#maybe one day i'll talk about it in full

[fortyfive-forty]

anyways. andy roddick everybody

Transcription:

[A: As you're saying the devil's in the details and homosexuality is illegal, but we have openly gay players. Uh...[Daria] Kasatkina, came out last year, now, if she goes there and play[s], are we just telling her to take a week off of her sexuality? I mean how do we even...how do we protect our own players who are, you know their—their life choices are viewed as criminal, when they enter this place? It's like, how do we protect those mechanisms, and, can whatever is said now be trusted when it's actually in practice?]

#there's a lot more to be said about this and actually i think the whole section where they talk about this is pretty good overall #better at least than some of what i've seen from other folks #but this part in particular i was grateful that someone said out loud #andy roddick #wta tennis #the whole saudi issue is complicated to me for a lot of reasons #i don't want to get into it too much because i think it's such a long conversation #but i think there's a balance of awareness and nuance that very few people/players have been able to hit #anyways. #maybe one day i'll talk about it in full

[welcometogrouchland]

I am enjoying red hood: the hill, but it's kind of driving me crazy how after they did all that shit in Gotham War, they immediately tried to sweep it under the rug with joker: the man who stopped laughing (even tho the issue wasn't really resolved over there), and now giving Jason a series set in the past so it doesn't have to deal with the fallout...DC please...

#ramblings of a lunatic #dc comics #I heard someone say that the next installment of dc vs vampires is seemingly the last thing Matthew Rosenberg has lined up at DC #which is a shame bc after reading his red hood: gotham war tie-in issues i think he has a pretty decent handling on Jason #the complicated and oft times contradictory line he walks between what violence is necessary and what isn't #but his sympathetic elements and charm are still on display #sigh. i need to read task force z don't i #one day I'll read under the red hood in full to get a taste of full on villain!jason #if i stick w/ GA past the phsycial volume i own I'm bound to come across him again and see if ppl are being normal abt the mia thing #idk I think jason as a character has somewhat suffered due to the fact that his character development was very much connected- #-w the n52 reboot #which worked at the time but now that a lot of that continuity is being brought back #it's making ppl realise that we didn't get a true ''jason putting aside differences to try and work w/ the batfamily'' arc or moment #although I do remember him being anti-heroic in the final crisis tie-in?? with kyle and donna right???? #i honestly think jason just needs a bit of tlc and introspection and this new storybeat provides a cool outlet for that #(someone talk to me about my red hood idea/pitch pretty pleasseee) #and definitely some cleaning up of his continuity (maybe after some more universe altering events. sigh) #but instead of hopping right on that when they have the opportunity we're getting an (admittedly fun) flashback series #in which jason is more of a co-star than headliner #bwahhh

[tanukisurpreso]

should I post something I wrote about my ocs that only me and my best friend know about???

#tanuki talks #my oc's #but really #i'm really proud of what i wrote #i wanted to share it somewhere #is this just me asking a rethorical question on a post no one will pay attention to? yes #i might as well go for it but if someone decides they wanna read about #two disaster gays with communication problems and angst #tell me!!!!! #i promise you'll suffer but you'll also get your heart warm #or not #it makes much more sense in context but i really don't feel like posting the full thing here #maybe one day i'll go to ao3 #probably not #but i can dream #and ramble in the tags my god #ok i'm done

[heffrondriving]

