#need to remember this tag eXISTS

[rosenbergamot]

mister laios dungeon meshi…. as an autistic person, i dont think ive ever related more to a character before.

like laios being so disinterested by the human world around him, unable to understand it and growing bitter towards humans because of how much and how easily they hurt. with monsters theres a Reason for what they do — its all survival, and that makes sense. humans, however, hurt just to hurt. all the suffering that he and falin went through have been because of humans. why would he like them? why would he ever be interested in them? he and falin have Never been afforded being seen as humans.

i feel like, with laios, he likes who he likes, and he doesnt really think about people he doesnt like. sure they exist, and he knows and acknowledges this, but theyre not his. the only humans that really matter to him are the ones that hes grown attached to. hes very compassionate but thats because its in his nature. if he wasnt a kind person at heart, i dont think he’d bother with people at all. that kindness is such a core part of him.

if he were in the modern world i just KNOW that guy wouldnt care about a career or school or even all these supposedly human aspirations that people have-- these long term goals, these big lofty ideals. he would just care about the day to day. working to ensure theres a roof over his head and food on the table. reading about monsters. having dinner with his friends. making sure his loved ones are all doing okay. and i can just imagine people being like "but dont you want... more?" and laios being so confused. why WOULD you ever want more? why would he ever want to give himself to the rat race? be exhausted constantly? work towards a goal that only other people view as worthy? why, when what he has right here is exactly what he wanted!! laios doesnt have these "human" desires and thats a core part of why he feels so alienated from other people. so different. like a monster himself. and as someone who is autistic, let me just say.….. me too buddy.

#dungeon meshi spoilers #dungeon meshi #sorry this was in rhe drafts while reading andi just #as an autistic person i relate really hard to him #this is just how i view and read him btw which doesn’t need to be said but #im saying it anyways HEHE #i just. biting him #hes so compassionate like its in his nature but yet hes so disinterested #and its not out of a lack of caring bc like i said he cares very deeply in his core #its just. anything outside of his immediate bubble barely exists #he literally cant remember kabrus name bc kabru never made that deep impression on him #like what he did impart is very surface level and laios may not comprehend that on rhe surface but yet he still Knows it and Sees it #i want to talk more ab him. forever and ever #dunmeshi #dunmeshi spoilers #laois touden #tagging so more laios fans come to me. i need people to talk ab him with

[bahoreal]

idk what to say about this. i desperately wanted to draw trent in art noveau style. went abit off with his hair and the flowers. happy birthday james lance im so normal about you x

#trent crimm #james lance #NAWT gonna tag the show as normies exist on tumblr and u need to be mentally ill to appreciate how i feel about jimmy lance #there is writing in the book but i dont remember what i wrote. kdbajdbabw #i think it might say 'james lance u absolute madman' #.jmade #im normal about that old man!!!!

[lovelessrage]

A lot of people are completely disinterested in creating a safe space for all aros and aces because that would require letting go of being allowed to publicly shame things like sex and romance. There is a stark difference between repulsion/aversion and negativity, and that line stands where you treat those things as disgusting or as a personal fault/flaw. While I'm romance repulsed, I'm never going to go on my blog and call romance disgusting or gross, because it isn't; it's a feeling, neutral in morality, and a way to live your life if you so choose.

I don't think a lot of people get this or what the difference is. Anybody can be negative and anyone can have harmful ideas, favourable or repulsed. It's about how you treat it, how you express about it, and if you seek to demonise or make those things out to be disgusting, perverse, or deviant.

Even small things or "jokes" add up over time; put yourself in the shoes of someone who has to see those "jokes" made about their lifestyle and what's important to them every day, or even every hour. Would you still feel like they're lighthearted after even one day of reading over and over again?

[Not to say anyone who's done this in the past is a horrible, terrible person. You can change and grow as you take in info; that's just the life experience. But, to grow, you need to actively want to, and that means addressing biases and asking yourself "should I say this? Could this affect my peers?"]

#aromantic #aro #asexual #ace #arospec #acespec #aspec #scowl corner #listen. some of you. not all of you. need to recognise the internet is a community space #your words do not exist in a vacuum. your opinions are shaoed by the biases ideas and opinions around you. #sometimes those opinions or takes are not good and actively harmful to others around no #repulsion? normal to feel. completely normal. not what this post is about. i feel repulsion too. #if i see anyone in the tags calling out repulsed people i'm exploding them. #this post is about people who don't recognise their own internalised negative ideas and refuse to confront them for the comfort of others #begging people to be more considerate. begging people to remember respect is a two-way street.

