#keeps the mind at ease

[good-beanswrites]

Haruka clenched his fists. “Y-you would be surprised if you woke up and -- and -- and your cell was full of ice cream!

I was just thinking of this line from your last Mikoto drabble and wondered… Can you make this happen?

I certainly can >:3 I tried for a while to frame this as straight-up comedy, but it actually worked so much better as something sweet, with silly lines here and there :) Thank you so much for the request, it was so fun!! (Also, I wrote John using Mikoto's name for ease, but in my mind he's switching between first person pronouns.)

There was someone unexpected in cell 009. 

No, no, it’s not like that. Everyone was very aware that there were two distinct residents of that cell. John himself was very aware of his position in that cell. 

The thing was, someone else ended up in there, too. 

John kept his eyes shut, feigning sleep. The other person was here on a mission. They’d slipped in without creaking the metal door. Their footsteps were nearly inaudible against the floor. He would have thought it was Kotoko, with skills like that, but she would have leapt to an attack. This person was busy doing… something. 

He strained his ears. It was impossible to tell their goal. They were going in and out, moving things around. Was it a trap? There weren’t enough materials in the prison to set a trap. Were they stealing things from around the room? He had nothing of value. Plus, he was sure Mikoto would have given anything to anyone who asked. What, then?

Unable to come to any conclusion, he readied himself. He’d protect himself. He always did.

In one fluid motion, he rolled out of the bed and pinned the other to the ground. The perpetrator let out a high-pitched squeak. Impossibly wide and frightened eyes looked up at him.

“Haruka…?” That was the last person he was expecting. John squinted around the room. “What the --”

Ice cream. He didn’t know what it meant, but that’s what Haruka had been arranging. Dishes and dishes of ice cream. Everywhere. Plates stacked on the desk. Bowls strewn across the floor. All  vanilla. There was a scattering of toppings; some with colorful sprinkles and others dripping with chocolate sauce. When he’d tackled the poor boy, he sent another dish of it clattering across the ground.

“I’m sorry! Ah, I-I, ah, I’m sorry!” Haruka squeezed his eyes shut. “It-it’s a, it was a surprise, for you! For M-m-mikoto…!”

“A surprise?”

“The other d-day he said, we were, we were talking ab-bout --”

“He asked for this?”

“Uh, no, but --”

“He didn’t know about it?” John’s eyes narrowed. “It’s some kinda prank?”

“NO! No, n-no I’m not being m-mean. It was f-fun. A fun surprise.” Haruka held his palms up, unable to make his smile anything but panicked. “...Surprise!”

John stared.

Despite how nonsensical the whole situation was, there didn’t seem to be any danger. He rose. Haruka scrambled to his feet. 

John gestured to the extensive supply of sweets around them. “How did you get all this together, anyway?”

“O-oh!” Haruka wrung his hands. “I was, uh, planning it for a while. I requested ice cream three times in a row. And I n-never ate mine for dessert. I’ve been saving it. Es asked why, b-but they still let me keep it.”

“And why did you? Why do all this for Mikoto?”

“I t-told you, it was sup-supposed to be fun...”

John braced himself against the desk. He was just wondering how long it would take to take care of this mess. He mused, “it’s all going to melt.” 

He might as well have thrown a punch, the way Haruka’s expression shifted. “I’m sorry! I’m -- I… I didn’t think of that…”

“Eh? You don’t need to apologize or anything. It’s fine.” 

They fell into silence. Haruka shifted on his feet. 

“Y-you… can have it, if you want. The ice cream. I didn’t let anyone else have it but-but, you can, I think. ”

“I don’t want the ice cream.” He wanted to be left alone. He wanted the cell clean so Mikoto didn't stress out about cleaning it. He wanted to avoid being bothered by bizarre ‘surprises’ first thing in the morning.

His stomach disagreed, apparently. It let out a loud grumble. Both prisoners looked over. 

He muttered a curse. With a huff, he picked up one of the bowls. 

“Alright. But even if I did eat this, or Mikoto did, there’s no way I could finish it all.” He shoved it into Haruka’s hands. “You made this mess, you’re gonna help me deal with it.”

The boy nodded frantically. 

“Come on, you can sit here. Pass me that one, with the syrup. And hurry it up.”

