoks that just rely on references #like yes we already saw ariel brush her hair with a fork #come up with something new! who wants a second rate version of the same thing 100 times when we already go it in the movie lol #i just want us to get more creative #like i love that we got more ariel but i wish we would've gotten more new ariel #we can ust rewatch the movie any day #how often do we get *new* content of hers

[jacksprostate]

sorry this is once again my monthly 'i'm in love with people and our capacity for compassion even in the face of deep deep cruelty, even though i've seen worse and worse things, come to terms with so much, it's my love of humanity that has let me avoid rotting, encouraged me to grow and chase my own place in helping everyone around me" post

#im really excited for the job im starting. still about a month or so out but heading towards a career change sort of that im really excited #for. im just... i actually used to be very cynical and i struggled to see the point through all the terrible things in the world #but for many reasons #even as i discovered worse and worse things #ive developed... resiliency i never thought id have #born out of this appreciation for those and the world around me #and i wish i could share it. i see so many people in my old shoes #im still growing. so much to do #but im at a level of contentment.. idk. i couldntve dreamed of #and it took effort #it is not /easy/ to face things and believe in good regardless #but. its rewarding. i wish it for all of you #on a similar but different note ive been reaching a point of being more myself in social situations rather than just a chameleon #and ive been lucky enough to have the people around me the past two years or so be very supportive in a way that has truly let me grow and #become a better version of myself #and its sort of been this positive feedback loop. because the more confident and passionate you are the more people are delighted by your #eccentricies #i used to be so beat down #i still struggle so much #but. im at a place i never thought id be #no doubt there will be struggles in the future #hell its not like things are perfect now #still so much. major things to improve on #but idk. i am happy #and its a very full sense of happiness. #full and aware and strong #thats what i wish for all of you :)

[lastdivantruther]

impostor syndrome

#it's a wip guys #I'll find a better phrase i promise #tanizaki naomi #tanizaki junichirou #bsd fanart #bsd #my art #bsd naomi #armed detective agency #bsd tanizaki #my headcanon is that junichirou is the fake sibling and naomi is the ability user #naomi is aware of it #but she's been lying for so long that she started to believe him herself #junichirou is not aware of it #everyone in the agency knows except atsushi #dazai never touches her #naomi doesn't know they know #sometimes junichirou acts so human that it scares her #tanizaki siblings my beloved #i was obsessed with them when i was in high school <3 #especially naomi #that girl has the potential to be the most fucked up human being ever #she's just #doesn't choose to #she's highly intelligent but content where she is #i'm pretty sure she observes and learns a lot from other ada members #she just doesn't need/want to use her knowledge as herself #DO YOU SEE MY VISION #i wish she had more screen time even if she doesn't have an ability #as dazai or kunikida's apprentice

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

”I don’t want to give Jehovah’s organization a black eye so I have to suffer in silence. Oh the pain! The pain!”

Mhm. Have you ever considered that Jehovah’s organization has given you not one, but two proverbial black eyes, broken ribs, and a concussion over the years; and maybe you should expose them for the abusers they are, if only enough to get yourself help to heal from the abuse you’ve experienced? You’ve got Stockholm syndrome bad, and you’re making it everyone else’s problem. You cared about your abusers so much that you abused me in their name, just because I wanted no part of their organization. Even if I didn’t seek out apostate resources, I wouldn’t have needed them to make my decision to leave because of how much you vented about them to me since I was about five years old. Did you just expect me to stay here and take the abuse like you did? I’m better than that; I’m better than you.

#exjw #ex cult #I woke up and he was venting about it to my mom very loudly so I just went “fuck that” #I could’ve went somewhere in the house to eat but I specifically chose the 20 degrees F screen room so that both of them know #I’d rather freeze than hear one more second of his venting knowing that he is still refusing to get help #Mom wants to watch the convention? Glorious. I’m not leaving my room until he’s done talking. I will not be her deus ex machina #I will not be her excuse to end the conversation so she can watch the convention with me #She can sit there and listen to it; and maybe she’ll grow some reasoning ability and realize #the religion she so piously subscribes herself to is splitting us apart and killing her husband #and maybe she’ll begin to take his triggers seriously and not make passive-aggressive remarks about how she wants to listen #to all the comments and not mute it when an elder who sexually harassed him begins speaking #and maybe my dad will grow some common sense and realize that continuing to go to meetings will ensure he is in a state of trauma #for all eternity #and maybe — just maybe — they will realize that everything they read in my diaries was right #and that they were absolutely positively 100% in the wrong for screaming at me about their contents #and apologize for what they’ve done to each other and to me #But that’s wishful thinking because [first name] “I’m more stubborn than you” [last name] will hold out until it kills him #and my mom is ex-Catholic and convinced the JWs are entirely truthful just because she prefers the possibility of death over hellfire #You can’t make this shit up #I live in a madhouse with crazy people

[cosmic-d1ce]

does anyone else ever come to find out how phil sees himself as sub-human (how does it affect them or any guilt they'd have for abandoning him) ? or is it a silent thing that's always on phils mind that he keeps bottled up and everyone just unknowingly has to work around it durring his recovery - 💿

Nobody notices

Its always been a part of Phil, so there's no change to notice

Phil realises. Phil realises that constantly being compared to or flat out called an animal hurts him, but nobody else does

And he never corrects them

Its such a casual thing, a well known community joke that Phil "isnt human" he's either leagues above everyone else or way below

Even if Phil did try to correct them, tell anyone that their jokes make him feel less human, they'd laugh. Because of course you dont feel human phil, youre not, are you?