[caruliaa]

just bc im a lesbian doesnt mean tht i wont at times become deeply entranced with the beauty of male actor or character. it just means i wld rather be locked in a room with a man with a knife than do anything romantic or sexual with one

#NO OFFENCE TO MEN AS PEOPLE THAT EXIST. but also i shldnt have to say tht after saying this yk #also b4 u say ooh ur aro tho why do u need to specifcy u wldnt do anything romantic w a man when i wldnt with a woman either #i am actually pretty romance favorable. like i would be in a romantic relationship with a woman if it wldnt ruin my life #with how it is rn . i think i like and want all the parts tht make up a romantic relationship i just dont experince romantic attraction #but anyway i was here to talk abt my sexuality not my romantic orientation #this post was originally like 'im remembering why there was such a huge overlap with my og major starkid hyperfixation #and me identifing as bisexual' but the thing is is the main main guy from starkid i remember being attracted too #was infact . rob. and thats aged badly bc of it being revealed that hes a fucking creep since then #but also just now not that we should ignore tht but regardless of that i just. dont see it at all #maybe it is that news subconsiously turning me off him but i really dont see that much what i liked abt his appearance #but who rly inspired this post to me is infact . jeff blim ? which is suprising just from the fact tht i dont ever remember #having tht big of a crush on him with that og starkid hyperfixation. but well he is a very beautiful man . giggling a little bit. sorry . #also becoming a bit obsessed with joey richter but thts just standard lesbian obssesion with a weird little man #not attractive to me im just obssesed with him. hi #also posting this now so when i finally watch the fnaf movie i can rb it abt josh hutcherson #anyway. does anyone read these tags do these long rants i go on like. turn ppl off of my posts. sometimes i wonder #flappy rambles

[special-agent-spooky-mulder]

idk if this is irrational but i really hate when people say "you'll understand when you're older." i'm not a child that's too young to understand big concepts. if i haven't experienced it just explain it to me. it just reminds me of how much i hated being a kid because nothing was for me and no one explained anything but they still laughed at me when i got it wrong

#current status #remember when i tagged shit? yeah #autism #adhd #it just makes me feel stupid and wrong and i didn't do anything wrong. i shouldn't be made to feel like that #i already feel alienated just by existing. i don't need that shit

[synthaphone]

small gripe of the day: i hate that it feels like 95% of the time when i watch a video of an animal, someone's put extremely loud music over it. often there's stuff happening IN the video where i wanted to hear it, like a cat visibly meowing... why would i ever see a kitten meowing in a video and not want to hear it?? and nobody wants to get audio Blasted

#'oh just remember to mute your computer/the video before clicking play' yeah but why put the music there in the first place #it Sucks. if the existing audio had people talking over it or whatever or didn't exist; i will gladly take silence #i need a text post tag #(i know sometimes the music is there for a joke but its SO rare its actually funny or adds something to the video for me)

[gootube]

table of incidents - dissecting julie

text transcript + notes below :3

text reads:

A TABLE OF INCIDENTS

"a recurring dream, the surrounding universe a theater scene, on every text page Two secret lovers died in a mutual embrace."

"The phone rang. He's not in at the moment. Can you tell him to call me back? Yes. Sure. Also, please tell him I'm not mad at him anymore."

"the Kafkaesque hero kills his double. It's not a violent death. on stage He approaches his confused pal informed them about killing himself in his dream. That does not work, that's clear. God will not allow it."

"The officers are putting a c offin into a through an open drawer Do you understand? the actor's freedom as it is shown on the

play's script."

"Everything is different. The world itself has no logic whatsoever. un dessin parfait."

end transcript

ok so i started this just drawing julie autopsy then i went insane -- i cut up a viewer's guide and another info booklet i got from a franz kafka inspired art museum/installation i visited in prague that freaked my bean. i thought it was pretty cool and it hurt cutting it up for the first time but then i realized im not really ever gonna re-read it so might as well. im happy with how it turned out and it was really fun having sentences click together in my head like lego bricks and immediately going to cut them out

i also remembered how hellish it is to work with liquid glue- hopefully you can't see it in the pictures but a lot of the papers are so lumpy because of the glue. eventually i remembered how i used to properly use the glue (get a small puddle of it on paper and wipe the backs of paper on it THEN paste it down) and it was really fun

i started this before eating breakfast but then i got carried away and...never ate breakfast and ended up having to eat dinner KALKLADKLKJFA this is bad. dont be like me. this was bad. but i could NOT stop or i would not go back to it

the fucking flower stickers would NOT stick probably because i used oil pastel on his insides. i used prismacolor pencils for the rest of him. ummmm the map behind him is a map of munich i got when i went there on my school trip. i liked getting an art use out of my old keepsakes, because usually theyd just collect dust and never be looked at again lol

tl;dr i had fun hope you like

#idk if this counts as writing bc i just snipped together pieces and sentences from an existing booklet. but ummm #traditional #writing #ocs #julian #art #collage #ask to tag #gore tw #? #let me know if this needs additional content warnings #this was really hard to photograph lol #if i remember to do so ill try and scan it and see if it looks any better?