#milgram #mikoto kayano #john milgram #haruka sakurai #(they hardly make a dent in it) #john makes sure haruka doesnt get a stomachache but now hes left with a cell full of dessert ;--; #maybe hed enlist the others to help... #john doesnt quite Get It - he still thinks somethings suspicious #hes never done anything just for the fun of it before #but haruka is so genuine he eases up after a bit #and ends up enjoying the ice cream at least :3 #i dont think i mentioned which trial it was for the first drabble but this is definitely after john has started appearing #mikoto himself may not be ready to accept john but in my mind every other prisoner is very familiar with him #though they dont necessarily Expect him a lot of the time #es is dealing with so much t2 shit they dont really care if haruka keeps an elaborate stash of ice cream in the milgram smart fridge... #thank you so much for the request haha! this was a ton of fun :D #theyd have interesting interactions... i kept this one simple and sweet but theres a lot going on there.... #drabbles

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

there's something so soothing about holding a weapon when you're Nervous. me and this solid metal fire poker have bonded for life

#the front proximity light keeps going off #and when you live in an area where there are no street lights - its Pitch Fucking Black outside - its freaky!!! #i know its probably a large bug or a nocturnal bird or a bat #since it just went off again and i went to check and there was nothing #BUT ITS STILL FREAKY #idk if this sensors wonky or if theres something flying or if we got ghosts but i dont like it!!! #i dont appreciate it!! #absolutely unprompted #oh heavy blunt damage weapon in my grasp... ease mine addled mind.... #i think im gonna re-set up in my bedroom #blissful ignorance! #my brain keeps conjuring scary images and intrusive thoughts... #begone demons!!! away with ye!!

[sovonight]

;

#still thinking abt that scene in the underdark where xan is (force) propositioned by that drow lady #and while his first response is shock/apprehension ('*me*??') #radri loses regulation over the volume of her voice going 'what?! no!!' louder than anyone's ever really heard her before #when challenged though she can't come up with a drow-valid reason why hunrae *can't* just take xan #(yes i just now remembered her name lmao) #the thoughts 'bc consent??' 'he'd hate that' '*he's mine he promised*' keep getting translated into an ineffective verbal 'you just cant' #so xan saves himself and falls into a worse mood after it and radri falls into an equally poor mood at how she couldnt do anything/she can #never really do anything can she #oh but there's a kind of equivalent/reversal moment when radri's offered a 'night with one of with phaere's males' as a reward #and xan is just silently panicking/trying to reassure himself with 'she wouldn't' 'she'd hate that' 'she loves me... right?' #radri honestly has an easier time with the excuse this time bc she's not feeling as much panic/pressure as earlier #but the excuse that comes out is along the lines of 'uh monogamy is custom in my city and i already have a male--' #'NO no not one of these guys in my party!! (don't look too closely at them!)' #'i prefer not to travel with him! to make the reunions sweeter...??' #xan's mind catches on 'i prefer not to travel with him' and he gets in a bitter mood bc that might as well be true-- #bc really what use is he when he can't even do anything to help/save/protect her despite being right by her side #the underdark has them both on an internal monologue of 'i hate this' but while xan's is mainly towards their surroundings #radri's is almost entirely inward & so isnt eased the moment they reach the surface like xan's is

[extra-somethin-somethin]

hey so do you think wtv keiko had to deal with growing up with yusuke could be considered a type of parentification

