#meri is talking

[lukeskylovr]

THAT SAM AUDIO WAS EVERYTHING HELLO ?!!?? nothing to say but i missed him and the healing?! tanks wolf form?! tank fighting in video?!!!!! we are so back

#yeah #i’m tired now so i’m gna sleep #and hopefully not think abt this too much in the morning #bc i will go insane #meri is talking #redacted sam #redacted audio #redacted asmr #redacted darlin #redacted tank #redactedverse

[castielmacleod]

It’s been a hot minute since I watched any spn at all but I’m pretty sure Emily Swallow’s raw charm and screen presence quite literally saved Amara’s character from the depths of writing hell. Do you ever think about what this person was up against. Do you ever think about how bad some of Amara’s lines are. To say nothing at all of the Dean thing. And it’s just like.. how did Amara survive that? How did she become a Good Character not only in her initial season, but then also go on to become something of a fan favourite for just her minor role in s15? I’ll tell you. It’s because Emily got out there in front of the camera in spn s11, and she looked up from her script and said, I am going to say these lines but I am going to tilt my head and make my little faces and add just the right cadence to these words and I am going to create scenes of incredible palpable emotion and I will have her be so alien yet so human at once in faultless balance. I am going to make Amara Supernatural more endearing and sympathetic and dimensional than she could ever be on the page in my hands I will do this if it fucking kills me

#And I love her for it #Amara spn #Honestly s11 Amara reminded me of earlyish seasons Cas in such a charming way #Like I’m remembering that scene where she goes to the church and is talking to the priest all matter-of-fact #Idk I just found her really endearing. I think she also murders a bunch of people in that same episode but that’s ok that’s #an enhancement honestly. #My posts #As a disclaimer I am very much a proud card-carrying member of the Never Hated Amara Gang so I will always back her even in s11 #But if you are someone who didn’t like s11 Amara but enjoyed her in s15. Go back and watch her in s11 again #(If you can stomach rewatching any spn at all that is. Lord knows I cannot) #But go back and watch her and watch her more closely and the little things Ms Swallow adds to her even then. I think you’ll enjoy her more #Idk why I’m having an Amara moment but I am. Meri jaan <3

[his-littlefox]

being desi means listening to bollywood and going like “this is so aaron warner” ♡

#i have a whole desi playlist for him!! 😇💕 #cant help but imagine him speak urdu bc the way hed talk?? 😭😭 #daphnie in love 𓆩♡𓆪 #meri jaan ♡ #daphnie x aaron 🍒 #shatter me #aaron warner #ignite me #booktok #book bf #desi girl #bollywood #bollywood music #okay but 90s and 00s songs suit him sm much!! 🙊💖

[me-uglypretty]

spoilers for the marvels x

carol keeping a newspaper cutout of monica then going "your mom said you like space :)" as if she didn't follow her life and her not coming back because she didn't herself as the hero her family expected of her, when they just needed her with them like its giving me a lot of natasha not finding yelena after she thought she ended the red room. monica saying she doesn't wanna talk to her aunt carol and carol's face after made me wanna scream and cry cause WHY IS LIFE HARD. why is this giving so much black widow vibes bro like leave me alone fuck

kamala is everything, she's asunshine, she's my child, i am protecting her with all my powers, HER LITTLE FACE WHEN SHE'S SCARED OR SAD??? I WILL FIGHT EVERYONE CAUSE HOW DARE YOU HURT HER, and her family is the best, absolutely am living for every hindi dialogues cause my language spoken in my favourite movie is everything. also, kamala thinking she's getting tested for the avengers then going nah bro i will make my own! YEAH YOU DO IT I TRUST YOU.

monica touching thing she shouldn't is giving OH SHINY I WANNA TOUCH like she is a CHILD alright, did you see the way her eyes light up like ARE YOU TELLING ME THIS ISNT A SINGLE MOTHER ADVENTURE WITH HER TWO KIDS???