Going back to normal includes the casual dehumanization, even though Phil realises how bad it is

sometimes its triggering but nobody can work out what did it and phil wont say so the problem never gets fixed

#Also also its a thing for the readers to notice more than the characters #Its never an issue that matters for them #Not until the very end when Phil goes “i really do not like being called a dog i wish theyd stop that” #But other than that its never noticed #Its been Phils whole life #Its just so normal for them #Qsmp #qsmp philza #forever my love au #qsmp #philza #He only realises it upsets him bc Quackity used it against him for so long #If that didnt happen phil would be content to be called an animal #Its always bothered him but he got used to it yl #Also also its kinda kinda a reference to how a lot of autistic people relate more to non human characters #And q!phil is autistic (hc)

[skitskatdacat63]

I have to write a relatively long German paper, and man its just so difficult for me. The pro side is that I can pick any topic I want, so of course I picked Charles VI. But I've literally not written any German in months, and I'm almost 100% sure our prof doesn't actually read them. I should just write and submit boy king fic....

#i wish it was in English #bcs i would be very happy about it #but i have lost so much capacity for any German writing #bcs he sucks so much as a prof and has dropped the ball on actual language learning imo #how am i supposed to suddenly write a 7-8 pg paper after youve spent all our class time just lecturing at us #and giving us no real opportunity to really learn or test our skills #i shall.. probably just cheat. #LIKE i want to learn german so badly #but what the fuck is the point of even trying when i know im not going to get actual feedback on my writing #why should i even try at that point. put that much effort in and know that he doesnt really care at all #it just sucks so much bcs i genuinely love and am so fascinated w the topic #but the idea that id put so much work into translating it only for him not to read it really kills me #again. just submit boy king fic and see if he notices sjfkgllblb #but do you know what i mean? like im sure ill write a good version in english that i think is actual good content #but translating it is such a lost cause bcs all the effort is reallt for nothing #like atp im jusy interested in the history more than making an effort w the language #ugh i wish i wasnt this way but yknow lack of stimulation anf feedback really kills my enjoyment and interest #like see i can convince myself that thr eng version of teh paper is my typical personal research #<- i mean im making a fucking family tree for funsies so this isnt that far off #but the translation part is so difficult bcs my german has been eroding a bit SOB SOB #lol anyways i say this bcs i was plotting a boy king fic in my head as i was goong to bed #and was like oh i shoulf write it out tmr! and then remembered I HAVE AN ESSAY UGH #well yeah. suffering. we'll see how i feel abt i write the original copy and if i have the capacity to germanify it #i just feel so guilty about it. cheating. I dont want to and it feels so low effort and terrible #but why would i force myself thru all that for a guy who barely reads it #catie.rambling.txt

[timothylawrence]

Hope this isn't weird to say but I'm really glad you're enjoying a new game and fandom. You seem a lot happier and it's really nice to see! Hope your having a lot of fun!

this is very sweet thank you!!! I am having so much more fun and in general much happier but Ill always love my blands followers and mutuals were like this ->🤞❤️🥺 love y’all always

#asks #I used to be very scared of being annoying bcus fandom wasn’t very nice to me and I got in a lot of… uncomfy situations #but I’ve decided to throw that all out in favor of just being me 🤞😇 if ppl find me annoying or don’t want to stick around that’s okay too #I will say I’ve had a rough few months irl but aH things have turned around lately and I’m much more content in general #thank you anon!! very sweet ask and I hope you’re doing well too !! I wish you the same happiness and peace 😌❤️

[not-poignant]

7 & 8 for the writing asks!

7. Your favourite ao3 tag.

The Explicit categorisation or the Rape/Noncon warning, which is pretty dark now that I think of it. I don't generally search Additional Tags very often, but if I do, Hurt/Comfort is at the top of the list when it's not kinks.

8. How slow is a slow burn?

It depends on the author and their style. And it depends on the characters. But I've seen stories labelled a slow burn that are like 5k words long and I have to admit, that's not a slow burn to me.

There's also different kinds of slow burn. You can have early sex but a slow burn to love. You can have early sex but a slow burn to kink. I've read a few different kinds and I tend to enjoy them all.

But I have no fixed idea of how long or slow they should be. I'm not like a slow burn puritan or anything. People can use the tag and I can decide for myself if I think it is based on like...word length and the writing style. :D

~

From this meme!

#asks and answers #memey goodness #the thing about the rape/noncon warning is that #when i'm searching for PWPs that's more likely to give me what i want #but when i'm also searching for serious long hurt/comfort fics with serious trauma recovery #that's ALSO more likely to give me what i want #so it goes to the top of the list #my constant exclusions are: 'No Warnings Apply' and 'Major Character Death' #i wish less authors used Creators Choose when they just mean rape/dubcon and are copping out with vagaries #like i get it suits some fics better than others #and ultimately it's up to them what they do #i'm just not reading their fics #because Creators Choose can hide #unexpected MCD #and if they're not saying that there's no MCD in their tags #it's not like i *know* why they're choosing not to be upfront about the content #administrator gwyn wants this in the queue