#god chapters where barely anything happens except a character's realization about things can be hard ... #im writing another keiko pov chapter and it's hard because well!! #keiko was never really a main focus in the series and as time goes on she gets even less of a focus so i have to fill in these spots #in her personality and views that aren't really explored. im taking a lot of liberties lets say #and idek if it's gonna read as in character cos of that #anyway im tryna say that like. pre series keiko was basically this presence in yusuke's life and he saw her as a pain but he cared #she was there to scold him and cajole him into going to his classes and she was his only friend #now we know atsuko was negligent and idk how involved the yukimuras were in his life but i feel like keiko #whether directly or indirectly was given this duty like you have to keep him outta trouble #you're smart you're mature he needs someone like you. this responsibility just kind of put on her before she can understand the weight of i #and she can't really comprehend that weight until it's abruptly taken from her. yusuke dies and there's no one to shepherd #i feel like keiko should get to be mad about this. this realization of the nature of their dynamic. keiko planning things around yusuke #who's never done that in his life. not because he's purposely being thoughtless but bc he was never the one to have to plan #to think about what their future looks like. he just kinda drifted along and keiko tried to do damage control. it wasn't fair #yusuke is keeping secrets from her she is scared of high school and that he'll die again without her knowing why and it's unfair #so she should get to be mad also because girls getting to be mad is one of my favorite things 👍🏼 #the realization that yusuke won't be lost without her so she shouldn't hinge her life on the expectation that he will be #she worries about yusuke a lot i think. especially after he comes back from the dead. and i think kuwa's presence would help ease that #dread in her heart. it doesn't have to be just me. there's someone who can be there with him always and it doesn't have to be me #the guilty relief of not having to be the sacrifice. but kuwa doesn't mind so maybe it's okay this way #idk just rambles about my fic while i puzzle out how to word it #character analysis #yukimura keiko #yu yu hakusho

[south-sea]

i’ve had this fitness tracker for all of ten minutes and it’s already telling me my stress level is basically maxed, which tbh is a pretty good summary of me in general

#if you’ve been wondering where i’ve been the answer is ‘lucky to not be in the hospital’ #i had to buy this thing specifically because my heart’s getting weird again and i need a solid baseline #but it’s also given me a bit of peace of mind so i feel like i can finally ease back into normalcy #which means art hopefully soon because i have Ideas #i have time off work i’ve just been busy with other record keeping stuff #sea talks #life update #not something i intend to make a habit of but i've been uncharacteristically absent for so long so uh #there you go i suppose

[thesupernaturalhouse]

Somebody needs to explain why I'm feeling the sudden urge to have Joey be younger then all of them, at like idk 16, and for Shelby to be the ONLY one who knows

Like, so in my timeline(for now), empires took place over about a year(17 months with the prequel I'm doing) so that'd make Shelby like uh, 33? In the witchcraft smp book?? It's a 4 year time skip instead of the canon 10 years

So, Owen 17, false and oli would be like, 16 when WC takes place, Emerald 5, nightlight(yes I changed the dragons name) 4, Thorn 4

Why am I ranting about that? I dont- I don't know- also im just now re a lying how many kids I'm planning on giving to shelby and i- it's like 6 and I am very tempted to give her Joey as the 7th because he was abandoned and Shekby just casually picks uo stray children she finds

She found the twins in the forest, Nightlight on Olis back, Owen she gave consciousness too, Emerald was found in the swamp and she was pregnant with Thorn-

Like the universe, me, looked at this elytrin/witch and went "lol, your gonna have parental powers. Go find you children whoa re stuck in a fucking tree and hiding in a bush lol good like with the 4 that follow soon after lol"

But they all have some type of trauma related to be abandoned, you understand me right!? And so does WC!Joey-- I have to finish watching his pov and wtahc the others(aside from shelbys) btw- motherfucker was thrown out of the only home he'd ever known-

Shelby just sensing that, evaluating it, realizing he's 16, and slapping adoption papers infornt of him like "You're my child now, sigh here please :)" is hilarious to me and I- well fuck now I wanna do it- should i??

Joey going to roast Pris only to realize his mom shelby also uses water and losing all his will to fight her in shame-

And Empires Joey and Katherine chilling, watching the kids like "....Katherine you wife has adopted another child. I can sense it." "Oh that's nice"

.....imma called witchcraft Scott Scotch and witchcraft Joey JJ because.....those are gonna be shelbys nicknames for them-

Shekby also adopts Scotch but more in that odler sister way, unlike JJ who she's like the mom to now

#empires season 2 #katherine elizabeth #mama witch au #empires shelby #katherine #witchcraft shelby #witchcraft smp #witchcract au #witchcraft joey #She drags them both out if their houses to eat #Not that Scotch has too #He does anyway to ease her mind #Shelby gives him a little deer stuffed animal via his mailbox #He keeps it under his hat #JJ gets a parrot #he sleeps with it at night #fuck i made them soft