goose's having a whole country worth of kittens wasn't expected, but that scene? CINEMATIC MASTERPIECE. the editing is so beautiful, vfx is good, music hits right, THE MARVELS IS EVERYTHING.

honorable mention, carol and valkyrie fucked.

and kate bishop special appearance? she looks older??? AND STILL GIVING LUCKY PIZZA. but i was giggling smiling like i love her alright. is2g i want to be apart of the young avengers LIKE SIR GIVE ME THE CHANCE FUCK. I WANT TO ACT WITH THESE PEOPLE PLAYING THESE CHARACTERS AND PRETENDING LIKE I'M ACTUALLY A SUPER HERO PLEASE.

i'm done. here's the poster i got from the theater:

note: how does one find the correct frame for framing posters cause i've never framed my poster but kept it aside and i really wanna frame it x

#and lesbian feelings like uHHH up there #first THEY FUCKED YOUR HONOR I KNOW THEY DID #second LESBIAN SINGLE MOTHER WITH 2 UNEXPECTED ADOPTED CHILDREN #third SHE DRESSED LIKE THAT??? THATS CLEARLY A GIRL WHO LIKE GIRLS #four WOMEN EVERYWHERE MOVIE MADE FOR EVERYONE WHO LOVES WOMEN #five KAMALA IS TO BE PROTECTED OK MERI BETA BI ALRIGHT #six I'M DATING CAROL DANVERS ALRIGHT I KNOW HER #seven MY FAV NUMBER AND I WANNA HIT THAT AMOUNT OF TIME IVE WATCH THE MARVELS IN IMAX but i dont have that kind of wealth x #main feelings after watching the marvels: kicking feet giggling screaming smiling #the marvels #me-uglypretty talks

[spurgie-cousin]

i'm watching the new Sister Wives and at one point Meri is reminiscing about how she used to be in charge of the Thanksgiving turkey every year bc Kody loved the way she made it *until* he met Robyn and then, in her words, "he just liked hers so much better" or whatever so Robyn did it from then on

and like the full weight of Meri's situation has never really hit me until I heard her say that tbh. bc I also have particular thing I make for holidays only because my husband likes it, so much so that he'll make comments the whole year about how he can't wait for it, and thinking about going from that to where Meri is now.........

like at first they were each others only special person. and then the years went by, he married 2 other women in rapid succession, and by all accounts she no longer felt very special to him but at the very least, every Thanksgiving she had the turkey. Kody loved her turkey and it was one day where she could feel like the special person again.

and then Robyn comes into the picture and she doesn't even get that any more. Like after Leon leaves, she doesn't get anything and to think that every year at the holidays she maybe had a knee jerk "oh I can't wait to make Kody some turkey" thought only to remember that only Robyn's is good enough for him now just made me tear up more than a little.

#and then she hung the fuck on. stupidly but she had only ever been special in that way to Kody so she waited for it to come back #and she played nice and was the weird fucking 3rd wheel and her husband and Robyn's house for years at holidays #imagine. your husband meets someone else and won't even shake your hand and you go over to their house on Thanksgiving remembering the time #it was you he planned with and talked about being excited for your food and now you're just there with them begging him for a scrap #of affection. #I'm on my period so maybe this is hitting me harder than it normally would but still #sister wives #meri brown

[foundgirlpigeon]

Zoro and Sanji when they find out both of them are transmascs

#I also like the sanji being transfem hc but this is also fun #Him vehemently rejecting his femininity to please his father growing up #That's why he loves loves LOVES feminine women #Because they are what he's always been afraid of being #He slowly learns to be feminine mwah #Transmasc acearo lesbian zoro meri jaan my beloved #Him being a gym fanatic because of dysphoria #And the imposter syndrome he must've had when Kuina talked about her never becoming the best swordswoman #Because she's a woman #And the guilt he must be carrying with him because he decided to succeed her #As a man #And his master didn't know #(fuck his sensei btw misogynistic ass) #Also love the hc that kuina is his old self #Love how we all shit on oda by making all the characters trans #one piece #one piece spoilers #sanji #roronoa zoro #zoro #op #Pfft they'd start fighting for who's the better transmasc