[bethiewhimsy]

can’t believe i’m experiencing “i cant watch anything because nothing else will be as good as this” over BRYCE a show by brandon rogers.

#sometimes i remember that bastard exists and it’s over for me #that show was literally three episodes long WHY IS IT DESTROYING ME LIKE THIS WTF #brcu #<- can’t believe this tag exists. brandon rogers cinematic universe. im in awe. what a beautiful time to be alive. #anyway im okay i just need to stop thinking about bryce tankthrust

[harlepinyo]

late night karma assclass doodles. because i sure remembered his existance again

#i was gonna draw akito but then i was like #oh shit right this guy exists #the og red haired guy in my compost pile #anyway ill draw him properly tmr or smth #maybe. #karma akabane #assassination classroom #assclass #karma assclass #scrap pile #<- doodle tag now if i remember. #need to see how to differentiate him in my style too good lord #compost bin

[rainbowpufflez]

I’m vry normal about him

#first time posting on tumblr #I need to remember this Account exists #cyrus pokemon #pokemon diamond and pearl #Cyrus pokemon fanart #fanart #digital art #doodles #saturn pokemon #jupiter pokemon #team galactic #my silly little goofy guy #i want to chew on him #rainbowpufflez art tag

[araneitela]

I ran out of coffee beans. /glares into camera

It's officially time for 6 hot chocolates today.

#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. #[ me at my own tag: you mean coffee? ] #[ i can't exist without coffee. i mean i have black tea but it's not the same. ] #[ it's not the same. ] #[ god i'm gonna miss /this/ coffee. because this machine came with this pre-furnished apartment. ] #[ but i'll invest one day. ] #[ mental note: just remember the vanilla ice cream makes even instant coffee incredible sae. ] #[ okay but i refuse to go to the store rn. like i don't need to go. ] #[ but aLSO COFFEE? ugh. ] #[ life is stressing me out a bit-- like coffee please why run out 😭 ]

[cliveguy]

coming to the conclusion i should probably date again because i cannot be 23 years old sworn off men because i had a bad experience 5 years ago but how do you stop being scared...

#um.txt #wrote an essay in the tags but deleted it people dont need to know that about me #there is literally a man rn who is in love with me. i can say the word and start it. #but still. after so long. it still exists in a room in my mind. the vomit at the back of my throat. #and the worst part is i doubt the guy remembers what he did. or even understands what he did wrong #but he killed me. #sorry im drinking anf watching the most unintentionally poignant depiction of an abusive codependent teenage relationship (twilight)

[chirpsythismorning]

Saying gay Mike would be hated by the ga bc that would mean that he used El all those years, is homophobic, just like saying bi-Mike would be hated by the ga bc that would mean he could have just stayed with El if he is also attracted to girls, is biphobic.

Bylers using either of these as the basis for why their interpretation is most likely to play out in canon, just makes me cringe bc why are we even wasting time giving validation to homophobia/biphobia as having the last word for how the show has to play out?? Is that what it all comes down to then? Appeasing bigots??

Gays aren’t evil or trying to intentionally hurt others, least of all gay kids that are figuring out their sexuality. Let’s not act like being gay wasn’t seen as being broken or needing to to be fixed, meaning that going along with what society views as normal, was and still is seen as the only option for queer people in general. And I say queer people in general bc you don’t necessarily have to even be gay to experience questioning your sexuality and feeling like you have to do things because everyone else is. Arguably we all go through that! But especially gays in the 80’s bc for a lot of people back then, it was a matter of blending in to survive (for many it still is).

Bisexuals aren’t evil or trying to intentionally hurt others for falling out of love, losing feelings, or just merely not being attracted to/compatible with someone of the opposite sex. Straight people are capable of recognizing that they aren’t attracted to or compatible with every person they meet of the opposite sex. Does any of that make them less straight? No. So why is it so hard to understand it’s the same way for bisexuals and even queer people in general? Nobody, bisexual or otherwise should have to stay in relationships with someone they no longer have romantic feelings for, just bc they’re attracted to them or even were just confused and thought they were but it ended up not being enough?? Attraction is important, yes, but feelings are arguably even more so (especially when you have something else to compare it to, causing the dilemma in the first place). I mean look at Stancy/Jancy? Is Nancy viewed as problematic for being attracted to Steve and having deep feelings/being attracted to Jonathan, and having conflicting feelings about that? No! And so why should it be problematic for Mike?