[mooodyblue]

i swear whenever i start getting in the mood to write my life goes to Shambles or i actually become busy ..... anyway. dealing w family stuff, i wanna write to #cope but my brain is nawt working so ..... i don't know why im typing this out. maybe it's a vent. is it ? i don't know. i'm overwhelmed with everything and my brain hurts 🥴🥴

#still gonna answer asks tho #my blog is just on slow mode #i had such a bad break down last night like everything is baaddddddddddd and i am stressed out !!!!!!!! #ahaiwdhsksbsoanzhsosbkssbaosnsbjsjaiaosbzsj #i've been getting back into reading jerry's book to help ease my mind off things but i keep having to stop #ugh

[youraveragecatastrophe]

We’ve talked in the past about Julia’s red shirt (in her season 1/season 4 outfit) showing her sympathy towards Carmen. What about other parts of her outfits?

First, to contrast with the red shirt peeking through her dark pantsuit, we have Julia’s ACME suit.

[ID : two cropped screenshots from the 2019 show Carmen Sandiego. The first one shows Julia Argent on the train in India, in her dark suit with red shirt outfit. The second one shows Julia in Rio de Janeiro, in her ACME suit. End ID]

The ACME suits, being uniforms, are all the same (the biggest difference being skirts for the women vs pants for the men), the same way the agents are asked for uniformity, conformity and following orders.

The suits have no color apart from a navy so dark it’s close to black - in fact, depending on the lighting they look almost black and white. Quite like their way of thinking.

[ID : a screenshot from the 2019 show Carmen Sandiego. Agent Zari and Random White Agent stand on either side of a door. They are in the shadows and their uniforms look dark and desaturated. End ID]

As I noted on a previous post, at the same time Julia receives her suit and as such lets go of her red shirt, she is asked to renounce her feelings that Carmen is innocent. Season 2, where she almost exclusively wears the ACME uniform, is the one where Julia briefly doubts Carmen and struggles to reconcile following her superior’s orders with her convictions. Ultimately, when she does not manage it, she resigns (season 3) and as such goes back to her red shirt outfit. It is in that outfit that she teams up with Carmen in a substantial way in season 4.

Other agents (and, notably, agent Zari, the most featured ACME agent apart from Julia and Chase) tend to wear black gloves. In line with their behavior, this suggests keeping a distance with their environment, refusing to feel things too deeply. Julia doesn’t wear gloves, however, not even in Stockholm where the weather would definitely justify it. Despite Chief's insistance, Julia keeps paying attention to her feelings.

Then, Julia’s glasses. Her glasses in seasons 2-3 are ACME regulation eyewear : once again, they’re part of the uniform, so the same model as the other ACME agents. Big, bulky, they’re almost rectangle in shape, all sharp angles : this suggests rigidity and an absence of flexibility in ACME’s mentality. Also note the dark lenses : they symbolically obscure the vision.

[ID : a screenshot from the 2019 show Carmen Sandiego. In Indonesia, Zari and Random White Agent stand against the sky. Their glasses' lenses are noticeably very dark. End ID]

And what about Julia’s original glasses, the ones she wears before joining ACME and those she returns to as she leaves ? They are the exact opposite of the ACME glasses : round and clear, what you need to look at the world as it is.

[ID : a cropped screenshot from the 2019 show Carmen Sandiego. In San Francisco, Julia wears her red shirt outfit with her round glasses. End ID]

#carmen sandiego 2019 #julia argent #if you think i'm reading too much into this. yeah. i'm me. reading too far into tiny details is what i do #(though tbh i keep going from 'this is reaching right?' to 'this is so obvious i'm breaking down an open door' so...) #and let me tell you i'm having the time of my life #you wouldn't imagine the glee i felt thinking about this #mentally i'm lying oin my bed giggling and kicking my feet as i type this #that post wasn't lying. the most fun a girl can have is analyzing making connections seeing patterns etc #anyway with all that (see: post) in mind if i had been in charge of the show i would a. have put julia in a uniform with pants #oh my god that skirt is the ugliest thing i've seen in my life. #also i want julia to be butcher #b. maybe more importantly i would have made julia wear her uniform sliiiightly wrong #like sometimes her tie isn't well fastened. or her vest is partially unbuttoned #or like that moment in rio where she says she still believes in carmen's innocence and her glasses are low and she has to recenter them #(they sort of have that with the gloves but she's not the only agent not to wear them so it doesn't really go all the way) #idk. like she tries to fit it tries to just put her head down and work tries to get into that mold acme wants her to be in #and she's. not terrible at it. she's used to being discrete and working well #with only a quick look you think she's perfectly in line with the other agents. a closer look however tells you otherwise #and shows you how she's not quite at ease with what's asked of her and it makes her miserable #which leads to her leaving acme later #do you see my vision

