You say, "I don't understand, " and I say, "I know you don't"
Arthur responds to finding out about Merlin’s magic with confusion and disbelief
We thought a cure would come through in time, now, I fear it won't
Merlin thought he could save Arthur from his fate but now he realizes he can’t
Remember lookin' at this room, we loved it 'cause of the light Now, I just sit in the dark and wonder if it's time
Merlin and Arthur loved Camelot because of the life it held. Merlin loved it even more because of Arthur and the future it promised, but now Arthur’s gone and he didn’t get what he wanted.
Do I throw out everything we built or keep it?
When things get hard Merlin might wonder if all this was worth it
I'm getting tired even for a phoenix Always risin' from the ashes Mendin' all her gashes
Merlin is a a resilient person enemies keep beating him down but he just keeps going. He’d destroy himself and he’d destroy other people and things just to keep Arthur safe.
You might just have dealt the final blow
Merlin loves Arthur more than anything but he knows that Arthur might kill him if he learned about his magic and he knows he’d let him (at least if he knew Arthur would be ok afterwards)
Stop, you're losin' me… I can’t find a pulse My heart won't start anymore For you 'Cause you're losin' me
As Arthur put all of his focus on Gwen and then on the anger that came from losing her. He started to lose Merlin, Merlin would never leave but he didn’t have as much energy, his smile faded, he didn’t joke as much anymore.
Every mornin', I glared at you with storms in my eyes How can you say that you love someone you can't tell is dyin'? I sent you signals and bit my nails down to the quick. My face was gray, but you wouldn't admit that we were sick
Arthur said he loved Merlin but yet he chose Gwen that slowly drained Merlin. The one Merlin loved so deeply couldn’t give the same love back.
And the air is thick with loss and indecision
When Arthur finds out about Merlin’s magic their relationship will never be the same again. No matter if it turned out ok or horribly it still could never be the same. Arthur doesn’t know what to do with this information, he knows what someone having magic should mean but it’s Merlin.
I know my pain is such an imposition
Merlin is an imposition of the law just by being himself, but his pain is something of a burden because he wants something he can’t have not only is he a servant but he’s a man. Arthur and him could never be accepted.
Now, you're runnin' down the hallway And you know what they all say You don't know what you got until it's gone
Merlin couldn’t imagine how much it would hurt to see Arthur marry someone else until it happened and he didn’t even confront the possibility of losing him until it happened and he had to deal with the pain
How long could we be a sad song 'Til we were too far gone to bring back to life?
Arthur and Merlin were a tragic story and that started even before Arthur died but when he died that cemented the end. They could have been something greater if Arthur had known sooner but it’s too late now.
I gave you all my best me's, my endless empathy
Merlin gave Arthur his everything. He stayed even when Arthur lashed out at him. He wasn’t mad at Arthur for hating what made Merlin because he understood that was how he was made.
And all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier
But in the end all Merlin got was pain.
Fighting in only your army
Merlin only ever used his magic for Arthur
Frontlines, don't you ignore me
He stood by Arthur’s side against all odds, the dragon, Morgana, the Vikings, you name it. No matter the odds he was there, that was something Arthur saw and respected.
I'm the best thing at this party
Ok a little break from the angst. Do you ever think of that scene during a feast where it’s Merthur having intense eye contact like they’re the only thing that matters? Because that’s the only Merthur connection I could think of here
And I wouldn't marry me either
Merlin realizes why Arthur chose Gwen.
A pathological people pleaser Who only wanted you to see her
Merlin despite being argumentative and sometimes annoying still just wants to make Arthur happy.
And I'm fadin', thinkin' "Do something, babe, say something” "Lose something, babe, risk something" "Choose something, babe, I got nothing To believe Unless you're choosin' me"
Back to how I started this Merlin doesn’t like that Arthur responded to learning his secret with silence. He wants an answer, he needs to know what Arthur thinks and feels. Nothing is worse than the outright hatred. The unknown is far worse than knowing it could have been better.
Lancelot and Merlin’s relationship is what Arthur and Merlin‘s relationship would’ve been, if he told his secret way back earlier!😤 also this was inspired by me listening to Taylor Swift “Would’ve, Could’ve, Should’ve “
sooooo morgana coded i’m so serious. literally you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me!!!!!!! merlin bbc merlin kill yourself oh my god
I mean. Is an explanation really needed? She's literally singing about loving someone for an extensive amount of time. You know who also loved someone for a really long time? Merlin.