soooo. that new big time rush album huh

#how we feeling today rushers (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ #also yes i've come back from the dead just to post abt this like. i owe this blog *this much* at least ykyk #anyway its like 3 in the morning here and ive just woken up after a vv long and exhausting day yesterday so this was a pleasant surprise :> #i haven't really listened to it in full yet bc idk adhd things but when the mood hits right y'all know i'll be VIBING #i never talked abt it but waves and can't get enough were great earworms so i'm excited to see how the rest of the songs will turn out #also hope everyone's doing well here on the btr side of tumblr hehe y'all been absolutely fed this year <3 #is this gonna be allen's 2k23 tumblr comeback??? nah prob not i'm too in love with the fooo conspiracy atm but hey maybe also who knows 👀 #(*heckler from the back of the audience* NO ONE CARES ABOUT U AND UR TRASH CONTENT IDIOT STFU FOREVER ACTUALLY!!!!!) #but yep. life has been fuck work has been a headache and so many unwanted tragic plot twists this year. but at least we got new btr lezzgo! #also happy pride month y'all!!! just saying this for absolutely no rhyme or reason related to this post at all wdym lmao ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯ #okay thats all promise i'll shush now and it's time for old grampa to disappear into the darkest recesses of the internet yet again hejdååå #btr #big time rush #another life #album #stop it forever #lmao i hardly remember my dumbass blog tags;;; it's for the best hdbfkgk

[bangcakes]

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#personal #whats literally so funny was that as soon as i saw him walk in the room last year i knew he was gonna be trouble for me #however i never knew itd be this kind n this deep JDJDNDJJDNDJDNDNDN #we are like........ way closer than i ever anticipated. im terrified that we wont have anything to talk about once school ends #i wanna say so much to him but i... theres so much school stress i just.... i dont wanna add anything extra on top for myself or for him... #hhhhhh god lmao. this time last year i hadnt even spoken to him n now im like..... in this Thing that is maybe mutual but maybe isnt #god....... this shit is so hard NFJFJJFJFJFJF #i only see him like 3 more times in the near future...... #then i gotta wait a bit.... but i dont want to 😭😭😭 #i wanna see him every week.... at least... but its probably gonna be on a month basis even IF THAT.... #god what if it all fizzles out............ #hhhhhhhhhh #im gonna try to keep it going. im just..... idk. im scared #i hope he tries to keep it going too..... #its just hard.... when its 2 ppl that like.... only talk when they need to...... try to keep in touch JFJDJDJDJDKKDKDKDK #the most we go now is a full day without talking...... like either i'll message or he will #usually its me.... but... im more talkative i guess ... IDK #all ik is that i Know hes not talking to anyone else at school LMAO #one of my friends was like.... ya dont bother putting him in a group chat .. he never answere #while im over here like.... LOL he messages me back always within minutes/seconds #and if hes offline... as soon as hes back online. #JXJXKKXKXKXKZ GOD. #n e way. see him today............ looking forward to it but also nervous 😳 #i'll be fine once i see him tho... its just the Anticipation #feel really comfortable around him LOL. never thought id say that #anyway

[wayward-wren]

Classic Who explores ideas, New Who explores morals

classic who is like 'i see this trend, lets explore what might happen if that trend continues and let the audience figure out what it's talking about and come to their own conclusions.'

new who is like 'this trend is BAD and i'm going to PREACH A SPEECH about why it's going to RUIN EVERYTHING' and it's so much more exhausting

#wren rambles #doctor who #this brought on by me watching orphan 55 #which had SUCH a fun concept #and then absolutely FACEPLANTED with the doctor moralizing at the end #like yes doctor who has ALWAYS explored topical and political issues #but never is there a definitive I Am Telling You This Is Right message #whereas now I just had to sit here and watch 13 preaching at me? #ughghg #explore the idea but don't shove it down my throat #classic who had an episode (Ice Warriors) exploring climate change as one aspect of the story #talking about how all the plants were removed and that messed with the atmosphere etc. #but that was just a SMALL PART of the whole episode and it was never outright condemned (it was made clear it was BAD and the root problems #but that was never the BIG ISSUE the Doctor Lectured His Companions about) (not that victoria or jamie could do anything lol) #plus this feeds into my issues with 13's run (which started during 12's somewhat but less so) #where the Doctor is painted as the Narratively Right one #where when she says something that's what the narrative wants you to BELIEVE #which coming from Two and Three's run is WILD #because Two is chaotic and murderous when he thinks he's right #and he's manipulative and deceptive at times #and Three is selfish and pouty and rude #and don't get me wrong Thirteen has her issues and I lvoe them #HOWEVER. she's pretty much always RIGHT she's the Word Of God when it comes to moral things #and this more than anything is my biggest issues with Modern Who #mostly 12 and 13's eras #so i hope we move out of that somewhat in the new era but i'm not super holding up hopes (especially after star beast) #maybe one day i'll write a proper full article about it but GOSH #i don't watch this show to be preached at. I watch it for a fun/tragic scifi romp and also to see interesting ideas explored #and reflect the climate of the world and how society influences media #explore the idea of climate change turning the world into a post apocalypse! that's such a fun idea and topical!