The reality is, homophobes are going to hate Mike if he comes out as queer, regardless of whether he is revealed to be gay, bi or unlabeled.

This is why basing Mike’s sexuality on the backlash of bigoted audiences’ is a moot point to me.

I mean, as it is, most of the general audience already hates Mike as a result of his behavior in s3-4, and this is straight Mike we’re talking about! I’m obviously not referring to milkvans or Redditors, bc they only make up a minority of hardcore fans who hate byler and will defend Mike to the point of demonizing El. I’m talking about viewers that have seen the show once through each time a new season releases and then move on afterwards without being in online spaces. That is the majority. The majority of the general audience, homophobic or otherwise, does not like Mike anyways at this point. So, who the hell cares what they think about queer Mike in the end??? They’re already anticipating going into s5 and continuing to dislike him, so the argument that the show can’t do this or that bc those same people won’t like him?… That ship has already sailed.

If anything I could see the non-homophobic majority accepting queer Mike, regardless of what label he ends up identifying with, bc then at least it will finally give them some clarity about where that resentment they had for him was coming from, ie misunderstanding him completely and now finally getting some answers.

At the end of the day, bigots will do what they do best. They’ll make up any reason they can think of for why queer Mike is wrong. And so why should we base our interpretation of things on what will be more palatable to those that the show was never intended for in the first place?

#byler #gay bi mike discourse #just another Thursday in the byler tag #being a ‘remains to be seen’ truther is hard #so many are dead set one way or the other #and I just can’t defend ppl that have to shit on one to defend the other #like I’ll see a bi Mike take and be like I LOVE THIS but then it’ll end with something homophobic and it’s like ok nvm #like I just don’t see a need to tear down gay mike to get back at the problematic gay mike truthers #leave him out of it 😭 #seeing homophobia/biphobia doesn’t mean you get a free pass to inflict that hate casually #two wrongs don’t make a right in this scenario #I’m an I love mike wheeler no matter what he comes out as truther till the end #and I’m willing to entertain evidence that exists out there for both #but it’s hard to support both sides when at times it comes with this cloud of homophobia/biphobia #bc I just can’t subscribe to that #and when/if mike is revealed to be gay/bi/unlabeled #please don’t be hurtful to others that ended up being wrong #like… it’s just so gross out here sometimes #we’re all real people outside of this space let’s try to remember that #let’s make this space one that’s worthwhile for those that want to be apart of this community #otherwise it’ll cease to exist bc no one will want to be here

[milflewis]

schumilton + "Just gonna leave those here 👀"

Sebastian laughs, leaning into him, knocking elbows, warm and tipsy and flushed, when he sees who is ringing Mick. Mick hip checks him away, face growing hot.

Sebastian steps back, hands up, grinning. “I’ll say you a seat,” he says, obviously and obnoxiously delighted with himself. “I owe Daniel a drink anyway.”

The door to the bar opens as he slips in before swinging closed again, the low thrum of chatter and music muffled.

“This is Mick,” Mick says, out of habit, licking his lips. Lewis’s laugh is high and warm and crackling across the line. Mick doesn’t know where he is right now but he knows he’s not in England. The thought aches a little, tucked away behind his ribs. He inhales.

“Hi Mick,” Lewis says and Mick can hear Roscoe bark in the background. Somehow that grounds him, letting him think past the fuzz that is fogging his brain from the cocktails Sebastian pried him with in the hotel bar during dinner.

“Hi.”

He winces. Hi. Christ.

Just talk to him, Esteban had said, a few months ago. What’s the worst that can go wrong?

Lance had laughed so hard he had fallen out of his seat at Mick’s expression.

“I’m calling because I heard the tire test went well?”

“Yes.” Mick clears his throat, once. Twice. “Yeah, it was great. I know —“

He moves down the street as the bar door opens again and people spill out, laughing and loud. He walks down a few paces, resting his head against the cool brick of the building next door, out of the stream of light coming from a streetlamp.

“I know the car isn’t where anyone wants it to be but — well.”

“It’s better than a Haas?”

“So much fucking better, mate. It’s not even funny.”

He flexed his fingers around the edge of his phone as Lewis laughs again in his ear, closer this time as if his phone is pressed right up against his face.

“That’s a plus, I suppose.”

“Yeah,” he sighs, watching cars drive slowly past, headlights on.

“I saw your post,” Lewis says suddenly and it runs through Mick like the shock of the car spinning before snapping back under control in your hands.