#2. Soarele si Luna - Pasha Parfeni
It literally means "the sun and the moon" in Romanian. The lyrics are "the sun and the moon will hold our wedding crown". It's a magical sounding, wedding song. Literally could be performed by the Druids at their wedding. ☀️🌑
#3. Still Falling For You - Ellie Goulding
"Fire and ice, this love is like fire and ice", "this love's never growing old, you make it new" ("you'd get bored" - merlin), "this love is like rolling the dice" (see 5x12). Need I say more? Ellie Goulding wrote this song for them.
#4. Beauty and the Beast - Emma Thompson
Who's the beauty, who's the beast? We'll never know. Either way this song perfectly encapsulates their relationship. Growing past prejudices? Realizing you were wrong? Barely even friends (then somebody bends)? Perfection. Also my brain likes to pretend it's Hunith singing instead of Emma Thompson.
#5. golden hour - JVKE
It's giving Arthur admiring Merlin's magic. His eyes literally go gold! It's his golden hour! HE SLOWS DOWN TIME!
#6. Written All Over Your Face - Louis Tomlinson
Nicknamed the "married Merthur song" because it literally sounds like Arthur in the doghouse. Like he did something shitty and now Merlin's mad at him, but not saying that he's mad at him so Arthur's like "babe, it's written all over your face??" Also the lines "a hurricane behind the door, so I've come ready for a war" and "once you figure out what we're fighting for, I'll be ready to talk".
#7. you were there for me - Henry Moodie
Pretty self explanatory. It's 100% Arthur's POV. "You were there through the heartbreaks, you were there when I lost faith, be aware i would do the same". It reminds me of 4x13 when he completely lost faith so Merlin did the sword in the stone thing to reinspire him.
#8. Superstitious - Big Time Rush
So much happening here, but this entire album is Merthur coded. This one is also Arthur POV. "i ain't superstitious but you're throwing down the magic on me" "we can run away for the hell of it" (see: the picnic and how he wants to live with merlin on a farm)
#9. Labyrinth - Taylor Swift
no idea whose POV this is - could honestly be both, but i'm tending to lean toward Merlin's. "it could only hurt this much right now" (everytime he watched someone he loves die) "i'll be getting over you my whole life" (...) "lost in the labyrinth of my mind" "you would break your back to make me break a smile" when freya died and arthur made him laugh :') "you know how much i hate that everyone expects me to just bounce back" very merlin core
#10. Neon Grave - Dayseeker
Arthur's death song if you want to cry yourself to sleep :^) this entire album is Merlin coping with Arthur's death fr literally made an edit with it, it's that perfect
Okay but you dont understand how badly i need a modern au where its, like, a one-to-one adaptation of the bbcm plot but theres indoor plumbing and vine references. Like the story is still the same - magic, destiny, being the kings sassy gnc servant - but they all have phones, and Lancelot texts Merlin every time he sees a frog (and then lets Merlin name said frog). And Arthur is frequently out of touch with contemporary meme literacy so Gwaine and Merlin develop a complex code of vine references to talk about the king behind his back. Theres still destiny and magic and a dragon under the castle, but Gwen is a Minecraft Youtuber and Leon listens to Taylor Swift
Mini-Playlist: The Taylor Swift is a given, but beyond that Six Feet Apart by Alec Benjamin, Twinkling Lights by Annalise Emmerick, and Grand Canyon by Mat Kearney have all been on repeat recently
Last song: This Year by the Mountain Goats. We’ve almost made it through the year, you guys!
Last movie: Code 8. I was very pleasantly surprised by how much I enjoyed the plot (because I started watching it solely because it has both Robbie and Stephen Amell in it)!
Currently watching: Brooklyn 99, Teen Wolf, Schitt’s Creek (I know, I know, I’m late to the bandwagon on everything. I’m ok with that though)
Currently reading: Scarlet by Marissa Meyer. It’s the second book in a series of retold fairy tales called The Lunar Chronicles. If you’re interested in adding another epidemic and dystopian world to your 2020, I’d definitely recommend checking the series out (and thank you to @jedidragonwarriorqueen for introducing me to the series).
Currently craving: soup, maybe?