[dutybcrne]

Me BSing hcs like: The fact that Kae is not only able to create a shield when he is dangerously low HP but also the fact that he is able to regenerate HP when he hits opponents with Frostgnaw is definitely due to him receiving his Vision when Diluc had tried to kill him in their Confrontation...but could it be possible that his familial ties to the Abyss Order could have influenced that HP drain of his-

#//And that's without mentioning the fact that Glacial Waltz's duration increases FOR EVERY OPPONENT DEFEATED #//Between that and his lil teleporting trick like an Abyss mage's (minus the flurries of ice); I have SO many thinkings #//Deffo love the abilities of his being an amalgam of Vision based and Abyssal energy imbued #//Deffo love that fact meaning it hurts a bit to use his Vision at all; esp with the teleporting being such a Staple to his combat style #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Sidetracking a bit; but I also like to think that even after the Abyss is defeated/beaten back enough to not be such a threat; he'd still #keep his abilities from it/some connection to it. Bc he's so used to it being such a big PART of his fighting style/assets to use in a pinc #//But also bc keeping that connection means it'd help him keep track of any remnants of the Order far easier #//He could track them down with far more ease; sense if they are growing stronger; get intel from Domains/abyssal traces #//Of course being very mindful to keep it a secret & trying to not involve his loved ones/fellow knights of it all #//But he very much is careful esp bc of risks of him being corrupted by it; keeping a keen eye on his mental/physical/emotional states #//Deffo has plans to leave Mond and/or end his own life if he starts seeing the Abyssal corruption affecting him irreversibly #suicide mention tw #//Kind of but also kind of not; considering some of the ways how he'd go abt it #//Knows it'd be harder to the further it goes; so he has particular criteria he keeps tracks of to ensure if they come to pass #//he; in a clearer state of mind; would either 1) use his Vision to try & purge the energy out of himself (extremely painful; COULD kill #if the corruption runs deep enough & save him the trouble) or 2) use the aggressiveness of the corruption to provoke someone (esp Luc) #into taking care of him &thus ending the problem all together. Bc he KNOWS he's strong; only a handful of beings could actually kill him #//& actually be WILLING to; without hesitation. Luc comes to mind first bc of their Confrontation. But also bc Kae'd be happy w him being #the last person he ever sees. Thinks it'd be comforting more than anyone else. Esp since a lover would just break his heart to see them #//Worst case scenario is him falling to the corruption & sb breaking it out of him in the moment #//Bc the Instant he realizes what's happening; esp if they are crying and/or angered at him; he WILL fatally wound himself #//And make SURE it's not something he can come back from; save by a miracle (or 'curse' as he'd see it) #//Probably making an icicle and slitting his own throat; if not jamming the thing into his heart #//he won't hesitate; wont offer explanations; final words or apologies; he cant risk that moment of clarity being too short for it #//he HAS to make sure he can't hurt anyone any further; no matter what it means for him #//Which is partly why he'd be so keen to make sure it's not found out; bc he KNOWS he can be talked out of keeping those abilities #//Or worse; he'd fight them on it; and thus make for a fucken MESS in the aftermath if he's been too far along in the corruption #//But he KNOWS that even with the risks; the powers are a VALUABLE asset to him; &thus desperately wants to keep them #//'sidetracking a bit'; I said. Proceed to write a wHOLE FUCKEN NEW HC IN TAGS; I did; kjfbgkftg. Whoops lmao

[narwhalandchill]

got requested to share my xueyi build so!!! here it is :]

(+ EU server crew - shes on my supports rn if u wanna add me to try her out alongside e1 RM and e0s1 blade)

anyway some notes:

a bit of xueyi 101 to start out jic - the atk orb and break rope are the standard for her; her break effect to dmg% conversion A2 trace makes quantum dmg a joke whereas her sources of atk are very limited. build-wise as this freaky puppetcore weirdgirl crit/break hybrid she wants it all rly; both crit, BE and atk, but prioritizing crit until some sort of 1:2 (guides tend to put 60/120 as the baseline) is key.