“You did.”

Lewis hums. Mick doesn’t know him well enough to know if it that’s a good sound. He hopes it is. He thinks it is.

“Nice pictures,” is all he says. “The one with Seb was — good. You suit our car.”

Mick can tell how deeply he breathes in. It’s the first time he’s heard Lewis acknowledge the car is his, and not just the team’s. He can understand the disconnect even if that isn’t how he drives.

“And your — your hair, man.” Lewis sounds impossibly fond now, heat lining the undertone of his words in that way that he does that drives Mick insane.

“My hair?” Mick reaches his free hand up to run his fingers through it. He’s been growing it out. “What’s wrong with it?”

“Nothing.” Lewis pauses. “It looks good — I hadn’t realised it’s gotten so long. You’re always wearing those damn caps.”

Mick laughs, grinning up at the sky. He rolls his shoulders, loosening them. “You told me I shouldn’t keep cutting it.”

Mick wants to press a thumb into the corner of Lewis’s eye where the smile he knows he has is gathering there.

“I did.”

He wants to buy him a drink and ask him questions about the car, some the same ones from before after he drove in the sim but mean something different now that he’s been in the actual one twice now. He wants to crowd into a booth with Sebastian on one side and Lewis on the other and have them bicker all night as Mick watches, joining in whenever he wants. He wants to give Lewis his coat when they walk back to the hotel because for a man that is often cold, he rarely dresses for the weather.

Lewis is not in England right now.

Mick is good with wanting and not having so he only smiles, slipping his hand into his pocket, and says, quiet, “Seb and Daniel are waiting for me. Thank you for calling.”

There’s a beat of silence before, “Thanks for picking up. Tell Daniel that he’s a dick for ignoring my texts and tell Sebastian that I know why he picked the Senna car and that I’m not falling for it. He’ll know what I mean.”

Mick laughs. “Will do.”

“I’ll be talking to you.” Lewis sounds tired. Where are you, Mick wants to ask. Not with me, he knows.

“Yeah, yeah.” He starts walking back to the bar. “Bye, Lewis.” It takes a moment for his phone to click in his ear, Lewis hanging up.

He grabs the door as a pair of teenagers wander out, sneakers white and pristine, jackets boxy and colourful. They look cool — the kind of style Lewis wears sometimes — cooler than Mick ever was at that age, or now if he’s being honest. They don’t look at him, nodding their thanks, before heading off, debating pizza or noodles.

He waits a second before heading in, holding the door with an elbow as he opens up Instagram, tapping into his profile to delete the post.

The caption was stupid and drunk Sebastian fueled but it did get Lewis to call him so he can’t bring himself to regret it, even if he does have three missed calls from his sister and several texts comprised only of exclamation points and thirty one unreads from the groupchat he has with the Prema guys with the first one reading: MICKOLAS SCHUMACHER U WHORE u did NOT!!!!!!!!!

#first. creds to why mick did the post to rhe and his genius humour #second. i need to find that schumilton gc fic i wrote i just remembered it existed #schumilton #f1 #little fics #kyle tag #niamh.asks

[li-esonthefloor]

come closer

i am a normal fan and can be trusted with jade curtiss and luke fon fabre

#i am ofc missing jade chibi pillow. it is $$ when it pops up #and im missing the matching glasses standee set cause i didnt have $80 to spare when they were available.... #ive been looking at the slightly underwhelming normal figure set but they are a bit pricey for the quality as well #and the terribly ugly little chibi figures. maybe ill get them one day but that day is not today #i THINK this is everything i have #i might have two or three more charms squirreled away somewhere #i am Extremely unorganized so............. it is difficult to say #jadeluke #chatter tag #remember when the roll-on fragrances came out. i seriously almost dropped $150 on those things #and the jl ring.... man i still want it (SO BAD) but it doesnt exist anymore #ALSO I HAVE GOTOU-SAN'S SUMMER JL STANDEE ON THE WAY!!!!!! #i am so very sad i missed their doujin preorders but at least i got the charm #i wonder how much more my collection will grow #actually there are a number of things i still want but [averting eyes monkey] ive said enough i need to stop #anyway so like. yeah. totally normal right. im very cool and not weird about them

[ex0rin]

Wyatt Russell (2021)

#wyatt russell #hey you ever remember a photoshoot exists #and need a fucking minute #just because breathing is important #ANYWAY #that second one is #i need #several minutes #to compose myself #jesusfuckingchrist #he looks so good here #under my breath for the next hour: #rail me rail me rail me #ps this is a pro walker tumblr i will fight #baby needs a better tag #something more thirsty #something WAY more thirsty 🥵