[infernaltenor]

the third (and... maybe final?) niki shiina analysis

thats a lie there's a nonzero chance i'll do more <- i really like reading into his character

the focus of this is intended to be the foil relationship of niki and mayoi. this is something observable between all members of alkaloid and crazy:b, with clear distinctions between who is meant to be a foil/mirror of who: rinne and hiiro, kohaku and aira, himeru and tatsumi. while i would love to do a full in depth analysis of every member in this particular grouping, i've been avoiding any discussion of events that are out on jp but haven't been on en, if only because i want to experience the stories myself, which is why, for the time being, i'll be skipping the rest of the alkaloid and crazy:b units.

there's a second major factor as to why i'm focusing on niki and mayoi: they have the weakest link. that is to say, everyone else in the group has a clear connection in their pasts. niki and mayoi lack this. while you can extrapolate and make guesses (mayoi living in the basement of es and having a surprising amount of information in the building construction and hidden rooms; niki's father being kicked off the air in preference of idols; my conclusion here is that mayoi's parents probably run es and likely ran niki's off the air. is there proof? no. that's why i'm not counting it.), nothing for them is as explicitly stated as it is for the rest: rinne and hiiro through the nature of being brothers, kohaku and aira's childhood friendship online, whatever the hell is happening with himeru and tatsumi's complicated fucking relationship. niki and mayoi have... none of that. and arguably, that's a connection in and of itself, that they have no past in common, but given the care taken for the rest of the units it feels almost like an oversight.

no matter! i'm not here to discuss what ifs; i'm here to read far too much into the silly goofy character of what is otherwise an incredibly sad and tragic unit (despite their rather goofy construct) because i love him and need his depth to be at the front page rather than ostensibly passed over. enstars where's my niki shiina breakdow-

anyway. with that out of the way, let's start with the most basic parts! game design and character design. for game design, they also typically are in the same spot (spot 4 for the live mechanics), although i'm willing to ignore this due to the fact that kohaku and aira, as well as tatsumi and himeru, do not adhere to this particular criteria. niki and mayoi are the two characters within their unit that have long hair; niki's side ponytail and mayoi's side braid (hey where's the niki shiina hair down car-). interestingly, niki and mayoi's main hairstyles occupy opposite shoulders. while it's something that's easy to overlook, i'm counting it because it's something i think is also an easy way to put differences together, the same way color palette is. and for niki and mayoi, color palette isn't really a concern (the same dictates the rest of the crazy:b and alkaloid pairings, however), but niki's hair is more blue-toned, while mayoi's retains a level of red in his purple (shinobu's, for instance, is way cooler in tone).

but this is all superficial stuff. things you can simply observe. beyond the unspecified parents, where's the digging in way too much?

well.

crazy:b is a unit that is altogether kind of goofy, but the individual characters are by and large, tragic. niki shiina reads as an outlier to this specific set up.

alkaloid is a unit that is altogether serious down to their aesthetic, but the individual characters are largely kind of silly. mayoi ayase reads as an outlier to this specific set up.

as an author's note, right here in the middle of this analysis, i know both units are not so clear cut, and that you can see incredible amounts of angst and silliness in the characters i have decided not to focus on. why i am focusing on niki and mayoi is because of their decidedly obvious contrasting personalities to the larger construction of their unit. niki, more often than not, serves as the crazy:b character who has no indication of what is going on, not to mention how much his personality is driven by his own unspecified condition and his relation to food; mayoi is the alkaloid character who has such a clear indication of his tragedy, as opposed to hiiro and tatsumi, both of whom acknowledge it less, and aira, who does it moreso through inner monologues. i digress.