[spielzeugkaiser]

Flowers for you, I hope you’re feeling better these days!

Thank you, ahhhh, this is sooo sweet that you thought of me 🥺🥺 It means a lot! Also I love those flowers, they are so nice, and I'm just a sucker for everything pastel pink 💖 I had this in my askbox for quite a while, just looking at it and being-

THANK YOU STINA. That's so lovely!!

#spielzeugkaiser talks #to be completely honest - there is not much difference #my body is deteriorating #migraine is baddd #but so far I'm handling it! #I'm a bit worried because I'll be working full time again from next week on and that means drastically less time to rest #as long as I'm always one step ahead (organization wise) I'm still capable of acting and don't go into simple reaction mode #like doing prep now writing papers now getting stuff now done so I can pull them out of my desk in autum and winter when I need them #but I also need good grades and think about if I want to do a doctorate and study and publish and start to design a study #and decide on a topic and finish the things that are already running and go on congresses and juggle all three jobs without dropping one #and why is it all so expensiveee I'm a fool #but also do the MAIN job right #uff uff #also I really should do more sport to help with the migraines and the overall pain level #oh well #so far I'm doing good! stressed but I'm currently managing it #I would enjoy a break - I fought for it on all fronts and got one in October but maybe I can take three days off in August to go hiking #or something like that! that would be nice #sorry for the rant 😅 #I used this to organize my thoughts for a moment; now that it's written down it's better and out of the head! #my body is bad overall but my mood not - I do believe that I can do it :) It just won't be nice at times 😂😅🙈

[bumblingbabooshka]

Watching ‘The Cloud’ VOY and Harry Kim is so right about everything

#Harry was right about wanting to invite Janeway to sit down and he was right when he went '!? hey Tuvok - !! fuck you <3' #Every day I mourn us not having Harry Kim as a main focus of the show #He follows the rules he's an ideal Starfleet officer but also - ? He's not afraid to break them and question stuff and talk back #It's SO interesting to have Harry be the one to say 'Maybe we should invite the captain to sit with us!' and have Tom being the one saying #'NO are you crazy??' #livetweeting #also I love Neelix being a bit more ornery when not talking to people face to face #Neelix to the Captain: Hiiiii Janeway <3 You look great today~!!! #Neelix to Kes: Jesus fucking christ whY ...WHY did we have to be on this ship full of CRAZY IDIOTS..... #HEHEHEH he's so right too...I 1000% get why he's like you have a PERFECTLY good home/ship here and you guys fucking LOVE to find ways to #rip it up #'You don't ''care a great deal about your crew'' and introduce them to the spectre of death at every opportunity' HEHEHHEHE LOVE HIM #LOVE JANEWAY TOO...They're both right <3 everyone's right <3 #Janeway's on a gameshow and every day the surprise guest is the specter of death #literally the only bad thing about early seasons Voyager is the Kes-Neelix relationship I love EVERYTHING else #if Kes and Neelix had just been friends or had a sibling type relationship?? -chefs kiss- #Tom: hmmm should I knock on Harry's door???? in the middle of the night?? nah....I'll just let myself in :) scare him a little #Harry's so damn brave I would have SCREEEAAAMED #ACTUALLY HEHHE I FORGOT THAT /IMMEDIATELY/ AFTER HARRY SAYS HE REMEMBERS BEING IN THE WOMB #Harry: (like he's tired of talking about it) I REMEMBER being in my mother's womb... -eye roll- #'Everyone knows about your BITE Sandrine' I literally thought she was talking about an STD hHEHE #'They picked your pocket?? On EARTH???' / 'Oh they just do it for tourists' <3 #Neelix: Jonah....w ha le???? / Tuvok: -sighs- the fucking Jonah-Whale thing again.... #Voyager said episode 6? Yeah. We're doing 'the ship goes into a body' episode - but the ''body'' is a BIIIG alien #Janeway: (in the weirdest tone ever) You like /dogs/ Mr. Paris ? :) #B'Elanna calling Tom a pig <3 #EVEN TUVOK'S HERE!?!? HAHAHAHA TUVOK ACTUALLY CAME TO THIS WITHOUT BEING HELD AT GUNPOINT!!! #Janeway hustling everyone at pool <3 #Janeway immediately committing appropriation oh NO!! #Tom Paris calling Chakotay 'the indian' ... this is a BAD ep for Chakotay sorry king