Tagging/saying hi to: @jedidragonwarriorqueen @shut-up-merlin @bellamysgriffin @hondagirll
I'm like the water when your ship rolled in that night Rough on the surface but you cut through like a knife And if it was an open-shut case I never would've known from that look on your face
Merlin and Arthur crashed into each others lives not in a positive way. They never could have expected that this was the start of a relationship.
Lost in your current like a priceless wine
Like getting swept up in a current Merlin was dragged into Arthur’s life and to his destiny
The more that you say. The less I know
As they spent more time with each other they realized that the perceptions of each other might have been wrong
Wherever you stray. I follow
Merlin follows Arthur everywhere to save him
I'm begging for you to take my hand. Wreck my plans. That's my man
Merlin and Arthur have had to save each other from themselves. Arthur saves Merthur from recklessly throwing himself away for others (like with trying to trade his life for Gwen in Season 1) and Merlin saves Arthur from sacrificing his happiness for the good of the kingdom (stopping him from getting married).
Life was a willow and it bent right to your wind
Merlin can literally create wind and he would change the very fabric of life if it would benefit Arthur
Head on the pillow, I could feel you sneaking in
Merlin is always sneaking into Arthur’s bedroom. Sometime to steal stuff but with Merthur also to steal moments
As if you were a mythical thing. Like you were a trophy or a champion ring. And there was one prize I'd cheat to win
Merlin is literally a mythical thing. Arthur would go against his fathers rules to have him.
You know that my train could take you home. Anywhere else is hollow
They are home to each other. Without the other one they would feel hollow because a half of them is missing. That’s why they risk everything for each other over and over again.
They count me out time and time again. But I come back stronger than a 90's trend
People underestimate Merlin because of how he looks in the early seasons and later they try to dispose of him because of the sway he holds on Arthur but none of them ever expect how much he’ll fight back the sheer power he holds
Wait for the signal and I'll meet you after dark
Arthur and Merlin have to keep the true nature of their relationship in secret because of the era in which they live.
Show me the places where the others gave you scars
This shows the vulnerability they have with each other that they would bare their scars to each other. Many of these scars come from putting themselves on the line for the other.
Now this is an open-shut case Guess I should've known from the look on your face
While once their feelings for each other were complicated. Seeming to hate each other and love each other interchangeably. They both understand now how deeply they care for each other.
Can you give us a list of Fandoms you're in? All I know is YJ and Marvel, and I know in Marvel Pepperony beats everything lol.
Ooh okay... this is a hard question cuz like... there are fandoms I’m ACTIVELY in, fandoms I used to be in and even though I’m not anymore they still hold a special place in my heart, and things I love but I wouldn’t say I’m in the fandom for it.
I’m just gonna do an EXTREMELY COMPREHENSIVE list of everything I’ve ever loved enough to actively engage in or watch obsessively lmao
Active fandoms:
- Marvel (Mainly Irondad, but I also love Pepperony and GOTG)
- Taylor Swift
Fandoms I’ve been in:
- Young Justice (Spitfire and Bluepulse)
- Life Is Strange (Pricefield)
- Justice League Unlimited (Hawkgirl/Green Lantern)
- How to Train Your Dragon (Hiccup & Toothless)
- Rise of the Guardians
- Big Hero 6 (Hiro & Tadashi)
- Disney (I had a massive Disney phase... my favorite is Tangled)
- Voltron (but we don’t talk about this lol)
- Rise of the Brave Tangled Dragons (lol we also don’t talk about this)
- Gravity Falls
- BBC Merlin (Merthur, Mergana)
- BBC Sherlock (completely lost interest after season 3 lol)
- Avatar: The Last Airbender (Kataang)
- Danny Phantom (Danny/Sam)
- Newsies 1992 (Jack/Davey)
- Pilgrimage 2017 (the Tom Holland movie, don’t ask...)
- Detroit Become Human
- Teen Titans (Robin/Starfire)
- Code Lyoko (Ulrich/Yumi)
Things I Love:
- Into the Spiderverse
- The Office
- New Girl
- Bob’s Burgers
- Katie McGrath (actress)
- Arrested Development
- Queer Eye
- Crime Junkies (the podcast)
- My Favorite Murder (also a podcast...)