with both niki and mayoi serving as the contrasting element to their respective units, this does include that they are not always that contrasting element; think, whenever niki puts himself down or reads rinne like a book, or mayoi's clear serious relationship with teaching the other members of his unit.

another aspect that i think contributes to a foil relationship more than the mirroring is the opposite ways they talk about themselves and even moreso, how they think about themselves. niki, by and large, puts himself down as an idol; it's expected, especially since being an idol was never his intention (for fun and profit! and also rinne), so he tends to think of himself (frequently) as someone with less experience. while mayoi's full story (afaik) hasn't been touched on, he shows considerable knowledge to the background and teaching of idols (dropping notes in on unsuspecting juniors, teaching alkaloid the choreography throughout the main story, just to name some off the top of my head), even showing in some ways his mastery of the skills for being an idol. what mayoi lacks for in confidence of himself, he makes up for in being confident in his ability to guide others with advice and teaching. this places niki and mayoi in clear opposite corners of their idol positions. that being said, mayoi hardly does think himself an expert in the industry, but while niki recognizes himself as not being an idol expert, he does frequently call up his cooking expertise, something that cannot be overstated. just with these two skills you can see how niki and mayoi treat their own expertise: niki acknowledges his with frequency, mayoi tries to push people away from knowing his.

niki is a character that tries to stay silly on the surface. to be fair to crazy:b, rinne also attempts this. the difference is that rinne's silliness has been broken clearly before, notably in the main story for the game. niki's character, at the point that i'm writing this post, has not had such a break yet. another aspect of niki is he does try to stay as clueless as possible (try isn't quite the word i'm looking for; he seems genuinely uninterested in the politics of the idol world! this is something i count in contrast to his fellow unit members, as much of crazy:b is focused primarily on that political atmosphere). without such a drastic break, niki's character does read as one intending to be seen as a silly character.

mayoi's character, while being silly in his own over the top reactions to, well, everything (alkaloid and mayoi is bocchi the rock if btr was yaoi, but that's... that's a different post), is probably one i would argue meant to be taken much more seriously in alkaloid. for one, his character does frequently deal with intrusive thoughts, which imo makes his overall character feel more serious. another aspect of this matches him with tatsumi for overall being what i feel to be the more seriously read parts of the alkaloid unit, as tatsumi is shown to be levelheaded often; there are some clear breaks for this particular formula with tatsumi imo, for instance, both his driving and technology usage serve to lighten his character considerably. mayoi's character, i think, due to the heavy usage of self-deprecating language, is meant to be read much more seriously than he sometimes ends up being.

my conclusion is basically... well niki and mayoi occupy (what i think) is an interesting balance for the foil/mirror imagery of crazy:b and alkaloid. their unit structures and symbols, as well as intentions feed into this, as do their character pairs, but due to niki and mayoi's own (mostly) untouched connections, their place in the structure feels much harder to nail down. this doesn't mean it doesn't exist, but it does mean that i can (and more importantly) will tear into this gacha game like its a piece of literature.

#enstars #ensemble stars #niki shiina #mayoi ayase #tenor talks #yeah ill tag mayoi in this. hes in it as much as niki. #you have no idea what a monster of a post this is to write with a headache and currently zero ibuprofen i am holding on by a fucking thread #the thread in question is the scary amount of niki shiina thoughts rattling around in my brain creating actual thoughts that have like meri #i have like three essays im supposed to be doing so i cranked this one out before i fried my brain #anyway. im normal im so normal i didnt just spend an hour digging into characters in an idol gacha game.

[maerrine]

I just read another fantastic post that among other things, talks about the parallels between Sigma and Chuuya (I’ll likely reblog it in a moment) and it made me want to talk about them. So. 

I speed-read the bsd manga in like a day and one of the first things that struck me when Sigma showed up is actually how similar he was to Chuuya, and how many parallels they had! It actually made me start shipping them really strongly despite them not having had any actual interactions with each other yet, but this post isn’t about shipping, so. I’ll put that aside for now.