[adhbabey]

Y'all haven't been abused by a woman and it shows.

This pride month, and in the light of the result of the trial, some motherfuckers still don't get it.

Women, men, and those who identify otherwise, can be abused by women, even queer women. People like AH being bi has nothing to do with the horrible things she's done, but it makes people like her overlooked.

Many queer people such as myself have been traumatized by people who are usually deemed as "safe", when they simply aren't at all.

People, mostly r*dfems, are making a huge stink about this trial, virtue signaling towards female victims of abuse, when they fucking forget, queer women can be in relationships with other women. And of course, it needs to be said, anyone can be abused. But people weaponize female victims as a way to say "women cannot be abusers". They sure as hell can, a lot in queer spaces.

I'm tired of people weaponizing actual victims to further that shitty narrative. Because it only leads to more people getting abused, because they only think men can be abusive.

Apologize to all victims of female abusers. A huge chunk of them are queer people themselves. Apologize to everyone who's been traumatized by a women. Since you refuse to see the clear idiocy in that thought process.

Also! I think it's fucking hilarious when abusers get clowned on. That abuser being a woman doesn't change shit.

#babey posts #tw abuse mention #maybe I'll talk about what happened to me one day...in full at least #but christ #y'all defending ah's actions just makes you an abuse apologizing piece of shit #coming from a victim here... #stop defending women just because they are women #queer victims exist too... #even if they're not queer- it deserves to be said

[mimicteruyo]

So on a scale of 1 to Typical Mimic Move, how stupid would I be to sign up for Camp NaNoWriMo to return to my hell WIP with only a portion of the necessary research done and the gaping holes in the plot summary still intact?

#teruyo talk #obviously not to do the full 50k #30k max for me #and with how much i still need to write + the inevitable pivot to ship week stuff maybe i could even come #pretty close to hitting that number without getting into plot gap territory #and i need to do SOMETHING if i wanna finish the draft this year #and so finish the fic before the end of the decace #even if i'll be the only one to care about it i do in fact care about it lol #and i'd still have a couple of days next week to finish my fairy fiesta fic and do the research... #(someone save me from myself)

[cycloplasm]

happy birthday to every bunny on the planet. here’s almost every bunny oc of mine

#o #some of these might be new to you so i'll tell you a bit about them here... I'll do in order left to right #Antoinette oc #she's a goth bunny who's pretty cynical and pessimistic #Mils and Lou #Lou has been shown before he's. the main character of my one story. he was a living urban explorer who got turned into a puppet.doll #third is nameless so far but if you've been here for a while you mighht #recognize him. i just turned my hcs in an oc basically. He's a were-rabbit. Like wallace and gromit yes. #but like he's a bunny by day and still a bunny on full moons but he gets claws and sharp teeth and predatory features. #but other than that he's chill. Too chill #Rith oc #you saw him a few months ago im still figuring out his personality etc #ocularose #he's me no need to introduce him #daytona oc #an old character that i never colored until now... He's from 2015! pre undertle era. He's a radio host who's a bunny/cyclops hybrid #sluggestive #not his name but due to his outfit- even if it's not meant to be slugestive i get that. Not safe for wrk maybe #he's a chara from 2017... He's a magician and his hands have a mind of their own. They can't talk only clack their teeth #And last one is Jimmme xe lives in the candy islands. idk if xe's made of candy or not i like both the yes and no alternatives #i missed some bunny ocs (3 of them) but genuinely they're not fun to draw so. What's the point