S5 aeon is perfectly fine and its what i used to have on her, i pulled indelible promise in order to end the custody battle over aeon between her and DHIL lmao (+ new gacha 4* LCs in hsr are like new 4* charas luckily - indelible promise after its initial release patch in 2.0 is now a permanent offrate on all banners except for beginner, phew). the crit on it is especially nice, rly hope i get spooked with some superimpositions in the future.

she shouldnt be on glamoth anymore really - this showcase is with her on spd boots (as you can see. duh) and she does reach the 135 spd for the 1st glamoth buff requirement when with RM (which is every time i play her) so its fine, but as i swap to atk boots when with sparkle im sure you can see why it would be... suboptimal. problem is. well. look at her rope. still havent managed to roll a comparable salsotto one so 💀 we live with this.

her relics are still a bit scuffed (chest and both her atk and spd boots are. fine. but could be better) but since i often have fx and sparkle patching up her crit its fine for now.

also yes i shouldve unlocked those last few quantum dmg and BE traces ages ago but its not rly that impactful when her dmg% is already as high as it is with the amount of BE i have on her so oh well x)

obviously given her dependence on break xueyis far from an universal dps - i only use her in heavily quantum weak fights (or in SU where u can get blessings to spam her ult for the weakness ignoring attack) but when she gets to shine she shreds So hard i love her sm 🥰🥰

+ heres the atk boots build ig. not that much changing as you can see but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#also i should Really mention slash warn how like. xueyi is Easily the most difficult dps to pilot to date lmao like its not even close #being the weird freaky crit/break hybrid she is she uses both break and crit as the sources of her dmg and NEEDS both to work out #xueyi p much uses the weakness bar of the ENEMY as a limited 'resource' to do her dmg the same way someone like DHIL gobbles up all ur SP #& gameplay needs to be navigated very carefully to get the most out of her bc she will NOT be giving u a nice time otherwise JKWJDDJKDWJKWD #xueyi requiring actual thinking is sth i personally love since it makes her feel so much more dynamic and interactive than most carries #but its def sth where ur mileage will vary 💀💀 like.for example. allies stealing even ONE big break from her will massively nerf her output #anyway i wouldnt call her completely eidolon dependent but i also will say that having her e6 p much the entire time ive had her built #will mean ive had a much smoother experience overall w her; e2 e4 and e6 are all meaningful and significant boosts so do keep it in mind #ive seen some insane e0 to e2 showcases as well so its clear that a well piloted xueyi doesnt Need the reduced max karma stacks from e6 #but the QoL and ease of use from having 6 karma to work towards as opposed to 8 is undeniably massive #aaanyway thats all im p sure but . feel free to ask more abt her im not the local xueyi tryhard enthusiast here for no reason x) #hsr #gaming tag

[gnarlystarships]

:(

#I'm feeling so freaked out by this essay #I thought I would be able to do it pretty easy #but I just saw that they want us to use a minimum of 20 sources! #I have 8 and thats already almost more than I can manage #where the fuck am I supposed to get all these other articles and what do i do with them #i hate this class #i hate being in school #i wish i was rich #i dont know how im going to do this but i have to do it somehow 😭 #if i could just fucking focus and do it it would be done #but every little bump feels like. impossible #i hate this class x2 #i keep wanting to do something else to ease the panic and pressure in my mind but i HAVE to do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh #ograt

[taupewolfy]

actually jokes aside i appreciate that from octo, side order seems to have removed a bit more 'randommess' that can come from the carry over stuff (8 balls don't fall off this time - if you get bumped off of the map pearl drone will carry you back onto it) because failing a rouglelike to elements like that would fucking suck

#making it so you can't fall off an die. well marina did see eight do that a lot in octo huh #jfc octo really had us used to jumping off the edge to avoid being exploded because we failed the level aaaough #also keeping it a shorter length and such too due to higher replayability was the right choice in my mind #it also works out well narratively too...octo was hard like that for good reason #i guess also you have things like splat3 story mode taking more queues from ocot level design but easing it up. which i enjoyed. #except for shoot boxes on rails levels. just throw me into the ocean instead #and i didn't want side order to repeat. i wanted something fresh with how the levels are (and i got it!) #also shows what the team learned from that dlc too i think. perhaps why it is a bit easier hahahaahha

[littleapocalypsekitten]

In defence of silly matters...