Lots of people have talked about it already but the first obvious parallel is the way they both have a very nebulous relationship with their own humanity. Chuuya and Arahabaki; Sigma being born from the book... they’re also both lacking childhoods to some extent as well, Sigma most of all. So they have similar backstories.

But more important is the way they’re both looking for a place to belong - and that they’re continuously being used by others. Chuuya is used by the sheep and the mafia, Sigma has been used by pretty much everyone his entire life... and this is imo consciously acknowledged by the author especially in the prison break arc at the moment. Chuuya and Sigma are literally paralleled as being the “pawns/pieces” of Dazai and Fyodor’s plans, playing almost identical roles on opposing sides, and I think that that’s done on purpose. Of course, as it turns out, Dazai isn’t only using Sigma for his power, whereas Fyodor very much sees Chuuya as nothing more than a tool, so there’s a key difference there, too...

I’ve been thinking about the differences between them too, though, and one thing that struck me was - Chuuya tolerates and accepts being used, where Sigma rejects it. Chuuya genuinely seems to be comfortable with his role in the mafia and doesn’t even really hold a grudge against the sheep for using and betraying him earlier. In contrast, Sigma is desperately fighting so that he won’t be used by other people anymore - this is a little muddied in that he did go along with Fyodor’s plans in order to get a home, and was letting himself be used in that sense, but right now in canon he’s completely turned against Fyodor and has made it very clear that he intends not to be manipulated anymore.

I’d honestly really like to see some fic that played with those differences and similarities between them a bit. Like maybe Sigma realizing how similar they are, and trying to push Chuuya to stop accepting the ways he’s used by other people?? On the other hand, Chuuya seems to have found a home in the mafia as well, or at least believes he has, whereas Sigma is still searching, so that’s another thing that could be touched on as well.

Idk. I know I’m just repeating what a lot of people have already said so maybe this post is pointless otl, but. I’m really excited for them to finally meet in canon, because there’s so much potential between them that could lead to some really cool stuff!

Tl;dr sigchuu is superior >:)

#bsd manga spoilers // #sigma bsd #chuuya nakahara #bsd #anyway if i'm wrong about any of this in your opinion please feel free to add your own thoughts because i'd love to deepen my understanding #of these characters! #i have very little confidence in my media literacy in general but i want to get involved more in discussions about my faves so. #i'm also terrified of getting involved in fandom but alas afdshfkjdhdkjh #meri talks bsd.

[boydykedevo]

last reblog uhhhh what if i gave taako antlers haha just kidding unless

like. theyd hafta work w the wizard hat. so maybe like those stubs female deer have? but my taako is amab.... hmmm...... does fantasy hrt make you lose your antlers i did say i think he microdoses it

prob not gonna do through w it if i go too far ill be drawing him as a deer furry within the month but im rotating

#i remember seeing a headcanon about transmasc meri scp where hrt made him grow antlers which i love #icarus is talking

[faiirytalcs]

location: pour unfortunate soul @evermorehqsstart

"I just find it really funny that they can ask me to leave cause I'm 'upsetting the children' - " Meri dramatically added air quotes around the words before continuing. "- with my 'resting bitch face' when I'm waiting for my appointment. What, like, I'm supposed to be happy and chipper about going to the gyno? Why is your child even there?"

#𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 ;; open #𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐍 ;; meri webster #evermorehqstarter #𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 ;; meri webster #;; idk man but muse could be talking to her or she could be on the phone complaining and they overhear?? so many options

[lukeskylovr]

save me lesbian sci fi protagonist save me

#i miss her #come home baby the kids miss you #meri is talking #alien 1979 #ellen ripley #aliens 1986 #alien #ripley #sigourney weaver

[wnjunhui]

whenever seungcheol starts talking about exercising, i go “whatever you say buff boy”

#i have no idea what he is talking about #but good for him #scoups #svt #mery rambles

[oldsportussy]