[kittlyns]

So hard being a girl with regular urges to disappear

#I really do feel like my grip on sanity is slipping #so overwhelmed by stupid unchangeable shit that I know I'll regret worrying about someday #and everyone around me is all 'it'll work out! it always does :)' #but at what point does it just stop working out? when do I actually have to put some effort in? #I'm so resentful of my friends for having fall-backs. their parents or partners will always be able to bail them out #I don't have that. so no. it doesn't automatically work out for me. #and no one gets that. #I just want to escape it all #and childishly I want to punish people for not taking me seriously. maybe that's a part of me that will never go away #sometimes in that brief second of waking up before full consciousness I feel so close to the girl I want to be #and it feels possible #and I'm like. oh. I'll be her from now on... 🥰 and then I actually wake up and reality hits me and she is only ever a dream #I could have a dozen piercings and tattoos and I could shave my head and change the way I talk and dress and act but at the end of the day #I would still be me. I could run away and disappear and that wouldn't change a thing #I feel like I'm haunting myself #maybe I'll throw everything I own away and try to feel like a blank slate

[dyketennant]

idk i think i should start masking again 🤠 (i mean the autism i already wear a face mask)

#vent #personal #dont mind me using the tags as a diary for a bit. i have a real diary but my carpal tunnel is not agreeing with writing with a pen rn #blah blah blah val's interests are annoying and weird. and it's all they really know how to talk about #because they are so busy constantly with two jobs + full-time uni + side gigs + life in general #that they cannot function without their Little Things and because of that all their interpersonal relationships suffer #yknow how it is #ive always been one of those people who talks a lot in class #especially since getting to college because now i really care and am excited about what we're discussing #(plus talking about it/engaging helps keep me awake and stimulated otherwise i'll go to the seventh circle of hell) #but i feel like especially recently but just in general. i just always say dumb shit. and maybe it's worse now bc my paranoia is spiking #bc of that class with my ex i have twice a week and i know they're probably judging what i say and making fun of me to their new friends #while i have to spend an hour and fifteen minutes trying not to look at the other side of the room and turning up music when they speak #i used to be better at socially masking bc high school was hell but then covid happened and it all went down the drain #and then my life got Worse and now it's like. sorry im annoying and bad at talking i know i am. i am also trying to not be like that #idk i think im just so spread thin that everything i ever do im doing poorly bc i just Cant. and im in pain constantly #and always running late or rushing or stressed or busy. like i haven't been not-stressed since. i dont even know. maybe when i was sick? #and even then i was stressed because Oh Fuck I Have Covid. yknow #wow my therapist is going to have an interesting day tomorrow it seems

[felifeltfrog]

Hey yall ever watched that shitty Golden Films '98 Rudolph film?? Cause I am hyoerfocusing on it and redesigning the Northern Light fairies from it lmao

#talking about stuff #maybe one day I'll have the materials to make a full set of ooak dolls of them too cause ngl?? #i really like my redesign of them so far??

[astaeris-in-the-stars]

List of Poe's references in the song Buried Alive by Creature Feature

I love Poe's work and I'm always delighted when I find references of his works. I discovered this song today and while I read the lyrics I noticed some titles of Poe's works, so I decided to do further research and I realised that this song is nearly entirely made of titles of Poe's poems and short stories.