So, I've been on the tumbles too much today and have had to get off of it after a while when it was making my head hurt... So, I wasn't into the Super Bowl today. I'm not much of a sports person, but I didn't even bother watching it for the commercials. It was all "Meh, none of our teams are playing and I'm not so big into either Usher or Swift." And, of course, it's not like the commercials cannot be seen later online. Instead, I was all "Ooh, Cartoon Network is running reruns of Adventure Time and Futurama!" and I was reading fanfictions that people had put up for a fanfiction challenge in one of my fandoms that I am a part of. But browsing tumblr.... just outrage-post-after-outrage post over the ongoing Gaza genocide and lots of "why aren't more people outraged at this?" "How dare Americans be distracted by a football game when this is going on?!" and... it's just... *Sigh.* News of the latest series of atrocities... definitely enough to cause compassion-fatigue and I do not *want* to stop caring. I want to continue doing what I can (which is not much, mostly complaining to people online and in real life. I wrote my senator, but while he's progressive on most issues, he's identical to the fiercest Republican on this one and has been known to taunt pro-Palestinian protesters. You've probably already guessed who he is, haven't you? Basically a progressive-traitor). My rep's a Republican (despite my personal vote) and isn't gonna do shit. And this is really the boat most of us are in. And I'm at a place where I simply cannot be aghast and outraged all the time, or it will overload my system. So, yes, I am going to turn away from the news and from people telling me to be aware and outraged at all times to watch a damn cartoon. And this is why I defend people watching and enjoying the Super Bowl. Maybe it's trendy to be ANGRY! THAT! AMERICANS! ARE! ALL! ABOUT! SPORTSBALL! when the Horrors are happening, but I think that maybe enjoying the sportsball and the musicians is just a thing that many people need right now. They can't really do anything, so cheer on a team, beer and snacks. I learned last year, before all of this happened, on a very personal level just how important distraction is just to keep you from losing your mind or laying down and dying: I lost someone very close to me last year to an unexpected, sudden death. A lot of what kept me going? Trigun: Stampede (a reboot of an anime that was pretty much my entire life in the 2000s. I have a fanblog for it now, fandom renewed), and acquiring The Legend of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom and playing it every day for about two and one half solid MONTHS after I picked up my pre-order. I did these things while being heavily involved in memorial / funeral planning, a task I had never done before. My nephew's memory was a "more important" thing. Gathering his friends for a memorial service / party was a "more important" thing. Getting his last affairs in order was a "more important" thing. But enjoying a damn anime and a damn video game were also important. And so I don't condemn people for taking a frigging BREAK. We can always continue holding our leaders' feet to the fire and screaming out into the void about the utter injustice present in our world.... But we've also gotta self-care. (And yes, I get mad when I'm finding a boss-battle in a video game to be too hard. It doesn't mean I do not care about more serious matters in the world at the same time).

#super bowl 2024 #palestine #crisis overload #the need for distraction and ease #it is okay to have fun while the world is burning #fun keeps your mind sharp enough to grab a fire extinquisher #cw: grief #cw: death #cw: genocide

[nejiretai]

i feel like with leaks night coming up i wanna write here again

#ooc. #same on itadori’s blog #genshin consumes my time but like #i feel it…the jjk muse returning #i honestly need to keep my mind busy cus like #im so nervous for the leaks #but mmh…we shall ease #see* #if work isn’t too crazy tn perhaps i’ll type stuff up #imma be off the next 3 days soooooo #YEAH…

[flame-shadow]

one of my new year resolutions was to make 5 practical crochet things, and i've nearly accomplished that already! two headbands, a scarf, and a hippy bag (just completed last night). i also made that table runner, but it's decorative rather than practical, so it doesn't count here. it feels good to make things.