- And That’s Why We Drink (yet another podcast lol)
- The McElroy Brothers
- Any true crime show (Forensic Files, Unsolved Mysteries, etc)
- Any show about paranormal activity (A Haunting, Paranormal Witness, Ghost Whisperer, etc)
ok. the album about my guys. part two. let’s get into it as always
the black dog- well i skipped this song. redacted reasons you understand i’m protecting my peace
imgonnagetyouback- taylor you literally stole this from olivia rodrigo. olivia get her ass. anyway well that happened to my buddy kit. but not as much as olivia’s song happened to him…. actually this happened to mark blackthorn to be so real. its complicated but actually mark is my final answer here
the albatross- in my beautiful world this is about livvy. like thule livvy. listen she’s a whole thing in my head just trust me
chloe or sam or sophia or marcus- i don’t care for this song. this happened to mark blackthorn as well but i really just don’t care i’m sorry
how did it end?- ty…. when it’s over but you still don’t really understand where it all went wrong and don’t know how to talk about it at all and everybody is tiptoeing around you like a fragile child and you hate it and you can’t make it stop… whatever i’m normal about that guy. who even cares about him
so high school- oh i love it when she gets americana with it… again. riverdalian… you could make a crazy jarchie amv out of this. let’s not get into that! yeah i got nothing on my guys but i liked the song <3
i hate it here- just. real ass shit 😐 me at college
thanK you aIMee- first of all. obsessed actually with the title. hey kim kardashian!! taylor swift genuinely has never let anything go in her life and i respect it massively. no way to make this one about my guys but it was still kind of a slay for people who can’t stop thinking about something bad that happened to them literal years and years ago that they’ve already discussed to death. real!
i look in people’s windows- happened to my buddy ty blackthorn idk
the prophecy- dear god. jesus christ. oh my god this happened to all my girl protagonists i mean this shit is crazy as hell. alina… kara… emma… me when destinies are troublesome things lol
cassandra- it’s literally not my fault taylor keeps writing morgana pendragon bbc merlin coded songs. she’s just a real one idk
peter- i fear the “peter pan reference in song” was already perfected by kelsea ballerini but i respect that taylor wants to throw her hat in the ring despite this not being anywhere near as good as that beautiful 2013 ass song… i digress. this happened to my buddy cordelia carstairs. but like it worked out for her. in the end
the bolter- in my beautiful world this happened to amy march. like if she existed in modern times and could gone girl that man. which would be romantic btw. you understand what i mean. i don’t know what i’m saying. i like the song. she literally fell through the ice. idk
robin- guys i really like taylor swift. :)
the manuscript- crazy stuff. when can we kill all her ex boyfriends. whatever
Mostly reincarnated Merthur coded but also some immortal Merlin feels
And the sign said, "Photos: twenty-five cents each". Black and white, saw a '30s bride. And school lovers laughin' on the porch of their first house. The kinda love that you only find once in a lifetime. The kind you don't put down And that's when I called you and it's so hard to explain But in those photos, I saw us instead
Now this could apply to immortal Merlin dreaming of time lost with Arthur. Or this could be just a sweet moment of one of their reincarnations seeing their romance in the pictures.
That's when I came upon a book covered in cobwebs Story of a romance torn apart by fate Hundreds of years ago, they fell in love, like we did
This is like the original romance of Merthur. They fell in love but things didn’t work out because destiny ruined things for them.
And I'd die for you in the same way if I first saw your face
Despite living in a safer era they still know they’d do anything for each other
In the fifteen hundreds off in a foreign land And I was forced to marry another man You still would've been mine
Arthur had many occasions where he was almost forced into a marriage (Elena, and Mithian) but Arthur never really loved them.
And run away and left it all behind. You still would've been mine
Arthur canonically dreamed of running away with Merlin, leaving all of his kingly duties just to live a simple life with Merlin.
'Cause I believe that we were supposed to find this So, even in a different life, you still would've been mine We would've been timeless
Merthurs meeting was destined. They were always going to come together. They are timeless.
The first time that you saw me The story started when you said, "Hello"
Ok this gets into my au and head canon territory. Because Merthur doesn’t have that cute hello moment (I do love their meeting though), but you know who does Nick and Charlie and that’s my favorite head canon for their reincarnation (I have read every Heartstopper and Merlin crossover fic on AO3)
We're gonna be I'm gonna love you when our hair is turnin' gray We'll have a cardboard box of photos of the life we've made
Maybe this go around they can actually live out a full life together
Yeah no I heard this song and immediately thought of Merthur because I am really hyper fixated on Merthur and Taylor Swift