I don't use ibispaint much anymore but sometimes I look through my gallery and find the most beautiful pieces of art I never ended up really posting for some reason, which is a shame, because being blessed with my beautiful art should be a human right tbh

Yall should totally not reblog all my stuff and compliment every single aspect of my art to push my ego lol that would suck I would totally hate to hear from strangers how hilarious and amazing I am

#jayjack talks sometimes #jayjack makes art #scp #scp fandom #scp foundation #scp fanart #dr cimmerian #dr north #dr clef #alto clef #scp 166 #meri clef #scp meme #ig #jjackkennedy has huge balls

[spurgie-cousin]

Do you think that meri legally divorcing kody strained them even further apart? What meri did was selfless and I think what she did was a beautiful thing because of the why she did it. Bug should she have?

Idk that's a tough one because as far as Robyn's kids go they didn't have much of a choice. I think psychologically though it did a number on Meri even if it was her idea, because that was the one thing she had in the family that no one else did; Christine and Janelle could have more kids, Robyn was younger and pretty and had new wife privilege (did anyone hear Kody call her a "Diesel jeans model" in that interview??), but Meri was the first legal wife.

And regardless of what the Browns tried to say in the early days, being the first legal wife means you're second in line as far as decision making goes bc you're the only one whose opinion legally matters for a lot of things. Christine and Janelle both said in the early days also, while they were having kids and Meri wasn't, Kody and Meri would often go on trips together leaving them behind so I think pre-Robyn, Meri and Christine kind of took turns being the Robyn of that makes sense.

I don't think the "divorce" was the sole cause of their relationship deteriorating at all, I think if Kody had cared about maintaining their relationship he would've. But I think it put Meri in a weird headspace that helped lead to her Catfish debacle (and not saying cheatingv is ever justified, but in this situationi think that feeling neglected really led to Meri doing that).

#to Meri's credit she did a lot to try and make the family with Robyn work #talk about sacred loneliness #she was neglected for YEARS while watching her husband be head over heels with someone else and she still tried to act #selflessly when it came to Robyn #sister wives

[calenhads]

tagged by the lovely lovely @morvaris to make some oc pairings in this picrew!! i had so much fun and highly recommend checking it out if you have a chance :3

tagging @arklay @steelport @twinwitchbolt @esmeralda-juniper and you!!! show me your ocs and their loves <33

bellona cousland + alistair theirin (dao) catalina hawke + anders (da2) meris lavellan + josephine montilyet (dai)

#meaghan talks #love everyone's beautiful brown eyes i have a trend if you couldn't tell #i'm still torn on whether i want meris to be my canon lavellan/inquisitor but i do like her a lot and miss her so she's here #world of thedas king alistair concept art you are real. to me. #oc: bellona cousland #oc: catalina hawke #oc: meris lavellan

[sleepless-in-starbucks]

oizys i finally read the new lucky jumbo fic i'm so lies face down on my bed ( ˘ ³˘)♥ ( ˘ ³˘)♥ ( ˘ ³˘)♥ i love how farming-centric the summary is when that is like. maybe a sixth of the story itself al;skdfjasdfnas;dlfkajsdfadfga; /gen

simple seeds description: haha isn't minecraft farming wacky? watch luke try to deal with that 🤪

complicated code plot: google what to do when you're accidentally able to make a potion even the guy in charge doesn't think you should be able to make. google what does that mean for your ''''code'''''. google why is my boyfriend's first impulse to use this knowledge for pranking

#the cryptid speaks #meri #lucky jumbo <3 #listen luke copes by focusing on understandable issues #his code is wrong? what the hell does that mean he doesnt know #farming too easy? this luke understands and can complain about properly #the rest of boatem ask him later how talking to xisuma about it went and luke's like #well i spent a lot of time complaining about farming to voi and mumbo. it's way too easy here. do you guys ever think about that? #also apparently my 'code' isnt 'written' in 'universal language' or whatever #boatem: WHAT #luke: yeah ikr like potatoes shouldnt get that big that quick am i right