#rambling #it's been a bumpy road this year with my art and how i feel about it. im glad i picked up crochet to help bridge those times when i feel- #worse or have no energy/desire to draw. it keeps my hands busy and my mind engaged but i don't need to worry about creating from my brain. #just follow the pattern and enjoy the process. easy enough! #i go back and read through the nice things y'all said about my art when i asked btw. it means a lot to me and helps ease my brain a bit

[froggi-mushroom]

A (somewhat) Comprehensive List of Where and How I learn about Western Historical Costuming 

I have made it no secret that I am deeply interested in history and, particularly, historical costuming. And though I understand it is a very niche topic that not many people are interested in, I do want to provide a list of sources that I find helpful for learning and writing about western historical costuming. From websites and books to youtube videos and extant garments and portraiture, I aim for this to be a guide for everyone, regardless of their preferred method of learning 

Websites:

My main source for general overviews on historical costuming is fashionhistory, an excellent source for overall trends of a decade with a mixture of descriptions and visual references which I find incredibly useful 

For a much more comedic and entertaining but still informative source, I’d recommend frockflicks as they’re very entertaining, often cover movie and tv show costumes and are generally a good read whilst still being informative and educational, you can really tell they know what they’re talking about 

Youtube: 

Though not my preferred source when writing about historical costuming, the beginning of my interest in historical costuming was through being recommended certain youtube videos and youtubers. As such, I want to recommend a few youtube channels that are valuable for learning about historical costuming, particularly if you are beginning to, or for simple entertainment value

Karolina Żebrowska is my all-time favourite costume youtuber, her videos are an excellent mix of educational and comedic and it was her content which sparked my interest in historical costuming. I will always recommend her because her videos are just chef’s kiss, incredible 

Another very close second for me and someone else who also helped fuel my love for historical costuming is Bernadette Banner, she’s so eloquent and witty that her videos are so easy and enjoyable to watch for me, I highly recommend her 

Another of my favourite costume youtubers is priorattire who does videos about the process of dressing in historical costuming as well as some other goodies! I find her videos useful when writing about the process of dressing and undressing and as a visual aid 

Some other youtubers who I don’t regularly watch but are valuable nonetheless are Morgan Donner, Sewstine, Lady Rebecca Fashions, V. Birchwood, Samantha Bullat and many, many others I’m sure I’m forgetting

There are also a few channels that are more of a collective, usually in association with a museum or foundation such as English Heritage, CrowsEyeProductions and, of course, American Duchess

Books:

For writing specifically, I tend to reach for books more often than anything else, so here’s a few of my go-to books for writing about historical costuming 

The v&a’s 18th Century Fashion in Detail and 19th Century Fashion in Detail are excellent visual references for the more intricate details of fashion, with images from extant garments 

The Chronicle of Western Costuming by John Peacock is also an excellent visual reference with small descriptions which are quite useful and, if you’re specifically interested in English costuming, Nancy Bradfield’s Historical Costumes of England from the Eleventh to the Twentieth Century is also a good visual aid. On the topic of English costuming, Ian Mortimer’s ‘The Time Traveler’s Guide…’ series often contains descriptions on historical clothing which can be quite valuable and, if you’re like me and are into the very, very niche time period of 1660-1670 England, Liza Picard’s Restoration is so valuable for everyday life in London in the 1660s but also as a guide to clothing, with her detailed descriptions, it’s easily a go-to when writing about the restoration era 

Extant Garments:

I don’t have much here since I only really visit the same two sources, that being The V&A and The Met Museum though The Kyoto Costume Institute is also incredibly useful 

Those are all the sources I use regularly, as well as a range of ones that I don’t particularly but have used in the past, I hope this is valuable to at least someone and I fully encourage other people to share their own sources so that we can all learn something new about historical costuming

#not a reblog for once #froggi rambles #history #historical costuming #historical fashion #writing #one(1) mutual asked me for recommendations today and I'm making it everyone's problem #putting this under 'keep reading' for everyone's ease of mind #this'll probably change in a few months tbh but as of right now its good #i don't know if anyone's actually interested in this so #for future reference #so that it's at least of use to me