[Intro]

Then the blackness loomed close up against my skin, snuffing out even the evil whiteness to those damming lips, driving all sensibility into retreat, in a mad rush of the senses and the soul into Hades!

refers to the poem « The Pit and the Pendulum » :

The blackness of darkness supervened ; all sensations appeared swallowed up in a mad rushing descent as the soul into Hades1

[Verse 1]

I forever dream within a dream

refers to the poem « A dream within a dream »

Of a certain city in the sea

refers to the poem « The city in the Sea »

As I walk the valley of unrest

refers to the poem « The Valley of Unrest »

Behind this mask of crimson death

refers to the short story « The Masque of Red Death »

I long for a loss of breath

refers to the short story « Loss of breath »

And a most dire predicament

refers to the short story « A Predicament »

Murders in the rue morgue

refers to the short story « Murders in the Rue Morgue »

Silence and shadows what I adore

[Chorus]

Well I can't explain just how it feels

The thoughts of my premature burial

refers to the short story « The Premature Burial »

Inside this oblong box I lie

refers to the short story « The Oblong Box »

With the hopes I'll be buried alive

[Verse 2]

The oval portrait upon the wall

refers to the short story « The Oval Portrait »

Will someday cause this house to fall

refers to the short story « The Fall of the House of Usher »

The power of words left unsaid

refers to the short story « The Power of Words »

As I join the spirits of the dead

refers to the poem « Spirits of the Dead »

[Chorus]

Well I can't explain just how it feels

The thoughts of my premature burial

refers to the short story « The Premature Burial »

Inside this oblong box I lie

refers to the short story « The Oblong Box »

With the hopes I'll be buried alive

[Spoken]

As they lifted and bore me down, down to a place of blackness and dampness and silence... silence…

refers to the short story « The Pit and the Pendulum » :

[T]all figures that lifted and bore me in silence down – down – still down – till a hideous dizziness oppressed me at the mere idea of the interminableness of the descent.2

[Verse 3 ]

Well, I'm the man who's

Used up

Washed up

Bricked up

refers to the short story « The Cask of Amontillado »

Descent into

Maelstrom

refers to the short story « A descent into the Maëlstrom »

Bedlam

Redrum

Bet the Devil

My head

refers to the short story « Never Bet the Devil Your Head »

Misled

Bloodshed

Heart under the floorboard

Beats for

refers to the short story « The Tell-Tale Heart »

Lenore

refers to the poem « Lenore »

Nevermore

refers to the poem « The Raven »

[Chorus x2]

Well I can't explain just how it feels

The thoughts of my premature burial

refers to the short story « The Premature Burial »

Inside this oblong box I lie

refers to the short story « The Oblong Box »

With the hopes I'll be buried alive

1Edgar Allan Poe, « The Pit and the Pendulum », Volume1 : Tales[1842] New York, J. S. Redfield, «The Works of the Late Edgar Allan Poe», 1850, p. 4.

2Ibid., p. 5.

#.txt #Edgar allan poe #astaeris writes things #i fucking love poe's works #maybe one day i'll talk about the cinematographic adaptation of the fall of the house of usher from 1928 #i made a full 12 pages essay on it for school #but it's still not enough #i still want to talk about it

[jargyles]

too shy. here's a playlist instead

#kings.mp3 #jeddie #jonathan byers/eddie munson #i be like *yearns to talk extensively about jeddie on my own blog* and then immediately get too shy to talk extensively about jeddie #on my own blog. you guys dont understand they are so fun to write and i have emotionally invested so much in how i think theyd be #sharing something them is like sharing pictures of my kids. i dont even have kids. but i have them. and its WEIRD AND I HAVE TO GET OVER IT #but maybe one day ill get zooted enough to say fuck it + we ball + begin my unhinged jeddie ramblings the way i do for my other ships #yall did not deserve this full page spread of the inner workings of my twisted mind but you GOT IT. YA GOT IT! #this playlist has a theme and if any of you guess it's them (or the origins of the title hehehe) i'll post a jeddie oneshot from the doc. #because why not. etc #Spotify